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so there i am, depression all over my titties 

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Did I spend 2 hours crying during school because I found out that I might not be able to do a course that literally is what I need for my future job that I've wanted to do since i was 7. Yes.

Did I then go home and cry even more in the shower. Yes

Did I then have to go back out to school for this parents evening thing to get even more bad news about my future. Yes

Did I cry even more when I got home. Fuck yes.

Did I binge. Yes

So. It's been a brilliant day today. Can't wait for tomorrow.

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Planning on having 3 meals today and I should still be under my limit. Hopefully

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Other ppl with an ed: my 500 calories consisted of veggies and fruits and some broth!

Me, an intellectual: my 500 calories consisted of a plate of chicken nuggets and a snickers

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I just want to thank the maths test that I did yesterday for over exaggerating the amount of calories one of my favourite safe foods (don't ask why this was in a maths test) is and now Its one of my fear foods.

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it’s gotten to the point of “i don’t want help, i just want to be thin.”

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I've been listening to this song so much today. I'm in love.

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Is it bad that I just thought that I want to be so deep into this fucking disorder that my period stops so that I can go swimming every week so that I feel like I'm not wasting my dad's money by not going...

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Me: *eats a single normally portioned meal*

My brain: wow you were faking this whole time werent you thats so fucked up who does that

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Why is anorexia called "Ana"? That bitch deserves a name like robert

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that ed life

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I seriously need to decide if I'm trying to get better or worse. It's getting annoying now.

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I made a meme

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you are allowed to love food ♡