#SORRY I'm bitching so much recently. Unbelievably stressed with a lot going on and this is My Journal where I Bitch. So

[ratcandy]

"hey can we make a sudden and major change to the plans two days before the event" do you want me to jump over this table at you

[mikelogan]

hey!! so i recently followed + i'm in love with your blog + writing so i was gonna send a prompt + if you're busy or not taking them it's totally cool i just thought i'd send it your way cause i'd love to read this in your style!!! so i thought maybe jd and dr cox have been together for a few months + one day carla + turk are looking for jd + he's nowhere to be found + he left his pager at the hospital so they page dr cox when they get home + the sound goes off in jd's bedroom - cue confessions!

first of all, thank you SO much!! and i’m so sorry this took so long, but thank you again for sending it! it turned out a lot longer than i planned (and a touch more dramatic) but that’s all right by me :)

             It hadbeen so long since the two of them had had an afternoon off together and Perryhad wanted to make the most of it.  He’dshown up at JD’s apartment with some takeout and a movie he’d rented; both werestill sitting out on the coffee table in the living room as they’d quicklygotten distracted with each other and moved into JD’s bedroom.  And now JD was fast asleep with his head onPerry’s chest while Perry slowly drew his fingers through JD’s hair, a softsmile on his face.  How it had only beenthree and a half months was beyond Perry. He felt as though he and JD had been together for ages, and yet itsomehow felt like it was only yesterday that they’d begun all this.  

             It wasn’tthat they were trying to sneak around, but they both felt that there’d be toomuch talk, too much gossip, especially at the hospital, if they were to gopublic with their relationship.  Perryhad, in fact, offered to let JD tell Turk and Carla, but the younger doctor hadbrushed the idea off, saying they’d never let him live it down.  Perry had a sneaking suspicion that JD wasactually afraid to tell his friends, but he left the subject alone, notentirely minding having JD all to himself.

             JD mumbledsomething in his sleep and rolled over, his head leaving Perry’s chest, andPerry smiled fondly as he watched the other man.  Perry was head over heels – and he knew it,too.  And instead of running from it, hefound himself embracing this new, but very rewarding way of honesty andcommunication.  Content to spend the restof the afternoon in bed alongside his lover, Perry settled down next to JD,intending to pull him back into his arms – right where he belonged – but hispager had other ideas.  Sighing, Perryhurriedly left the bed, not wanting the sound to disturb JD.  Wearing only his boxers and the t-shirt he’dhad under his lab coat, he fished his pager out of his scrubs pocket and backedout into the living room, carefully closing JD’s bedroom door as he went.  He looked down at his pager and read theshort message:  911 – JD missing!

             His browfurrowing, Perry looked up from his pager only to find two pairs of astonishedeyes already on him.  It wasn’t like him,but Perry couldn’t help but blush ever-so-slightly as Turk and Carla gaped athim.  Given his state of undress and theroom he’d just left, it was quite obvious what had transpired before the two ofthem had come home, and Perry couldn’t deny it. And a small voice in the back of his head reminded him that he didn’t want to deny it, not anymore.  

             “Ghandi,”Perry said gruffly as he straightened up. “Carla.”

             “What in the hell is going on?” Turk cried, hisvoice much higher than normal.  Carlaelbowed him, though she looked quite shocked herself.

             Perryopened his mouth to speak, but then the three of them turned back toward JD’sdoor, where they could make out his tired voice.

             “Perry?”he called, his voice scratchy like it always was when he’d just woken up.  “Come back to bed.”

             “Perry?” Turk screeched, looking asthough he was seconds away from a massive coronary.

             Perrycringed when he heard a loud thud from inside the bedroom, and moments later,JD was stumbling out the door, trying desperately to finish pulling on a pairof sweatpants.  His hair was sticking upin every direction and it was clear he’d just woken up, though his eyes werewide.  Without thinking, Perry tucked JDunder his arm, pulling him against his side.

             Turkopened and closed his mouth several times, his eyes bugging out, but he seemedto be beyond words.  

