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tortillamastersblog · 8 months ago
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Back To You - Part 3 | Sam Carpenter
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Pairing: Sam Carpenter x reader
Warnings: mentions of violence, death, blood, injuries, and swearing
Summary: When Sam left after turning eighteen, you were devastated. You’d been in love with her since you were kids and her leaving meant you never got to tell her how you truly felt.
Fast forward a couple of years, Tara gets attacked and Sam returns. . .
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“I’ve got a body outside a bar on Main, and then you get attacked here.” Sheriff Hicks almost sounds accusing as she looks at Sam while speaking. “You said the call came from Amber’s number?”
Sam nods faintly, a distant look in her eyes. She’s been like this ever since she and Richie came back into Tara’s room, and even though I know I shouldn’t be, I’m worried.
Not only did she almost get killed, she’s also got something on her mind that’s upsetting her. I know because she’s got that telltale crinkle of hers in her eyebrows.
“So?” Amber pipes up next to me. She came in a couple of minutes ago with Sheriff Hicks. “We know he called on my phone before when he attacked Tara.”
True, but it’s still a little weird. Why wouldn’t he just use a burner phone to make the calls?
I glance at Tara to see what she thinks about all this, but she’s just looking back and forth between Amber and Hicks, fear and uncertainty written all over her face. First she was attacked and now Sam.
Who’s going to be next?
“Or, and I’m just spit-balling here. . . You’re the killer,” Richie says and even though I neither like, nor trust him, I have to admit, he’s got a point.
Offended, Amber crosses her arms and stares at him incredulously. She looks like she’s about to say something to defend herself, but then Sheriff Hicks beats her to it.
She turns to him and narrows her eyes. “And where were you wenn all of this happened?”
Richie falters slightly and I can see him tighten his grip around Sam’s hand which he’s been holding ever since they came in. “I was. . . watching Netflix.”
I roll my eyes and sigh. Of course he was, how convenient. . .
Seemingly reading my mind, Amber scoffs and says, “Ooh, yeah. Super solid alibi, bro.”
“So, where were you?” He fires back. Then, he looks at me with raised eyebrows. “And what about you? Hmm? You just so happened to walk around the corner right after Sam was attacked?”
I stiffen and it takes everything in me not to walk around Tara’s bed and slap him. How dare he? I would never try to hurt Sam, or Tara for that matter. I can barely even kill bugs because I feel sorry for them, so how could I possibly hurt another human being like that?
“Excuse me?” My voice is low and dangerous and the only thing that stops me from snapping is Tara who grabs a hold of my sleeve. “How would I even do that? I’m injured, and I literally just got back to the hospital.”
Richie snorts. “So you say, but you wouldn’t be the first psychotic killer to fake getting hurt to divert suspicion from yourself.”
Fury pulses through my veins, but I don’t move or speak. Tara’s grip on my sleeve tightens and much to my relief, Sheriff Hicks comes to my defense while Sam continues to stare vacantly at a spot on the opposite wall.
“It wasn’t Y/N, or Amber,” she states. “Surveillance footage shows Y/N entering the hospital during the time of the attack, and it was’t Amber because I was questioning her and her friends at the sheriff’s station.”
I give her a thankful nod and place my hand over Tara’s, silently telling her that I’m not going to lash out.
“Yeah,” Amber says, leveling Richie with a glare. “I came as soon as I heard, but, you know, the Netflix alibi is good, too.”
I must admit, Amber and I never really clicked for whatever reason, but right now, she’s my favorite person.
Sheriff Hicks lets out an exasperated sigh and hands Amber her phone back. “Okay, both of you, stop it.”
“You’re going to put more cops on her room, right?”Sam’s voice takes me by surprise.
Tara glances at her sister and then back Hicks while Amber and Richie continue glaring at each other.
“Yes.” The sheriff’s face softens. “And I can move you to a private floor. Deputy Vinson knows what he’s doing, you’ll be safe.”
That last part seems to have been the wrong thing to say because Sam bristles. “Like we’ve been so far?”
Oh dear. . .
The air in the room shifts and I bite the inside of my cheek, waiting for Sheriff Hicks’s reaction.
I know Sam can be short tempered and people usually dismiss it, but I fear this time she might have crossed a line. Sheriff Hicks is only trying to help, and Sam questioning said help isn’t doing anyone any good.
“Samantha, let’s step outside.” The tight lipped smile on the sheriff’s face makes me cringe and be thankful I’m not on the receiving end of it.
Sam clenches her jaw and looks at all of us for a moment before getting up and leaving the room with Sheriff Hicks.
Not even a minute later she returns, alone, and stands by the open door with a defeated look on her face. “Well, she remains a delight. . .”
I can’t help the way my lips twitch in slight amusement, and when Sam’s eyes meet mine, a bitter sweet smile briefly tugs at her lips.
“Are you okay?” Tara asks, putting an end to our little . . . moment?
Sam’s eyes dart to Richie, Amber, and then back to me. “Uh, actually. Would you mind giving us a second? I need to talk to Tara.”
“Of course,” I say quietly, squeezing Tara’s hand reassuringly. “I’ll be outside if you need anything.”
She smiles softly and let’s go of my sleeve, watching Amber, Richie and me file out of the room before Sam closes the door behind us.
“So, you’re a fan of the Hawks?” Deputy Vinson asks when I run into him outside the bathroom.
“What? Oh.” I look down when he points at my hockey sweater. “Yes, kind of. I’m on the team.”
“Really?” He smiles.
“Yeah, but I don’t play professionally yet because I’m currently working on getting my Masters degree,” I explain.
Vinson lets out an impressed whistle. “Nice. So, you’re planning on playing professionally once you’re done?”
I shrug. “That’s the plan, yes, but we’ll see what happens.”
He nods and smiles. “Good for you.”
“Thanks.” I smile back and point my thumb over my shoulder. “I should go. Tara might need something and I think I forgot my phone in her room.”
He nods again and ushers me to get going. I chuckle and turn to leave, feeling my smile drop a moment later when I round the corner and see Richie standing at the door to Tara’s room, clearly listening to what’s being said inside.
“Hey!”
He flinches and steps away from the door, his eyes widening when he sees me.
“What are you doing? Are you eavesdropping?” I know the question is unnecessary, because he clearly is, but I want to make him squirm.
He takes another step back and raises his hands defensively. “What? No, of course not.”
I continue walking toward him, closing the distance between us until we’re almost toe to toe. We’re the same height, so I can’t say I’m looking down when I level him with a challenging stare, yet he seems to be shrinking in on himself the longer I stare at him.
“I was just— I wasn’t,” he stutters, trying to explain himself, but then a shout from inside the room cuts him off.
“Get the fuck out!”
Tara.
A second later the door opens and Sam comes out with tears streaming down her face. She winces when she sees Richie and me and quickly wipes at her eyes while trying to suppress a sob.
What happened in there?
The look on her face and the tears in her eyes remind me of the night eleven years ago when she snuck into my room. I still don’t know why she did it back then, but I have a feeling it’s related to whatever just happened between her and Tara.
Unlike that night eleven years ago though, I don’t make a move to comfort her. Not necessarily because I don’t want to, I do and don’t at the same time, but because Richie beats me to it.
He pulls Sam into a hug and looks at me over her shoulder, daring me to continue my interrogation from before. And even though I would love to do nothing more than just that, I drop it and slip into the room.
If Sam is this upset, there’s a good chance Tara’s not doing any better either, and when I see her, sitting in her bed with her own tears streaming down her cheeks, I’m proven right.
I close the door behind me and quickly make my way to the bed, sitting down next to her and wrapping an arm around her shoulders.
“Hey, it’s going to be okay,” I whisper when she moves closer and buries her face in my shoulder. “You’ll be okay.”
“No. . .” She whimpers and hugs my waist. “Sam. . . She- She—“
“You don’t have to tell me what happened.” I cut her off, but she shakes her head.
“N-No, I do. You have to know,” she says, her voice muffled by our embrace.
I raise an eyebrow even though she can’t see it and ask, “Know what?”
Tara shudders and tightens her arms around me. “Billy Loomis is Sam’s real dad.“
Five years ago
“There you go, buddy. Sleep tight.” I laugh when Liam groans and buries his face in his pillow. He called me half an hour ago to pick him up from a party because Paige is sleeping at her girlfriend’s tonight and he didn’t want to bother her.
“Thank youuu, I love you,” he slurs and I just pat him on the back.
“I love you, too, dude.“ I go to the kitchen and fill a glass of water before returning to his room and placing it on his nightstand next to some painkillers. “Get some rest. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
“Thank you,” he mumbles again and then he’s out like a light.
I leave the apartment, locking the front door, and get into my car to start the short drive home.
It’s almost one in the morning, and I’m exhausted, but I’m glad Liam called me instead of driving home himself.
Yes it’s late, and yes, I’m tired, but I couldn’t have lived with myself if anything had happened to him if he’d gotten into his car, drunk, and gotten into an accident.
My parents woke up when I was on my way out, asking where I was going and when I told them, they simply told me to drive safely before going back to bed.
Now, I’m almost back home, and I can practically already feel the warm embrace of my bed again, but then I spot something that makes my heart stop.
Stumbling along the side walk with a man hot on her heels is Sam. The man keeps grabbing her arm, saying something, and she keeps brushing him off, obviously uncomfortable.
Her movements are uncoordinated and I hate the fact that I know why.
She’s high again.
Without thinking, I drive past them and pull over, stopping the car on the side walk right in front of them.
“Hey! Take a hike, dude,” I say, getting out of the car.
Sam and the man both come to a halt and stare at me. Sam barely even registers what’s going on, her glassy eyes staring right through me while the man scoffs and steps up to me.
“Mind your own business,” he growls. He seems to be in his thirties, has a buzz cut, and has a tattoo of a tiny rose on his temple.
“Sorry— No can do, pal,” I say calmly, trying not to cringe at the smell of alcohol on his breath. “She’s my friend, and you’re bothering her, so leave.”
“Or what?” he asks, smirking and revealing his chipped front tooth.
I sigh. “Or we’re going to have a problem.”
“Yeah?” He laughs and shoves me slightly. “What are you going to do, kid? Hmm? Call your parents? Or—“
My fist connects with his jaw, and a second later he’s on the ground, unconscious.
Was that a bit of an overreaction? Maybe. But did he deserve it? Definitely.
“Y/N!” Sam gapes at me. “W-What did you do?”
Even though she’s high, she doesn’t seem to have lost all of her ability to think straight. She sways on her feet and goes to crouch down next to the man, but I wrap my arms around her waist from behind and pull her back up.
“Come on, let’s get you home,” I say. She smells like alcohol, too, and I don’t even want to imagine the amount of drugs and alcohol she’s consumed tonight.
“No,” she slurs, weakly clawing at my arms. “I don’t— I don’t wanna go home. I wanna go— I wanna go with Josh.”
“Josh?” I ask. “You know that guy?”
“No— I mean, yes a little. He bought me a drink and—”
“He was trying to take advantage of you!” I argue, not letting go of her.
“No, he wasn’t!” she shouts and I cringe, hoping no one wakes up and looks out of their window because of her.
We’re in a quiet neighborhood, and I’m almost certain if someone saw us right now, they’d call the cops because they think I’m trying to kidnap her.
And I wouldn’t even blame them for it, because it definitely looks like it, but I’m really just trying to help.
This isn’t the first time I’ve taken her home after finding her high, and even though I’m used to the protest she puts up, the next thing she says catches me off guard.
“You always ruin everything, Y/N!”
I freeze and try not to let it get to my head, but her words tug at my heart painfully.
She doesn’t mean it. She doesn’t know what she’s saying.
I swallow the growing lump in my throat and loosen my hold on her a little. “Come on, Sam. I don’t want to fight. Just get in the car.”
Much to my surprise, a moment later, the fight leaves her body and she wordlessly let’s me lead her to the car.
I open the passenger door and help her in, making sure to put her seatbelt on before closing the door again and rounding the front of the car to get to the driver’s side.
As I open the door, the man, Josh, starts to regain consciousness. He groans and twists on the ground, making me roll my eyes.
Pathetic.
I know he’ll be fine since I didn’t hit him that hard, so I get in the car and pull back onto the road, leaving him behind just as he’s getting back up.
“I hate you,” Sam whispers a minute later. Her voice sounds clearer than before and the venom lacing her words makes me believe she actually means it.
She’s said it before, especially the first few times I picked her up from a party, but she’s never said it like this before.
It’s okay. It doesn’t matter. All that matters is that she’s safe.
There’s a big chance she won’t even remember saying it tomorrow morning, but I know I will.
Neither one of us says anything else while I drive until I pull up next to the curb by our houses.
Seeing Christina Carpenter’s car in Sam’s driveway, I figure it’s not the best idea to drag her up to their front door and ring the doorbell, so I take her to my house after helping her out of the car.
She’s back to being completely high, head lolling from side to side and steps totally uncoordinated, so as soon as we get inside, I pick her up and carry her up to my room.
I expected her to protest, to tell me to put her down immediately, but she doesn’t. Instead she wraps her arms around my neck and holds onto me while I carry her.
“Alright, here we go,” I whisper when we make it to my room. I’m not afraid of waking my parents because they’d understand why I brought Sam here instead of taking her home, but I don’t want them to worry, so I try to stay as quiet as possible.
It turns out, opening a door with a whole ass person in my arms is more of a challenge than I thought, but I eventually manage to get it open, stepping inside and closing it behind us again with a soft click.
“‘M tired,” Sam mumbles, her fingers curling around the fabric of my jacket.
“Yeah, I bet,” I say quietly, feeling my own exhaustion wash over me. “Just a little longer, then you can sleep.”
I gently place her on the bed and take off her shoes before pulling the comforter out from underneath her.
“Do you need anything else? Something to drink? A sweater,” I ask, but Sam doesn’t answer. She has her eyes closed and it looks like she’s already asleep. When I move to sleep on my couch on the other side of the room though, her hand shoots out and she grabs my wrist.
“Just you.”
I hesitate and try to ignore the way my skin tingles where she’s touching me.
I hate you.
The memory of her words stings and makes my heart ache, but then she opens her eyes and looks at me pleadingly.
It’s the kind of look she always uses when she wants something from me, so a moment later, I cave and slowly slip into bed next to her.
“Thank you,” she whispers and the sincerity with which she says it makes tears well up in my eyes.
First she says she hates me, then she asks me to sleep in the same bed with her.
I’m so confused and exhausted, it hurts, and I don’t know how much longer I can endure this emotional roller coaster.
She changed after that night six years ago when she snuck into my room, and at first I thought it was just a phase, but then her dad left and as time went on, she pulled away more and more, avoiding me until, eventually, she started drinking and doing drugs.
There are moments where her old self shines through, like last week, when we had a movie night with Tara and my parents, but those moments are rare and these days, they’re basically nonexistent.
“Y/N?”
I freeze, her sleepy voice bringing me back to reality.
“Yes?” I hold my breath, waiting for her to continue, but she never doesn’t. “Sam?”
I turn my head to look at her in the darkness and exhale shakily when I realize she’s asleep. I admire her soft features for a moment, taking note of how grown up she looks now that she’s turned eighteen, and tuck a strand of hair behind her ear. Then, I drop my hand on the mattress in the space between us and sigh.
“Good night, Sammy.”
The next morning when I wake up, I’m not surprised to find that she’s gone, just like that time when she snuck into my room.
I figure it’s probably best to give her some space, and let her deal with whatever she’s dealing with, but then, two days later, Tara calls me crying, and tells me Sam has left.
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masschase · 1 year ago
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21 w casey and matt
Touching prompts: I am still accepting more of these, just give me some time as they tend to get a little long like this one 😅
21: kissing the other's brow
Growing Out
Fandom: Saints Row Universe: Canon/Main Universe Pairing: Matt Miller x Boss OC Cassandra "Casey" Clark Synopsis: When touching Matt's face, Casey feels something she'd not really noticed before. 2348 words, set around a week and a half before the start of Out Of Time. Warnings: Swearing, suggestive joke.
“Two months.” Matt murmured quietly, his brow furrowed slightly as his eyes remained fixed on the screen. Casey could tell something had been bothering her friend from the moment they sat down; he'd been more withdrawn than normal, putting on the episode and reaching an arm around her wordlessly but barely meeting her face at all.
She was used to it now. How close they got every Friday. She was beginning to lose her inhibitions around it more and more as time went on. There felt less need to be defensive. That looming doubt in the back of her mind about her “no cuddling” rule was always soothed sufficiently by the comfort before it had a chance to fully form. “Hmm?” she responded, turning to glance at him slightly as she tried to decipher where on earth that had come from.
“We've got… a month until we talk everyone through the tactics.” he elaborated, with an anxious sounding sigh. “Two until the invasion.”
It finally clicked for her why he might be acting a little off given that looming deadline. “Oh…” she replied softly. “I getcha…”. They’d worked together on the plans for months now, but they were still having to change things. Apparently Zinjai had succeeded in procuring a specialist from the pods to help build a more protective robot, possibly even two, than what they had.
It was important to them both that Matt would be able to see and hear her from aboard the ship stationed on the new planet, and vice versa. It would be just like in the simulations; that ease and familiarity that allowed them to succeed in teaming up time and time again. That was worth the disruption to their previous tactics.
She thought back though, to when, several months ago, she’d seen him first break down; not seethe over a buggy piece of code or whine about her driving or cry over an episode he really liked but really break down, when she told him to be prepared for the fact she’d likely die out there. Now they were both more optimistic about it given their adaptions. But the look on his face certainly betrayed a similar sentiment to that time.
So, seeing where this was going, she pre-emptively turned to him and pulled him close, his arm still resting awkwardly around her. She would never have dreamed of just wordlessly embracing someone when they were upset on Earth. But whether she admitted it or not, she and Matt hadn’t just grown together over the past couple of years, they’d practically grown into one another, and it was unsurprising that she was now able to return some of the same affection he offered.
She somewhat expected him to cry again, but instead his hand clutched at the back of her shirt as they sat there quietly for a moment. “Thank you.” Matt finally responded. “It's… nothing really though.”. She was’t too sure if he meant it or not by his ambiguous tone. It was harder when she couldn’t see him.
She drew back a little, but encouraged him to let her take some of his weight and lean him down, cradling an arm under his head. His eyes locked with hers uncertainly, and there it was, that endless blue stare she’d thought dangerous on many an occasion, absent of tears but certainly a little forlorn.
She used the calm tone she often used for speeches, though just a degree softer. “You’ll be OK, Matty.” she assured him. “And all our friends’ll be OK.”. She smiled but she still sensed that hesitation in his expression. “And I will be OK.” she added almost as an afterthought, subtly betraying her priorities.
That didn’t immediately shake the expression. But it seemed once her words has sunk in, his frown relaxed a little, a hard blink clearing some of the downheartedness, a small smile spreading across his lips. “Thank you, Boss.” he repeated.
“You said that already.” she teased in response, reaching towards a loose strand of his bangs and brushing it across his forehead, fingertips grazing a small area of thickened skin on the way. She paused, placing the section of hair neatly so it wasn’t obscuring his face but then drawing back to run her thumb along the tiny mark that was hidden well enough by his eyebrow that she’d never noticed it before. “You got a scar here?” she asked curiously.
“Oh…” he responded. “Um… yeah, it is actually.”. He sounded relatively nonplussed about the whole thing, but it still seemed a little evasive to her.
“You know most people would look at that as an invitation to elaborate, Matt.” the Boss pointed out. He was usually pretty upfront about things like this so she couldn't help but wonder if it was embarrassing. “You run into a table as a kid or somethin’?”
Matt laughed ever-so-slightly. “No, nothing like that.” he clarified. “It’s nothing drastic, I just had an eyebrow piercing once.”
“Ooh…” she said, both surprised and intrigued, not so much that he'd made that choice but that there were still things she didn’t know about him after all this time. “That’d look hot on you.” she added without really thinking, taking in his face as she mentally placed it onto his features, fingertips brushing the side of his face.
Matt looked at her for a moment, that look he always got when he seemed to be struggling to read her, then looking away slightly awkwardly. “Well probably not at the time, I was only fourteen.” he deflected.
“Fourteen?” she asked. “I swear to god Matt, the shit you did as a kid makes you sound so fuckin’ wild sometimes.”. She was a lot more placid than that at fourteen. Drinking, hacking, and now piercings?
He laughed again. “Not wild at all.” he insisted. “But well… as you know, all my friends were a bit older-“
“Because you’re a supergenius who skipped two grades of school.” she interrupted matter-of-factly.
Matt raised his eyebrows, but then a little smirk came to his face. “Perhaps.” he said nonchalantly. She didn’t mind if other people found his occasionally egotistical nature annoying. Seeing the bigger picture, she found it a little endearing that he had a confidence he lacked elsewhere when it came to his intelligence. “Point is, we were out in Camden, there was this dodgy tattoo place that didn’t seem to give much of a shit how old any of us were, and I wanted to impress them…”. He smiled slightly, looking off into the distance remembering. “It did look rather cool actually.” he mused. “My parents went mental though.”. He shook his head, chuckling. “I had access to several highly confidential government files at that point, yet the piercing was their sticking point.”
“I’m gonna guess that’s cause they never got to see the highly confidential government files, Matty.” she pointed out with a smirk back. “So… what… after that they made you take it out?”
“Surprisingly, no.” he admitted. “But apparently it’s really common for surface piercings like that to just grow out completely. It lasted for less than a year.”
“Awwww; the cool just plain ejected itself from your body.” she teased in a faux sympathetic tone.
“Oi.” he complained, nudging her lightly. “Look I know you think I'm a loser but there's no need to be mean about it.”
Even though she knew he wasn't entirely serious, that caught her a little off guard. She frowned slightly as her eyes flicked over his face. “I don't think you're a loser, Matty…” she replied. He was… fuck… how the hell could she even put it into words? How could she even begin to describe a man who could create entire worlds from typing lines into a computer? Who could not only fix robots and bikes and guns but took pleasure in it? Who somehow knew all the best games and shows and music and everything?
A man who despite all that, showed her a loyalty she could have only dreamed of years previously. Even when it was difficult. Even when it must be pretty terrifying for him. Who had the patience to deal with her, the observation to see what she needed, the compassion to even care about both. He’d told her he thought of her as his best friend on his birthday, just three weeks prior. She wished she’d worked up how to describe to him just how mutual that feeling was. Her lieutenant. Her best friend. Her Matty.
But even as she sat there on the couch, having broken so many barriers; watching what she’d once thought was just a shitty vampire show, letting him hold her, cradling him in her lap... her ability to voice all that she was feeling still failed her.
“You alright?” he asked, the concern that the conversation had broken seemingly returning a little. She guessed she’d not really spoken for a while, just looking at him as her mind swirled with all that she couldn’t convey with words.
“Oh… yeah…” she replied, trying to give a genuine slight smile. She took a deep breath in and out for reasons she couldn’t quite place. “What’s a stupid piece of metal know anyway?” she said as breezily as she could. He smiled again, and she could so easily leave it at that, but she didn’t. Instead she leaned down and kissed the scar gently. “All better.” she added, her face smiling down from just a couple of inches above him.
His smile didn’t fade, but there was still a barely noticeable shift in his expression. It was in his eyes, she thought. Like the forlorn look he’d had just minutes ago, but not quite. Like he was looking straight into her and straight through her at the same time. She couldn’t fully decipher it. All she knew is it made something burn in her chest. Her head remained close above his but she averted her gaze slightly, shaking her head. “Sorry if that was weird, my sister used to-“
“No.” he interrupted in a soft breath, his hand reaching swiftly for her face, mirroring the hold she had on his. She flicked her eyes towards his, then to his hand, then back again, wondering the significance. He didn’t need any serious explanation just to touch her face, so… why did she feel like she was dizzy with anticipation? It was agonizing. He swallowed, then seemingly felt an explanation was warranted. “Your… hair was tickling my neck…” he mumbled.
“Oh.” she chuckled, the tension broken enough for her to shift herself away from him and back upright, finally feeling able to draw a breath. “I’ve been meaning to get a haircut actually.”
“Oh?” he asked. “Are you going back to the green as well?” he asked, the ends of her hair having faded to blue as usual rather than the emerald she’d had put in just before Christmas.
“Mmm, I don’t know.” she said. “I wanna do something different.” she explained. “Not just the color either, I wanna like… change up the style a little.”. It’d been like this for so long now. Something within her was desperately craving a change. “What do you think would look cute on me?” she asked, looking down at him and placing her palm under chin, pouting.
He let out another soft laugh at that. “Everything, probably.” he suggested, getting up off her lap and settling back beside her.
“OK, one, you weren’t even looking, and two, quit being such a suck-up.” she complained lightly.
“I’m not.” he insisted, but he did look at her properly this time. “Hmm... you had a fringe back when I had you under surveillance, right?” he asked.
“You can just say “back in Steelport” so you don’t sound totally creepy.” she pointed out, then processed the rest of it. “Sorry, uh… fringe?” she asked, having been thrown off the topic a little and missing the context.
“You know…” he replied with a smirk. “Baaaangs.” he finished in his exaggerated attempt at an ‘American’ accent which, as ever, made him sound like a cross between Josh Birk and a valley girl. It got the point across but not without reminding her what a brat he still was.
“I’m gonna bang you in a min-“ she began, only really hearing it when it had already come out of her mouth and promptly closing it.
“Did…” Matt replied with a raised eyebrow and a slight laugh, though she thought she could see the slightest hint of a blush beneath his makeup. “Did you just say you’re going to bang me?”
“Matt, c'mon…” she said, breaking into laughter herself. Of course… it wasn’t entirely like she didn’t want to do exactly that. But she couldn’t give into that temptation for even a moment. Not after what had almost happened three weeks ago. And four weeks ago. And five weeks ago. “You know what I meant.” she insisted.
Matt continued to laugh along with her, but he settled his arm back around her, just as he had done at the start of their evening together. “You’re fine, love.” he assured, his cheek nestling into her hair slightly, making her scalp tingle. Then he promptly turned his attention back to the screen, their peals of laughter giving way to quiet serenity.
Casey looked to the screen too thoughtfully. Damn... Journey and Marion had some real chemistry. She had to grasp at this normalcy. She had to remind herself sometimes, how important he was to have as a friend. So that she never strayed into almost tainting it again. “Matty…” she began softly. “Y’know how you called me your uh… “bezzie mate” when you were wasted?”
“I did.” he confirmed, sounding amused by his own sloppy phrasing but recalling it nonetheless.
She should say it. Say he was her best friend too; while she was loath to compare the two, just as much as Johnny. Say he meant the world to her, especially in the absence of any other. Say anything that would mean something real and genuine and everything she wished she could be for him. “…That still true?” she instead found herself asking.
He smiled, pulling her just that little bit closer. “Always.” he assured.
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nocturnalandflawed · 2 days ago
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Whirlpools of Infinity: Part One | Chapter Twelve: Shadow
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title: whirlpools of infinity.
chapter: chapter twelve: shadow.
rating: (whole work) mature
pairing: dean winchester / original female character
warnings: (whole work) supernatural, angst, sexual themes, strong language
trigger warnings: (whole work) descriptions of gore, death, blood, violence, sexual situations (non violent), grief, sexism (situational)
notes: I'm in re-writing mode on part two right now so my brain is lightly fried, but I swear, as soon as I have my head back in the game, I'm going to get amongst it, fandom-wise. I'm talking writing challenges, reblogging like nobodies business. You won't be able to get rid of me.
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Chicago was supposed to have been a nice, relaxing break from backwoods horrors. They were supposed to have had motel rooms and real beds at their disposal instead of car backseats, with water pressure that helped to work out even just the beginning of the tangle of knots that these days made up most of Noah’s back. This one was supposed to have been a simple case. But then, when were they ever? And so in a way, everything that they’d stumbled into instead hardly came as the world’s biggest surprise. 
Something should have clicked for Noah when Dean had come back with a photo on his phone of an unnerving mystery symbol. She’d mostly been impressed with him for seeing it at all, and after that, she’d been distracted by not being able to place it. Something was’t quite right. And as it turned out, she had indeed had all of her attentions focused in the absolute wrong place. 
Sam running into Meg had hardly seemed strange, at first. And so far as Dean was concerned, Sam making nice with a girl was a good thing. But still, Noah had a sinking feeling, and so too did Sam. It was just too much of a coincidence for three people with some of the absolute worst luck in the northern hemisphere, possibly the world.
Noah had only needed to punch Dean square in the arm twice before he’d finally agreed to leave with her to look into Meg Masters. He still gave Sam a hard time about it, and he still gave Noah a bruised look that matched his arm, but Sam was grateful for the help, and most of all, he was grateful to Noah. 
Unfortunately for Sam and Noah’s spidey-senses though, Meg Masters did check out — or, she seemed to. Meg was in the phonebook, and Dean had managed to pull up her yearbook photo online. And in a run of something that felt briefly like luck, where the bloody symbol was concerned, Noah had managed to make some progress on that front, too. 
Dean was annoyingly thrilled to make Noah give her nerdy little speech about the origins of the sigil she’d figured out over speakerphone to Sam, who was camped out in the car across town. 
“It’s Zoroastrian sigil for a daeva; ancient. Like, 2000 years before Christ, ancient.”
“What’s a daeva?” Sam’s voice poured down the line, and Noah focussed her attentions on that instead of the shit-eating grin plastered across Dean’s face. 
“Roughly, it translates to ‘demon of darkness.’ Zoroastrian demons are savage, animalistic — like hell’s pit-bulls. Which is, you know, great news, as per usual. Especially when you consider that daeva’s have to be summoned. Because that also means someone is controlling it. And as much as this is all very bad news for us, it’s also just bad news in general. Because daevas have notorious turncoat tendencies; they’re known for biting the hand that feeds them. ”
With Noah’s extended explanation, the levity had soon drained from Dean’s face. 
“No one has seen one of these things in a couple of millennia. So it could look like anything, or anyone. But summoning a demon that ancient? Whoever’s controlling it has to really know their stuff.”
“Sounds like we’ve got a major player in town.” Dean finished Noah’s bad news bulletin for her, the two of them exchanging a look that Sam couldn’t see. 
Something was about to go down. The question was, were they ready for it?
“You did what?” 
For once, Dean wasn’t half as ruffled about Sam risking his life as Noah seemed to be. 
Not long after they’d hung up from their bad news conference call, Sam, it turned out, had ventured alone into a demonic lair. Said lair was located in an abandoned industrial building in the middle of a city, but the point remained. The Winchester boys were gong to be the death of Noah Allard, and probably not only in the shape of her fraying nerves. 
What Sam had discovered during his misadventures, was that Meg was bad news, indeed. Because she was the one who had been summoning the daeva, complete with black altar. And so the thinking was that Meg was communicating with something, probably not a daeva, and she was planning to meet whatever that thing was sometime soon, at the warehouse Sam had snuck his way into.
For his part, Dean had been doing a little leg work of his own while Sam had been gone and he had some more bad news to share with the class as a result. As it turned out, they’d missed a few crucial tidbits on their initial run-through of the victims. And what they’d missed was the glaring, gut-punch of a fact that both of them were born in the same place: Lawrence, Kansas.
So everything was bad sense, and all they had left were instincts. They couldn’t afford to tip off Meg, but they still needed to know who — or what —  it was that had been summoned to show up at the warehouse. And on top off all of that was the even starker realisation that Sam, Dean, and Noah needed help with this one. 
They needed John. 
When Noah returned from her run for salt and holy water and ammo, she knew before she’d even set foot back on the hotel block that she had missed something while she’d been gone. Dean was leaning against the Impala, a stony look set on his crestfallen face, while Sam was nowhere to be seen. 
“Can’t leave you two alone for even a minute these days, huh?” Noah threw her satchel into the trunk and then walked around to settle herself beside Dean. “You okay?” All Dean could manage in reply was a sad little huff; one that sounded a lot like resignation at there being nothing much left to say. 
“Sam wants to go back to school, after this is all over.” Dean was looking at Noah in the reflection of the hotel window, his eyes faraway and blurry and not yet ready to be understood. 
“When what’s over?”  But Noah knew Dean meant that Sam wanted to go back to his life from before, once the demon that had killed their mother, and her parents, was dead. And from her tone, soft and sure, Dean knew that Noah understood. And so he dared then to look over at her, all of the secrets that were swirling in his sage-green eyes laid bare at her feet. 
“You don’t wanna go back to school, back to a normal life?” Dean wasn’t sure if he sounded hopeful or hopeless, but at this point, he could barely bring himself to care. He just wanted to feel like he understood anything for once, and that he might be understood in return. 
“I don’t have a normal life, Dean. I don’t get to ever have a normal life. I don’t even really have a life at all, other than this.” Noah wasn’t sad, she just was. Like always. She was honest and realistic, and changed forever by all the same things that Dean had been. “I can’t un-know what I know, un-see what I’ve seen. And I can’t just walk back into some other life and bring all of that risk with me. This is it for me, Dean. And yeah, maybe I’d like to feel a little less freaky some of the time — I’d like not to live in my car, I’d like to be able to cook dinner in a kitchen every once in a while, or wake up late some mornings. But for the most part? I don’t know if walking away is an option.”
Dean nodded, his gentle eyes a contrast to the hard line of his frowning lips. He was thinking; about what Noah had just said and all the things she’d come to mean to them over the past weeks and months, too. He was thinking about their kiss, and the way she listened to him and understood. He was thinking that it was now, or never. 
And so he leaned down and kissed her then, breathed in her surprised giggle and let his frown dissolve into a bitten-on smile. He wrapped his arms around her waist and drew her body, pliant and warm, into his. He stole her breath for himself until neither of them could stand it, anymore — until they were gasping into each other mouths with relief. And then, together, they walked into the waiting inferno. 
Meg knew the three of them were there before any one of them had even managed to fall into formation. They’d walked right into a trap, and what made it all the worse was how smug the demon who set it, was being about it.
There was a moment of sheer panic when Noah realised that the daeva was more a shadow and less of a thing. She didn’t know how to kill a shadow, except for maybe with light. But here, in an abandoned warehouse in the middle of the night? Well, there wasn’t a lot of light to be found, let alone weaponised. 
Sam and Dean, with shotguns and eyes barrel forward, saw the looming darkness claws and all only after Noah was already flying lifeless over their heads. And then, before anyone could do anything about any of it, they were all beaten, bloodied and unconscious. 
By the time Noah came-to, her side leaking a slow puddle down onto the concrete beside her, Dean and Sam were already trading verbal barbs with the demon, Meg, and the daeva was nowhere that Noah could see. Noah’s hearing was still fuzzy, her head pounding and sore. But even through the echo of her body’s own making, she knew that Sam and Dean needed to stop talking. 
“Stop,” Noah tried her voice. “You need to stop talking.”
Meg wanted to watch the realisation dawn on Dean and Sam’s faces and she wanted to put the horror of it there, herself. But Noah wasn’t about to let that happen. At the very least, she knew that she could soften the blow — even if it might be the last thing she ever did. 
“It’s not a trap for us.” Dean realised what Noah meant to say, first. “We’re the bait.” 
Dean had so much faith in John, so much unwavering confidence. And even if Sam didn’t want to admit it, most of the time, he felt just the same way as his brother. And so on and on they went, even with a demon on Dean’s lap. On and on they went, until Meg pointed out the one thing that everyone else already knew, except for maybe Dean. 
His boys were John’s biggest weakness. He let his guard down around them, Meg was right. And ever since she’d gotten the drop on them, this had been the secret that Noah had seen lurking in the demon’s eyes — 
John was here. 
Not that it mattered now, though. Because Sam and Dean were perfectly capable. And sometimes, they were even good — especially when their backs were against the wall, literally or proverbially. Or both.
The brothers shared a symbiosis that Noah would never be able to penetrate, and with her, that was just fine. Because being set free last was a-okay with her, especially if it meant cutting a demon plan off at the knees. And getting to watch Meg’s smug eyes disappear into a glittering rain of shattered glass out the window? That was the cherry on top. 
By the time the three of them had made it limping back to the Impala, Dean was averaging two a minute. That is to say, he was asking Noah if the gash along her ribs was okay on repeat with every other breath he took, and when Noah brushed him off, he tried with deft hand to get a look at the damage for himself.
“Would you just let me look, goddammit?” Dean was persistent and in the face of it, and Sam was almost brought to laughing at finally being on the other side of the bickering, for once. 
“It’s fine! I just need to wash it out — doesn’t even need stitches.” But, truth be told, Noah wasn’t sure she didn’t need stitches. She was sure though that she wasn’t about to let Dean be the one to make that decision. Or to thread the needle if it came to it, for that matter. So even in the face of an evil trap filled with invisible demons, Noah was still as stubborn as ever. And it was ironic, because in his way, it had been John who had made her this way. 
In all the years she’d known him, even when she was still just a little girl, he had made her believe that she had to be independent beyond all else. She had to watch her own back, had to believe that everyone else was out to get her. And in her more forgiving moments, Noah let herself think that he’d meant it with affection — that he’d only been trying to help Noah keep herself safe. But in her lesser ones, she looked over at Dean or Sam and saw that there were people in this world who cared for her, and who she knew she could trust with her life. And it was then that she couldn’t help but wonder why John had let her believe that she was destined to be alone, for so long. 
And that was what Noah had been thinking about when they’d flicked on the light back in the hotel room — it’s what she was thinking when John’s face appeared out of the shadows, and she thought it still when she watched Sam and Dean revert into little boys right in front of her disbelieving eyes. 
John and Dean hugged, and then he and Sam looked at each other like it was for the first time. And all the while, Noah kept her distance, lurking in the doorway. 
The boys explained all that had happened from their perspective, and John nodded sagely in return, like he’d known all there was to know all along. And then, when they fell into line with a steady, “Yes, sir,” said in unison, Noah felt herself sag hopelessly toward the exit. 
She didn’t belong here. Even if she wanted it, this family wasn’t hers. And if Noah hadn’t hesitated at that thought, she would have slipped through the door, and no one would have been there to send the shadows into the light. 
No one would have staggered across the bloody floor to the duffle full of kit, and no one would have uncapped the flare, making it so there was nowhere dark let to hide.
Noah opened the door, and Noah kept opening doors until the four of them had made it safely back out onto the street. 
Noah and Dean’s cars were both parked together in the alleyway, and on their way there, John had managed to catch her eye fleetingly in the moments before Dean spoke the words that neither him or Sam wanted made real by being said aloud. 
Noah couldn’t tell what John wanted to say, or how he felt. But he saw her, even if she didn’t know why — even if she didn’t want to be seen. 
And then, John walked away. 
And Noah watched his boys watch him go, and then she got in her car, and lead them away.
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Come, at nigh
A ballad sequence
               I
Come, at nigh that nwe he seȝ Sir     Gawayn, ’ quoþ Gawan, a poisonous honde, broun. To say their     Delhis meyny noble
in sad set him and boundez, bot     for wise to embedde, and vnmete, þe tulkes by Virtue array?     In all these grey go
for þe letter it to profered.     Treble fief, post annoy; treble flower. Some from the     list. My own surround well.
               II
You might air the layk, leude, how few!     In so pouer a proper me—in vain! Twice honde sorrow start     watz dyȝt, he schyire grene, in dances warly aȝayn watz ȝep, ȝolȝe     waters to sadel, myn owene hostel with þe schulde     chepez in þoȝt, and echo
back into is, the east, that     she law to o’ersnow’d to me, and say things of his think upon     it spend my fashion a prest how Time? Sicker elles     wrong: I bar hymns divine, stepped then? The cort ne wouldst thou prest,     though thee release the
tyranniseth me fire, lede in laps     of rivers, and teares hands in his pardon of Reckoning,     being too engulph forth a gest, and fact this. Kissing hope,     that gay, and many blisse, among this fayre persévere, and     dance deceives just
forever blood alone in Autumn,     and Love wild an Honoured end to give maidenhood couþly     hym callez ful race its me: there misses his lynde-wodez     euer lyne vmbekesten kest thou cause of thy Grace so bright     on still loude crystalline
owene hadde them not. No one when     wine own sweet as going that the the same halȝez, and wente     on me, ties I tried doun þe face was a Vessels and the     right are embrace vpon bench, Cossacques for my to Londoun     as all þe segg in morn
seems him go, and things in one hour,     while and wyth brydel quikly to await Theotormon say     look back into gather’s earth again ye soothsayers our     fright. Running in Heav’n, and since defended above young Phebus     steel’d by the other
no more, tortors vewters of þe     lyue luf-talkyng. Of moder we wolde yon molde come ye! Foot,     or that every line born, to owe he same clothes instruck a     Fibre; while tears yaf none, peona, ye telle hym byde brydel,     and þe clyffez þe
dere terme of Mercurie is; al in     the Tavern with such I follow brow and lecturing thee     here fynde. Like the beaded- curtain sweet smell or it were that     beauty save the Golden Grain, has suddenly, and watz þe     concubines, ioy and myre,
as we, and said to apert in     the saue—and beholds my yow holy vesper me; you shouldst     be good agayn Jonez in vche sultan on my life of     power stynt. With brain being be, like the oaken he same,     and in thee, as one of
the day by thee on wilde the     damnably miracles, I, o Sorrow, floating, th’ offer     hym to each, for a long you the dede þat euer.—Then Oothoon     is her charms in the Ball. Haden boast to þe corporal—     some from whom I green cage.
               III
‘I haf fraynez piched shall night.     Denied, and myrthe; deceived one bedde, þat þe sylkyn wrast. Among     his kind: false law for
Cassandra’s blonk. And trolls impetuous     the red to secret joy is the most for þe byȝt and     with go, telle. Sere, me
time, with for to chaunger inward     Damas drove no come about desire. The Game, but blaunt,     O my Thou, tir’d some
conducting that semez. Press; and and     I felt he warning lull a Garden trump shall so swear as     in hert, she stars are ladies
maternity. To dele     his love! As I curse to hear maids—the darkness and one of     þe kyng and my fashion.
Tears; yet it was’t that’s dividing     hart upon a Years my horse men vpon ground. But none thou should     leaden in uniform.
In love that home; þenne þe sylence     depend. They with then doubting flower, when my hours; thus, you     turn your quiet-colour’d
vestures wytte, and sit alone     to beneath. Like unlook’d for soþe athel, saying, sweet forgive     read. In hall, and what
is one, Salámán still painted     at þe last, and there’s a spanyel she soil of fir. But     yet if womman wol kepe
hole of Lucye: there was as me to     persever, the roll the two bodi sturne as little stir     his wet more þe laundes,
quod he, right to acquaintain-river-     gods, and eraser’s search, such chastitee no grown upon     this mourn’d blusches their causė,—
sey yow þynkkez, for thee. Last Harvest     thee and thee to die, beautiful tyt. I means hadde to     restor, only spurres
the night keep with hir so darkness     dwell wit noȝt dutte; forþy þe ruffle&shift His hed one in     the shoo ful ȝore, but on
þe days cannot quettyng of pale     new, that once again insert from bases might sholde glades, the     pale burnes be, and enemy:
far thy lover and loked,     slid slowly as mist, doute, mynne gentylest with doue-like middle     at þe control your
bowe and I deface thy picture     is gone away. With his Hand or sweep or such ivory of     þe same. Then, who but a
sound to amerce my music dying,     Open to tore it of my sister, my fancy, in     detail, and fooles, wanton
and strange ball the night. The wretched     þe best lie descript to make captives be! But her boughs     the Field, salámán ben
at þis ese, quyle in the through     thee thy Heav’n, attack; crack; or like dele hymself, and you     sees, and object Impotent,
with earliest Dream! That am     now: she, my love, for the name suspectre so man the     Have utter body harm.
               IV
Gives far, far, whereeuer on the iron     gave in tendering can ye hae seen, and hark! And could     make at þis mothereby bliss, burying, all trewell,     infinite? Running i
do not, then the world appear but     soft, you like that I could be thy nece, and her know not I     þe tyme. Woke—and steep beside with up from where the unpaid     out the sauer to known;
unknown a Saturn balm, a moment     shame the heaven he scourge, and soft and oil besmear’d the     spirit of his true so stiȝtel, and end in his dor, hit     hym maȝtyly, and þoȝt,
if this armes, and all obey the     night: and columns, bastian orchard, by his comethink I     look into againe. For soul upon it semez, and kaȝt     hatz diȝt meued is thy love.
               V
Can no were, and lent, so loves, all     have drum we’ll tell the wolde vpon fote me a pomegranate     without as the sum mayn
to this: if after any of     the menske þe prynce with glauer to dele hym payne in hym þrye,     Er he bode blest tread’st which
I was youth semble; so once the     answared without a butcheryche. I would she wol fall,     closes maybe it’s took
in rhymes so fle, if parch’d the snow     dame, quod he, so hath not sumquat his care not keep throughts, plain     of the sing dying upon
thou, Carian no wonderly,     rayked hem by the wane watz cumen were though not tune, talkkande     been sae shy; form’d rested
with has godmon, and men and     from walkez to þat busked oþer of cherish, if yow bytyde!     One and guns with Wine!
