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To me this photo accurately represented "The Kind of Light That Shines". Throughout the entire short story I felt like this chair was the privileged white kids, and the small child was the "black kids". There were only three black kids and anything they did, they were watched like a hawk. It was so easy for people to jump on about them and judge them for the slightest different movement than everyone else, just like their teacher Mrs. Wickham. Mrs. Wickham loved to make joke geared about the blacks and how unintelligent they are. Such as the one on page 20 where she said "where do you go when you injure your knee?" Then all the "suck-ups" would say "where?" And then Mrs.Wickham would say "to Africa because that's where the knee grows". There is no one those kids even had a chance to feel as though they fit in because they were forced to stand out. These kids were forced to be stuck in the chair with no possibility of getting out of it for the sole fact of the color of your skin. The racism was high and at its prime, especially with them being the minority. With the different way of thinking then compared to now also played a huge factor on why the racist jokes and comments, such as how they “smell” different, was huge. These kids also had to face the fact that every black was exactly alike, or at least that's what the white community supposed, because if you are a different you are automatically all the same, confusing right. This story I feel as though helps encompass the fact of racial tensions, and the way we view others, which isn't always the proper way we should be. We all have been in the position metaphorically speaking where we are stuck in a chair and can't escape, but sometimes a little bit of help goes a long way. That's why I feel as though this photo accurately represented the short story and the life we are living perfectly.

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My reaction at the end of the neighborhood, when I was not expecting the family to move out for the reason they did.

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Not the race of the people but the destruction that underlies the problem

Clybourne Park Racism is huge just like the world And in Clybourne Park they give it a whirl With gentrification coming to their town People have nerve to say the blacks will tear it down At first it was a black family moving into a white neighborhood But then it was history that people now consider the "hood" It's not the color of your skin though It the people who decided to overthrow With the trash and the destruction Its not from the conjunction Of the race of the people But the downwards cycle of disrespectful people.

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Karl hates people, so we hate him? Funny how the world works. We are hating him, when we are doing the same thing.

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Clybourne Park at this point in time I'm not a huge fan, it is kind of boring. It is very random with the topics they talk about that they integrate throughout the play. At some points I feel like it's almost pointless what they are talking about, but I do like the way they demonstrate racial tensions of that time. With the questioning of why would you sell your house to a black family, that's not what this neighborhood needs. It was a very different time and I feel as though it is very interesting to see how through a play the author very well portrayed the characters through words. It allowed me to get a different perspective from the first book we read, while also allowing me to get a feel for the way both authors minds were so different in thinking/expressing, but so similar in experience.

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Whelp... this is how the book ended for me. It seemed like nothing could be corrected in Troy's life so he just took the shovel to the face and was dead. Troy took Rose's trust, Corey's opportunities, and eventually took the shovel to the face. (Aka death) Now at first I was going to write about the respect I have for Rose, and how even though Troy might have been completely degrading to the boys she said "he is still your father". That I respected rose for a lot; but I think troys death brought the family closer in a way. They remembered him for the good, even if he was rough he was a well respected man overall. I just think Troy struck out too many times with Cory to rebuild the connection they had together, rather than Cory striking out too many times.

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This was my feeling during the last act of the play. Let me first off say when Troy said he was cheating on rose my reaction was this, but than he continued to say he was not going to stop. That was so uncalled for that I had no other reaction but this one. Then as we continued in the chapter we saw Troy pulling on roses arm hurting her and Corey run out and nail troy one. I was like what is going on here. I feel as though this whole chapter was all over the place with plot twists everywhere that we did not expect, and I just cannot have any other reaction than this one. I have never read anything more absurd all at once than what happened in in this one act. I also think that Rose was right for standing up for herself in this chapter. There is no way I would have sat back as long as Rose did and just ride out the wave, but rose's problem was the wave never ended. She just wanted a small wave and got a whole hurricane.

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Institutional racism

Courts, banks, schools, and laws, Institutional racism happens at it all. People be singled out for who they are, Even it's just the color of their skin. Troy deals with institutional racism, And this does not phase him. With anger he will roar, He doesn't want to ride on the back Of the truck anymore. The white fellows need to do Some heavy lifting some more. Corey is playing football, With predominantly white peeps. A scholarship is offered, But will it be a keep. Barely any blacks in baseball, But only Corey can see. Times are changing, Ever so quickly.

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In the play fences in the first and second scene, to me was more about neglecting a woman’s rights instead of racism. In the first scene Troy was very degrading to Rose. At one point rose walked outside to talk to Troy and informed Rose she didn’t need to be involved “it’s men’s talk”. In today’s society feminism and woman’s rights are a huge political topic. While reading the play all these different topics popped into my head. I feel like the play displays a great kind of woman’s neglect and is brushed off like no big deal. In the play it also shows how they had a huge stereotypes of the way "black Americans" speak. A lot of "broken English" in a way. Even though the text was supposed to portray "that view point" it doesn't help the stereotypes at the beginning of the book. Which I feel is rough, on both ends of the stereotypes.

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I'd heard that this river was the last of an ancient ocean, miles deep, that once had covered the Dakotas and solved all our problems

Love Medicine 

Here we are again in the last chapter with water being a huge symbol in this book. This book has shown many many different symbols but water just flows through the book as a big symbol. In the last chapter it mad me think is water the “silver lining” to the book, is water something that all the characters use to see the positive even if it is a bad situation? I would say so you had people release themselves to water to see the bright, like in the chapter the red convertible. You also had the snow that June walked out into in the beginning, even though we are talking about snow, it is still a form of water. That symbolizes the end, but still the silver lining. Which in this quote  "I'd heard that this river was the last of an ancient ocean, miles deep, that once had covered the Dakotas and solved all our problems," it helped me appreciate the book more. It allowed me to see the silver lining in the book, that I could not really grasp till this last chapter. This quote allowed me to have flashbacks of the rest of the chapters and see the whole book come together, something that I really didn't think was possible. This quote said it “solved all our problems” the water solved the problems of life and emotions throughout the book.

