#I'm probably forgetting a few things but w/e

[ifishouldvanish]

Sword Bisexuals Face-off

For your consideration...

Alucard is a half-vampire and the son of Dracula; Zagreus is the god of blood and the son of Hades

Both of them love their mommies very much and drink Respect Women Juice by the gallon.

Alucard killed his dad once and has Depression about it; Zagreus commits patricide multiple times a day or night for Enrichment.

Alucard can levitate, shapeshift into a wolf or a swarm of bats, and is a master swordsman with a weapon he can control with his mind; Zagreus is trained in combat with a variety of mythical weapons, which include the very gun Lucifer once used to Fight God.

Alucard knows how to live off the land and can cook for himself; Zagreus eats gyros and pommes he finds in the trash.

Alucard is an intellectual–well-read with knowledge of magic, alchemy, and ancient languages; Zagreus doesn't know what a bird is.

Alucard isn't dead, he's just taking a 300 year depression nap; Zagreus has died countless times, including by: stepping on a rake, running into a wall that was painted to look like the way out, and slipping on a banana peel.

Zagreus receives boons from various Olympian gods and goddesses, and can summon his dominatrix girlfriend, his grim reaper boyfriend, and several other friends (including a giant rock) to aid him in combat; Alucard has the support of his husband a man from a long line of monster hunters who once fought death itself and won, his wife a woman who is an Enemy of God and posseses as much magic in her tiny body as half the Greek pantheon, and his other wife a bad bitch with a hammer.

Both of them have Immaculate Breasts.

[chiyoso]

o em gee!? ♡゙ welcome to ghan high!

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⸻ I D E N T I F I C A T I O N : “CHIYOSO” Other Alias(es): kuniyo04, pareidoix, hiraethsdesires.

B i o g r a p h y :

Chiyo (ちよ) or Kuni (くに) is a young, filipina woman in her 20s, spending her time writing and translating imagery in her mind into words she can't express with her voice. A journey that started alongside the game Honkai Star Rail back in early to late April, opening a whole new world that got her hooked.

The game was fresh, and so were her interests that were piqued from reading good smut. While scrolling through AO3 for mystic messenger fiction, google had introduce her to the tumblr site, and there she found a vast amount of fanfiction related to Star Rail, which led to burning excitement and a happy heart, resulting in the creation of her first two fics; Cynosure's Ascendance and HIGANBANA, and another follow up fic that kickstarted her gradual fame and interest in a crossover between Star Rail and Honkai Impact 3rd; The Mara's Will. The rest is history.

Besides writing and extracurricular activities, stories in the form of media consume her time. Whether it would be from Anime, Games, Dungeons & Dragons, or TV Shows, she will present her interest and vigor when it comes to it.

⸻ L I K E S / I N T E R E S T S : Bold text means I'm super duper into it!

Angst. Lore. Sexual and sensual tension. Fluff. Hurt w/comfort or without. NSFW. Dark, rich and unsaturated colors. Classical music. Piano. Opera. Musicals and Broadways. Ballroom Dancing. Ballet. Vintage and Elegant Fashion. Makeup. Jewelry. Greek, Victorian and Japanese Architecture. Serene places. Italian and Korean cuisine. Fantasy. Anime. Games. Boxing. Martial Arts. DND. God. Psychology. Deep and Philosophical topics. Nighttime. Slutty grabbable waists. Dr. Veritas Ratio. Scaramouche/Wanderer. Suguru. Choso. Toji. Fictional men. Riddle Rosehearts. VTubers. Hibachi Mana! Koyanagi Rou. Offline TV ··· etc.

⸻ D I S L I K E S / H A T E : Same thing but red means it's hated really really badly.

Ignorance. Emotional Unintelligence. Entitlement. Moths. Bugs that disguise themselves as leaves. Horror Movies and Games. Pedophilia. Idiocy. Narcissism. Overstimulation (ADHD). Loud, blaring noises. The claustrophobia I have. Misogyny (It's amusing). Losing Progress. Forgetfulness. Andr*w Tate dick riders. Infantilism. AI. Art Theft.

⸻ F U N F A C T S :

Hentai Artist as a hobby. The 'so' in CHIYOSO comes from Kamo 'Choso'. Plays Violin and Piano (Washed). Started boxing this Jan 2025. Did figure skating for a few days then dipped. Did ballet and gymnastics in her childhood.

⸻ G U I L T Y P L E A S U R E S : Guilty for a reason and will probably write about it.

Priest. Non-consenting. Sex while pretending to sleep. Risk getting caught. Age Gap (21+ Reader). Manipulating men. Cheating. Gun and knife play.

⸻ E X T R A :

anime fandoms: dandadan, jjk, magi, undead unluck, violet evergarden, kamikatsu, the apothecary diaries, akatsuki no yona, demon slayer, AoT, bucchigiri, windbreaker, tokyo revengers, haikyuu, mob psycho, one punch man, welcome to the ballroom, carole & tuesday, bocchi the rock, fate, howl's moving castle, wisteria: wand and sword, black clover, fairytail, sound euphonium n' more

game fandoms: class of '09, cookie run kingdom, wuthering waves, honkai impact 3rd, genshin impact, love & deepspace, honkai star rail, mystic messenger, obey me, twisted wonderland, bang dream, and much more.

3. ⸻ P L A Y W I T H M E : Catch me in SEA / Asia Servers.

Gacha/Open World Games:

Genshin: 852100538 Honkai Star Rail: 802195964 Zenless Zen Zero: ( - ) Wuthering Waves: 901385961 Infinity Nikki: 401827008 CRK: ( - )

FPS/Mobile/Other:

Riot Games: Scaramouche#4ever Epic Seven: Llyria Roblox: Evaturiche Love & Deepspace: ( - )

POV: YOU GIVE WANDERER A HUG insta reel. hug wanderer why dont you.

tba··· (i got lazy. will add more if i get motivated again.)

[such-justice-wow]

like with many things on the internet the new naughty dog game discourse started with "man I'm tired of the bland hyperealism aaa artstyle" and devolved into nonsense. It sucks because you can't say you don't like the artstyle without being lumped in with the nutters. Imo Jordon would look sick af in the playstation 2 cel shaded style but w/e. Probably gonna forget about the game in the next few months anyway.

