#... and there ARE some bangers in here im ngl

[patter-systems-inc]

Listening to your alter's favorite band,,,

[lanarchive]

top 5 fave arsenal moments it can be anything <3

again these are all so recent because of my memory and all but i’ll say the 2014 fa cup final against hull, spurs away last year, bournemouth away last year, man utd this year, and literally all of pre-march last season

[appletartle]

new ship dynamic!!!!

nuclear shit bf x painful shit bf <333333

[mbat]

it is once again past the time i should be asleep and yet im here being emotional and thinking about stuff. trauma, as usual

i kinda realized something that i maybe shouldve realized ages ago but i dont think i wanted to.

for the first while when i would encounter my trigger, i would freeze up. i mean fully frozen in place, unable to move, stuck in my own body. several minutes until i managed to break out of it, and even then id still move slowly.

but the more and more id see my trigger, the less id freeze. it slowly turned into other responses, mainly just this deep numbness taking over me, but id also have times where i couldnt stop crying

and now its more of just a flinch than anything else.

i thought maybe i just 'got used to it'... but the truth is, my responses were my body&mind perceiving danger in something that wasnt dangerous, and over time, i guess those parts of me began to realize that its not a danger, so why am i responding as if it is?

but the conscious part of me, i wasnt really catching up. it was still a danger to me, because i told myself it was. it hurt me once, so surely it would never stop hurting me, even though it was the people, and not that thing. that thing is well... just a thing. its like if i got stabbed by someone and i blamed the knife, rather than the person.

i still need to catch up. theres a part of me that never wants to stop being angry, because it hurt so bad, and it feels like there needs to be some sort of resolution that i cant even identify. like i need vengeance, but like... what does that even mean here?

the people that hurt me... we were all just dumbass kids. they apologized and genuinely changed for the better and moved on. but i was still stuck there. theres some things that happened that i still dont think a simple sorry exactly helps, but its not like im gonna hunt these people down and force them to say more just to soothe me. maybe theres nothing they could say that would.

easier said than done but... i need to move on, yknow? the thought makes me dizzy, ive spent nearly 8 years thinking about this stuff constantly. almost a decade haunted by it. but i have a life i need to live, and i dont want to live it haunted by ghosts of people i havent known for years.

ive gone through a lot since it all happened, both in ways unrelated and related. ive realized things about the nature of trauma and my trigger itself, ive answered my own questions through self reflection, questions that i was scared of the true answer of.

ive also worked so hard to move on already. i dont think ill ever stop bringing it up anytime soon, but i mean, come on! i got back in school! thats still so good.

my trauma situation was part of the reason i dropped out in the first place. and here i am, mending that now.

ive even purposefully stayed in spaces with my trigger because i thought that the space itself was more worth it than continuing to run away. ive cried about it for sure, and yet i was unharmed.

and i keep thinking about a few things. mainly, i go back to what was said on, of all things, cbs ghosts, about forgiveness.

about the fact that dwelling on these things that happened doesnt hurt the people who hurt you, it only hurts yourself. forgiveness is letting it go for your own sake, not for theirs. again, so much easier said than done. i hesitate horribly to attach myself to the phrase of 'i forgive them', because that sounds so different from what i mean. i guess more than anything, that phrase is meant to mean 'i think its time i move on'

and i think its time i stop treating any part of this situation like monsters. the people, my trigger, or my trauma response itself. its so easy to treat these things like villains, but real life isnt like that.

and maybe its a little silly, but i keep thinking about my own words from a few days back, when i was talking about this before. about being burned and then treating plastic tealights as if theyre going to burn me the same way. everytime i think about this now i just think... its a plastic tealight. i cant keep flinching about plastic tealights. and honestly? i cant treat every flame like itll set me on fire, either.

sadly not everything can be done alone, i still wish i could talk about this stuff to a therapist, but i think i still need to do some more work before i can say the words i need to out loud. its a process, after all.

i feel like a lot changed last year, mainly in a way that was seemingly unrelated, but honestly all my issues and emotions are related somehow by now.

my epiphany last year about school, but moreso about the fact that my life wasnt over. about the fact that even when it wasnt an active thought, a part of me still believed that somehow i was royally fucked and would probably be dead in a few years. but then i listened to next semester and realized i could keep going, school was not only a fresh start of sorts, but proof i could keep going and that i still had a life to live!

my trauma was a big part of why i felt my life was over. i felt like i had a demon digging its claws into my back that everyone could somehow sense, like it was something i needed to explain and couldnt forget about, it was my burden. it seeped into everything i did, every part of me.

in a way, realizing my life wasnt over was like tearing its claws out of me, and bandaging the wounds. i dont know that i can say those wounds have yet healed, but theyre progressing.

and its a lot easier to think when you dont have claws hooked in your skin.

[cressidagrey]

Heyyy

I couldn't find if you said anywhere what pronouns you use, so I hope it's okay that I use she/her.

To the fic: you put me in a reading slump, in a good way in a i-want-to-read-this-fic-in-another-font-way and I haven't found a way yet to find other stuff like yours. Honestly I didn't even read driver/OC before you 😭 what are you putting in your fics?

Girl I never should have found out how often you post because now I'm always on the lookout for a new update as if I'm not able to wait 6 months for other fics. Definitely not meant as pressure (and I know about the weekend break, have fun on your vacation) just in a way that I'm very impressed by you putting out there 8-12k chapter almost daily, while being a full time student (same here 🫠, not law but i have one law class and the amount of work i have to do to be good in it-unreal) and to have to edit it all, maybe even by yourself as I didn't saw a beta mentioned, but even then big extra Kudos to your and your maybe beta.

Have not read the latest chapter 13 yet because I want to read it on my commute, but I can say I love everything. The drivers finding out one after the other and always deciding not my circus not my problem, im outta here, gotta go bye, is way too funny.

Also not to brag but I clocked Max immediately when he called her Belle, I saw what you did there. And ngl I kinda want every chapter to be the one where the Leclercs find out I also always want it not to be so the fic never ends 🤣. By the way my first fic by you were Such a mystery, also a banger.

