#I've since decided to mirror (ha) that progression and so right now he doesn't have either of those features

[buckybarnes-lover]

Roommies (Chaper 1)

Roomates Bucky Barnes x fem!reader au

Words: 1,010

Summary: You and Bucky are roommates, you've had a crush on him for ages but you don't want to risk ruining your friendship so you stick to being friends until you go out and get drunk one night.

Warnings: there's not many warnings, the reader drinks enough to get drunk but other than that there's not much

A/N: This is my first Bucky fic ever so pls enjoy! I've also posted this on ao3

masterlist here

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You and Bucky had been roommates ever since your second year at Uni when you both decided it would be cheaper, and more fun, to live together. You knew everything about each other and were always with each other, so much so that sometimes people would mistake you for a couple because of how close you were, but you always laughed it off. A small part of you wished that is was true, that you were dating but you knew that dating Bucky would also mean the chance of breaking up with him and you didn't want to risk that.

Dating Bucky was just a fantasy, something to daydream about when class was taking too long to finish or to help you get off late at night. It's not like it would ever happen, but that doesn't stop you from thinking about it, about the way he would kiss, how he would start gently, as though he was trying to commit your lips to memory then get rougher and more passionate as the moment progressed and then-

"Are you thinking about him again?" Nat's voice snaps you back to reality, back to the cosy little café ten minutes from your flat where you and Nat are supposed to be studying.

"What? No, I was just, um," You glance down at your biology notes "Thinking about enzymes." You hoped Nat would believe it but guess you can't lie to a human lie detector.

"Really? And what about enzymes has got you blushing?" Nat smirks knowing full well that you're lying.

You at least have the decency to look sheepish as you accept that you've been caught.

"You know, you should tell him how you feel, you never know he might feel the same." Nat's been trying to get you to confess for a while now but all her attempts have been in vain because you're just too stubborn.

"I don't know Nat, I just don't want to ruin what we have right now." You fidget with your pen "Plus, I'm sure it'll pass" You don't know if you're trying to convince Nat or yourself.

Nat leans back in her chair "Well, if you're not going to do anything about it, you need to get over him." She looks at you with a sly grin "Let's go out tonight."

"Tonight? But I still need to study." You hesitate looking down at your notes, you definitely didn't do as much studying as you hoped today.

"Yeah tonight, we'll invite Wanda as well and it'll just be our little trio going out and getting fucked." Sensing your hesitancy she adds "Come on, it'll be fun, you might even find someone else to take your mind off Buck."

Maybe you should go, going out with the girls is always fun and you definitely need to get your mind off Bucky. "Ok, let's go." Yeah, you can study later.

"Great! I'll text Wanda" Nat pulls out her phone and rapidly types a message to Wanda "All done, this is gonna be great! Make sure you look cute."

"I always look cute" You start packing your things away since you clearly aren't going to be doing any studying.

Nat rolls her eyes and smirks at you. "Alright cocky"

You roll your eyes right back at her. Who knows, maybe going out tonight will be good for you, you definitely need it.

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A few hours later your sitting on the floor in front of your full length mirror, blasting your hype music and trying to get your eyeliner just right. You've already wearing your outfit for the night, a black mini dress that snatches your waist and accents your curves paired with matching black heels that make you a good three inches taller. Finishing your make-up you can't help but admire yourself, you feel like a million bucks.

"You look good." Bucky's leaning in your doorway, you hadn't even noticed him standing there.

"Thanks creep, how long have you been standing there?" You smirk, you don't actually mind him watching you, if you're being honest you find it kinda flattering that he's admiring you.

"I was just passing by then I saw you getting all dolled up." He crosses his arms, showing off his built forearms, as he eyes you up once again. "You going out with Nat?"

"And Wanda, but yeah we're going to meet up at Nat's place first and then go out." You put your make-up in your bag and toss it on your bed. You turn to leave but end up face to face with Bucky, well almost, even with your heels he's still taller than you. 

You're about to tell him to move but you get distracted by how intensely he's looking at you, then his gaze drops down to your lips and you copy the motion and look at his lips. You're so close to each other you can't help but lean in and everything slows down as Bucky leans in too and you're so close, you're almost-

A sudden ringtone interrupts the moment, making both of you jump as far from each other as possible. 

Bucky quickly mutters an apology and leaves before you have time to say anything. What the fuck?  You almost kissed, that's not supposed to happen, you're literally going out tonight so you can get over him. Wait. He wanted to kiss you too so... does that mean he feels the same? You let out a frustrated groan as your phone keeps ringing. You want to spend more time analysing what just happened but you got places to be so you answer the call.

"Hey girl, are you nearby? I'm already at Nat's." Wanda asks completely oblivious to what she just interrupted.

It takes you a moment to process what she just said since your mind's all over the place. "Yeah, I'll be there in like five minutes."

You hang up and leave your flat without bumping into Bucky, thankfully. You just need to go out and forget about Bucky which is easier said than done, especially after what just happened.

