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they say you cant want something you've never had - but then why do i ache to be close?

to be seen.

to be heard.

to feel safe to finally rest.

to finally let go of a part of me that feels so misunderstood, so underestimated – as if there is something wrong with me.

its not only about love or desire. its about finally being held.

being held emotionally and spiritually.

why are they allowed to want all of that but me?

why are they allowed to feel so deeply and i'm told i'm too much?

is it my overthinking? is it the self-hatred? is it the way i push people away? is it the walls i've built for years to protect myself?

is that what scares them off?

am i what scares them off?

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i left my country 1 months ago and for the first time in my life i feel like i did something just for myself

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im leaving the country this week and im already losing my shit from anxiety

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my exam results are out since a week and i haven’t looked at them yet lol

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tomorrow is my last exam. pray for me

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i think i just failed all my classes help

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i got a kindle yesterday. yall better recommend some books for me cuz im about to read one book per day

enemies to lovers pls - even better when we get the „fuck it“ scene !!!AH

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january and uni are the worst enemies

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you ever do stuff and think that would be so much more fun with a boyfriend

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i wanna join a book club where we read the same weird books and yap about it

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everytime im over them

i get a message, after months of no texting, wishing me a good day

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the invisible red string theory

L'incofutabilita'

di certe cose.

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when i wake up and feel the knot in my chest has losen up and i can finally breath but then all of the sudden the lamp starts to look a bit weird

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did i do something wrong?

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tell me im crazy but i feel like there is something happening and will very soon hit me

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when i wake up and feel the knot in my chest has losen up and i can finally breath but then all of the sudden the lamp starts to look a bit weird

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i get so jealous when i read romance books

1. of how pretty the girls are

2. of their billionaire boyfriends