I wish triple a studios would like idk make 10 games that didnt look like a spongebob cut away gag painting

Its cool technology but it only has so much returns

But honestly the characters are the least of the effort going into the art

[silenthillmutual]

my buddy @doomednarrative tagged me in a fic writer's ask game so ^_^ let's do this!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

on my current account i have 154. being unemployed and hypomanic during lockdown will do that to you.

2. What is your AO3 wordcount?

895,907. i can't tell if that's a normal distribution for my fic count or not.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

at the moment: silent hill, bloodborne, and pathologic. most of what i have up there is for pathologic. i've got other fandoms up there though.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

eight, thirty-one - 1899 kudos (danganronpa)

to quote mika, age 35, of beirut, lebanon: "where have all the good (gay) guys gone?" - 1066 kudos (danganronpa)

(they long to be) close to you - 1021 kudos (mob psycho 100)

all jotaro wants for christmas is kakyoin (and he screws that up) - 810 kudos (jojo's bizarre adventure)

anticlimax - 796 kudos (danganronpa)

5. Do you respond to comments?

i've responded to most comments i've gotten, though it's always months late because i tend to read the e-mail first thing in the morning, head to work, and completely forget to respond. responding feels more personal. i know i'd be more likely to comment on someone's fics if i knew they appreciated it, so i try to make the effort, even if i struggle to know what to say.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

god this is old as hell but probably life in technicolor/the end of all things. they're life is strange style aus for one punch man and genos dies at the end of one of them, and at the end of the other the city is destroyed. the fics are connected, but i won't say how.

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

so tired, so tired, my heart and i (pathologic) is probably the sappiest i've ever written a fic so i'm guessing that one!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

occasionally. i got transmisogynist hate for when you finally get inovlved, face to face for writing chihiro as a trans girl, and it made me stop writing for danganronpa altogether. i got a guest user on some burakhovsky nsfw i posted (idr which one) who said "jesus christ, tag your trans shit". and someone who went off on me years ago called vita in motu (pathologic) "borderline mpreg" and they very much meant it derogatorily. so if i seem a lil paranoid about interacting w people there's a reason why lol.

9. Do you write smut? If so, which kind?

i do! i actually write more smut than i post because i am not showing everyone my oc/canon smut. like some friends will be able to see it but i'm not brave enough to show the whole world that. also a lot of au smut recently that has no context and i'm not posting it to ao3 without context.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest crossover you’ve ever written?

i did moreso in the past than currently. we're not gonna talk about the craziest one though<3 love and light

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nah. i've had people write fic very inspired by stuff i've written but not copy-and-paste stolen, to my knowledge

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

people have asked but as far as i know it never happened. always thought it would be cool!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes!! w my buddy dj :) also published rps in the past that i shaped up into fics.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

mulder/scully is The Ship Of All Time to me. the blueprint.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oh there's a few!!

a rebel without a case rewrite that i started because i wanted to fix what i saw as timing issues in the film.

an akira/mob psycho 100... crossover? au? both? i had some real ideas for that one but it's not going anywhere

a silent hill au for mob psycho 100 that apprently someone was interested in enough to try and make their own while referencing mine. it was an audience participation fic and i'm honestly upset that i lost steam on this one because it was a lot of fun!

a magnus archives statement from artemy burakh. the idea behind that one was that he saw daniil die, and then be replaced by another actor... but artemy's the only one who noticed the different actor.

literally dozens of pathologic fics that i have started like you have no idea just how much i have started for that stupid game.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i'm not sure! my partner says i do vagueness well, and the unease that comes with that. i think i do decent at introspection in general

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

action for sure. i tend to do better with thought than with action, so i can write really long scenes where absolutely nothing hapens. kind of an issue!

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i don't really do it because i only know like...extremely basic german and i feel it'd be a disservice to other languages to just google translate. i will occasionally describe characters using sign, but again... not knowing it, i don't feel comfortable just saying shit, you know?

19. First fandom you wrote for?

i wrote something like fanfic as a like, eight year old? for a book series i can no longer remember. but for first published fanfic it was either bones or soul eater. those fics might still be out there, who knows!

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

i don't really have one! i'm still really proud of o tempora, o mores (pathologic), vita in motu (pathologic), and my mind has changed my body's frame (bloodborne) <- less sure of that one bc not much feedback but y'know!

who shall i tag.... @stvlti, @brodyliciousbooty, @loudmound, @go-go-devil, @shogoakuji and anyone else who writes, consider yourself tagged :P !

[the-invisible-queer]

As I was walking my dog this morning I got to thinking about the Lucas family and grades. Probably I thought more about this than the writers of the show did but w/e, what are early mornings for but overthinking a Disney show that’s been off the air for over a decade? At any rate: I think Sandra & Tom set a rule that a C+ average at minimum must be maintained, otherwise the entire band is on hiatus. Generally the boys probably average a B-/solid B in most classes, minus their favorite- none of them as particularly focused on college as the only path. My thoughts on their strengths and weaknesses are as follows (YMMV):

Part 1-

Kevin L:

Strongest Subject: French. Shockingly to people who don’t know him well, actually has a phenomenal memory for things that he sees/hears. Very much a visual/auditory learner. Has a very good accent. Surprising knowledge of foreign films, I’d bet.

Weakest Subject: English. His attention tends to drift when he has to read extended excerpts from books, and goes off on tangents when writing essays. Has very off the wall and unique interpretations of poetry that his teachers always enjoy reading.

Joe L:

Strongest Subject: History. Actually just genuinely enjoys history and finds it full of wilder characters and more twists than a soap opera or reality show. Goes through obsessive phases of being interested in one period after the other. Tends to like the medieval and dark ages the most. Very good at making it interesting when narrating it to other people- Stella looked forward to his rendition of the War of the Roses more than she did her weekly CW show.

Weakest Subject: Biology. Very squeamish, and sadly has some aspects of “when will I ever need to know this” that causes him to dismiss it. Much more interested in the scientists and their lives than the actual science. Asks if something will be on the test constantly.

Nick L:

Strongest Subject: English. Can get long-winded in his essays, but finds fiction and discerning themes and metaphors in literature easy and probably can read a moderately dense book in a few days. Kind of a hipster when it comes to his book choices.

Weakest Subject: Math. Sort of like Joe in that he has some aspects of “I’ll just hire an accountant” when it comes to math, but also genuinely can’t seem to keep the formulas straight and tends to forget to carry the one a lot. Suffers from gifted kid syndrome when it comes to Math- he isn’t naturally talented at it, which makes him more inclined to give up without fully trying. However, he probably does have the highest general average in his grades, minus math, as opposed to Kevin and Joe who except for their special interest are probably pulling more average grades.