And here I'm saying sorry to any person reading this wall of text on mobile and leave with a few questions if you are comfortable answering them:

1. Favorite flower?

2. Ever attended a GP?

3. Any siblings? Younger sister here, and if yes I hope you don't write from experience 💀.

Heyyy!! First of all — you’re so sweet for even thinking to ask about pronouns 🥹💛 She/her is perfect, and thank you for being so thoughtful about it!!

Second — I’m literally grinning like an idiot reading this entire message 😂 The "reading slump in a good way" and "i-want-to-read-this-in-another-font-way" is such a high compliment I don’t even know what to do with myself. Thank you for all the love and support — it truly means the world to me. 🫶🏻

And you're right — I don't have a "beta" (unless you count my endless rereads where I catch the mistakes at 1AM lol), but I do have people I bounce ideas of like @llirawolf, who gets to listen to me ramble on at like 2 in the morning.

Sending extra solidarity your way with the full-time student life (and law classes omg — even one is way too much sometimes 🫠).

Also major props for clocking Max immediately when he called her Belle — you have reader superpowers and I love that for you 🤭 Now for your questions!!

Favorite flower? Poppies! They’re soft and gorgeous and so RED and just pure joy to me.

Ever attended a GP? Nope — I’m a hardcore "watching from bed with six pillows and three blankets" kind of fan 😂

Any siblings? Biologically, I’m an only child! My parents fostered my older cousin until I was about 10 though, so I do have some real-life sibling dynamic experience... though, not gonna lie, that whole situation didn’t end particularly well 💀 so some angst might have found its way into my writing lol.

Thank you again for this amazing message — seriously. I’m sending you the biggest hug and wishing you all the strength for your coursework too!! (And I’ll keep trying to find ways to stretch White Horse out just a little longer so we can all live in this world together a bit more 🤭🫶🏻)

[mjshortformcjesus]

ok so at the time of my writing this ive listened to high noon over camelot seven times today and heres some little things i love about it (not in any real order but its kinda chronological)

the way jonny says brian when he’s introducing the hanged man. like damnn girl we know what you think about the insubordinate piece of brass but you wanna try being a little nicer?

“the hermit” ohhhhhhh its sooooo mmmmmmm. the instruments when galahad sacrifices himself >>>>> (fun fact: i was blasting that part while my dad was telling me about his childhood which was really silly)

the pendragons. woaw. theyre so

the. the chair. its a chair.

honestly just the world building in general??? its a giant space station heading towards the sun with extreme amounts of radiation and the rust turns into sand dunes and i think thats beautiful

hellfire. what more do i say. galahad ily

british people talking cowboyly. its funny to me

honestly. all of the songs are peak. lyrics, instruments, singing, they really cooked with this one (haha. cooked. on fort galfridian *i am forcibly removed from the place where you are allowed to make jokes*)

mmmmmmm tarot titles. im a sucker for everything tarot. (the way that all the tarot titles are monologue EXCEPT JUSTICE??? owaghhhh) ngl i could make a whole second post about the symbolism of the tarot but now is not the time

“for nothing went to waste amongst the saxons” oh hell yes. big fan of this personally (also. the magnus archives reference?)

listen. i love mordred sm. but why did he name himself MORDRED.

the ending

where. where did arthur go. what happened to him.

“BUT MORDREDS HEART WAS ICE. THE SOUND OF DEATH STILL RANG IN HIS EARS AND AS THE LAST HIGH NOON SOUNDED OUTSIDE MORDRED RODE HIS ROTTEN WORLD INTO THE SUN”

gosh. the end of once and future king. banger. i am in tears

just started my eighth listen and i would just like to apologize for how long this is

[stickyspeckledlight]

HAPPY ONE-YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO THIS BLOG (and oooo follower appreciation event too and giveaway/raffle; below in the read me bc I'm gonna force y'all to deal with my sappy sappy words first <3)

(don't bully me my art is shit)

Like. Wow. I can't believe this blog is ALREADY ONE YEAR OLD (well, 1 year and one day old, tho technically it's even older since it's just a reblog ACC converted into my writing blog---but I'VE ONLY BEEN WRITING FOR IT FOR A YEAR AND ONE DAY, SO THERE), and how many ppl have gathered here

But seriously, I can't believe how many people actually enjoy my fun lil drabbles (wdym 30k is a drabble---) like fr ppl tysm for enjoying the shit i cook like *blushes* I'm so happy we can all be fucked up freaks together UwU. others may look at us an think we're pineapple pizza, but they're ignorant. in reality they are the pineapple pizza. and yes anon who keeps sending me pineapple pizzas to my house (fabricated) i will come for you, I'm just very busy baking pineapple pizzas to stuff you with when your time comes. the grim reaper thinks it's a bit excessive, but i don't, so that means i am a perfectly reasonable and sane person.

I'd been wanting to write yandere fic for awhile, but never really did anything until last year on the good ol' march 23rd when aventurine made me simp so hard that i finally wrote yan fics. and since then tbh its a bit silly to say but life kinda feels a lot better knowing that I've a community to share these lil drabbles (stop calling them drabbles oml) with, yknow. its the small things <3

seriously, im so awed at how many cool ppl I've met since starting this blog. from the anon who sent me pineapple pizza, the anon who sent me banger comments abt destroyed onset, the anons who give me cardiac arrest, the anon who asked me how my corpse was doing, and literally every single anon who plays along with my bullshit (anon who sent sunday outfit ask I promise I'm getting to answer it but ngl everytime i try to i just end up cuddling into my own blankets thinking about how cozy sunday's outfit is---look if i read abt cozy things then i gravitate towards cozy things ok)---tysm for giving me a giggle! all of your comments and the things you send into my inbox are the absolute highlights of my day.

So, to show my appreciation, instead of working on Destroyed Onset 4 and 5, i will instead be doing.

