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The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1920–1923

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via m_d_n_f_

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Becoming Frida Kahlo (2023)

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. . . I'm writing to let you know I'm releasing you, I'm amputating you. Be happy and never seek me again. I don't want to hear from you, I don't want you to hear from me. If there is anything I'd enjoy before I die, it'd be not having to see your fucking horrible bastard face wandering around my garden.

That is all, I can now go to be chopped up in peace.

Goodbye from somebody who is crazy and vehemently in love with you.

Your Frida

Frida Kahlo, writing to Diego Rivera while waiting for her leg amputation. Mexico, 1953.

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source

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Frida Kahlo & Tina Modotti (1984)

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A Soft Novermber Night

2020

Zhang Yidan (instagram)

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Detail of a A Young Girl Defending Herself Against Eros (1880) William-Adolphe Bouguereau

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Not easy to state the change you made.

If I'm alive now, then I was dead,

Though, like a stone, unbothered by it,

Staying put according to habit.

You didn't just tow me an inch, no-

Nor leave me to set my small bald eye

Skyward again, without hope, of course,

Of apprehending blueness, or stars.

That wasn't it. I slept, say: a snake

Masked among black rocks as a black rock

In the white hiatus of winter-

Like my neighbors, taking no pleasure

In the million perfectly-chisled

Cheeks alighting each moment to melt

My cheeks of basalt. They turned to tears,

Angels weeping over dull natures,

But didn't convince me. Those tears froze.

Each dead head had a visor of ice.

And I slept on like a bent finger.

The first thing I was was sheer air

And the locked drops rising in dew

Limpid as spirits. Many stones lay

Dense and expressionless round about.

I didn't know what to make of it.

I shone, mice-scaled, and unfolded

To pour myself out like a fluid

Among bird feet and the stems of plants.

I wasn't fooled. I knew you at once.

Tree and stone glittered, without shadows.

My finger-length grew lucent as glass.

I started to bud like a March twig:

An arm and a leg, and arm, a leg.

From stone to cloud, so I ascended.

Now I resemble a sort of god

Floating through the air in my soul-shift

Pure as a pane of ice. It's a gift.

‘Love Letter’ by Sylvia Plath; 16 October 1960

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. . . I'm writing to let you know I'm releasing you, I'm amputating you. Be happy and never seek me again. I don't want to hear from you, I don't want you to hear from me. If there is anything I'd enjoy before I die, it'd be not having to see your fucking horrible bastard face wandering around my garden.

That is all, I can now go to be chopped up in peace.

Goodbye from somebody who is crazy and vehemently in love with you.

Your Frida

Frida Kahlo, writing to Diego Rivera while waiting for her leg amputation. Mexico, 1953.

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Sir Frank Dicksee (detail)

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The Early Diary of Anaïs Nin, 1923–1927

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Alois Kalvoda (Czech, 1875-1934), Flowers in a Window (Nekoř), 1918. Oil on canvas, 55 x 64.5 cm.

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Ny Carlsberg Glyptotek, Denmark

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. . . I'm writing to let you know I'm releasing you, I'm amputating you. Be happy and never seek me again. I don't want to hear from you, I don't want you to hear from me. If there is anything I'd enjoy before I die, it'd be not having to see your fucking horrible bastard face wandering around my garden.

That is all, I can now go to be chopped up in peace.

Goodbye from somebody who is crazy and vehemently in love with you.

Your Frida

Frida Kahlo, writing to Diego Rivera while waiting for her leg amputation. Mexico, 1953.