I'm obsessed with this and wholeheartedly agree

[morgenstern16]

Fuck it, insane Fumiko theory time

You ever had an insane theory that when you first have it you're like "oh man this is actually crazy if it's true! it explains so much!" but then later you're like "no this is actually just stupid". Well today instead of focusing on my homework my brain decided to come up with a theory that everyone's favorite Public Safety Agent is actually Freckles-chan from all the way of the start of Part 2, disguising herself via the Skin Devil. This has been haunting me all day so I'm exorcising this thought right now so I can forget it.

Freckles-chan, as I'm calling her, has a weirdly minor but notable role in Part 2. She's introduced as one of Asa's bullies and as a target of Yuko's vengeance. (Speaking of Yuko, I miss her). Yuko kills the other bullies, but Freckles-chan survives her initial rampage.

However, she isn't so lucky with the resurrected Yuko, and it looks like Yuko will finish her off...

... except for an unlikely hero to step onto the scene.

Denji makes mincemeat of Yuko and attempts to dramatically reveal his secret identity to Freckles, only for Yoshida to warp him away (just before Yoru brains him with a Yuko Leg Sword).

That's about it for Freckles-chan, except for one weird thing. After Yuko and Asa's last meeting, there's a set of panels showing Asa, Yuko, and Denji lying down. Well, there's one other person shown: Freckles-chan.

Given that Fujimoto loves his foreshadowing, there's been a few theories as to why he decided to show an unnamed minor character in a line-up of very important characters. It could be that this is a plot thread he dropped later on or that Freckles is actually the host of Fami, like Asa is to Yoru, but my brain decided to connect her with a unresolved plot thread from Part 1: what happened to the last Aldo brother?

As a refresher, this guy was the last of a trio of American brothers who had made a contract with the Skin Devil, allowing them to take the appearance of other people. Unlike his brothers, however, this guy wasn't the worst human being in the world and was last seen trying to blend in with Santa Claus's minions (either that or they actually infected him, it's pretty ambiguous).

A lot of characters from the second half of part 1 are now showing up in Part 2, so how would that plot line show up again? Well, my brain said, clearly at some point Public Safety got a hold of him or a contract with the Skin Devil and had Freckles-chan make one with it. See, it's quite possible that Freckles is one of the few people around who've seen Denji's human form (yes Yoshida warped Denji before he could transform back, but it's possible she did see him and Public Safety, through their insane surveillance or w/e, found this out and conscripted her instead of just locking her up, having her impersonate Fumiko (either dead or on a covert mission) to keep an eye on Denji, perhaps in hopes that Denji would easy to collar around if an attractive woman keeps an eye on him, without sacrificing an actual agent. This, my brain said, would explain a number of weird things about her, like why she's so immature and calls Denji "Senpai" (she's actually a bit younger than him)

Or her weird and inconsistent behavior towards him (she's being fed lines to tell him but also confused as to how she feels)

And most infamously, her complete incompetence in a fight (she's a conscripted civilian teenager).

And with her running off, there would great potential to run into her former victim, Asa, who's now the host of the powered-up Yoru. I could easily imagine a terrified Freckles begging for her life in front of Yoru, and an amused Yoru letting her go in exchange for some kind of deal. It'd also be a way for Asayoru to find out that Denji is in fact Chainsaw Man. A neat little bow to wrap up a number of puzzling elements in Part 2 so far.

However, if you're obsessed with Part 2 as much as I am, you've probably spotted a few holes in this, particularly that this is rather convoluted for a CSM plot line. Also, she has to be a pretty good actress to pull off some of her lines and make them sound convincing, and she WAS competent enough to dodge Nayuta's chains at short range, which is a bit much for a random civilian teenager to pull off. It's also quite possible that Freckles will have a role to play, but not this one. I probably forgot some parts and flaws of the theory here and there but whatever I can just fill them in later.

[courtofmatchups]

Hihi! I'm so sorry Tumblr didn't give me the notification 😭 I'll try and have yours done sometime today or tmr since it's been a bit hectic w/ testing

Personality: I'd like to think I'm sweet - if not a little awkward especially when in the process of getting to know somebody since normally I'm hesitant to even really approach people. Same thing w/ my insecurities (personality, looks, interactions, etc) I don't normally like vocalizing them to anybody until after I've known them for like a few months at least and even then I have a tendency to either underplay it or just joke about it which tends to rub some people the wrong way when I do it.

I also can't read people or verbal cues at all - God forbid trying to flirt, it took me several months to figure out somebody liked me when they were trying to flirt with me, nor am I very good with my, or others emotions but I at least try to make an effort when they need comfort. I also have a bad tendency to be really forgetful/clumsy, frequently forgetting where I put various things or missing things in literal plain sight or just stumbling for no real reason or tripping on my feet. (Not that I mind anymore I've fallen enough times it's just a habit to get back up) ^^'

Completely off topic and I have no idea if you want to add it, I am nicknamed rabbit bc of the amount of times I accidentally eavesdrop bc I can't tune out conversations 😭

Also since I feel like I could add in my negative traits- 

I have really (but weirdly spontaneous) times where I start overthinking things that have already passed by (like weeks have passed??) and I tend to get oddly emotional about it.

I also have a weird situation where I'm aware I'm not feeling and I don't know how to act when others get emotional- not that I don't want to help or anything- I just genuinely have no idea how to process emotion or how to hold onto my emotions for more than a few minutes no matter how strong it was/is, I have no idea if that's apathy?? Or if it's just me being a little silly, maybe.

Personality type: INTP, 6W5 - Zodiac signs is Capricorn Sun and Taurus Moon

Looks/Offtopic (although I'm not sure this is important??): I have dark brown eyes (although the pigment is closer to black) and the same for my hair, my hair is cut short (neck length) and is decently fluffy and disappointingly I'm stuck at 5'1. I'm a huge fan of animals and a complete pushover when it comes to them and as a hobby I play the violin or write little stories (that I probably forget about), I also love cuddling and typically can't fall asleep without a pillow being my cuddle buddy or somebody else, big spoon, little spoon, doesn't not matter - I just love cuddles.