A/N: Part 2 here

[asofspades]

Okay, this is the first part of the shared item analysis for the LU boys, in going to be bringing research that includes not only the existence of the same item either by direct name or function on different games, but also I bring insights into where they're found or how they're obtained when I think it's relevant.

Starting off with the boomerangs, now, Legend (Alttp, OoS), Hyrule (LOZ1) and Four (MC) all have magic boomerangs, they're literally named "Magic Boomerang", while their designs don't look too similar to one another I think we can still consider them to either be Four's magic boomerang changing over time or just the Tingles continued making magic boomerang across the ages (that's how you obtain it in MC).

However, I've noticed (acting like I haven't been in the known since I first played Wind Waker at 15) that Wind's boomerang is quite literally the same as Four's, which makes me think that it might actually be Four's magic boomerang that got to Wind. Here's Four's magic boomerang (MC) and Wind's boomerang (WW):

If you know me you know I think Wind inherited a lot of stuff from Four that he doesn't know about and that he just assumed it was from the Hero of Time because they're called stuff like "Hero's bow" "Hero's Shield" and they only know about time due to how impactful he was for their timeline, yet Four was in fact a hero too, and he comes way before Time so I guess his stories were lost with old Hyrule but some of his items stayed.

Now that we've cracked this conection between Four and Wind, let me make it even clearer with some more examples of items and a little extra fact:

The mirror shield from MC is the exact same you get in Wind Waker, in fact, Hyrule Encyclopedia uses the sprite from Wind Waker for both of them when they want to avoid using the pixelated sprite from Minish Cap, which means Wind currently has in possession Four's mirror shield. Here's both shields in game:

Another thing they share is the small shield, at the begining of the adventure in Minish Cap, Zelda wins Link a small shield, now, in Wind Waker grandma gives Link a shield they keep in their House that belonged to "a hero" (Hero's shield), we all assumed it was the Hero of Time, but actually it has the same design as Four's small shield. Now, I think Wind is actually using the lobster detail shield from Phantom Hourglass in Linked Universe, which is very similar to the small shield, however we can't deny that Wind has inherited a fair share of stuff from four and we're not fully done here yet. Here are the small shield and hero shield from left to right:

Now, another interesting connection I've found between Wind and Four is the bows, in MC you start with a regular bow and upgrade to a Light Bow that shoots light arrows, and if we follow the design it's the same one used in Four swords Adventure by Four but it's also the same as the Hero's bow Wind uses in Wind Waker, which means that he got Four's bow as well and not only that, but the fact that is was a light bow might have helped Wind channel his light energy into it to use it as a light bow as well as a regular bow. Here are the bows for MC and WW:

Now I'm bringing you another item of Four that wind inherited, his Smith's Sword, when you start out the adventure in MC, link's grandpa gives him the sword he made for he winner of the sword tournament, and obviously as the story progresses you switch it for the white sword that ends up becoming the Four Sword. However, it's not out of character to think that Four would've kept that sword like a treasure, it accompanied him at the very beginning of his first adventure and it was made by his grandpa. And now to get to the point, in Wind Waker you're also given a sword by Orca when you start out your adventure, along with he Hero's shield, which is called the Hero's Sword. They're remarkably similar, enough for me to think they're the same and they were kept, wether it is familial bonds that tie Four and Wind or just a family deciding to pay respect and keep the weapons of a previous hero, I like both options. Here's the swords for a side by side comparison:

From left to right: Smith's Sword (MC) Hero's Sword (WW)

And last but not least, this is just a little thing I've noticed but the second link with the most relation to the wind element, using the Ocarina of Wind and having a sword made out of the element of wind among others and a part if him that is the closest to a personalisation of said element, is Four. I just find it cool that they share that connection and frankly offensive that no one else has made it before and there's no fics about it that I know of🥲.

[gadriezmannsgirl]

hi could i request where the reader has hip dips and is a bit inscure for pedri or gavi as u wish thank u:))

Ohmy- dear, you're the best! I have hip dips and it hit me so hard because I'm working my ass off to fill them in with exercises, even though they are not very noticeable, they make me feel a little insecure when going to the beach... So I stopped everything and made this for me, for you if you have hip dips and for everyone who has them too!

I decided to make this one a little different and I have these two little scenarios for both boys so here it is!

Hip Dips -P.G6 & P.G8

Summary: Their reaction of your hip dips

Pedri:

"Amor, ¿Qué 'tas haciendo?" (Babe, what are you doing?)

"I'm seeing my gym process" You said watching your whole frame and mostly your hips

"Well, I get that, I also do that. But you have been looking at yourself for the past hour and half, it's my job to lovingly stare at you for the rest of our lives" His comment produced a smile out of you as you felt hot on your cheeks.

"Tú si eres lindo" (You're so cute) You said turning around watching him smile at you from his side of the bed, he patted his lap signaling you to get closer with a nod "I'm not a dog"

"Ven aqui mi woof woof" (Come here my woof woof) You both laughed as you walked up to him and sat on his lap, your arms going around his neck "What's up?"