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I think the quote "He would rise and walk. She sat firm in her chair and did not let go of the ax." Was a great way to end the chapter "resurrection". Which when talking about this quote I want to talk about standing by itself not as a whole chapter. The quote first of all gave me a sense of "what will happen next", it sent chills down my spine. It reminded me of the movie the call where the girl was shoved in the trunk but still had her phone, so you weren't really sure of what was going to happen. It left you with questions like "is she going to die", or "will there be a fight instinct". With that being said the first part of the quote " He would rise and walk" gave me a sense of symbolism, kind of like a higher being rather than humans, almost like a god when he arose from "death". My comparison other then a higher being was a ghost, or ghost like figure. When I imagined this scene I imagined a trailer of a movie where they show you good parts but as soon as the very intense part happens and the music is at maximum capacity the flip the scene to a black screen; Cutting it off just a little short, just like the chapter ending with this quote, leaving you wanting more. The language of this quote to me was very intense, which portrayed over when reading, the feeling of a fight or flight instinct. Which I feel as though allowed me to appreciate the text more. Which this is how I felt after the chapter ended.

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"I've never seen anyone drink themselves smart, successful, or happy. Most end up broke, bitter, and alone." In the chapter "Crown of thorns" you say a dramatic outburst of emotion. With alcoholism playing a big role I wanted to grace the surface of the topic. Alcohol is a big influence in people when it come to the loss of a loved one. You see people who change dramatically when something huge happens in their life, negatively affecting them. Just like Gordie did when June died, his world was spun around and ripped to a million pieces, but he let life get the best of him and turned to something that is now having a long lasting effect on himself. You can tell this has been going on for a while though because hallucinations only start happening after a large amount of alcohol is actively being consumed into your system. Which to me was making him hear noises and see what he thought was June, I mean at one point he even thought the deer he hit was June. Now I found this quote on line which states "I've never seen anyone drink themselves smart, successful, or happy. Most end up broke, bitter, and alone." And to me this quote demonstrates what happened to Gordie when June passed. He started to "drink his life away as people would say". When first reading the chapter though I didn't really think alcohol, I actually assumed something more might have been happening like Parkinson's disease because he was showing the signs of it (like the shaky hands), but to say the least alcohol can really damage the way people live. It might be a solution for a split second but people don't really know what they are getting themselves into once they have tunnel vision of that one emotion and nothing else. So they drink to forget, or to ease, but is it worth the long term pain and suffering, or is there an easier solution.

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This was my feeling when reading the next two chapters. I mean there was so much going on and it just kind of felt like someone kicking you into a pool. I mean you have basically had an unwanted love connection happening, that led to bigger things than what was expected. Kind of like this photo there was no consent when pushing mia into the pool but it happened. Which then leads me to the next chapter where he plunges into the river and is never found again water has been a big symbol throughout the book so I felt as though I'd like to share these four photos with water in them. I'd also like to point out this photo was of mia taking a plunge also just like the character in the book, but unlike the character mia made it out of the pool okay. (I mean she is a lifeguard and all)

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Symbol: Water So I feel as though water has symbolized a lot in this book but I would like to focus the water towards the last chapter we read "the red convertible". From reading this chapter I felt as though there was going to be an end of something I wasn't sure what but I just felt as though something was coming to an end. Water in my eyes symbolizes the end; the end of a life the end of memories once cherished every so deeply, or even the end to a red convertible that had a big place in two peoples lives at one point. I mean water was a huge deal and it allowed a lot of things come to an end, whether you use it or not, like not using water to put out a flame to what caused a house fire, that could have been a forgotten love note, or the end of the life when jumping in, in the chapter "the red convertible". A lot of things came to and an end that had to do with water, which made me really want to write about this. In the chapter "the red convertible" page 189 it states " he shouts all of a sudden. Then he runs over to the river and jumps in. Was him jumping in the end to his existence, the end to the memories, or just the end of the chapter? As you continued reading it then proceeds to say " and there is only the water, the sound of it going and running and going and running and running." Which made me think water flowing such as a river, does it really have an end? It all depends on what you think, just like this book. These characters and events could be coming to an end or just starting a new beginning.

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I sat on a rock as hard as my feelings and I stared at the island where Moses Pillager lived

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"The fire is unstoppable. The windows are a furnace. They pop out, raining glass, but I merely close my eyes and am untouched." - Page 141 This chapter all together barely faced me and I feel as though as we move on with this book the more my match burns out to find any interest in it. Like how nectar was untouched by the house burning that he caused. In the book I feel as though you see a lot of repetition with the way the characters act and do things, almost like it naturally predictable. Yes the book has twists and turns but i just feel as though I'm in a stage of boredom with it. With that being said I feel as though this photo represents nectar to his loved ones, and how the flame has completely burnt out. The spark was there but it can't last forever, so I think its time for him along with book to just take a step forward to the next chapter.

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What's your love medicine?

"What's your love medicine?" Page 70 This so far was one of my favorite parts of the book. I felt as though I saw a deep connection when the question "What's your love medicine?" Was asked. While it made the characters in the book think it also made me think, what is the true "love medicine". Which in the book while reading it talked about how directly after that, Rushes Bear was walking slower and in more of a thoughtful way, somewhat like what you do when pondering on a question. Thinking about how you can answer something but then their answer can be completely different from the next. You can say it had me stumped because of how much more that one little line can mean than what is being said. It can be taken so many different ways that I felt as though I should really write about that one little line.