Traits I find Attractive: I'm not really picky, imo, but I like being friends with a person before I date them, so I guess that qualifies as having a close bond with the person? I'm able to put up with most things but it's nice when the person I'm with will give me attention and stuff but also know when I'm getting frustrated and to stop pushing an issue (E,G: Somebody repeatedly reminding you to do something you know you have to do, when you're about to do it), that and PDA/Physical touch is something Id like as a touch starved person but of course not required from a partner. <3

Traits I dislike: In the most weirdly descriptive sense I can't stand people who try and tell me what I want to do or what I'm feeling when I am actually able to tell, like no - just because I'm not in the mood the talk to you doesn't mean I'm mad, stop trying to push it. Liars are also an issue, small lies like "I ironed your shirt" when they really didn't is perfectly fine its when their purposefully rude and manipulative about it

Love languages : Physical Touch, Gift giving, Quality time (Giving) \ Physical Touch, Words of Affirmation, Quality time (Receiving)

Hobbies: Violin- performing, Art, Photography, Animal Handling, gardening, baking, wood sculpting, Track, Volleyball, Gaming, Code designing(visual novels) 

Likes: Winter, Animals (aside from insects and arachnids), the ocean, fall, fairs/festivals, movies, books, painting/sketching, Archery, Sword fighting, Dragons and mythology as a general, spicy foods, most fruits, Music mainly folklore, Tea's, Sunbathing, alone time when stressed, cuddles and physical contact

Dislikes: Large crowds, overbearing/over protectiveness, overly sweet foods, loud/sharp/sudden noises, Spiders and insects as a whole, being forgotten, the ocean( when just placed in a body of water where I can't make out anything smthn like Thalasaphobia I think), the heat or overly hot places, being solely dependent on somebody

Silly Offtopic facts?: I cannot picture anything no matter how descriptive the context or clear the music, cannot do it. I also have absolutely terrible sense of direction (as in I literally can't tell South, North, East, West, etc) and a matching memory (I've forgotten my birthday like several times or more and other people's birthdays, etc). I've grown up around cats and ducks and just animals in general all my life and love them dearly. I also have a crippling dear of being forgotten after I'm dead so I've pushed myself to overachieve in literally everything.

(Also that's what I look like for a visual rep, [I tried I swear] it's a really rushed drawing and I forgot how to draw clothing 😭 tyy for the exchange tho!)

It seems to me you've captured the heart of...

Lord Diavolo!

Diavolo's goal is to unify the three worlds so that each being from each realm can live in harmony. Having said that, as a demon, he does have little understanding or experience in the way humans interact with each other, but I feel that this the two of you could get along fairly well. Diavolo is a lonely prince at heart, and as you seem a little bit shy, it may take a while for him to worm his way into your circle. And once he does, I think this friendship can blossom into a beautiful romance.

His favorite qualities about you would first have to be your kind nature. You make others around them feel at ease when you talk with them, and you don't seem to judge others based on appearances or actions. You also seem very intelligent, based on your description. He is too, and I feel like he'd love to have a partner who is on his level, intellectually.

You also mention struggling with your own negative thoughts, which could lead to some rocky conversations and situations. Furthermore, they need some time alone when they’re stressed, so please tell him ahead of time, or when you need some space to be alone. Diavolo wants to help you, so share whatever problems you have. You can solve it together once your head is clear.

As you're such a laid back person, I feel like he'd like to show you his library. There's quite a few cursed books and tomes in there, so tread with caution. Also, he would love to teach you how to play chess if you find interest in the game. He would also like to do things like going on a picnic, baking together, taking a walk around my castle, or just having an evening tea together. He would even take you to a petting zoo if given the chance. Overall, your relationship seems like it would be a happy one

[familiarache]

hello, tis brina's multi sideblog, that exists for her mutuals and mutuals only. as it's a sideblog, things will be sent from mendinggashes, and again, you have to be mutuals with me there to follow me here, please. anyways, i have characters from T/he B/atman 2022, R/esident E/vil, a few of my other W/onderland muses, and A S/eries of U/nfortunate E/vents here. If ur my mutie and wanna follow me over here, go for it! Here's my Carrd, I'm not done with muse bios yet but it exists there, as well as my rules (Though they are repeated in my pinned.) if i'm forgetting anything, oh well. i'll make a real promo probably never because this is a private sideblog lol.

[mimiwrites2000]

Hiii!

I'm here for Aruani writer ask game!

1 2 3 5 7 10 11 14 16

ANNA THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR ASK!!

I answered 1 + 3 + 14 here

And 16 here

Here's the rest of the questions

2- Share your favorite part of your first ever fic

Wellll, I had to go through my first fic again, you can find it here, Blue (or on AO3, Kiss), and I think this part will do:

Armin rested his forehead on Annie’s, then she closed her eyes, and so he did.

“You’ve taken your time, haven’t you?” Armin questioned her, though he wasn’t serious in the slightest.

“I did.” She answered, and he could hear the smile through her voice.

“A lot have happened.”

“I know.”

“A lot have changed.”

“I know.”

“I’ve changed.”

“I know.” She sounded confident when she replied to his last statement, her voice firm, and her fingers digged slightly in his cheeks.

Armin’s lips were partly opened, he was thinking of how he could tell her about everything that happened, all the catastrophes that occurred while she was locked away, faraway from anyone’s reach.

He, even though they were on the line to do their most likely failed mission, let himself enjoy the blue in her eyes; he had never been this physically close to Annie, and his breath was taken away.

5- Write about Armin and Annie’s first meeting! Could be in canon settings or any other AU

Now that I think about it, I don’t think I’ve written anything about them meeting for the first time… or I did? I genuinely have no idea

Buttt I think whether it was an AU or canon, they wouldn’t have this cliche electrifying first meeting, I think they might go unnoticed by each other, and then they would slowly start growing on each other and noticing each other

7- What was the inspiration behind your shortest fic?

My shortest fic that is posted to AO3 is called What If I Kiss You, you can find it Here.

W e l l , I’ve written it a few years back and posted it as screenshots on twitter, and I wrote it because… I just thought of how their first kiss would look like, and I just felt like it would be this shattering moment in their lives (dramatic I know), at that time I used to be active on twitter, and I just felt like sharing it... Y e a h

10- write about their first kiss!

WELLL

Again, I've written a short snippet about it, What If I Kiss You?, here's the link to it again, and it's so emotional I actually kinda like it!