"What's up with what?"

"What's up with you looking at yourself so much in the mirror? Don't get me wrong, I love the fact you're seeing that you're absolutely gorgeous" You roll your eyes "But let's not turn that ego up to the roof that we can be left without one because of it" You shake your head "Don't lie please, I was eeing your face the whole time" He said now seriously

"I'm seeing how much I've progressed with this thing over here" You touch your hip where a very common dip, that many women have; lays, making a face "It's barely starting to fill in but I have been training so hard for it" You shrug your shoulders "I don't know, I guess I want to see the final result now"

"I know you do but it takes a bit of time, amor. It's like a muscle that grows" He says kissing your nose as you smile without showing your teeth

"I know but I wanna have roundy really sexy and pretty hips, y'know? Not that flat and dipped part in them."

"I'm happy and proud of you for working for them and for the better" He stopped looking at you before shaking his head "... But you don't need to, you already are looking nice, you are beautiful and sexy just the way you are. Let me tell you, everytime I see you I go crazy in the greatest term of the word all over and over again" He snuzzled his nose into your neck as you giggled

"Thank you mi vidita" You pecked his lips "But I don't know" You said softly dragging out the words before he tasked his tongue

"I love you, I'm happy for you but I don't want you to overwork yourself for something that is normal 'cus other women have these" His hands went to your dipping area "You may fill it but it won't ever be the same because it's a bone thing, it's something that's with you since you were born and it doesn't matter to me if you have it or not. You're beautiful, I love you and you're still the love of my life with or without hip dips"

Gavi:

You let out another frustration groan and threw the jeans you had on, behind your back and let yourself fall onto the bed, feeling like crying.

It was supposed to be a nice day with your boyfriend of a year and half, his sister, her boyfriend and his friends, enjoying the two weeks vacation you guys had in Ibiza.

You were always comfortable of your body and always said what you think, you knew what you wanted, you stood up for what you believed and you always worked hard if you wanted something.

Right now, all you wanted was to be in a Doctor's office as they checked out your hip dipping.

Everything was going on nicely, you wore your best bathing suit and were enjoying in a yatch at Formentera when you saw another yatch with girls, to be precise, girls without a hip dipping.

You saw how the guys looked at the group of girls and even your boyfriend did for a few seconds until his gaze turned to you and winked at you before pulling you into him and kissing your lips.

Ever since that little moment you've been running your mind up, if you weren't inside the water, you were sat or with a towel covering your hips.

Now, it was late and the guys proposed to go out a eat some but none of the jeans, skirts, dresses, jumpsuits you have tried on were satistying your need of looking extremely good.

It also didn't help the fact that Aurora pulled off anything she putted on, she could probably wear a trash emoji suit and she would still look beautiful.

"Preciosa, are you ready? Javi, Aurora and Cristo already left. Mario, Ale and Diego are waiting for- what happened here?"

"I'm not going!" You exclaimed throwing your hands up and letting more clothes fall to the floor "I don't have anything I like"

"What do you mean you don't have anything you like?" He picked up a jean skirt "You love this one" He picked up a black long but transparent sleeve top "You and even I, love this" He point with his shoe a pair of heels "Those make you look fantastic and you love them too" He sighed looking at you and understood your face when he saw you "What's wrong?"

"Nothing"

"Nothing doesn't make you do this mess, it also doesn't quit that beautiful smile I love watching in your face and it also doesn't make you uncomfortable... Talk to me?"

You sighed looking up at him "I don't like how they are looking on me" His eyebrows furrowed deeply

"What?"

"I don't like how they are looking on me" You sighed "Everything's looking bad and it's all because of my dips"

"Dips? What are you talking about?"

"My hip dips, Pablo!"

"Why is this a thing now? You never really care much of it" Pablo shook his head

"I'm doing it now!" He was left in silence for some seconds picking up some of your clothes "You don't have to do that, amor. You can tell the guys I'm not going, you go"

"We, both, are going" He threw a lovely short jumpsuit with sunflowers on it on the bed, he also grabbed a nice pair of sandals, a few accesories and he picked his jean jacket and laid it besides you "Get dressed, we are going"

"Pablo"

"You have nothing to worry about, your hips are the most beautiful I have seen in my life and I love them. You should as well, mi niña. I don't know what made you this insecure with them but I'm telling you, you're perfect and that's something natural that happens to a lot of women. You're not the only one with them dips. Stop thinking badly of them because they only make you unique and more beautiful than what you always are. They are a part of what you are." He smiled softly, giving a kiss to your temple.

"Get changed, hermosa. We're going out, we'll have the most amazing time there, we'll eat and dance a lot and when we come back here, I'll show you how much I love them"

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Taglist: @gaviypedrisbride @stuckinaf4nfiction @elijahslover @azzpenswrld @http-isabela

[quigonswife8]

Namor, Namora, Attuma: teaching you how to swim headcanons.

