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Axel and Christine sketch from this weekend. I had it in the drafts, haven’t been feeling my sketches lately, but I liked this one! I sketch during multiple re-watches. I like Lazarus, not the top Watanabe show, hard to top Samurai Champloo and Cowboy Bebop. However, it hits the music, vibe, and action I tend to enjoy on these late night, Adult Swim anime I sorely miss sometimes. To me, it's a vibes anime, so for that, I’m thankful. I’m intrigued by the mystery thus far! That keeps me very interested. The characters are a ton of fun to draw too. Also been Mia, job is busy busy! I'll post randomly tho! 🙏

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i depend on you

smth about how goro and sumire reveal the most deepest darkest parts of their hearts to akira. how, ironically enough, the first step lies in akira's hands: to throw aside the ideal world in exchange for the true reality. how they depend on him to make that decision.

sumire is leaning on akira while goro sits back-to-back w him! symbolism of how they depend on akira respectively... how sumire sees him as like a pillar of some sort while goro sees him as the One Person who can rival him and see eye-to-eye w him

also the overlapping parts of sumire-> akira and goro->akira are green-tinted and red-tinted respectively... showing how akira ties goro and sumire together/and how goro/sumire share parallels even though theyre disconnected right now.. Wow...

ofc the glove and ribbon. representative of their darkest secrets (sumire's shame and guilt over her sister; goro over his past present future and how akira is the only one he feels a connection with - although it's meaningless in the end; it's too late for him to form any connection with anybody...)

idk i think theres smth so fun abt how akira holds their fates in his hands. even though, individually, in any other story, it should be goro and sumire to take the first step into reclaiming their own identity and their own path in life. but no it's up to akira to choose where they go. WOW

and how deeply it must hurt him to know these things about his friends ... the weight is astronomical. to know how deep these things cut his friends to the core... to know how much it'll affect them no matter what choice he makes... to know, so clearly, that there is a 'right' decision, but that it'll hurt regardless....

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do you ever feel like…you’re running out of time?

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in a ryomina mood as of late...

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We're all alone tonight

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A whole year since I started posting TTWHB!! Happy anniversary to this fic that consumes so many of my thoughts.

Thoughts and rambles under read more :) (spoiler-free!!!)

It's been a crazy journey so far, hasn't it?

I expected to be much further along the story by now, but since I spend so much of my time also working on Shuake pieces and dealing with real-life stuff, I try not to beat myself up for the slow progress, 90k words in a year is still progress! Also, I draw covers for every chapter, and my beta does an awesome job at editing this whole thing, so it's a little more polished (since I'm not a native English speaker). So yeah, everything adds up, and it takes a while to post new chapters.

Speaking of the covers, it's wild to see how much my style changes between them aha, and god I really hate some of the early ones, whether it's color or anatomy or the brushes I used... When I finish this fic I think I will go back and polish every cover...maybe by then I will make even better covers!

Anyway lets talk about the story for a moment, a lot of things inspired me to write this fic, mainly the idea 'what if there was a mod where you can have Ryoji in SEES and the story changed accordingly?' that's why the fic is structured by days and time of day-as if you are playing the game!

It's not always going to be as in depth about every day of the story-we are actually near the end of it being just one or two days per chapter, and soon things will start speeding up a little more, there was just a lot of Ryoji getting used to SEES that I had to cover.

What else can I say... Oh I suppose I can share something a bit insane, which is the fact for over a year, this whole fic has been planned on an excel, with every timeslot written out.

It looks like this, except it's like, much bigger. Great for keeping track of stuff! Orange squares are all Canon events that I'm finding a way to retell somehow! This took such a long time to create but I love it. Sometimes I still change up things a bit.

I also made this chart that I'm pretty sure has mistakes but it mostly works for what I need ! Feel free to use as a reference if you want :) The red is just a note of characters that switch to first name later.

Anyway, all of this to say, I've never been so passionate about making a story as I've been about this one. Even though I know there's not that many people who care about Ryomina, and even less who enjoy reading fics of them, and 90% of people follow me for Shuake instead- I still really want to see this story until the end, in some ways it's a story I've wanted to tell since I was 13 and playing P3FES for the first time, but it wouldn't exist without Reload and making me fall in love with P3 all over again.

Lastly, thank you to anyone who has ever encouraged me in the comments on AO3, this story is for me, but it's also for all of you, and even if you don't stay with me until the end, I appreciated having you on the ride even if just for a short moment.

Now I should disappear cause I tend to be shy about rambling this much online, but the anniversary had me a bit emotional aha-if anyone has any questions feel free to drop an ask too! Always open to answer to those :) Ty for reading

And here's a little sneak peek/WIP to the next chapter, which shouuuld be out next week!

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oops i forgot abt tumblr anyways go my persona 3 oc

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i have like an idea in my head of ryoji being stuck in a time loop after the p3 bad end. after makoto kills him he finds himself at the beginning of the school year, but he's still the appriser. in every loop SEES fails in some way. either the fall comes, or he dies, etc etc and hes back to the beginning. but i have no idea what to do with this.

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something about someone important to you leaving something behind after they pass

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orig

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eager to catch your smile / aint seen it in a while

so set free the mind! 🌙

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i actually need more sees ryoji so bad

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how to NOT summon a persona when you . are the persona

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hai ryoji