I would honestly write a whole new short story about it, but I kind of have a long ass fic to finish LMAO

I have several fics that contains their first kiss, and I just love writing first kiss scenes, because the intention behind these kisses is to show what they’re feeling, it’s just a kiss, nothing more, nothing less, but it hold so much emotions

My favorite kisses that I’ve written is probably isn Legends, when they kiss outside the cottage where Eremika wedding was happening, because that kiss didn’t hold just sweet emotions, but so much pain, and it kind of elicited so many conflict in the story

11- What annoys you the most about your own writing habits?

I kind of got myself used to writing only in coffee shops, and it’s affecting me because now I can only write in a coffee shop, and I can’t always go to a coffee shop, but I also can’t write if I wasn’t in a coffee shop… I don’t like it

Also, not writing a timeline for Legends before starting it

Like, I always had the whole thing planned out, butttt my brain can only remember so much, and I’m losing some details here and there, so I hope that I don’t forget any detail by the end of the story lmao

[msommers]

sorry for your tummy hurty hours 😔 also betrayal, desire, midnight, and wound for riya and maeve!

i have in fact suffered tummy hurty hours for a second time since this ask so i'm cashing in 2x, thank you xoxo // oc asks: not-so-nice edition

betrayal: Has your OC ever been betrayed by someone they thought they could trust? Has your OC ever betrayed someone who trusted them?

RIYA — a no on both accounts. maybe you could find some social drama from cumberland socialite days but that shit is so far beyond anything Serious compared to the goings on of the campaign that it hardly counts. actually, i lied. her brother sebastian constantly betrayed her trust by snitching anytime she did something he thought their mother would disapprove of, so he can choke. 

MAEVE — by someone she trusts, no. she learned her own lessons and had plenty of witchers to let her know how dangerous it can be to hand trust away easily, so that takes a while to build up. has probably been betrayed in general though, there are plenty of selfish people who would look at her generosity and willingness to work against “authority” and take advantage of it. 

desire: What's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

RIYA — if we go with answering what she wants presently, i think with all the goofing and flirting and whining, it really boils down to her craving comfort. and that's probably easy to tell with or without an insight check because she's not trying to hide it, and it's clear to everybody who spends 10 minutes around her that she's having a dreadful time adjusting to life without her usual rich girl privileges. she wants to go back to lounging around and being fed little chocolates or w/e, this sucks. 

MAEVE — it's so cheesy that the first two things that popped to mind for her were to be loved and to make a difference. both are true, it just depends on the day which desire is at the top of her list. she's always happy to discuss the hopes that her works will potentially change people's prejudices, and that's something she puts effort into every day. the wanting to be loved is like. 30% of the time it can be obvious because she'll start alluding to it or even openly talking about it, then the other 70% it depends on if the person she's talking to is capable of reading her beyond the smiles and chatter. 

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

RIYA — THE NEVERENDING NIGHTMARES, MY GUY. she’s lucky that the party’s grey warden duties usually wear them out enough through the day that the anxieties and nagging guilt can’t keep her from passing out, but the nightmares have been waking her early in the last few months. riya’s got her morning rituals: brushing out her hair and styling it according to vibes, going over her spellbook, debating with herself if it’s worth using some of her precious perfumes or oils, thinking about her family and nearly crumbling because of how terribly she misses them, reciting important quest information in her head to keep from forgetting it. you know, the usual.

MAEVE — her partners ey-ohhhhhhh. anyway all of the above, though it grows more infrequent as the years go by and she becomes accustomed to feeling safe. anxiety is probably the worst?? because it can sneak up on her without warning, especially if she knows somebody she cares about is off doing something dangerous. her go-tos on a sleepless morning are journaling or taking a bath, sometimes both if she's feeling frisky. 

wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?

RIYA — answered here.

MAEVE — she can take more hits than your average noble before going down but she’s still only a bard at the end of the day and absolutely in tears after just the first. she’s shaking, shouting her panic and trying to find cover but hey she’s not entirely useless, she might be able to shoot her bow from back there. can definitely provide colorful and fun commentary at the least. please give her medical attention and please make it intimate to encourage affection and vulnerability, thank you. most of her wounds are mental and leftover from the carden era tbh. worst wound has to default to the one that straight-up killed her for a hot minute, i imagine. fuck if i remember what it was but it sure does take the cake for being fatal.

[chenfordswopez]

https://www.tumblr.com/hydesjackiespuddinpop/730736136599846912?source=share

Hiya, Poorni! Could I request an angsty E/D drabble with any prompt number of your choosing from the linked ask game? This could be set in s4 or s6. 😉 Have fun!

This takes place in the s4 finale. Will be a part of my verse. @urfriendlywriter

"I'm so sorry." Donna stated tearfully. She was starting to hate what she become. Who she had become. And this whole Casey thing...she felt like a fucking idiot. Everyone warned her but she didn't listen. Maybe she thought there was something good in him, maybe she wanted a distraction from her shitty life.

She went into Eric's embrace, hugging him tightly. Eric sighed, hugging her back. He wanted to kill Casey with his bare hands. Despite all the shit that happened with him and Donna these past few months, she didn't deserved what happened to her. No one did.

Donna pulled away, kissing him softly. She needed the pain to go away. Needed for things to stop being awful. And being with Eric always made her feel better.

Eric pulled away, staring in shock. "W-What the hell?" Was Donna really trying to use him? Again? In her defense, he did understand where she was coming from. With her mom leaving and then Casey fucking Kelso, 21 year old creep back taking preying on her only to dump her like she's hot garbage. But that was why they couldn't do anything now. Donna deserved to grieve and process this in a healthy way.

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"Eric, we should be together. Let's just, like, forget all this other stuff happened.." Donna tried to kiss him again but Eric backed away. "But we can't forget. Living in a bubble won't change the fact that did happen. And if you come running back to me now...Donna, I can't be your second choice." This hurt him, but Red always told him to stand up for himself.

"But you're not! I love you!" Donna cried. She didn't understand why Eric was doing this. Eric walked closer, wiping her tears. "You and Casey just split up. And I know you're hurting. I don't want to take advantage of you. You deserve better than that. And if we got together now..." Donna nodded, "I understand. Just know, I'm not giving up on you, ever." She kissed his cheek and sighed. "And I'm sorry about a lot of the things I said and did to you these past few months."

Eric sighed, "I'm sor-" Donna cut him off, "Don't you dare apologize. We both...probably weren't the best, but I should own up to my stuff too." Eric nodded, having a faint smile on his lips. Donna grabbed the backpack on the ground, about to head out. "Where are you headed?" Eric asked. "California. My mom's there so I'm gonna go visit for the summer." Donna smiled and sighed. "Goodbye Eric." Eric smiled back, "Goodbye Donna." He watched as his ex girlfriend walked out the door.