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Originally was just gonna write this about Namor but because I love Namora and Attuma too, thought i'd add them.

A/N: Okay so in the final script of the movie it says Namor’s birth name is 'Ch’ah Toh Almehen' and I was just wondering if ya'll would like me to use that as the name the reader calls him from now on, or just stick with having the reader call him K'uk'ulkan?

Also: I've been changing Namor to K'uk'ulkan in my other fics I've written, as like he said, Namor is what his enemies call him, and K'uk'ulkan is what his people call him [the script says those in his realm]

I still think [if I don't use Cha'ah Toh Almehen in my fics for his name] that K'uk'ulkan still fits, as I think that's what his partner would call him [apart from the terms of endearment] and not Namor. Maybe, I dunno, let me know :)

Warnings: nearly drowning, that's it.

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Namor:

Namor had noticed how you stared at the water, like it was a stranger, as you walked along the shore at night.

"Something on your mind, in yakunaj(my love)?"

-You glance over at Namor, a chuckle leaving your lips.

"I was just wondering..."

-Hands behind your back:

"...how it's so easy for people to swim. Wish I knew how..."

-This is when he stops, and you mirror his actions.

"You don't know how to swim?"

-He has been alive for around 500 years and you’re the first person he’s met who doesn’t know how to swim.

-This intrigues him, and the perfect idea comes to mind.

"Well..."

Namor takes one of your hands, and begins pulling you over to the edge of the water.

-He stops, but he doesn't let your hand go.

"...let me teach you."

It's night, it's not exactly warm, and you're fully clothed. Still you find yourself agreeing to this because 'there's no better time to do things than the present.' right?

-Since it's the first time he doesn't have anything for you to hold onto as he hadn't known about your inability to swim.

-So you just hold onto him, and he keeps you upright with his hands held onto your waist.

-Gives you simple instructions since, again, it's your first time learning how to swim.

-Some playful words thrown in that makes you relax a little more.

-The next time, he brings you something to hold onto.

-And guides you, at first, making it easier for you to learn with simple instructions.

-Namor is the best person to possibly learn how to swim from, as he knows it best.

-Will give you a nudge along the way and as time progresses and he finds you are getting better he'll give you space. He stays nearby, though, and he'll watch with a smile.

-Praises you the whole time and even more when you become an amazing swimmer.

-Asks for your help when he plans to attack the Wakandan’s, and you let him know that you’ll be there.

-To see you come a long way makes him beyond proud.

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Namora:

Namora had decided to show you this beautiful hidden area of a beach for your second date.

-You can't stop the smile from growing.

"Báab wéetel?(swim with me)"

-Her hand held out for you to take so you can join her in the water.

-Only to be met with the guilty look on your face.

"Ba'ax yaan ma'alo'ob tu láakal(is everything alright?)"

Finding that there is no point in lying, you admit how you can't swim.

-Namora's expression, one of surprise, soon changes into care.

-Then she approaches you, a hand still held out, and you wash as a smile falls on her lips.

"Yaan in ka'ansikech túun(I will teach you then)."

-Namora is very patient. She will be there with you the whole time not leaving you until you are both confident that you can do it on your own.

-Her hands on your waist, guiding you, walking- well, swimming- you through everything

-The two of you do this for a few weeks, returning to that same spot, to resume the training.

-Brings something for you to use the first time you swim without her.

-Though Namora stays close by because it helps to calm your nerves.

-Loves watching you get better over time, and is super proud to see your progress.

-Is there for you every step of the way and will encourage you alot.

-She does give you a nudge if you need it.

-By the time you become really good is around the time when everything happens with Wakanda.

-Namora tells you about the plan to fight them, and since you can swim, and pretty amazingly at that, you tell her you'll be there to help.

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Attuma:

-He had pushed you in the water to get you out of danger but he was unaware of the fact that you couldn't swim.

"A..." falling inbetween the crashing washes. "Attuma!"

-The water, heavy, pushing you down, filling your mouth with it's disgusting taste.

-Further away you're pushed, the harder it gets to stay above water.

-Then you begin to sink to the bottom, the heaviness of the water making it hard to breathe, making it hard to stay awake.

"Attuma." you say in hopes he'll realise that you need help and rescue you.

-As your sight begins to blur, and before you are surrendered to the sea, you're grabbed, and pulled out of the water.

-It's Attuma who pulls his mask off and puts it on you so you can get your breathing back to normal.

-Doesn't say anything until you're fully okay enough to talk and even then he's not sure what to say.

"Ba'axten ma' ta báab?" (why didn't you swim?)

"I...I don't know how"

-Attuma instantly feels terrible because you could have died thanks to him.

-It's not until a few months after that does he go to you and ask you if you would like him to teach you to swim.

-Waits for your hesitancy after that awful event, but he's surprised to hear you say yes pretty much straightaway.

-Will lead you back up onto the surface, taking you somewhere where it's more secretive and gives more privacy.

