bpdthoughtz

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That was like superrrr gay and out of character 🧍‍♀️ maybe I should start taking the seroquel again

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I don’t wanna keep doing this anymore. The only thing that’s keeping me here is my loved ones and fuck I hate it. I hate having so much love towards them, also not being able to act like they’re my only meaning in this world, being a shitty human being. I hate not being careless enough to go through with it. I wish I didn’t have to think about the screams of whoever will find my body. The screams of my mother at the funeral. I’m not strong enough to carry it out but fucking helllll am I exhausted, all I can say is womp womp womp. I wish it was spring. You guys have permission to bully me for being so gay 👍

[bpdthoughtz]

I should realllyyyy go see my psychiatrist

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Womptidy womp womp womp when is death going to surprise me

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Random funny moment, when this old friendship I had about a year ago gave me flowers for my birthday I tried keeping them even after they died. My mom ended up throwing them away I was so upset because it was my last memory of them. Tell me why she was like “it’s okay they were dead. Like the relationship” LMFAOOOOO LADY

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When shit goes wrong, does your head clock out? Do u also become avoidant and run away? Do you stop talking? Does every bit of energy in your body automatically drain so the only feeling you’re left with is exhaustion to the point where not even getting up to use the bathroom seems possible? It literally aches to be in your body? How bad does your body feel like it’s burning/getting electrocuted from the sudden adrenaline? How scary is it too? Do your meds work? How’s the insomnia? Do you have nightmares?