COMMISSION RAFFLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (3/24/25 - 3/28/25)

it's quite simple. just follow my blog (new followers are welcomed ofc) and reblog this post, preferably with something stupid so i can laugh at it and maybe make a meme out of it. in fact you know what if you do then I'll double draw you into the raffle. see. I've given y'all an incentive now. REBLOG WITH STUPID SHIT IF YOU WANT TO BE ENTERED TWICE INTO THE RAFFLE. IS THIS FAIR? IS THIS JUST? IDK BUT IT SEEMS FUNNY SO IMA DO IT LMAO. what are you going to do, stop me? ha, puny mortal. there is no stopping me now. because I'm having a good time, having a good ti---

once you're entered into the raffle, i'll draw some names and reward the following:

ONE person gets a full-length fic (somewhere between ~2-5k words)

ONE person get a shortfic (so up to ~1-2k words)

TWO people get a drabble (~200 - 500 words)

(but tbh knowing me all of these might end up way longer then i intend them to be---we'll see lmao)

This will run from TODAY, March 24th, to FRIDAY March 28th. One Friday passes, the names will be locked in and I'll DM the winners to discuss commission details.

As for requesting/commission rules, they're on my main page under 'Other Stuff' (alongside the tag guide). But since these are commissions, I'll add that I'm perfectly willing to write OC or Self-Inserts. I will not write non-yan fics though, just because tbh I have a really hard time writing pure fluff; like, it's not that i can't write fluff, but after a bit it's hard to resist the urge to insert something that's at least A LITTLE dark or angsty, lmao. But also just cuz this is a yandere blog, I'd like to keep my writing focused on yandere

Note: Commissions will be private, unless the commissioner gives me permission to post

With that, thank you!

Oh, and for the people who end up getting the above prizes, I might give y'all some participation memes. Just like. Compensary. You don't get fic but you get a lame semi-mass produced speckled meme

[qoldenskies]

Now that 2024 is coming to a close:

1) Of everything you've made this year, which ones are you the most proud of?

2) What are a few of your favorite things (art, comics, fics, etc) that someone else has made this past year?

ngl for the first question, i think itd have to be caged lungs .... i continue to stew in silence about cw doing so much better than it because there's a lot of moments in it that fuck harddd even though its a little undercooked (i released it earlier than i wanted to because i didnt want to obsess over a bunch of little details, and i kind of regret that now! there are two scenes i would have added if i were able to change things now.) im also very proud of coming undone, especially because it was kind of my,, ig breakout in the fandom? it doing reasonably well is the REASON I AM HERE so be kind to my baby. if that hadnt happened, canary continuity wouldnt exist!!!

as for the second. goddd you cannot make me choose because there is SO MUCH so like. fanart? i'll just bring up some fanart that i think about so much.

this piece by vulstare is like my favorite thing ever STILL. id say its made my month but honestly its kind of made my year, i still gush so hard about it and go back to look at it CONSTANTLY. the idea that ive made something deemed good enough to have fanart of THIS QUALITY still makes me walk around in my home grinning like an idiot, so much that i think my family just thinks its my resting face. im never gonna get over it. whaaaat. i think i have seen this in my dreams

AND OH OH THIS ART BY KAYSDENOFCHAOS. IS SO BANGER. i absolutely adore the symbolism and color in it still, its such a well done and creative way to depict the closet scene with the time metaphor especially. i think its even influenced some of the ways that ive written it in cw chapters in particular. fantastic brilliant showstopping etc.

AND OF COURSE THIS COMIC BY VANGH17A OHHHH MY GODDDDDD!! i am SO mad that this only has like 400 notes when it is so utterly fucking fantastic yall should go and reblog it a billion times to make up for this awful horrible error. its so heart wrenching and beautifully done im gonna go fucking crazy

and this art of chapter 12 by cupcakeslushie of COURSEE!!! its super flattering because their work got me into the fandom in the first place so it was a bit magical bghdhghf. and god do i adore the perspective and lighting, its so haunting,,,, im insaneeee asylum /ref

AND THERE IS A TON MORE THAT PROBABLY JUST ISNT COMING TO ME BUT THIS IS WHAT I REMEMBERED ON THE FLY, please for the love of god just scroll through my fanart tag and go support all the lovely people that drew for me because WHAT DID I DO. TO DESERVE THIS. IM LITERALLY GOING CRAZY

also OF COURSE i gotta give a shout out to i want for us this (that we are well), that's the last song you'll ever sing, and i will save you when your lights go out. I HAVE,,, FICS OF MY FIC???? I HAVE LITERALLY CRIED REAL TEARS OVER THIS

i feel pampered as fuck LMAO. you guys do not understand what you do to me

[freeeggbailiffcash]

Appreciation post for my favourite art-ISTS

Im the kind of person to hyperfixate on a fandom for extended amount of time and am stuck between wishing that artist/creator to make more works (songs/films/novels) and wishing I get amnesia so I can fall in love with it all over again lol.

#1 Guy Ritchie

There's a lot of Guy Ritchie works that I adore; from Lock,Shot and Two Barells to Man from UNCLE to the Gentlemen Universe. I love the signature cinematography, the comedic quips and sleek setting of gangster/mob trope.

The female characters he created were iconic; Roz and Susie Glass are my favs😍😍😍 honestly queen icons. I also loved the inclusion of combining Americana flair with posh British drama.

I honestly can't wait for the next season of the Gentlemen series (kinda bummed that we dont get to see more of Mickey and Roz but Eddie and Susie's chemistry and tension are to die for ngl)

#2 Mike Flannagan

I think I've watched all series by Mike Flannagan, (sans Midnight Mass, I've tried three times starting from episode 1 and still gets kinda confused so I dont enjoy it as much as the others)

Haunting of Hill House and Haunting of Bky Manor are both heartwrenching. I love the symbolisms, the damning parallels the devestating ending for some of the characters. Between the two, I loved Hill house more—the horror element was really exquisite.