-Then he turns back to you, "Ts'o'ok a li'iskaba?(are you ready?)."

-When you nod he leads you into the water, handing you something to hold onto.

-Is a bit hesitant at first, which is a first. He'd nearly lost you the first time you were in the water [the first time without a suit].

-Though to see you relaxed and wanting to do this calms his nerves.

-Stays by your side despite you having something to hold onto.

-Attuma is a serious person. He is strong, a warrior, fearless. When he had nearly lost you, though, he hard become softer. Softer than he already was with you.

-Will continue to feel guilty for nearly killing you.

-This is why he isn't hard on you and is very patient with you, because you deserve to be treated this way.

-He owes this to you.

-Will give you encouragement along the way, and corrects you in a friendly way if you have done something wrong.

-He may not be hard on you but he'll still correct you if you have done something wrong cause it helps a lot.

-You're so happy that he's your teacher, you have learnt so much from him.

-When your lessons are over you thank Attuma for everything but he lets you know that, again, it's the least he can do.

-You try and let him know it wasn't his fault that you nearly died because he didn't know but he still blames himself.

[aftgficrec]

hi! first thank you for doing this, you people are amazing, i was wondering if you knew of fics with aaron and neil working their differences for andrew's sake?? just them figuring out how to stand each other or becoming friends on the way??

We’ve got quite a few fics on this for you. The topic of a developing friendship or at least tolerance between the two of them is interesting to many writers and readers, and quite understandably so, given they are the two most important people to Andrew. Check out what we’ve found for you below, as well as the fics in previous posts. -S

Also see…

Aaron & Neil friendship here

‘Who You Were Before’ here

‘aaron's lament’ here

‘If it means protecting you (I’ll pay my dues)’ here

‘Becoming Friends’ here

‘Bonding over Bubble Teas’ here

‘Aaron vs. Physics course vs. Neil’s sleep schedule’ here

‘i won't say we aren't family’ here

‘Aaron Minyard Vs. Calculus’ here

‘We hide from the mirrors, they may show our scars’ here

‘An Olive Branch’, ‘Its going tibia okay’ and ‘Aaron is Neil’s doctor in the pros’ here

‘Confusing Interactions’ here

‘Under The Bridge’ here

‘ten and a half stories’ and ‘tag-team’ here

‘Til Death Do Us Part’ here

True North by elesary [Rated M, 5482 words, complete, 2021]

Aaron Minyard vs his brother, the world, and most of all, Neil fucking Josten.

time might tell by adverbialstarlight [Rated G, 1996 words, complete, 2021]

Neil's packing (or trying to) to head off for the exy Olympic training camp and has an unexpected guest. It isn't a complete disaster after all.

(aka Neil and Aaron finally agree to be proper friends)

I Don't Want To Hate Them by EmmmaMmmm [Rated T, 2285 words, complete, 2021]

Aaron finally makes the right decision, to deal with his issues in a healthy way.

tw: internalized homophobia, tw: implied/referenced torture

All the masks I've left behind by SagaEllen [Rated T, 1879 words, complete, 2021]

Neil does not cry.

Aaron asks for help.

And everything is such a mess.

tw: violence, tw: knives

someday there won't be scowls by Ominous [Rated T, 8101 words, complete, 2020]

part 4 of progress comes in small steps

Neil finds that even with his mind's best efforts to hang onto the wounds of the past, his opinion of Aaron just isn't what it used to be. He can thank Andrew and Katelyn for a lot of it, but his own observations certainly help. When he sees Aaron like this, the mix of worry and adoration on his face as he thinks of Katelyn, Neil can't help but feel too exposed himself. It's a start.

Do you love him? by Autumnalhogwarts [Rated T, 3400 words, complete, Twinyards Appreciation Week 2019]

Andrew goes out of town with Nicky to hang out with his friends from Eden's while Aaron and Neil stay home to avoid the recreational drugs.

Twinyard appreciation week day 4- Aaron with Andrew's people

tw: implied/referenced recreational drug use

Something To Hold On To by welcometosideb [Rated G, 1511 words, complete, 2019]

Aaron was used to being an asshole, it's a Minyard thing apparently, he doesn't care about what people think - except for Katelyn, and now Neil.

Well, he doesn't exactly care about what Neil thinks, but he hate what he decided to call The Butcher's Glare, and, since their little chat at the cabins, that's the only way Neil looks at him.

or

Andrew is having a bad day and Aaron wants to understand what is happening between him and Neil.

Truce by Silveriss [Rated G, 1087 words, complete, Twinyards Appreciation Week 2019]

After everything Neil's been through, he's not easily surprised. Aaron asking for his help, however, is rare enough that it catches him unaware.