"So you do listen to what I teach you." Eric turned around to see Red and Kitty staring right at him. He was prepared for a lecture about how he should've 'been a man and taken her back', but they seemed...almost proud. Red smiled, "I'm proud of you son. Maybe you'll do okay after all." Eric nodded, "Thanks dad. I just...I feel kind of guilty." Kitty shook her head, "Eric, you did the right thing. Donna is not ready for a relationship right now and you stood up for yourself. My baby boy." She headed over to squeeze him tightly, making Eric gasp. "Mom!" Red pat his wife in the arm, "Okay Kitty, maybe you should let the boy breathe."

[oh-to-be-a-murderer]

Brain: No you're not gonna answer all of the-

Me:

1.Binthe (in Arabic it means daughter of [insert last name])

2.18

3.10th January 2007

4.Capricorn

5.turquoise

6.17

7. 9 cows, 5 dogs, 2 chicks

8. Southeast Asia

9. 5"2.6

10. 41 or 11

11. 9

12. Murdering two people and then doing my best not to get caught

13. Crocheting, knitting, weaving, contortionism (basically expensive flexibility)

14.kind of cuz I can always guess a baby's gender when they're in the womb.

15. Apocalypse (one of them)

16. Captain America : The winter soldier

17. No one (AroAce)

18. Yes (if you're wondering, adoption)

19. (Skipping to masjid cuz I'm a muslim) and that is exactly where my wedding is gonna be.

20. I would like to call myself very religious.

21. Once when I burnt myself as a kid, once when i had this really bad ear pain and once when I got chicken pox.

22.never

23. Nope

24. Showers, really long ones

25. Wearing none rn

26. No

27. No

28. Usually anything fast, but sometimes just need some calming slow paced ones like Apocalypse.

29. No

30. 3 pillows, one cat's paw shaped long pillow

31. Fetal or one leg up

32. Kind of big I thin 200 something squarefeet not sure, bigger than my previous one def

33. I usually don't but if I do it's lasts nights leftovers of a pack of instant noodlea

34. No (almost)

35. No

36. Русский (Russki) [with the accent]

37. Mostly shit, ik I'm basic but also "you-" and then not completing the sentence

38. I think 60 is hours, two days and one morning then crashed (exam ssn)

39. No

40. No, but if I did, they're good at what they do, called secret for a reason.

41. I would like to say occasionally. Like if it's a prank I can improvise on the spot but if its in real like situations no.

42. Almost, I'd say I can identify people but I need a few days with them.

43. I have six accents, English, bengali, Hindi, Russian, British and Irish. The other just come and go.

44.id say no cuz the languages I can speak are very different so having an accent kind of ruins it, I had to work through it as a kid, a lot.

45. British

46. I'd say I'm bubbly in front of people and very quiet when no one's interacting with me

47. Probably my 70 dollar dress

48. Yes, I can also turn it upside down, make a w and do this weird wave thingy with it.

49. Def innie

50. Right

51. No

52. Fish (any)

53. French fries

54. Messy

55. "O ii a e a uu ii a e"

56. Damn

57. 3 minutes, tops

58. God I hope not

59. Suck (Also lick lollipops)

60. In my head, yea

61. Yea

62. No but sometimes I have good voice days

63. Enclosed spaces, heights

64. I like to gossip as long it has a base. If its like "wanna know what Gabby did?" I don't wanna but if its like. "Can you tell me why Gabby did that? Possibly psychoanalyse her??" YES

65. I think any Disney movie? They're all dramatic

66. Long but sometimes ita such a mess to carry.

67.im not American and No

68. English

69. Pervert

70. No

71. ...anything?

72. No, I find peace in it. Makes headachea go away.

73. Unless i don't understand what they meant, no

74. VERY

75. This guy like me in school and absolutely made my life a living hell. I told everyone he was gay

76. ...when my 1 year old niece is with me???

77. Never

78. Never

79. Never

80. None

81. Nope

82. Kind of fast, my aunt always tells me I'm a fast typer but I'm not sure 60 wpm?

83. Barely (but I can run in heels)

84. Black

85. Black

86. Chocolate (it's my most favourite thing in the word)

87. Notes?

88. Mom was a school teacher but retired. Dad was a marine captain but retired. Then they both started an agriculture based business and now that's what's going on.

89. Yes but in this country it doesn't matter.

90. Seeing ignorant people

91. My passport name means "the best" it's okay I like my nickname better.

92. I have but it might change when I see my baby, so no.

93. I want both but a girl first, I don't know why

94. I can easily forget people, if they do anything it'd take me two minutes to forget everything about them and live on my life energy hearing about them

95. I am emotionally and mentally very weak so I get hurt a lot.

96. Not sure

97. My father's mom and dad were both separately "zamindars'' and my grandfather was afghan royalty. My mom's mother and father also separately "Zamindars" her father was Parsi royalty.

98. No

99. Rn white with roses and white with blue flowers

100. A pale yellow, almost white

Brain: :0

Get To Know Me Uncomfortably Well

PLEASE DON’T LET THIS FLOP AHHHH

1. What is you middle name? 2. How old are you? 3. When is your birthday? 4. What is your zodiac sign? 5. What is your favorite color? 6. What’s your lucky number? 7. Do you have any pets? 8. Where are you from? 9. How tall are you? 10. What shoe size are you? 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 12. What was your last dream about? 13. What talents do you have? 14. Are you psychic in any way? 15. Favorite song? 16. Favorite movie? 17. Who would be your ideal partner? 18. Do you want children? 19. Do you want a church wedding? 20. Are you religious? 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? 24. Baths or showers? 25. What color socks are you wearing? 26. Have you ever been famous? 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? 28. What type of music do you like? 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 31. What position do you usually sleep in? 32. How big is your house? 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? 34. Have you ever fired a gun? 35. Have you ever tried archery? 36. Favorite clean word? 37. Favorite swear word? 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 39. Do you have any scars? 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? 41. Are you a good liar? 42. Are you a good judge of character? 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? 44. Do you have a strong accent? 45. What is your favorite accent? 46. What is your personality type? 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? 48. Can you curl your tongue? 49. Are you an innie or an outie? 50. Left or right handed? 51. Are you scared of spiders? 52. Favorite food? 53. Favorite foreign food? 54. Are you a clean or messy person? 55. Most used phrased? 56. Most used word? 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 58. Do you have much of an ego? 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? 60. Do you talk to yourself? 61. Do you sing to yourself? 62. Are you a good singer? 63. Biggest Fear? 64. Are you a gossip? 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 66. Do you like long or short hair? 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? 68. Favorite school subject? 69. Extrovert or Introvert? 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? 71. What makes you nervous? 72. Are you scared of the dark? 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? 74. Are you ticklish? 75. Have you ever started a rumor? 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? 77. Have you ever drank underage? 78. Have you ever done drugs? 79. Who was your first real crush? 80. How many piercings do you have? 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ 82. How fast can you type? 83. How fast can you run? 84. What color is your hair? 85. What color is your eyes? 86. What are you allergic to? 87. Do you keep a journal? 88. What do your parents do? 89. Do you like your age? 90. What makes you angry? 91. Do you like your own name? 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? 94. What are you strengths? 95. What are your weaknesses? 96. How did you get your name? 97. Were your ancestors royalty? 98. Do you have any scars? 99. Color of your bedspread? 100. Color of your room?