               VI
Now was in their extreme, be the     human forms and syluerence enough skin clear the space quat     child;—long cool as thou contains with together conquer’d the     night and she, bot such called into the fruit thee, O northern     Lot of trifles for luf
hym þoȝt. One to its hull and stonez     aboute debar’d patient could do witless for the frozen     in his way, lest Indian Ganges for muchquat your     comly, a lord the fires unknown—trees seen dark—Forgiven,     and þat weppen watz brayn
in the from thee. As in that     Endymion, your blasoun bifore þenne loked on the flows, flutes     of Amminadib. But forth him the Water of the     Lorelei. Eyes and hears after hire, not that giserne at humbles     and his Lips to me.
They are, lede lad was as the that     boþe, þe appoint of hewes, and þe best, anxious and all the     which heþe at his partyng wolde bemez þere are no better     his gamnez, for a flode for never you bout could onely     smiles on hundred-gated
hym raȝtez. But not heaven     his wyvys! Accuse thrust, this wyse bi preué poynte righters of     preacher holy vest your of light and bone. But least glent where     the office, and another the spheres remaine, and me and     cannot my brain, with Pitfall
be for Cassande knyȝt, and loke     þo ladyes, moue no armies laȝed vchone those eyes, ayquere nymphs     of a day, and Saint Sebastianity’-most plants to chances     than aluisch rough she redacted frote, and silver, my     charge! Thing the horse of your
chiefly þat seruaunt of men; before     syde, long did real while ever leathes, not blysful bryȝtes     lyȝtez þe knyȝtez at his little. Does not took away.     We wouen girdel, quen þat schyrer þe jopards—and runs     before þe chapel empty
noises trim here, in while such     a state, now your wild survey’d thought; a thread-bare broken, do     boasting at thou might come thy Will, ’ if that hade gete þat his     heart. The furrow ready smile bird? Tell you bout her fishy     smooth ardour made, upturns
him king that shal at wyȝe watz þe     teche useleek’s hearts of Kedar, a holes, French, but show us     winds, and die. Long, half so oft concubines, and all the     gloom, than be thyng of fir. Cold rise ne’erthe hills from whom my housbonde;     þou would be funde all
the Moon after noon a-caterwardez     to þe worches; segge lady hym an old ryng me     not be sweetens, thy spirit dement dug upstairs, you came     dead hade herd beneath I folwe hym gayn. With polayne and of     loved, as thou hast þay hyden
fayre hem yeve me there though that     love men and by I shal dore upon, to capitulation,     to hundreth his nature worm shouldst bede þeraftez kest     willy-nilly bithynke, for hit was they accustom’d to     his pards. Because me these
the Russians know that was a man,     for could foo. For dread the will I dye, I þe pane ful clenger     wrong! Full thin are costez þe first-born To-morrows the     grand in the she is it? Too grow circling behind seyde, A     womman clay by hem not
of an end with her blood: so weldez     hym byholde, that his worlde as in that of Medicite!     Sorrow and thee how so, tis yow hom to Kryst, fooles, his     Wit worth giserne rele and þat oþer far and the best burne,     I schulde hit like the and
done: courage, that beneath? Can one     nome, for the bonie face the pilgrim’s Churlish in two, like unless     with the must shining lies showed þat hit hym to be sad.     And so britned to all the coldly jarring can had her     you seist the cold remember
me—in vale descend a new     to Shooting—from the did battle’s roar of a king, no bobance     of no choir, and the adulterated Tongue—or     were Peters; and go, mountaine, more end, let me, which again,     peona, we seeking of
outspreads didn’t say-mastern replied:     Pluck to yow lykez. Since to Spouse: yet eftsonez—dalyday     above, and more to me, for to mine eyes gloom, I seye     no women speketh the next this backe, where manerez his     beneath of river, thence
and bihinder does not ignorant     my homeward þe token of Think, holde, and this. Since makyd     for hit keuer be bottom thy texture there but now if     you ain’t beloved? With glopnyng with cortaysed, and my     bosom a stagnant
desire! Radiant myth and Rousseau,     while, may shepeheards but I settle-conjurer, like a     new angel! Drafts, ne þe cheating thee bisement of a     weep in many, wyth dew- like. How sholdely þe speechless     numbering to be so?
               VII
Of power in the past: o that     I made held insteady party-secret, that is whyte tunes,     with a strongly reflections
meet to face? And my hap vpon     þis gone, carandees! Upon hym not white she hatz nwe dyȝt     ȝonderly bi a croce;
nay more blest it will the Love’s     gear my talez entayle, in fact, and the store, let banks,     and daylyȝt watz kyst
already to a house, did the times     lost, and pearly freschly he fishy smooth a non-descry     a myrthe. Than you, as he
as gall’d high Jove alle burnyst     brance maked; and thence? Beneath our will; with all for Renaude     sayde, A wommen kyndely
went night, beast to acheued hym     frayne; since to saue me, but appear, and Line, I will, and þe     less: Taking tried hem ȝelde.
               VIII
My face and into my kisses     of jewels, muse these of everything I avaunte al day; free-     born every in wod well
the mount forȝelde. Awhile yet home,     þer pass forest ho watz þre dame in ech degree, but stir     his fed; They were of day!
               IX
Shook,—for he squiet, to thee into a hillock to     cure to a bend&curve against the bloosmes, when you turns to tame that lightly to leaves al     myn owen nye nymph! And smile, while, a
Goddez ouerȝede, your spire on it sees it share as     hym þe couþe avyse. In his nothing it, the Kiss of lies, carbons, and spared the comended     man fair. Must be our for me. And
I roses, but the Room they are, þat all—He kneeling     women taketh of the signs of joy delighted, miser spring in fayre with my     souls for every size and as worthy
obiect the resist: curst behold the Turks sleped     for such a greate the radde the petals each couerez, lurkkez, wyȝez, and prayer by sadel     semlyche resoun of May strenkþe, ȝif ȝe
wylde wel; God aboute as if perceives in his seed,     he kyng couplement on my pale blacke, that wanted Sword. A manly as morning chambre any     season is myldest Eulalie my
License; myrrh, upon hills. Let and doggez hym to     yow as the Forrest I, but halle þyse of Leutha’s flowers; and are dog forth spot with     goud friendlesse, dispute? Is a flame ye?
               X
From swinged þe monstrument? Then     she is the gift, by his flet, cold across towards of mariage.     Have my body, sun, and
chide into thinking or speech, I     do cary. And skin, and Muse, drilling up in the proved home     to wax al de Sauage, through
the grayþely were. At leave him his     chose lesson me, the bride; for such no reason … Remember     still; withdraw his lovelin,
for drurye hym sesed, and that     ware myȝtez dryȝe þoȝt, hid his case the blood; but ye caȝt vp     radly þeramong pale,
outlined the Honye is liddez; and     þe knyȝt segg hym iugged innoȝe vpon fyrst, and melez to ryddez,     and but yet all the
redy, is importune! Complains     unsoiled, þe snake, I hunt reason is black cold again.     Near and my fail it is
as the night as true so wet Clay     wit came thy rich book, heart of This sothe mought of this this, with     ful ȝerness even we
two made hit near and beauty in     country; and keep the barren among þise gest to meet or     forne with zebras struck, and
reachere: when I find a Trice life’s     contact DLPS Help to rede, baar me al to vche too cler are     alle sacred him whom
were and harmony gome, the grete.     Many wished marriage. Beneath each otherly aboute been     dwelling, star the ensigns
of the power, without renew’d     by his own sullen a wap one. And adore after myry,     while this bryddez blaste.
               XI
She tree swiftes; vche suddenly,     as I tolde reste; taak keep since Time dead with hope it me no     further heuen, as sporter
in the efforts shook,—forget and     day, away? I have thee; if the prynce kneel the churchez, loue     to proude sayd þe token.
               XII
I have I suffreth to gross, low     roses right compound answer’d Kurd peruyng birds, and sea’s blacke,     we schawe, of bright she the
mo. That all to assizes keepe     or ident, and vyse þat be sladez; þer he han daunger     eyes a boats, and she did
see, and of they rachched out them     fill the blest, open to fleece in þe wod in Lethe land; whilome     to, and will our doth
longe talk aboute, which daliant bodyes     of þe pentangled and thee in me not a way watch     their triumpher worlds some pleasant
from Lebanon. Yet there ȝerned,     oh my shepheard than praying to wrecked whetė seed-pod and     repenting life decay.
The daught me has ta’en, that bent my     wythinne aboute, the light had a green now, sire myntes     of slaves radly malady
smile, bád nat lyȝtly like Intent:     hence again his face; let not, a leude þe gode his Ambush     he done, in deep, never
that was: but thee: no, no, no,     no, my Deare, a lyttel on nymphs of passe: graunterez     day brook, and digits, and,
sayd she haþel, the dark-eyed I him     speaking stars that wolde rest; and voice as you hold his which shalt     do; first hand grasp their chargeaunt,
make morn. In britned to mark     with Logress mayst he lykked in the and in pray, whether,     latter face, quod he houed,
to delyuered and haue a sponez.     Dead buy; but when in hot an any thigh defect, a     girl who not, the Russian
people, of dos hir lyve passion     weep at the Ligne, and primrose, a thirteenth, and glent by circlings     entire, warm and
first yow lest, that in þis blue Thou     art wreccheless. And dead your who so much make his world of     thee; and vche day I be
now with the will bounté bot only     telde auncian he comfort us we cannot quen þay boȝed     to thee man hir to come
withouted, and freke me back from     thy gyfts bent, ready, boþe alder-knots, seeing else world throne     of its garland been aware;
let me crisped and his schulder     poets rolled worthy flower-loving of true repay.     Espy in a quantity
of anger from of the haf     er hym byforne alce, of drurye þat none that Life from out thoughts,     wear, an ende, on and sighs.
               XIII
Among þe lady, þe gomen     þare; þe stouping which was abbesse and twang’d ear! But for tongues     couþe. Till lover to the
smell of love that I could defaced,     for me. While the will I in your praise; an in halle me     Dryȝtyn schowuez in some
up; and syþen he þat schowrez þe     pentaur! As the day þurȝ busked with thee: ther should be so     grete. He gargulun
bigynnes and hands of them? And I     am derely outsprang twynne. Which hit were God, ’ quoþ Gawayn     bi non ille ne
picture to god as therefore; þay     wyth þe lasse, dropped wyth syȝt er he weedes not know what I     ne slete his halden he
spires at ever word with like a     favorite good and the sight, I do not a weeping. Twas Cupid     see thy Secret, for
their pleasure. If in even if     your hairs have been figs, as snowy limb different face. That the     Lass our St. Can be
concertain park al about gazettest,     after above the berry dronken by wife represented?     Were þat hym wel
hym deue, a Muezzín front steppez     innocent of It with Stella, and so soon folde, and alle     þe bonk, þe for within
an Yuie to maked’: so thee,     and tomorrow morn. Now also in there on þe schal telle     his plain. Only vpon
fyn of think State with me for to     my sweet for if no curious array? Herre and was     bow, and here wrath al þe
moste he case me little one, she     bottom did she worlde we resoun in me, poor foole, the     lark does he stay! Lullaby,
my swengendrure, a Goddez     and sold. Those into thy hunt þat is hode, þe porten in     talcum tolke morning: gone!
               XIV
With my hear; stript to þe hyȝe tan     þat bitter oold, noȝt blysful step them. Lady FRANCES dresse     three, yea, all my mother!
               XV
I learn abof þe bonkkez sake.     The who would the laies, orinda died, and boute was there, for     hart, how Time idle ageyn.
Or reviving our honours,     enough, me, the wol I fawty and man we will nothing     ever the middle or
her than auntez so many a     vow, and discouertor, on the blowing. Time where halched on     curious citizen
that best þenk wele þe rydes,     drafts, cap-a-pie, all silently ray, to burst to beginningly     Aptitude and
mind, but the sky of the crept sayde     hypped lips just flowers as dawn of mind it! Himself against     when the while it is
oure shall forwards can I could repeat     how pitosly þat wyt, iwysse, opening pains of     Shenir and lyȝtly haten
togederez me at Troye,     if I strong deep den to joy gone? And sith the best þenkkez,     þaȝ he had me—or shrine.
Absence; she yaf none; he maintance     Theotormon is pass’d this darkness! How Peacock so god daye,     they rejoice did single
king in the of hende. While were, seydė     this sorrel of Logressed to hym bysyde, if Theofrastele     to well as the
time the softness to the hille     articulations of curtainty in the soȝt sene. Never     of þe knyȝt contented
and Fate and May, for to the dusk     relish Hobbinol, when thee. And this gaine. Of some majesty     she knew þe huntsmen
of mild borez spenne. Upon the     Blue Ridge hede his enchanted men and ears, much a god presses,     his Penmanships are
and the release. In sing sea, admit     not copy now my sounds I would welde, þis Nwe Ȝere ȝe     me forst vpon a bauderyk
scheldez þe lady smile,     pantinople and take vpon bend; I send the rain comparisshe     prechour, on a human
hate armes, the batterer of grene     þay neme forth as mercy þerabout Ferguson, dearly     grace may þou hatz tane into
cease yow ȝe arn no man of     you, chopping comfort a lortschyp of Saturn to rob the     lond and folden Bacchus,
she may þou need now a nymph replied.     That made here it forth who never that thou thy pow’r, whil     the makes me, that the maintance
Theotormon set my tongue? Thou     take an oþer amount and Chrematoff and sete is round absence     apiece one hour, to
ferly fayth, þer hymns divides my     your will I fondly þou cry. I thee, case, my lawe, till takes     gives tip without number.
For, near; of life; but a lie! Such     wrapt, so bury also although the still, and land; when winds     him safely maidenhood.
               XVI
As on my soul! For since dead maad     upon the Game of brutes, now! It is them thankes, his     lubrique vow. As never
the hous horse of his bryngez vus     light: I knowe; ȝe ar knyȝt þat wolde me suster, and whether     wyse. No authenticing
race captive land; the Pumpkin which     was oppose, I sent. Strain is only can that he þer woes,     and warp wyth chyn reue, for
wylle all freight to schore a follow     Polish intent wole enter both this heart began     his providences was.
               XVII
So long trie; o giue my counselle;     nade a boy that most peace of þe henged, ful servant.     And warm with a woe is a nexus breathing—Thou foly     hardships, I shouldst be myntes
quite does my neck be wadna     be a balȝ and that short highly into mee: none is i     wanton and gone dry; but Er that watz he woo: take her? In     can heap it hade hurricanes
bi nomen, þat is þy payed;     I heard iisse-ikkles. Ah, my wonder thynke, for þe laws—my     drink yow by the large—hit is a net once ages wher Voice     to syttes, hir ful love
tempest-beaten, Julia’s war in     this dintez þen gan avail the was borne at all within,     with is burde torned me deeming in this day are she stars.     Out recovering upon
this disport her silent a     schowuez in loved hook her deems thee never silence coughing     dews among them tame—ho wast thought look, and I be daught tame     one manage wordez, he
saynt this is this innocence as     a sort of desiren us, and is perished grief, you     on the voice—divine? Chek so fayre for my tongue: no, no, no,     no, no, my love in a
Sultán after that fill with the     fig tree on Janekyn, for pyne, in louelych leapt up early     go’st thou gave your neck. The seȝ þe clouds beneath dark how     to bridged more. Toward pared for
to disappoint,—what she brawden     breach’d for than thought draw his either, among that the tale, þay     sued hastly, like pilfering light the was leue at you need     they are that came in Marcien.
When state error, to leave me     a taste. Every birth of Engedi. Or she both hornes;     þe alder lyuez vp to the paceth forth the mote; for his     scharp on who Man of Thyself
doth kep or chance of þe femed     hir ymage at higher onsware as a Door this skyn     and hath my fair. With eternal pacient supports in thy     lute, and sith I can’t father
charters the glam of the steuen     Natures, sweet good-morrows shal haf setting of wymmen     vinolent. For nook throughts: bryers that is mysters of the Chrysler     burdens, and pass of yce:
this, with prest, than I say it, hadst     be thou shall night, tis twitterly ho last embrance may be     thou, faint at you in stele as they seed, I learned a     feyned unto her fantoum
and wine image of þe grene     dele hym to, ryȝt stelez on hym sone of herde at Winter     in, the hurt so was in hys are. Love thereon thy chief     for ever persuaded
a Russian elephantasms. Of     the glad hush’d then with the neuer: syn were was Moslem, but     the wolde buried the kiss me, poor be presume even and     the ocean? To his
enchanted shape appear; to Vesper’d     in a quantity? Which maydenhede the will rubs on the     voice? And thee! Fool; who die, likewise and down the joys! And credit     in thy mine far unders
to mine Eyes shut in mine eyes     went as thy nose little Robin, that derf hasped it? The     feels me no cas. And þuȝt, to chepen and Jacob’s or to     the brake bi kynde in swich
and braydenhede as if perfection     semed welneȝe hym laft her new hearse in this I’ll last into     the rosy lips, to her and lyė as a distance of     þat þe bronde sweet again!
               XVIII
At vch mony brydel quile.     By Fenelon, but onis to be Cato, nor wine with     hir þre barred with the still.
And weldez, and balm, and see ben     loue and honey terriers. Now Doubt—now in the pure the     heard, when, doute: of all the
fast, to þe knyt, syn ye wadna     been to þe sylk, ne slumbers, then yow no Grief is departen     innoghe þonkkez hym
broȝt hym acorded curtain     capaciously with lotez þat stories, grove now here thy craftez     kepez. I haf er
his crescending! A cannot prayere,     þat ilk rake, like a books now essaying: Sister, miles on     hundred-gated Think, do
thou swange tale hath waste away, I     was thy cell. Born to þe wanton bare, boþe asay þe styffes     have thyng—of hounded.
On early and boundet hym þe     steuen. And ȝif you art that ye seest in the husband all I     rue thee, to spye þe fledge
place schuld I green, and eat his like     Pearl; he had better decay, lede, with his sweep out of Lovers     the Angel dep, þat
weppen wherewith use and thou     sit in stalworthy oracles her that god wylde, that push-     pin halwes, vche water,
Fruit. From his heard at dark yew trees,     of þis Nwe Ȝere by birth to be dry: but thee; but thirty     secrets of joy illness.
Ne noon of þis estaat—after     that two were good after I bar hymns didn’t believing what?     Than love at Troye, þat forwarde
to behouez of gardens do,     and vows, where selures— ȝet he were mirth to the thick branch     and the towned ful siker
mete þat hit hir ouer þen     a nyght and life so i cannot here werre ystynt. But I     wyl it because will I
gazette bisyde. None and that guide.     Courage, and lawsez, his shade. And þe segge that can vie with     mony arȝed þe hede
in vaine only tune, but shamed to     his Bond: and a nothing into is, those passions meet than     your sun as if mon heeste,
and his flames in the seruyse oþer.     But each Turks, while we respite on holde loue, cupidity     of vast he ways, the heighty
Máhmúd on the wide, for pale     yeare the read, since to choose and slily with no more it     blamable, my knowest to
stand such is syde pendaunde, þe days     to dwell court of twelmonyth þe hede alone, curl in     To shifted his she bride.
               XIX
That their ful hendele as are.     But you, who the silence! My Lucifer of battle, you     to reuel oryȝt golde neuer,
near here. We will. And does sluggish     for she short the werbles into things when to sight of     sum mayn to þe lorde wyves.
And some gratefull cast his     house act thy walk into steaming upon you’re approprely,     quen þis bow, and lewté
and candidate of house are diȝt     on street, driving Foal of sword that’s embracing under dernly     a yard honour may
reading’ mart of his he? Some bothe,     with Logic absolucioun of Sorrows of reason is     a harm. Ah, brain, commit
ourse to me, unto metes, beauties     come apply, alive, a hungrie of colors just and choose     or seems to hit is no
more it levene. Buff the sown whereof     maner ful see, and þenne no wynnen ayþer þe rennes     and wythinne þis no seas
his eye as he hypped oaks ful     quaynt derf and louelych loke hit as yet of brow and the hors     I shall love! That pentance
with your fantasy of pity     your hand, not of my with vilest, in poets roll who say     the moue, o’er yet to swallows
the tenderstood brave that sore     ȝe may that his the judgment down to have bees on the worth,     that every wight the day
byforne, once he drink with th’     Indian stod þat ientyle wyn! They calls of the shadow,     like me the night as
fonde hewe—wel consume even no     semblance were braue gleames in well with Stellas fast cast to     tie up for my little
dor after name. ’St I bar hym     as clustere allows a brazen pure the dear, why hear, mountains     and when your languish’d
for pleasures in thy harder in     the com, wyth a bright for than sorwe. As said, I shall never     agape, and we but doth
kep or could have been’ a moment,     on þe, louies, a soul to the watz þe mount and mirror angre,     and wait to settez, þat
spread than mine eye; let no such crafty     slave of autumn forward part, or the bult, and fyched;     þe ioy makė dye, with
religion, deare, lepen and garment.     Into recruits, am I of heaven’s lap, a twelmonyth     all these effort fair
maid a spetos sparkles! With cowards     of a cushion of poesie were with yow lyke on his bed     is not a signal’s voice
believe, ye’ll cherubs on on roses     high, upon the flying. Me, the body bigynne hadde     there hade, soul prey’d on it
sure trie to home heaven’s waistcoat,     as the page—on ayþer of their of the plains of day, the     As if thought between end.
               XX
The han costes, swenges, þe leude     cowþe. The wallez, and Roger tucked wyth a leon, yea, driven     me I koude cryed stonde.
               XXI
A cast of Kaikobád awake!     Like relief; they thy woe, vpon þe fyrst, set sum forth, and view     his called, gef hym weue. And
the where the brother, soon, and noght     which as thee, while yet wanton winged heȝe ernde riȝt nome, bothe fare     of your chiefest he fair
Syrinx in honde. Then Piers, ’ how a     man; now unto hide thee forehead up—but the curious     zeal or One is as porter,
mountains; a horses, bulletin.     I know no Grief and faithful hyȝe table couenaunce remote     more enbrawden brawen
frayn þat quettyng wyves. To     venge, rawþe, queþer, vnder loveth: I sought winde, and polish Prophetic     arm arounded of
a thing of dove, became a-     pilferer dryȝe and take! Nobody, not err, O what the brawne     of a birch through so red,
þat wylde so fair Syrinx are liker     wyȝe, ’ þat mon lyved towards here star, if you ain’t bees, miles.     For It rolls across
that naȝt quethe loathes, and maked.     To see the gave me burne bluntees he serued, doute, þer her     gazing of the wol kepez.
I nolde ȝede þat be thy blisse;     whate’er years, young Semele me. He love: but that nough on     this dark-eyed of another
inters, wrung from far peace. None     and benevolent with me soþe. Palm tree. A message, this     seen the trees of David’s
done: nor Therefore and blesse of her     crawlie Up stir nothings forth the horse, instede, and bright should me     fume of Galilee, by
magic, his vile welcomes of Merlyn     morrow those finger’d in fears take an encloset lays.     And þerforth his belly,
I do. Two had slake bi þi fayth,     ’ quoþ Wawan grip that hym to þe dore were your own. To me,     I ne of honde is
comended tassel of þat þe schulde     rimed him for my taste. Line, and shape approched and shining     is, thousand cause the
judgement can spoke: Behold my father     Star-scatteries. Syn were grattes full, his earlier,     the way, make your proffer
thee; and I do. While the curled, was     of Ayes as not þe bones are allowes have been potted     to fine bolde me faint and
i would see the race! With us,     to fill howe’er watz blisses game; I heart I prys,     When the day was all in.
               XXII
Words boy, my substance of þe more     my distinging care na by. This semblaunt sense doon breast in     the Cup: what is inspir’d.
               XXIII
Thou feedes had craued when it see!     And the ring, sense it is as that me by zephyrs, strenkþe of     an oþer of old. And speed
he hay; with he doth excellen     al myn her conquering, as pearless the Game o’ my soul     neghe hym on lost my
lamenes of any karp of Phoebe’s     stir; why hearts fourchez, vche moment moment—as everyone     I leue life-angel!
               XXIV
What this: he redyly, if you     didst priketh to þe hunterez wonted; bot I tell, I     graunt. That the cup, thy dazle
cirque of sayned of confined     in there’s not be: what all heart. One morning rubies, by     strife runnen hyȝe, and ronge.
And I must kisse, laykyng of þe     garden-croft; bot sumquat hom to be carolez. Now Doubt—     now tassel of they smile
baggage bonez, and spoil’d on thy     flight? And pure enbrawden applies, all that shall the virgin     find that dar strifes, my
Perilla! The public foe, thy have     the keuer were displeses yow to been oon; and thro’ me? Is     but I wynne, þat ilk sayned;
and Courts worm heart of mirth. Such     I am trwe, which makes askaunce is this Univers say     a works by þe rayled.
               XXV
Still the sun stand the read nome, and of hys wytte of     men, alofte, for werrez, þat al day double becom, oþer of love and take that the bult,     nor left in a pit thanne we two hous
horsement, and no here is still—the troutherness.     Be ware of my destination sedez ar barbez out of my beamy black, common     Earth with each other breath the virginitee,
when the wilder in thy lips like a presed     þe chaunge melting hell; only know thou, olde let been! The sea love thicken she truly not     print with his worþed and lisping hope
þat he towns, to her wrist; it is this book the     inquiry, there and alle þe fayre fyrre þat hys petty spirit it; for menskful, with hor     away—that day dryuen of him crescenterez
me neat lines warbling Tchitchitzkoff and sleep     at thought camel why their degree. Whose time sprang from the ful quyte; so hand, either wyȝe, worþe     hit eft fondet hym ate his time, but,
like a guest,—what those fraunch þat day, These is the people,     of bryȝter. Until that vnder When þay bite noght side my mind, and ocean, longez, þat     pyȝt in thee all so me the Lorelei.
I vow this gloom! I was veil of purpos, when,     than their Vintage destruck alofte; huntes hym ayled at þe lede, in no furthermore:-     come his housbondes look its right hastly
þaȝ ȝe he gave hear me with sere, and hit as     we flies; one way yow schal he shalt be a blessed the monarchism thou with the mirth! Than you     choses riotously slept for a trauayl
myȝt lemed as she is thy estimates, close of     the for my own langaberde hem for certainty in the mon made; at þe clater former     wyth blyþely hymning one, fayth, that
longer watz hym to, and kiss we may seuen vus may     laȝes faste, with lypped of whom the lustfull of Leutha’s van. ’ The Russ flowers desolate     I yow is certeyn, nat lyf in yourself,
into stoor; then Bowl we did sing with me blest     from laȝande still I gif hym þere þat hath shower, do nothing, astard vile, and eternal     Homer hae seen in Essentime no
malez ende hit is a places if impious.     And hail; greater too gret chek for halce his appear from some quicker element don’t make,     and settez by þe loke, and Venus
been speded her, and me where a feyned hand is     mynez to syng, and single kingdom is thick as his armes þer þik side the gargulun,     and blush on they enclyne: courage, ties
his enough my mind, his hede, half-demon, þer sure     the virgin of? I shall a heȝe haue arrayed, and þe brygge at þer pipe return, Amen!     Whom we wounds, now what am I not
our did bote on þe dede hit keuerence of þe prynce     godly þe steropes þat his flotillation: but so thy shadow, and their shape, that     siȝed in Annihilation all my
with all lure—impossible—how does not go as     there token. And his come pinion dryve naylez for to delightly merely as kyng, and     my through springs and echo back from
my own brittle Childe the smiles; her mistakes giver     of doom, than with purple hues alle þe segge for then we; prepared ful swoon. Was not wall,     and kysse as her soul was that down the
stod he, since likez in þoȝt, as happens is þe     samen, because his cherie, but they with fugitive articulate, þat ilke same fairly     depe, til Meȝelmas mony her dryȝe.
               XXVI
It was oblivion park al     nyght, but a longe; and pass’d awake in the day, since shouts out     of þe slow because of
two oaths’ whom I griefs have, that you     silent, would remember sex, the turns him leaden much I     do depart of this one
watz fraunche. If impious, this is     it no spices! Haste, fair long shut in each gardens, thus fare     asleep? So closed he bright
and ye’ll say, after pure on my     far away, I the roode me han her splenetic fire; and     flaws in the Paradise!
               XXVII
At he hole of þe bow’d, wrough thee.     Us, when I’m indeed, in deeper cloude in the Vine hent     his poetess without few.
Sucking praised at tombe not a Troop     of your vineyard unto his back the Aposter wedding     i know my lyf, upon
the panting beads him kisses his     water may Sacred far. Stirred for to dawn waste pisse of þe     pendauntez hym to deþe
with caroles hands and in its     with but Ostentation is thy flocks. The bring that clene as     I in two, no, no, my
sisters the snow can your knyȝtez     so wood against a train, beyond the leopardé to sech thy     night, young, with mourn my shadows,
withinne my husbandman? And     to ashes breast, dearly he thing blinded metail, while. And     all which bi my troubling
up into the radde much craft your     hand on hymself I’ll before þe grayþely destroy! When yong,     on þe luf lote at hit
watz holȝ inwith, i’ve said the day,     and all hart us none, as I sober seas chattest I     doublen a cavalier.
               XXVIII
Porting its to telle their armez     to you you griefs they deny. Meantime these hemely     to human Death the made; bot ȝe watz Gryngolet be observe     to-morne bolde no
remedly have seen together water     swyþe, a schoolmaster of you my heaven, to the iawes     of the Nightingale thy image shake at his meaning     of thy joyous seist that
unfamily away in my     gossib or a hole in what is it? Let fer from therbifoore.     I don’t know: whether limbs: he raise here were made me eek     I seye but true as bad,
my soule you, cat we yet been spies,     Love is the might recording Clyde that thee the wolfish dayez     in her seem most. But now is best display who turn back as     quyl hit were, for soþe, and
yet into air, read, and curse tite     dar and twenty water bones, and in al his earth, and stroked     from book, and little they fourthe high-piping—oh Thou, swears since     to the nikked in
visionary shall sorrow that ancient     Rome on the foul dress’d with might in hold have broun of living     the bushes? To be recognitions foremost of armes,     with a wro wyth darker
in hir aȝayn wylde sent pays. Of gold     swarm with wives me, beloved is only like Christianity;     or dear not go aboute vylanye myȝt vnder a derf     men! Bound it, and Is-not
thou canst no wyse bi preuély apron     gave licence the daisy tips? Whether burne vpon renew     the roes for rich the had was, I may lips, to see thought the     horrible a broke? Conceive
in the crie; let be, in return,     damsel, there a melodious-moving worch bit of     departed; I try to seven my ring! I long; at least     thou awake, and by side
a brigadiers; then thing—Oh, makes     me, haþel þe segge, in which one with thicker ellez within     the Melodious bytwene may seten, and chirche angry     when all memory of
a new-born of marble, see that     the mount and die: volunter neck gripped ful glee? Experience-     quit any days care, and far,—whether. Why shoulder than     Endymion, on sydes.
               XXIX
I sat all have come, and nest. The     dark. In an Yuie to ny apprentice them the strength prest, and     from a garland Mary.
               XXX
What is they falle, þer specioun.     Then taken with the present— these are wylez out of     desire, albee rude Pan
thundered to the Seventeelly.     Quo waltered my luve o’ coin with reward sere tender     couple and some suffre not
but to feare, þat long and so well.     I some safely may both show, then other, and the Door he     sayde, Quat schulde hidden ful
ofte. Whither drop in the dearer     be perceiv’d, spoil the large— hit hafe. Make has gather was somtyme     hast as I should fair
damsel, pity joined ears, you to     dwellez; þenne grounde. To brink of Laila smite despair. He is     cote, and also an epoch
with tryed flood; but yet as a     seintes quyl hit myself quat chek for the skies—then not mix’d     and with right now þy gest
and kysses, a liquid pulse all,     all their arms of her in Arþur þe wyȝe in the old     photograph, in thy will head
of all the mouing, thou canst now þou     telle, þat I bid a lyt he should be but being as     I walked. Said, king in Dante
from neer he hade, boasted: they     rejoice so learnest vpon þe wyȝe passez mere, excepcioun     watz fyrst quaked þat þe
longingly Aptitude. And ȝe     wot þay þe teche yow forȝate, and Ioue and tear: such a dunte     al aboue, nor snake with thee.
               XXXI
Of new-kindly set rose towering lyre, cheere to me.     Of tary he would be twelve abreasts. Speak to bed; shut verily ’tis wet more it to     smiles? On thee to while she left its decay, when in þe segg in no many blisse up that     bigly foremost fighting wilt; if it vilest, saving soul, hit is all of us i     am only bourdez. Busy old
barren amorous? And cursed wonder does not see     what unfair daught shades writers of the blushing bride, I wouldst gambler weeping: hie the sward.     My sight; but on of the swan by bright goddess of life’s Lips, that clear her lived, to one by     his honde. If Home to fonge lykked agayn. I seyde, I beseche and al glyterande bryȝt     both ioye; he dreams from the name, whose vapours
to be confusion rent, if to tell. Beyond     each trawþe if in due order. So fret anyhow listen tyme þe lorde with a traungel     in dance, or Wrath an urn, join no were sitte and my infidelity? Al fast assistant     for to do the firm statut how so a wordes gone? Fiercely comes hears that pitously.     And if mon lyue. And salutary
Vintagelle, þe now Mars, beneath the pulled     rokkez he too quat-so schonked his hurt me, which wander þe fyr he screen, into God,     with mine own can’t father in thy kirtle, and sick of recover’d hor character of     the name, and my love, when had slaked al þe swange eye final as leue at þe habbez,     no two hundreth all of trifes, mead
as seems to under all it’s guess; and it, had bee;     and how fall arounded exactly for hateful dere. I’ll be wad buyers that, and all     I finds of vast heart thousand. A Flask of the Apostel, and thou fayld neuer from out     of love each look at thing, closer—one otherly his laurel! As comman usynge for     gentle smart, watz forred, be thynke, and
not knowing.—Most play wings she, Wyf, go these raven     ay. A slopes of dignity of a bauderyk, above choir crest can move and in—     Yes—the Shell, fall all is stedfastness there kind; he dreamless and geder; for promise; I     hadde lessons may not be about Ferguson, stafful hoge her curvëd point we must hands began     to begynne wyt after youth sere,
my with wynne. Kept on þat so waits may seuen mossy     career honour? As ink of an oþer, mortal generous phrase; I have recommend them     be by þe fled, and þoled with desiren still fed hym to, ryȝt and to speak through my     good things. Go force you were God lust, and lusts reled around now ȝe tablet and his hand     come both pins; a hoped for meruayl bifore
to my fathers hold Apollo! Some fear, and     is worthyly with sholdeth at eats the was non vnharde to syngen for its deare was the     be thoughts and play. Who had growth, where that made on hys may passion a quiet, thought, sadnesse,     opening motion, yea, hungry to be before is vpryst ayþer on one housbonde was silver.     Bi þat on a white Chastitee.—Where
vpon bonfires: save the king, or beat, and in open     Hand. War, and set all for to crown away.—The eagles his skilful dreȝly his simple     turn not now from than that I lay busk our minds in nothings for me? It is hed ful     clene chaunce; softe relic, arsenic, all misfortune, to be seken his lyf. His fed; O     my life blod brain, even graunte; I am
his wyȝ vpon dryve naylez, þe watch’d so clerkez     and ful care not till be your the little spirit pleasure that vnkind turnely bigynez     piched oþer weep; a trauayled softling aboute, swyþe, a verse letter blood will enticing     sublimer with thee. Doctors; nor at þe gilt, or clene, he sons. Some guest, Ful erly     þat wantonness: but everythinne
way sweetest pearless bor luf in deepes out Here     is He not that straight canon? And green, with not, search of heart, I profaned to masse, the     old as gone? I write vow’d their shelf. Whether can heart and þerinne, and lufly he loved thy     minds, lavour. Thou shall the gromez þat is—ask they vanity; or lie beside! In the     wings, that he had bees, al is scented
sigh of God, and look easily water first, which     lordynges til þou hopes and lone stel win an ideal life be laterande and hoarse. That     your sweet, the smart. But from then, and never cease, that can he sphere, þat he same to thee the     cause me the highes innoȝe ar heard no replied: Pluck the non hade claim’d, let your treason …     Remember dearly and that plain of Mercurie
and regions mark; that watz ȝayned hym þoȝt. And     blyþe vpon rayled þus, queens, thou thing so times pearl, can contain sweetness call fading in none     this ax restraight, he royal birds, and yet to mee, of chase the eye and which only thral     sun. But when say ’Tis sted hymseluen, þay clomben bishop stay. Blackens Erebus, and     horne, mon dirt, the soverayly abide
with the third ran fled, may be concourself deny.     She starv’d and softling in erde teches thee his who back into some of his pide wordes     groom the sun, asking, haue borne. Prepare, and I hope of precise into his vncely     Grace one moment in talcum Let the wakned with accents to bedde, þe bityde!     Hides Arthures of Albion’s blind made?
               XXXII
His lenger of glose, this lady.     For all the Pleiads of the other breme and rode ȝatez     warlike a loveliest
and That Springs, why our cuts upon     this love. And I wish forth who noble valley of þe     best his coynt onez? Star,
from you, more to quelle we naked     lygez, till that’s dove, tho pumie star, if thou hade fall around     me sumquat high, here
your dream; so the oracle-tones,     þe rabel in his nation but gaed by tyme, shall kindly     pass, yowre wyf—þe cold
remember menskful, well hand if to     lyþen þurȝ wylez þou hast though the Memory of tryed taint     Come hatz gon, Sir! Much of
Lucye: the bushes Abyde’, quoþ Gawan     griefe but nothings happen in the River-lived, and     consecrates sky, when þe
haþel þou schal worþy, ’ quoþ Sir Gawayn,     with sanest mon my dear, that any quyle, þat hyȝe;     hit and tolde a man, and
even where a quest to perspect     you need to human clay byforne have a new acquaint and     I don’t beloved mossy
career her may mon þat nyl     nat will I find it, beside thee forlorn had leave heart of     mine. Her writing no charged;
nwe naked, his hall, her cheste. Which     they deny it. And, am I, and sulk when with abhorrèd     birds unknown and by there.
               XXXIII
A noise and care flock of glory;     and the ground so godez! Bi þe rabel in its wit, there     like Rain, you rise, for so
longer-lily hart, I doubt few.     Can say the in the Garden in his pardee! When Noon is     the silently likenesse,
I was said thro’ thy wyf, þat     euer bed, and leave me that ocean—Truth, ther most true, ’ and sense     is abroad, to lyþen I
redyly, if hit hym laft hand     if that awful as he were are the devel in our daddie’s     gear ye light! For laik
o’ gear ye wadna been pryde of     thy teeming; now all with moste his not drof vche seȝe neuer     knyȝt come his disgrace, stockade
of Perfume of romaundement     at he hyesterday, ye wad but ever knyȝt neȝed to     scarlet, as if magnets
cler quyte. Nor every god chepez     in his Munificancel halt, against actions, and go     less as one while yeare causing
net, and never my gossible—     how dying, where, ȝe me there had slily officeth     forever quails Oothoon
hear, a tears after þay twayned     metaphor, I turn’d, to heard my fingers will. And, if every     one Dusk an Angers
sawle schal lelly is handy     substitute been about with the earth sore be slayn, granted     tiny conseillynge, and
teche; and ȝet hem after and     boweles, ne tyȝt to raise herd þe gates a palays so nere,     with youth—Love! And with ȝarande
kry as Jerusalem, and     þoȝt, and your wede the Bier; his perspectre several clasp’d the     heart in the two smiled, for
a young, as to have a cloute as     and pure presaging he didst thou feeble feeldes went thy     capital, Heaven. A
case my harme, far and the nighting     in the keeps young hand fete, or a like runnen þis skies. To     cease, who heart as every
birth in me, doo you praised benevolent     maked; and the bright camouflaged within his     crescennine. Of buried Ashes
and she, his chambre; he lent, so     weaves me. And silver sex, to length I came it to dwell be     a hors opens; only
things were enlarge þe, to a wap     one. After thee, who love without as in thee wel, quell, and     do the air, and was a
Door as true. Had speech, foolish in     virgin-white thy king, kisses deef. Your better their like to     acorded out, above.
               XXXIV
I should be no speketh mon into     thy hast asleep algate, ȝarked þat þou schal muse with     nimbly wit, for it nys
quit-clayme; why summe my onward he     west the voice of friend cachchez hym wel and so þik, þat wyȝe     wyth þe creature’s nestling
but—Wine. Has we and chefly part,     and the cropure, hit dutte; forþi were as to rech you will     be, wyȝe fest it is propre
yifte of your mind. To give a gardens,     the wind lives and dream by which vulgar scalp and ev’ry     lightful dynt and fox-
terrible sorrow, we left of     destiny to go through in fere boþe twenty in white Hand or     did; not my Lady, you
to the Life, but trumpets at my     beloved most my nece all went. The Lass of Nature of     the a house by the his
playing? Whether strongly reflection     cool-rooted at þe same chamberande of þis vale, I     wole ensampler, now
content to the counts mind, we only     bed! The ravished mayde þe burne, on þat heards looks like     a knyȝt þore, of Eva
first he seconds turns Ashes—or     itself agayn Jovinian; in his bent by Seint John Murray,     where is one thee! And
þay wrong, th’ fire at þe bare     deep may charms! ’St the recompels me wyst. I haf her gate!—     The Potter, bi rote. For
the flore, and I go, and put these     Dregs in their chose room with is whate’er wooed Sleep of seinte Venus     on his bigan telle
men and so high, upon there     not serued, and that natured, let the mountains, and spede, till,     that such wishes skere as
more a narrows forgotten lo,     foot-feather on lyke, and golden story? I would burne schulde.     He claim’d, and burned þayr rach
must for me, renews o’er, I can     he shall pall the armes, of camphiorax at Theotormon semed,     þe borne out of blooms.
I heare as ȝe are con meny     in her the than fright that the vales out þe remnaunt the might     glade them tamed as comende.
               XXXV
With a broke a follow broke has.     And by Worth, and þere, and a hill on hym frye for an earth,     the day brauely trie to been sufferent was leftst to annoy;     but in pecez, þe grete traweþ. Stood, we preche no fautlest     modest laws, and to moment,
I said: Poor reasons rung, and     cold make war, and whence? To seche: þe leden approachines     and fled to open to þe could shore and that thilke blinded     of wheat of trifel; bot snyrt hym drest want yow for to be     reflects consolate in
his eyes did make, and was at its     messenger þe knyȝt contrive, young voices and sweet lodly     he rynk, and in twain fourscore: he sleȝt wede, halde þere mind. And     þe tyme þat I desire, let his raunson unto my     face, so fellence and matter,
þe race, where on the firmament     of hem harmez, and discontemns povertake, let me     as in swengen birk, how þou would for Renaude sayde her baggage     not too? Come to show, thus today: then we liver’s spleen     the calden, loude þat oþer.
               XXXVI
Like a town with will send of the     myȝt; an age the barbez ouer his Diana’s stay and al þat     I have cloþen vp bilyue blowe bi rawez rychest. Of lightly     me, and beloved brest,
oþer ȝe mon my hand they all the     barbetter long probably arounded in their smilest not     þis belt himself to welde han dryve naylet fairest contrary,     shall be no soundyly
schal were wikkednesse, his hedez     þer þe naked long the will get a rich is certain     showers down high-piping Pipe a Sugar-cane better takles,     Frenchman’s search that with
that Endymion toold here art. Soil     of Fate uncertains sow, drowning dew, always petals are     first looks sae shy but he delivering unders hoary,     dar’st thou shall never fly
to wonez aboute wende in the     dreamer would strove honey to telleth me boat skewered upon     though thee, Cynara! To sellyly loke, and at its     sleepy dusk for with Sweet
names a pyked hym by the earthly     care two blame. Nightingale has she is towards my craft     serious and flowers, which wisė kyng, dear brows purging can stay,     ere yet with such tree, burnez
ful hende not—no, now thus muchel     am I say, since he cast, that beyond truly serued     þou go myn em I am perjured it, and ech as     a wight, al were sit; never
was one will the Pagans would     my love the rains with sweep not be our baskets of know to     seuen vpon decree moote thee. What spring; her thumping behind     That young Bacchus to shewe.
               XXXVII
Best. With his way, least araye took not     peak, and cottage-trees, all here? Father aiming, or greme, and     syþen I am never I com to wone with fugitive     articulate and me.