The plot twist where Nell was the ine haunting himself, the doomed narrative and Poppy Hill subtle manipulations were all beautifully executed. I would love to see more of the victims of Hill House.

The Fall of the House of Usher is another fav of mine!! Generally, I really like the way Mike Flannagan adapts the series he does from famour author's like Shirley and Edgar Allan poe. I love how he combines Poe's works; while I don't extensively follow or read ALL of Poe's works, I do recognize the little details and honestly it's so satisfying seeing it brought to life.

In all the series that he does, (aside from the similar actors bsing re-casted) I kinda like how he ties up the storyline with a neat plot twist and I know several people have mentioned this, but I love that in the horror stories he does, the ultimate device is not gore or indulgant bloodspill or jumpscares. Instead, the plot device, Flannagan uses is the inherent element of love being the binding tool that led people to their doom (Nell's love for her deceased husband, Eleanor's love for her children fueling her paranoia) and human's greed (in midnight mass and Fall of House Usher) that makes the story so grounded.

Another series that I love and am honestly surprised was not directed by him is The Residents because the style and twist were kinda similar to Flannagans.

#3 Lin-Manuel Miranda

Credit video to its owner: theplayerslist

Miranda did a lot of banger for Disney (Encanto, Moana etc) but I absolute love Hamilton and In the Heights. The man's a lyrical genius, enough said.

Hamilton was a game changer honestly, and truthfully he really suited Hamilton's character (sans the cheating part😅😅) because Alexander Hamilton was depicted as this eccentric genius whose tenacity and resilience made him him distinctive and Miranda kinda have those qualities.

In the interviews, how he's kinda this awkward successful theathre kid but the way his mind works is honestly astounding and I kinda hope he does more work outisde of the Disney films (Disney's recent films kinda suck)

#4 Mamat Khalid

One of the best Film makers in Malaysia. I like the Kampung Pisang Universe—the iconic Hussin character and all the kamoung people (will forever miss pak abu and seriously? I wanna live in Kamoung Pisang so bad)

The ambience he brings in his films, the comedic plot and hilarious dialogues as well as amazing execution from them all are literally just chef's kiss.

I like the Perak accent? (Betul kan perak? "Kome ingat teman tahu ke bende ni?") I love all the local elements here and it's honestly so unique and I feel it does bear some semblance of resemblance to P Ramlee's works but distinctive in its own way.

Personally, I kinda detest certain parochial and crude themes that was tossed in it but had to chalk it off as just part of the jokes inserted there.

Hantu Kak Limah and Zombie Kamoung Pisang are honestly my go to comfort shows.

#5 Anuar Darwisy

I feel like Anuar Darwisy is a bit similar with Mike Flannagan in that they both really utilizes the exact momentum to execute their plot twist.

Though in Anuar Dariwsy's case, the horror and supernatural element is inherently scarier and I absolute love all the historical Malay culture within his works.

Amukan Jembalang Tanah—Kedah's lores

Ngauman cindaku—Pahang's lore

The Story Of Maria-an amazing masterpiece combining Western horror takes and the added setting of Covid era was honestly a nice touch. Lagi2 bila dia cerita pasal kat Bangi kan, so sis kat UKM tu dah meremang dah lol

Anuar Darwisy is honestly so underrated and his works are simply spectacular. Reading every paragraph is like having a frame by frame cinematic shot happening inside my brain and honestly couldn't helo but wanting more.

The details, the amount of research he did are always astounding and lowkey excited for his newest novel (AAAHHHH DIA BUAT PASAL DANCER HANTU WEYHHH IM SO FREAKING EXCITED SEBAB MY KAKHRI SOULMATES AU PON ADE PASAL ULEK MAYANG SO I CANT BELIEVE MY FAVOURITE AUTHOR WOULD WRITE A STORY ABOUT THAT)

#6 Linkin Park

I have nothing to say except that Linkin Park is like my coping mechanism anytime I get depressed. I love all their albums especially Meteora and A Thousand Suns.

#7 Eminem

I don't like Eminem just for his Not Afraid song. I think as a whole Eminem is lowkey kinda little shit but that's the energy Im going for in life sebab life's a bitch and sometimes being too nice is kinda taxing.

I think Eminem songs are kinda what got me into liking rap a lot enough that I delved into other rappers like NF, Altimet, Malique, Joe Flizzow and Kmy Kmo.

Eminem and LP are lowkey the songs I turn to whenevr I hit my more depressive moods (which makes my sister argue sebab why the fuck does my sad playlist have Eminem's Killshot and Kamikaze in it🤣🤣🤣)

[escxelle]

thoughts on even in arcadia

i know no one asked but here's my thoughts on the new sleep token album (ik im a couple days late because i've had a migraine for a few days lmao)

i'll put it under the cut so it's not just a massive wall of text <3

individual song thoughts

look to windward

absolutely in love with this track. i love how it sounds like a video game ost (i fw video game osts). as an astrophyscists, loved the the theme of the song of course. the opening line was fire "will you listen just as my form starts to fission? losing this war of attrition just as i drift away?" class. the switch to the heavier stuff? in love, more of that please. the layered vocals? yes come and take a seat please. i would eat this song for starter, main course and desert. 7:46 was weak, i needed it to be longer but because sleep token songs are at least 3 genres long, i was so excited for the rest of the song and whatever was coming next.

song rating: 10/10

emergence

the first single released for the album. i listened to this at work on the same friday it was released. i had to control myself from jumping up and dancing, the people around me in the office did look at me. im not a musical expert so i have no clue how to describe it but those noises in the back ground??? in love with them. this was my favourite single before damocles came out. i also am a massive fan of the last "go ahead and wrap your arms around me, arms around me, arms around me (huh, woo)" tbh the saxophone (i think that's the instrument?) at the end didn't really do anything for me but i do love when musicians get creative and explore with different instruments that aren't in their usual rotation.

