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i feel calm in her presence

i find joy in her smile

oh the warmth

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Idk what I would do in this world without cats 🐈

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alas, my judgment day has come

I'll try to accept whatever decision she's making and cheer for nothing but the best for her

she's the kind of person that makes you think children should still come to this world, the kind of person that deserves all of her favorite flowers when she's alive and well

I love you bibs, I love you the most

🫱🏼🫲🏻🤝🤏🏻👌🏻

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god i miss her

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Had a nice dream last night

I was in my highschool playing football like I used to back in the days

Scored multiple times, played really well, and yeah just fun times

She was there, accompanied me as she sat on the bench cheering for me

Funny thing was my mom suddenly came to school for god knows what

I asked my partner to go stroll around the school with mom to kill some time

After a while I'm finally done with football and rejoiced with them

"How was it?" I asked mom, in regards to how the stroll went

But what she answered was

"Naomi orangnya baik banget ya dek"

It brought the biggest smile on my face and proudly I replied

"She is a really nice person, like you are"

Oh god

Please let it be her

I beg you

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cant fucking sleep

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please god

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To My Lovely, Fierce Lioness, My Bibibs

I can't even begin to describe her as a person

A person thats full of warmth, has a soothing voice, a fighter by heart, a loving person

Many times during the relationship I was saved by her honesty, though she might have not realized that

The sound of her giggles draw a smile on my face, the sight of her sleeping brings out my most gentle gaze

She somehow really reminds me of cats, and that's a really big compliment

I really love her

The beginning of the relationship was rather funny

We knew exactly that it would be really hard to end up together, yet she gave me a push

She gave me the bravery I needed, and rewarded me with her presence

I initially thought that this person is a really nice person to talk to because she keeps things simple and parsimonious, the kind of quality that I lack of

We are really different in so many contexts, yet the very much same in so many others

I began to know her more and more

I found out that she's more than just a nice person to talk to

She experienced things that I couldn't even begin to imagine

Being a first-born daughter that needs to take care of her mom and her little brother

She's a fighter

She keeps things in boxes so that whenever shit goes south in a box, it doesn't get mixed up with the other

Sometimes it feels like she's not opening up to me, but I do understand her stance on that

She has started being more open to me now though, and I really wish that I could be some of a help for her

As relationships usually go, we do of course have fights every now and then

It usually started because I didn't keep my composure though, and I feel really bad for that

We usually ended up discussing about things that could be improved for the sake of the relationship in a calm, proper discussion

We found solutions and came to an agreement, which later would be implemented and it showed results

But this time, I did something that I think she wouldn't tolerate

It really is killing me, the fact that these days might be my last days with her

I won't try to justify the things that I did, as I think that it would be a great disrespect to her

But I can't really swallow the fact that I made her feel worthless

I do know that deep down she knows exactly how much she means to me

Which makes things more dilemmatic: if she means a lot to me then why did I do that

She's having a hard time making any decision at the moment

I can't bring myself to do anything but to pray for her happiness

But you know, if the clock's ticking out, I want you to understand that I will cherish you and all of our memories as my biggest happiness

I truly love you, in a way you could never imagine

I mean it when I say that you're my ideal woman

I really wish that we would continue the relationship

But bibs, even if we were to part ways,

do know that you will always have me standing by your side

I will always love you

You are the most remarkable person I have ever encountered

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one of the grocery store cats finally let me pet it 🥹