#I'm pretty sure this is where I first started following @ilarual @ironworked @silver-stake-through-the-heart @bogwitchatrois @ahundredbilli

[shallowseeker]

Someone (@4c-aperture) asked me which post I got cancelled for early in my Tumblr days. When I wrote this post, I didn't know what vogueing was. Or discourse. Or even that ppl primarily left commentary in the #hashtags. (I'm still forever ashamed, previous gif-makers.) Also, ppl assumed that because I was southern and because I wrote this, that I was a Republican who hated homeless people, which was... funny and wild.

But looking at this mutated thing also makes me very nostalgic, because I'm pretty sure this is where I first started following @ilarual @ironworked @silver-stake-through-the-heart @bogwitchatrois @ahundredbillionheavens and others! In a way, I got very lucky!

I have nothing to add to this post except that it's still extremely funny to me that in that conversation with Dean they seem to acknowledge that they both know it's a temporary separation.

CASTIEL: (clears throat, dropping the act) I, um, I noticed you look… kind of uncomfortable whenever Sam mentions my leaving. Doesn’t he know that you told me to leave? DEAN: Here’s the deal. When Sam was doing the trials to seal up Hell, it messed him up. Okay? The third one nearly killed him. If I’d let him finish, it would have. He’s still messed up, bad. CASTIEL: You said the angel, Ezekiel, helped heal him. DEAN: (looks down, avoiding the question) Look, I got to do anything I can to get him back. Now, if that means that we keep our distance from you for a little while, then… Then I don’t have a choice. I don’t feel good about it, but I don’t have a choice. It’s great to have your help, Cas. Okay, but we just can’t work together. CAS looks sad.

The most hilarious part about this conversation is that it slips that the distance they’re keeping is for what? A LITTLE WHILE.

9x09

Hot takes: Cas completely understands why he couldn't stay in the Bunker and he holds no real grudge about it. He actually understands and grasps the entirety of the between-a-rock-and-a-hard-place situation the angelic imposter put them in. He even gets it INSTANTLY upon being told about it. Because in canon, Cas actually has functioning emotional intelligence, even if some corners of fanon want to deprive him of it. If anything, he's ashamed of his angelic family for being manipulative and brutish...again.

Futhermore, Cas's tendency to rely on himself is a Cas thing (often, he waits till shit hits the fan to go for help). It's as much about his wartime situations as it is his upbringing. It's not JUST the tragic fallout of having different ideas about battle tactics than his human fam. It's also about having no parent in his life. (More on Cas psychology as it pertains to Chuck and Cas here.)

Anyway, Cas may have grudges and anger, but the being kicked out of the bunker thing...just isn't one of them!

And #2: If Cas had stayed in the bunker, Gadreel would've totally found a way to disappear him, and Dean isn't stupid enough NOT to see that.

And #3: We don't really know HOW much support was provided to Cas, or how much Cas refused. Cas has been shown handling public transportation since he cut off the finger of Pestilence, and I wouldn't put it past him to stubbornly hitchhike outta dodge after the rejection. I also wouldn't be surprised if he mishandled his money, and I wouldn't put it past him to stubbornly refuse help, either. Stoically shunning help until it gets really bad is a Cas thing.