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My precious painter

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My 3 year old started school this week. She’s a 3 year old in a class of thirty 3-6 year olds. I also have a feeling she’s the youngest in the class. On day 1, she came back saying a kid told her to walk away (which is what they’re taught to say when they don’t want another kid’s company). On day 2, 2 kids told her to walk away. On day 3, she said kids ran away from her, which made her sad and mad. And some people broke her plant. She said her teacher got mad at them for breaking her plant. While there were some positives, like she painted a bunch of paintings, and has learned to put on and take off her shoes by herself, it seems like most of the things she recalls are the way these kids are making her feel.

I hate to be a helicopter parent but man it’s so sad to hear that your kid — the one who’s so eager to go to school, to make new friends, so much so they forget to even say bye2 to you — is being treated this way. But as a parent, you can’t control how the world treats them. Only how they can react to it.

I was a shy kid, who got lucky somehow to end up being friends with some of the more confident, outgoing kids, and this was the case from grade school to high school. Deep down I most definitely had insecurities, always wanted to be liked, thrived on relationships with my peers. It took me a long time to learn not to give a fuck about these things. To stand up for myself during the times I feared my voice would crack. It’s hard to teach your kid these things when you have your own similar insecurities.

I guess the only way to truly ready my kid for the world is to love her hard as hell, make sure she knows she can always come to me, and fill her up with so much confidence and charisma that the opinions of others take a backseat. Luckily she’s alot more like my husband when it comes to being outgoing.

Here’s an visual update of my super independent, soul and rock music lovin, ad libing, friendly little twin of mine.

Also, im 7 weeks pregnant! And here’s my most recent painting.

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Also, i’m probably pregnant. Joel’s in denial. Sofs been taking about something in my belly the last few weeks. And my mum keeps asking if I am. So I took a cheap test. Im 1 week late, feeling particularly fat. God i hope these opportunities work out.

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Today I finished my painting, which is what I had set out to do, so woo hoo!

Today I also got a call back from one of the jobs I applied for. I’m getting paid a hefty per image price, to photograph downtown chicago. City, streets, architecture. With the potential of handling social media full time for this premier real estate company. I will be photographing downtown chicago penthouses and shit, on my own time. Bruh.

I could not have thought of a better job. Are you kidding me?! Even when I applied, I had no idea this was the components of the job. Anyway im super psyched. Because itll allow me to do photography. And still have time to paint. And still take my kid out for walks. Pinch me.

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Started doing This is Artify with Llellwyn Skye’s floral abstract course and man it fet so good to be painting something that comes naturally again. This is exactly what I needed.

For the last week or so, i’ve been really into abstract art thanks to This Is Artify. At first I went with the course taught by Joy Kinna, but after starting to paint, I realize this isnt the style that comes naturally to me as an artist. Her style was minimal, and at the furthest corner of abstraction. Whereas I love drawing details, practicing realism, even though I wanted to create something that still has that loosenwaa. So Skye’s was the happy middle. When its right, it just feels so damn right.

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SPIRITED AWAY 千と千尋の神隠し 2001 | dir. Hayao Miyazaki

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Today

Self care ~ was a walk to walgreens in a fancy coat and neon socks with a mismatched sof, but not having a care in the world. Also a hot, uninterrupted shower.

Something that stood out today ~ was a lady stopping just to watch sof jump in puddles.

Something to be proud of ~ Joel tried and liked the summer rolls, this dude like the tofu. 🤯 sof spent some time on the trampoline.

Today I also tried to start a new store for art and poster prints and got carried away choosing items for dropshipping. Must maintain focus. At least i got to do some lettering too.

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love what loves you

but never hate what

hates you. for hate

is the burden to

exhaust the stars

in you.

@rmdrk

Snow is lookin mighty dirty, but I think I like it better that way.

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We got into an argument this morning, it wasnt really an argument, more like a heated conversation. But we worked it out over text later on. If there’s anything I love about this relationship, is that i’m grateful we know how to communicate, debate, and argue from a place of love and understanding.

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I took the picture purely because I loved the light. Subject was not cooperating for her nap time.

Also, this is how she fell asleep.

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I keep thinking, fantasizing

About you-

Being back beside you,

Sitting in the passenger seat

Admiring the view of snow capped mountains,

But overall enjoying the view of you.

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Rice, sugar, and everything nice.

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My husband is depressed and im not sure what to say. I dont want to be preachy but I dont want to be useless either. How do you help someone who is depressed? Answers are gladly welcomed, especially if you are prone to depression. I think his is more circumstancial, because there are alot of outside pressures. But its still so sad to hear someone so brilliant and vibrant just shut down.

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Happy 3rd birthday my darling wildling.

In other news

USCIS interview went well, alot less intimidating than I expected.

Sof is reading sight words, its “sit” today and im still super psyched about it.

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Tips for morning mindfulness

When you wake up, be mindful of how beautiful the weather is outside of your window. Try and admire it regardless of the season - there’s a different beauty in them all.

When you step of out of bed, be aware of how good it actually feels to stretch your body again. Take in a deep breath and feel the air fill your lungs - notice how energising it really is. Repeat as many times as you like.

When you’re washing your face or taking a shower, focus on how calming the water feels against your skin. Notice how clean your skin now feels after cleansing it. Rub your favourite moisturiser or oil into your skin notice how silky smooth your skin is becoming.

Allow yourself to enjoy making your breakfast. Notice how enjoyable it is to put your ingredients together, no matter how many or few you use - creating any meal is an art. Appreciate how it looks and appreciate how it smells. As you take each bite, pay attention to the flavours and textures.

Before you leave the house, have a personal conversation with yourself. Think of at least three things you are grateful for this morning. Allow yourself to feel a warmth inside of you as you focus on each thing you are grateful for.

— Growth Getters (IG)

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Healing on all levels.

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Also tried some Yin Yoga as a form of selfcare today, thanks to the Down Dog app.

Speaking of, there’s only so few apps who genuinely prioritize spreading free/low cost universal education/growth, and the Down Dog franchise of apps is 100% one of them, and done so damn well. Duolingo and Khan Academy also included.