#Madd rambles

[maddcactus-art]

I've raised my commission prices a little bit. It had to be done, since my prices haven't changed since 2018… And god knows, everything became freaking more expensive nowadays, so, I had to do something about it too… Since, you know, food now costs more money, and I need to eat, to live… %) What a concept, am I right?

Anyways… The prices haven't changed drastically. And I'll open commissions after my birthday on 22 of april. I don't want to get more work before that, cuz… I need to rest.

BUT. After that - if anyone, who's still reading me here is interested - feel free to message me and we together will fight against the goddamn broken payment system on the only platforms that still allow international transfers!

Yep.

[livingincolorsagain]

sorry but if you watched this episode (and really, the last few episodes) with your eyes and ears open and still think buck denying his feelings for eddie is the end of that story and end of buddie, im embarrassed for you

[actually-syspunk]

PSA: A dissociative disorder doesn't inherently mean that you have alters!

Derealization and depersonalization disorder on its own does not include having alters. OSDD/DID is having alters. You can however have both derealization/depersonalization disorder as well as DID/OSDD.

If maladaptive daydreaming becomes classified as a dissociative disorder, that does not mean you have alters. MaDD can be extremely common in DID/OSDD, but it does not inherently mean you have alters and are a system!

Hope this bloody helps!

[warriorblood1]

watched cinderella's castle last night. thought about it all day. wrote 6k in three hours. my first fanfic in like two years. god bless bryce charles and curt mega thank you goodnight.

[residentialsinyomakai]

idk why but still giggling over Whisper and McKraken being bitter exs if you have more about that do tell

ADHJD GLAD YOU?? THINK SO?? (<< Giggling to myself as we speakgskded glad to know someone found my idea entertaining ^u^) I don't have terrribly too much, but a few things :) Putting this under a cut because it got LONG...WHOOPS....

ꨄ Honestly was ,keyword was...bites nails, more of a jokey thing with a friend of mine ;'u' I thought it was funny that Whisper just seemed to?? Especially dislike him??? Like ofc Whisper has his moments with other bosses/characters too where he says. Things (IE: "Now that we understand his tragic past, let's go remind him of it!") but. Idk it just seemed especially hostile with the squid </3

Mainly this vvvv and the fishbowl remark he says during the phase 1 confrontation, but I couldn't find my screenshot of that one...sobs

I mean. Whisper a simple hell no or 'I don't deal w meanies' would've sufficed,,,

ꨄ Probably met before McKraken got like suuuper into the whole yo-politics bizz or whatchamacallit. Still didn't like humans but it took a while for Whisper to realize "Oh he like Hates hates them...awkward" <<< guy whose job is to like. establish friendship between humans and yokai. More on this later

ꨄ They'd be terrible together. It'd be fun!! 😊👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽; if we're going under the assumption that the 'Whisper is Usuta' thing is true, then they would've been a brief thing aboutttt I wanna say 20 years before the events of ykw 1? Yur. So in yokai time it hasn't been long...yikes ^u^;

ꨄ First meeting! In my hc Whisper would've still worked under the previous Enma at this time and Squisker's been minister for a while yk, so it was probably at an Event of someeee kindddd....I'm not too good at politic stuff so imagine whatever you want. Partyish thing, meeting, rally, etc.

ꨄ They had different ideas on what would be best for all yo-kind, but could agree to disagree. Got along well enough beside that :) both formed a little mutual crush over the years and wanted to test something out. Went well for a decent while but then. Well when you get to really know a guy...

ꨄ Was not a clean break-off because it was funnier def made more sense. Couldn't tell you exactly how it went but Whisper left that night

ꨄ tfw a few years later your ex becomes the chairman of Yomakai and you gotta go to the human world to find the human for the one prophecy thing he hated </333

ꨄ And then that's where ykw 1 happens after a while etc etc.

OK THAT'S ALL THE YAPPING FOR NOW...IT'S LATE AT NIGHT HERE QuQ

^^^ Little doodle,,, will probably post more to the sillies group again later,,, BYE BYE

[h0dgep0dgee]

scheming about making a Hare Becile centered lyric comic rn

[darlingboydiaz]

someone motivate me to actually write the timeloop crash fic that's rotating in my brain like a doner kebab

[star-drip]

i was looking at funny quotes of random shit from media and i realized how often i quote my paras forgetting that this media only exists in my head

i need to make a compilation

[imsosocold]

Since a lot of daring-for-not-being-dead-yet fuckers have been saying a lot of ableist shit I (relatively) recently made these and I don’t take criticism.

Upset? Take a check to the neck!!

Anyway and also I love how Fyodor's squad is just made up of white haired otherkins he's so real for that

[aster-riskite]

why does it feel like nobody did enough english covers of hetalia character songs and why do I feel obligated to do it 0-0

[rummigumi]

May be a hot take, but I don't really like the whole 'Pit Madness' bit, even when ignoring fanon vs canon debate. I feel like it takes away from the relatable part of Jason's story -- something awful happened to him, and it left him traumatized. Like, instead of exploring how trauma can change someone and the impact it has on how they react to things and those around them, everything just gets blamed on Pit Madness

[maddcactus-art]

Dude you alive? Is there somewhere else I can follow you besides this Tumblr?

Surprisingly, I am alive. %) If you use twitter (or X, heh), you can find me there @MaddSadtodd, if you'd like. I also have insta, but it's been a looong time since I've used it...

Other than that - I post on Boosty (which is like a Patreon-like website), and on VK (which is... I guess our version of Facebook's and Twitter's unlawful child, lol).

[ghostscrown]

Having MADD also means that almost every week there's at least one occurence where I'm daydreaming and suddenly I go "and then my only friend in the world betrays me in the worst possible way" and then I start acting it out intensely until I end up bawling my eyes out for like an hour straight and actually wanting to harm/KILL myself over it

And at the end I'm like what the actual hell dude this situation never happened this person doesn't exist you were talking to yourself the entire time no don't harm yourself over that go drink some water you stupid sick idiot

Then I get up and drink water like

Can't believe I'm daydreaming so hard it gives me actual suicide crises I struggle to differenciate from the ones caused by my actual depression, MADD is actually putting me in danger uh

(Only to do it again the next day or something because it's a goddamn addiction)

[evermourner]

there's something endearing about how i came to tumblr 5-7 years ago, made a tumblr account about maladaptive daydreaming, created a bunch of exclusive madd terms with my mutuals, delete the account, and then see that they're still being used to this day by a lot more blogs.

back in the day there were only like 10 exclusively madd blogs and i just wanted to make relatable posts for people who share the same experiences.

god i miss those days. i wish i still had my account but i deleted them because i wasn't in a good mental state back then. i'm happy that i did though, i'm in a such better state right now.

[oilith]

I've been maladaptive daydreaming literally ever since i can remember, but i always knew that "oh HEY, this is DEFINETLY not normal" and that if i talked about it people would think i'm fucking insane. I only found out there's a word for it a year or so ago. There's a whole ass community for this and i had no idea. I've never told about it to anyone i know irl. I'm already being judged and deemed too weird for people to like, so i didn't want to add to that. I don't really give a shit what people think of me nowadays, because i AM genuinely a fucking insane person, and still i even somehow managed to make friends. I'm still not going on rooftops screeching about how i can't function and i get serious withdrawls if i can't dissociate and pace around my room playing a convoluted plot about lilith fucking clawthorne in my head, but at least i know i'm not completely alone (in spirit). It's a comforting thought.

Idk, having a lot of thoughts about this.

[infiniteorangethethird]

ah yes every light (me being subjected to new media) has its shadow (I have so many new daydream ideas I'm going to explode)