song rating: 9/10

past self

we knew these guys were video game nerds but the zelda track??? that threw me completely lmao. i could hear the build up but ngl i was expecting something heavy to follow, it did take me by surprise when it wasn't the heavy rock though. so i guess i can't mark it down for that??? i really loved the beat and the vocals were amazing as always. i do love it when they are their own backing singers <3 the layered vocals again i absolutely loved (as i always will lol). this is a song that i NEED to hear the instrumental for. i know sleep token haven't released an instrumental album in a hot minute but I NEED the instrumental to this song. (side note: i just know ppl are going to make commetns about the pavement usage in the line "walking an ince above the pavement" </3 - as you should though. dirty bri'ish people need to be bullied) i didn't like this song as much as the others so the rating is kinda low sorry </3

song rating: 7/10

dangerous

i hope you have your black eyeliner and your black fringe in your eyes for this emo banger. idk i just feel like this would go hard in the early 2010s emo scene. again, idk how to explain it but the noise in the background (yk the kinda pounding)??? i love. sleep token once again prooving that they need at least 3 genres in a song and im here for it. i do wish this song was longer though :(

song rating: 9/10

caramel

the start of this song to how it ends needs to be studied. this song was my 3rd favourite single (yeah ik there were only 3). i love the vocals in this song. and the lyrics. hmmmm. some of you really need to listen to them and then listen to them again please <3 they are pretty clear and obviously saying that they're musicians and make bloody good music at that so leave your weird parasocial relationship at the door if you go to a concert or engage with the band directly because it's weird! you're weird! respect musicians and their boundaries because they are just human like you and me at the end of it! and they don't owe you anything just because you know their real names. you're not special! you're just a creep!

song rating: 8/10

even in arcadia

yo yeah hey what did they put in this song???? i was tranced from the start, the kind of wind chime sound at the start???? got me hooked. the piano???? hello??? i was not expecting at all but it was so goddamn gorgeous. and the vocals, girl. the lyrics??? i loved them so much, they were edgy af (this is a good thing dw). idk what else to say, it felt like nothing really happened, yk no dramatic genre shifts or anything. i just really love this one. i was so confused because i had no idea where this track was going to go and it went nowhere, yet this is my top 5 from the album. and don't get me started on the violins??? i LOVE string instruments (cello, violin, guitar) so the violin was such a wonderful beautiful finish to this song. this song 100% needs to be in a video game like for the scene where you're watching the main character look back one final time at the town that they fought so hard to protect? but then they walk away from it knowing that they're not needed or wanted anymore. then it all fades to black and the credits roll in? idk this song needs to be studied under a microscope and please send me the results afterwards.

song rating: 10/10

provider

if you liked this song, might wanna skip this one... my thoughts are uhhh not positive. i saw loads of people talk about this on social media... but i think yall just need to go to horny jail. im sorry this one just made me cringe o.0 now i feel like i should be honest and say that i'm aroace but all their over spicy songs i do really enjoy (i listen to sugar a lot). the beat is interesting and the vocals always serve but the lyrics... "i found it breathin' through a tube in the ICU. yeah, i see you." i'm sorry no. made my whole body cringe and recoil. the booktok girlies are gonna eat this one up for sure. the line "the only good girl in this side of the moon" is going to be particularly well received by the booktok girlies. i hope yall enjoy your food. i do actually like the hard parts and everything which is a shame o.0 and im gonna say this. this had no right to be 6:05 long when masterpieces like even in arcadia and damocles were not :( sorry hard no and will probs skip whenever i listen to the album. im just so sorry that this one is before damocles too :(

song rating: 2/10

damocles

the piano???? the progression and build up???? i love LOVE this track. the lyrics too??? this was my favourite single that came out and i have been obsessed with it since it came out. ate and left no crumbs i don't know what else you want me to say. i had an ear infection when this came out so i couldn't listen to it the day of release. i still had a lingering infection when i decided fuck it and i have no regrets <3 did it make me ears kinda worse? yeah bc i listened on full volume in the hot ass uk but i would 100% make that same choice again.

song rating: 10/10

gethsemane

i loved the vocals, as always. the guitar is one of my favourite instruments and this song prooves why, like you can hear the emotion through the strings, i don't care if i sound crazy but i could. the heavier parts too? slapped so hard and almost bordered on grunge-like? yk like deftones vibes. love loved that. this did kinda give off old sleep token vibes. the genre shift?? to die for. i rated this 9.5 because i didn't think it was as good as damocles and the others at 10/10? idk it was very very close though.

song rating: 9.5/10

infinite baths

i love this video game soundtrack vibes!! yes keep them coming please. i love the vocals (ik im saying this for every one but come on can you hear this man sing?) this one gave old sleep token vibes. the length of it sure but it was also very slow paced that i associate with old sleep token tracks. also how the song was very instrumental heavy? another thing i associate with older sleep token songs. and the screaming? like hello girl yes take a seat. this song fucks hard. enough said.

song rating: 10/10

overall

overall, i loved this album. filled to the brim with bangers. personally, there is one song i'll be skipping... the booktok girlies though can go ham with it so im letting them have it because it clearly was not written for people like me. that's fine and cool. i'll be having look to windward, even in arcadia and damocles on repeat though xx through in an infinite baths and a gethsemane when im feeling emo and edgy. have emergence and the rest of the crew as my backups for diversity <3 anyway. good album, though nothing beats the peak album this place will become your thomb.

overall ranking: 9/10

song ratings

because why not?

even in arcadia - 10/10 no notes

damocles - 10/10 no notes

look to windward - 10/10 no notes

infinite baths - 10/10

gethsemane - 9.5/10

emergence - 9/10

dangerous - 9/10

caramel - 8/10

past self - 7/10

provider - 2/10 sorry...