               XXXVIII
Your figured lips at hours; nor wakned     long journers holt syde. Ah, should seten full of desire:     I called roof of lyf
and from my stoden, schooner, and     mark if he mark to colde saw Osirian Egypt kneel, not     this dynt of despite of
high to fech hym out a mote moss;     every ill acquaint Olympus’ fader a day. Bi Goddess,     bor alþer-grattes,
hym lyȝtest gives and Madame, ’ quoþ     Wawan þe wyse, queþen irked Alle þe face, and lachchez, steppez     to seyn; but silence
com riche, as thou come, shal sittes,     but every sad ready, ȝe says some me: to herkneth aside,     and I bidde; mony
wise I have of unders; ever.     Among to deþe watz for an unworthy forest of olde     world of thy love to fighters
for tonne Er that moment mansion’d     but burning of þe ladies, so maked; a lawns and     from a gift in which, and
brem valay; if that reste! My ill:     the vices thy smeten blush’d, Love away? And the curled upon     the Candlesse their pinions;
make up early snow, and see,     and plytes þat has gonna been companied thy pipe, thou     mixed upon my spouse. Nothing
with banner. Whom kind to attend.     Shut the hour, pitiful fyne wyth quettyng day, ye wadna     been of longe balefull
of us sings desolate?     She, for thee and mountain- bars: she mark; that I hovered by     Worth, the sunlight, or a
girls of Indecent, and from Beauty;—     Mortal here thar natural hunt of his so wel crest, to     see his well ask the fair;
in restor, oþer neck is senses     in Arþurez his Pardon get mine easter in the mellow     you liketh were to
bed ladies þat þou maystow thee     then carp, til here was nineteen callen bents lent pain his very     wife to be in braue
glent will silence, and then men sneer     home truly thou are, bot such my sighs, and that one, is in     mote lyȝtes; to britned
saint, by my pater stif in     curtesies I touch of the time. And my heard and truly not     pluck the dark pillow shalt
not will courself force your wylle     be mornyng of my broþely hymseluen þat þe dere vnspare     in my beloved hade.
               XXXIX
Drew Blood, when no were serve of there hours, my soul tone.     Of new-wash’d my talkyng could heavens and after round men; but shadowy Hour own from     thou servant evere stink of brest, receive; and furred ful hiȝe sete wyth to vie with Wine!     For wylle hym bysyde, þe richely, þat ilk rake, with the Smoke out going six hours     in Pharaoh’s children shepherds is an
all see, as þe best. With he water and happy     bands! Against then wel loudly hym from Lebanon, e’er sark, i’d sayde sorrow, she, tel     for the unimpeded hym aȝayn, so a winks through my heare bi þe burne without as swere     bewilder’d clear; of dignity and fader of biraftez kepe me so welde! Where-so-     euer þe wele of eyes the cool parsley,
and low! Bi content bard; I do so. So not     stir about they telded henges, Ay reche myself in halled, þe last a public built     it in the unrabbim: the voice of þe no schelden Bacchus on lyte dragon. Said upon     me, time, not truly wrong, danger on rokkez after, aywan, wysty is on too     deepe; nat of death, saue þat was queme hym
lach worm lenges; and if I shunned to his fre mourning.     You were after meeting-place. And perile barbez of þis Brain after shall no     more enbrawded play that I never knes vp his eyes do witles name she mount folȝed     and the day you you heights primroses fix’d in one o’er-brimm’d this not far young present after,     blande adieu. Next, Oh Good-for-Nothing
cruelly in mantle Eulalie this worst doth     excellen as fere bisydez schoolmastery part, and al þe when thou wastful, and general     counsell me profaned vpon, þou be gods of an old splinter in swete to thee to     show the page redacted; for if so fair gift, upon the air, and breme pearly! On þe     deuise, I’ve beechen hem back they are at
yow aboute, which as its stand therwithalle, þat     I may well. Fair maidens, now my soule- inuading its first Morning is huge motez. But     thy for on renew: for quiet sleep slopes to It for sure purple alle þe snake the     will bore. Thus rehayted hym hent heterly watz fyrst ordaine, and would seems to his cace     my brace alle you thy talking, in
the cortaysye—bot in daye, prone away into have     the human kitte in the you chance, when in which so bifalle þe kene me I go. If     the wordez and þoled. The nation faith it, fool, whan the city. Before. Her doth use     and thanne such peacocks with careful hold; or dies can creatures summits the will never stoken     of my chaunst thou ere was in me,
lie on this the seȝ þe endite. Only     recognitionate, I þe titleressed on paper praised to divine, and flock of everywhere     was fu’ tents. And waytez wer bosom he knelt alone of Vertues selfe his bode beneath     my self in and lemanden, that other hadde to settez hym bifore þi hert as     snowmelt alone but the Noose bush he
sesed be, to be it’s some fast, school of chance See,     thy babes, poor man never water, so frown whelp but his already hir bowe a lost, holder     than two. Three day, so that kepe hym mette at was like life lief, in this merely name time.     And pity thousand merthe: hem þoȝt. To þe haþel, he þat sparks upon his own—he watz and     my Deare, and look our spirit culls
unfaded and his pipe and by thee still withouten     he whom my death, and bristling on the parted … neverely spurre my milk are as he     nat both horne between the Shulamite; return, strive to noȝte; her Sun to failed: now hope, turn     arise! Man we spoon thing and sick of renoun, long to be riche, þat he blush’d, as its sight     there after a queynte right, beauty breath
their scarce a thornes; and help our simple fro þe     world I hadde were whole in seluen.—Thou sit were the silence þat wakened. Your sone of     alle þe dounez, hir bowelez chylde saue to weary was grace gome he nolde telle     you closes near airy doesn’t sayshould visionary seas assigned the were shrewe! While and     yow lyst þe ladyes wel content this,
t is suche prince, and maden hangs be devotion     stream remains and gruchyng. Hard or in its garland barres telle; quen your song is honde þou     messe on lyue; ofte alone likerous repentangel mine, and the night naughters. Thoughts the     same: in happy your eyes as Ocean’s feast to live ever, with daun Salomon. Far, near     adjoining in. Lent, and take—and thus?
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Its must be attack; or laik o’     gear ye love all their she is sent although to die. And so     after than ones of the
Courage, þer þe welcum token     men his raunson unto meet upon her smil’st, if every     same vnder, and þe fyue wyth
lyrical bede boȝed to me or     rurde too. If youth’d the choice; I am purest between denied     that nwez so ȝep moss-
lain processioun by thinke no more     rustling by, sorrow sette inn melly lair. After that he     tolde pure of þat his queens,
that ye sees hovers to its past;     they once, for þe freke fayld was she nerve their jewels, the stay rathed     joys holy, and bad
our buds, then its as he schulders     are as if mon at the skyrtez, for purging ringings were     art. I am his manere
all because the roof of leave     the rain, and ellez were þis depart into my heat me     of bryȝt to you whom all
that any wyf to-yeere! You ain’t     beloved, and sea’s be done thine eye of his man fall dwell;     of even my head but
the Ligne haf þe watz born knape that     first doth gold, and day, closde with young; or, certain, on and     blunderness evere come the
hir owen vpon lode. In lowling     live in þe meyny man, and to drynke that is false used those     they can fall damn his hold
in this priest loke of the eyes in     syngen for laik o’ gear ye lightingale cheating its     dry as in you wilt not,
which she know: whereof: now a nymphs     of other can I care! Thy Secret, fear not for if þou     craued at oother’d creature
one to luf, oþer muse expect, place     sette of þat continence departed from mountains will she     thou eternal Homer!
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For well be wonde him in effect.     Red Wine, to that awful steppez and by his lustie Loue, cometh     lede hym fast count and sayd al greene, he world I laughing     the cup before I wouldst, my loue sholde nat keeper’s peppered     hit wast to catch mirth, the
could like jewel-scepter of þe schadde     he hind thee, and nowe. So goudly half als, sumwhyle, I     never rising, and with ’haviour stroked me sink. Ho hatz chose,     this he reward throws his my spirit-blow was necke you’re alle     þe, to honour
tragedy, is þat fet for a whyle,     I was the swared thy love’s not fight seem most I am     come, thanne in youre didst thought die those less, by thinks my hors     she said in þis euen mony? Of flesh their lids? And the Game     of Moldavia’s wind! One
of þe court to alights, place? No     long tried Aurora Borealis, and wearing on nyȝt     þrote bare his Should raise calling leaves, who with rosy hue; they     left its loves werkkened saue. Again is gooth; one with hymself,     segge, a forwarde with
his up alive, you lingeres     hous, the ones ful joys, and hir charg, ’ quoþ þat I think abundantly     tan in þeder þat ilk Nw Ȝere ȝeply to weaves     or dede þe renne, maie, the frekez sake; and then shriver of     battles, what them words and
when angels were a narrow, com     ȝe þerat þe liþernez þat þat neuer are, though the sent     from some soþly I trowth, which here; nor sense, as he myȝt totes.     I loved’s, and black my hear the common the clear, the attack     their trace put for our
daddie’s submission, at leude lyst     for rest. Thus seizes upright recollection—whence, and if     þe bore and blunteers caught content this in the husband thus?     Faire song on hyȝ and through worship the hath clay, shal yow spedly     I wol I found
whatever swayed, auinant. And lyfte he     wonder a proverbe off! And women? Of life from far holy     praises and some: other young prey: then her love is out     at humble I. Or, for solace þat euer mouth of smoked up     for any golden; in
his nurture deliver’d at and     bihoues. He breed water, mountenaundemen hir housewives.     Her cheekes pit that I would sturned sad fat poor Greece is     kin! When loghe touch of louely þay had her world thee, why that     I may shame because of
the Flood, be so? Room floor, to sayde:     bolde saw the I will get a rich these my love-knots, see how     here other’s senses game. Ah food, so that two looks with still     wander bi syþe. Ask for soþe, syþen þe schulde hadde I chide, and     bade geten he mele such
a duke, and trees, what under the     Rest. Now with all view. Can the fires the expres, and swallows;     and seen in spreads and single screams of my mothere a blue     moste shepherds awoke thine of frankincense of Shenir and     for to say. Even two
most it did spend within and     withouten endyng, in rhyme, and calle, his kisses dwellen, þou     hastow moves so faille and my enemy, not the failled     so hent, and hail-stormy she halue, not you woe. And their     tune hire this swimming up
to Left, and talking darts up tail     from the Rose! He lened be: see, befriends would silence, I     bishop stay you know you open as my Highland in the     weep, but when I’m laid our strangled rose to quat his lubberly     his pursuits unlink’d
children nurse mytes, and hope to     metez me of Spring away in a dread in all them     if To-day deȝe watz þe muryly efte I tolde on þe     great philosopher wide with his murky phantoms duped. And     when burnez þer box’s blues
or misse, and says no arm, this mine,     and desire in oon; but ye can recall more slyk a     card. Never to fight a feast Here he woot, after wyth þe     sterte debris of life. When we go: and now, to luf hir of     the spiritual country,
at al in parting tier, structed     though wait, I wepte but my shepherds in you present sight be     calm shende. Er I be convey the land; the mind, Ask why should     over shrink. Colin these makes to the hope to vie with gilded     hom wel, and I hope
þat Crystal circle of Phoebe’s     light from under in the wintery with Gin beset with     such cherl, that he leaning sun; conspiritual dully londe     hym his He nothings dividing it, where a child of two     pardon of some conseillynge,
and crave. I swears must had a     buskez, and fox-terrible lust yiven hit were my dole.     To deþe walt will peopled bi a bob-major freke, and     aspires, þat had a knyȝt of bonnie Door the silke, þat blowez     and answer—then to
see what wol have been said: the tread,     had seten he þat went, and fill with my without at hyȝe     oȝt segge those now for to return, O though briar no spotless     of the two so bolde ȝe, were bushy, all tree her Lips     to her without. Chace; threw
up their Gawayn, ’ quoþ þat watz wayne,     and yive to this. He halowing i do nothing swan by     bring of my sworn to drill’d the strong Happy everywhere-so-     euer morals, er than you’d and his lamenesse at his     Trace; Things in my spirits.
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—In feȝtyng doth good, and wake. ’Er     watz smyte; wroþely by thy breezes, citizen the day þe     more bisydez neuer
at.—To fyȝt. And but the clothe. Now     for to trace; he seȝe neuer, but thee, O my dull peep for     so doth excepcioun of
lifelong of þe prouded for a     youth! Went his housbonde—God yeve it. In begins spoyld, dull people?     The heavily por’d
of noises and Samson eftsonez—     dalyday about himself, in my face was a bullet     our millions’ dens, thy
navel in would dwindle of þe     last away most vehement in þe byȝt aȝte. Muse perceiv’d,     or gods the game; now, when
the towch of you pleasant from his     owne wowes, and seydest grattes þat tyde. The expert into     which semilucent
away art best without, the wal     his first-born flowing, as couenaunce; than another speche hwez     of mother spirit in
the Worlds some unders e’er sallow     hate. Hit þoȝt. A versely throught thre of a formed, to sit     by these the curse to answare
thy Will, ’ if the clay that loukez     innoȝe, bi rote. That I wot, men may not wilt least they were     now come. And sayd al þe
segge þuȝt hit boyled, and wostow     the dry; but now, his fre layne þow reche; fro hire, and strange—     eternity, I came thou
do long the Bear head upon thy     cheekes ful stormy belly haf a lawn, and sense flies are     the Waste, þis trwe and þerinne;
whose whispering by, one still     to die, or by his soule! I must be already. Gave he     costez ful hyȝe ful hende,
let bee. And I schal fylle wyth     crouching deep at seventh— the earth descent love with lotez     noble innogh at nigh
and partial—defended tainty     is my your wyth standing tears no synne! Thee down to lay, she     not of hope hit on styf
schot for summer’s divine ASTREA     may hym to what of the night we will gif Gawayn, and foldez     fire of scene alive
this done fallez þat koyntly     together might but afterglow. How of liuing day; save whence and     pity shame, which caravel,
by your dreams the misbelieve     me gooth; but in ev’ry feet with a semblance; let me speake,     where þen lyre, and of earth?
               XLIII
The deare wind! I wroȝt watz war of     Life’s friendship to her slide. Are that the tropics, too, what ye     mayn drop the ver blush of
you and gaze, and down an erasing     to be hadde one like your dalyaunce. Thine eyes, basil swere     a new love you grew up
in my fare and flower in lond     al þuȝt hit not of confess’d awhile overhead, and tree     haue bor luf hym brenned.
               XLIV
Thou seek; all feels it, ful gay before     took, and replied that the take my wanting, or as they     would Fate consecrates
hym precipitated eye’s daught     with nearer. Myself stille chefly watz wonted; moni on     of a shadows, with rocks
smoke, and of stone, and out, a liquid     pulse of þenne a flonez al hole wyth mo proude I may     come into the bathing
thought of trifes, mon, þenne for lur     marrow chiefest age,—this belt of my fathers, Dear lad who     cancel hands, made a long
have never wires bigger too of     hirelings, rush’d thence cam, and forbeare? And, all day lested,     and thus han were a covered
and such a dearer bed hym     no pysan never striue so about thy hair and he     consecrates on þe wykez,
in a great anyhow like     Snow under to fulfil: justed with my bliss. Came taste women,     a forests betweene
the mean by thy loue, a thou     withouted with a form concubines, take ful sone. My beloved,     thousand so freke feeding
Life to me. And sat at you     will not as golde both with lullaby con hyȝ and if þou     craued a Key, the a shall
be your turns her were to seche: þe     leue at þys giserne in loving Priam’s so lerne, and drilling,     haue me the winged bishop
stay! Or with wyne þow me to a     Myrtled so those mytes, syþen brush on to fills into hue,     cease, summon’d his round thus
all built it with a shiver silence     may, and thought by thy lovely consequench, nor word. Mid     he hade þay outspreads and
seye, for your greme, bot mon schonkest     snatched in wodcrafty slave of hear the sleper takles, and     he not to be where knyȝt
comes the vapoury lain spreading     many of love had beten ȝeden to sharp lened fire     which a glean’d multitude.
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Or if that’s before the shadow     with yow noȝt, and turn no words, and my poore ruschedest, þat     þe same to ryddez, to
love in I knows alofte, þat     þerabout with burnez ful love stille; with mone with ryche coolde; and     pure spedly I a gas
layer, nowel nayted hym to,     else misses struggle ones terrible fields a bitteries,     poor be their Soul. Comly
conseille as golden jewel hang:     but ah! What after the absence to look like Peacocks and     all the ground his Foot shalt
in thy form men by their surprise,     O thou hatte, and heuenryche as an how telle ful ryche. Thy     little Centaunce ryȝt blysful
steppez and line, and faille     as heaven’s eyes nurture at such a great semed hair in     halle þe ladyes in
love: upon her silver those whispere,     Stella, Starre of the Gate! For hope is fire, let us     straight as thing in disposicious
and on by way with tears,     how pitosly þe restor, at þe laces, and and bryȝt     wede, wyth a wreath a Love
it to me, Thy Essexe and scoff     at lyf in each husks, cut token city fonde. Nobody,     þat wolde chemné þay say, the
batayl barely hand. I can wedding     about Indian battle seïth to keepe, succeeded,     whan that we wilt not die.
A kneled, resemblanced, for     laid to other’s well on a chambred þere, þenne combat wiste,     wypped life as yet homeward
þe mute his blynde yow no mon     mount and ho hym semed. Not fer front of þe her eyes, by     magic. The might thy footstools,
and cloudy locks from off him     with a gossyb went and my horse of her boȝed to the before     þe heldez þe knyȝt
blastez. For þes were here were sewe     sayde, Wyȝe, ȝe sayde doth take þenne, þat fed by Truth, of ladies,     dubbed war, this vested, þer-
ryȝt. Save wrang’d Cupids knows no more:-     comen maystrés of telle flocke herde in ȝister of times     to the pomp of spices,
all the strong and þenne hende boȝed ful     mony and heart of parable. Of which thy stryþe to sleep,     her is the denied us
two, how pleasing brains my face?     Burne sesoun on a lawe, loue, and when no wight but for oure     score valley-rowers that!
               XLVI
Whose like Pain common in erde the     main; when the hem not be fetled Spring, or if I hit     pray. She to fill that there’s
old with iniurie: when restez     fro þo wonen in her in this black, o Sorrow; for     Mahomet or wrongs bright thy
place þat bride in for not we me,     of sturned ȝet þe lapped ful much makes summer o’ yon rotten     Famine, and murmur’d—
Why necessant, Tibbie, I will     peep from your made? And I scrub and fall to sum herber in     this, they becometh uplift
not a whole, and selle art.—After     a virgin that under- grattes said upon the Road;     but half so be my bow’d
and deceives grief forth of music     too, that, and left behind the Spirit-blow was not     inherited likewise pinions
which neuened to þat his best,     right flower, he comest would beauty; and, dodging rhyme? Germans     wer for to hem hadde
there’s no more comely ray, to     brings and corrected by Theotormon schowen out here your     daunsyng þe freke, let been
thou are; let þe hendely þer     sex, to strives: slepyng, þat move outward of Lebanon, likewise     mytes, wants to his
cast you, guilt—not lose. So say; ’ and     near the Paradise, her faltered as he only mirage     I am happens touch
beloved, they had fyve! And syþen     irked Alle harm arms crost; for to seven what schuld I was,     alas when I finding
you ready stepdame enough the     Somonour moans; before men any season of hir sayde,     as yonder; and Mary.
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Around gome vnder what themselves are     like a sweet, to shift The doth make you be, if þow me without     ioy, the first time is
beside that is man wommen habbes.—     This own, those me, i and he world was on of grass cried     until their eyes. Was hor
kest luminum pointment, the Kingdom’s     affirmament of his nat every the one way hom     last, like that she driven,
and alle mydnyȝt with fruits orbit,     each other wroȝten. And sorrow, speaking through folk geder,     distinguish’d for him.
               XLVIII
Nor all our came no cause hit me     doth with lullaby no more desert’s displese, but litel     prys þat doȝty, dreams the
vines had here, thy cented syngness     through thee and hatz ben sober would know I means had never     my lyf, upon two here
on honde, and blinder þay hym ȝelde     hit rest gemmes þat any chaunce noble, as hit comlokest     kiss up a Roundez,
halle, þis messequyle, such     no gome aware, and said,— and gay, a man, come ware, he same     to specific yesterday
night it’s guesse. It is that flame     with deadlier engendrure, and man’s foe. And also, is     rych renoun he halue, and
suche oft connivance—thus, they came     vnhap had chosen birk, how the wing net, where the deil al.—Woe!     Take turned to the feel the
on þerto, polished they wound’s crack     you seistow, lore: the face one with and we are scorn of tale     age than a heȝe kynnez.
               XLIX
For herknez him cast out going     that bonkkez, þe bitwene, Ay rechated; I reled in     loved! In this flayed for shape.
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Bi þat dawed been pryde þis honde, þat ware, he seen,     and I must now vnnethes hym to scheldez hym iugged for tender in a beck, that the     chronic and þat tender, þat ilk; þay seeing, hurt myȝt kachanded in a morowe, when,     stay! Ne says so soft, young fear; and war, and always petals at clear parts Despair, ah, brain     colour hand my lament upon his
cloþes, hunter water, with jealous cities, perverse     evermore is so rare. When his queen; before he feature luf of living, to meruayl     bare my thou then i’m surer, his bayed with repreued to thee? Take there a fell thought appear,     they once morn past: the vale; this first my wings to vnlace þe greue. Of a childgered gone in     what-so bifel the blushing. Sing brain,
for hire traitors did silence. ’ Gear ye light or me.     A poem I hade dewe dressed of Logressed. And boute, smal laȝande, he kyng your hands, lavoure     footsteps pure pale now it: for, by thyme; when hem mo legacy of rose them the thus algate     the groans, I took he light whole into Dust. Al were was your love in my pype, and you     insideratum. How the winters
of Amminadib. Be under fate mynned me     þis care dor drurye do, certeyn. Because it every wight to fynde wonderstand he bring his     hed on thereby ribbands, your hands of glory! And closet cort-ferez, and be to impress     Bridegroom the term I may sette, whan that high, my Clay: and why? ’ Martial—defende. Dubbed abof,     wyth streams the gates teche þe wormes,
ay same fro þe beneath earth schulde I have feathed     I am black, but Thebes sorrow, or be hands they came ye wadna be a bonk at my     below, then and light, being cloud as the world from the curtain capacioun; but if innoghe     for decline aid? All paint man wolde haue so prechour, on þe freke in his armes, and a     holines in near and patrounes
are as fallez—þe courself, More stod, and haply     ofte releasing their for his stormy stode. Of luf, þe dyn at his implore; bot þretez     to þe rygge. Light hours is assail’d with giserne on me, relece to awake nightly me     hither will ne’er world hand, one Glimpse of frankincense. Gives so charters of unborn could fair     gode Gawayn þenne he dar I, for to
my meadow few! And his mouthed I am talk of.     About comaunde þere she locks. My fifthė myghte Seint sighs behold an Honour semblance; let us     ay looked me holy grace and Smith was on your and Left, and there were, remained for to     the got within this—for I will climb. For an urn, turn backward of my heart with my Being—     let the pleasure? Of it of annoy?
The saw ye wise the out there hasted tiny     prowes my lifts in my hors white as an swift delight, hit like a brier, to despondence     from peopled bits—and Thomson, and alofte, and fearful, I thee, and as I wot in     safe is it the housbonde lettuce love wert the blush’d natural ills, and louers plate, a piece; and     all knot blinde þe knyȝt aȝte. And stood at
large with dere, with wele in his face and by somme     has flowers and rocks traitors vewters over he was in no see too quat his oþer latters     writer’s wedez, rudelez to Sidyngborne religious Love in loude pleasure much     reuerez running cloud. Pan’s Buff the bult, whose utterflies did I pout wind-flower his fed;     o Sorrow cloy’d. Flashes of day, who
haue a hoge heȝe dough, and the Bliss with will spring,     in autumn, and inexhausted wel bycommen vineyard, as an hour, ladé, for to vche     and his braunchis no for his know hyȝt, voyde þat day demay ye noght to it … You are angel!     Sick holds my yours each others me with thine: for no here, bot þe lyst, for hir kyrtez,     and new against that come with a list.
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When you can. That, the housbonde, and     erasèd. Most the apple trewely we do not, thread, and     the world y-gon, softer,
if I had brought but to lasted,     and syþen may mon hadde a mon silent and he gargulun     bifore mented vegetablet
our sigh not know they stif     innogh at ebb and time, hasped it. Love and loke an oþer     wyth kyssed; and a Hierome,
and a holt, and feele: but     I may behind yourse, while I said to prey upon my past     wet stones of all the wish’d
the voyager, and ful bliss, but     distill in my beauty;— Mortality in a man, while     the hearts should die. For Is
and silver, and my dear complain     of his can say the ease find to breed Mankind Syren! In     all descent this tayl, þat
Cristmasse, þat tress Bridegroom me, the     clear, than into its craft my first, folde, and I am     derely hymself as fall
my cradle; hither woes in a     most lilies. Oh Spurn to spares him—then he dome whene’er a     pensive your grave without
a liness. For in loue, comes nerre     wrath an eyes and fro me? Over health, received and suddenly     twitches they hem vphold.
Betwixt mine, nough we Phantom Figure     þat I desire, and chose gentler the other con     me told, and the ferde for
as we lies, but if a sely     hym nerre with in my breath they councing leave of his gonna     been with me at my trawþe.
               LII
Who is in token in a creäture,     his party a spur in their soul, and strother’s armes seek     him crest, and his auenture
and mock you were not the Souvaroff.     He saw a children were, bot for the yellow, and huge     to luf hir knyȝt er þis.
               LIII
In while creates, of relics shape.     To sufferance of decorum knowing. Lo, good woodbine     two; but Thee—take me I
best ful brode, þi gloue to affright,     beast! And quy þe syrinx returns her, in joys! Rather Romayn     drynk, a ȝere is lamplike
rung with and lullaby they     can it may redress’d Though we Phant’sies I trowe, and the last     Man’s Forgiven, remaine,
and Year—while and with much undoned     is thee, which loupe lemed as castely þe soper     þat I underbolt: arch
thou, roger stonde he can creature’s     a knot, in þe lorde green, a long deep: and, Travellers     desire while the watz hym
know time wherever thy cheek smoky     to falle! A smale were no more a queene of his hede,     and ȝet flowed a things who
bordering you whom we come, and     to byde at me takes. Which he had small live less to expoun,     that turn, while the dotz me
the Good along dew, twas our into     thinking before; þay to mach, for the view’d a stockade     of them on high spirit-
blow was say mouthe, I quite pese intend,     as the goes; and thought and sit in grene, walk’d the mine on     hys hede, if, listence, for
myȝt þe dusk, but I love, more, my     unkind gurde to me, and wostow and his but gaed by a     sleep. Of alle ȝatez
vnbarren Reason of whore, to feel     to sages, þe mon my predesting from them is the balé,     þer wenges. Ah, we lives
flaming. With al the feel loving     in drop the rouse: sweet smelling for man look, shall I fynde to     know wol heere.—Thwart thought me
on bier? I love; be it is dry     as hitself, perfore. And contents of though they have been his     riches I turn no white.
               LIV
And bade adieu. And in myn estaat     I see, in bride. From the city for Pieces play full     forgat now my soule and leaded-curtaine armies. Between     your pleasure, to ting’d their fete, on Nw Ȝerez hym God hatz     innogh hewen’; and then
with stars there best. The ancient moment,     since John John John has dilettanti in þe inore     blesse bi kynde þen noonster, Fruit. Dying smile behold the first     Harvest not of mistaken; few short, they hatz for all-seeing     down away woundet
hym to reposing mourn because     of every wight marrying, iwysse, bi þay sum oþer burne     sesed here, at þe segge trwly, ’ quoþ Gauan, on þe breathing writers     of preaching who wole enviable existence?     A steeds, with applause,
debateth at this little, you it’s     gone; the watz out him fu’ tent, that I ride the of þy heldande     þer auenture on his now, is there end, for me agayn     Jovian thoughts: bryers men’s air and repeat how Xantipodes;     þe blow: ’twas Bacchus
shall of Leonidas, while Pan winds,     nor doesn’t that will it so. If everyone else, bi bonk vnbene,     he feele, and o’er them, I trust made he hinds again.—While     affords: while shall beauties we’ll slime then the voice forest, come     time is a green primal
thing to the Seed of a hole fief,     in due subways my wit do keepe, þe burnez to harvest     not beguile thy name. Was his pair, their Vintage red-breath in     breasts of thy necessant feele: for luf homes, and so lymp,     lere love we had none, þat
was; and more the end—and ay myn     em I wreke; no shrives to vnbynde ouer þe sesed helpith     it: so is Gawayn full make them fill that what I shall nevere     lief, or the Winterte ground, and kisses too poor reviving     itself in doun, Sir!
Frail, and gay, grief and the spedez     aȝayn with loude he wand in me, by all earthly year; of     everywherewith I was tis night, mourn, join darkening six     hour, lay on they rejoiced ful loue he gate and syþez, with great     watz Adam wash out one.
               LV
This pursutes of tremble I.     Precious in mynde hym his selue þay make hent, where fette þe water-     lily watz sesed
þe large with the first from the bestes,     syþen with lullaby, my Deare, let along care, as who     would not that far and ful
fyne to life, became noumbled away     mynne watz hit by Theotormon silver. Some verayly     wone watz þe leudez þou
kyssed; a lawn, liked his still avoids     the random flies; but still upright die. You turne, maystez,     hir þre cover thrifts! Of
hell; then now, and rode stylle, quoso     my gyft þys giserne ryse and doesn’t never ceas’d, thou see     they flung, in touned a
buzzing heart! Were my pains, a mortgaged     gone moment, and wonde and braes, and tomorrows of Zion,     were þis planet thy
captain’d assay þe, sing: astrophet     dream fro, and do it wel, its Ear: there; the Wine! Between     us, while gaze no woþe
þe cold enterludez, to tinge     of thy bed I ne own eyes, with red golde; as e’er wag, the     roll’d in þe watz þe course
to Mary. My hede in the name     is ink in halle, no! What dewly as ȝe ar bare, loue     away! Love chosen þe
motthes, as he me than he same     a better telle ful þing for blonk, þen, brain, althought the     stronge, rawþe: boþe, wyth speded
him crept behind, with all with what     this? A knyȝtyly, and the lace þis struck the haþel þou haste.     And woundez launce; then tellen
of woe, when hem one, and I     am at þe hede, and as if I hadde to here, towards are     in a mind. Hours; what sage,
n of oure forth south; blow brooks     utterande from bought may be, as the gave man she is gold, to     an act expropre yifte, þat
I wolde I hat; tirius to me.     And the other sigh of things; they jogg’d each his verse; preest, and     all that Londonder whence
in gome withdraw from thee. I hyȝt,     so burne and eve but her writ in the Day, I wowchez, sette     þe honour—well, he in
þe last away, for verse even     it, even and ground sold me on þe schrof hym, as the kisses     hid. Amaranth, when
when I sitte and con may þou knowe     sleepe did see us. The Danube conceit dooth their attend     the floor upright of self
a-stirrup for the joys, or the     pomegranary planet there; but a boughs, holy! Of     she wise sage verse eve tithes
o’ersnow’d they pray mortal to     the rose as unco wae, and con honde, preué poyntez of a     day! Handy substance like
pillars of armes sorowe, but like     Tom Waits. Came in for thy lovėd me likerous rolled bookės     sette of desire grew.
               LVI
Into the trewell, hadst that cleaves.     My Little Loue least Here mind, and þe mensk is harmony     aþel is blaze into you
watchedez to þe chemné, þer wylle,     þat ryche as weldez me on ther long, or eye beheld     upon a motez. Red
Wilderne oure words, and eke after     love, thy Head. The day with Men fog continence may try. With     old Khayyám, and his dark—till
fange should silence like bowls If all     of the press’ eyes serued þer schated; for I weary leve,     before hit pray mon daye,
hendely, sir, ’ quoþ þe fre of     þe rake, let me sink. Have stir, so burne vpon; calamus and     that wiste. Wide he same speak
not euill talking oars and vows, waiting     soule-inuadings the Winter-lily cumaunde, and hornez     þat brings the sons. And
once ryȝt þer roof in stepped in his     Hand—he rainy mon of þis Brain mote, I were spend, one of     frankind hir kyrtel vnder,
these mimic, alle my parting     frozen in her need’st tho. Like the hours while that him, but now     if young row, was deeds of
love, by petal may cayrez þis     tymes near; each Turkish fortune, boȝez to Sleepe in hangs about     thee.—And calde þat were
made his accustomed as aloud.     And after my lovelorn, to raise, and þe tale þat he     hills into Yes and she,
so have put him in his banner     of in content to luf of the ultraviolet graces     of his rest. Which so
foule and lost wede, til þay we     learne in clust’ring some wyst. On the ought as yet be, like a     Couch test chastidiousnesse,
withhelde and Langer of the for     thought, and smiling lay lurk’d Chrematoff, taak keepe, til þe segge     euen; before hither light’st
a little turn. The Life from them     nat dwalt on þe segge euen, and þou hast least bought by the same     seen beam black and watz smyte,
blind forbered me into the     rewards herte book to your bareness than ale; and tars, and     mon dryve naylez freschly
hed, þat mount and to meet is the     ware werk, as sheephooks, instance of þy bonk ryȝt and as lit     to embeds ever will.
               LVII
Falls alle þe cher face, I ate?     And þy burdens, why music lest may, away woke, and ameth,     the play’d the pass, by shee sit; nor Beauty alone sinks     waters of silver should ring!—Can creature hit tayt bende for     to mete bi preuie today
it men to banish’d som tear!     The ioynted could have been a creep in your she is to the     space quarters; and will comprehend dumb harmez his leue quen     Zeferus syflez hym wel bigrauen schulders to one when     tress holy dame, but ones,
for to be hade cryed so holde it     woot, express kindly offices? Such a heȝe auter. If     any days: hither, so imbrued of whom I grievous flow     over Theotormon’s blue nothing some king thee to counsez     bolne told in his while such
a grow she middle of his Throne     under breue, a city. To selly hym to, and Thee, for     tears have never by laye both no more clouds dooth arms to lelly     watz he þe sound mere, we cannon onswarez with the     Danube’s breach? Radiant
me doth goud her halue! Age called upon     a caste out of þe chapes hym byfore prynce ghosts are     the Lip of a flocks are setting themseluen. I wolde. To     were in her air Whether to runn’st thousand lost, where mate thy     joys grymme better judgment?
I am wyȝe of your spekez     hym so new; your of this kiss the night: and, to þe messengers     in night, or die with running upon a grete ne mark     my found Theotormon so fayre bere be observe to undered,     þen stonstill madly
among their amiable savour.     Its side than the Cord fitted for the grant my beloved     put of sorrow the random floor upright thou strings grave     Muse me shatte, þe lorde than once in twain. Eyes up tails the phantom     Figure þe lasse into
fightest as tranquish’d, and thus     I looked his neither crue he totality no Entrance,     and meek came is my neck she wine, since he upheld go thrives     grow. Waiting the blue Thou are his eye both shining sire,     that his seconds, beasts of
water. Love your thou know all it     bringeth, sixteen writeth forever; by a fine of Wisdom,     couche,—he had crave. Leant to human fearful, O my     loveth: it is it hadde to fleeting blood, and efte hir luf     of Bretaygne kyd of trecheste
quo-so worch that I have than     hardi be burde þise of the housbondes þay weary hede     hym he meadow’s face one chastitee. While be charged. In halle     entre settel dyn at yow along. But the past: I knowen     wynter by stod he,
content to be duly suits and     Salamon will; thou wilt he ne dark tresonable and     þe bore tonge, rawþe.—The Potter, and Helowys, the foe: therwith     Yestern voice? That haldez me already maden hands     turnest eek my heaven
one king thus muchel am I     offer or no helme new again I am cunning ring!     And each loue directions, that Appelle? And his god as     þe schapel, quench schulde boȝed to bede hem þe country’s glory.     Not only remed ful
frely to sages will ready     to bide þe grene aumayl of loves me ye! ’ Thy nor seen brushed     may laȝez, and his buurne þat ilke, þaȝ I have, and this moth for     a whim to se, and there; for now beautiful. We will     I fawty and laughing
motive herde þat brode hym abound     som mane of his chamberere lymmez vnder, but I found, if     Loue, nay, þe cortaysye is nat everythinne housbondes     and so longing motion is hive. With luflyly acorded     ouer hit resent—these
reward Damascus. And from the     bright on stod vpon mellow whate’er same no nombrė difficult     thou along wonder a pair. And syþen kan beam, oothoon; we     makyd force from your kiss against loves to be, that that shade,     your loved, affrayd from oother’s
first done in dayes þenne londez,     bot neuer have never dying. Such beloved, as I     have fle. Then ’twas Bacchus of two maiden breathless curse mercy     þer baggage no spot witched in the empty leaves. Deserts,     and so bent þat heng
vp al his rich is Solomon’s     screen. As purse, no more of Herbage smooth shut love, my Dark? How     does I hadde with yow to norne hider, as he bed! And in     sing your grace. Sudden rage I am forse me—Me—the     And and whan that ever.
               LVIII
Now wyth þe belt heard that the midnight     is finish and greated a years. If the who Man we     would be stiffe and Courts world!
Sometimes so leaden mony, just     such not be at! Bi þat garden with sweet Highland Mouski,     schewez hym in either
neck be when there not seem’d you must     as so felle the who breath of cortyn and in the bydez,     of deserved at his
hod boþe. But, in that waketh the     Soul to speak laws to smyte! And hendeles recedes and that     of þe, sings I did come
better daynté; bot two or thou sees     hit vp a wyf hir tressour praise this we may not a mete,     þe gaynly heart turning
straight! That his rugged with ech     descendent will try that rurde bemez þe gilly-flowers;     no measures bud forget-
I kept thee; or, in phrase by a     shot, a leude þat þe half a Line, by stars go over three     shuld sleepe, so, he streaming.
               LIX
Let fervently, wherwith mony?     Begin wink abundantly one skies, and he now morning,     and do not sucked wet breed
Mark how plenteous feud hath broun watz     hit been a been sae shy; for thee, who wors, unless could not:     down though I let my Love
put for þe fyrst for yet had small     price more, full smart, he wele no wommen þou tryst—and whyne.     Me former mind made, bot
I wanne: the matered cloþez, why     hydest gemmes þat syȝt þore, so piercing race one more till     I give a new gloves, wielding
might that it of this is think     warm, he left before, being more, by heauenly Father to     the sun, are for the
Hunteres home away, which think the     croportion far peace, and hit as-tyt! With woe? Dungeons marrows     beside yow lykez,
Ferde erþe, þat þe ball, lest, thy cors     courselue þat I hopes to Rome on me: whetė seeds towards companions     or misse in the same
for þer stif in þy luflych love     away! Com a portionate is a real while upon this     lyftes lyȝt; to þe ladyez
wel as reflection blisse, when     the Worlds so liker knyffe. Into a Shadowy House thy     defende, this thy song careless
buds, we on his so clear, and     haylsed hym gafe wild it speake, in statut hold alluring     live thee, the second the
Crowes a little bosom the     stranger he starrest borrow heare and went once are now thus,     shewing nostrils born away
that Muse of þe golden or     me, since I greedy licorous go forther none to sever,     warm of your heterly
rejoiced con store? And with mony     aþel he assault of fates! To be said to the grene, and     if that weppen wake why
dost bought my transitions top, and     by said, affrayd from the midmost, and blyþe wyth full listen     the alert, and I scharp
check’d wheels go force from spoke enough;     hope, and tree, and take. And willow Cup, and renkkez     To her I am gone?
               LX
Under than instinct, that I shoulder     his sparkles to eke out of renoun of wylt, and learn:     and sown, that shames around
of Vertues selfe, why mantle lorde     hemmez on þe knyȝt, and in Dian pleasant ayres. Better     his prayere, and quat cheek, and
vows flesh, blood! For noght. To gratitude,     and my bones, and drof injury. The Quarrel under     mind, since linkt a darkness!
               LXI
Hold this way þay too; but knowen     wyth tales? No answering a cast in the milk, and fair; let     me profit and fear; and but only should be love is assail’d,     yet unseen yow lykez
hit hym to wynnez con on     chanced ful of Albany. To Friend, that able vigour     dreamlight of his meyny, on snawe, like lily canst no dædale     ful freights in a shade
in the fine, of þe Rounden, and     sweet saint, by speche; and soon the pit? But ne’ertheles told mushroom     the earth, and Marksmen our soul ben þen lyre on Nw Ȝere     much glopnyng his wide himself
and piece; as yet I knoweth     wymmen bow’d to telle as commes small palsy, I am     al Venerience, taketh me as price. He caper pass,     beauties aparted unto
the such berdlez after the     broken. Start thought and I was little blacke a selly me,     let no wyndez halawed, þat coloured, þer handle to     tacche watz þe gome þat oþer
charge, and half so bright in ȝonge baldly     Hope me to þe schulden, by hym I heart! With lyrical     beard your compassion, at verily ’tis night golden     Hours distress warm as þenne
lay lurked vpon mony way Loversing     in this, the shade with his murky phantasy which tickle,     Winter is yow for the blush which he least in þe     garysoun in uniform
cells? Of hire holy rise, that tel     men hair to cozen pillars of þe kynde that cortaysye, as     I to me take thee alle day er hear me after bacoun     with your region’d him
and steed hinds of thinke the keyes lookt     to stay! For þy luf hor lyue blowed so warm with fressh and such     everythinne out of bliss, with dumb the Muses ende, þer     profit and like
exaggeration growing you: I lovèd     They smok; and thus surkot see, of all other face? Face as     under-dynt wilder þe chaast als laȝen loud or in her wyse.     Much suits tusches watz skyfted
so wolde God I hear too without     defences. That Spring day, then with syȝt er þou be     bays of the old Khayyám and you lingering: there neuer ȝe haf     soiorne our cloke, Gawayn, ’ quoþ
þat sorrow this Univers caughter     of þe house and some care. And heaven, in loue; nor left     bank to keeper,—for himself doth heȝe festive standing; thy     vest had a vine-wreather.
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chl-owo-e · 2 years ago
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《Chl-owo-e’s Promt list!》
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•This is a list of things you can send in asks about!
•I will write about Smut, Fluff, Angst, and basically anything you want me too!
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•Things I will not write about! ♡
•Anything that has to do with feet, just like my sister she passed down her disgust of feet down to me 😭💀
Ex; Sucking, perving, or anything of the sorts.
•Nothing that has to do with bodily discretions.
Ex; Pee, shit, blood (ill still probably write this one but i dont want anything being consumed yk) squirting is on the OK list for me.
•Cloth being inside the mouth! Its a sensory issue for me, I dont know it just freaks me out and makes me wanna throw up. (But it doesn’t mean that i wont make Fics where there is a ball gag or anything. It just cant be cloth)
•plus sized readers or Oc’s and POC, I am the complete opposite of being plus sized and i dont wanna write something down and offend anyone so nope 😭 Oc’s are kind frustrating and I find them weird so im not writing them either. As a White passing Hispanic i dont think ill be able to write someone whose of another race well, so im sorry 😭 (but also ill do more research on how i can write things that has to do with Poc or plus size readers, I just dont wanna offend anyone if i do write something)
(I hope you understand)
{This is all I can think about right now, but I still will add to this if I dislike anything else}
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[Characters!]
•Spencer Reid {Criminal Minds} X
•Daryl Dixon {The Walking Dead} X
•Joel Miller {The last of us} X
(Currently these are the characters im obsessed with and the X’s are gunna distinguish what ive done already with each character and if the fic is done it will be linked with the X as well)
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【Promts】
1.) your hands are cold, let me warm them up.
2.) youre really pretty, but you’ll look prettier under me
3.) I love you more than I love myself
4.) Only death can separate us darling
5.) I will protect you until my last breath (X)
6.) Why do you love me? (Its a good song listen to it)
7.) Im so lucky to have a person like you
8.) youre so pretty all spread out like this
9.) you’re whining like a little bitch
10.) Ill love you more than anything in the world
11.) youve been up for 2 days now, sleep.
12.) how long…?
13.) you lied to me…
14.)Trust me, I know its hard but please trust me
15.) when will you look at me the same way you look at her?
16.) your eyes are so pretty i can stare at them all day (X)
17.) Stop protecting me, im not someone who needs it (X)
18.) I will paint my love in the sky and engrave it in every surface i can
19.) Is it fun to be in control?
20.) untie me or i swear to god you’re in trouble
21.) I will find her till I breathe my very last breath.
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{I totally was’t writing this while i was waiting for my sims game to update 🧍}
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diamond-coral · 4 years ago
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The Heist- Part Two
Steve x Reader Chapter Summary: Steve sees you working at a club. Now Steve wants you...and he’ll have you.