             “Turk,”JD said slowly, watching Turk with great caution, “if you’d just let meexplain…”

             “Pleasetell me this is some kind of joke,” Turk said weakly just as he spotted thetakeout and the DVD on the coffee table. He groaned and sank down onto the couch.

             Carlaseemed to recover more quickly and she rolled her eyes at Turk, but JD shrankfurther into Perry’s side when she turned to glare at him.  “How long has this been going on?” she asked,and JD couldn’t tell if she was angry or not. “And why didn’t you tell us?”

             JDglanced up at Perry and bit his lip nervously. “A-almost four months,” he mumbled. “And I didn’t want to tell you, not yet anyway.  I didn’t want anyone to know because no onewould understand.  And I’d much rather have Perry to myself thanhave to worry about how wrong everyone thinks this is or how stupid they thinkI am.  Look, Carla, these few months havebeen… well, they’ve been incredible.”  JDpaused and looked up at Perry again, the nervousness in his expressionlessening just slightly.  “And of coursewe would have told you eventually, but Perry and I… we have such a good thinggoing that it was hard to imagine having to deal with unnecessary drama.”

             At that,Turk whipped his head around to stare at JD. “Unnecessary drama?” he asked incredulously.  “This is Dr. Cox we’re talking about!”

             JD’s jawtightened and he curled a protective arm around Perry’s waist.  “He’s standing right here, Turk.”

             “I don’thave a problem telling him to his face that he’s a jackass who’s never even pretended to care about you and has madeyour life a living hell for the last two years.”

             “Allright, Turk, that’s enough,” Carla said firmly, shooting an apologetic glancePerry’s way.

             “What, Ican’t say what needs to be said?” Turk asked, rising up off the couch.  “You’re a bully,” he said, addressing Perrydirectly.  “And I want to know whatexactly you said that brainwashed JD so much that he’d actually get into bedwith you.”

             “I didn’thave to say anything,” Perry said simply. “And I sure as hell don’t see a need to explain myself to you, gumball, but let me ask you this:what really bothers you about this?  Isit that Newbie has found someone else to occupy his time instead of you?”

             “Perry,stop it,” JD said under his breath.

             “No, JD,I want to know what the real problem is,” Perry pressed, still looking directlyat Turk.  “Is it that we’re bothmen?  We all know nothing makes you moreuncomfortable than a little guy-on-guy action –”

             JD nudgedPerry, looking up at him in disbelief. “That’s enough, Perry,” he said rather harshly.

             Perrytook a step forward, closer to Turk. “I’m betting that it’s a little bit of both,” he maintained, ignoringJD.  “Am I right?”

             “You sonof a bitch,” Turk said, his voice dripping with resentment.  “This iswhy I’m pissed.  Because you get yourjollies from shit like this when JD is the kindest, most compassionate personI’ve ever met.  You couldn’t be morewrong for him and I think deep down you know that.  You know that someday soon, he’s going to gettired of you and where will that leave you? Sitting alone in your big apartment with nothing to keep you company butyour damn scotch.”

             “You hadbetter shut your mouth before I do something I’ll really regret,” Perry said ina low voice, taking another step toward Turk.

             “Will youtwo knock it off?” JD nearly shouted, stepping between the two of them.  “Turk, this is exactly why I didn’t tell youthat Perry and I were together because I knewyou would overreact and pull something like this!  And Perry, Turk is my best friend and I needyou two to get along!  You’re both actinglike children right now and I’m tired of it! I would expect both of you tohave my back and respect mydecisions!”

             Perrystepped back and relaxed slightly.  “I’msorry,” he said genuinely, looking JD in the eyes.  “You’re right.”

             Turk, onthe other hand, did not have the same reaction. “JD, can’t you see this is just some sick, twisted game he’s playingwith you?  He doesn’t actually care –”

             “Turk,shut up!” JD cried, throwing his arms up in exasperation.  “I am in love with Perry, he’s in love withme, and you’re just going to have to deal with it.  You’re my best friend and I need yousupporting me, not trying to ruin my relationship!”

             “I’m justtrying to protect you,” Turk insisted as Carla put her hand to her forehead andshook her head.  “I know you can’t seethat right now because he’s gotten inside your head, but you’ll thank mesoon.  I don’t care what I have to do toget you to realize that this is a bad idea. As your best friend, I’ll do whatever it takes.”