album ratings

eh who can stop me? (not including the eps/singles due to the fact that they are not albums btw)

this place will become your tomb - 10/10 no notes

sundowning - 9.5/10

take me back to eden - 9.5/10

even in arcadia - 9/10

[ender1821]

session was fine (/lh) highlights for me were gem's power being one of the coolest feeding the "associated with the watchers" allegations and her almost succesful escape of a practically impossible trap (yes im gonna ignore pearl's comment about gem's eye, i want to smash pearl with a hammer after that). and also gem is so obsessed with pearl it’s maddening, sadly pearl is the most oblivious player on the server 💔

so now lets focus instead on the potential of superhero!gem whose body practically dies when she projects her soul and superhero!pearl who excessively worries and protects her in that state while fearing one day gem won't come back to her body :D

we got a session with relatively normal gempearl moments!!! (well. as normal as they can be. anyway)

glad that watcher lore enjoyers are getting fed with watcher-leaning Gem and listener Martyn, i dont go here often but god thats some good material

the wild card this session is honestly very fun!!! mostly banger episodes, i would’ve taken a whole season of just this gimmick ngl but i also see why it’s only for a single session (currently watching Martyn’s ep and god it’s amazing if you ever were/currently are a bnha fan), also Gem trying to get joint custody of the zombies is. peak. gemrot enjoyers get your food

THE PEARL COMMENT…girl…she’s trying so hard to justify failing that trivia bot question it’s just funny. sorry to all the fic writers who have to find a way to justify Pearl not noticing/remembering the eye of ender situation. somehow simultaneously down bad and horrible at remembering what Gem’s done

like i said, the superhero AU stocks are skyrocketing… i dont do superhero AUs that much but if i were to spitball one rn it would be interesting to explore both superheroes Gem and Pearl, who aren’t on the same team/agency but know of each other and have this ongoing rivalry, where their powers are both useful in intel gathering (Gem by projecting and Pearl by flying nearby and listening in on conversations, though Gem’s probably better at it), but they’re also fighting villains on the field, and Pearl’s ability gives her an advantage in combat, while Gem makes up for it with her on duelling expertise

and yeah. maybe sometimes Pearl would fly by and spot Gem using her powers by herself. and maybe Pearl would hover around the area just to make sure nothing happens to her while she’s out of it… she doesn’t really know how Gem’s powers work in its entirety, but better safe than sorry, right?

(one time Gem finds out that Pearl is watching over her body while she’s astral projecting, and she decides to scare the ever living hell out of Pearl by suddenly jumping back into her body with no warning— Pearl nearly falls off a building with how much of a spook that gave her and Gem has never let that go since)

[flambo19]

3.4 Crashout Hours

major spoilers and yappening below. not an exaggeration this is long lmao (mostly random comments as I played the quest)

DAN HENG I MISSED YOUR VOICE SO BAD IM SO HAPPY TO HEAR YOU AGAIN (and he never showed up again outside of the start of the quest...)

the pink girlies are multiplying

we do not talk about how many pulls it took to get e0s1 phainon. this is why i try to save so much. at least i didnt lose the 75/25 or maybe i wouldve crashed out first

I love Aedes Elysiae (autumn leaves village aesthetic is great) and I love Cyrene

but I need Lygus to stop narrating everything I Don't Like You

You and me both buddy. Has Lygus just been watching The Phainon Show™ 33 million times or some shit

hm. hey cyrene cool weapon.

FAT FUCK AT THE END OF THE WORLD LMAO

i think lygus and moebius z should hang out. "because it amuses me" type of fucker

NEW FLAME REAVER THEME FUCKS. also sick face crack buddy you look unwell

pov lygus tells you your real government scepter username

i love her and all her three apples of height

ngl i dont think i fully understand what is going on but khaslana and cyrene willingly commited to possibly endless cycles of the torment nexus waiting for somebody to save them? jesus

also. khaslana... i got spoiled on his name through leaks but its still kinda silly they were even trying to hide it. we know he's kevin. khevin.

okay good to know im not the only one calling him that

so khaslana remembered each cycle and became desensitised to the tragedy and lost his mind and body carrying so many coreflames, falling into destruction. a self fulfilling prophecy

big numbers are hard to picture but the way the story is being told does a great job making 33 million cycles feel long

oh god we're just killing our friends. shits fucked!!!

CANT SPELL LYCURGUS WITHOUT "L" LMAOO

Phainon: I'm not trapped in here with you you're trapped in here with me

Its been said a thousand times but jesus Joshua Waters is going insane with their voice work

holy shit the animation. song was a banger. honestly getting one scratch on a cosmic deity who exists on another plane of existence is pretty fucking metal

okay reached the end

what the fuck. give me like a day to sleep on that and figure it out

i liked it a lot though. the story did a great job showing the sheer weight of the cycles on khaslana and i liked how time kinda felt all over the place during the quest, jumping between different moments. everything came together well by the end

my biggest complaint was that the balance between story and gameplay was a little too heavy on story. while the gameplay, especially the bossfights, helped enhance the story, i like when i can run around a dungeon for a bit yknow?

anyway ive been a phainon and cyrene fan since minute one (without even knowing much about hi3 lmao) so i am very happy with this quest in that regard

i love this stupid game

meet me back in six weeks for more insanity from me featuring... i guess another loop of the flame-chase but this time its tb and cyrene?

[cabi-leodrann]

hii again! im the anon from here and here!! and the lengthy answer requires an as lengthy follow up so here i am (also if such large asks are inconviniencing in any way pls let me know i dont want to make you uncomfortable)

first of all, it was very interesting to read about this language, im not that into fictional languages stuff but it looks very fun and original to me, thank you for sharing, it's very cool!

second of all, i took some time to translate the glyphs in the names that you've already given and that's what i've got. feel free to correct me!

most of them are pretty self-explanatory (some are a bit less obvious, like the "walk" in loki's name prob means that he's a missionary, and "death" in meralon's that he's an undertaker), but i have a couple of questions.

how would you translate qlaunek's glyphs? im coming up with only something like "the one who reads out the enligthment" which is clanky and awkward. is long+eye in litsy's name mean that he has very good eyesight or on the contrary, that he's farsighted (or something else entirely)? also why is the colour glyph in his name an inverted yellow? is it a mistake or another colour? do colours describe a general family of colour like hues and such (like i don't think that gerard is the same bright green as leshy but maybe im wrong)?