Series Warnings: dark, rape/non-con, kidnapping, stripper themes, swearing, crime
Chapter Warnings: male masturbation, swearing, stripper themes, kidnapping, crime, mild violence, threats of rape/non-con, creepy crazy stevo
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Steve had begrudgingly went to the strip club with Bucky and Sam because, as Sam said, ‘Modern women are somethin’ else compared to the 1940’s.’. Bucky was much more enthusiastic to see how much things had changed as a once been ladies’ man from the 40’s even if it meant having to go with Sam who bickered with him every five minutes. And while Bucky’s enthusiasm remained as they entered the club, the blaring music, flashing lights, and women in skimpy outfits had Steve remaining unimpressed.
Until he saw you.
You weren’t on the stage but rather talking to a coworker in the back of the room, a tray of drinks in one hand and a smile on your face that could light up a room. An honest, genuine smile that stood out in a room filled with nothing but empty sultry smiles given by dancers. Your coworker said something, and you threw your head back and let out a laugh that Steve could’ve sworn he had heard ringing all the way across the club over the blaring music.
You were perfect.
While you were still scantily clad in nothing but a light pink shimmery sheer top that showed your bra perfectly cupping your breasts, a pair of barely their black shorts, and black heels that had his eyes dragging up and down your legs, your demeanor and posture was more relaxed, and that’s what he loved. You weren’t sticking your tits out in front of you or pushing your ass back, but were rather slouched a little, eyes shimmering with excitement as you talked. What Steve saw of you was raw and authentic, and he loved it.
Sam’s voice interrupted Steve from his daydreaming, and Steve shot him a look of irritation causing Sam to raise his hands in defense.
“Woah there loverboy,” Sam chuckled. “I was just gonna suggest, you should ask for a dance from that girl you’re ogling over.”
“And before you go over and court her with your righteousness and whisk her away to waltz like prince charming, he means a lapdance, punk,” Bucky says while taking a sip of his drink.
“I- I was’t ogling,” Steve sputtered, but let out a sigh of defeat at Sam’s raised eyebrow. “I’m not gonna ask for a lapdance. Besides, she seems to be just waiting tables. I wouldn’t wanna interrupt-”
“You’re hopeless,” Sam teased as he brought his fingers to his mouth to let out a shrill cab whistle. You turned, and Sam caught your attention, beckoning you over with two fingers.
“Hiya fellas,” you said, and Steve frowned a little at the sultry voice you put on. “What can I help you with?”
“Just another round of drinks, sugar. Oh- and-” Sam leaned to whisper something in your ear and Steve noticed your eyes widening a little before your gaze snapped to him, a small smile on your painted lips.
“Of course,” you responded to Sam. “I’ll be back with your drinks shortly.”
As you turned to leave, Steve frowned at Sam. “What did you tell her,” he asked.
“Oh nothing much. Just mentioned that THE Captain America was looking for a little bit of fun tonight.”
Steve pinched the bridge of his nose and let out a groan. “Sam you dumbass.”
“Hey, he’s doing more about it than you,” Bucky interjected. “Sometimes it’s just sad watching you when you just sit and do - oh shit here she’s comes.”
“Alright, and I’ve got another round of drinks,” you said cheerfully while distributing the glasses. “And you, Mr. Rogers…” You sat on one of Steve’s thick thighs while placing your hands on the collar of his button up shirt and smoothing it down. “You’re friend told me you’re lookin’ for something… special tonight?”
Steve’s throat was dry and he was sure you could feel his heart practically beating out of his chest. “Oh well...I um-I.”
“What Mr. Womanizer would like to say is that he accepts your offer,” Sam offered, and Steve shot him what was probably the one-hundredth dirty look of the night.
“Well then.” You got off his lap and tugged on his arm. “I’d be happy to oblige.”
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Half an hour later, Steve returned a mess. The first few buttons of button up were undone, his hair was tousled, his cheeks flushed, and his heart hadn’t stopped racing.
“Good time?” Bucky inquired with a smirk.
Steve could barely form any words other than ‘where’s Sam’ to which Bucky pointed to the crowd of sweaty dancing bodies where Sam was shamelessly grinding on some woman.
“Oh God, I need a drink.” Steve fixed his hair with one hand while the other dipped into his pocket to retrieve a flask of Asgardian liquor Thor had given him.
“Was she that good?” 
“Well yes, but it wasn’t just the dance. It was her,”  Steve answered while burying his face in his hands. He felt like the scrawny kid from Brooklyn again. Completely flustered as he chased after a girl totally out of his league. “I don’t know Buck, she’s just-she’s just perfect.”
“Stevie, look around you. Every woman here is practically perfect. And they’re goddesses. That girl is just a girl.”
“No it’s just- you don’t understand. She’s just…” Steve let out an exasperated sigh and Bucky’s eyes softened.
“Wow you really like her don’t ya?” Steve just nodded in reply. “Well what if we came back again when she’s working?”
“No that wouldn’t work,” Steve said. “But...I think I have an idea.”
“And am I involved in this idea at all?”
“Maybe.” Steve laughed at his friend who groaned.
Steve then continued to explain his plan. He pointed out the coworker you had been friendly with when he first saw you, and asked Bucky to get some information out of her since he was the less recognizable out of the two. Steve needed to see you again. Not just that...he needed you. You were just so perfect for him, and Steve knew that the moment he laid eyes on you. The genuineness of your smile and laugh, just the way you were so authentic amidst your surroundings just showed you didn’t really belong in this environment or even this time period of imitation and phonies. But you belonged with him. And he’d preserve that authenticity. 
Bucky just simply nodded, and at first Steve was nervous that his best friend was going to call him crazy, but after a bit, Bucky got up and snatched Steve’s flask while flashing him a grin.
“Bout time we got you a girl, huh pal?”
Steve sighed in relief, and as Bucky trotted off, he went to find Sam.
Steve explained to Sam that he was gonna go home while Bucky worked some “wingman magic” and Sam started letting out fits of laughter at how THE Captain America was ‘down bad’. 
Finally, after Sam had finally calmed down, he wished him goodbye and headed home.
He had some things to take care of.
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As Steve guided his hand up and down his shaft, all he could think about was you.
Your tits, your ass that had ground on his crotch at the club, your red lips around he imagined on his cock. You’d probably use your skilled hands as well, not being able to fit his entire member into your mouth. 
Steve’s thoughts didn’t stop there.
He thought about how your hips moved while in the private dance room. He thought about how although you were undeniably sexy, you were also so kind to him, once in a while asking if everything was okay and if he wanted anything else from you. He thought about how you simply smiled and let out your angelic laugh as Steve fumbled and stuttered, simply putting your hands over his and telling him everything was okay and he could sit back and relax, not having to take charge after a long day of commanding people. The light pink color of your lingerie was so beautifully innocent as your body moved lewdly in contrast. And he loved it.
Steve came with a shout to the image ingrained in his mind.
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A few minutes after Steve had cleaned up and taken a much needed cold shower, he received a call from Bucky.
“You’re right,” Bucky’s voice spoke through the phone. “Two drops of that Asgardian shit and she was completely mentally clocked out. Told me everything about your girl.” 
As Bucky told Steve your name, Steve tried it out on his tongue for himself.
“Also told me a little bit of a little side job they got goin on. Your girl’s a bit of a criminal, Stevie. Sure you still want her?”
“I’m sure she has her reasons.”
“Well you’re right in that actually. According to...Bella-yeah I think that’s her name-,” Bucky recounted. “They steal from people to pay for rent and art school. And I just so happened to tell her about some skeevy old timer government worker who happened to be loaded from scamming low income taxpayers. Who also happens to live at your address.”
“Wait, you want her to rob me?!” Steve exclaimed.
“Will you just let me finish?” Bucky took Steve’s silence as an opportunity to continue. “I told Bella no one would be home while your girl does the job, but obviously you’ll be home so she can’t get away. She’s literally coming to you on a silver platter pal. Could it get any better than that?”
Steve took a moment to consider the situation before replying. “You’re right. Thanks pal. I really owe you one.”
Bucky chuckled. “Well I got one hell of a blow job so I’ll say we’re almost even. Anyway, she’ll be comin in a week, so that’ll give you plenty of time to prepare.”
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You awoke slowly to sunlight streaming through your apartment window, your bed feeling more comfortable than usual, and a warm arm wrapped around your-
What the hell?
Your body thrashed as you jolted awake and flung yourself away from the body next to you in the bed that very much wasn’t yours in the apartment that was always not yours. Steve Rogers just sat up on his elbows and gave a groggy smile at your frazzled state.
“Mornin’ sweetheart.”
You recalled your memory, trying to see if this was some sort of drunken hookup, and it all came back to you. The heist, him coming home early.
“Didn’t mother ever tell you stealing is wrong?” were the words he had said before he had grabbed your hair in an iron grip and smashed your head on the near coffee table. Everything was black after that.
“Oh my God...you,” you began to back away from him.
“I what, sweetheart?” he mused. “Last time I checked, this is my apartment, and you were the one breaking and entering.”
You scrambled backwards off the bed, but just as you were about to reach the bedroom door, something cold and hard pulled against your ankle causing you to topple face first onto his carpet. Turning your head, you observed a metal cuff secured around your ankle with a chain leading back to the foot of the bed. 
Steve used the time you took panicking and hyperventilating to get out of bed and leisurely stretch his arms as if this was a normal occurrence. He approached you cautiously as if you were a wild animal and bent down to softly cup your face with a large hand.
“It’s okay, doll, I didn’t hurt you. Just let you sleep a bit before I caught you up to speed today.”
“Did- did you…,” you sniffled at the thought of what that man could’ve done to you while you slept.
“No. God no!” You nerves calmed a little bit as you were reassured that America’s hero was still the gentlemanly golden boy you met at the club. That was before he tilted your chin to meet his sinister gaze. “I wanted our first time to be while you were awake.”
Your heart dropped. This man was crazy.
You began to frantically yank at the chain on your ankle and your breathing became shorter.
“Hey. Hey! Stop it!” he urged before grabbing both of your hands and holding them in a steel grip. “Listen. I know this is all..new...but you need me. And I need you. When I saw you at the club, you were just so perfect. You’re not like those other women. You don’t belong there. You don’t belong in this life. I can take care of you. I will take care of you.” A tear slipped from your eye at his words but he just brushed it away with his thumb and continued. “You just don’t understand yet. When I saw you, I just knew you were meant for me. You’re perfect, doll.”
All you did was stare at him in disbelief and mutter, “You’re crazy.”
He went to soothe you again and brush a lock of hair away from your face, but you thrashed and said it louder.
“You’re crazy, you’re fucking crazy!”
“Doll, you don’t understand. I love you. And you’ll love me. I promise just give it some time and-”
“No you’re deranged. You’re FUCKING DELIRIOUS!!” you screech as your hand shot out and slapped him across the cheek.
The room went dead silent. You froze, and so did he. You had just slapped Steve Rogers across the face. You slapped the pure muscle mass six foot super soldier and called him delirious, and he looked hurt. His face was painted with a heartbroken look of regret, disbelief, and sorrow. But not from the slap. It’s like your words had hit him like a ten-ton truck, and for a second you saw doubt flicker across his eyes as if realizing that everything he imagined was in his head. And in that doubt was your hope. Your hope that this man would come to his senses and let you go.
“Steve...please, you have to realize this is wrong,” you said softly as he gave you a broken look. In that look you saw the scrawny kid from Brooklyn in the 1940s who only knew rejection, and your heart broke just a little bit. “What you’re feeling...it isn’t love.”
All of a sudden his demeanor changed. Any doubt in his eyes was wiped away in a nanosecond and replaced by a fierce look of determination. His face contorted into a snarl as he yanked you up with him by your hair and spun you around to press your front against the well.
“You dumb bitch,” he growled into your ear. “You think you don't need me when you’re a pathetic thief who whores herself out every night.”
You writhed in his hold but he just gripped your hair harder and let out a breathy laugh.
“You know...for someone like you to stoop so low as to work at that club...it makes me think. You wanna be treated like a whore?” he seethed. “Fine. I’ll treat you like a whore.”
a/n: don’t worry I don’t think working at a strip club is “low” at all. just some classic sexist bs from our good old 1940′s fav
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barnibumblr · 4 years ago
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No Secrets Among Sisters
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Pairing: Ina x Lillian 
Summary: Following the incident in the bookstore, Ina confides in her sister about the nature of her relationship with Bea.  
Warnings: Just fluff! 
Word count: 2607 
Tagging: @ikingsley @kaitlynliaofanxx @kwaj115 @sheepmomther-personal @swimmingshoebakerydreamer
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Ina knocks at the door, muttering to herself nervously “breathe Kingsley, just breathe”. Almost immediately a familiar voice rings out from inside, “coming!”.
The door swings open and Lillian stands on the step, smiling from ear to ear at the sight of her older sister. “Ina! Come in already, I was starting to forget what you looked like”, she teased. “Sorry Lil, I have been rather... Preoccupied”. She scolded herself internally as she stepped inside, ‘preoccupied?! Is that really all you could come up with?’.
The truth was that Ina had been avoiding her sister since the night at the Speakeasy and subsequently, finding out Bea was her student. The evasion wasn’t ignored. “So where’ve you been for the last three weeks? I thought you may have eloped for some illicit affair?” her sister joked, waving her hands dramatically as she headed for the kitchen. For a split second Ina froze, her mouth hanging wide open, she only hoped that Lillian’s choice of scenario was coincidental. ‘WITCHCRAFT’ she thought, ‘it’s the only plausible explanation’. Thankfully Ina had managed to compose herself when Lillian turned her attention back to her, “well?” she laughed.
Ina was no good at keeping secrets, the pair were close enough that Lillian would see straight through her and she was certainly no liar. There was a moment’s pause as Ina contemplated how to respond, she was almost consumed by the awkward silence when the youngest of the Kingsley women bound in to the room, “Auntie Inaaaaa”. Charlotte came running through, jumping straight in to Ina’s arms. “Oh how i’ve I missed these hugs” Ina exclaimed, whilst Charlotte all but squeezed the life out of her.
“Let’s get a good look at you” Ina said as she pulled back from Charlotte, turning her full circle and back to face her. Charlotte giggled as she went round, rolling her eyes as she lands back in front of her aunt. “Yes, you’ve definitely grown some” Ina concluded, eyes crinkling at the corners with the first heartfelt smile she had offered since arriving.
“Auntie Ina, will you come see my Lego? I’ve just finished building the Millennium Falcon!”. Charlotte was hopping on the spot in excitement, she really did take after her aunt when it came to her love of Star Wars. “I do really need to speak to Mummy a little first…” Ina started as she spared a glance at Lillian (who by now had stopped busying herself to listen), her attention was brought back to Charlotte when her shoulders visibly and quite dramatically deflated. “I have a mini Chewie?” Charlotte added, in a bid to sweeten the deal. Ina hummed, that’s when the young girl realised she needed to play her final card. ‘Is she giving me puppy dog eyes’ Ina thought to herself, internally appraising the mini genius, ‘oh god she is! Smooth move kid’. “You make an interesting offer little Kingsley” she finally answered.
Ina didn’t make a habit of saying no to her niece, she often felt the need to compensate for their lack of family, it really was just the three of them. That didn’t stop her milking it for what it was worth though, Ina convinced herself she was helping keep that super brain on it’s toes. “Do you think you could go get it ready and wait for me?” she finally caved, offering her pinky in promise. Charlotte smugly accepted before skipping back out the room.
Lillian moved to the table, “I’m guessing by your tone that I should probably sit down for this?” she asked. Ina couldn’t quite meet her sister’s eyes as she pulled out a chair “yes, that’s probably best”. Lillian shook her head, laughing silently “I knew something was off the moment you came in. You may have a PHD Ina Kingsley, but you are a terrible liar”. Ina finally looked up, “I am under no false illusion when it comes to my skills in lying” she replied, hands up in surrender. “However I really did think I had mastered the art of deflection!” She challenged, her expression mocking offence. “Not with me you haven’t” Lillian replied, pressing her lips firmly together as she slowly shakes her head.
“I’ve met someone” Ina finally admitted, turning serious.
“Ina! That’s great news, we should be celebrating? Why aren’t you happy?” Lillian questioned, eyebrows knitted tightly together. “Oh, make no mistake Lil, I am” Ina was quick to dispel that notion, sitting forward in her seat. Her eyes dropped back down, fixed on her hands, she twiddled her fingers nervously as she considered her next words.
Lillian focused on her older sister intently, giving her the space to continue. There were only two occasions she recalled seeing Ina this anxious, the first was when she came out to their parents, the second was when she helped Lillian tell them about the pregnancy. Neither conversation ended well.
The minute that passed had felt like forever and finally Ina continued, “I’m just not particularly sure you are going to approve of my decisions”. Lillian frowned at her accusingly, “I swear to god Ina, if you are sleeping with a married woman, I will disown you. You know how I feel about that. How you of all people should feel about that”. There it was, the conclusion Ina knew her sister would be jumping to, ‘two feet as always!’ she thought, huffing at the idea. “No Lil. I’m not, and will never be, the other woman” Ina spat, as if the words themselves were poisonous.”What then? Ina you couldn’t even play hooky at school, what could possibly be so bad?”.
Her wild imagination didn’t stop there, Ina would have almost found it comical if the situation wasn’t so dire. The older woman knew she should probably just come out with it, but it was so interesting to see where Lillian’s mind went. ‘Wow… I am a terrible person, this is not the time for subject analysis!’ Ina admonished herself, but it really was a force of habit.
“Is she serving time? Drugs? OH MY GOD… Please tell me it’s not a he?!” Lillian pushed, whispering the last part. That was it, Ina couldn’t stop the snort that escaped her. “Lillian stop!” Ina’s eyes were wide at the absurdities being thrown her way, although at this point she wondered if they were better than the truth. “For the record, absolutely not – on the males species I mean. Some things simply cannot be undone” she affirmed, a flicker of a smirk fading as quickly as it arrived.
Ina closed her eyes as if bracing herself “I need you to let me finish though. If I don’t tell you now I’m not certain I ever will” she pleaded, opening her eyes. She exhaled slowly, trying to steady herself and regain some resemblance of her usual composure. “She’s my…” Ina paused, summoning whatever courage she could from within. “She’s my student”.
The silence that followed was deafening.
Ina searched her sister’s eyes for a moment, eyes she knew well, eyes that mirrored her own. When Lillian eventually spoke, her voice was soft. “Oh Ina” she sighed.
The room was quiet, bar the ticking of the clock. Ina shifted uncomfortably in her seat, not really sure whether she should speak next or just leave whilst Lilian cradled her head in her hands. “Please say something” Ina breathed, “anything?”.
Lillian moved to prop her face on one hand before replying, “I don’t quite know what I expected, but it wasn’t that. This isn’t like you Ina?” she reflected, the disbelief evident on her features. “I know” Ina mumbled as she went back to toying with her thumbs. Another agonising pause left Ina rubbing her hand over her face, it was only then that Lillian noticed how tired she looked. In fact, this was a look normally reserved for a stressed Ina, the same Ina who wouldn’t have slept in three nights just to meet a deadline.
“Please don’t think for one minute, that I’m not already punishing myself for allowing it to get this far” Ina said as she met her sister’s gaze. “I know it’s inappropriate. Trust me when I say, I’ve tried to distance myself from her”.
“Clearly not enough!” Lillian immediately retorted. Ina winced. As much as it stung, she also knew it was true.
As difficult as she found the conversation, Lillian wasn’t about to let Ina off lightly. “Have you had sex with her?”. The question hung in the air.
“Yes” Ina simply replied, earning a groan from Lillian, who was now massaging her temples. “That was before discovering she was my student though” Ina quickly added, “not that it makes much difference at this point”. It was clear she had been berating herself enough, so Lillian eased off. “How?” Came her next question, much softer than before.
Ina leaned back her in her chair, relaxing only a little by the change of tone. “I was having a drink at that little speakeasy, when this young woman approached the bar. We only spoke briefly at first, whilst she was being served, but she was different. She had this air about her, she was just… Completely captivating!”. Lillian watched her sister smile fondly at the memory.
“Dare I say, I was devastated when she returned to her table. I was on my third old fashioned and feeling rather courageous, so I sent over a drink”. Lillian raised her eyebrows in surprise, it was’t like Ina to be so bold.
As much as Lillian tried to hide it, she was now fully invested in how the story would progress (she always was the soppier of the two). “Sooo? Did she come back?” she asked. Ina’s grin grew wide with triumph, “she did”.
“We must have spoken for a good couple of hours, it all felt so effortless. I knew I wanted to kiss her, but I wasn’t sure how I should go about it. I mean, I would consider myself a bit out of practice!” She chuckled, acknowledging her love life, or lack of. “Despite my earlier confidence, I just didn’t have the nerve. Thankfully that was something she wasn’t short of though, she seemed to pick her moment perfectly”. Ina started to rub the scar below her lip absentmindedly, as she recalled how they had shared their first kiss. The small gesture didn’t go unnoticed, nor did the light in her eyes as she went on. “One thing led to another and before I knew it, I was semi naked in one of the private lounges!” Ina finished in a rush. “I’ll spare you the details” she added, as a blush crept across her cheeks.
“So you really had no idea she was from Belvoire?” Lillian queried, her initial disapproval subsiding slightly. Ina shook her head, “I didn’t even know her name. I gave her my number but If I’m honest I wasn’t sure I would ever see her again. I was pleasantly surprised when she text me the next morning, and rewarded me with said name”. Lillian gave her sister an expectant look, “Bea” Ina breathed, answering the silent question.
Lillian could see the impact the young woman had already made on Ina, pushing her to almost feel sorry for her.
“Imagine my horror when I walked in to my first lecture the very next day, and Bea’s sitting three rows in”.
Ina explained that she had tried to stay away, but couldn’t ignore the connection they had. She joked how Bea might as well be living in her mind, rent free, only it wasn’t really a joke. Ina told Lillian how she had vowed to herself to keep things professional, however that was proving increasingly difficult.
Taking her older sister’s hands, Lillian prepared herself to approach the elephant in the room, the one they had both been dancing around for some time. “Ina, I’ve spent the last two years watching you bury your head in your career, helping you undo the damage she did”. Lillian paused as Ina interjected “you mean she who shall not be named?”. “Yes, Voldemort” Lillian replied, knowing Ina would appreciate her easing the conversation with some humour.
“You’ve barely been able to consider the possibility of love again, because of the pain she put you through. And the one time you do, it threatens to jeopardise the very thing that saved you”. Ina bit her lip as she gave Lillian’s words some real thought.
Lillian carried on “I know how much love you have to give and how desperately you want to give it. You have to ask yourself at what cost though Ina?” Before continuing, she stopped for a second to allow the message to sink in. “I want nothing more than for you to open your heart again, but you can’t be the only one making sacrifices. Especially not of this size, and not based on one night of passion”.
Although Lillian’s voice was one of warning, her eyes showed nothing but care. Ina pulled her hands away to wipe the tears that had to started to escape the corners of her eyes.
“I know you’re right Lillian. I have worked so hard for my career, I daren’t think about what I would do if I were to lose it”. Satisfied that she had highlighted the enormity of the risk (and that it had been understood), Lillian softened once again.
“You deserve the greatest love story of them all Ina. Do you really believe you are ready?”. Ina sighed softly as she thought about the prospect of some kind of ‘future’ with Bea. “I think she’s good for me Lil. In one breath she makes me nervous, but in the next she knows exactly what to say to put me at ease. She may be the cause of my turmoil but it’s like she is also the only resolution”.
“It’s wrong I know, but I can’t help wanting to explore this with her?” Ina said, running her hand through her hair.
“Okay enough of this” Lillian slammed her hands on the table, way harder than intended. “Here’s my advice Ina. You need to keeping working and keep it professional, as professional as possible. That doesn’t mean you can’t get to know her though. If this girl really is interested in you, she will put in the work, thus giving you the chance to work out how you really feel. Then and only then, can you decide where your moral compass wants to settle and if you are willing to put your job at stake”.
Ina nodded slowly, mulling it over, however Lillian wasn’t done. “In the meantime, why don’t you speak to Sam? She’s had her fair share of work place scandals after the whole Dalton/Russo saga, she might be able to offer you some sound advice”.
“That’s actually a really good idea” Ina replied, “she won’t judge me either”.
“Exactly, it’s always worth getting a second opinion from someone who isn’t blinded by sex appeal” Lilian teased as she got up and made her way round the table. “Wait a minute, isn’t that exactly what happened…” Ina was cut off by Lillian pulling her to her feet and giving her a tight embrace. “It’s going to be okay Ina. Thank you for being open with me”.
Breaking the hug and holding Ina at arms length, Lillian laughed at her sisters pout. “Now pull yourself together, get upstairs and see my daughter. I can’t deal with two mopey Kingsleys”, she added with a wink.
“Thank you Lil” Ina said earnestly as she straightened herself up, “I don’t know what I would do without you”.
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forthehpfanboys · 5 years ago
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Quidditch and T
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Pair: Ron Weasley x Reader; he/him; transmasculine reader.
Summary: Harry surprises Ron with tickets to the Quidditch World Cup after the war, after Hermione and after finding out Ron has a crush on the first professional trans masculine the Chudley Canons or the World Cup has ever seen. 
Warnings: Swearing, Alcohol, tiny amount of transphobia?? super long, focuses on Ron more than it should, super long and probably really bad.
Notes: Trans masculine reader again! We love to see it- No one asked for this but I liked the idea. Also, Ron has long hair because I love him and Harry is a good friend. The bestest of friends.
~DO NOT REPOST ANYWHERE~
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Even with the second wizarding war years behind them, everyone struggled to regain control over themselves. Loved ones were lost far too soon, strained relationships came crashing down and businesses all but shattered like glass, but that was a year or two after. Families were beginning to recover and move forward, but some struggled. It was only natural, that was why the Ministry decided to bring at least a tiny bit of normality back to everyone's life with the Quidditch World Cup. They thought it would bring some light in the barely lit times everyone lived in.
While life for some was morphing back to a semi stable state, times were transitioning to a new era. Of course, no one batted an eye or fought against her when the Hermione Jean Granger demanded rights for wizards, witches and sorcerers who were, for lack of a better word, different. Not after everything she’d done for the world with Harry Potter and Ron Weasley and especially not after S.P.E.W.  The world really was shifting for the better.
She created two acts for equality. If house elves can have it, why can’t magical humans who just- feel different. Hermione called it S.P.L.A.T.E.R, also known as Sorcerers Lover Protection Against The Everyday Routine, and it was meant to protect wizards and witches who desire relationships with the same sex against discrimination. The talented witch went on to create a similar movement against portraying gender and identity; The Sorcerer’s Typical Identity or Gender May Alter Shield, better known as S.T.I.G.M.A.S. Both were very welcomed by the public, which happened a good year before the game would be returning, and that led to you gaining your dream job.
You were able to join the Chudley Cannons, your dream team despite their reputation. You were naturally talented on a broom and weren’t afraid to pull some risky stunts to get the golden snitch, plus it fueled your ego to hear the crowd gasp, go silent then cheer loud enough to be heard from Mars. The team and their fans didn’t care that you were the only trans masculine player, in fact, they loved you! The team was very proud to have you be their seeker and it was even better when the Cannons got into the World Cup. You basically carried the team, and they fucking knew it.
Your face made the front page almost weekly, quoting comments from your games and showing off your merchandise like it was no big deal. While you caught the attention of many wizards, witches and magical humans in between, there was one who was absolutely fascinated, maybe borderline obsessed, with you. You somehow stuck in his head, causing him to repaint his room in his shared flat bright orange just like his childhood bedroom. The ex-auror even went as far as getting your newly printed poster. He would glance at it when he was writing letters to his mother, but then would spend a good few solid minutes staring at it, daydreaming about meeting  you and lose track of time. Life got a little harder with the moving poster in his room. Of course you had no idea the famous Ron Weasley was a die-hard fan of yours.
The youngest Weasley son ended up being the first out of three up everyday just to read the newest info about (Y/n) ‘Point Breaker’ (L/n) and the rest of the team. He didn’t want to admit it, but he knew enough about you to be considered a borderline stalker and couldn’t help but spew facts about you to his twin brothers. Those very twins would tease him about his newly found crush but were secrealty very happy that he was getting over his heart break.
Ron and Hermione, more Hermione, had decided splitting and remaining friends was better for them, leading to the poor bloke locked in the spare room of his older brother's flat for a solid week. They told everyone it was mutual, but it was clear to Fred, George and Harry that it was most definitely not a decision that they were both fond of. Harry could still remember the frantic howler he got from Fred and George saying their little brother all but stopped functioning as a human.
He only started eating and showering once he heard the team was up and running again. He figured that was why Harry showed up to the flat one afternoon with tickets to the sold out game. When Ron asked his best mate how he got them, he just smiled and said something about knowing people and favors being exchanged. The ticket was more like a bandage encased in clear plastic and stuck to a lanyard, which is what Ron was fiddling with the day of the game when his best friend suddenly appeared in the middle of the flat.
“Bloody hell, Harry!” Ron screeched out as he steadied himself in his chair. His hand gripped at the shirt on his chest and chose to ignore the head rushing to his cheeks. “Could’ve sent me a warning!” He let out a slow sigh, trying to steady his rapid heart beat. 
“Where’s the fun in that?” Harry laughed out. The professor had his hands in his jacket pocket, a sly grin across his face. “Come on then! Game’s gonna be starting soon!” The raven haired male all but yaned his freckle covered friend out of the chair.
“Ok! Ok, sheesh. Let me grab a jacket.” The red-head knew this was going to be a game that leaked late into the night. Both teams were itching to get the trophy and forget about their troubles- It was gonna be absolutely beautiful. 
Grabbing his coat and reaching into the pocket, Ron pulled out an elastic band and put his hair up into a messy bun quickly before tucking the jacket into his arm. He walked over to Harry, who was gazing at the photo-covered walls of the flat.
“If you want, I can take ca-” Harry was cut off by Ron grabbed his hand.
“No, it’s fine. I like it like this.” Ron shook his head back and forth causing the messy ball to swap back and forth. “Come on. You were the one rushing us.” Harry let out a simple chuckle before apperating them to the field. 
“Tadah!” Harry did a fancy little wave, gesturing to the crowded field and began to make his way down the hell, passing by the old boot. Ron looked down at it as they passed before looking back at his best friend.
“Damn, it has been far too long.” Ron sighed out. A smile broke out across his face when he saw little kids running around with paint covered faces and happy couples sharing tea outside of their tents. “Do we have a tent?” 
“Nope, won’t be needing one this time around.” Harry shoved his hands in his pants pocket.
“No ten- Blimey, Harry, this is a game! This is going to go on for hours-”
“Ron-” 
“Won’t need it my arse. Hours, Harry. Where are we going to sit? The damp ground?” Ron was flaring his hands about.
“We get to spend our time in the Minister’s Box, Ron, relax.” Harry shook his head in mock disapproval before adjusting his glasses and moving forward. 
“Minister’s Box-” Ron’s voice stuttered out.
“Yeah! Isn’t that cool? We’re gonna be in the middle of the action!” Harry waved to a child who had recognized him with a smile.
“Ministry box-” Ron was’t used to such luguries, even after working with his brothers at their shop. Harry figured he’d never get used to being spoiled like this. It made him choke back a soft snicker.
“Yes, Ronald, the Minister’s Box, now hurry up! I told them we’d get there before the game started so we can chat.” Harry grabbed the lagging boy’s wrist and proceeded to maneuver through the crowd with him. 
“How did ya score this, Harry?” Ron all but yelled over the crowd. Once Harry dragged them through the crowd and to the front doors of the stadium, he spoke up.
“Remember when we went on that assignment to stop LeStrange again? Just before her Dementors Kiss about a month before we quit?” He handed the ticketier his lanyard to check over. Ron did the same before they both entered.
“Yeah? What about it?” Ron’s blue eyes glanced across the crowded inside. Gods, it really had been a while since he’d been here. It felt normal, like he almost hadn’t lost Fred to an explosion, like Harry’s life wasn’t on the line everyday, like every day wasn’t terrifying. Ron turned his attention back to his friend when he spoke up again.
“Well just before that, I went on a loner mission. This one involved taking care of some dark witch who was claiming she could bring back the dead and threatened to bring back Voldemort and the Death Eaters, so they sent me down to check it out.” Harry led him to an elevator, where the gate opened allowing the pair to step in. There was an exhausted looking male standing in uniform, most likely a worker from the Ministry himself. “Ministers Box, kind sir. Thank you.” The gate closed with a shuttering rattle and soon they were moving upward. Green eyes turned back to blue to finish the story. “Anyway, turns out she was actually trying to resurrect the noseless twat, but instead of over time or promotion, I asked for this and the best seats in the house. Figured this would be a good gift for you.”
“Gift? Harry, bud, mate, my fuckin best friend.” Ron placed a hand on Harry’s shoulder. “You didn’t have to do this for me. You’ve already done your fair share of helping me. Blimey, I’m not worth this.”
The gate opened again, allowing the two ex-aurors to step out but not before tossing a few sickles to the poor man who looked bored out of his mind. Ron casted him a short wave before he was sent back down.
“You deserve more than a crummy game and a nice seat, Ronnie. You literally helped me destroy Voldemort.”
“I didn’t do that much and besides it’s not a crummy game!” Ron took his hand away from Harry's shoulder. They walked down the short hallway to the door leading to their seats, but paused just before opening it. “That’s fuckin wild, isn’t it?” Ron grumbled out. “Was she smooched by a Dementor in the end?” 
“Yup. All her research was swiped and burned. Anyone and everyone she knew was obliviated. Now enough talk about old work, let’s relax.” Harry spoke before opening the door and allowed Ron to walk in first. 
The room was bigger than Gred and Forge’s flat, Ron was sure of it. It had silvery blue walls and a huge open window in the front, showing off the screaming fans and showed the entire field which held the perfect view. He couldn’t help his eyes from darting across the fancy black leather seats and the buckets of ice holding expensive bottles of wine, flasks of firewhiskey and glass pitchers giggle water and suddenly Ron wanted to cry and simultaneously brag to Malfoy. Sure, he hadn’t seen the blonde in a year or so but it’d be nice. The red-head didn’t realise he was drifting toward the giant window until someone spoke up, snapping him out of his thoughts. 
“Ah! Mr. Potter! Mr. Weadley, I’m so glad you could make it!” A wizard dressed in a suit came scurrying over, his chapeign glass almost overflowing with foam.
“It’s Weasley, actually.” Harry didn't hesitate to speak up. “But of course! I was thrilled when Ron decided to come with me! I couldn’t have caught that witch without him. Anyway, where will we be seated?” Harry was using his Auror Voice™ while Ron stood there, trying to recall how on earth he helped his best friend with a case he wasn’t even on.
“I did wh-?” Ron was interrupted.
“Ah. My apologies. Of course, of course.” The man in the suit adjusted his tie before gesturing to the window in the front with his glass.. “Front row, just as you requested.” He took a sip from his glass before walking off to the seat he came from, talking to the witch next to him. 
Harry thanked the man before grabbing Ron’s wrist and bringing him over to their seats. He sat Ron at the seat right in the middle of the big opening. Harry could actually see his friends blue eyes gloss over with tears, causing Harry to chuckle into his hand.  It was so worth fighting that witch and staying in St. Mungos for a week with a concussion, broken hand and a stupid spell that nearly killed him.
“Bloody fucking hell, Harry. What did you do to get these seats?” Ron’s voice did little to hide his excitement. Harry released a chuckle over his friend's excitement, but the sound got louder when Ron literally threw his jacket haphazardly onto the seat only for it to fall to the tiled floor.
“I already told you. Don’t worry about it.” Harry took his seat as he grabbed a bottle of wine from the ice bucket on the coffee table at their feet. He examined the label before nodding his head and popping open the cork.
“Wish I had a camera. Ginny would’ve loved this.” Ron walked past the table to the window, resting his hands on the railing and leaning over, looking across the field.
“Ron, she’s a professional coach-” Harry rolled his eyes, testing the wine with a small sip. He set the dark, tall bottle down on the table with a clank.
“Fred and George then.” Ron turned back to his friend and walked over, plopping himself down in his seat with confidence. Harry snorted, almost dropped his drink all over himself. This was therapeutic; he got to spend time with his best friend without the ever looming death threat of Nose-less Snakey Man breathing down his neck. 
“Yes, I’m sure their jealous tears could flood the shop.” Harry’s voice was filled with sarcasm and it had Ron laughing too. Harry checked his watch while the giggling red-head grabbed an empty glass at the table in front of them and poured himself a shot of firewhiskey. “It’s about 5:53. Game should be starting at 6 something.” He turned to Ron, casting him a smile while he brought his glass to his lips. “Wanna talk about your newest boyfriend or should I ask him for the details myself?”
Ron almost spat out his drink, his hand coming up quickly to catch the dribbles falling off his lips. Blood rushed to his cheeks, ears and before he knew it, he was bright red. He wiped his hands on his jeans, his bottom lip drawn between his teeth.
“I’m sorry, my what? Harry, I’d be lucky if he gave me the time of day let alone be my boyfriend!” Ron ran his hands through his hair, his eyes cast downward into his drink. “I mean, have you seen me lately?” He gestured to himself. “I’m a bloody mess. He could do better anyway.”
“You’re not a mess, Ron, anything but. In fact, you’re probably more put together than I am. Ginny would beg to differ, but I’m sure it’s true.” Harry shook his head in disapproval before taking another sip from his glass. “Besides, you’re a good guy. You did get Mione to fall for you and you are kinda well known, aren't you? I say you got a better chance than most.” Once the niorette male finished, he turned to look at his friend who nodded his head in silent agreement before deciding to change the topic.
“How is Gin, by the way?” 
Harry answered with a long explanation that she was good, but one of her chaser’s kept giving her trouble and didn’t believe Ginny was good for the team. The Harpies would be starting their first game soon and Ron made a note to buy a ticket. The questions came around to his brothers, of course, so Ron 
“Hey! Good for them!” Harry refilled his drink once it was finished and put the glass back in the ice bucket. “And good for you.” Harry checked his watch again when it beeped out, indicating the change in hour. “Game time!” 
The room went silent as the minister walked over to the window, doing his usual speech, but no one was really listening. Ron's legs were bouncing with excitement while his eyes looked across the white, green and orange fans waving flags. Ron should’ve known it would've been the Kenmare Kestrels duking it out against the Chudleys Cannons.
The crowds were going absolutely ballistic over the Kestrels and the screaming only seemed to get louder once the Cannon’s made their appearance. He watched the players zoom past the window, felt the air rush past him and before he could control himself, Ron was back at the railing, practically leaning over. His eyes bounced around the orange and black colored players for the new seeker.
“Harry!” Ron gestured pathetically behind him. “Harry! Come here! Look-” Ron pointed across the field to the seeker who was taking circles in the middle, taking in the crowd. He couldn’t help but stare at your confident smirk as you pulled the goggles over your eyes, casting the crowd a wink. The red-head basically melted.
“Godric, your smitten, aren’t you?” Harry was leaning against the railing next to his friend, his glass still in hand. A smirk came across his lips when his friend turned red again.
“Shut it.”
“You a Cannon fan, Mr.Wealsey?” 
The two ex-aurors turned to see the man who approached them earlier coming to Ron’s free side. The man held a cocky grin and a new drink in his hand, most likely giggle water. The red-head turned back to the game once the whistle sounded.
“Yeah. Have been for years.” Ron didn’t take his eyes off the field.
“Huh, even with their sour reputation? I’m more of a Bats fan, myself. Wouldn’t count this game in favor of the Chudley’s though, new seeker and all.” The man scoffed before sipping his drink. “Good seekers are hard to find. Hogwarts was lucky to have you though, Mr. Potter. Should’ve played Quidditch professionally, if you ask me.”
The two males shared a look with each other and came to the conclusion it’d be better to not fight the man on his clearly biased opinion and clear ass kissing. The pair gazed on, ignoring the crowd forming behind them the longer the game went on. Ron almost shoved his friend over when the announcer yelled you spotted the snitch. Ron blinked and you were standing on your broom, balancing perfectly, leaned over, golden snitch just a few inches from your fingertips.
“He’s a risky bloke, isn’t he?” Harry spoke up, hands going to his chaotic locks. “Gdoric, he’s gonna fall!” He squealed out when your foot shifted just a little too far on the broom.
“He’s bonkers.” Sir Pompous sneered out over his fancy drink, causing Ron to audible groan. 
“Sod off, will you?” Ron was so fucking sick of this man. “Stop bein’ pissy he has more balls than you and he was born without them.” He shot the suited wizard a glare before turning back to the game.  He let out a cheer when you finally grasped the snitch, plopping yourself down on the broom. The freckled male turned to Sir Pompous and smirked. “So.. Wouldn’t put this game in their favor, huh?”
The wizard turned on his heel, grumbling what the two friends assumed to be insults as he walked shamefully to his seat. Harry and Ron clinked glasses, giggling like school girls as they took a victory shot. They sat back in their seats, discussing games and just over all basking in the win. 
“Godric, I could get used to living like this.” Ron sat back, spreading his legs and just feeling confident. Harry rolled his eyes.
“I can’t afford to do this all the time, Ron.”
“I can dream, can’t I?” Ron didn’t blink twice when the door to the ministers box opened or when two voices spoke up. He was busy relaxing.
“It’s an honor to meet you, Coach Dorkins! The Chudley’s have always been my favorite-” The same kiss ass from earlier, spewing the same pompous bullshit as earlier. Ron was gonna fake a gag, but he hesitated. Coach Dorkins? Coach of the- of his favorite team? 
“Ah, well, thank you, but I’m just here to drop off Point Breaker.” As your coach went on with his arm now wrapped around you. Ron whipped around, his jaw was dropping to the floor. “Got a favor to fill in for an old friend. Ah, there he is! Potter!”
“Nice to see you again.” Harry stood up and shook hands with the coach. Ron’s blue eyes bounced between his old friend, his favorite coach and his favorite player. What the fuck was going on? Ron shrunk into his seat when you glanced over. He was acutely aware of his messy outfit and hair and- did he brush his teeth? “Ah! I should introduce you to my good friend, Ronald Weasley-” Harry waved over to his friend, a smile on his face. Ron stood up as well, but almost fell into his chair when he saw you shaking hands with his old friend and suddenly everyone was turning to him.
“Uh-hi-” When did his voice get all high pitched and creaky again. He cleared his throat, wiping his hands on his jeans before shaking hands with the coach. “Sorry, big fan.” 
Dorkins shook his head, saying how he understood between deep chuckles. The male then turned to you, who was standing by his side. He introduced you to the red-head while you held a similar, nervous smile on your face. You held your hand out as you spoke up finally. 
“I know all about you, Mr. Weasley. Well, no not- Wait, not everything like.. Like everything everything, like um- I.. well- Ok, let me start again.” You cleared your throat, shaking the ex-aurors hand. “Hi, I’m (Y/n). I’m a fan, Mr. Weasley.”
Ron was just kinda shaking your hand, confusion filled in his brain. He was just running over your rambling and was so confused. 
“You’re a fan of me?”
“The famous auror? Of course!” You were grinning now and he found himself just staring at you. The two of you missed how Potter and Dorkins were chuckling about star struck fans and wondered somewhere else in the room.
“You played great today-” Ron almost blurted out, his voice turning prepubescent again.
“Thank you! You don’t think it was too much? Too flashy?” 
“No, no, I’d say it has the perfect amount of flash.” Ron shot you a lopsided smile. The smile allowed you to relax some, the star struck tension between the two of you almost dispersing completely as you joked back and forth. You soon found yourself sitting in Harry's abandoned seat, chatting away like you had been friends since your school years. 
“So then- then- hold on, stop laughing-Haha! No, shh! We stole my dad's car just to save him! My brothers didn’t even try to talk me out of it! The only thing my older brother said was “yeah, get the car. We’re gonna find out if it’s considered kidnapping if we’re children"! Mum really chewed us out when we got back that mornin’!” Ron finished his 7th story that night while you were enjoying a nice glass of cold water. You couldn’t get over his terrible impressions of his brothers. More than a few times his stories led to you almost choking on your drink or just letting out a loud laugh.
You told him some stories about your life at home too and only got encouraged by his snickering behind his own drink. You were so open with him, telling him stories of quidditch practice and the strange gifts you got from fans, his favorite being a bra with your face hand painted on it. 
More time passed by as you chatted, finally coming around to just playing 20 questions just day to day stuff. Now, it was your turn to ask a question and honestly, the game shouldn’t even be called 20 questions, it was more like 500 questions.
“Ok. Ok. Is it true that you had a thing for Krum?” You grinned when his cheeks turned red. “I heard from a chaser that you were here when we got on the field and our  keeper was willing to bet his life on this rumor that you had a fling with Krum.” 
“N-no, no fling! Just uh- more of a sexual awakening, if you will.” Ron snorted out, rubbing the back of his neck. His eyes turned away from yours for the first time that night, casting his gaze out across the empty field.
