#-regularly you'll be back to your usual/expected (self imposed) level. and yeah it suck that your stuck in the beginner&slow learning class- | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

kail-lizuc · 12 hours ago

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kinda wack how you can understand the process behind your thoughts and feelings and still be affected by them. i think that if you can psychoanalyze yourself well enough in the moment you should get a free pass from feeling the thing altogether. or alternatively you should be able to shut off the logical side of your brain and just feel the thing for a moment. i dont wanna be emotional AND aware it should be either one or the other yknow

#oddly enough this is the reason i cannot fucking cry but thats whatever. eventually something will overwhelm me quickly enough ig #mind you the results of my math placement test werent it #it's wack to be feeling all the emotions from getting an (extremelly low) grade while also having a voice running on parallel just like:#“it's actually to be expected that the score was so low since you havent put this knowledge to use in year. it doesnt matter that you used-#-to be top of the class because the brain is like a muscle. you gotta exercise it regularly to keep it in shape. now that u get to do math-#-regularly you'll be back to your usual/expected (self imposed) level. and yeah it suck that your stuck in the beginner&slow learning class-#-but this is actually good because you'll have more time to practice the material and youll be less stress-----“#like omg brain shut up!!!! letme feel the fucking emotions for once!!!#i just wanna fucking cry about it i need catharsis damn it not a calming voice in my head rationalizing and logicking everything #anyway that score was demoralizing for all of three seconds while that monologue was happening in my mind now i'm just frustrated lmao #vent

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