#I can't put it into words

[lazzarella]

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[sunnydbeam]

GUUHHHH thank you so much for all the kind words and encouragement! I would really love to be able to reply individually to each of you but I don't know what to say other than a BIG thank you! You guys are so sweet I'm crying ♡

I apologize for the negativity earlier, there was a lot going on, and one thing in particular triggered my anxiety and insecurities like never before; I couldn't help but suddenly be overcome with a certain jadedness about my own art and writing. God, I was spiraling so badly. Because of all this my inbox will remain closed for a while; sorry if you wanted to send any questions. Anyway, I'll answer to the ones I've already received.

I don't like to spread bad vibes anywhere. I'm aware that most of the time I choose to stay in the shadows, always running away from conflicts that only exist in my head. This is a small blog that easily goes unnoticed, but I can't for the life of me understand why there are people around here who choose to be mean for sport, not even shielded under anonymity anymore. I wish I could let it go, but this happens to me more often than I'd like to admit. And the worst part is that I don't know why. I want to believe that my blog is safe for everyone! But if at any point I've posted or said something nasty or offensive, I'm so sorry! It wasn't my intention! Ever since I started using Tumblr I've been struggling with this inherent social part of media; with every interaction the anxiety I felt was painful, but the moment I thought I was getting better at it, things would come crashing down every time.

I'm socially awkward and struggle with a non-native language, but I swear I want to be friends with all of you! I just wish I understood why some people choose to spew hate instead. What have I done, especially after creating my Gamma Code AU? It's been hell.

BUT. There are so many more of you who are the sweetest thing!! All the support and affection I feel from you melts me, I just want to hug you all against my chest so dearly. I wish I had the right words to express how much I appreciate you all! ♡♡♡♡

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Lastly, I'd also like to draw a little line:

If you're here expecting or demanding Sun and Moon content in any way, do NOT FOLLOW ME. I love those two, but I'll draw them when I feel like it. I enjoy drawing my OCs and that makes me happy, so before you decide to throw shit at me and my blog in general, I invite you to think better of it and look elsewhere for content that better suits your tastes and needs, or create it yourself. From now on I will block anyone who comes to my blog with this kind of attitude. No "I miss when you used to draw Sun and Moon" or "For the good old days!". I will block you, no exceptions.

[myrefugeblog]

hey...

this episode is breaking me.

[jonathanbyersphd]

Hi hello I am having many thoughts about Jonathan fighting again.

[justalittlebluetiefling]

Everything this episode is so casual Weepe murdered a poltiical rival Imelda caused Weepe that discomfort

Weepe and Imelda truly live in a different world than everyone else.

[ofgrimhilde]

the way that I fucking love Evie needs to be studied. I'm so obsessed with this muse omg. it's not that I don't love my oc or my future Tiana blog, but, ya'll...... evie just.......... MAN. I connect with her so much. I think I'm going to have to go ahead and write out this Descendants -> OUAT thing. Who's down for a solo para read or more?

[dog-in-the-rainn]

Citrine, I'm sorry

My throat works, swallowing the pill. A little capsule to take it away from me. It was never mine to hold. And I didn't think I'd cry this quickly. My face becomes wet and cold and reddened from my hands rubbing against it. It's a quiet kind of crying. Cathartic. Waiting on the train, on the seat at night, going no where and every where at once. Going home. To a house. A beautiful, old house. It's a shame it's so cold, you'd think the walls would hold the heat in better.

You asked me how I wanted it and I say hard and cold and metallic because that's how I like it, to cut though. To cut through and leave my own marks on my body. My body. Mine.

There's a point where you become almost catatonic. So full of this gnawing loneliness. And all you can really do is exist in it.

I think I must be bleeding because my head is reeling far too fast for me to be sober. I wish I were sober. I wish you were here. I wanted to kiss you so badly. I wanted to tear you apart. If I could tear out my heart and hold it in front of me, right in front of both of us, would you take a bite?

My citrine, my muse, my angel above me. I loved you. And I'm sorry I loved you. You didn't deserve that.

[bucksaiga]

[ikkan]

one of the things im glad about...is that i grew up being a weird and "cringy" teen on here rather than on tiktok because to me tumblr is just a circle of weirdos where only the weirdos on tumblr see you....but tiktok....everyone is just there....even my mom :\

[gnabries]

hearing my 70 year old male relatives dicuss the womens world cup in detail is so!!!!!

[realest-nilou-kinnie]

i'm so tired i'm like delirious rn but Jade kinda reminds me of this stupid fuck from Madagascar

[hellspawndoodles]

Dasha once again being the only one with any sense on a post.

Can't say I'm surprised.

[funkylilomen]

thinking about Arche again..

[lesbianwyllravengard]

I want more female characters who are just so bad at comforting others. Not for lack of trying or caring, they just get so so awkward when someone's upset, and they try to repeat things they've heard even if it doesn't necessarily apply to the situation, or they accidentally say the wrong thing and make it worse. If someone cries they panic and throw every single comfort technique down at once and it only helps because it's such bizarre behaviour

This post is for all women including trans women and op loves trans women. Terfs kill yourselves

[eobard-thawne]

i am officially done with interacting with anyone from the cod fandom -on or off anon- on tumblr

[egophiliac]

don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12