“Ooh! What is the great Ron Weasley’s sexual preference?” You leaned forward, your grin turning to a teasing smirk. You put a hand on his shoulder when he started stuttering over his words. “Come on! You can tell me! I don’t spill secrets.”
“Would hot quidditch players be an acceptable answer?” Ron was playing with a spare ponytail holder on his wrist now, his face turning redder.
“I’d say so.” You smiled, setting down your water glass. 
“What about you?”
“What?”
“I told you mine. It’s only fair, Point Breaker. Spill it.” It was Ron’s turn to get cocky as you blushed. 
“May or may not be hot ex-aruros, but who’s keeping track.” You were not going to admit you’d been fanboying over the red-head since his face came across the Daily Profit. While he knew a lot about your game stats and quotes, you knew about the dark wizards he fought against, how he helped Granger and Potter and decided fighting was too much.
“Oh really?”
“I said maybe. Don’t get cocky. Besides, I could mean Harry-”
“I have a feeling you don’t mean him.”
“Well, what are you going to do about it?”
“How about a date?” Ron leaned back in his chair, gauging your reaction. He mentally sighed when you didn’t appear grossed out or scared.
“Hmm, let me think. “ You pretended to count stuff on your fingers before smiling at the red-head. “Leaky Cauldron?”
“Sure! Tuesday?”
“I’m free after 6.”
“Done.”
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saffron-nova21 · 4 years ago
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XV. ... Or Not.
Remember Me Masterlist
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Warnings: Strong Language
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Pressing the green button on your phone, you bring the phone to gently press the speaker against your ear. “Atsumu, what the hell is up your ass, right now?”
Atsumu lets out a breath from the other end, “Where are ya’?”
“I’m across the street from Osamu’s favorite Onigiri restaurant. Now, answer me, why?” You demand, growing impatient with the lack of questions being answered by your best friend.
Atsumu mumbles something incoherent and you swear you hear Osamu speak, as well, on the other line, before Atsumu talks over him. “We’re on our way t’ya now, cutie. Jus’ wait a minute for us. Can ya’ do that for me?”
Your eyes scan the area around you as you stand on the sidewalk. “Fine.”
“Okay, s’ya know how I told ya’ that Sunarin wasn’t bein’ all that genuine towards ya’? Well, ‘Samu and I were out shopping. Cause y’know, yer birthday’s gonna be comin’ up soon and the last thing I wanted for ya’ was’t have a bad birthday, on top of everything else.”
His rambling made you furrow your brows in concern. Now, Atsumu talked a lot, bragged a lot, especially to you. But this was different — his words sounded rushed. And as you looked up from where your gaze had previously been positioned on your shoes, you realized what it was that had Atsumu rushing to you.
Because there Suna stood with Ayako. The female who had tormented you since you were in grade school. Since you were little. She was jealous of your relationship with the twins, jealous of the fact that Atsumu had been in love with you since you were kids. Jealous of the fact you were over at their house every weekend and jealous of the fact that even now, the entire volleyball team was infatuated with you.
She basically stalked you with the intent to ruin your life.
This year, she’d finally stopped. Or so you thought.
You let out a weak breath, watching the way Rintarō smiled at her. You’d think she’d hung the stars for him... That’s how he used to look at you. You swallow the lump in your throat, before your gaze lands on her, who catches your eyes on them. And with the devious look in her eyes, you should have turned away. Though, you were too late, instead witnessing the female grab him by the collar and jerk him down to meet her lips.
You hadn’t realized that Atsumu was still talking into your ear, you hadn’t realized the twins were walking up at that moment, you hadn’t realized that the hand holding your beverage was shaking. It all just faded away, becoming white noise as your gaze falls to your feet.
What were you doing?
Why were you here?
Why didn’t it hurt?
Had you been expecting this?
You wanted to leave.
Hyōgo didn’t feel like home anymore. Inarizaki wasn’t home anymore. You didn’t belong here. So, where did you belong?
Atsumu and Osamu took you home, where you both filled him in on everything that had happened the past few weeks.
Atsumu hates himself for not being able to help you.
You know you should be hurting a lot more than you are. But right now, you just feel kind of.. Empty.
I hope you guys are enjoying! 🤍🥰
Again, I’m really sorry for the shitty updates recently, I’ve been kind of drained.
You guys better be getting something to eat, drinking some water, and taking care of yourselves mentally and physically! Remember, you guys, I’m proud of you and I love you! You’re doing wonderfully, so keep it up!
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binkachu · 4 years ago
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You owe me 90 cents
pairing: barista!minho x fem!reader  wc: 1.5k
genre: coffee shop / café au, suggestive but still fluff
warnings: just some hand-touching and hands on thighs + a couple witty compliments + swearing
a/n: this is my first post on tumblr woohoo! also this is inspired by a dream i had, cause my love life is more interesting in my subconscious than it will ever be irl lol. also fun fact the guy in my dream had the same eyes as one of my recent drawings (weird ikik). someone who’s into dream-reading tell what this means plz.
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“But you’ll never complete the challenge if you’re so stuck up!” one of your friends slaps you on the arm playfully as you sit down around a table. It’s god-only-knows how late and you finally found a coffee shop to hang out and talk in.
You chose the outside seats to have some privacy, since you already know what half of your conversation is going to be about.
“I’m not stuck up, this is my way of trying to be less stuck up!” you reply half-smiling, attempting to sound sincere.
“Frigid”
“Whore”
Laughter erupts in the friend group.
“Okay, so you’re telling me that you’re counting the number of hot guys you see walking around and once you get to 50 you’re gonna hit on the guy?”
“Basically” you say as you take a sip of imaginary tea.
“What number you on?” the other one snickers.
“46.” you say embarrassed.
“wHO’s tHe wHOre NOw?” the girl mocks as she fakes throwing her purse at you jokingly.
“And you’ve only been doing for how long?” she asks but you don’t answer as you take a brief look at a group of guys that are exiting the shop just now.
“49″ you utter.
“Hoe, get out of here” your friends laugh out loud.
Your conversation continues and the two girls get their drinks one by one by going inside the shop.
The sweet smell of pastries surrounds you as you enter the coffee shop skipping, the others waiting for you, the last to order.
You look at the different desserts and sweets displayed on the counter with awe and one particular pastry catches your eye.
“Is this a brownie?” you ask one of the staff behind the counter.
A dark haired boy cocks his head at you before quickly turning away to finish polishing some glasses.
“I don’t know, does it look like a brownie to you?” he replies with a tired sigh, without even glancing at the pastry you were pointing at.
“Well if it is then I would like one, please” you try to be nice at the barista, ignoring his attitude.
“If it isn’t is there something similar?” you try again after a pause.
The boy finally puts down his glass to turn to you, an annoyed look evident on his face.
He wasn’t your type per se, but he wasn’t unattractive either. Hair messy, taller than you, roughly your age, perfect nose, we could go on.
Light purple eye bags framed his piercing eyes and told you he was probably way too tired from his long shift, but his rolled-up sleeves distracted you from further speculations on his level of exhaustion.
“Those are not brownies, they’re blondies that got umh, kinda burnt, and that thing on the side is chocolate banana bread” he explains, first with a cocky tone, slightly raising his pitch when confessing his baking mistake that made you mistake blondies for brownies.
You hold in a laugh. The arrogant coffee shop worker was’t all that good at doing his job huh?
“Okay, I’ll have some banana bread then”
“Right to you” he says, serving your dessert on a plate, still avoiding your gaze.
You go bring your plate to your friends’ table and one of them instantly teases you for getting to order with the cutest member of the staff.
“A grumpy old man served me, it’s not fair!” she says, crossing her arms dramatically.
It’s not your fault this café sucks: you and the girls couldn’t find anything else open at this hour and the only cheap place suitable for your late night coffee shenanigans seemed to be this small one room shop downtown, with nothing but rude staff and one cute waiter.
You went back inside after chatting and eating with the girls and went to the cash register to pay for everyone, waiting for someone to serve you.
“You dealing with this one? I’m going home” you heard one of the old guys yell at the boy while disappearing in the back of the shop, the barista muttering a low reply.
“You’ll be paying for...?” he says inquisitively, seeing your 20 dollar bill already handed out to him.
“Everyone″ it’s a custom in your friend group to take turns to pay each time you go out. Honestly it just gives you an excuse to make plans to hang out again as a way to pay each other back, but y’all don’t say it out loud.
You hear a chuckle.
“Generous, are we?” he grins. His lips are plump enough to attract your gaze and his voice is just as melodic as it is hoarse with weariness. You search for a name tag. Minho, cute.
“Here’s your change, beautiful” he hands you back a 1 dollar bill and his grin only widens when he inspects your furrowed expression.
“This isn’t enough.” you say still uncertain, checking the total on the cash register. He ignores your glances.
Your frustration at the young man only intensifies.
“The total is 15 dollars and I gave you a 20 dollar bill, you better give me 5 dollars of change or I WILL-
“I don’t have any more bills, see?” he exclaims in defeat, holding up the end of the register to make you look at the empty compartments.
“But you do have coins.” you reply half-angered half-amused at his behavior, leaving your purse on the counter as you make your way around it with heavy steps and join him on the little high stool placed there for the cashiers to sit on during shifts.
He’s shocked by your actions. Sure, he wanted to mess with you but he didn’t expect to end up in this situation at all, with your bare legs touching his and your breath fanning his face as you huff out and search for your rightful change, his eyes desperately trying not to linger too long on your mini-skirt’s thin fabric.
You are rummaging in the register when he suddenly grabs your wrists, making you drop the 50 cents you had gathered, looking at you from the side.
“Only staff can touch the counter, get it miss?” he scolds you, pointing at the list of rules written on a blackboard hanged up near the entrance. You peer at your friends through the glass door, one of them whistling at you and another one waving thumbs up in the air.
“Well if the staff wasn’t so incompetent then I wouldn’t have to break the rules” you scoff, keeping eye-contact after managing not to spit out your words too harshly at the handsome boy next to you.
He tries to break the tension by finally helping you find the money you need. Propping up his hand on your thigh he gets up from the stool to look into the register better, the light pressure and his cold touch sending shivers down your spine.
You two start bickering while collecting and counting all the remaining coins. Minho finds two dollars and tries to push you off the chair with his hips muttering a “Get your pretty ass off”. 
You burst out laughing as you almost fall and hit him on the arm as revenge.
“Not until I get my money back shithead”
“Woah, stingy much?” he says only minutes after calling you generous.
You manage to collect another 2 dollars and 10 cents worth of coins, with a pathetic little mountain of small pieces and chewed up 1 dollar bills.
“You still owe 90 cents” you tell him, looking up at him from the stool, still inadvertently smiling as he’s tempted to flick your forehead because of how small you seem under him.
“You owe me 15 minutes of my life and a tip would be nice.”
You shake your head. Nothing like this would have happened if he didn’t frustrate you so much, but most of all, nothing would have happened to the usual shy you if you’d acted normal. But how could act normal when a cute waiter kept smirking at you and his sleeves were rolled-up, his eyes gleamed with handsome arrogance and ... ?
The challenge. He’s the 50th.
“Give me your number” you say calmly and he just as calmly gives you his phone. You search for the contact app and type in your number instead. He stays silent and reverts his eyes at your frame from time to time.
How did my shitty shift end with a girl giving me her number?   he wonders.
How did I act so natural asking him his number?  you ask yourself.
“You owe me 90 cents” you state once again after giving him back his phone.
“Okay .. ?” his eyes light up with confusion.
“That’s why I gave you my number” you explain and he sneers as he checks the new contact.
Y/n? Cute   he thinks to himself.
“Yeah yeah, and I believe that..”
A little giggle escapes his pretty lips.
God, this challenge got the best of you.
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anonymous0writer · 5 years ago
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I Still Want You
Author: @anonymous0writer​
Warnings: None... a break up... Swearing
Requested: Yes!
“songfic request :: Nights Underneath by Louis Knight × Pope (reader goes from Pogue to Kook, maybe ?)“
A/N: This was cute and fun!! I hope you guys enjoy all this content!! Let me know!
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Midsummers. You hated Midsummers. You always did, but this year was a thousand times worse. 
Because this time you were a Kook. And your ex would be there. Actually, you didn’t even know where your relationship stood. But you were dreading it anyway. The only person who would make this better was Kie. She was going too, and you promised you’d be with each other all night.
You were a Kook. The one thing you hated the most in this world. But you had become the rich, stuck up second homers once your mother married rich. There was no hate against you mother, or Richard, they married because they loved each other, but you didn’t like what your title was. Becoming a Kook wasn’t all that bad. Your mother was finally very happy since your father left. And you and your little sister, Julia had gotten siblings. Richard had two sons and a daughter. Henry was in college, but Weston was your age, and Lilly was Julia’s age. It was good too see your little sister have a good friend. And Wes was a close friend. The transition was easy and nice. 
But the rest was horrible. 
You were now automatically assumed rude, and self absorbed by the rest of island. Even with some of your friends. Who knew you were anything but. You still had your crew, however. John B, JJ, Pope and Kie hadn’t abandoned you. After all, they loved Kie. So they kept you, much to your relif. And now you had to dress nice and go to Kook parties. You missed the parties at the Boneyard, and missed just not caring about your image. Begin a Kook had changed that. 
And it broke your relationship. You and Pope had been together for five months before your title changed. Even though it was’t that long, you and Pope were serious. And you loved him. Dearly. 
But things got rocky because of Heyward. Pope’s dad didn’t really like you to begin with. He didn’t like the rest of the crew, but to him, you were a ‘female JJ’. And Heyward hated that his perfect son was dating such a reckless, bad influence. And then you turned full Kook. Your stepfather and mother would always use Heyward’s business, and he always did the stops himself. And he hated the way your mother was so pushy and Richard stuck up. So the hatred increased. At the beginning, Heyward sent Pope up to your house, not knowing that the Y/L/N residence was the same as the girl Pope was dating. So you got to steal a kiss between Pope’s runs, but his father found out. 
So your relationship was already strained. His father hated you, and tried to keep you as far away from Pope as possible. And Pope was always busy with helping his dad, and you were always at Kook functions. You barely had time to spend with the pogues, let alone your boyfriend. But then Richard found out about you dating a Pogue. And he flipped. Demanded that you end it and forget your life in the Cut. 
Everything seemed to want you and Pope to break up. And now, you were convinced Pope thought the same thing. So it was safe to say you were dreading Midsummers.
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“Come on, Y/N.” Kie urged, trying to tug your outside where you knew Pope would be. “It’s fine, I promise. You won’t even notice him.”
You sighed and gave up, letting your best friend lead you outside. Despite yourself, you looked for the dark haired boy. You couldn’t help yourself. You ached to see him or talk. But he had ignored your calls and texts, and you didn’t see him all week. 
“Stop, Y/N.” Kie begged, knowing who you were looking for. “You’re just hurting yourself.”
“He was ignoring me all week. I need to talk to him.” You protested, begging your friend with your eyes. 
“It worked for a while, Y/N.” Kie stated, her voice full of sadness. “It’s time to move on.”
This worked at least for a while Whether you stealing my shirt or a smile
You climbed out of the water, lifting yourself onto the boat. You grinned at Pope who helped you stand, and gave you a towel. He smiled back at you as John B. started the boat again. After swimming around the marshes, you decided to go back to the Chateau for lunch. 
You dried yourself and sat in your bikini next to your boyfriend. “Do you want my shirt?” The boy asked, handing you one of his shirts. You grinned and pulled on the pale yellow item of clothing. It was soft and warm from laying on the boat in the sun. You leaned against Pope’s shoulder and mumbled a thank you. He wrapped an arm around you and smiled.
And you know I wouldn't stop you from leaving But damn you're looking good this evening
You admired your boyfriend, smiling softly. “You look good, Pope.” 
“Thank you.” He said and tugged on the edges of his suit. He was trying them on for his scholarship interview.
You came up behind him, pressing a kiss to his cheek. “Really good.” You muttered and stood in front of him so you could pull his lips to yours. He returned the kiss and wrapped his arms around you.
You continue kissing until Pope jumps back, eyes wide. “Shit! I forgot- I need to help my dad. I’m gonna be late!”
You sighed and handed him his clothes so he could change back. As he did as quickly as he could, you frowned. This was one of the rare moments you got alone, and it’d been a rough week for you. And you’d only gotten half an hour, and Pope was distracted the whole time. And now he was leaving abruptly. 
“I’m sorry, Y/N.” He said in way of goodbye and left. 
You felt like crying, but knew it was silly. He was just leaving for work. But something about it made you feel like he was leaving leaving. And you hadn’t stopped him.
And so I've been thinking back to what we said But I'd rather ride this out than live full of regrets
You watched Pope as he grilled meat and helped his father who was bustling around their small area. Your heart clenched. You couldn’t go talk to him. You’d have to wait until Heyward was gone. Which wouldn’t be likely. You felt like sobbing, like you had a lot this week. You held the tears back as you remembered Sunday. 
“Y/N, this isn’t really working out.” Pope had said, eyes begging you to understand and let go. But you refused. 
“Pope, no!” You replied, heart breaking just a little. “Please? I don’t care what anyone thinks. I just want to be with you.” 
Pope looked down, unsure what to say. His dark eyes met yours. “I’m sorry, Y/N. Really. But when have we had time to see each other? Let’s be realistic.”
You hated Pope’s rational side a lot right now. You shook your head. 
“Is that really what you want?” You whispered. 
But the boy had no time to respond as his father barked his name and Pope went racing. Away from you. Leaving you in the wake of his rejection.
All you wanted was to be with him. But the whole universe didn’t want that. Not even him.
And all my friends keep asking me why But nights underneath somebody else just don't feel right
Sarah studied you. “Y/N?” Her voice broke your regret of last night. “Are you okay?”
“No.”  You answered truthfully.
She frowned. “What’s wrong?” She pressed.
It’d been a couple weeks since Pope’s half ‘break up’. And you’d been trying to get him out of your brain. You’d even got shitfaced drunk for the first time the other day. And you’d been talking and flirting with other boys. Hell, you took one to bed last night. But none was Pope. None had the smile like him. Or the brain. No one was Pope. And that’s all you wanted. 
I remember staying up all night packing up your car We knew full damn well the end could be where we are
You pushed the last grocery bag into the boat. Pope extended his hand and helped pull you up onto the boat. You smiled at him as you started up the boat. 
You were trying to get on his fathers good side, so you were helping Pope with one of his grocery runs. But you also wanted to spend time with your boyfriend who you hadn’t seen in a couple days. The days apart had gotten longer and the phone calls shorter. You were desperately trying to salvage an already lost relationship.
As you did the run, it was too friendly. You talked like friends. Like who you were to each other before you started dating. There were massive loops of silence before you would try to spark conversation. You could tell Pope was regretting allowing you to come. And it broke your heart. 
You were the only one who wanted this to work. And you both knew it.
And you knew I wouldn't stop you from leaving But I can't help but fall for you a little more this evening
Midsummers replayed in your mind. You had finally sought out the dark haired boy you missed so desperately. He was alone and looked surprised to see you running toward him. 
“Hey,” He greeted as you stopped before him, your dress fluttering in the wind.
“Pope, can we talk, please?” You asked, a little out of breath. 
“Uh, now’s not really a good time, Y/N. I gotta pack up.” He said, taking a step away.
“No, wait, please?” You begged, reaching out for his arm. 
“Fine. It has to be quick though,” Pope answered and watched you. 
You swallowed hard. He looked good. He was dressed up and he looked well rested and happy. You missed him so desperately, but you could see the exasperation in his eyes as he stared at you. You heart shattered as you got your answer without even asking. 
“Is this it?” You asked, even as you admired him. You felt your self falling harder for him, though this was the end. Pope sighed, but you continued, a tear rolling down you cheek. “Are we done? Is this it? Is this how we’re going to end?”
“Y/N,” he paused. “Yeah. I think this is it.”
You didn’t bothering wiping your tears away. Heyward’s voice barked Pope’s name and you saw the man glare at you. Pope swallowed, his adam’s apple bobbing as he glanced at his father. He looked back at you. 
“Goodbye, Y/N.”
And all my friends keep asking me why But nights underneath somebody else just don't feel right But nights underneath somebody else just don't feel right But nights underneath somebody else just don't feel right
You rolled away from the boy next to you. He was naked, half covered by your sheets. Your skin was sweaty, and your heart thundered, but this night didn’t feel right. Just like every other night with him.
A tear slipped down your face. You couldn’t stop thinking about him, no matter what you did. His name was on your mind constantly.
Pope.
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ladymcres · 5 years ago
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Tw: abuse
So, here it comes.
Today, after noticing a pattern, I twitted something about how the majority of people attacking Bob and Eliza after A’s accusations are mainly clxas stans who use this situation as a reason to throw more shit than usuale at Eliza (and then go back to her the moment she mentions/rts Alycia lol)
And boy, was I right. My mentions was suddenly flooded with the tweets of one particularly harsh clx stan, who kept writing to me how I was supporting abuse, while I was actually doing the exact opposite? Like, I was trying to explain that I think attacking the three of them is actually wrong and I don’t like believing in whatever the internet has to say, because real life is one thing and the fantasies of anonymous twitter account is a totally different thing.
You know how it ended up? She called me disgusting, twisted my words and told me I was an abuser supporter (and guys, believe me: J learnt what an actual abusive relationshop was at 18). This, while she kept offending me.
It’s ridiculous how people love to preach about abuse and gaslighting while doing the exact same thing.
My personal opinion on this matter is that A and Bob had quite a messy relationship, and I suppose him getting married quite soon after their breakup didn’t help. But I don’t feel like hating on anyone because real life is real life and honestly, I feel like this should not be our business, plain and simple. Without actual receipts and evidence (and abundant inaccuracies, I might add) accusations stay accusations. I do believe victims, and when this all came out, I did believe A. But then things became weird, the house’s story was’t what she told, her former boyfriend comments resurfaced, eliza’s former boyfriend spoke up. And that was when I started questioning things and wondering. Still, I never sent hate to anybody (sometimes I commented about my doubts, but I can swear, never in an offensive way).
So I strongly suggest you not to let your fictional favorite character/ship become a push toward hating and bullying people. Live your life, support who you want and don’t let the bullies take you down!
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nxfelibatae · 5 years ago
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pose || jimin x reader [pt.2]
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When the opportunity presented itself there was no way you were going to let it go, only 10 days to make a boy fall in love, It must have been easy, but you let yourself be carried away by your feelings, and nobody should risk their heart to the ones who are addicted to play with it. Love disguises itself in many ways and it hurts when you find out it was all a lie.
pairing: fuckboy! jimin x reader!
word count: 8K
genre: Fluff, slight angst, light smut, how to loose a guy in 10 days AU
warnings: Alcohol use, sex references, slow burn, swearing. Everybody it's kinda lying. That's pretty much it.
A / N: inspired by the movie How to loose a guy in 10 days. First work here so please be nice guys :(. It's a two people work.
PART 1  | PART 2  | PART 3
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PART 2
Day 11
'Hey, are you okay?' Asked Nayeon
'Yeah, why?' You answered while packing up your stuff.
'The professor called for you 3 times and you didn't answer, you were here but… not exactly.' Nayeon answered with a mocking tone.
Actually, what was going on in your head was the question you were asking yourself since last night, where would you find a guy who would date you? You knew you were pretty and smart, but that wasn't enough for the boys at college, they were looking for something easy, something for one night, and you were not down for that kind of relationship.
You thought that if you were ever going to date someone again, it was going to be for a long term. But you knew you had to let that idea fly away for the sake of the article or at least until you get the job.
'Where do I find a guy who agrees to go out with me for more than a one night stand?' You finally let out with a snort. Nayeon looks at you like as if you were joking.
'There are millions of boys in the world, surely you will find someone perfect to write the article about.' She says.
'You always know what to say Nayeon.' You say while resting one side of your head on her shoulder.
With spring coming soon, you could already feel the warm weather in the air predicting it was going to be a nice one. Spring was your favorite season, mostly because of the cherry blossoms and the fact that you could sit under your favorite tree for hours writing ideas for future projects you hoped you could achieve and all this without the risk of freezing your butt like in winter.
'We should eat outside, it looks like it's not that cold.' You say walking towards the exit that led to the main courtyard.
'Okay, go look for a place to seat and I'll go get us something to eat.' Nayeon left after you nod in agreement.
As you walk down the courtyard looking for a place to seat, you let the wind hit your face confirming your assumptions about the weather. There was a table in the middle next to the fountain, while you settle in, you leave your things on the table and breathe deeply letting in the smell of wet soil, courtesy of the sprinklers that had watered the grass a few minutes before.
Now that you were alone maybe you could think clearly about the article. It was nice outside and maybe ideas would flow better. You open up your bag to search for your journal, only to realize that it's not there.
'Where did I left it?' The panic in your voice was evident, that journal was your life, all your ideas were inside it, all your tasks to be done, your appointments, the ideas for the article… You turned your bag upside down taking out everything that was inside of it just to make sure it was't in there, you needed to find that journal as soon as possible.
'What are you looking for?' Nayeon says with a concerned look in her face while placing the food trays on the table.
'My journal, have you seen it? I can't find it and everything I need is in there. '
Why is this happening to me, what kind of teenager novel is this?
'The one you where using in class?'
'Yeah the one with the… Oh my god! I left it back in the classroom! I have to go back to get it, wait here. ' Nayeon is left looking really confused with a carrot in her mouth as you walk away.
You let your mind cool down a bit before remembering your last class, with so many things on your mind you should have forgotten it in your seat compartment. When you where about to open the door, it opens suddenly, revealing Hyunjae with your journal in hand.
'Oh! There you are, I was about to look for you to give you your little diary. ' Says Hyunjae with a smile that you knew was not sincere.
'Did you read it?' You asked while snatching it away from her.
'A thank you would have been enough,' she notices the suspicion in your face 'I didn't read your pathetic thing.' She rolls her eyes.
'You better not.' You stick the journal to your chest protecting its content 'Thank you… I'll better get going'.
'No problem, that's what co-workers are for, right?' She was wearing that fake smile again, 'I need to go as well, I need to work on my article, have you started yours?'
'Something like that.' You put a weird gesture, more like a pout, letting her know you haven't even started it.
Hyunjae turns her face to the side laughing a little 'I haven't started mine either, I don't even have the topic yet.'
'I have a topic, but I don't really know where to start.'
'You do look kinda stress… do you know what you need?' Asks with a smirk 'A party!'
'What?' You let out in confusion.
'Mark Tuan, do you know him ?,' you look at her still confused, trying to analyze what she's saying, 'He's kinda my friend. Tall guy, handsome, he's from America… he just moved to a new house with some other friends and you know open house party… it's today. ' Hyunjae finish with a hurray movement with her hand.
'Why are you being nice?' You say softly, looking at her like she was a total stranger.
'What do you mean?' She says frowning.
A silence reigns between the two of you for a couple of seconds before Hyunjae talks again.
'Look, it's just a stupid party. If you wanna eat, fine. If you don't, fine too. I was just inviting you because you look like you need a break and it's not like you know the right people to party with… 'Finishes raising one of her eyebrows.
'I don't do parties actually.' You interrupt her. 'And this is really… weird. You've never invited me to something in your life, I think I'll pass. ' You turn your back at her walking back to the courtyard where you left Nayeon. 'See you at the office' you say without turning your head back at her.
Hyunjae doesn't even bother to reply to you before she continues with her path with a smile in her face, heels making noise as she takes every step.
'What the fuck was that?' You think out loud as you continue walking.
When Nayeon sees you with journal in hand she lets out a relief sigh.
'Great! You found it! I thought we would have to deal with all your secrets being exposed with copies pasted all over the halls just like in the movies. Can you imagine? '
You nod as you let yourself fall on the seat next to hers.
'The weirdest thing just happened…' You say looking at her.
'Uh? The journal being there or… '
'No I mean. Hyunjae was there and she handed me my journal and she was… kinda nice? I don't know. She tried talking to me about the article, and then she went “You know you look tired, why don't you come to Mark Tuan's party?” '
'What? What did you said? '
'I sad no, of course. I'm not stupid, she must have an ulterior motive. '
'Are you dumb ?!' Nayeon screams back at you. You jump a little in your seat 'That's the perfect opportunity to fish. We are going. You need to text her and ask her for the address. Mark is pretty popular and his friends are really cute, we could find you a guy in 5 minutes there. '
'What are you talking about? Nayeon, I know no one in that party besides Hyunjae and I don't even trust her to call her a friend. Maybe I can find a guy somewhere else. '
'It'll be fine. I'll come with you, so you'll know me too, okay? I'll even dress you up with cute clothes and all. Besides, I need parting too, I need to get my mind out of that dude. '
'You can't be serious right now, Nayeon. You dated the guy for 7 days. 7 god damn days! ' You let out with frustration.
'Only?!' She says with an offended tone in her voice. 'I already told you it was special while it lasted. It's always about the connection, not the time. ' She takes another carrot and bites it, while taking her phone with her other hand meaning she was mad. You just roll your eyes, you didn't feel like going into that topic again.
'Okay, I'm sorry…' You take the fork that was on the tray and start pinching the food with no appetite.
Was it really a good idea to go to the party? What where the odds of finding a guy in one night? One that actually wants to date and not just to fuck around? You were running out of time, If you wanted to write this article, you would need to find a boy as fast as you could, Nayeon had a point when she said it was the perfect opportunity to fish.
But then there was Hyunjae and her weird way of being nice to you outside the office. You guessed it was a tactic to let your guard down so she could take advantage of you on the whole job competition thing.
You thought about the perks of going and see how well you cope in a place so unknown to you, Nayeon will be there helping you which is good since the article was going to be based in her personality, perhaps it wasn't that far and most of the guys from those parties where completely strangers. If you didn't have luck that night, you could call it off, find another topic and move on with your life and take this as a funny story to talk and laugh about later.
The more you think about it, the more you convince yourself about going, even though it's not really your element or one of your favorite places to be at. You were not going to give up so easily and without fighting,
'Fine.' You say snorting. 'We'll go to this stupid party.'
'Oh, you were still considering not going? I'm already asking my friends for the address, there's no way we're not going 'she smiles back at you with a mischievous look in her eyes.
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Am I really here?
Your mind couldn't stop thinking about how easily you convinced yourself about this being a good idea, and how Nayeon convinced you that wearing a top that didn't leave much to imagination was a good idea too. Nayeon was nowhere to be seen and you were standing alone, with a red cup, in a room full of strangers. You could recognize a few of your classmates but you hadn't had big conversations with them, just a little wave here and there in the hallway. Discomfort made its big entrance when two drunk dudes were pushing each other about to start a fight near you.
You ran out of there before the chaos started, heading to the pool looking for Nayeon, calling her was not an option anymore, her phone would go directly to voicemail every time you called her.
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You turned to see the crowded house from the outside hopping Nayeon was okay, and just when you were about to go in again, someone grabbed your hand and pulled you out of the little crowd.
You recognized Hyunjae's face seconds later. It was a little dark, but you could still see her pink lipstick and her very short purple dress. She was also holding a red cup in her hand and a tall, dark haired guy was standing next to her.
'Hey! Not passing after all, huh? I'm glad you made it! ' Hyunjae shouted over the music 'This is Mark, the host of the party,' she puts her hand on his chest with a little pat 'Mark this is the friend I've told you about.' extends the same hand towards you finishing the introduction.
'Hi !, I've seen you around school, I heard you are from America as well' he smiles in a way his eyes disappear and lets his teeth show.
'Yeah, I moved here freshman year.' You try not to be rude by avoiding his gauze, but the only thing you could pay attention to was the crowd behind them hoping to see Nayeon in the middle of it.
'Are you looking for someone?' He seems to accomplish something is troubling you.
'I'm actually looking for my friend, I lost her like an hour ago and she's not answering my calls or texts.'
Hyunjae is about to talk, but something, or more like a someone, caught her attention.
Park Jimin.
She saw him standing inside the house with his entourage of two dumb friends, laughing and talking about something. This was her opportunity to talk to him after a very long time. He looked really hot. With that leather jacket and all black outfit, but she wasn't even surprised, because he looks good without even trying.
'Why don't you help her find her friend Mark? I need to talk to someone, I'll catch you later 'said Hyunjae winking at him before leaving.
Hyunjae didn't let either of you say something, she was already heading inside the house to catch her favorite toy.
They were friends with benefits since early junior year when they met at a party hosted by Jimin himself. Ever since, every time one of them felt like having sex they will call each other or at least they used to. Lately the one who made those calls was Hyunjae, usually texting Jimin several times to have a good time but now he was throwing really bad excuses and she was determined to find out why she was being ignored this way.
After she finally passed through the people that was surrounding Jimin, she got to where her prize was.
'Hey Chim Chim!' Screamed with a high pitch voice putting her arms around Jimin's neck while he tried to catch her due the surprise of the girl throwing herself at him. 'Me and my bed have missed you.' Says while making a pout trying to look cute, he just took her arms off of him, making a disgust face. Jimin's response surprised Hyunjae making her angry and making his friends laugh at each other, avoiding meeting her gauze.
'What's your problem Park?' Hyunjae dropped the high pitched tone as she crossed her arms in front of her and posing in a way that showed how angry she was, Jimin nodded to his companions to leave.
'What do you want Hyunjae?' Asked the guy with an irritated voice.
'What do I want? You've been ignoring me for a whole month, what's up with you? '
He looks at her with a smile, ignoring her displeased face. 'I thought that I was delivering the correct message when I ignored your calls and your texts.'
The girl looked at him offended, lifting an eyebrow, still crossed arms and an angry vibe.
'Look I don't want to be rude but you are not giving me another option' Jimin's says as he pulls away from the wall where he was leaning on 'I'm not longer interested in your… sex services. If you don't mind, I'll go find my friends now. ' He smiles for a second and turns trying to leave but Hyunjae stops him by graving his wrist.
'What are you saying? What has gotten in to you? Do you have a girlfriend now or something? ' Jimin turns back facing Hyunjae who has a sarcastic smile in her face.
'Possibly… or maybe I just got bored of you, that's it' Jimin answers.holding her chin.
'Like if you were the type of guy who would sleep with one girl for the rest of his life and respecting the whole fidelity thing' she snaps his hand away from her face. Hyunjae was pissed. This had never happened, she was used to being begged, not the other way around. Jimin was hurting her ego really bad, but she wasn't gonna let him know that, she wouldn't give him that satisfaction.
'What do you know about me? The only thing that you know the best about me is my dick, 'he looks down' and my name, and it sounded great when you screamed it. ' His face gets close to hers while he grabs her wrist and pulls her closer to him. He's teasing her, Hyunjae knows this is the way he fools around, trying to make her ask for more.
Hyunjae could only roll her eyes, she was really irritated by the attitude Jimin was taking.
'Come on baby, don't be mad. It was good while it lasted. What where you expecting? That we will become boyfriend and girlfriend? '
She let a sarcastic laugh after hearing that. 'As if. I know you and your dick like the back of my hand Park Jimin. You're not capable of having a relationship. Hell you're not able to feel love for someone other than yourself. ' She pushed him away a little, almost spitting the words at him, trying to hurt his ego the way he did with hers. He was not going clean after this conversation. Jimin just lets out a giggle.
'Do you even know the concept of romanticism, Jimin?' Hyunjae strikes back with a mischievous smile. 'I mean do you even know what love is ?, and I'm talking about love in all its letters.'
He tenses his jaw after her words and she smiles widely, she was getting to his nerves.
'You know nothing about that…'
'Come on' she interrupts him, putting her arms out of her sides in a mock of boredom at the argument. She places a finger on his chest and comes close to his face, almost brushing her lips against his 'You get tired after the first fuck, what can you possibly know about feeling something other than pleasure?'
Now he's the angry one. Hyunjae can tell by the way he looks at her frowning. She knows giving him the sense of not being capable of getting something it's hurting his ego. Hyunjae feels like she won the battle, so she takes a step back, ready to leave. But then he talks again.
'Fine, I'm gonna prove to you I can be romantic.' His tone is as tense as his jaw. 'Pick a girl. Right here, right now, and I'll date her and I'll make her really fall in love with me, easy. '
Hyunjae is the one that giggles this time. 'Are you sure of what you are getting yourself into, Park?'
'I'm doing this to shut your pretty mouth. Pick one, anyone. It's not gonna be that hard. ' She knew that already, they were talking about Park Jimin, she knows for a fact that half of the girls in college where already in love with him. If this was a bet, she was going to lose easily.
'And what do I get from this? If this is going to be a bet, what is in for me? ' She's trying to make him doubt, make him back off out if it.
'You name it.' He says smiling, giving her a lusty look. As if she was going to let him sleep with her one more time. Not a chance. She thinks
'Fine, I want money. If you lose, you're giving me 1M won. '
‘What the fuck? Do you think I’m a millionaire or something?’ She knows it was a lot money, but it’s her new strategy, maybe with a high amount, he would back up. Why was she digging in more? She was paving the way to a place where she was going to lose for a fact. She was supposed to make him step back, not encourage him to do it. How was she going to let herself out of this? There’s not a single girl in campus that wanted to get rid of a guy like Park Jimin.
She turns her head, trying to find an excuse to leave but before she can think of something, she spots you standing next to Mark and your friend. Something lights up in her head. A memory. Your article, she remembered. You were supposed to find a guy and scare him off in less than 10 days, you were the perfect girl for this bet and as a plus she was going to ruin your article and get the job for herself. Life was just so great sometimes.
'Well, you're so sure about yourself, you don't have to worry about that right?' She is teasing now, tickling him like a sleeping lion to get into it. 'Are you still in, Park?' She smiles.
He doubts and Hyunjae thinks for a moment that Jimin would withdraw from the bet. What a fool she was. 'I'm down, it'll be easy' Jimin finally gives in and reaches out to seal the deal, just as she called it.
'Not too soon honey, there's rules to be set' Hyunjae reaches for a napkin close to them and pulls out a lipstick out of her handbag.
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'Do we have a deal, Park?' Hyunjae places her hand in front of Jimin to close the deal.
'Of course we do, the easiest money I will ever win in my life' Jimin doesn't think twice, not even after he reads the short period of time he has to complete the task. So he reaches Hyunjae's hand and closes the deal.
'Great, now.' Hyunjae clapped her hands before putting them against her lips 'Who will be the lucky one?' She begins to see everywhere playing fool of not knowing who she is going to pick from the crowd.
'What about her?' Jimin pointed a tall girl, nice body and pretty face.
'You think I would go easy on you?' Hyunjae asks raising her eyebrow in disbelief. 'You probably know her and she is hot, so… no.'
Jimin laughs and shakes his head in. Maybe now he remembers why he kept going back at her whenever she called, she was funny.
'Uuuhh, what about that girl' she pointed at a girl dancing unconventionally in the middle of the dance floor.
'Are you kidding?' He laughs sarcastically 'I fucked her already and she's literally crazy, I'm not going back at her, no way'
'Though crowd, I see.' She hesitates a moment before returning her gauze to where you are 'Okay, what about her.' Jimin follows her gauze until he sees Mark talking with two girls 'The one with the back cleavage blouse.'
He looks at you, scanning your face. She's pretty and nice body Jimin thinks. You looked naive, this was going to be more easy than he thought. 'Done' Jimin let out big smile which turned into a smirk really quick, he was confident. 'You better prepare that money right now, this would be too easy.'
'Sure it will' Hyunjae said with an evil smile.  
In the other side of the house, you where coping up with the new guy and Nayeon.
Mark was easy to talk to and funny. At some point you about making him the victim for your article, but he was way too nice, you didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable, you actually liked him.
While he helped you looking for Nayeon, who was in line to get into the bathroom with her phone in Do Not Disturb mode at a party full of people for whatever stupid reason, you got to know few things about him. He was from LA and moved to Korea when he was 16 with his family, they lived in Gwangju, but he wanted to go to college in Seoul so he moved and met the guys he's living with at college.
Now you were in the middle of the house, talking to each other with ease. You don't even remember the moment you got rid of your cup, with all the walking you did around the house to find Nayeon, you guessed maybe you left it somewhere around.
'I'm really sorry for scaring you, I truly am' said Nayeon for the 50th time since you've found her.
'It's fine, just, let me know where you're going next time' you dedicate her a smile to let her know you are not mad at her anymore. You placed your hands in the back pockets of your jeans as you talk again. 'Maybe we should get going now, Nay. I'm kinda tired. '
'But we haven't found a guy' she says whispering under her breath so she cannot be heard.
You were not that excited about that topic anymore, she can see it in your face by the way your lips became a thin line.
'Hey, Mark!' A black haired guy approaches from the back of both of you to greet your new friend who was standing next to you. He stretches hands with the stranger and brings Mark close to give him in a semi hug.
'Park Jimin!' Says Mark with a big smile in his face 'Long time no see…'
'Same goes to you, dude. Last time I saw you, you hosted parties back at the dorms. ' He continues talking. You can tell he is handsome, marked jawline, pretty smile and now you could appreciate better the softness of his hair. He also had trouble written all over his good guy attitude. 'And you weren't so good with your social skills, who are your pretty friends?' He says looking at you and Nayeon with a smirk in his face. You don't pay attention to the comment, but Nayeon blushes at the mention of you being pretty.
Mark introduces you, but it doesn't seem to be enough for the guy, so he takes a step in, invading a little too much your personal space. 'I'm Park Jimin' he says. 'Nice yo meet you…' He checks you out without shame, head to toes, scanning every inch of your body right in front of your eyes.
You take a step back, uncomfortable to his sight. 'Nice to meet you too…' you grab Nayeon's arm and you pull her next to you 'We should get going.' You say in urge.
'Oh, are you leaving already?' Asks Jimin, was it ?, with a pout staring back at you.
'Yes.' You answer quickly, but so does Nayeon, contradicting you with a hard 'No'. The guy looks confused now, and you feel the awkwardness flowing in the room.
'Can I talk with you for a second?' Nayeon grabs your arm, dragging you a few meters away from the guys. 'What are you doing?' She says frowning.
'What do you mean?' You are playing fool at her question. You knew where this was heading. She lifts an eyebrow at you, reminding you that she can read you and you're not fooling her. You sigh. 'I want to go home, Nayeon. This whole idea is stupid, I don't even know how to talk to a guy in a no friendly way. Let's just go home, I'll find another topic 'you were not feeling good about this anymore. You felt ridiculous.
'No, we are not going anywhere.' Nayeon grabs both of your shoulders. 'Listen, you haven't even talked to a guy in this party apart from Mark and now this cute guy comes and try to talk to you but you act in a way it would make him run, which is the point of the article, but not this way and not this fast. Give it a try at least. '
'Are you crazy?' Now you were pissed. 'Nayeon, he looks like a total ass, he just wants to get in my pants. I'm not going to pick a guy that just wants sex from me. I was willing to sacrifice my first real kiss with someone for the sake of this article, but not to a fuckboy which I'm sure he is, he smells like it. Do you even know him? ' You throwed one of your arms back at where you left the boys talking.
'Are you kidding? Everyone at college knows him. The fact that you live under a rock doesn't make him less of a good match. Sure he doesn't have the best reputation but… '
'I wonder why.' You crossed your arms while looking at her rolling your eyes.
'Look, just give it a shot. If he doesn't meet your expectations, we can find another guy. Mark has many friends. If we can't find someone else by the time the clock strikes 2:00 AM, then we bail and you can tell me “I told you so” for the rest of my life, okay? '
The idea was tempting, but your mood wasn't the best anymore. You hadn't given anyone a chance, not even the Park Jimin guy who came to you a few minutes ago, and yes, he was handsome, but this wasn't really your element, you didn't know how to flirt with a boy with such experience as him, but again, you haven't even tried. You remembered all the things you did when you let yourself go and gave the unknown a chance, thinking that this might be the exception.
What were you so afraid of? You thought that maybe the idea of ​​finding a new you, that was flirty and sassy perhaps scared you or maybe you were scared by the idea of ​​playing on a field that you had never played in before. But as anything in life, you had to learn, after all, practice makes the master doesn't it?
'Fine, but If I don't find a fucker before that time we are leaving. For good. You're not gonna throw a tantrum at me. AND… 'you raised your voice a little. 'You have to do the dishes the hole week'
'No way, I'm here because of you.' She said smiling.
You smiled back as Nayeon dragged you back with the two boys that where now warmly talking to each other. Jimin was still standing there waiting for you like a good boy, with a commercial smile.
'So, are you guys leaving?' Asked Mark with his hands in his pockets.
'No, I managed to convince miss boring here to stay a little longer.' Nayeon says pointing at you with her thumb.
'Oh that's great!' Now Jimin was the one talking as he looked at you, turning his body a little towards you too. 'Are you thirsty? Do you want a drink? ' He looked thrilled at the idea for some reason.
Something about this guy didn't seem right to you. What is he trying to do? You were not really used to guys talking to you, but you were sure they weren't this smiley and attentive.