(Twinyards Appreciation Week, 6th of November prompt - Aaron with Andrew's People)

confusing interactions (reluctant acceptance remix) by puddingcatbeans [Rated G, 1954 words, complete, Aftg Remix 2019]

Aaron starts to see Neil as less of a complete jerk and more of an occasional jerk.

tw: nightmares, tw: panic attacks

the foxes by shewhoisntnamed44 [Rated G, collection, last updated 2017]

Chapter 11

Neil was going to kill Andrew. How could he do this? Neil was so angry he was saying red. Nothing annoyed Neil more than someone using his own tricks against him.

Aaron taps Neil’s injury knowledge hc by @heymrstargazer [tumblr, 2021]

aftg hc of the day

aftg au where aaron realizes that the only way he can safely date katelyn is if andrew is also dating somebody by @chaosofbattle [tumblr, 2020]

…so he embarks on the dangerous and daring quest of Setting Up Andreil.

Art

Aaron & Neil friendship art by @hi-raethia [tumblr, 2020]

[planetdemon]

I just wanted to be a swan

pairing: bang chan x reader

genre: angst, fluff, but mostly angst

warnings: low self-esteem, body hate/dislike, eating disorders, swearing, food, insecurities, arguing DONT READ IF YOU DON'T FEEL COMFORTABLE WITH IT!

wc: 2.003

note: so this scenario has been going through my head for quite a while now, and I tried writing it by myself lol. Hope it's good ;) I've also sent a request to @channienet about the same topic, so make sure to check her interpretation out as well! enjoy!

summary: Due to Chan's heavy working schedule, spending time alone was a thing you couldn't quite befriend with, especially after you've noticed some changes you have gone through. There is a to change it, but it isn't quite... let's say healthy. How will Chan react, after he finds out? Will he even care? (dude I'm shit at writing summary lol)

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Taking a bath was normally something that should be considered relaxing or calming. You've always enjoyed letting the hot water surround your body whilst taking all the dirt and negativity off that you have collected during stressful days at work.

But lately, taking a bath wasn't as enjoyable anymore as it once was. Chris has been working a lot lately, due to the kingdom stage and their nearing comeback. He has been spending more and more time at the company, working on producing new tracks for him and the kids, often staying at the dorms because they were closer to the studio than the apartment you shared. So you were left alone, by yourself.

Even though you wished he would be by your side while you were falling asleep, you couldn't be mad at him. You knew what his work meant to that boy and you would never tell him to stop doing what he loves just so you could spend some time together.

But being alone also meant that you had to kill the boredom somehow and, thanks to Felix's Brownie and Cookie recipes, you had the perfect thing to do in the meantime. Baking and eating delicious desserts.

You were just stepping out of the bathtub, grabbing the towel you had prepared, and drying yourself with it. Once your body was half-dried, you turned around to hang the towel back at the hanger, so it could dry properly.

And at that moment, you knew, you've fucked up. You couldn't avoid looking at your wet, naked body in the hot, steamy mirror near the hangers.

You always hated looking at it, but thanks to the sweets you had been eating lately, looking at yourself only made you feel sicker than it ever did.

You couldn't tear your gaze off the excess of flesh around your tummy and thighs and the stretch marks, that decored your boobs only seemed to scream "Look at me!". You slowly turned around and saw the tiger stripes creeping up your bum and the undersides of your arms.

'Fucking disgusting', that little voice in your head sneered.

'How could I let this come this far?', you thought. At this point, you were somehow happy Chris wasn't here, knowing he would be disgusted with how you've changed.

You've always felt a bit insecure by his side, knowing you could catch up with neither his attractiveness nor his muscular godlike body. But seeing yourself like this destroyed every little self-esteem you had left in your cells.

-

It has been nearly two months since 'the incident' in the bathroom and you couldn't shake that feeling of disgusts off. Not even for one second.

You only wanted to try a one-week detox diet that was blowing up all over social media, hoping you could lose a little bit of weight, so you would be back to normal. But seeing the numbers on the scale dropping so unbelievably quickly only made you realize that you could look even better than you thought you could.

You kept on following the diet and restricting everything that wasn't included, not noticing that restricting also damaged your mind.

One time, Han and Felix asked you if you wanted to have lunch with them and the others, but fear crept up you back as soon as you thought about the food they would have ordered, knowing that you would only gain weight again if you didn't follow the rules.

So you stayed home, keeping yourself isolated from your friends and most importantly, Chan.

You were lying on my bed, scrolling through Tumblr when Chris' Caller ID showed up and your phone started to ring. You sighed lowly, not wanting to talk to him.

Over the past few months, you stopped showing up at the studio, being afraid the boys would notice the changes your body went through, thanks to the diet. You were happy about it, knowing that you were losing weight, but you haven't reached my goal. You were afraid, they would judge you the way you did when you looked at yourself.

"Chris?"

"y/n? Han just told me that you weren't coming over. Are you okay? Y-" Chris's muffled voice appeared and you felt instant regret deep in your guts, knowing how much fun you guys had when you spent time together back in the days.

"Yeah, I'm okay Channie, don't worry. I just feel a little sleepy. I'll come next time. Promise" You tried your best to sound optimistic or at least not too sad, hoping Chris would believe your lie. "Okay," he mumbled, "I love you, baby girl".

