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Life update!

I finally had my surgery to help minimize the pain associated with my now multilevel degenerative disc disease. The surgery targeted the nerve pain in my lower back associated with the L5-S1 region and modic end plate changes. I cant tell you what that really means but i can tell you that it hurts like an absolute bitch and a half.

I had something called the intracept procedure on may 28th and while im pretty sore and swollen from the incisions, i can tell that the inflammation around that nerve in my back is already so much better and i’m already in much less pain than i was before the surgery other than feeling like i was stabbed in the back with a knife lmao 🤣

They told me it should only take a few days to two weeks max to feel better and that the swelling and inflammation will go down and ill have much more relief soon! Thank FUCKING god.

Ive been struggling to figure out this chronic pain since 2018 and it finally finally finally is being addressed and taken care of after YEARS of begging, crying, forcing doctors to take me seriously and give me an xray until they finally saw that it was a real fucking problem. I have scolisis and degenerative disc disease in my neck and lower back.

My hypermobility eds is also officially being genetically addressed which is cool- ive had so many issues my primary is like “why dont we send you to genetic testing” ofc genetic testing literally sent back a letter that said “we dont have a genetic test for heds so just go off of the diagnostic material” which we already did and he just wrote hypermobility spectrum disorder despite eds likely running in my family as my sister, and aunts all have joint issues and hypermobility- hell my younger sister had to have a hip replacement as a teenager! That shit aint normal!!! But its close enough and hes treating it as EDS anyways and im going to a orthopedic specialist and a rhumetologist soon so Anyways the heds is finally being properly addressed by my doctors and i think im finally finally getting the treatment that i need to be okay long term and have more function and stability in my life! Im going to find a PT therapist that can help me strengthen these joints bc its my goal to be able to hike again.

I got a wheelchair from my nurse that comes to check up on me every few weeks from home and makes sure i have everything i need. She realized how limited i am in my mobility especially outside the house so she prescribed a wheelchair and shes actually going to see if she can get something motorized for me covered by insurance but we’ll see!!! Ive finally been leaving the house more and doing more and im actually really happy rn. But maybe after this surgery i wont even need to think about using my wheelchair as much except when my eds is being annoying- but with more pt my joints should be stronger and maybe just maybe i can graduate back to just using a cane again

My partner and i are so happy with our lovely family and im finally getting the care ive needed and my adoptive parents are back in my life and i sorted through so much trauma and realized a lot of stuff was actually my fault- not because i was a bad person, but because i was a kid who took everything very literally and very personally and there was a lot of misunderstandings.

But my adoptive parents apologized to me??? For everything??? So im chilling and im actually going to a family reunion with all of them soon! Im super excited to see everyone and my grandma and i have been bonding over sciatica treatments lol

Im trying to get her to try CBD salve- its amazing.

Anyways after finally having a few years of proper medical treatment and being treated properly by my partner and reconnecting with my REAL family, i feel so much more whole… i have less alters - like- way fucking less, and theyre wayyy less obvious. Its so much easier to just pretend my did isnt there until it starts causing problems and then just do some communication skills and coping skills and everything works out fine???

Is… is this what functional multiplicity is???? Holy shit lmao

Anyways thank everyone on here who has donated to me when i didnt have insurance or food, who sent me kindness, read me cards, made me spells and sent energy, thank you so so so much. My life has done a complete 180 from a few years ago where i was trapped in a dv situation and was constantly forced to lie for my boyfriend to make sure people liked him and i was hiding his abuse properly. He used to make me promise that i wouldnt tell anyone the things he would say and do because he didnt want people to think he was abusive because “they just wouldnt understand…” but no i understand its not okay to treat me like that and my partner now is my best friend and treats me with the upmost respect. Now im stable. I have insurance. I havent been to the psych ward in years. I havent even had a therapist in a few months and ive been pretty okay managing things on my own.

I am running a business??? Im selling art. Im in magazines and galleries and online publications. Im a REAL ARTIST now.

So yeah

My life is pretty frickin great rn

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Details of my latest tattoo idea. I had a lot of fun inking the sunflowers 🌻☺🌻

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my lipstick matches my moonstone ring 💅🖤🥰 They/Them

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cursing your abusers is self care.

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Please, stop forgetting we are of nature.

We are not above it.

We are part of it.

Embrace it, or let it consume you.

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you don't like me? good.

I wasn't looking for a strangers approval.

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Still applies

yall be saying youre on some punk shit saying youre anarchists but you got amazon prime, hulu, disney plus, apple music, spotify premium, and an iphone 11 pro?

Smh y'all wild

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Things To Do/Am I Forgetting Something?

Anxiety Visual

Mixed Media, Rendr Sketchbook: Watercolors, Acrylic paints.

Follow my art insta, Destindraws!

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Ah yes i forgot before im allowed to post on the internet™️ i must submit all my formal diagnosis paperwork and proof of all my mental and physical disabilities. It’s required to be able to post anywhere 🤩

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Eep im so proud of this one

30x40 in acrylic on canvas

La Jolla Cove, San Diego, CA

DM me on insta if youre interested in purchasing this original painting

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God’s Vacation Spot - Destin Cramer -

Acrylic on 24x36 in stretched canvas for sale by Artist. Currently on Exhibition at Scripps Miramar Library in San Diego, CA

Prints are available to order! 8x11s are 40$. DM me on instagram for details.

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wax seal stamp pngs ♡

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I'd like to remember Pope Francis as the Pope who called a ton of priests faggots, apologized for it, then called them all faggots again

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Ernest-Louis Lessieux - Soleil couchant sur la mer, 1907

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Broadchurch noir 🕵️‍♀️🕵️‍♂️

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David Rodriguez Tovar. "The Thrill, The Fear, The Hope"