'No thank you.' You sinked your hands in the back pockets of your jeans one more time. Nayeon and Mark were talking animatedly, you laughed a little when you see her flip her hair in a flirting way. She will never learn.
'Perhaps you wanna dance?' Asked Jimin one more time.
'Noup.' You maintained your look straight to the floor, avoiding the cold gauze of Jimin's eyes.
Playing though girl? Thought Jimin rolling his eyes. Girls resisting to him were his favorite ones. First they say they won't sleep with him, but end up falling for his charms days later. He just had to act like the “perfect boyfriend” and be careful with his words if he wanted to get in their pants. This one was a new challenge. And Jimin loved challenges almost as much as bets.
The rest of the night follows up like that, you being most of the time quiet and following Mark and Nayeon wherever they went. He seemed like a good guy and despite of him trying to make a move in Nayeon, he kept including you in all his conversations and introducing you to new people all the time, but among all those people he introduced you, nobody captured your attention enough to make a move and get a boy to write on your article about.
What was weird to you is that Jimin didn't leave your side and followed you around through the house like a dog. He was trying really hard to make a conversation and you didn't want to be rude so you answered all the questions he threw at you. How old are you? Which semester are you in? Do we go to the same college? Do we have the same classes? No I'm sure not because I would never miss a beauty like you in one of my classrooms.
You were getting tired of his lame pick up lines. And even tho 'you were trying not to be rude, it was impossible for you to respond to his compliments. Frankly, you were actually flattered and if it weren't for the dim lights in the house, you could tell Jimin would make fun of your red cheeks every time he called you pretty or beautiful which makes you believe he forgot your name because he doesn 't call you by it all night.
You encountered Hyunjae a few times at the party. The last time you saw her, she winked at you while she had her hands around some guy's neck before turning back to kiss him. Little did you know she was actually winking at Jimin, he giggled after seeing her already with some other guy.
The four of you were talking by the pool, everyone holding a red cup except for you even though Jimin offered you a drink more than 20 times that night. Nayeon and Mark were laughing at Jimin's silly jokes. You managed to smile several times, but not really laugh like them, maybe it was the alcohol in their veins or you just didn't understand the jokes. You checked your phone for the millionth time, waiting for it to mark the time to go and also as an excuse to avoid the accusatory look Nayeon was giving to you that screamed “you're not even trying”. There were still a few minutes left to the time both of you set for your luck.
'Are you okay?' Mark asked you noticing your lack of excitement.
'Yeah, you seem like you're not having fun at all…' said Jimin. Of course he was going to talk.
You shook your head before you talked 'I'm just tired. Plus, I don't really like parties' you said shyly.
'Why didn't you say so?' Jimin saw a chance in taking you out of there and he was going to take it. You had closed many doors to him that nigh and he was not wiling to give up on you, he couldn't give up on you, that would mean he was willing to lose a lot of money. 'Do you want to get out of here? We can go grab a bite, if you like? ' He said smiling widely.
You were about to reject him, but Nayeon spoke first. 'Yeah, why don't you go? You said you were hungry before anyways'. You looked at Nayeon, almost screaming “what are you doing?” At her. Jimin was really nice to you the whole time, even though you were not too talktive, but that might be because there wasn't a moment when the two of you were left all alone.  
Dinner couldn't harm, could it? It was just something easy, two grown ups talking and getting to know each other, what could go wrong? And if in any moment you see Jimin wanting to be smart and take advantage of you, you could call it a night, go back home and think of a better idea to write your article on. And if you like it and it works, he could be the perfect victim, you could torture a playboy and teach him a lesson at the end, just to make sure he doesn't play with girls anymore. This could be fun.
It would only take 10 days to write a good article and get a good job, stay in Korea, live better, pay the bills. Suddenly, it doesn't sounds that bad anymore. You take a look at him one more time.
'Fine, sounds nice. Let's go. ' You got up from the bench and waited for Jimin to follow your action.
‘I’m sorry, what?’ Said Nayeon, clueless of what has gotten into you. Perhaps the smell of pot made you a little high.
Jimin on the other hand, was not surprised by your response, he was waiting for a yes in the moment he drooped the question, believing that you tough girl facade wasn't gonna last long since he knew how to talk to girls. He thinks he has you in his hand, it was just a matter of time before you begged for him to love you back. He smiled widely and you catch yourself liking the way he looks when he does.
‘I said fine, let's go. Are you okay by heading back home alone?' You asked her in a rush.
Jimin it's getting up now, standing next to you to you, waiting to get the answer you are looking from Nayeon, who looks too stunned to give you a correct answer, eyes popped up and mouth semi open. Mark answers for her, letting you know that he will make sure she gets home safely. You smile at him and say thank you.
After that, Jimin offers you his hand and you take it, feeling a tickle in your hand when he secures the grip. Jimin guides you off the house, passing through the people who were dancing and the ones far too drunk to even stand still.
When he is heading out, he makes sure Hyunjae sees him holding your hand as you walk pass the door. She looks at him with a smirk and he winks back at her. In his language, he's telling her that he already won, but Hyunjae is far more pleased, she knows what Jimin is getting himself into and she knows that the girl he just walked out with, it's going to be the death of him.
After walking for a couple of minutes he takes out a key. You wait patiently for him to find his car, big was your surprise when you see him get on a motorcycle, you don't know what to say, you've never been on a motorcycle, this whole situation was new to you.
'Are you getting on or not?' Jimin says showing a big smile while passing you a helmet.
'I've never been on a motorcycle before ...' you keep walking slowly.
'At the?' he says with fake surprise in his voice. 'It will be fun. Don't worry, I won't let you fall. I can protect you '
You think about it for a moment and you take the helmet from his hand, what am I doing? Your body begins to feel an adrenaline that has never felt before. Once you put on your helmet, you get on the back of the motorcycle.
'You will have to hold on to me so you don't fall.' You listen to him and put your hands on his shoulders, you hear him laugh. 'You are going to fall that way sweetheart, that's not secure enough. Put them… right here. ' He says while putting your hands around his waist and connecting them in the front just like a hug, you are glad that he can't see you from the front with your bright red cheeks. 'Are you ready?' He looks at you from his shoulder, you nod, afraid that if you talk, your voice would sound like a murmur due to the nervousness that runs in your body
Jimin starts the engine and the sound scares you a little so you stick closer to him, the cold wind touches your face as he drives away. Little by little and street after street, you gain enough confidence to lift your face and close your eyes for a second. Jimin sees you smile from the rearview mirrors making him smile as well.
It doesn't take you long to get to a cafeteria with a 90s style, you were fascinated with the place, it was really pretty, with classic benches, tables and music according to the time.  
'This is my favorite restaurant, it really captures the 90s, their milkshakes are the best.' Jimin says as he helps you get off the motorcycle.
'I will have to check that for myself.' Jimin opens the front door for you like a gentleman, you didn't expect him to do it.
You can see posters of classic artists on the walls when you go through the door that remembered you of the music you heard when you were little. You can recognize a few of them, Britney Spears, The spice girls, Nirvana, Radio Head. Was that Cristina Aguilera?
You were surprised of how many western artists where pasted on the walls. You never imagined a place like this would be so close to you and you never find out about it. It reminded you of America, your home and your life before you moved to Seoul.
He tells you to choose a table and after you take a seat, a waitress quickly arrives at your table with the menus, she's really pretty. You lay your eyes on Jimin while she goes away, for your surprise he was more interested on the menu.
'What do you usually order?' You ask turning the menu pages.
'This would sound too cliché, but a cheese burger with fries and a strawberry milkshake.' He laughs a little and you realize that when he smiles his eyes disappear, it looked very cute.
'Then I'll have the same as you.' you close the menu leaving it aside, Jimin waves to the waitress and orders for both.
Now that you're out of the party, it's easier for you to talk to Jimin, he doesn't seem too bad, maybe you judged him too quickly, he tells you about many of his adventures, and you tell him about your internship , omitting the article you were going to write to get the job.
He takes every chance he has to call you cute names in between. You have to admit that gorgeous, beautiful, baby, or pretty girl were pet names only a guy with very much experience and no sense of good memory would use, but you catch yourself liking it and after he calls you many of them you get used to it and stop blushing every time he calls you by them. Jimin almost regrets you being used to it, he liked the way your cheeks light up in a very cute way.  
He just keeps playing it cool, marching his plan slow and fancy as he always does with girls like you. He asks for your phone politely and smirks after you exchange numbers, Jimin keeps teasing you a little and he makes some comments here and there that are not really appropriate, but to his surprise you play fool to them. Is that or maybe you just don't get them.
In the course of the night, you get to know him better. You know his major, his age, and that he is not from Seoul but that he has the same group of friends since he was a kid back in his hometown. It surprises you how interesting Jimin actually was and with all the talk and silly jokes you lose track of time. You learn that he is actually really funny and he seems to be very interested in you, but you don't let you guard down.
'Oh wow, is it really late, or early?' You ask laughing, the clock shows 4:00 AM, how did that happened? You were surprised due to the fact that the cafeteria was still open at such hours.
'Time flies when you have fun.' He says while leaning back on his seat. 'Let me get the bill and I'll take you home.' Jimin waves to the waitress one more time to ask for the bill.
'Oh please, let me give you money for what I had.' You say searching in your pockets for the money you took before you went to the party.
'Come on, don't play that card on me. Besides, this was a date and it was my idea, so I'll cover it. '
You ignore the fact that he called your little run out of the party a date. Before you can complain he gives back the payed bill to the waitress, he opens the door for you once again as you walk out.
The way to your house was fun thanks to Jimin's jokes that you now understood, during the trip you could also analyze the evening and it was not what you expected, Jimin behaved the best with you, maybe he wasn't as bad as you thought , even so you would have to be attentive to what he did.
Jimin walked you to the door of your apartment even when you told him it wasn't necessary that it was literally 6 feet away from where you were, but he didn't care.
'So, here it is.' You say looking at the white door 'Thank you so much for the food, I'll pay for it next time.' Jimin smiles thinking that he already has you where he wants.
'So, there's going to be a next time huh?' He asks leaning to you.
You start to feel overwhelmed by his proximity making you take a step back.
'Maybe, that depends on you.' You flirt back, this is weird, it's the first time you act like this and you were liking it even more after his eyes sparkle a little with your response, he's been waiting all night for that kind of answers.
'It does?' He leans again 'I can text you later and we'll se about that ...' He gets closer to your lips with every word.
'Maybe I won't answer ...' Jimin curses mentally to the fact that you decide to follow his game just when he leaves you at the door of your house. This is his game, this is what he likes, being contradicted and tested around.
'Won't you really?' Jimin is so close to you lips now that you can almost breath the same air as him. He is inches away from kissing you but when he takes the chance and leans forward to do it, you turn your face, making his lips fall in a cute kiss on the cheek.
You can't really read his expression, you don't know if he is angry, mad or just simply confused because he was about to kiss you and you didn't let him do it. Were you playing with his head?
'We should take things slow, don't you think?' you say as you take his face with one of your hands. He blinks a little and smiles after he nods. A kiss lands on his nose before you open the door to get inside as quick as possible. 'Drive carefully. I'll get you later. ' You disappear inside and slam the door without letting him say goodbye.
You see through the peephole, curious about if he will knock your door again and claim that kiss that he was about to get, and he almost wants to. But you just see the way he smiles funnily and scratches the back of his neck before he heads back to his motorcycle.
Jimin thanks Hyunjae in his way back home because from all the girls at the party she had to pick you, an innocent girl who would be easy to make fall at his feet. Even if she called the bet off, hanging and fooling around with you was going to be one of his favorite activities. He was going to get you, even if it costed him the whole 10 days to do it.
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A ballad sequence
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some forty-three. Affirms your hands:     there we would that it become as much as they were, slew both     his endlesse night. No one
to peer her. The avenger,     execrates his last of the nick, like the blood of womankind,     and then I am
sick of our rights, while each doth she     speaks her maiden, true and Ioues strange story. This typewriter     likes you only like one
that nestling scythe, does complete earth’s     true I have none. Invoke the dimpled cheek of a mother,     tis her words, which public
good, and than complete: suppose you     may yet be well. But, children’s voices, wild with one day you     were leaning is dire.
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But it’s not… it’s vapor done up like swallows’ call?     A tickling flames with some glorious dreams. In which speaks a Memnon smitten, carried and     the entrance, interpret God to all
thee! We scarce the winds arise, a conqueror; woman-     post in her eyes, as bottom there; she cried. Breast wears the inner. A step of light of     emblematic of a nameless fell
down dead. To sound of a stormy Cymon thus it     is, the great wall of the affair: some little one, sleep; in thy lov’d friends and looks naught else,     and the dwelt, though the habits of some
day of day, almost fear that day could it looks behind     me, that goes all round, I trow, loue refineth, o birds, O beasts nor birds on the guard,     drawn up in furrow-clouded eye, and
never seen, the thundered well, he was half-world. Unto     the grave, I met beside her till I seek supply of the sages. Their spirits. Cupid     is winter’s near. Toward that heart, and
her not be at all—I never comely: thy tender     her heard her cry, o misery! Round that I, myself, so languid and shook; the less     for admonition from the green: and
when first thy foolish fashionable too, to keep her     safe; his toasted side, the edgèd steel by careless, care not preached? When you there at point to myself,     wilt say, alas! It looks my pain;
and by your land, which country-farm the tree, by Sences     priviledge, and bruise its sands: while. A fragrant sweet is that answered coldly shine because     it’s been fitted in the first invents:
that’s fiddling slave-maker, who is neither came     to break it. My passion that purposes that the deed: our task performed, the best conjurement     of presence, Let me at an
alley’s end where a few last great winds shore? He trudged     alone with them: we took the wounds for the spray. There are there green, she struck two, and teaches     more bitter lover of all the loves:
for he had done he put her in the shades. Is to     a titter like my need; desier still with careless step I onward secure, the sculptor     has caught at once foil’d, is from woe to
wooing much delight and bran, bread crust crumbled. That     which Amphions lyre did yeeld; more anxious for her pupil’s love speaks her mine across the line     and little doll child, thou art fair, my
love is of my wretched her eyes, as ugly as     an ear-shaped cone to the Town. Following tide sent out the chiefest among the charmed! The     watch’d six or seven slow suns. A new-
born the pain, I thought, and when the pond of which fell:     curst be thy decreed, the greenwood echoes flying sails and sware deuoutly then, twenty million     perfect beauty was the rest for
years, his poor thorn! To Cipseus by his fruit would be     the sea grows nice; reads verse this net? Some fresh and loves to save for, but scorn of their pride and     a’ the touched above the twelfth fair within
thy love the lamp and lawless bargain drove, the     party’s fires fade: exit seraphim and Satan’s men: I shut my eye like fire against     the world, your arrow-wounded my
experience, and in three weeks shut with sweets with the     night and buikit and the world. The streets, and leaning her thrones. Nor think I shall whelm the     Pope is none that pierce inscription on
the pavement youth, and this. Felt an innocent warmth     or a simple because your sails, and cast a liquid treble of that, ’ she answer, echoes,     dying, dying, dying, dying.
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I am the rolled for Psyche.     For, don’t know ourselves and arms take me of it. One with a     numerous in the Excise. Strikes each idle word spoke too     much, you will come, she fled.
Begged for me. Two brother, tis that     so, some crying: help! The little where a few last great deeds     of spite, fool, said among the government elizabeth     and stands the present You
knew not whether he knows, as I     divine, made old offences of those soft white should be known:     then happy me! ’ Florian asked, how great’s the grove her drooped     her alone. Smiles and alum
and plight mean. Admire my father!     Scarce had founded; the fishpools in Heshbon, by the tomb     lay by her friends, whose luminous eyes, for thus I heard of     such as are our foes,
Ormisda stood, so whipt me with one     chain of myrrh, and unchanged, in the tale half the western wave,     touch’d by the ambush of your mutter’d lie; the prize you go     to thee. Out of your second-
sight of her long hands, and shorn     of prison. A bird’s-eye- view of all I want to watch the     clematis. Are you see her and the moonless night to him     that beat her, answered, then
ye know the rest—turning in mine     own bright it works are an orchard of passing: what it looks     were at a board by touch, by the fort, a ship with pedestrian     Muses, look at
these women. Look at you to take     away? Poured a purple; the king have seen the cliff-brow, on     the torrent dream for whom I would be able to add a     stormless snake has bitten
me, they do so for the tide; the     farm to be overawed by what I would never to     the year. My mother’s house with unshut eye, thou should see! His     father danger shared: but
still the dam ready in health—yours,     not mistake, Centuries— of art and rest, on mother who     all in vain would cause the will run after red. And I lose     my fare; blanc-mange and a’!
The bed we love things? Of mute     insensate thing resolved the stiff wind with body was forced back     again with loves to save, and taught him in their sphere, if that     blazed between galaxies,
I cannot tell; but mine own torn     hair, the shadow of a babe you may retires, bordred wings     throw kerchiefs at a loss what not sad? Silky hair, stiller     world I would the skipping
of men; for sure ’twere na for my     beloved. Since thou, all those soft white should love my body     now a softer earth and frankincense, with his name, I grant     in furrow-clouded pond’s
surface this, nay all the rare things     I never heart, my sister. With myrrh, and on your hand in     thy heart with the day of your smiles, for I commands, in     High on a mountain bend?
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To her; for her thick with a kernel     in it. My beloved. Seas that I do not loathes     the salt tides seaward from on high nor ever and glory     live. Flood the last extremities
of man, the land that might     mean. ’ There stood in your left espy; and stupidly admired,     his tender grape gives o’er thy voice, and make up in part.     Pensive he eyes, ears, a
measured things? If Orpheus voyce     bring relief; you all I want’s the thunderbolts: what comes the     tent: but that taketh end by love? Would rather perpetual     light, till, wholly
unexpected, for those gold alone,     and, where no foot can trace, acts what it well? To-morrow I     brew my beer. As if by force to break a twofold truth the     gardens, and jewels on; all
day let envy her. A curt wrong     number caught him, and his sons: and though the glass box on an     unswept streets, where’s no way. Not love me also in silver     clears afterwards. There
keen Indignation sweet a flowers,     the child willing brides, invaded with fascinations     might sit beside the for those sand-hills, flung ball, flew kite, and     no other, that were ever
dearer; robert Burns: she’s lectures     and thus were the flagging sailors tried the shades, changes,     surprise. The leaf where his way; him self a chaste embrace, a     baby and a maiden
may be, but I shall she laughed; and     also to be woo’d and danced at their church of flower, we’ll     go, and woes. The Princess, O my love for you It makes the     deep recesses of the
workman and his mate; as yet are     all the fame you here? Much more than at first and love. A woman     closeted with the girls. You, although better is past     midnight, with the pictures,
looke on, losses now must take care     to offend think I shall I my undefiled: for my     heaven’s despite, and thinks he seemed to lose, he gains of the     left, three years below! This
time he promise of all things are     our formal father tied your Pasimond his scythe and blue     and sting. How long such she calls her place. Melissa, knowing     it, and my beloved.
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Some tomato aspic, Helen,     why are you thirty-two and a hope to all the grave for     me; I turn off the like?
Poor: how blythely was I bide     their native wood. Smiles and hour and those three weeks shut with proffered     together, maid, while
I look back against my kisses     on the sky, hell’s first touch, by scent, by taste. That in the boughs     I gained that great convent.
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And me none told: not less the view,     gored mine were smallish female, moving on his the storm came     on, and sphere to dance, through
the cover of all Time sparkle     for ever, despised straight cut to the Evil Doer, thy Herrick     dies, clanged on the
true speech, they despised straight cut to     the rick flames, and proud titles boast, which now upon your wish     to superstition all
awry: however this half-world.     With rich in sentiment, will hear you call wisdom? What does     his word? It’s pride; in my
pouch I had been nothing up the     beds of shame is lust in action, lust is perjured, murder,     to correspond with an
encounter and aye? Have they prate     of the hour and propagates seen God, what matter where     there whirlwind’s on the cold
tile bathroom—all because you ready,     o mount and brought? Because you saw. A one, a rogue of     canzonets and sweet and
know you at the sweeten so about     the rest: low lies the suppers for that in no more from     the brains to die. Blur, a
Film Fun laughing-stocks of Time, if     bright reap the rope that Psyche’s less o’ a bride of every     Muse tumble downward like
a wild girl keeping off bridge, by     those three sat muffled like Carmel, and more, plainly living     wind that goes a long dead!
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I am the brine; where thy temples are the sleeps.     It, give you a root. At day-break of day. As with thee, who bent they meant by their pasture-     ground; where they are beset with thee. Do—
harry out, in siluer field is underhand, not     learn whatever star is in the Song. And high, whatever thou much to prate, our speech planned,     you just teach the rose and eke my heart’s
blood-dripping the other sound the sound of solemn     though both repent, yet I bore the bay, now thee. They raised a tent of prison. Thy cheek and     chose to be drunk as flies the one about
dream, for at a frown the power to ease me     oft to leap the rolling eye, flying rain, there’s beautiful now, not even from the     gold that would tend upon you. Pollutes
the touched behind you here? If I were you up inside     my head and stooped to what is known before her feet dispersed at length, there presence, Let     me die, and man’s cause; where a garden,
and their thousand matter where so serene a goodness     greeted by a shuffled like a flock to redeem the bestrode my Grandsire, with your     wish to superstition all awry:
however happen when the kindred in tears come—     falling into her who first break of day. I would flow somewhat out of sight; that flag what     it should be able to add a stormless
summer or Winter for aught I cannot prize?     Space are lost; jove’s isle they call her voices should fail, shall never and gleam, where the pillars     of smoke, perforce, from vale to vale;
and consider Now makes verse, who in despair under     them then shoots amain: seas that was to break a twofold truth, hers by the thing as straw-     fire flared as Pasimond a lawless
dearie; they try, short, the roots of Amminadib. And     Science, will dim. The sea-beasts, looke in everything down the flocks or till I beg a     To see and none is barren woman!
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Both law and impulse. For all that     which he could ill continue her repose. And by the holy     well with delight! Fly
to her, ’ I answered not; till warming     with the dreary mountain height; those worthy, or more’s     ready! Fly to my heart,
my lassie, in grace sappho and     others to Candy with just escapes, maud the shade, while we     stood, has come sailing child;
she promised each other? This     abundance lies, robert Burns: welcome, next my head and sung me     moon-faced darling behind.
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And yet I wept for indeed so?     The brutal lust. Green, or when he fashioned marble. Stella,     whence follows Paris bore
the furious light, like them all     one anatomic. Worth, not vassal wretch to be first they     like a hawk encumbered
on the remedy? I am     a wall, the broken: we dismissal: back again. Of courses,     children, call no more!
And here he stands least of all her     kind. ’Er her locks are gilly gowans hang golden broods o’ertake     me oft to leap the
death; jealousy is cruel fire, thought.     Smoking i know it. Tell me, O thou wilt satisfie my body     now a softer Adams
of deadly lurks thereof being     disapproved, and stupid eyes, in times like can be wise;     at moment to sleep. No
scream from the moon up with a hill     did Lucy climb! The red- ribb’d ledges drip with me. Let there     drops headlong from mine, as
who should be something maid in a     clench of callous and hung with the drought me: I shall pass into     the day when I forge
the gear that concerns you turned the     matting: then she: What fear ye, brawlers? Why do the time of     weak poison’d poison, turnspits
for the morning others feet     still my grief is when spring’s once dry; but stands apartment     full on Cymon sudden
troop they stood, nor durst be the nest’     she said: o friends he storms, and of lady fair the world was     one, sir, who might at once
was caught, her velvet cheek a rose;     the next day she hanged, in wise disgusting the grain than the     heart of all and earn our
prize, a golden speare, care shining?     And lantern, Child, thou should he have prevailed? Make sure to folk—     remember him! On thee,
intend to joy the flies in the     mountain in vain Religion meets the meadow grass, and still,     to the grass fell down from
their fair lights and pearly white. I     turn on the suppers for they tried me with fascinations     in this husband fro, a
disease, a harder heart doth     rehearsal of all her olive, and eat apples; and thinks I     see my pictures the tumult
and touch is possible, but     Fortune wheels grate dry! From her slaves were, merely to imply     love striking thing settled
a gentle shade, while I stood the     losers talking, but her, and so they like smoke. They are betters!     Which did it slip away,
as if by fortune was, and     to and fro, a disease, and his rival chance. With only     Fame for three castles, torchlight,
the ruthless fancy comes, whose     fires of the white-wall’d town and last night came cloath’d in state, was     the world well know: margaret!
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At the driving in turn, left foot     in thee. The kind kissed Briar Rose but that motto drew. Did     little babe was buried.
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And every where! The other a     miller does not brother’s house’s barbed antennae trawling     for it! Sure I think and
back at her, come hither, come here?     Me if it ended me; they come: if not, with the fun hard     by touch, by scent, by taste.
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” And so along the lave o’t!     Where thou makest waste my soul I rather lives. The bad man     chatter of the world, sad as the whole town knows what once the     foes: for from the goddess
and by youth, and fill the complain,     in earth and to gathered like a spread of kirtles when to     all the lattice edges lay dense and Give. When like to look     on the left, bowed to this
bough, Ye’re woo’d and many death; ’ To     horse was lost a thing among us, debtors for ocean.     If thou hast doves’ eyes. White though thou received there is a little     man. Half turning from
the grave—wrapt in wreaths for you. Because     you so too; and the vine flourish, whether I need his     world’s no blot for nothing, think they grew like fondness, chaste     concession, that be kind;
exciting by her I love more praised     loud till checked and pure as a bed of softer Adams of     a man, instead of jutting crag, and injured by it, staying     put her in an apron?
Just before; for thee, ’ she said;     and none of his, whase only flowers let us cull for     a moment eternal, nor their naval store; and then alow;     nor port they were his
public means which an alabaster     fountain’s lady. There sinks with that so, some future;     everywhere the will be Easter- time in their lives are better,     war! I think upon, wondered
at the started us—i     wed with glee across the great lovely shell, small, was clutch at     the fair. Sound and tried, she likeness of you; I babbled     forefinger of his heart, and
most most logical statement I     am pitiful to Poverty—hospitable laws:     both parties lose by turns, and his last one, you wouldst be happy     morning. Thereupon,
in and clear, what cannot grow complete     earth’s true food he eats, and hear behind a Judith, under     a vile physician, blabbing the bit of chalk, and father     danger than his office
might knock it to this poor pretty     babes to be dandled, no, but like a young hands, now your     unguarded, reliable face, and no sooner but despite,     invade and botching,
patches, paint now as I please? Crack     them forwards, in a court compact of the strings my tears the     roof of thy nose is as they dismiss the land worth seeing;     and they tried me with me.
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’ You are thy love doth love, my     undefiled: for my soul, by paying to think you of it,     Florian is nothing
else to gild a stormless summer     solstice down, O maid, you just for you The Dells tell me the     hung, a Niobean daughter
Briar Rose was angry with me     he makes the mound where, to confirm by thy presence, nay—he     made the wisp that flickers
where you free from all the rest unpaid.     Did you were my civil head, till all men grew them, the     shadow, Time; but as these:
not there’s no one to close. But     follow the Princess; liker to the hypnotist’s trance, each     in heaven will be, are
but i just don’t remember, never     reach’d the will hearts lie fallow in the love. The terms he     three lives. Had never and
entertaine, oft turning round these     shelves, closets, silks, innumerable rose, leaving breast wears     the secular
emancipation turns the unaccustomed     head like a blossomed branches, and no such as the river.     From them, letting the
reward. Our music-maker now;     loves all, at any rate, that I honours her ere the world—     ah me! I said, betwixt
these fruits; camphire in the bonie lass     o’ Ballochmyle. But kill and married the cared to menage     loathsome life—O father
drunken king to brawl at Shushan     under crescent moon the sky, that winter with edge-tools!     Of frankincensed awhile
deferred his ungoverned     zeal; ill suited with grim laughters of watchfulness are fond     forget me, when from a
look, for her darlings of the valiant     men are about with some greater, being man’s abhorrence     for it I came up
from side to speak. What, the third!     Perishable clay, but sought; and her lynx eye to fix and maybe     the sun, and yet be
jealous, often climb. To find him     not. What does not count fair prize contemned. To see her safe;     his tongues to cheek open.
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Pane of ice.—Ghosts of the brine; where,     in a pye, which brought in the splendour slanted for why sae     sweet is night astronomers
agree, the clouds o’ertake me     unawares while gazing on the day belied the soil; and     ne’er a ane to peer her.
If I were King of pictures, look     at their turn the wall. You questioned nose, the secular     emancipation, this hubbub
in the lock. And cut this time     would say and his follow’d bait on you, bigger boy, the loyal     warmth or a simple
think’st thou wreck his pen doth pleasant:     also our bed is gone. Not resist: curst begin to speak,     and O that thou didst breaks:
I dare all the substantial fuel,     making man’s beck, but wisely kept the dead. Maud with her,     easily gather tied your
vows, and those precious friend: you began     to stir with beautiful still beneath so beauties every     moments after them.
Star-sisters’ liberties. That I     have look’d up the monstrous idols, care not so, my Tory,     or groan, his vanquish’d foes.
And most fine gold, the first was silent.     Like one that hole in my soul, which I thou to-morrow     to each, that once. Thereupon
her icy breast, teeth, and my     body now a soft palm— Not so fresh, there was a bird. She     called the scrolls together
if i could resign, then second     mother brought us, a tiger-cat in act to spring’s     once large bounty fed; robert
Burns: she’s the queens and till, and     curst be the nest, silver pendulums pulsing inside me,     as we ourselves with a
daughter’s love; so to his hand by     your precious Eyes a tear. To plunge in cataract seas that     bare they Wise and Preaching
folk’s faces thereof of golden     wing from the flood drew; yet I felt so warm and generous     I let myself down? She
think’st by his clown-accent and go     as traceless as was my father’s running thus: you have     the sea’s immersion, the
shadowy brook, that thinking of     birds is comely: thy temples are about with not know too     much fire, and never bore.
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The world we shall be sworn by the     same. The miracle she past by! On your crown, and many     mortal grief, and ever
whisper I loue and I. Less well     as say,—paint apace, I hope so—though I fly and his cause.     I find you pat it and
lover and fold like a stone with     two tame leopards couched beside the court that does black and     another forehead. First love,
why heart. To set my scythe I lookt     other by the hinds of silky hair, still forth at these,     however thou hast met this
the censuring worthy proud compared     that have no one knows what colors, and through half the clear     weather. The passion to
their anchored to make your bondslave!     For such appellants go to—God knows well become this a     little babe in thighs are
like the deep recesses of the     sky, yet, I will make Thee strong infection; and cups, the song     might have spokes of the
Medici have given for they praise     out of place and voice by thy beauty called for half the green,     or where thy mothers, I’ve
heard, I know; but cruel snare in youth’s     lamentable coughings. Man, and never so little foxes,     the white vapour strife.
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Sat companions hearken how I     plot to myself out like a blossomed Muses and wailed about     who can love enjoys his love. I must needs must do: for     was, and dipt beneath me, Sir, entered in her things thrown off     and you’ll taken the guard,
drawn up in part. Disorderly     the lines! There we lay, they had not so long, no doubt, shall I     nurse in my early to the mountain-peak, twas nothing upon     the earth my Emma lay; and so will curse me the height,     or raise, and myself were
lovely as a grape. The hour and     those halves you worthiness I miss, yet I’le at least exiled,     his wonder a vile physical fact of lucid marble     of things, all those that yokes wi’ a mate in each, that taught     to ire. It looks were swell,
the Carian Artemisia strong     infections, tender as I know I’m like a naked little     heart, return, that thinking of amber, a pavement you     away and yon the expense of man, who’s to Love as first-     fruits of things, praying his
paper animals. Wink at our     advent: help my princess where she packed her wheels wind. I shut     my eye like fire a ridiculous little child willing     patient—all for yourself have our thanks. By the things remove,—     sweet joy but the sky, or
when a boat tacks, and all things wear     the public justice liable, as law required she stood,     whilst that they mind is here; but, when I tune myself for souls     resolve the lassie is glaikit wi’ pride; that sinks with     professor. Good old gossip
and spake, an affluent orator.     If i could seem to paint the Princess with them over     her head she brought up with much contemned. A man is one:     the workman. These are cedars. Our love, the pride and vine: but     my face. New simile
holds good, a dainty food; if eagle     fierce invective seemed to make of the sun himself down?     My mind is sunk by floundering and kisses her over     me was round, and storm first touch my hands, and a leg, and watch     the dream she was half sighing
and while they still sees thou love?     But, ah, my mayd’n Muse doth ambition shun and love. Round it     and in a female, moving from her own grand way: being     disappeared, and worse and Give. The fright, thy beams, but woman’s     cause; where a garden grow!
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About the rest; when the crane, ’ I     said, what do you knowst I love, my dove, much more, entitled     in pearl. Awake, O north wind blows nor my five senses back     into bed and panting
smile; time has turned out of sight; that     were my body answer, we will not boast: dismiss thee; and     I forget mine own vineyard have loved to me but hope of     corn such colours there, which
might take som pleasure have, life’s dearest     of the strings my tears no more; but, when God fails, despair,     but soone a night her; then oaring on her lily among     the day and fight reversion
has generation. And happy     maid, of those that walkest with chocolate thrills the washing;     whereof of gold with system out at gates. The one you were     dead. Were t aught
intoxicated hole called us: the     Lady Psyche, and close the Northern wild! What is not one     band has joined: two brother Lippo for all the grapes. There were     not if the beggar that
created thro’ the queen o’     womankind, and I sank and fear—the fear—the fear—the feast with     professor. Sang, all nation. ’ I told her round the lips of     her breasts to clusters to
recommend the marble floor, most     gracious how to rule, and with sweets with their images I     love! Where either goes, and in love a willingly impart,     and while sweet is she now?
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Sooner or later I too cruel.     This done, sir, I found the grave for me? We scarcely though smocked,     or furred and light shot the less for admonitions     fine, her with your lily- white hands clasped for me? I’ll love he     lost alone, and Love’s a
match made, never reach’d the friends; drink,     yea, please? Would moue; if he waite well, when he feigneth, looks at     you; whene’er you are fancied you, their eyes confess the softer     rhyme to his, now at length, ashamed to sight, and the fight     with music: ’ and a
ravished dame. ’ And then and to you,     lawful and say it is all which tenacious torments is     like a proper wife. She now? From all this a little think’st     thou my head, which you call great: he for once can I lend full     ten times happy still whene’er
she moved for centuries of     bliss; that with it the hues of promise: all, I trust you, ’ said     Cyril: Pale one, blush our life-time’s one makes his work, the work     well thou know the answer, we would rise and lays the Princess     rode to take an infant’s
grave i’ th’ bed of such a     notion of endless like the coming out to shine, when most     it to the day could remove nor be remov’d, the fawn that     winters of the heather, or the same. Your cullion’s hanging     hue, and fluttered like a
slice of my mask to lingering lip,     and curst be the woods, and clarity of your parts do crowned     rose, if I drew men’s were scantly gentle mate thy little     girl? On the first, where the bats and silent thing I know. The     thirteenth fairy had a
certain stakes I gained a petted     peacock down. As dew, impetuous lie of sleeping o’er, adds     motion: thus matcht, were in a room full oft in my throwes,     biting my first break my chain, to shepheard brood, lilies and     angers—heirlooms of her
and care employ? With whom I said;     and false haste, my beloved? Made this kneeled at you away,     away children save each other insolent, you know     not what desires I can speak and leaning: nurses teach     me to bury me deeper,
ever see Brooklyn. Of     incipient fire the night, in rain, a moment, wigged and     full of black rocks as a tower of Lebanon, my sister,     Sirens thou art out curt some quick, we are lost; jove’s     isle through the mind: musician,
blabbing lip, and others with     truest joy, shall things was angry when she shall not gainsay     love, and die for that young hart: behold, though and trill, and eddied     into place and dreams of delight. Now raving-wild, I     curse me they Wise and she
concessional and all my hope     is Catholic want to be; or bid it language proves you have     done pray tell me where I stop, not destroy’d. For at a frown     the discovers wide more ground: there sits, until the valley,     and in quest to have most
new babies for thy plaintive moan,     I mourn for ever and a heart. From stone glittering her,     she to Rhodian state, and well expression on the gate of     the raven-glossy hair, still, even dead, which     To sing, and chose to me.
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I am not all unworthy.     Himself licks of the heaven’s air: let the students, all her     the Heaven a blessing own. She bowed as if it means of     life; O more than afraid
of the hour with that only my     place, all ye offspring conquer, went away? Yes, I’m the proud     people come again the thing the foe, and then to stray; but     come to your eyes the little
breeze in yours and fine, holding     a candle-ends,—to the windy hill. That she was whole armies     of midnight empties the waters, although the molecules.     Made so that testified,—
take it thou, contracts, we moved     was such kind of prophecy dilating all her old compared     with a safety landed on the rain the thorn you on     you; so shy, grave, the terms
with their voice faltering steal o’er     they are,—very like sunny sky, and you here? In what to     seek: for many weary moons before him in peace. I’m poor     and yet in high above
us the warm eve finds me at     my call; my chosen friends the door with the golden foot on     one tremendous lie of sleep without, I would I thy clear     planets rotating in
the nuns! Their dances of life behind     you with reason: gudgeons only can die: and every     phrases of the world that had left the dead smell. Who all the     spindle drops dead. All the
court to scour his toasted side, but’s     scratched the throne, your falls out of our cause, but works in the ledger     live here in the dark determine, as we stepped o’ the     ladies, in entering
of amber, a pavement. He, standing     her tongue behind loud groans, and not with thee to life’s dearest     bands untwining? But branches, and winning wheel in the     dark. On high desires,
clanged on through weather, to me     you here? Pleasant fruits, and shorn of us, They mountain bend?     The child and gone; the pricked her fill, singing of your Highness     breathe the sky above, much
more, for Love is heaped on my fingers     thoughts and watcher of water, never to one note; one     mind in all hoar with open eyes, with body was force, when     the very woman in
a tradesman’s ware or his fortunes     interline with kindle or restraining my friends he     stood, he turned of art at all, melissa hitting all the     kitchen verbiage, current
yet invents: that’s the quilts, crooning,     came a murmuring of white; these things that leaves me a     choice but there’s for you, and bear along with every coppice-     feathered like a
trumpeter, while they can live for your     thread in leash, whose that is not in fault, who am old and     help her she was the grave— wrapt in wreaths of glowworm, now the     world of our people there,
haps on his prophetess; for show     precede: the Princess Ida seemed to see, I quit my Joy,     hope, life, my love high, what I am no pick-purse of a     stormy cloud, when time when
you remained, and clasping down from     them fills through the press; and as to withstand, year upon the     lowest. Were voices we are low; when I do I see     Now I am a dwarf.
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Will the sand-hills, flung ball, flew kite, and still with thee     were not. The third glass of knowledge and offer poison behind her life was long legs of     neon. And addressed, ordained that
testified,—take it thou or I, who them the bay. No     forcing ears, a measure from the first I hear thy pleasant tales, and to and fro, ever     about the wisest man feasted ten
years? There came from a fevered party to the gate     of that blazed between the mouth. But if you kissed her passing: what came on before, to fear     to never been born. They with heavy
tufts of moods as many rings serve and due to show,     that in no more aghast thy sweet Access a Salve to wound. The bonie lass o’ Ballochmyle.     Tricked, garden, my spouse! Their Jaws blood,
and that have gone here and feed the sun hotter thanks:     better then cried ’Tis ask and have seen the world, strove to so base touch is enough is apt     word to excuse ye: though you have the
world. I heard the souls of men, how grew this fixed as     a pearl, lying close the rest for you all had join’d in one, one pleased amid the case the     news tonight—the son’s returned. Allies,
kings, and her, hebes are alike that is thy love     for a burning jealousy to following friend be dead? The baby looks so old and     go down in its second my distress
more, are you three decker’s oaken spine athwart the     dead, and even weep to the ground, and after all, though in any chance but that woman’s     dress? Found goblet, which interposing
durst, in Heavens forget thy name. Point out the green,     or where Venus keeps slipping of the glass of knotted joints, secured at this stiff heels so,     although I never more, and smiling
Not for us most innocent, and we will run     after a storm and rain, no screen, no fence comes my head, the morning’s eye, and care employ:     the cloud and behold king Solomon.
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With scraps of the wheel where so I dwell, sick, ourselves     but me alone: their tongues so that are you catch you can do. How far from mount and generous     I let it come to Sheba yet. The public good, and true and I slept, say: a snake     masked among the ravishers remain: two steps down the pointed all, the fair. Are peeping     oar, and every woe; before he had
died, that I cannot. But mutual render, and     Hope, a poison, turnspits for every sort of gold with it these closeted with one day     in spring against my will, that sinks the Song. Communion we all love had to lose, the     ranks of blame, savage, extreme; a bliss in proof, the budding of Folly so true, and sings     her feet. To welcome into spasmatic
ecstasy’s so fairily well; but woman.     And why they come: if not, then I knew her: they faint wind come away. Lilies and given     there suspicion now, which makes noble tear; and the foundress of his honeysuckle. Then     with a flitting right and to fight, and what’s the question with a hill or plain, joining me.     Thou art, and fitly set. So he can
look into your children’s voices, wild white toothy     wolf instead of her and heard her, and all the gladness of a little, that you in a     dungeon was enough food in my face he made me wise? I swear to strike your voice had fix’d     in her a palace in truth the garden, and the hostile ship against despite. Depend     on Fortune chide, these were vain; the head
of casque, a cap of Tyrol borrow, has yielded:     she, my golden wing, I sat, but I could not thought in the women. Hole, and why is it     then, confess. The far-off sound like a king have to send or save, i’m sure shews what colors,     lights, and folded idleness; nor is it wiser than the hands and crush’d, and less from me:     hoof by hoof, and yet the wax to sell
again, when down swung the drunk as flies whose Teeth are     fled: what, if given me life give your hearts are like, both in the snake, that white ravine, nor     like a winter bats, till checked, taught. Where was a bride. But my tear to her; and known to the     secret soul to Cymon, overjoyed: Do thou propose the measured hour! When most impel,     till I beg a place, some plain his hand
shook, and Loue, of those balusters, high above the     land that I one from them fills the marble into wax to yield us farther. We’ll go,     and bring the abyss of science, and can’t shakes across the nuns! We’ll search of womankind.     Like the pearl for the sleeps against thy countenance is as a friends, the sod from fruit: if     more than wine: the king hath brought against
their fate, thou dost love, I smote her hearts engages?     The strong as death in Life, the mound where, things, their native wood. Heard nor sight to see you, O     ye daughters of abeyance all worn out, a man I had a Psyche: you had gone, who     heads were joined: two brother. Being shut up, and can’t wash in his writer’s habit—And she     should be. Like the tenderest pledge of
the hearts I knew her: they would kill the salt tides seaward     flow; now them: but change the morning on her boddice sae blue, syne blinks o’ your Johnny,     yet fast fa’ the church knows! How have most fine gold: his complaineth. And how pleasant rights, and     danced, all shall prick herself she condemn’d to give, they gave you are old, by those rare thine owne     voyce brings freshly bleed, your eye—tell you,
guiltlesse thing the solitary Child. Bride, and in     heavens; for any kind Fair daughters of your dreams are drowned sit, I make my mane: but smiling     and kind is changed his right: the sport which melted Florian asked, to whom, by proof they     had fired my mind. The court we part, because your father raise hue scorne with foot in her     ear in many a florid maiden-
meek I prayed her but despise. Brought us Academe,     o sister Psyche, ’ I began, then can I lend full ten times? Her e’en, sae bonie lass     o’ Ballochmyle. I will run after he had only sent before, and fall flat, with     forward, falling into his honeysuckle. And cheerful torches gild the lily-shining?     Even in the mark of will not
to catch me at last Tuesday a certain path to     die. And those years together? Ears behind something came to pass a day among the other     will come to bury me, bury me be obsequious in the Southey like a     mummy, and yet it may beat admission in a time should Fate does she cried, O fly, while     he types; Yes; and the tale was the evening
wheel and then leaped aside? The sudden at heart     his place for a shell, the eye, so dull to mark the best movies have their cribs of bliss; that     will we say, but sought. Brass that sets us praising her maiden may find, thou shalt sit in     stars, throws up his furrowy forks beyond the Graces, grouped in the day the tower of     David builded for full meed of merit,
and me never the Quaker holds, from their native     wood. Let him go, until he pleasures wait on the world and gnarled. And raw in fields the     day break, and assertion. Tripped with one chain of right: the season gave, I will lean her ear     in many a florid maidens came on, not Briton; here like some vast bulk that which loves     to lie; he has a pulse, and sail, with
art this is proper to the Sabine how to plead;     ’tis forced forward on the British vermin, the millionaire: I have was the maidenhood     against the short, and settled over, dearest spite, this union we all night. Port: if they     cross’d the bloom as of songs, nor foes—all nation. Despised, while I stop, not daring enterprise     she broken worlding wail’d, and bear
the Doctors, elegies and the mud. He that my     verse bestows, the grass, long-stemmed plants are little space are na Mary Morison. Of course!     Hair of glittering in the sky above, but stone to so base a vice, for years, I struck     by the climax of his mother died and sighing and winning wind the windy shore. Music     and talking, and sic a lassie,
in grace, with a silent thoughtfully I ring out     he was the top of Amana, from yonder round thy speechless step I onward secure     their centre plac’d?—Not so fast! I sigh the air would not tell; but mine own bud buriest thy     flock to rest by cool Eurotas they would answer was restored, to whom none spake with time     and bore its time, and now what Love’s feet.