-

You knew you were in big troubled the second Chris opened the fridge, seeing no food in there.

He randomly decided to stay over the weekend, saying that he missed you. You weren't ready for this, knowing that you couldn't hide the signs of the 'passion' you had developed in time.

"Why is there no food?" You fumbled with the arms of Chris sweater you were wearing while looking at the ground. "I've forgotten to go grocery shopping" You answered.

"But there is nothing in there, y/n. Nothing" He walked over and took hold of your cold hands while looking you straight in the eyes.

"Why is there no food?" Chris asked again.

"I just told you I forgot to go grocery shopping, Chan. Relax" You snapped back, getting anxious about the fact that he could notice something.

You were nearing your goal, even though you knew that you could never be satisfied with how you looked. He couldn't just come over and ruin all the progress you've made after being not here for so long. He doesn't have the right to do this.

"Don't fuck around, y/n. You always have at least some butter in your house. Where is the butter? Where is Ramen? You must have some food here!"

Your body started to shake as you heard his voice rise, keeping your gaze low, not daring to look him in the eyes right now. He was right.

You always had something at home, so you could quickly cook something when you were hungry. But you didn't saw a point in keeping food at home if you wouldn't eat it anyway. It would just rot.

"Y/n look at me" he whispered, after realizing that you were trembling. Chris gently grabbed your chin to make you look up at him. You were expecting to see anger, but the only thing you saw in his brown orbs was sadness.

You started to tear up after you noticed it, knowing that he put one and one together. You missing out on lunch with the boys, you not showing up at the studio to bring him food and spend with him there, listening to his tracks, you not having any food at home. It was obvious, but you still hoped he wouldn't notice.

Chris slowly took you in his arms, noticing how your figure felt smaller and bonier than before. It made him sick, knowing what you did to yourself. 'Why would my girl do something like this?' he thought 'how could my little princess torture herself this much?' But he couldn't find a 'because'.

In his eyes, you were the best thing that happened to him. You were the prettiest girl on earth. Warm tears were running down his pale cheeks, dropping to the floor.

He couldn't stop blaming himself for what you did. Maybe if he would have been there, he could have stopped you. Maybe if-

"Channie?" You quietly asked, looking up at his tear-stained cheeks. "Channie why are you crying? We can go to the store and grab something if you want. You don't-"

"Why have you been doing this to yourself, y/n?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why haven't you been eating"

Well, shit.

"What are you talking about, Channie?"

"Don't fucking lie to me, it's too obvious for you to do so. Why haven't you been eating?"

"I... I, I'm pressured Chan" You answered, knowing that he wouldn't believe you if you would tell him otherwise. Telling him the truth was the only option at this point, even though you didn't want to.

"Pressured?"

"Yes"

"Princess, I don't understand what you mean by that"

You shook your head and let go of him, before walking over to the couch and sitting down with a low sigh. "Maybe you shouldn't understand," I said.

"Jesus, y/n" I heard him mutter under his breath. He walked over and sat on the floor, in front of you, looking at you with a scared expression.

"Please tell me what's in that pretty little head of yours. I can see that you have lost weight, but I don't understand why. I mean, you are the prettiest human I have ever seen in my whole life, why would you do something like that?"

"Why do you even care? It's not like you here anyway" you simply said, grabbing your phone, trying to ignore him.

After he noticed your intentions, he quickly took your phone out of your hands, placing it on the coffee table behind him.

"Hey! Give me my phone back, you dump a-"

"Fucking stop it, y/n. Stop ignoring me. I care for you because I love you! You are my everything and I know I haven't been home lately, but at least I tried making time for you and inviting you to the studio", he said, "but you never came! Don't act like it's only my fault we haven't seen each other."

You looked at him with wide eyes, shaking your head. He was right, it was also your fault. And you hated the fact that he was right. "I-"

"Please y/n, please stop turning away from me and closing up. I-I know it's not easy to open up, but I'm here for you. I'll always be."

"Well, I... I couldn't, no, I can't feel happy when I look like this, Channie. I mean, look at you, look at your perfect body and your perfect personality and your perfect everything! I don't fit in. I don't fit in, because I am the ugly duck surrounded by beautiful swans. I just... wanted to be a beautiful swan, Channie."

That's it. You've made it. You've told him what was going through your mind all the time.

He slowly pulled you off the couch, into his lap. He could feel your seat humps against his thighs, how bony and strong they were. Chris shook his head in disbelieve, another wave of sadness crushing over him.

"You are perfect, baby girl. You are perfect in every single way. You always were the most beautiful swan I have ever seen in my entire life. I love everything about you, y/n. I love how your thighs wiggle whenever you run towards me when we meet, I love how curves look in that dress I brought you a year ago, I love how your stretch marks are decorating your body like silverish paint. I don't want you to change for me, because you are perfect the way you are. Jesus, even Hyunjin said you are even prettier than himself, and that means a lot. Please don't hurt yourself like this, princess. You are destroying yourself"

He took hold of your hands and kissed your palm.