[droplct]

● — || @lastairmaster gets a starter they didn't ask for 🩵

● — || ❝ I promise I'll be okay , Aang . ❞

She did her absolute [ [ b e s t ] ] to assure him as she packed her bags for her trip . She was probably forgetting something . She almost [ [ a l w a y s ] ] felt like she was when she packed in a hurry . She had too many things on her mind , none of which were [ [ p l e a s a n t ] ] , but she tried to mask those thoughts with a smile his way over her shoulder .

❝ Dad says that it should be a quick trip . , We're going to the Earth Kingdom for a few days , then I'll be right back . No detours , unless something comes up . ❞

She [ [ h o p e d ] ] nothing came up ; but , just like Aang and his Avatar adventures , the life of an Ambassador rarely has time for rest and pleasantries .

As she finished tucking away her last few items , she looked at her things spread out every - which - way , scanning them to make sure she had everything she needed .

❝ Okay , I have clothes for while I'm away , things so I don't smell like Seal Pup Blubber , and I always follow Sokka's advice to bring extra snacks - ❞ She smiled as she gave a little shrug , laughter [ [ f i l l i n g ] ] her words , ❝ - He's right . You never know when you'll need them . ❞

Katara's words became quiet as she looked over everything one last time , ❝ Is there anything that you think I'm forgetting ? ❞ That's when she finally looked at him , oceans finding gentle breezes . She loved him , endlessly . This felt hardly fair . So much time they'd spent together , but it felt like , in reality , it had only been a [ [ q u a r t e r ] ] of it.

[ailichi]

reading since around august (selected)

Antigone, Jean Anouilh - French play based on the ancient Greek play by Sophocles, from 1944. loved it. I always love Anouilh's stuff.

Coal Dark Mornings, Brett Anderson - first autobiography of Brett Anderson, taking you up to the time when he formed Suede. I think you could read this even if you weren't into his music, it's well-written and gives a very good description of the time and place he grew up in while still being very quick to read.

The Coffee-House of Surat, Leo Tolstoy - short story by Tolstoy because I guess I'm trying to 100% his work.

Prophet Song, Paul Lynch - it's alright! it gets better and better very steadily as it goes along; I liked it much more on page 250 than on page 150, that kind of book. it seems to be out on the display tables of bookshops across Europe - not sure it's that much of a sensation really. but it takes like 2 days to read, not a waste of time.

Everyone Loves You When You’re Dead, Neil Strauss - I read most of these interviews and they're good but the book exists to record the Liam Gallagher one for me.

Getting High: The Adventures of Oasis, Paolo Hewitt - it's good!! I think I already posted a quick review but if you're a fan and want to read One book about Oasis, it's the perfect choice.

Shout!: The Beatles, Their Life and Times, Philip Norman - dear Lord, is this comprehensive. and it continues after 1970 - post-Beatles stuff is like half the book. I did enjoy it, but especially the first few hundred pages (yes), where he talks about each member before they joined, the other people in that Merseyside scene, etc.

Supersonic: The Uncut Interviews, Simon Halfton - interesting to see how they edited the band interviews for the documentary.

Remembering, Sinéad O’Connor - she can really write, wow. obviously parts of this book are very heavy, and it did make me cry. I'm glad I read it though.

Hadji Murad, Leo Tolstoy* - I'd read this before and apparently forgotten large swathes of it. it's fine, nothing crazy good, very much hampered by the noble-Oriental thing he's got going on. every day I realise I am the world's most unenthusiastic Tolstoy fan. like I'll read it but Jesus Christ.

The Horse, The Wheel, and Language, David W. Anthony DNF - if this is the intellectual standard expected of US undergrads, that's shocking. forget student debt cancellation, they should be giving them money back with interest. lmfao

Ulysses, James Joyce - it's Ulysses, it's great. but there were bits I subjectively didn't like (predictably, the grimy sex scenes, all that tackle). um. a masterpiece, clever, etc., didn't exactly have me weeping. it IS brilliant and very enjoyable to read on a pure prose level.

Do You Believe in the Power of Rock and Roll? John Robb - good interviews :)

Solenoid, Mircea Cărtărescu - been reading this on and off since the translation came out in 2022. interestingly weird until it's weirdly not interesting. probably excellent for someone, but not for me. which was really disappointing, because I was excited for it.

Regenade, Mark E. Smith - absolute masterclass of an "autobiography". I loved it. is there a lot of 'information' about his life story? of course not. can you necessarily believe that things happened as he writes? not really. (but then, the way the story is told is telling in itself). starts in media res. essentially the only story he tells from his childhood is Japanese Prison Camp, and yk? I'm pretty sure we used to play something like that too. obviously the whole book is hysterically witty. so good at having opinions, it's outrageous. made me laugh at jokes at the expense of Noel Gallagher, so it really is that charming as a book (don’t even think those anecdotes happened. like. at all. except maybe the one about him sneaking a look at his shirts in a hotel room. lol). "charming" in the slightly sinister fairy-tale sense. MES o7

[darkheartedprince]

♒ Thoughts on the fandom you're currently rping in? ✮ Have you managed to stay away from drama? ✿ What do you think about public call out posts?