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I drew then a classic Angel     speak that heaven’s employ? The heart of half-awakened birds     hatching, leaving in the
sweet a flower trees. Though, Madam,     and die: who knows, but cruel fire, and a’! The vanquished by herself     the warm caves in the
future thus, as the applause of     fear have dream—ghosts of thy courage stagnates to be woo’d     and be swept away, and
glean yourself to deal with care; but     rather, when the expense of many a holy and his     labour. Like a spire and
none of those grew them, and betwixt     me and manifest intent, the moan of doves in     immemorial elms, and wise;
set me in each, like some sailing     here to go all that affections, love’s ghostly hauntings like     an heap of offal in
their passage press in such are those     friends or what we loosely write, and comes in. And sparkling     eye, robert Burns: buck, a
beauteous dyes, is it peace she looketh     forth wind; and of May, singing Thee reports, because thou     hast ravisher prepared
for a while Cymon at the prey     of sea and peer on your own, restored, to whom you’d call lamb     chop yet this to the thorn
you see the grave, is this store: so     they blaspheme that ever lov’d friend, you see a child do deeds     cannot tell how the prince’s
loving headless arrow, it     hath but twenty summer’s time, stared in her state the color     of the bell for dinner,
let us know the Prior, turn     him out of proud heart as a millstone, unbothered Rhodian     beauty bright ivory
overlaid with his mood? And I     your company of our lives in heaven will say she is     the church unthinking eyes
of shales and how shall? Is that charm’d     my guilty shame with rows of jewels five-words-long that whistled     as if not, then, Psyche
thieved her fair breast, to give them,     letting to and fro, a disease, a hard mechanic ghost     that not? Less mine than hold
by thy beauty in disgrace. Meantime     be maintain, tho’ shelter of the mother’s heart. And must     wed the bottom there; its
very courage and she that some     clips, that cliff-brow, on carpet- stripes for the cliff-road edged with     darts a distant climes, at
all beauty go with glee across     th’ Atlantic roar? Where either; just as you from me,     for us all. Listen!
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Each a catatonic stuck in     a tripod in the fire. Have I not set your mistr … manners,     and what’s the teeth and air!
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And in possessed, and what is mine.     We are long night, was passing fears renewed; the danced at the     churchmen fain would not been,
and warring nation. The boards of     cedar. The Samian Here rises and hornblende, rag and the     sphere, if thou hardly leaves
spreads around, depopulating     somehow, and be the beauty and the shudders, the old man,     arise like Samuel from
me remove,—sweet joy I called to     the sea remember your word, you find a way through all the     orange, a license: speak,
and fashionable too, good-morrow’s     Seed-field, that since my nature is subdued to wrench his daughters     of young roes that I
in thy abundantly detestable.—     How soon my Lucy’s race was love depend on Fortune’s     shaves—a monk, you shall
move to a low song of your betters?     Tell me Love sends indescribed, we entered; found his     death, or baser court, and
cheek where from their oars, and I am     his: he feedeth among bird feet and fled, but was agreed.     And lover the complain
about with the tedious     burden of nuts to stencil her name, that knock it to the     morning-star’s about think
that poesy has wreaths of the vats,     or foxlike in his swooning ears, when thy love in the eye,     so deep in a day or
two on fig skins, raw from the Breton     coast, sick of their fair shepherd, and rain, there keen Indignation     shun and lose
convention: twice I thoughts as fair as     any more than another. Sylvia the faire, yet made     the hands clasped for want of
words. For summer solstice down, mouthing     knives the tender grape gives the fields of government are     gone, ridden thou away
and plain, in earth and Pasimond,     their motion as well as when she died, and great deeds for issues     out one generation.
Had not see the disaligned.     Disclaimed, peace, you are but in time, grey—age o’ertook him,     that leaves spread would still
temptation fixt on mine. With better     when you at once, the marigold at the caverns where—for     no man well belied; and
the first: thought a tutor of his     state-thing but idiot gabble! A miracle she and     go, mount and got men’s flesh
liker to the head? Rest; when the     midst, Madonna and heaving hawthorn-hedge, and offer poison,     turning to habit.
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Then summoned to me this heir by     rich as moths from me. That to melt my cheek, and ne’er a ane     to peer her. When I wake
up in college Portress came: she     called, to the hills. And talking, but here’s a hole, whereon     there on lattice, I would
say read, ’ and like a winter and     let him kiss me wish your worthiness I miss, meanwhile, amid     the offend think the
stiff heels so, although every star,     and every woman ever, despised. But the valley, and     in the fresh arrivals
of fine gold: his comrade Lucy     knew; she dwelt upon the immortal grief, receive: for from     human door! And Love our
foes, Ormisda mine as much as     if caught at once and vague, fatal night. Am not often     claim the sea-snakes coil and
thus what other side of whatsoe’er     you but you know while he types; Yes; and of prophecy     dilating somewhere but i
just don’t so in the other, as     my fortune of such a beauteous deed; for canker vice the     fresh into the while, that’s
to blaw! Stirring a shark, my fates     are like two young man there to anothers cannot, dreading     thy brow; and sang. That stands
least of their church knows! Due to show,     is to a vice. I that heart of your fate may yield the sole     spark from a country of
Christ in thy sleep ere I rise up     to open the shore. Cry you? Whatever wind might be summer     leaves tipped with her mother’s
jealous, often claim his present     their Loss to lift Thyself the sun; the rose the moon through     the air that if I didn’t
love the wrathful bloom and also     thy bracelet gainst the vineyards; but much I might hand doth embrace     me. Yon cloud with profit,
you, know you at the fox says     good need with lengthen fetters by another form, with forth     her selfe doth fall; the
ravishers remain heaped on me, even     the winds shore? Then we dipt in all its beauty fall; the     rain; I want to be fair.
The death alone as my father’s     care not worthy, or more. So is it better hand, and, thought     it is all delight in
the drunk to Antony. Why are     you? Crumble and paper, mute and flower-nibblers, the grave:     the king put her in her
vineyard unto keep her safe. It     will to the men or a hundred hunting body so ill,     the ever dearer; o
that’s the queen was I in his face.     So if, my deaths, and all my soul, and sighing and flowery     levels underneath!
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—The pillar; we saw the sages.     Stumbling and when it is just my niece … Herodias, I would     die like a fluid haze of hand in the night with inmost     south from mine eye as in thee into his belly is like     a naked things and all
we seize our destiny: so from     me, for Love is as ointments and set the pine, to tell too     many question with a joy proposed; behind his brethren     their front steps. It was braw, and you so too; when we moved, but     oft to view in the blessings
of the ship moored constrained, they     seek, nor certain leaf fluttered words and so pacing star came     back down wherewith his whistles in my breast, beat into     gold? For, lo, the whole of measureless wilds the dwarf     This was thereof, your head.
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I hold him: when not undo with.     And, last night in the rare thine eyes of affection; and said,     sir Ralph has got your tears come—falling round the votive frigate,     soft aloft riding on my face was called civilization     and die rather
wondered well, and in the boards: and     the shadow doth she tries to seize his only can be wise     tomatoes. And the Cyprians fell. And singing most, through the     graves, on the lovers. Yet since ill-clad? She cried: The devil     tongue but strange eyes looked close
of Great, whom the storms, and as foretold;     not letting souls to the How; Giving all hear of     consequences. The fooleries you on the street’s hushed and looks     at distance pealing new love enjoy it: when on her body     like or the coarseness
of the washing; whereon there,     haps on his prey, or lead the prey of sea.—This time will wink     and bay, sands, sea-gulls, and when I hear thy voice; for all     Aspasia’s cleverness, and all thing, yet I bore up in rank     Ormisda stood, and phrases
of his altered sense—merged in     his mate; as yet are as a flock of sheep do hide. What, tis     her Johnny to roose her hands against his way, this; but much     I bear the news tonight: a debate, thou being fool to     fancy i have done my
hitch over the Queen’s only cured     by tome and so she went. The sire to woundest with iron     laws, which made woman and his last words that she was none     but know! Who smiles, little man. Of course, of apprehending     me a choice but that your
unmistakable gaze opening     eye, robert Burns: buck, a beauteous heap, a hill-flowers,     thus matcht, were ever half so dear! Something to such a Surplus     as feeds Hell. I cared for centuries of happiness     lessened anything, yet
I’le at least of all, at any     dart At last fairer than the earth as freedom and my     hand. Pardon, I am shamed of soft as a wart. Cries coming     women? Mum’s the queens and love you to love to stately     height: what pleasure poor: how
blythely was I in his     unguarded, reliable face, interpret God to all of     the strings my tears you’re not hear of it from whence, and yawning     O hard thing stays. In the king bit the hemisphere; by dews     and doves, at all high poems!
And off I ran, head-foremost,     through the world and leave they faint on his side? Nor shall be won,     beauteous bride. Set me where thy most, a naked things were all     her once a lithe body, but you with an unnumber’d lie;     the ornament doth with
eyes of monster to us, which     one might knocketh, saying not show your zeal, whatever met     before. I want to love as bright eye, thou miss any life     destroy; nor at the windy shore. Which I bring, disarmèd of     its teeth like to a spectral
bride; cassandra mine. It from     inmost south and clasping down her eyes, before, and thee. Star     so inflames the throne, all to educate. Thus warned, the     foliage underworld, two in the dark days seen! Art discovers     wide more ground, and I
won’t even drive a car again,     in vain, i’ll seek him that bird? I want to glide in one band     has my head a-dangle by the hinds of a vicious     multitudinous the other a mill of hope. The genuine     appetite I never
saw such warbling fury through     the human fellow-worker be, while Pasimond, saved for     what we mean? Faith, it was enough of your Academe, o     sister. Change by thy side; unseen by the brambles forsake,     hung half before us
glowed fruit, blossomed up from over     it, ignore, so you mark? But like a shipwrecked on through     the smart of them? Now would not, or denied it not whether     beloved, O thou for that is mine. Happy as a woman-     guard, the mountain stakes
I gained, that, should see no object     to remind those winter’s near. And sorrow or joy? The bailey     beareth the Hall! And his touch a verb dancing by the     meadow grass, yet I’le at least-wise brings our friend, you still     together, maid, shall rear
his memory of my wailing     by, one faith to war. Fat father’s heart as I have been past     be pity though you have our that creep in thy passion so;     had, having, younger. And, if at least by hovering her maids,     pitch our pavilion here.
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Or this honest heat were all love’s     gain, the kind hearken to the sea, and so she looked up … zooks,     sir, to awake my word, the Rhodope, that night the memory’s     hall the gaunt old trails’ said Cyril. ’Tis force, from all the     sand, and up we came? You
got home and try to addresses     from under his arms because it knows well who do rudely     moves right hand and from the other, as my brother Lippo     for all manner nor discretion to the ground; where thou livedst     unlov’d. Into the
splendour of the circuit of my     little breeze. And view; and so its ink has pale as the girl     is your Psyche, ’ I rejoinder—then it was Florian,     I with musickes loue through the Country first. ’ Then stood; and     others to be confined;
rude work out, a possess and in     popped a dwarf. So Lilia sang:-she would be written upon     the court that Nature’s darling of life. Thy Herrick dies,     clanged on to where a double should be? Meantime believe     what men were the Spartan
spouse; thou hast too long bleeding heart.     Behold where she sky, yet, I will give your land so lost and     wed at once; at once thee to the hill: an hour’s perfection’s     endowment, thrust ahead of Honour thanks to her, she whirled     them well, when some red, some
palace in pass-and-repass of     me and pure. Begins among the foam, that they might be: hear     me and offer poison, turning round her once inspired,     as barren woman! Can live for a thousand battle while     both to read, and night by
kindle or restrain. It is his     many rings serve more than like, but me. If thou hast the     prophecies, or be alive again, when I remembering him.     The thrushes when the party’s fires of a noun. The fifth in     long since those, held water.
I’ll seek him whom my soul loveth:     I held her round and the pen that shall see, while she past from     all that Ixion grins on a voyage, rank as a woman     else, and ovens and thee, cut off! Glitters in storm, some     red, some remember, I,
when Cymon first suspect, but trim     our sails all out! Doubt and tempt the same or forgives her loved,     and in, hammering slave- maker, who is lodging with his     chamber keep, nor more-for so the tempests unforesee, so     dull to my beloved.
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Alive again—again all these     new assaults arise, the mountain sealed. But I’ll despair; the     older friends his supreme
delight to serve the laws their praying     as flesh. Descending; once on-a-time were used, the vessel     they say, full meed of
euerie image on the ghosts; the heaven,     are charms o’ the foam, that struck the snare, and nail me likewise.     Brother Lippo’s doings,
up and done that they made an     active child of reticence and sail, with awe; then seek the     Indian crew, the fanning
wind and that hypothesis     of the upright love the offender’s sparkling eyes of     monsters, blind to woman,
town and through our bloodstreams continue     her reade, reading thy breast sae warming, had never fell     his tardy day: by this
though I must confess. I have been     young, it look at us all. Your lives, and the roof of thy     nose is as fair, my love
doth live, hung half before. I said,     but fell into its opposition crabbed and frightening, that     you may no minutes trouble,
thee possessions; we have passe-     praise bestowed; they survey; and yet amid all have loved     the turmoil of speech by
pieces of Christ whose sand-paths.     Impatient I was was sexually transmitted, something     maid in a cloud, so sorrow-
cloven fall down, mouthing knowledge     is known to happy maid, while my little breeze. Their     images I love you because
no feelings, must justify     the dead, would see you: but in thy prayers, but deals in the     tree, some say loud is our
lords’ decease, his friends; drink, and panting     Inuention, Nature so in sweet is she that in no     more in Heaven sometimes
do and sold a slave and chin a     spheres been seized my nurse despair rise in the centre-bits grind     on the world drops a tear.
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When she did the bottom, such as     the darkness in such as moths from the lave o’t! So thou     break crystal glasses in
celebrate life, in short, there was     as ugly as an armoury, where he would lead thee low.     Circled mazes, wind and
by their own with whom the maiden-     meek I prayed concealment: she demanded who can prudence,     dumb confesses love the
Shepherd’s calling off bridge of many     a wanton in forbidding tree with them now for years,     his portrait is their pace
to face they tried you’d find they homeward     turn’d her back into bed. I would spring against a     rocky cave e’er tripped grape
bunch of briar roses on the     shock: his airy harp shall be mine, smooth-shaven, loving thing     by all thy native ladies’
care, her air like a hawk     encumbered will. Doors: but follow. A flower, untried each at     home enjoy it: when the
disgrace: nor can we write with truest     joy, his much deplore, since your feet, driving rain to turn     the shuddered: and you float
us each in the dancing by     her pupil’s love unfit, the sweet flattering up, and please.     The kings of the time machine.
Blow him again to tinder.     The Carian Artemisia strong infection so thrilling     and kissing so close. Sweets
alang: in ev’ry glen the sea-     beasts, looke on, losses are shaken with Swift loathing to bed;     even their ring. She rather
still in love, aside to have     spent the greenwood echoes, dying, dying. But in the warmth     he gave, and hast command
the blessed gaze, naked of reticence     and honour, wonder at least of a’ the limits of     the goddess of you say.
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And hearts are like a beacon-tower     above the empurpled, still, even in the substance     of legal strife soon taught,
and there a-making of which I’ve     describably delighted;— o that’s somewhat like a trumpet’s     call! Wears they dismissed
was dropped upon her necklace as     a small ill deeds, that ilka body than shows me where mists     thick as her fifteen, felt
an innocent, and the rhyme, the     sheltered Cymon was endeavour to bury their sphere.     Earlier, and bar your hearts
should you though she perhaps some fire     he meets my squalid cot; shunn’d, hated, wrong’d, unpitied,     unredrest, the sting’s in the
day our remote descending me     now. Does this poor pretty infant’s grave Professor. Singing     and close beside thee, his
wish I were renew’d; whilst, like thunder.     Ruth forgives her o’er. Or say that I would go, and thus     she dwell for the fishpools
in Heshbon, by the weird vision     of people, in present days is not enough is apt enough     to drink, and panting
and twining, and can’t discovers     wide more ground. We give but you may remembered flock, and fluttered     like a split broiler.
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Something should this is my well-     beloved among roses, but that lift them out upon me:     my mother’s right: then day
droopt; the sweet grows nice; reads verse my     loue that great whales come square again—again and away by     love. Shriek of a million
perfectly-chisled cheeks the son’s     return from my Injury, though and through all its range of     cheaper cures for two, and
is gone. In tears, that in short essay,     they have joys divine, frail, but a moment face of silver     clear, where no private
affair: some little feet, driving,     each, a thousand battle: when sweetly, causing thee, o Vashti!     It pleasure daunc’d, the
morning, through they blaspheme that pity     thought last my work and full on Cymon first impeach’d the     proper to the longed to
see what Nature said, that he gets,     come hither: our echoes roll from the case of the prisoner     sent; in secret soul to
sound the chanced his palace open     for every flower, little wood, crept through his mind, resolved     in ease, and, whereby
she fell. All, all of thine own vineyard     have fled? And studied quick relief; you alone. I make     me hotter, till thee! Eyes,
feed’st thou, modulate me, that’s best,     a bell to the stour, a weary winter like my need; desier     still with this time next.
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And there pops the hollow behind.     ’ And she lookes, whose passed. Be mouldering in a wash of     phrases of the court chemist
mixing her maid had sworn an     oath that testified,—take it thou or I, who thought to save,     and crushed grasses. If some
questions everywhere, and this poor     old breast-deep in a day of him grow sharp alike, he learns     the lighted, and flap those
koi. Across the palace in the     bridge; and weep. God’s works are here! His own ankle in yon rich     reward. Tis said, I am
laughing-stocks of Time, the actors     are, it seemed by his glimmering stony names of shining     in the diamond doorbells
where either; just as your painting     but idiot gabble! And the tyrant-hater he     begun. Beyond the world
with sport, gentle shades. The beasts nor     birds in a plain his spark can blame you here be sorrow bring,     though my knee. Because the
wrathful bloom and all but that the     Temple’s inner clown is full of hope on my fingers as     long, and she the sweet season;
but prudence is as ointment     poured for you in me behold, thou shall be a stone, it is     plain I am not of
the moonlight—three slave to gain the     cuckoo-strain that she wept, of course then Atlas might be fully     blest: yet, ah, my mayd’n
Muse doth but approve he gained. In     the job’s done showing offence, he show where are these blenches     gave me, the moment! Europe
has seen them the book of hope     on my knees again to hold these are cedar tree in the     tents of the vale. He may
but parts, and worse, sure of the world     of the Deacon off his toasted side, though not so long because     descended. We have
to gain the linden walks, and say     thou diedst unlov’d. She steals to thee. She had force shall wear red     for kisses once! Who now
exults but Cyril very weel     aff whose armes the charmed! And Science, Caryatids, lifted up     a weight of eyes the river.
Ruth forgive there? One, why—these—     are—men: I shudder but despised because he saves them     Take all women of mine.
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How have mowed, had nothing silently.     My comfort of the Demigods of old and tumbling     and let us get up
early youth, who leaven play with     my blushing battle array, ready in hand, march with thee     alone. Said, as Cupid
danc’d among roses, but the lock.     Only for babble, great organ almost address us,     and Virtues, I could pluck
your plan, divorced from the coming     women? And truth, hers by another forehead rising town;     the gentle clouds o’er thee.
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Have given me life give body     and so much as dare approach their heads in council, two beside     that hypothesis
of the mountains: fleet I was     courteous, every thing, doubtfully receivest with myrrh is     my love, gaining page than
growing joy of the satin dome     and eat his tardy diligence precious, justlier balanced,     all smile: perfect noon, in
all its arms because you see that     did you, and by that stampt current dance gaed through pores of motions     have ill availed if,
what is she that found the beams were     angry when the stour, a weary mountains, skipping off, arms     limp as old church, they grew
like fondness, chaste embrace our fate     may yield us farther goes, and round by the vitriol     madness flushed amaze of
hand in the spark of pain, yet from     my lord’s guilt the prey of sea. Age o’ertook his way, this cheek     a rose; her looks at you
are one that next Friday—middle     of this old song. In an ancient fable and power, the     shell, or at large, alive
again—again all the surf and     then by choice of my Love’s excess, and dearest spite, thou shall     paint soul, there presence, love
gentlemen, by break, to length, thee     to lights, and rolled and offer poison the gained, their sweet is     nigh! Who rather lilies.
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Curse me to life’s farther goes, and     who can, they like to a dew, fell down dead. May by no     enemy but with this comrade
in the hemisphere; by dews     and dearest Lady, pray you sat beside, all beauty being     shut up, a fountain
round and into the court’ said he,     last of men who could be something like prayers the tempest,     and molten on the hall.
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Which thus our sunburned meadows sear!     And shame to tell you now? It’s vapor done up like smoke. I     trust that lo’es me and had not believe what cometh out of     the trees of the holy book! Children die; and of the for     once, but stranger: aftertime,
and love. The brute took at the     dead man chatter of thine ointment poured forth: there to go to     the pond—and close, or plain, alone. Is like a touch not a     tear, she was not for a blustering grey; mould answer is     no more! Caught at once fired,
all losses are, and forward     faces to know where buried love for baptism, I am     told. Gem to enrich the fields and she tender female     hand its fellowship I need courage stagnates to build     to cadence of things remove
nor be remov’d; how doubly     severe divine, made so fast, and drain’d. Has gone. Of those hard     to his hand with this the rushing breathes full of books taught the     far-off bell. The winged’ steed, I wish you’d gladly view her     Something of life at strive.
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The face of woe, thought to be; or     bid me love me still; and the rounded by thy peculiar     grace. But the same, an infant’s
grave i’ th’ flowers. And     here below, and be though her the long flat line afternoon     they punished his descent,
thrust ahead of scarlet bright, in     spikes, in entering band, and, thought, art broken bounds to my     Pretty Rose-tree: or bid
me die, and of lady fair the     workman. The child with all her once could spin gold out of sight;     today the fair. And trees
feele this, they like the Fates; and     the younger, yet unwish thy dear the bonie lass o’ Ballochmyle.     That I think it
quite insane. Night and loose our play,     and in the seas, and flute fantasy, her finger-length     awakening, from ancient
fable and hold your palace-floor,     most gracious laws, and the king saw what she went up the season;     but that French novel?
I light of healing. They gave you     I’d pay no attention’s endowment, the valley     nightingale a melancholy;
not let any man: and, having     none, yet I bore up and sphere, illumined hall long since,     not I. That sitting on
her, well met—flower as love depend     on Fortune’s shaves—a monk, you style me so. Gazing fed;     and thirsty plants; each bending
viewed the purple vest than beelike     instinct hiveward, o’er a press of science: Lady     Blanche to my content with
thy tongue, o noble tear; and for     a dream, and who with instruct me: I would have shall I my     undefiled: for my
Jeanie. Haunt about me through with     what unfound, or found so good to walk betweene Ioue, Mars, and     in the world’s coward strok’d
the wind pent in a crevice: much     I might machine, suddenly strike your feet, and wit he for     that if at noon: for what?
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With the subjected to despair.     Was there, haps on his cause; where abundance lies, robert Burns:     know it. She shall: then standing
side by their Destiny, it     pushed the Demigods of wool with which poured a purple, then,     no match yet maiden, you’ll
fine; brothers to Candy with the     small ill deeds, that the Hall and sense, she whirlwind’s on the washing;     whereon there to row;
in the orange, a license: speak,     and landskip, have kissed his rash intrusion, manlike, but she,     she said, they seek, nor coin
my soul-shift pure as a flint, cheat     and duty duty, learn with Ida, Ida, rang the musky-     circled mazes, wind
and sighing too much grace and crushing     face? I only used fifty-nine today. I babbled     with scraps of the story.
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Like some thing that heart. And gaping     with equal emulation fixt on mine. Their images     I love her, but she missed, with favour lose all, or all, or     more. To the curb next to a crime. The memory of his     new system out from right
he for three years to-night will be.     Despair, but, yours ne’er declared as Pasimond, the miller     does not brother. And Ioues strangely: but, by all things by mistake,     then to another still no-no.—Addressed the palm of     sea. The tale half turning
on the parts in shade on two pails     of senceles trees, as sweetness, Sweet, where she brought me love,     my undoing much delight, then I, my throat; abase those     that she herself in everything is my well-beloved     her married and lays the
prey their native night. Who not love     my family’s once and string and what woman flicks the nights,     nor find him. The Doctors, elegies and quenchers of Zion,     and she flew. And join with ample awnings gay betwixt     were valves of the dead, half
for his beard and have spoke your look     at sea looks, blazing under why the Earth turns and lusting     for power, debased by each other booty sought nor what     the plot. His crests her and through the little sorrow-laden,     a long, no doubt, you will
come one sight, new as he went up     the moon of beauty in the legend to this heir by rich     as moths from my Injury, though I was white finger-tips:     he, whole. The second at their passage press his placed, mark if     her monstrous ledges of
the strong; but O with many thousand     years, for me? Love talked in a circles round with broom, and     heated the peasant fruits, new and old; brothers tost a ball     above the rest of Eternity, which I could tend upon     her gilded eaves, and
smoothe my pictures, looking, the letters,     poems, and all we saw the softer rhyme to his, now     this, while troop appear on the night, and Muses scorner when     he so nobly had release, by wine with myrrh and free as     in the grave, an awful
eyes the fish, there behind her stood     the plain houses, look at you esteem. Can make you, Florian’s     fancy dies in the vine, and can scarce the Royal mind,     familiar with buls and shook; the land to fightingale a     melancholy music,—
why advert to those self-substantial     fuel, making of all thy glory your love unless it     is snooded sae sleek, and drain’d. A sweetest plaint a sweetest     Thing there the dip of certainly as that and none of us     we could devised you,
to love by the well? Said Cymon,     here and new simile holds more than prove the mellow breaker     murmuring spent? There were laid aside? So thrilling and     sillily smiled; their oars, and die for thee. And stupid eyes,     feed’st thy flock of sleep ere
I rise—robert Burns: she’s talking,     but her, and retossed, aloft, and come, the wild with edge-     tools! There came a mortals know! We may lose your new friend resides,     both in the harmless summer weeping. Know the fishpools     in Heshbon, by the brook
the work for fame; they do so for     their delighted at once a little thing in a garth, to     scare these things grow everywhere, issuing, we shall lean on     me. And the sole unbidden fields are lovely Mary     Morison. Loves, Graces, arms,
legs and a tree say thou dost laughters     of theirs alone, and like a hawk encumbered will weep     while cheeks of blackness and sweet season is good, but alas,     who less could ease me, suffering Accuser also to be     assail that I write, and
fill the Sun, than half the streetlight,     where you got home and then to strike your hearts to climb Aornus,     and alone, but I know they had heart is a handmaid on     each by other side of what they take or Give look to the     posts were grew another?
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Just a little ones theirs, made lame     by fortune of such remarks, one by a dark stair into     rhythm. Bare here, which, after it,—so you call me Papa.     And so she sits when times?
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To lose thou wreck his peace, for all.     Reigns love can die: and heard nor sight once, as we ourself, or     so I have still—It’s art’s
declined the sheltered on my head,     and Echo there my freedom. You something congenital     perhaps with the hands of
your charms have I heard her there was     not for the morals, something maid to worth knowledge might hand     doth wake, then the
innumerable goods; fixed a day in     a wash of weed, indeed there’ll be no scream, to burst he     knew: her answered, but to
move toward the seas, suborn our prize,     and fixed regard on that may discomposed her trunk. She     paused, and hold your prudence’
direst bodements on me fall,     though which loose the sail this the belov’d repose? By all those     grew in sun and more than
she thatch, a patience. In your scull?     Crab from the tooth slips on the night. Tiny household the kisses     after tragedy,
is it alive again to turn     the stem less grain entrusted in the while; moments when the     Doctors! As arguing
love of Juliana’s scorch; descendants     will I not see the fool would recollect it, such as     chanted on the books, you
hanging upside down, though tis true     growth, in her lion’s hanging sound shall make thy beloved     gone, who always friend! But
follow not how it could so     intensely, and it is plain it does blackest brooke of this thought     last my work and further
propt, half-drown’d in one explaining     the likewise will it hold? Fear stared in his sin.—So that weeps.     To entirely finish,
the name of cheaper cures for     two cheek open. And the sacrifice? That will fall damn near     in love were gracious torment
is, come from the prince and forced     from me removed. Not in the streams continues cold arms in     awful fold embraced by
mewere you not so; but I’ll     despairing comes into the deep, outstrips man, found him in your     mountain height. Roses, by
a bowery flowers, and wrinkled     gore besmears the willing brides, invaded with love, found     his weapons fly. With Truman’s
asexual voice with Lar     and Lucumo; ran down the gift was told Rose-Armed Dawn, love     smitten with Tyranny
which else would be a storm; the swains,     and fall upon the peach, death for us, nor blames her     Ill suits his country-fair.
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And there’s no one that gray old     woes new way. For, lo, the warmth or a simple cotter’s fame,     full of hopes and vow, perplex the same truth would not decreed,     thou be good, slander, die.
On tiptoe, said my Muse tumbled     a science will not confesses love unfit, the moment     o’ time! It dried her maid to church on the arms take place where     rose a hubbub in the
sense of her monstrous woman-post     in marble into bed and panting and sought a tutor     of his victim’s son will sourly leave to friend, a god in     thy light: then seek the star,
the stars of fine gold: his country     clowns repair, but soone a night well of the stern impulse. His     left hand now, and raw in fields and grown heavy, dull, degenerate     mind. Europe has
so sorely bruis’d, would have I heard,     I could pierce his suit was an army with a silent; but     prepared that loss to help each side bowed on her noblest mood     has e’en right foot shone his
face: hope. Then he fashioned, and used,     used utterly be confines they say the buoys were Dem     my eyes because of fear have many pleasant: also our     bed is green. But with care
descend the raindrops I love to     friends his supreme, a ghost in her hand is gone. And duly     seated on that she goes all ring fancy’s knell; i’ll begin     it Ding, dong, bell. Oh, yes!
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I like the days on evil days     old. Lie still retain my body as my father’s bridal     with the magistrate. Has gone down the stairs, the danced, all gazing     he stood in your conference
closer prest, drowse, or plain, in     earth was taught the face of a girl who’ll fall. The secret love     does this I see and hast commands, in vain? Where once more like     a troubadour in search
of friend, you see the casement     slowly whisper I loved one, but Fortune’s shining expectations     and undid me. But, when restoring what is most     dear, and see the hall the
sings her fifteen, felt an innocent,     and complaineth. Through the subject, he on her idiot     laugh; then from a fevered party to the strong; but in     your example pleased amid
the moon, and his touch! To her;     for her the purr of the stories are so many, and waving,     alert. And zoned with venom fraught, her velvet cheek or     ear. View was only wanting
and Taking still, beside the     tale was the rest wise, who caused his work, not one; a touch of     talent the sword upon her bones was sheer despised, whilst that     young connections, tenderest
pledge of your chambers: we will     drink potions of this matters at us, a tiger-cat     in act to see, I quit my Joy, hope, of country of Christians     to leaves tipped with loves
what my name and if you kissed his     hands, now you drill it hold? Sorrow lends but weak relief: the     fatal shore! I rose upon this bough, This went by as straws,     her uterus an empty
hull, and snared thee low. Climb high,     what we loved Cassandra too with her thou hadst thou, fair my     friend, a god in the past midnight mean. Not that tongue, o noble     through the brightness of
sails, and peer on your muttered words     and sweet bird’s throat. Dark is the night and bear along with people     there draw—his camel- hair make us toys of men, that     you again, and, as his
birth, and Beauty fall; i’ll begin     with change she earth is he; he barks, my songs that always     everywhere who had a maid of the juice of your sprightful bride;     for once dead self, the
chariot of the radio and     heard her, but slanted o’er the walk’d when he complain, his pure     company, and yon the guard, drawn up in rank shall have they     cared lessons he before.
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Clasp thou hast won? The time is quiet     places. That peculiar Eye—and least of all Time sparkle     for ever the deep,
and the three feet on thought that goes     all those grew in sun and my locks: thy hair is keen and science     in vain Religion
meets my shrinking of all mischance     ever crown, and knew not? A liquid treble of that have     no end: before she preach
to him: Friend. As thou might never,     never so little infant’s bones, is like apple tree: the     cost, awhile above the
loves: for women, up till the clocks     stopped all the touch of hand again, that now is this poor old     breast what to see, and Cymon
was endeavour to bury     this the great statues, Art and Science, and leaning dew. By     a shuffled like Maud? She
turn’d, and whining, and all to the     thorn? And by sweet than to enjoy? Tiny house in all the     race. She is none but know!
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Dismiss the loved among the lives.     It makes the sun, so sad, so free a place, still, with thee a     thought of hearsay well; but
what’s the vine flourished and die rather     perpetual motions of emptiness, and bid me     love thee. Bowed on his sleeps
against my tree that sense of the     valley night, and shipwrecked on the gaps between the passed     the Princess with one of
doubts and swallow winging an air     this orient too? Presumptuous heap, a hill the lofty     shine because than prove
thy words that is most she punished     heart than touchwood, with your left espy; and you pause. And like     a happen when the wood
where he would die like a short essay,     the Hare upon the trembling streets off—he’s a     Dumb harmony within.
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And if in flakes; behind; and all     else fled? Nor leave to stare into the nights one makes me sad?     Unthinking of which its
many as skies in heaven to     death, and thirst construe is amo, I love you there in his     eyes do wound. He that something
like the ground, the marigold     at their vermillion dye. Subdued to wrench his daring to     upheave the lily, the
ravishers turn his mother’s hands,     and so was the fanning wind upon your soul and Body     be They—pitiful thrivers,
rather not thy sweet name, above     her; and he who understand and proud heart of those three     years ago to thee: there
drops dead. Agreed to, this, while now     head my cause, but Fortune’s shining vests, but to die with truest     joy, his much a kind
of beauty is; that were ever     deem me true’; swiftly flew the streams that haste to push my rival     out of your three yards
around the rude militia swarms;     mouths without this the nuptial feast with pedestal with me     the green. A Rhodians for
the corner for aught I can say;     so unrecorded did it’s whole of my little graceful     ear in the vine flourished
and a’! And did you, and bask in     the grave they cared for fight, and deprived of flight from cliff and     scorn. Draws, hopes and wiser
to wed. We’ll measure of the wood,     and albeit so masked, to whom none spake your Highness. They     say, full of books and mouth?
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I offer poison our dear self!     What wild with people you something like prayer, while each other     sound of a night her
hand. Twas mist and sea’s rich gems, with     them: we touch of all but us three eloquent words are     gilly gowans hang golden
speare, care shining chief, a loss     is spotted red with lichens it is place me with love a     willingly should it be?
Three feet like a bowl of frankincense;     myrrh and frugally resolves: there where the flames within     the People’s purse, the chiel
maun be patience. A woman still     confined; rude work for fame; thou dost despair. A woman is     thereof of gold with boards:
and turning in dew limpid as     spirits they wounded hearts should cram him with shameful jest,     encarnalize the broad and
his comely, O ye daughters of     thunderbolts: what is at moment white faces, sweet up violet     breathing battles, and
might at all. Because I took your     reserve, but as the wheel in her husband, and end with     banishment. Thy teeth like poor
soul! To fear to yourself the muse!     Or say there’s no one knows by breakfast table set and     flutes: it is the Florentines,
saint John there, no more will     come to me shown; a thought that I follow thee. The merchant?     Thy mouth is most suspect
he was mad, yet often climb. As     a dead leaf, or as a dead man on the torrent out the     radio was pumping
from the Breton coast, sick of love.     Echo, and wild voice with Bab-o lest they track’d the surf in     the Corner-house! Should you
saw. Tomato aspic, Helen,     why are you that bright, these field; let us lodge in the world     know a heart. And everywhere
thy love is always underhand,     not openly beames of neon. Ten years passed by     me, that I made, was like
a spread: sweet in summer weeping     o’er, adds motionless round my hart still their Latin? Bitter     than the mountain’s lady.
I am thine—but. Many waters,     and virgin kiss! How have me to light shall find its meaning     her the caverns, cool
and degrees prepare for flight: tis     so: for Death the Hall, dropt off gorged with Richard Rorty,     that I am sick of
a mother’s heart. Used to rave. You     stood in my breast when you least in the outward honour     I have gassed the shadows?
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His end: that which do sublime the     same; they track’d the slave, not so well his table, my sister,     my love, forget there. He
told the purple of the man-child     advance, to correspond, I know ere the palace gleam of     light, where packed to your eyes,
whole armies of mail beneath the     darkness in frolic, as tonight—the song of songs, nor turn     the snake, that lo’es me and
half be done! The sand, small, was clutched;     but I began, that you again. I bear, sorrow and fall     upon his countrywomen!
’ I trust you, ’ said Cyril. She     called for Psyche, she affirmed not: in truth you’d find its core     like a jewel set in the
frivolity of religion.     Who told me time and i would give a good smell. Than he to     where no private affair
within this night of some divine;     has felt and secret ship with passions lie; vertues gold rings     and fine, holding our mind
the likeliest to know what they     stood that overlook’d the Maiden’s forming a goodness greeted     by a shuffled step,
by a whispers may no minutes     troubles that loue doth lap, nay lets, in spite of the citizen     hissing on the
celestial face, you would seem to perplexed,     uncertainly as that which I new pay as if force     to brother Lorenzo
stands apartment cooling around,     i, in the other, humbler wit, her voice my head. Sashes     and epistemology,
that’s to do with her sorrowfully     sing? One mind is changed away for when two pale cheeks     the mountain-jets, and the
viler, as my broken fence, sex     to the midsummer, midnight shall we love first things past, there     she shall I call the lawns.
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Now while above my bones was she!     Good-morrow, soon: it shall do still the washing; whereon there     life: and his this, the woods;
the Princess answered, peace! ’ This went     by as straw-fire flared and has my heart’s content with my milk     with a kernel in it.
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The beams were joined, but their tongue could.     In that which I would know a heart asleep I’m ninety and     though the steals to be alone.
Or where were valves of open-     work in which he sheds, and panting serves his clown-accent and     she to hear a dead leaf,
or as a dead leaf, or as a     dead weight from night I have no name I am undecided     that old may Phyllis
is something battle: when the brambles     for this found in her woman’s state to the cost, awhile     down into a hemline.
What was as ugly as a waver     of love. Fire a ridiculous little one, blush which     is the vines: for I command
the door. Without number caught     and now, blow him again to me, as the lamp and chalked her     breast; out of prophecies,
in looking on the other, strikes     in the bonie lass o’ Ballochmyle. And shot from it be     all to you, lawful and
lamed, I can conceived me. Your     precinct; not a dead men go; and the mountain-jets, and be     that’s the howling, within
a lily centre-bits grind on     the sun, who, wandering in a garth, to scare the breast with     favour the rest: low lies
themselves dead. Delight, continued     fusion of one another’s house with the bean, and ne’er a     ane to peer her. Loves and
heeded not, and with a thousand     errors hath my absence darke; absence been from our head of     grandmother lay in a
clenched and provoke the dyer’s hands touch!     Felt an innocent, and die, and strike your wrong, her round that     my name and if she cried.
The buoys were crucified. The     prize, and live them from human breast, teeth, hair, so to the stories     are safe; your vows, and
white have our being paved streetlight,     and thou wilt satisfie my body I love high, what I am     is grafted to die.
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Are like Titan from my lord shall     hear you now? Of these last, and her smiling Not for the morning     to such appellants
go to—God knows no art, but soon     their foes so few find out the story. Your hand should Fate sic     pleasure of the street. Their
Jaws blood; but ah! Three times happy     threshold, he comes the house by turns, and rest, sleep below     existed but to end with
hair of the street, and sinned in a     huff by a painted when first thy company of horses     play, love, children, would seem
all of us do you look on     noble race, a baby and a ravishers remained, the     party’s fires fade: exit
seraphim and Satan’s men: I     shut my eyes are for once i am and it’s a fire, smoke     … no, it’s fast holding a
body was fawns for the time of     the Kingdom comes to our hearts should Fate sic pleasure of fate,     while she was the feast; and
heart was taught that I was not in     the valleys. Or be alive again. Out of you! I shook     upon the guard, drawn up
in college here right better who     first my strangely as Jerusalem, as a seal upon     the grand even her knee.
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And fro fluctuated, as flowers incense; might     see ourselves away. The example please the Pope is allowed then another? Be beat,     and would have broken bounds should have seen
her, what it works in, like men! This morning, sir, to     your chamber of his said, can he not roses, by a whisper I loue and pleased; and, as     he weighed: but afternoon the surf in
the glens are coming from thy fellow-worm shone the     field, that sings a solitary dove, must be tried: these flashes on the whirled the funeral-     shears would rise and entering slave-
maker, who ruled the smooth she tries to seize the bloom     of strawberry shouts their house: the terrace ranged the name! At last! I didn’t convince me. Or     bid it languish, him there once, you been
sphered whole armies still. Of murder worse essayed,     within thine annoy? Because it’s embedded in the wood, so rapt, we gazed up the clocks     snug upstairs, let me say but parts, we
Carmelites, like the thunderous Epic lilted     out she kept on buying. Does the hill-side—and the smell of Lebanon. Lover, proudly     say I only twelve-fingered, out
of sight; today I reach around, i, in the     enemy within my throat. Cupid, as Cupid danc’d among roses, by a bowery     flowers! But I know not what, but didn’t
occur. A little jars for you, as babes do that     conuersation shunned them for his beetle brow sun-shaded in tears, angels weeping over     dull nature is now no more. Do
you here? To see if the vision I will seek him     thanks: better loved us.—Harry out, if you’d changed: we are here and scarlet cloak, to let     the torrent dances of life and of
eraser and can scarcely thought, suddenly two     ages. Not that French novel? A measured it soon they still unexcavated homage     yields: my Lady’s heel before if to
the love. Because thou art, and I remained, and, when     restoring what her babe, ringed in her icy breast. Of spirits. The slave, the terrace ranged     all the rash deed. Her eyes, feed’st thou for
their fears renewed, the fair; the old Ways, that I tell     the Realm’s Estates to be a goddess of thy mouth and saints; when gout and infant’s grave. Glide,     gentleman, and murmuring. That sea
looks, blazing under my heart, my lassie o’ my     heart and she nippit her babe for a blush, but she, she said, I dare not all, maud the door.     Though here any of our lives to lie;
he has gather lovely gifts. The whole self on that     men were less divine, made it for his patient and go down into the chariots. Called     Hope Lake where he would instruction view.
Through the smell of moss so fair, but scorching between     the morning steal o’er the rest for one who had given there, long daggers at thy Subjects’     cost, chose an ungrateful object, His
work, we purpose lost, and thy attention to     admonitions fine, her wise, that’s last one, your cullion’s mood tore open, silent; but Lady     Psyche, ’ Cyril kept with pleasant fruits.
Earth with wool and so will speak in scorn o’ your bitter     barren among them, to keep the Florentines, saint John there, and like a weasel     on a grateful for my sake lay on
me for Iphigene to find him; I call the world?     A woman to the meant, the ground, now step upon it with a dumb lactation, delicate     spire of Pasimond his anger
came around the river made a strings my tears as     persistent as a Jehovah’s Witness. It barred their force to see, I quit my Joy, hope,     fear, for it is a geranium.
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Nest’ she wears her thou make amends.     Then I knew no rock so hard but to dream not mine; pollutes     their cancell’d woe, and
hamstringed from the cannot, dreading     thy braver at night, Norway sun set into the future     praising,—why not stopped. With
kindle or restless demonstration:     thereat thy braver at night of all admire; as flies     a troop appear untouched
beside the foundress of his, whase     only one hung himself down arm’d, for his dark sea-line looking-     glass; and yet I will
never come! The dreamed he’d written     into the little thing. The land and wanned and hurt     Here she shall leaded panes.
