#Staying home for a while lol

[jtargaryen18]

Today's one of those days...

Where the number of available swear words and possible swear words are completely inadequate.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

[fastestloseralive]

I’ll never forgive yjtv for making the wests….nice.

Wally should be running away from home. Wally should be fascinated with the flash because if he had super speed he run away and never go back to Nebraska. Wally getting shoved with iris for summers at a time, iris being his best friend (actual mother) who when she was only a child herself decided she wouldn’t let Wally down, and then the weird boyfriend of his aunt who STEPPED THE FUCK UP, if they wanted to be realistic the thing about Rudy and Mary’s abuse of Wally is that it wasn’t exaggerated comic book abuse like making child soldiers or something they were just narcissistic selfish people who punished their kid for random things and made them feel unloved and took advantage of him that he wanted to run and never look back. You could have easily have a thread where when you live like that surrounded by people with comic book levels of shitty lives you think you don’t have it that bad that you accept things. That this is what normal life must be only to have people like Barry iris Jay to prove otherwise.

And then when you finally hear about your parents divorce your friends don’t know why your celebrating or why your aunt and uncle badger the court for custody, full custody.

Like. Idk pisses me off man. It’s such a big part of why Wally is like that, ya know.

100% agreed lol

but like yeah I just. it’s a big part of him. I want a version of yjtv where it’s like that summer was great, everything’s the same, but once the school year starts, the team dances around the subject of how Wally’s become a little more withdrawn, a little more antsy, a little more hesitant to go home. wally who always kinda talked around the topic of his family and it wasn’t something anybody really picked up on until suddenly school starts and all he talks about are his aunt and uncle. wally who was at the mountain on thanksgiving and m’gann asks why he isn’t home with his family and he says “dad’ll kill me if I’m late” and leaves but she and zatanna just don’t know him well enough to know he wasn’t totally joking, and man, that’s the first time he’s mentioned either of his parents, ever. wally who needs this. wally who uses kid flash as an escape.

and every time flash comes to mount justice wally’s bouncing off the walls, like the version of him they met back in the summer is there again, at his peak. he smiles bigger, talks more. and it’s not like he’s stopped doing any of that, but once he started school, it began to feel just the slightest bit more forced, or like some kind of mask. and sometimes flash comes by and wally attaches himself to his mentor’s hip and they’ll overhear wally ask if he can come stay with him for the weekend and sometimes flash’ll say “sure, kid” and sometimes he’ll just give a sad smile and say “i’ll talk to your parents, see what i can do.” and wally won’t fully visibly deflate but it’s there, and those are the days that his attempts at flirting with m’gann are more out of nowhere and harder to watch, and those are the days he’s a little angrier and easily irritated, and those are the days he runs home from mount justice instead of taking the zeta tubes—he’s gotta clear his head. he’s got to pull himself together, force his hopes and dreams down into a place his parents can’t find. that they can’t rip away from him and tear apart until there’s nothing left but a blank slate for them to ruin.

because when he’s that young, at his core, wally west is a dreamer… and blue valley is where dreamers go to die.

[zylphiacrowley]

Primal > Exodus > Lavender Beds > Ward 10 > Plot 31

[abimee]

call me if you have a breakdown

[writeyourdarlings]

pls be his prom date🥺

[bizarrelovesquare]

Avatar: The Last Airbender

s3 ep 09, Nightmares and Daydreams

[somedayslater]

i didnt read the last chapters since i discovered it was the end (but i was spoiled by tumblr lol)... i didnt want to believe it... i want to still look forward to new chapters of No Home :(

For the last few years eunyung and haejoon have been my companions. I healed a little while following the story of eunyung, feeling like its ok to be angry and wanting revenge on your family and the society that continues to want to keep you in a "house" where you are mistreated. How the world isnt made for children at all, the absolute unfairness of it all. That you can choose to keep going, and if you do so its ok to keep your distance with what hurts you.

I healed too with haejoon, who came to terms with the fact that he will always be overcome with sadness and grief from time to time, and when that happens he can only let himself feel and wait for it to pass, and try to look forward to the next day.

Honestly this manwha was the best ever. I couldnt read this manhwa as a form of escapism because it was too real. It pulled strings in my heart i didnt know i had, made me question a lot of things about myself, about others, about my relationship with others. It made me have painful discussion with a few people. Following this manhwa, most of the time, was really unpleasant lol. I hated then loved eunyoung, I liked and then disliked haejoon (yeah sorry haejoon, i think you can be really cruel and stupid and i wanted to strangle you a few times in the last arcs (i would NOT be friend with that guy lol) -thats why this character is so amazing). But i felt so much while reading it i wouldnt trade it for anything. It was funny, it was dumb, it was deep, it was enraging and healing, but most of all it was sincere. The most sincere depiction of what being a person in a deeply flawed society is, and how there's happiness even while surviving.