MUNDAY MEME

Dang , Silas , you really wanted me to come for blood with this one , huh ? Okay , we'll start simple . Thoughts on the fandom I'm currently in . I'd call Kingdom Hearts my home away from home {my home fandoms actually being Harry Potter and Once Upon A Time since as far back as 2012}. I found this fandom sort of by accident , in a great way , because of @lightheartedwarrior {thank you, Rissa}, and have not ever looked back since . This fandom has made me laugh , made me cry , and I have had the absolute pleasure of making some of the most amazing friends I will never forget {psst Silas , you are included in this}. This fandom has gotten me through some really tough times , and not get sappy , but I don't know what I would have done without it .

This got really long , which is why it's under a read more . Long story short , I will say that I have been pretty fortunate to say that this fandom has been fairly nice to me . I am blessed to have made the friends that I have made , and to have had the wonderful experiences that I have had . I also know I'm blocked by some people for who I write with or for some things I write . While it hurts to know I can't interact with those people ever {some who blocked me prior to us ever interacting or talking}, I have accepted it was not meant to be . I deeply appreciate those who I have found in my little corner with my little light Riku and who have made my time in the Kingdom Hearts fandom a dream come true . You all are delightful angels and I am so glad to have met you <3

Okay, squishy time has ended . This is a salty munday meme , after all . I also know that this fandom is . . . um . . . I guess there's no beating around the bush here , it's cliquey . Not following people because they don't like their icons , not following people because they don't like that they don't format , not following people because you might like their writing but hate one specific headcanon they have , etc . I've seen a few people say that it kind of reminds them of high school and I don't blame that comparison on anyone . I understand avoiding people for ships you don't like , but going as far as to spread hate about people for it is not okay . At all . We're all adults . Just unfollow someone or block them and move on . No need to run to your group of friends , say a bunch of misinformation about them , and then cause things to happen . It's not worth anyone's heartache . As a community that is centered around a video game about accepting people's differences and making friends , we really need to get better at it .

No two people write a muse the same way , and no one is 100% canon to a T . So , we all need to be more accepting of various portrayals . On the note of ships , this fandom has some strong opinions about them . Like . . . really strong . Don't get me started on the SoKai vs SoRiku vs SoRiKai thing . We need to chill with that . Not everyone's ships are everyone's cup of tea and that is more than okay . Also , no one can agree on what age any of the main characters are {you can try to argue with me on this , but I have written with 16 Soras over the last four years and maybe three have the same age}. If you make them 18 then they're 'too old' but if you make them 16 - 17 then they're 'too young' . Pick a lane . For everything {not just ships} we can all accept one another's differences and move on . No harm , no fowl .

I have [ [ m o s t l y ] ] managed to stay away from drama . In this fandom , anyway , I have . Perhaps it's because I'm shy and don't talk to many people . Probably that . Am I [ [ a w a r e ] ] of the drama that has happened around me ? Of course . I pay attention . This fandom is big , and yet so small , at the same time . Every fandom is , really . On that note , I'm going to lump the last two questions together . Public call out posts . . . I don't usually agree with . Mostly because they always seem to be a lot of he - said - she - said , and that's very , back to my second paragraph , high school . Now ! If there is a behavior that has been done by one person who has been proven to be toxic time and time again and hurt multiple people time and time again , then that is a different story . Especially if someone claims to have 'changed' only to repeat that same behavior . You can change the cookie but you can't change the filling . I have seen call out posts about people like this . I will say , the ones I have seen have been thorough , with multiple pieces of evidence to back up their reasons , etc . That being said though , as a whole , I don't tend to agree with them ,

[creatingjaemi]

Chips

Today I am definitely making a creating Jaemi blog. From literally starving to receiving urgent messages about my apartment to being degraded to levels I didn't think people could watch before there eyes and somehow make worse... I definitely lost my faith in humanity a couple times and I don't know when it will stop. Looking at how far I've come since taking that leap of faith four years ago (or w/e), I can see a visual representation of my growth and how things have only gotten better. I still feel sad for the only person I'm doing this for - my child, who is being abused right now 24/7. She's always starving in some way, always feeling degraded in some manor, and I hate to think about how this will shape her view on humanity after having gone through all of this. She thinks it's normal... no kid should ever think what she went through is normal... from the start, they always wanted to separate me and her. A child should never be forced to be apart from a parent they want to live with. When she lives with me. She get's basically the whole apartment to herself. People say it wasn't fair to me, working in a corner of the apartment for most of the day while she was in school and then also giving her the living room to watch anything on the kids Roku channel. She has two game systems, both age appropriate. The one with the chipmunks on the island, Yoshi, Mario. The only questionable one is Roblox but I don't want her to feel left out at school, we're already poor, at least give her something to feel cool around her friends. She probably has forgotten those days now. Where she's at, it's all rules, expectations, and people... lots and lots of people... there's no room to breathe. It's totally the opposite of what living with me is like but to a kid, it makes no difference. An adult is an adult. You listen to them and when things change, you don't dwell on the past, you just keep going until one day you wake up and it's too late, your childhood was stolen from you because of abuse and control issues and you can't get those years back. She doesn't know that. I do so it's my responsibility to do something about it. Creating Jaemi, I've sat in major mental anguish from this thought process. That she's been stolen from in a way nobody can comprehend until much later in life. It doesn't matter because I can never stop fighting for what I believe is right. I've been reporting and defaming bad men since I was seven years old. This black kid in our neighborhood, today someone compared me to a small Kris Jenner and I think that might be accurate, like slim shady but... white? I don't know, all I know is whether my daughter were hurting or not, I would be doing this because it's what I do. I see someone being taken advantage of, and I do something about it. I see someone taking advantage of another and I say something about it. It's no surprise, but people have amnesia, they think because things have been great for a few years, they get bawlsy, and forget the dark side of the night will come again for them too eventually. I guess that's how it goes, I don't know... it seems like these days, I can't rely on anything but order. If everything is in order, then it can't go wrong... at least when it does go wrong, there's no question - you know you did everything you could. Nobody can tell you nothing because order doesn't lie. People lie all the fuckin time, people are always fuckin up but if you follow the order of things, those people end up telling on themselves, some people are like satanic I think, they hate order, they thrive off of chaos. I guess I can remember being that way. After I was raped in high school, but not really any other time. Maybe when my brothers moved here and I lost my best friend, I probably enjoyed chaos then because it reminded me of what I felt like on the inside when nobody was paying attention to me, but I prayed and I got saved and after that, I didn't really want chaos anymore. I can't believe people twice my age never got to this point. Srsly guys stay safe in this hell hole and I'll see ya soon <3