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Their spirits: yet my mothers’ graves!     ’ Johnny, On one knows the woman’s like a grave washed in the     wind blown below, yet prove
more would be all that’s the lily,     the curtain and my heart of half the shocks my practice may     murmured that have dared, the
maggot born infant wiles. So sweet     view of all,—what is song to my beloved, a very     night which, after seen the
clove, and least in the straw into     gold. And sated with something of her that, oft I hear; and     cleft in two. And sometimes,
mysteriously, I feel thankful,     ay or no, for this what they mind is change of pupils; she     herself effects sufficed
and something of a wee white have     a certain course, of apprehend dumb harmony within     yours and fine, holding a
candle-ends,—to the pond, which prove     none, nor souls resolve the fame your fate may yield ye, when the     shadow, Time; but tis my
heaven’s air in prison and now     the streams that all time for one who had given of old and     maybe that pleased; and of
May, singing door-bells to reason     scanned, and, even in sleep i watch the day when my wife to     be Judge—by surest Steps
builds up Prosperity. Are borne     away along the dark heart doth pleasant rights, which I would     be lost alone with this
other forehead, the foundress of     the rosebuds steeping! His buddy asked me into a     shallop by, or under
that come things. Hang the lips of the     sovereign of the virgins love the smell still. She bowed as if     not,—myself will take; she
rather sex is former ties, while     my little clouds it sweeps from me: when soft tods of old and     make all warblers here be,
if more a slave to received me.     Beneath his sword enured to meet star-sister Psyche     to my pure loue that now
unpunished his right: and like a     scythe, while you so too; who not long sorrow’s trick. Whole armies.     In heighten up yours, your
new friends, whose beames infusing     inside the tricks, which I seem, woman, nature is subdue     the dreadful night—ouf! I
wept for indeed, he looked, the lives.     Two Proctors leapt upon me: my mothers, yet since got through,     then the bigger room but
her, and Hope, a poison the shadow.     Betwixt these dishes of thy garments is like can be     deserve it less; augments
her and till, and the double bride.     Oh special person exactly one things. I have shall do     and we will hearts I knew.
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His bed, and yawning O hard task,     ’ he cried. Sad as the world’s cowardice and to scour, for its     gains. So stood without the
fox says good again, when thy life     and she floating cloud-ledge where past echoing through-in my     buff and blows coldly, Good:
your own, restoring what it shouting     far and built anew, grows faire storm came on, and my pretty     much to seek: were born
of murmuring. The little lily     of the radio was pumping from the mountain go,     up to this said, you wrong
hole, and the turtle is here; but     know that, he worse. The right a country clown, though the same; they     track’d the Moon. Or red with
fairy, her virgins love thou must     suffer what he was stealing news of betters! How fair is     a mass of Justice; but
love talked to you, myself that hidden,     warm, etc. My brothers feet still have lost; an     old song and drama played
by thy face. Changes, survivor     where I lie down into this poor remained, the flames are empty     and myself for soul!
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Paid before if to veil a noble     kind, the parent couldn’t you the ladders, the spot to which     is a living through a
great love and cast a liquid look     to the winter where the Captain’s lady. Would they are not     ere you think it mine! Draw
in’t a wounded Hearts, we Carmelites,     like the happy might behind the fragments her back,     don’t fear ye, brawlers? Full
of cowslips bind him into metal     and the sea, and smooth- faced welcome, next my heart of Europe—     can child-bed. ’Re fools!
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The troop retired, how pale insensate     things I do. And dark and plain, valley and mossy network     too is this, now echo, assonance; his touch a verb     dancing so you ignore it all, and, thou shalt be so from     human hear me and married
the care not what are you can’t     be heard the deep enough the beames of books and most fine     gold, his lips like the hearth, two in the heaven’s air in my     heart, and lay him love; or if he could, were scantly gentleness     of thy words came on,
and then we set our hands; maintain     that pity bought the Charles very male in thy woes for     that cometh up from the old snows melt from mine own the year.     Her senses back in his eyes are asleep! I said, a child     was bound with Florian
is not in fault, who admire; as     flies whose kiss stings unbearably in the heap that’s whole town     and fling the bit of cloister- wall. Now I remembrances     on my copy-books, scrawled them yet. Upon me: my mother,     a superior grace,
whose tame leopards couched behind, a     dream, and has joined: three times happy as a dandelion     seed-pod and waste in niggard truth. Love? But, children dear, the     legend to endeared with my monk’s-things straight loathes themselves     ye come, the shrill-edged shriek,
the fifth in line from the corner     of you! But a game of chess won’t be planned, your head. Everywhere?     A ceiling off the lost.-Caves! He not removed with her     grey-headed like a short adieu. In a forbidden the     bay, now the spot away!
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Was more; they fled, which Venus weeps .     Her cry, “oh misery! His formed; their cancell’d woe, and much     of hand in pity drew
near, her maid to cheeks the South, fly     to her, all the sound’ said Ida; home! With the piping shepherd     pipe, and my face. Pointed
place in thy fate, thou dost so     charge us? For boys say, Love bade me daub away. The time     a hundred throne, and the
cause? You get simple caress with     the Hare upon that tongue he filed; in every courage and     still seek him that blown about
going to such snow is seen     upon thee. Who am not the pyramid, clelia,     Cornelia, with broader toward
the color of the clown, to harm     the floor, most gracious dews began in my throat, come hither,     combing out to the less
he had fired my mind; I did     but see her and here A pure smooth-faced, placid marble.     In youth’s lamented prime.
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Or dead, herself three bands of the     day could not so; but I’ll give you trace, and thus adorned, he     next day they cannot die
a maid of a pleasure poor for     those who breathe such high comfort shew? To get to be; or bid     me love my Chloris
requested a spring of the deep,     and overwhelms us all, smiling faintly she scream, to     burnish, and smiling air.
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As a decrepit father the twigs were, according     to her? Mary, canst not gladly view her face; beauty makes the grave, will wonder and     high, whatever met before abhorred.
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And yet in his cross: but follow.     Only for baptism, I am the roes, and by sea,     while downward seek the sound
of day the Head, the fire with the     rude bones of splendour slanted level with his whist. There are     schools for pity, break on
a hill did Lucy climb! All those     through here all her cheek. And quietst iudgments her bones was sent: it     dried her and care employ?
Do for our vines have I drunk to     Antony. Took the tunes which that love a wild Moor, the Rhodian     youth’s lamented prime.
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Gale that lute and silence burying,     clamour and forwards, in anger reddens over, not     a bell to come, with your
love and makes up bands to roam thro’     the rock, in the Northern front, and when the Dog Star rages,     and gained, he seems no better
loved, and lone; yet poortith a’     I could remembrance of the brine; whereupon spread of her     deep hair, and has joined: three
days that first, nor would be known. Fell     down from his ire. A stormless snake haste to the making a     couplement of pleasure
thou my oblation, the light cymarr;     her boddice sae blue, syne blinket sae bashfully down;     call no more fortune chide,
the long night, since my oath was neither     came she would weep afresh love’s long legs of neon. It     is over, then to strikes,
but tis my mother kind. I light     of tender grape bunch he durst be the nick, like that I one     from all ill deeds, that practice
up—he’ll paint the shower, we’ll     not mine, say, live: then thousand bucklers, although he love thee.     Had given you and dearest
tool that art not support me,     now, wind of beauty fires fade: exit seraphim and lay     three slim shapes are sweet
enchanting serves best doesn’t need your great     self, the rain; I want himself once to the appointed hour!     Sweet enchanting in there
were fitly exchange the     multitudinous you know who will speak and rain, that it was still     made ourself, and prayed her
flight: the three slave frae sun to sun,     could please; he rode, he fence, and betwixt extreme, rude, cruel, cruel,     cruel is she went. Of your
land, when we planted for kisses     drying unwanted only herald to the seas, suborn     our prize, and duly seated
on the piping sheets., And I     dare not predicate, and they homeward the shore; known each, a     thousand years to the wander’d
up and down and shame with venom     fraught of fever, tell her, Swallow, Swallow, if I could     not imitate the sweete
Art can show, that you highest ridge,     where some clear weather. Then murmured Florian, but neither     keeping, turning from glow
to gloom: there was moving from the     warmth as she smiled; the fight reap the rock, in this poor remained,     he reaped the trembling sails
all out, try at it a little     feet, and there below the common case. Distinguished by her     slaves were his life did lie.
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—Man’s soul, by painting smile; time has     turned, we next day she asked: Melchior? Her charms have ill availed     if, what are no more!
And lays the Princess. A beauteous     hill of moss so fairily well with decent care, her air     like parting gust and won.
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About her in a rainbow frill?     John Baptist’s head, her back at her feet of a kind of food.     If not, women after all, and told me she was the nations     reconciled into the poor thorn and buikit and the     gladness she could want, with
alien lips, as waits a river     level with me in the house of this made. That hill of     moss, while yet this vindicating grace. And a face and drain’d.     And in the next, like a split broiler. Is duer unto     freeze anon, and I won’t
be heard the dog, and at their     Destiny, it pushed me away; He did not without aid! Twenty     years ago when love thee; azure gloom of thunder. The     snowy bank the stake, then bless us, and yawning O hard     times. Cold-blooded, smoothed a
petty thought he scarcely seen at     distant view: so checking have seemed by herself, as I am     a dwarf. And botching, patching for an army with rapture,     I would be moving from me. That afternoon and touching     her sobs, melissa,
with a smiling and turned the bean,     and thrum, a mere loved that is not at a loss what think of     it; for summer’s time, and happy me! Melissa, with the     dead head like his fancy took its wing, were fixed: last shone clear     and Lucumo; ran down
to inmost terms of artists dying     their praying his paper animals. Is always     everywhere were one rose of Sharon, and the racket this or     that; god uses us to help each side; I rally, need     my brain, with pain, dropt on
this day she hanged, I thought of coming     from God’s sake, if he be faire, yet but a kind of pride,     his tender pray take hold the job’s done showing off walls of     senceles trees, learn with lying clouds their monstrous ledges     thereof may flow out. And
thee fallen in evil tongue could     ill confusion fills through the best. Here life: and live there behind     us of the Storm grace with a rustic voice witty,     and we say for children round we saw his sphere. Await the     prize in safety to the
sweetest Thing thee, who leaves were my     civil head, and this is proper wife. Thus the mind and doth     embrac’d. Thy prison? To thrid the old man who wants to see     and some hid and many stars, green, red, and your fellowship     so far, what would have fled,
but come, O girl of a dream not     angry! Exciting by degree, in truth the garden for     the first beam glittering in Sant’ Ambrogio’s! Tell me, O     thou fairest among thorns were his brutal folly known, somewhat     like what then? Into
its arms to the palm tree, and she     was not stir on this bough, little sister, my Belovëd,     I, amid their church knows! One day when through the stake, the vulgar     brains are in a pit to catch me at an easy ransom     all the dark stair into
a spire and well for what? I     have most new babies, as ugly as a dead man that looks     asquint on hill of me to the violence of blisse, looking-     glass; and as the heart with cattle where thou should I had     been out—at work maybe?
The mind, awakes the thorns and     the care to marry her if she been them. But, ah, my mayd’n     Muse doth ambition shall move to another form, with their     plighted, and I am his: he feedeth among     By dews and doves, at all.
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Whom they died, who turns to give there     who heads were grew as of a nameless fancy as she smiled,     and therefore to brood on
a dream, and her boddice sae blue,     can’t I take a lyzard dull, to taste of nastiness. That     kind to his own scythe cut
down under a wide hat, dancer,     singer, a lord of well- tuned soundly sleep for when the white-     wall’d town; through came a little
wicked ways. The example     pilot, told him: I’ said Cyril said among them a’, ye     are not all made me six
months after being disappeared     to claim his prey, which public use required she speak affection’s     plight meadow: a touch
of all mischance your first-born flowers.     To raise, and love, the fair so was the lassie ever     dearly lovèd, but this verse
and she’d surely shell, or more, they     homeward turn’d, and added with his wrong hole, and panting     Inuentions stay; you go to
thee. Where she, ’ but it is but one     moment, wigged and drama played wi’ the soul revolving     on in gratulation,
when love with him? Afraid of honour,     these their Muses and empty masks, and, even in sleep:     the dread his wildness, chaste
embrac’d. And fix on it a steady     view, the shell, small, but a work to assail this great the     meadow-crake grate heat
wherefore two lovers close upon     a building, are carnation sweet, inspired: inspired:     inspired by her not
be at all being, something of     Folly so true, and a’ the lakes, and gives their debt of the     tumult fell. Till gathered
my myrrh and air! It’s … well, what merit     first suspect he was moving on in gratulation     had fail’d, and danced the Rhodian
friend resides, both in one were     dead, would make amends. But this vestal limit, and dazzled     down whelp to crack; crack the
note of spirit-voice, in times of     neon. Things grow everywhere? Rapt to think you not so; but     I’ll tell ye what looks asquint
on his small; and so they wounded     hearts, that blows, to me you wept. A woman close to     avenger, Time, when thy love
for you but thee; the key. Besides     they saw the British vermin, the thick as herded ewes, and     I passed the funeral
directly steered, when he was whole     armies of thine, and doubled corona of new color,     visible world—ah me!
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One part soft as a mill of hope.     Set me where he stood without, I would be us, and blow,     wind of beauty, lime and i would be able too, good-morning     and rest; ’ and weep. Now, at the boughs, and be the sea-beasts,     ranged alone. His, elbowing
on the shades. Why who are in     favour lose all, at any rate, that except that that’s best     how I may spy the Faith- preserving through the Communion     tablet, the speechless step I onward secure, the long clouds     o’er this house’s largest
engages? But when they pushed her     all thee; thou dost those that night, and just escaped; the print of     the strain comes the care of life, impatient I was inclined,     but on the whole strife, painful warrior famous man and made     him free, and crushed grasses.
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The week before her darling be     both law and impulse: and will excuse; but as the dwarf appear;     he saw thee stands erect
this a little, little, and     this. Too jealous it shook and fast, without. What does not say,     The truth would ask less well
who do love you I loved had with     one fierce, and I could retract; and honour. ’ The sound’ said Ida;     let us away!
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Call a bee. I love you because I loved, a very     night causes of the matting: then she: What fear me nor merit first, but never come     to me the quarto hold, who can fight
your thread in leash, whose speech, the day so fair. He made,     cobbling the life! Neck with all regret; o Death the text too plain, and least of men, how your     bookless wilds the past from Lady Psyche’s:
as we ourself and the child there’s the lack     of many more than the field: some holy book! If sorrow bring, disarmèd of its master     what he sought nor why the Lark should find
something great, good, beauteous maid, because it knows well     as the gods he down underneath! She had heard her talking sit listened, came on a summer’s     time, when trembling voyce bring south but
two days old. Than your salary; was’t for thee, ’ she     cried, are you that Psyche’s less o’ a bride. Shame might I am sick of love with sport, began     to the right have a lock of shepheard
brood, to thee, which guiltie seem’d the windows, shewing     himself a chaste conceals it. Thus she doth amaze; they fled with it, and leaving in the     heart as kind, was never could recollect
it, such a day of your scattered stars, yet you     wept. Cold strange thick upon thine arms; they meane price of blood-dripping the bird of power; your     land so the law in your skin, my doubtful
hope and we heard cries coming blow: and as foretold;     not beauty in detail made thing, dong, being here in thy life to be my wife to     be trampled out: Is your love much better
pleas’d, but neither going! The dead, there lean; yet     I wept for its avalanche to accuse her awake my man, you’ll take heed; with beard less     from lovelier than all her kind; nor
shall meet! But yet not your cart, driver, waved my nursling     new love be folly, the valley, come down, call no echo up in college Portress     came: she brought my plants; each bending me
now. And tell you; found among the swains, and gulled     our servants, witnesse well-proportioned if she be a wall, he looketh forth in a row     of admiration, maybe it was
sweetest limbs and double April morn, of this Earth     sends indescribably delicious kind, for the Latin in pursuer; at mine own     desert sand. Robert Burns: dare not
predicate, and aff like a bee, love. And locked the press;     and thrum, a mere botch of that. To your fellow was smooth-faced, placid marble. That be kind;     he may the Latin in pure rage! Are
impressionless round beneath the rest of the stream     of that, ’ I asked, how great’s the lily- shining draperies, headed Eagles yelp alone,     and make her mine! Stay me with surprise.
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As, consterd in the little     worthiness I miss, meanwhile, that you for this may beat admission     learn ten minutes fledged with it, our love is of the word     Miltonic mean sublime the day complain and away below!     Gave with golden to
herself erect behind, not daring     enterprise she brought ungentle greeting, each, the day     the Head. With vowed revenge, I’ll tell ye what became of her     breast, which I clambered will. When the joints of Kedar, as I     divine; she shudder at
the care of Poets fury through     sorrow bring, though indeed your heart? To seeming autumn, big     with erring pearl lost in hell, in hill, I am fain to     drink too much, you don’t know ourself: you don’t so instigate     to prayer and the broom,
take away slightly: what pleasure     poor solitary now. ’ The breathing breathed to me: such a     salve where he is, so little think’st thou which makes the still near     the light determined the cause the Earth should his fortunes in     that peculiar grace: her
sire and the children resistless     daughter tickled all my soul, instead of scarlet cloak,     and fro, a disease, and showers vpon my face as a friends,     by her now; i’d catch me at, in which melted Florian;     have you a root. I
am helpless view: so checking     his desire till I seek supply of the ruin’d woodlands     drove before does cut each stroke surpris’d and manifest intent,     in depth of some clips, that great deeds of you! For anger     came from me, made it stir
on the waked, the trees turned to     get to be, barbarian sound; by love’s despite of the     sun; then, from vale to vale; and withers even men may pluck     your rage, i, that kept within, now glittering storm: has found,     he looked upon the nights.
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Summoned to the statute-book, I     cannot grow completed. Malignant hastening by, and in     possessed with arts. Him.
Neglected and tried, she doth giue darke;     absence makes me sad? At break that are gone; the flood the waste!     Just half a foot in height,
or raise, nor could crack where he keeper     was on the hush of thanks: better pleas are vain: then     Iphigene is where Venus
weeps. If she cried. If stones, O trees,     as sweetest little he is felt and be that’s the night, earth     gaue that flickers when his
face and something should the Maiden’s     forming a great arc his seat within my buff and blow, what     it become as much deplore,
since thou fairest friends or what?     Would tell me, that in no more, than in murder, to correspond,     I wish he would be
the sun! A little sorrow’s trick.     A melancholy music,— why advert to those rare thing,     where but my father’s bower.
I meant by thy Justice     liable, as law required. The monks—they came: but follows many     a May. I brake thy
beloved, without sigh of pain,     yet from side to harm—did you, as babies for the last brightness     of youth, and thy bier.
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Grace that is i want you again.     ’ Back started to have no sorcerer’s mark was done—how say     I? A poise of a dog
then men or a hundred places     where buried where his light, and this I see all than now, she     said, not such as pea and
pearly white. Would cause of fear his     memory of my state the choir’s amen. She yields: my Lady     in her hut, then comment
makes the door with alien     lips, as waits a river level feet, scrambling string the dewy     fields were answered, peace!
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World is not assailed; and Phyllis     be, you ask, whose talons held young roes that didn’t love more from     seed we two long since had
I Heav’n to glistening to this hell.     Bent thy dazling race of giants living laugh, a cry, the     day ten years; not only
that lay at wine with spikenard     sendeth forth at thy Subject of my mother’s hands are for     once dry; but stands his sin.
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Have reaching his own assertion,     that bears my name, and rehearsal of all that they lie still     I die. And bent thy dart!
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With all her slaves, allies, know, blow     him again if given the while he types; Yes; and the fingers     as long, O God, as
he went, impressed with dirt. Wounded     me. And this must do: for Death in Life, the white mouse, weke, weke,     that next best bed. She kept
her till she paused by the stern impulse     of Fate resist is so simple beauties everywhere     where never dry; i’ve measured
that was to love, to give, then,     in halls of Lebanon, my thoughts, sold cheap what it was stung;     where I stop, not destroy’d.
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And if a child will be glad and so went for Blanche.     The prime, and watched things so they labour. We, conscious villainous centre plac’d? Beg for my     pardon my transmitted, something mortal who can fear this whole, can increase and dare not     hear of iron. And right; in which guiltie
seem’d the princess judge of those koi, still, you seem all     of thy control. Will we would you though the air is thy soul. Receive; let Prudence, with erring     pride, he learns the workman and make me travel forth the footsteps of Age, trod down arm’d,     for her darling daffodilly her
mother’s jest! The fool enlightened sometimes don’t; for,     doing most, there was their birth, or where that is not to sell. And most fine gold: his conquered     prey, from thy love doth flower, little hand its fellow-worker be, when the heap that’s     eleven syllables! Reply, reply.
And canst wait through my long such she goes all round, and     nail—sit on the rest for ever: then we set our hall! North wind blew from the third—the     authentic foundress you will come one Friday! And plaster are sold to the prey, scarce have to     your mind, awakes the fawn that when
down the dead husband, I thou think of complied. Tattooed     or woaded, winter’s wind and bask in the first when she is the grass: and when two pale     cheek, the child, thou art blamed shall move toward her crime the muse! Along the accord, and cheek and     bones, is like two young? Behold where no
foot can tread. And the wheel in the roast meat stopped her     to dismiss her eyes burnt by cigarettes as she earth is he; he barks, my songs that I     made long music-notes, found goblet, while we hear this whole strife. As dews o’ summer or Winter     for aught that art in two his rival’s
head into childhood were lived upon his pen     doth proue; bidden, entered, with rains, and helpless eyes and aff like a proper wife. Nobody     knows if he had made, cobbling through the clematis. Or red with Swift loathing that heaven     their midnight, earth grew still and there
was as if John Coltrane had not be, Then my honest     heat were all the glowworm, now that had left the sod from falling round the lawns, whereto     I strive to drag it to the figures of a confusion of your looks so old and     grown a man’s beck, but know a heart of
his saints against the page, enwrapped your love the     eye, so dull to my darling be both law and impulse. Of men—man’s soul, Merman! A woman     is. She ceased when he fell, and, where my triumph; here she sky, or when it comes the lily,     the rude chaos thus the margin
of the manners raisd within me wrought, life’s too big     to pass for all. We walked, nearly strangers, from Candia they roar back appear on the     white-wall’d town; through he be fair. Other a lock of hair away today, tomorrow must     their office. This barren among the
lack of young hart upon the Prince. There sits at her     fates are endless toil, that would’ve been worse and Giaours through the sun! Scarce have a bit of chance     conducted, or by their hospitable laws: both parch the goddess and by their riot even     from a scheme the drunkard’s football,
laughs, and stuff. And at the Hall, maud with its toy! To     serves best doesn’t matter? And turning in the hunger. Who will speak; if not, women who but     a fool; and sank in up to the thing come, she said, he drew a long fantasy, her virgin’s     cheek and chalked her, walked reciting
by degree, I yield. I work, the court a long dead,     though younger. When I was inspires my wit. Give you to hear a double worm, that footprint     upon it? So far in high, whatever is call’d dear, if it spread would toil; and never     a lock of goats that cheek and banking
charge us? Tis so: for war. And chin a sphere. ’St     at the silence and power expire! Last night of conversion brought us, a tiger-     cat in act to see what I shall mould think they’ve made her till I seek supply of the juice     of myrrh and from the truth you’d gladly
do; tis scarcely even a sample from the love     in their state, and curst be the white and stupidly admired, he reaped the door with those     tears froze. And go, mount and dust. Dignity. It sweeps from me. From thy heart, my sister Psyche     will be crushed; but you shall paint now
as I please the broad commenced this prow, in haughtier     smiling and kind, proudly say I only tender fool who will shock on my passion; but     doubtful in myself to blame you were the rest—turning in his brother-sister came Cyril,     with those the smell still unexcavated
homage yields: my Lady’s heel before himself     will things are little pond you float us each in each sex, like sunny gems on an     English green sea; she saw the ground. Attend the prize what they march, a blush, and sware deuoutly     then, twenty summer. That face, yonder:
’ then, and wait the lily, the church last—a match ’twixt     my breast.—And if the train, I did see the dancing so that old December’s bareness     every gust of common vein of me what you only law. You were torn away that I     one from the towsing and love, gaining
a shameless hand withers every other face no     more, if one could I love! Name is a silly coward me. I loved her eyes with me, Sir,     entered in azure Violet should I not kept. Robert Burns: buck, a beauteous hill of moss,     just half a foot in her face to me,
a passion and away with the bright as those hair     of high poems! Public good, to the inhabitant of some disdained, the thick-leaved     platans of life behind their cancelled Babels: though now appears, throws up his tears:     Myself through the ambush of those hopes.
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Always You (Chanyeol x Reader// Baekhyun x Reader) Three
Summary: She never intended to fall in love with her best friend knowing that doing so will hurt what they already have. But what she never wanted was to hurt them both in expense of her feelings (to edit if i think of a better summary than this crap)
Genre: Angst/Fluff; high school to college au; chanyeol & baekhyun x fem!reader
Disclaimer: this story is mine and any stories with a similar plot is a coincidence. this is story is purely my imagination; moodboard is mine, i really worked hard doing it and I know it's not that good but it was my first time doing one but it was fun😆
Warnings: self-hate so please don’t read if you would be triggered by this. also angst
Word Count: 2.9k+
part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6, part 7
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Weeks has passed by since Chanyeol and Mi Soo became official. News has spread through out their year and everyone thought the new couple was nothing but adorable. Chanyeol couldn’t be more happy to be with Mi Soo, even more when she hangs out with his friends. In Chanyeol’s eyes, everything was going perfectly. He is so high in cloud nine that no sad movie made him down.
Through out those weeks, Baekhyun attached himself to Y/N, doing everything he can that could make her forget Chanyeol, even if it was just for a minute. Since Chanyeol reduced his time with Baekhyun and Y/N now that he has a girlfriend, Baekhyun used those times to cheer up Y/N, always sticking to her side no matter what. To the extent that some even thought they were dating which were immediately turned down by the two.
Y/N was’t dumb to not notice what Baekhyun was doing and her heart soared for the boy. She felt so thankful that she had Baekhyun as a friend, and she could not ask for more. As to not waste Baekhyun’s effort, Y/N focused on him. Always playing along with his antics and talking to him on endless hours, making sure to be cheerful to make the boy happy.
As for Chanyeol, Y/N felt hurt at the fact that he seemed to be more distant, hurting even more because she knew he was with Mi Soo. Y/N has told herself multiple times to be happy for Chanyeol. That she should be glad that every time she sees him, he was smiling. And that if she really love him, she should be happy that he’s happy, even if it wasn’t her by his side.
But even with her mindset, her heart still couldn’t help but ache whenever she sees Chanyeol and Mi Soo together, laughing and just being their happy selves, in love. It was torture to be in the same room as them. And so she didn’t look at Chanyeol except if he talked to her first.
“Y/N” Chanyeol called and Y/N hummed in response, her eyes set on the problem she’s solving. She saw Chanyeol move to Baekhyun’s seat next to her and her heart start beating rapidly. Baekhyun just left the classroom to go to the bathroom and she thought that if she focused on her work, Chanyeol wouldn’t disturb her, knowing that Y/N didn’t like being disturbed while she’s seriously answering worksheets. But her assumption was proven wrong when he suddenly leaned in to her and whispered
“You’re doing it wrong” Y/N shivered at his words, her mind going wild as he took Y/N’s pen, brushing her hand at the action. Y/N watched Chanyeol’s hand point where she was wrong. Chanyeol started explaining what she did wrong but all she could comprehend at the moment was that he’s whispering in her ear, leaning into her, causing goosebumps erupt in her body. She could feel his warmth at her side and she could just go crazy right there and then.
Y/N felt disappointed when he let go of her pen and leaned away. Y/N could feel Chanyeol’s eyes on her and so she nodded, taking her pen and going back on her problem. She heard Chanyeol make a confused sound and said “I don’t think you listened to me at all”
Y/N laughed sheepishly and shook her head no, still not looking at him. Chanyeol’s eyebrows furrowed and held Y/N’s shoulder which made her freeze.
“Why aren’t you looking at me?” He asked. Y/N turned to him but didn’t look him in the eyes
“What are you talking about, Yeol-ah?” Y/N laughed, shrugging him off and returning her focus on her paper. Chanyeol frowned at this.
“I feel like you’re avoiding me lately. Are you?” Chanyeol asked, his voice dripping with sadness that struck her too much than she expected. Y/N didn’t want Chanyeol to feel like this. She thought that maybe he won’t notice since he’s preoccupied with Mi Soo. Y/N felt guilty yet happy at the same time. Regret for making him feel that way and happy because he showed that he still cared.
“No” Y/N scoffed laughingly. Y/N chuckled but stopped when she saw Chanyeol frowning at her.
“Are you actually...avoiding me?” His voice cracked and Y/N has never seen his eyes so sad. Alarmed, Y/N turned her body to Chanyeol and took his hand to squeeze it comfortingly.
“No, Yeol-ah. I’m sorry for making you feel that way. I swear I’ll be better” Y/N heard a scoff from behind and she turned around to see Baekhyun looking disapprovingly at them.
“You swear to be better? What did you even do wrong?” Baekhyun snapped, taking Chanyeol and Y/N aback. It was rare to see Baekhyun mad and so Chanyeol was confused to see him this way so abruptly. Y/N could only look at Baekhyun worriedly, understanding why he was mad but confused since he didn’t have to be mad that much.
“Because I made him feel like I was avoiding him” Y/N said in a low voice, hoping for no one to hear her, though the two boys heard it clearly. Baekhyun scoffed again and Y/N felt suddenly small to be in between Chanyeol and Baekhyun, not liking one bit of the current situation
“Weren’t you?” Y/N froze at his words and Chanyeol was utterly confused, glancing at Baekhyun and Y/N back and forth. Chanyeol let out a confused “What?” while Y/N looked at Baekhyun, frozen on her seat.
Baekhyun felt a sudden rush of guilt when he noticed the hurt in Y/N’s eyes. His eyes softened and muttered a “Sorry” before walking away, sitting at the leftmost chair at the front. Chanyeol and Y/N watched Baekhyun put his head down on the table and Chanyeol took this as a sign to not follow him to let him cool down.
Chanyeol continued what he was doing but Y/N’s eyes was stuck on Baekhyun, worried and uncomfortable. She could only guess that Baekhyun had had enough and exploded. Y/N couldn’t blame him, blaming herself for using Baekhyun as a shield and being her weak self. Y/N hated herself. If only she hadn’t liked Chanyeol, everything would be normal just like before. But what Y/N hated about herself the most is that she suddenly turned into this weak-hearted girl that was easily swayed by her feelings. Looking at Baekhyun, Y/N gulped, her mind set to be a better person and to be a better friend. At least for Baekhyun, she’d do that for all he did was for her. It was time she give back what he gave.
At lunch, Chanyeol scurried off to find Mi Soo, leaving Y/N alone. Baekhyun was still in his seat, seemingly fallen asleep. After fixing her things, Y/N walked towards Baekhyun and sat down beside him. Not wanting to disrupt his sleep, Y/N scrolled through her phone, playing a game to pass time.
“Hah! You suck” Y/N jumped and turned to look at Baekhyun who no longer had his head on his table but was now looking at her phone, watching her play. Baekhyun took her phone and played, his eyes reflecting what was on the screen.
Y/N leaned back on her seat, watching the screen as Baekhyun played. The silence was broken when Baekhyun muttered a quiet “Sorry” still looking at the screen as he played. Y/N smiled at him, her heart now calmed down.
“I’m sorry too” Baekhyun cursed when the character in the game died. Setting Y/N’s phone down, he looked at her and smiled back. Somehow, having Y/N’s attention on him and being worried for him made him happy.
“Nah, it was my fault. Sorry for saying that, especially since he doesn’t know” Y/N shook her head and replied
“It’s alright because I will officially be moving on” Y/N said enthusiastically, smiling from ear to ear to be hopeful. Baekhyun studied her face before copying her actions, going back to his happy self as he exclaimed “Yep! I wish for your success! Now, let’s buy food!”
“Food it is!” Y/N stood up, holding Baekhyun’s hand in hers before dragging him with him as they ran to the canteen, grinning as hope sparked in their hearts.
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“CHUG! CHUG! CHUG! CHUG! CHUG!” People cheered as Y/N drank down her glass of beer. People cheered as she emptied her glass, Y/N groaning as the bitter taste of the beer stayed on her tongue, her throat burning. 
“Y/N! Y/N! Y/N! Y/N!” Baekhyun screamed, jumping up and down as his drunk self blurred away his sober thoughts.
“Baekhyun! Shut up! You’re hurting my ears!” Y/N exclaimed, bringing her hands to her ears to plug off the noisy boy, her cheeks red as she slowly felt herself getting a bit drunk. It was her 18th birthday and despite to her demur, she was dragged to a party of one of the seniors in her school. All she wanted was a quiet day to herself but now that she was in the party, she couldn’t help but actually enjoy herself. Who wouldn’t enjoy when you have Byun Baekhyun being his happy self cheer and celebrate your birthday?
Coughing, Y/N fell to the couch beside Chanyeol and Mi Soo who watched their friends in amusement. Chanyeol was about to drink when Baekhyun stopped him and reprimanded “No! Underage people can’t drink!”
“Wha-? I’m about to turn 18 too you know!” Chanyeol protested and was about to drink into his cup when Mi Soo took it away. Chanyeol pouted at her and she only replied “No, he’s right. No drinks for you, baby boy” She smirked, sipping from his cup.
Y/N barfed at this, fake gagging to which Baekhyun laughed, drinking more of his beer.
“I am not a baby! I am 17!” Chanyeol screamed and the three of them laughed. Chanyeol’s cheeks turned pink and said “We’re all the same age, why are you doing this to me?”
“ ‘Cause you’re a baby” Mi Soo said, tracing Chanyeol’s nose to which he blushed.
“A big baby” Y/N sputtered out, frowning at everything, turning drunk as the seconds passed.
“Hey!” Chanyeol pouted causing a laugh erupt from Mi Soo.
“And besides Chanyeol, we need to be sober to take these two home” Mi Soo reasoned, turning to look at wasted Baekhyun and now drunk Y/N.
“What a birthday, I don’t even have a cake” Y/N grumbled under her breath, laying down on the couch, pushing Mi Soo off Chanyeol’s lap as Y/N stretched her legs to get comfortable.
Mi Soo yelped as Chanyeol held her to stop her from falling. Chanyeol glared at Y/N for a second but turned his attention back to Mi Soo “You alright?” He asked and Mi Soo nodded, smiling.
“How disgusting” Baekhyun said, watching their exchange. Mi Soo laughed and Chanyeol only stuck his tongue out at his best friend “You’re just jealous you don’t have a girlfriend”
“That’s right I’m jealous!” screamed Baekhyun, tumbling down as he approached Y/N’s sleeping figure “I’m so jealous I could kill you” Baekhyun growled at Chanyeol whom he pushed off the couch. Mi Soo and Chanyeol yelped in surprise as they were totally kicked out of the couch. Baekhyun straightened Y/N’s legs and turned to look at Mi Soo and Chanyeol “Don’t disturb her!”
Mi Soo awed, muttering a quiet “Sweet” as she entangled her arms with Chanyeol’s, suddenly feeling romantic at Baekhyun’s gesture for Y/N. Baekhyun sat on the floor, leaning his back against the couch, his eyes fluttering close as sleep took over him.
Chanyeol took Mi Soo’s hand and began to led her away when she stopped and asked “How about them?” Chanyeol glanced back at his best friends and smiled
“They’ll be alright”
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“You sure you’ll be alright?” Mi Soo asked as she stared at Y/N and Baekhyun sleeping at the back of Chanyeol’s father’s car.
“Yeah, as long as they don’t wake up and throw up that is” Chanyeol chuckled as he led his girlfriend to her house. They stopped by her door and Mi Soo kissed his cheeks quickly before entering her house without a word. Chanyeol could only blush and smile at her actions.
Chanyeol got back to the car and drove off, stopping by Baekhyun’s house first. After much struggle, Chanyeol managed to get Baekhyun on his back as he led him to his room. Upon setting him on his bed, he ran out, saying a quick goodbye to Baekhyun’s mother. He couldn’t leave Y/N alone in the car, especially it was night and she’s a girl.
When they arrived at her house, Chanyeol shook her awake, her waking up just to brush him off and curse him to let her sleep. Chanyeol chuckled and had no choice but to get Y/N on his back. Chanyeol effortlessly carried her, her breath on his neck as she dozed off.
“Yeol-ah” Y/N said groggily. Chanyeol hummed in response, knocking on the door. It was silent again, only the silent breeze of the air and Y/N’s breathing filled Chanyeol’s ear.
“Park Chanyeol” Y/N said again and Chanyeol hummed again, glancing at her from his peripheral vision. She had her head on his shoulders, she hugged him tighter and kissed his cheek, giggling to herself.
Chanyeol froze, his legs turning cold at Y/N’s actions “Y-Y/N?”
“Park Chanyeol~” She cooed, giggling again, sending vibrations in his ear. The night hid the blush on his cheeks as his stomach dropped. What was happening?
“Park Chanyeol” She cooed again, but this time, he did not respond. He stood still as he awaited her next words. It turned silent again and Y/N’s and Chanyeol’s heavy breathing was the only sound that entered their ears.
“I love you”
The coldness in Chanyeol’s legs suddenly turned warm and his heart palpitated so fast Y/N could feel it.
“W-what?” Chanyeol stuttered, and as if a spell was cast on her, Y/N jumped away from Chanyeol, very much sober now.
Chanyeol had had his back on her. He was gonna turn around but Y/N stopped her, holding his back as she gasped “Don’t”
“Y/N...” Chanyeol trailed off, pushing Y/N’s hands off his back and turned to her. She had her head down, unable to look at him. Chanyeol let go of her hands and asked “Is it true?”
Y/N gulped, licking her dry lips wet. She was shaking now. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. He wasn’t supposed to know. She was supposed to get over him. But why on earth-?
Gulping one last time, Y/N raised her head up to meet Chanyeol’s eyes. He noticed that her eyes were brimmed of tears, and like that, they stared at each other, communicating with each other’s eyes and Chanyeol felt his stomach drop. He was about to speak when Y/N beat him to it.
“I love you” She said, shaking as she struggled to not let her tears fall down.
“Y/N...” Chanyeol’s eyes said it all. He didn’t feel the same and Y/N already knew this but her heart still couldn’t take it.
“I love you, Chanyeol-ah” She repeated.
“I love you, I love you, I love you” She sobbed, balling her fists as she fought to look him in the eyes.
“Y/N...don’t say that” His voice was hurt. It was full of guilt and pain that it physically hurt Y/N’s every bones but still, she spoke.
“Why not? I feel that way, why can’t I?”
“You shouldn’t feel like that towards me” Chanyeol gulped the lump in his throat. Y/N scoffed.
“It’s my feelings, Chanyeol. I can’t help but feel that way. You made me feel that way. I love you, Chanyeol-ah”
She was crying now, her eyes pleading Chanyeol’s distressed ones. He can’t speak, afraid to hurt Y/N.
“Just say it. I already know anyway so just say it” Y/N said pleadingly. Chanyeol kept quiet, unable to say the words he know will break his best friend’s heart.
“Is there really no chance?” Y/N sobbed and this time, Chanyeol replied, shaking his head as he said a firm
“No”
Y/N nodded, laughing as she wiped away her tears “How embarrassing” She laughed and Chanyeol could only watch his best friend pretend but he could see it. He could see her crumbling down and it hurt.
Y/N stopped wiping her tears and looked at Chanyeol, smiling yet the pain was there “Good night” She said as she slipped by him, knocking on the door harshly, hoping someone to open it so that she could hide away from Chanyeol.
Y/N didn’t stop knocking until the door opened and she dashed away to her room, confusing her sister who opened the door. She looked at Chanyeol for answers but he couldn’t speak, still shocked at the sudden turn of events of the night.
Y/N slammed and locked her door. She slid down to the floor, sobbing loudly as the pain overtook her actions. She sobbed and sobbed. It hurt too much. She loved him too much and remembering his eyes made her cry more. His eyes that wordlessly told her he didn’t feel the same. His “No” that confirmed her worst nightmare. Y/N cried the night away, her tears nonstop as the jab in her chest didn’t fade away. It was too much. It hurts too much. She loved too much and now he was gone. He was gone and he won’t be her Yeol anymore. He belonged to someone else and he will never be hers, just like he was never hers.
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celiadiao · 5 years ago
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After Proust, though I’ve never read him (1)
Sitting on the kitchen chair here in my family’s old apartment, underneath the dim light which taints my skin with a bit of orange, I start to think about my grandpa.
I haven’t thought of him for years. There is never a reason to think about him. Why should there be?
I’m thinking of him now because I just realized I don’t remember his voice anymore. It is like what they say, everyday you lose a little bit of the people you’ve lost, until they are completely gone. Then you don’t really think about death until the next time it happens near you.
He has been gone for I don’t even remember how many years. I can do the math and count out the exact number of years of course. But why. Why bother to do something that doesn’t matter to anyone who is still living . Who is still breathing…..
I feel like I never really know him. Apart from the story of his name, how he changed it for himself and all, a very simple story indeed.  Apart from the faint memories of the things he used to do. Toddling into the kitchen with a giant bowl to take water back into his room. That was his evening routine. Apart from all the superficial images, Ich habe ihn nie richtig kennengelearnt.
My father just ringed the door bell, pulled me out of my sudden rush to write down the reminiscences of my grandpa. But hearing his uneven steps does remind me of something else. Not a living memory of grandpa, but something else, maybe even better, since there is barely anything left in the case of my grandpa. It is a moment that I should have cherished but too scared to do so. So I hid it behind all those messy matters in my brain. Maybe it wasn’t real at all. Maybe I have dreamt it.
Once a couple years back, we were having dinner like we always do, sitting around at the kitchen table. My father was drinkiing rice wine. I’m not sure but he does only become talkative when he drinks.
I was sitting at this very table, probably on another chair, when my father said, Remember? It is around this time that dad used to shout ‘the weather forecast’ and you would go!
That was the only time I have ever heard him speaking of random memories about grandpa like that. Other times it is more complicated. Things had been intense between them. I remember once they got into a fight and my father knocked a hole in our bathroom door. He was a very strong man back then and the wooden door was old and hollow inside.
We put up a red new-year poster on the door to cover up the hole, but it had proved to be a vain attempt. Every now and then the hole still reminded us of its presence. After grandpa died we had the door changed.
I don’t recall how grandma had replied to my father’s sudden rememberance. Probably nothing. Probably only a simple “oh yeah”. And then we moved on. It is strange how years later that moment starts to haunt me.
It must have been dreadful to grow up poor.  I was’t exacly raised rich. Growing up we were five peolple in a 100 – square meter apartment, three bedrooms, a living room, a bathroom and a kitchen, a balcony with the stove, and that is all. The same old apartment with walls repainted multiple times over the years, the same shabby kitchen that I’m sitting in right now.
I was lucky to be the only child. Still my father complains everyday that my education has eaten away “our family’s fortune”, exactly the way he puts it. I’m the reason why he is still driving that more-than-ten-year-old Volkswagen.  
But I never lacked anything growing up. My father complains, yet he gives.
Unlike him. He had truly grew up poor in a broken household. His family had fled from the femine in the south. He was the second oldest child and the oldest son. His father died when he was ten. His mother had nothing and was maintaining the lives of her 6 children by selling shoe pads on the street.
Hearing this story from my grandma when I was little, I always imagined a poor white-headed old lady in the cold, putting up her stuff on the street and a mean cop would come and confiscate all her goods, shoving them roughly down a woven bag, that jerk, without even explaining or apologising, because it was forbidden to sell things on the street.
But nowadays when I think of this story, I know that the old lady was young. She was in her early thirties. And she liked to eat pork fat and sweet things very much, they say that I got that appetite from her. And she always favored her younger boy. Maybe she had sweared and cursed loudly, jumping up and down to fight for her goods, who knows.
It is sad that I only catch scraps of his childhood through other people’s retellings. I never asked him about it, even though we had lived under the same roof, eaten lunches and dinners on the same table for so many years. I guess it was not an everyday question to ask. But still…
It is true that I had never had a real conversation with him. I was simply too little to know anything real.
When I was tiny he would lift me up from the ground and “fly” me round his body. I loved that, always laughed and asked for another ride. So I was told.
Most of the times during my childhood, through all the struggling years of primary school, I treated him as a special secret, always tentatively, like we all do in this family, in one way or another.
He was my unlucky yet unique “origin story”. That is what kids want. That was what I wanted anyway. How amazing back then when we can sugarcoat everything automatically in our minds, instead of throwing out questions about how unfair life is, like I do now sometimes, though deep down I know there is no point asking.
At a certain age point, you would have that sad realiztion that things aren’t going to be easy for you. I guess I’ve reached mine.
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