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guyz do u like my car??

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When trans women are mocked and made into jokes in the media, I get very upset, and I am often told “Kay, you can’t go through life getting offended every time someone makes a joke.” And I sputter and object but they don’t hear me. So I want to be clear for once, about why the jokes make me angry.

I learned to hate myself for being transgender before I knew I was transgender. I laughed at the jokes in stand up comedy routines, and prime time sitcoms, and animated comedy shows, and in the movies, and in books, and in games, laughing at trans women for existing, about “men in dresses”, about people who “got their dicks chopped off”, and I learned to think that was worthy of ridicule.

And then a day came when I felt a pang of envy at what my female classmates were wearing and I repressed it, and felt guilty, and a day where I felt incomplete because I had no breasts and I repressed it and I felt disgusting And a day when I realized the only images of romance that made me feel anything showed two women together and I repressed it and I felt like a monster And a day when I realized I felt sick when I looked at myself in the mirror after every shower before work and couldn’t bear to look at my own face, and I hated myself. And then there came a day when I hated myself so much, and I thought I could never understand why, and so I just wanted it all to end. And it was just a miracle that I swerved my car back into my lane in time.

And all of it started with a joke that I heard on TV, and then kept hearing from all the voices from the ether, over and over and over, worming an idea into my mind before I was old enough to realize I was absorbing it, the idea that a man in a dress is funny, and that changing your body parts makes you a freak, and that women who have penises instead of vaginas are liars and hurt men. And they’re still making these jokes. And somewhere out there right now, just like all those years ago, there is a little girl in a t-shirt and cargo shorts with buzzed off hair watching the TV, hearing that joke and absorbing it without knowing it, who will someday have to pry herself apart to tear it out of her head, just like I did.

That is, if she doesn’t kill herself first.

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i have so much respect for quick-witted people who can just improvise a joke on the spot. when i tell a joke i have to do background research and rehearse it like i'm defending a thesis.

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LETS GOOOOOOOO

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YES!!!!!! AUTISM BANDANA IN TOONTOWN LETS GOOOOOOO!!!! AUTISM NATION WE WON!!!!!

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the season 3 spongebob episode pranks a lot and the season 2 transformers episode attack of the autobots are long lost siblings in a way

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Opened up a video of someone playing toontown because it's my blood and sanity and they started it by saying "it's Disney adult playtime!" And it dealt me some psychic damage

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just liked all my friend's art posts in their art tag my work here is done

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He was an antiquarian

She was the interdimensional embodiment of chaos

Can I make it any more obvious?

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Does anybody else feel like their going insane from feeling like they don't make enough original thoughts

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Hello everybody today I will be havimg autism :)))

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I love how pinterest puts all the photos I downloaded into my cameras gallery like I actually took photos of Megatron myself

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Did I ever tell you guys about the time I injured my foot so bad I couldn't walk on it for two days because I sat on it weird

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I hate being tried sometimes because why did I download 150 pictures of Megatron last night -_-

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interesting you've never been bitten before they are usually pretty aggressive from what I've heard and honestly I'm pretty sure we all have a story from a time we picked up a dangerous bug or plant and somehow didn't get hurt, like I've literally picked up slugs and not washed my hands as a kid (WHICH YOU SHOULD NOT DO. DO NOT NOT WASH YOUR HANDS AFTER TOUCHING SLUGS OR SNAILS AND DO NOT EAT THEM EITHER!!!!) all the time and somehow I have not gotten some slugborne illness and died

In my experience of scrolling bug subreddits, bug identification posts usually are one of these

guys what is this thing? it looks like a brown recluse

*picture of a camel spider*

2. hey guys I saw this litte buddy out in my yard and i wanted to know who they are

*picture of them holding a giant waterbug with their bare hands*

3. please tell me this isnt what i think it is

*picture of a fat fuck bedbug*

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YEAH!! I've noticed that too. It's so bizarre to see people asking if these are brown recluses and them actually being brown recluses but apparently it's because brown recluses are just really active during this time (march-octcober) hopefully it's just that and these posts don't mean there is an uptick in brown recluse infestations

In my experience of scrolling bug subreddits, bug identification posts usually are one of these

guys what is this thing? it looks like a brown recluse

*picture of a camel spider*

2. hey guys I saw this litte buddy out in my yard and i wanted to know who they are

*picture of them holding a giant waterbug with their bare hands*

3. please tell me this isnt what i think it is

*picture of a fat fuck bedbug*

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In my experience of scrolling bug subreddits, bug identification posts usually are one of these

guys what is this thing? it looks like a brown recluse

*picture of a camel spider*

2. hey guys I saw this litte buddy out in my yard and i wanted to know who they are

*picture of them holding a giant waterbug with their bare hands*

3. please tell me this isnt what i think it is

*picture of a fat fuck bedbug*