             “You’re unbelievable,”JD sighed, turning back toward his bedroom. He flung the door open and grabbed the duffel bag he stored under hisbed.  

             “What areyou doing?” Turk asked, pushing past Perry and following JD into his room.

             “Packingmy stuff,” JD said flatly.  

             Turksighed.  “Come on, dude, you don’t haveto go.  I’m just trying to –”

             “You’retrying to break Perry and me up,” JD interrupted, shoving several changes ofclothes into his bag and picking Perry’s clothes up off the floor.  “And while that’s the case, I’m not stayinghere.”  He stormed back out into theliving room and tossed Perry’s clothes at him. “I want to leave.”

             “I thinkmaybe you should stay, Newbie,” Perry said gently, catching JD’s hand as hecrossed the room.  

             “What areyou talking about?”

             “I don’twant to be the reason that you and Turk are fighting,” Perry saidseriously.  “And I think that if youleave angry, things might not work themselves out.  Differences aside, there is one thing he andI have in common, and that’s that we both love you and care about you.  So I think we should stay, sit down, and talkabout this like adults instead of just getting angry.”

             “Perry’sright,” Carla interjected, looking stressed out.  “The two of you are just stubborn enough todrag this out much longer than it should be, so let’s get everything out on thetable now so we can start working through it.”

             JD lookedfrustrated, but eventually dropped his bag beside the couch and flopped downonto it.  “Fine,” he said, crossing hisarms as Perry sat down beside him.  “Let’stalk, then.  Let’s talk about why itseems like my judgement and my decisions aren’t good enough for you, Turk. ��Last time I checked, this is my life and I should be allowed to bewith whoever I want.  The fact that youthink Perry has somehow brainwashed me means you think I’m not strong enough tomake my own decisions about who I love.”

             “It’s notlike that, man,” Turk said, sitting down in the arm chair next to thecouch.  “You know I’ve always trustedyou.  It’s him I don’t trust.”

             “I haven’tgiven you much reason to,” Perry said frankly. JD tried to protest, but Perry continued.  “It’s true. You and I have never gotten along and I’m thinking it’s because we’reboth so hard-headed.  But the fact of thematter is that I don’t work with you. You see tiny little glimpses into what I’m like and it’s true that thoseglimpses aren’t typically of my, let’s say, softer side.  But I have worked alongside JD nearly everyday for two years now, so wouldn’t you say that he’d be a little more qualifiedto judge my motives than you are?”

             Turkfloundered for a moment.  “That may betrue,” he conceded, “but that doesn’t change the fact that the side of you I’veseen is not a nice guy.  Forgive me forwanting better for JD.”

             “Don’tyou think that Perry and I have talked about this stuff already?” JDasked.  “It’s been almost four months,Turk, which leaves a lot of time for conversation.  Perry has changed a lot – not that I askedhim to.  Tell Turk what you said to meafter our first night together.”

             “Newbie,I –”

             “Perry,please,” JD said softly, squeezing Perry’s hand.

             Perryheld JD’s gaze for a moment longer before looking back at Turk.  “I told JD I wanted to be better for him,because of him.  There are plenty ofthings that I’ve said and done that I now regret and I wish I could take themback.  But JD’s helped me to see thatpeople can change when they really want to. And he makes me want to.”

             “I thinkyou’d have to be blind not to see the connection between the two of you,” Carlasaid quietly.  “And for the record, I’mhappy for both of you.  It’s about timeyou were both happy.”

             Turk wassilent for a long moment after that, just looking at Perry and JD.  They weren’t trying to show off or tone downanything about their relationship and instead sat together on the couch the waythey usually did when they were alone, pressed right up against each other,exuding love and silent devotion.

             “Well,”JD finally said, breaking the silence, “what’s the verdict?”

             “I’m notsaying I like it,” Turk sighed, “but I’ll respect it.  But I swear to god, if you ever hurt him, you’ll have me to answerto.”

             Perryactually smiled and pressed a kiss to the top of JD’s head.  “Sounds good to me,” he agreed.