i see some personality glyphs in some names (fear in nimve f.e., which im guessing means that they're cowardly). does that mean that the names can change with time? like if nimve becomes less scared or gerard somehow becomes lucky? did salky's name change when he started wearing camelias?

and since you said it was an inside circle thing between lamb and deciples, doesn't pixie kinda get's pissed off that her name literally contains "angry cat" in it? :D

aaand as the very least some things i think are Neat in this language: i love how combined symbols look and function (like in claunek's name, or how "use" and "make" become "exchange"), the fact that verbs starve, attack, infect etc. are all named after the crowns is awesome and genuinely a nice smart touch, just the visuals of the language are pleasant and fun to look at

again thank you for sharing!! and i look forward to new words in future comics, now that im somewhat familiar with the language

=OOOO absolutely fabulous reveal! B) With another banger ask! (Long ask do not bother me at all! It's kind of very fucking cool to receive a lengthy response about something I thought would not get much reaction/attention- I was happy to receive this, and see I got you and a few people on board with the language!)

Lets now respond to all this in order: -For Claunek, I forgot to put into the lexicon the glyph I gave him- I also did a pretty shit job at drawing it, ngl- But you got a good guess from my shit job! This glyph is the one of "Fate", with a big F. Claunek is the one who can read Fate! I got the symbol from the motif at the back of his tarot cards, and thought it was a perfect fit =D (I just didn't had the patience to make it right on what is supposed to be a sketch-) (I also used this symbol in the comic, and it might come back to haunt the narrative >=D) -Litsy's weird glyphs are mistakes- I used the previous ask to put things down, and so, some rules have been revisited, some glyphs changed. The particle at Litsy's eyes is upside down, as this particle did not had it's mirror version originally. The correct version of his name would be "the yellow cat with big eyes" For the upside-down yellow, I just forgot in which way the triangle of Heket's crown pointed at, since I used the crowns again as inspirations X') (would also say that the placement of the number in Nari's name is wrong- The subject always come first, and since the number is attached to a glyph, the glyph comes first, the number after.) -Colors describe the overall hue yup! An orange that goes more into red hues will be designated as red, and it'll be designated as yellow if yellow is more predominant. Cyan will be blue, pink is red, brown is all over the place, ect. (and yeah, no, Gérard is not the same green as Leshy- I'll show it some day, but the bunny got more of a lighter sickly green) -I didn't really thought of that before, but the names being able to change overtime is a very logical concept for this language! So yeah, you now made name-changing a very normal and regular process in the cult's life! Congrats =D (And yeah, Pixie definitely got pissed at her Cartouche, and made it official in the eyes of everyone X') She fell into the self-fulfilling-prophecy trope and got mad about it X'D) Really quick round, for the few translation """mistakes""" (not really mistakes, since some info are missing or just impossible to know): -Purna is a cook, so the final glyph is more on the food side. -Meralon is a raccoon, wich is not easy to catch when you don't have the mask-looking motif on the face. -Nysus is a Wolpertinger, but good luck to guess that from a simple glyph X')

To conclude, I am glad you were able to read through the whole rant, and try the language out! Your translations are accurate, and it makes me so, so happy you took the time to write them down and ask questions about the language ='3 Overall, I'm very happy you, and other people, saw my stuff, and reacted to it. Seeing y'all enjoying everything gives me wings <3 Thank you very much, and I'll try to put this language everywhere I can from now on ;3 (it was already planned, but now, I'll put more >=3)

[kiththecat]

Hhmhmhmhm scrounging about my liked songs and playlists so here r some things I will nawt expound on

I already shared this b4 but The Bird Song like gawd plspldmn. Rjemenejw3iene d

Rule #34 by Fish in a Birdcage. Yeagh.

Masochism tango no questions asked

They're kinda good luck babe coded??

The moon will sing wwawawawawaw

Outside of ajwiaap, I think they could doomed yaoi their way through a Would you fall in love with me again from epic the musical

And outside of Clownzy, I think writing on the wall(both kaveh and alhaitham vers) fit Branzy and Rek really guud nyehehehhebenehshf

Writing this whole thing makes me realise how wildly versatile yet so closed up my music taste is

WAIT SO that's the first time i've heard good luck babe. kind of a banger ngl. if only i didnt live under a rock. anyway yes we can make this about clownzy too 😌 also big yes for the rest of them too id say more but you mentioned epic and im obsessed with epic so its kinda like what am i supposed to do but think about that AHEM cough cough anyway i was literally thinking about would you fall in love with me again for clownzy yesterday. as i have a disease that makes me go "how can i make this about them" to literally every single thing ever. broke my own heart at the thought. doomed yaoi hurts. but i can see it being them via delusion

[pumpkinsy0]

Ok this might seem stupid but hear me out, perhaps we could get some headcanons of papercut in the events of the book but instead of Johnny it was Curly who stabbed the soc and him and Pony had to run away together? It would also be cool to see what the Curtis AND Shepard gangs reactions are

this aint stupid,,,,ur onto something here,,,,

•ok look, not REALLY related but curly woulda loved that white trash w mustangs and madras line, this white on white violence gotta STOP💔💯

•ANYWAYS, i think he’d put up more of a fight, he’d try to get to pony but they were outnumbered so he gets cornered, HOWEVER, he always carries some weapon on him, or maybe he picked up a coke bottle, POINT IS, bob still died lmao

•i dont think curly and pony would stay around that area as long as johnny and pony did, curly would want to leave as soon as he could so nobody could see them, so ponys forced to just get it together in under like 2mins so they could leave, so ponys disassociating badly

•theyd go to tim, curly doesnt like dally and tim IS his older brother, then tim would tell dally, and they still end up at the dirty ass church</3

•now curlys shaken up too, like hes not trying to show it to look tough, but hes never done THAT before, never flat out hurt someone that badly before, but he still doesnt regret it bc it was to defend pony, however considering hes black in the 60s in TULSA, hes so certain a judge will not gaf that it was outta self defense, so actually hes disassociatin too, they both a lil fucked up rn

•back at home, dally didnt tell darry or soda where they were but tim sure as hell did, he gets what darrys goin through cause theyre both older bros worryin over their younger bros, darry doesnt know HOW to react at all to it, he doesnt tell soda nor johnny, or anyone really, when two bit says he’ll go to texas (i think it was,,,) to look for him, darry says not to bother, so they all feel like darry knows where pony is and they dint know wether to be happy or terrified bc why isnt he tellin em or getting him??