"I promise I'll stop working so much, so I can spend more time with my beautiful girlfriend, but please... stop hurting yourself" he whispered, searching for any signs of discomfort in your eyes. But you just set in his lap and listened to him.

"Hyunjin thinks I'm prettier than him?" you asked awkwardly.

Chris chuckled and nodded "Is this the only thing that got stuck in your pretty little head?" He asked.

You smiled a bit, leaning your forehead against his while closing your eyes. "I'll try to get better, Chris" you whispered.

It wouldn't be an easy journey going back to 'normal. Once the hole is there, digging is difficult. But it is possible, especially if someones helping you.

[steviesdoll]

Hi, I'm liv and I'm a writer. I love to write and read.

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Requests are open. If you want to send me one you can. I'm free right now so I could complete your request. I mostly write dark fics but you can also send a non-dark fic.

My blog is 18+ plus though every stories of mine doesn't has smut but they are adult themed. So if you're under 18 please do not interact with my fics. If I find a minor interacting with my fics I'm gonna block them .I don't wanna sound rude but I've to say this to you people.

Here is my tumlr masterlist :

Series :

Love Me Masterlist

Steve Rogers x reader

Summary : Reader is back to New York after a decade. She is best friends with Natasha Romanov and Wanda Maximoff. Through Natasha she meets single father Steve Rogers and she develops feelings for him. She is also the dance teacher of Steve's daughter Sarah. But what happens when they both fall in love with each other?

Status : In progress.

Love in New York Masterlist :

Steve Rogers x reader

Summary : In which reader is the wife of Steve Rogers. They have four daughters and their live is Perfect.

Status : In progress.

Woodward After Dark

Dark Steve Rogers x reader

Summary : You are a vet who came to visit the mysterious city of Woodward hills. The city is very mysterious, people believe the spirit of the last heir of the Rogers family still haunts the people.So no one is allowed to come out of their home after 8:00pm at night. You wanted to find out that if the rumors are true or not, so one night you come out of your cabin. Then you meet a mysterious man after that your life turns upside down.

Status : Yet to be posted.

You are ours Masterlist

Dark Stucky x reader

Summary : In which Bucky asked you on a date but you rejected his offer. So he aquires Steve's help in makin you theirs.

Status : In progress.

One Shots :

I see you

Dark Steve Rogers x reader

Summary : You are a high school student and your life is perfect. Your parents have money, you're the most popular girl in your school and you are an excellent student. Until one day when you get strange messages from an unknown number.

Hello

Dark Steve Rogers x reader

Summary : You got the new job as the babysitter for Kyle Rogers and Maria Rogers children. So you were very excited for your new job. One month passed and everything went well. Until one when you had to babysit the children for the whole night, a mysterious man makes appearance in your life.

Mirror

Minotaur Steve Rogers x reader

Summary : Can a mirror change someone's life? Yes.

Once upon a time

Run With Me

Knight Steve Rogers x Princess reader, slight Bucky Barnes x reader.

Steve Rogers x reader

Summary : What happens when your boyfriend asks you to run away with him the day before you to are going to get graduated.

Will you marry me?

Soft! Dark! Steve Rogers x Reader

Summary: You and Steve with best friends since childhood. You liked him very much but just as a friend but what happens when he forces you to marry him? Will your relationship with him ever remain the same?

Promised

Prince Steve Rogers x Reader

Summary : Reader, the princess of York was promised to the prince of Brooken after you were born. You were to marry him the day you turn eighteen. But you didn't want to marry him because your heart belonged to someone else. So will you listen to your heart and bring shame to your family or will you do your duty as the princess and marry Steve?

One Shots :

Hate You

Dark Robert Pronge aka Mr. Freezy x reader

Summary : The day when Robert first saw you, he knew you were made for him.

One Shots :

Your Stalker

Hacker Jake Jensen x reader

Summary : Your stalker is bored by watching you in the small screen of his. So he decides to pay you a visit.

Series :

Cursed

Prologue Part 1

Naga King Bucky Barnes x reader

Summary : What happens when the reader mistakenly awakens the most terrible monster from his deep sleep .

You Are Ours Masterlist

Dark Stucky x reader

Summary : In which Bucky asked you on a date but you rejected his offer. So he aquires Steve's help in makin you theirs.

Status : In progress.

One Shots :

True Love

Peasant Boy Bucky Barnes x Princess reader

Summary : Can the princess show the power of true love.

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Note : Requests are open. If you want me to write something please let me know.

CE

Chris Evans with babies

Chris Evans being a dork and a drama queen

Chris Evans as Colin Shea

Chris Evans as Mike Weiss

Chris Evans as Ryan Ackerman

Chris Evans as Kyle

Chris Evans as Harvard Hottie

Chris Evans as Lucas Lee

Chris Evans as Nick Gant

Same Expression

Captain Murica