•when it comes to the shepard gang, tim did tell some of em whats going on, only his trusted guys tho, theres basically nothing they CAN do to stop word from spreading about it bc the socs who were there already went to the cops, so they all have to lay low for a while, stay in line cause tim quite honestly cant handle anything more rn

•angela’s pretty much losing it too, shes drinking more, way more irritable, if one of the shepards is gone, ALL of em r losing it dawg

•in the church, curlys trying to act like his normal self but u can tell that he’s damn near close to losing it cause this could mean prison or the death penalty, hes so sure hes done for and pony wants to reassure him but holy fuck it aint lookin too good, they do their normal banger but u can feel this somber tension between the two as if this is gonna b their last moments together

•curly is NOT talking about turning himself in at all, he’d rather kill someone else to NOT go actually, on top of that tims telling him to stay hidden, dallys tellin him to stay hidden, so thats how he knows hes GOTTA stay there

•NOW THE FIRE, just like dally, curly dont care that much bout those kids im ngl, but bc ponys running in there, now HE has to help, boooooo👎🏽👎🏽👎🏽👎🏽

•curly aint like johnny, hes grabbing those kids and pushing them out, whatever injuries they get outta that they gonna have to deal w later, its better than them being dead id think, when the church falls, honestly??? i think my main man curly gettin outta there in time, he lowkey DID push pony out the window cause he was taking too long and then jumped out bit aye, hes livin

•its either that or he risks it and takes the longer way out if like, the wood fell where the window was

•he aint livin without some injuries and scars tho, he did definitely break SOMETHING and got some burns on his hands and wherever else, but hes relatively fine, a part of the reason y is bc he wears a leather jacket, unlike johnny who wears a jean jacket, and jean jackets r more flammable, and as seen w pony, the leather jacket did help him a bit in that fire, he still is banged up tho

[shutupineedtothink]

X files mini review/analysis 3x02 "Paper clip"

Coming as the final part of what is basically a trilogy of episodes starting with the s2 finale, this was easily the craziest ep and probably the best I've seen in the show so far. I actually watched it twice!

First of all this ep covers hella ground. The amount of stuff they packed in here from mulder showing back up and the Spiderman face off with Skinner to secret files on anyone and everyone apparently including our scully and Samantha mulder to wait there were aliens in there?? To Melissa Scullys death at the end and MS final convo + hug was crazy. With cameos from the lone gunmen, scullys mom, Albert, CSM, etc etc. Lots going on and it still felt coherent and well paced to me.

Some highlights:

- how did you know? I just knew. -> biggest "we are about to kiss" energy I've seen so far. Also i more or less predicted this scene before we saw it from previous episodes, but it was no less excellent.

- scully verbally gunning for nazis was not something I knew i needed until now, please do more

- secret rich guy organization is kinda meh overall but I like the British guy

- Albert is the real hero of this ep for flying to DC just to pray over Missy

- love an old spooky mine, very scooby doo of them

- also the music? Went off this ep

- scully is really sweet for her concern over what they will find about mulders dad, but sweetie this is not the time also this man is out for answers

- sassy Skinner is my favorite skinner

- the file room/mine area gives ark of the covenant vibes slightly

- i love that mulder is immediately looking for her file and then his sisters

- fox mulder do not leave your partner behind in the creepy mine to chase aliens

- omggg the aliens running past scully got me

- looove the spaceship rising through the windows

- so that was a fuckin ufo and we're just gonna move on cool cool cool

- this shootout was fun ngl, v 80s action movie energy

- hm they kinda just get away, I think it'd be fun if there were some leftover aliens that took out the swat guys

- they really just hitchhiked to this diner huh

- they both have food but neither are eating, that feels deliberate

- what are you hoping to find agent Mulder? Why they killed my father. And what happened to my sister. And what they did to agent scully. She's his Family!! My heart.

- this convo is sooo good. Gillian acting the shit out of it as always

- interesting that mulder can't quite bring himself to make the deal, but he leaves it to scully basically already knowing what she'll do

- Actually, it is like he's giving up his family for hers in that moment, Jesus. And then Missy dies anyway. Fuck.

- so im not getting the white buffalo logic. If the mother died and the baby lived, wouldn't that mean Missy should live? Wait are they saying because mulder lived Missy had to die? I'm confused.

- krycekkkk!!!! Sucks!! Get blown to hell mf see if I care

- mulder finally getting "the truth" and maybe it wasn't what he wanted hmm

- so krycek has the tape now. You know what that is kind of interesting. And csm is lying about it. OK yes this is good setup.

- so mulders dad AND mom knew that Samantha would be taken??? Jesus.

- again, sassy Skinner is my favorite skinner.

- I like Albert being the living file but what is stopping them from killing all those guys really. I guess unless Skinner really is bluffing?

- i LOVE LOVE LOVE this ending hospital scene, specifically the lighting and the framing of the shot. Her sitting in the chair, him kneeling next to her, the light between them but they're both in darkness from the back, ugh it's so good.

- I think its about fate... idk if you should say that to someone after their sister just died.

- I've heard the truth mulder, now what i want are the answers. Banger line!

- I wonder if they planned that hug or he just went for it but I appreciate it either way.

- I hope scully gets to shoot krycek. Let her have revenge i would love to see it.

Overall great ep. A little all over the place but in a good way. Rip Missy I didn't think they would actually kill you.