It was so frustrating to see the manhwa go in a direction i didnt want it to go ! I wanted it to become my cozy refuge, where every problems are magically solved, where haejoon and eunyung ends up understanding and loving each other in a cliché way, where theres a new home with my *fave charas* and its a series of feel-good interactions. Instead the problems kept pilling up, most of them didnt have a satisfactory conclusion, eunyung and haejoon kept hurting each other and distancing themselves. Haejoon just cut contact with his father without knowing what were his nefarious motives or without this guy facing any consequences, we dont know if eunyung's parents will keep bothering eunyung unchecked, we dont know if they're going to be happy and rich, or if, realistically, as orphans without generational wealth and deep traumas, they're going to end up in a shitty life situation.

And i couldnt thank wanan enough for this. They didnt take the easy way, the feel-good way, the way that would have given them a probably bigger fandom so a bigger source of money. I'm amazed by how they managed to hold this whole story so perfectly. Not a single misstep. Everything they draw was where it should have been, every action from the characters were understandable (and frustrating lol), the fucking subtlety of the developing relationships, no deus ex machina and no miserabilism. I didnt always agree with wanan's ethic or what i perceived of it (i think stealing or being violent is ok depending on the context, i dont think working hard to earn money is a virtue) but i respect how they choose to present it. I didnt talk about the other characters because honestly they didnt move me as much (except marie), but i love them so much too. I felt sad that eunyung and haejoon didnt become best friend 5ever (or even lovers hehe) but honestly, understandable lol. If i was one of them i WOULDNT become close with the other at all, so its kinda amazing they could still find this level of mutual understanding.

In short, wanan is an amazing story teller.

And an amazing image-composist (have no idea how to say this in english). The artstyle doesnt look like much, but this gave wanan a wide graphic range to convey emotions that wouldnt have been possible with a more sophisticated style i think -how will i forget the red swirlings mixing with eunyung skin ? The expressions, the choice of colors, the choice in showing something in particular without giving a clear explanation on why (often haejoon's surprised or contemplative face, which made me re-read chapters a few times to try to understand what was happening in his big head). It didnt feel like wanan thought their readers were stupid, nor did they play the fake-deep style. It was perfectly balanced.

And so even if i didnt read it, i have no doubt the end will be the same. Im so sad they decided to end this manhwa, but i know prolonging it would have been greedy and that ultimately, the manhwa would have suffer for it. Some authors do that : they have a popular series going on, and for whatever reason they keep writing new chapters without a clear goal and so the story becomes diluted, messy, useless. I love when they do this, because i can say goodbye to a story progressively as my interest in it wans, without feeling sadness or loss. But it makes me not think of the story at all in the future, since everything that was good about it became buried in new shitty chapters. Because wanan didnt do that, i know that i would think of no home for a long while, maybe forever,

,like i really lost companions when no home ended actually. Because it really, really hurts, knowing i wont be seeing new faces of the no home characters anymore. I know it sounds probably stupid ; i feel genuine grief here lol. I want to know what will happen to them, if they are alright, if they found a place in the world... if there is something to look forward after all, and i really dread not having answers every monday anymore. and the fandom is so small i cant comfort myself by re-entering the no home world every week or whatever... does anyone else feel this way ToT ? maybe i should participate myself but well,, i wouldnt know where to begin...

And saying that ! I'm almost never on this blog, i dont really have socmed accounts, i dont participate in fandoms at all. But I spent a looot of time reading and watching people who does -without being connected or interacting with posts or fanfics at all. AND i really want to thank you all for giving me so much material to chew, posts that made me think, fics that made me smile, drawings that inspired me, witnessing interactions that made me laugh. I was and i probably will continue to be a ghost on socmed, but i really want you to know that you had an impact on me and i was looking forward to your new posts (and will continue to!).

the "every no home chapter is a test of my willingness to Not blow my own brains out" and explosion eunhae monday of @skiptoyuri

the regular nohome posters which makes me happy to check tumblr regularly @shimamitsulover @lesbianpegbar @luckyswamps @tomoyoo @cloudbends @t0a2ter @solcarow @dragon-of-timeless-blue

the awesome artists who keep producing bangers nohome art @gohaejoon @maxsolosur @jjd5426 @bnnuycafe @ct-bunny @lentl-soup @fartaycat @jjd5426 @prokkoli @moxymaxing @ginangtan

the nohome posters that i enjoyed running into @pleuvoire @homolobotomized @podoro-vines @fmet @welpuu @revertrate @obstinaterixatrix @kulluto

the artists that made me interested in checking no home @cienfll @craysmo @ant-eaters @idledee @fruiitlins @froqpi-art @201918b @tinfishmeal @ohrsoh @30mingirlfriend

thanks @ditherslam for the awesome fanfics, obviously i read them all and they're some of my favourites. youre an amazing writer and i cant wait for the next chap of "your atoms"!!

thanks @homeless202 for being an insatiable nohome poster for a while (and @grannykombucha !)

im forgetting a lot of others but i really wanted to thank you all for your time, energy, work. i never interacted with your posts or with you but i really want to convey how cool it is that you all contribute to make no home a more well-known manhwa and the fandom alive

thank youuuu (hope the @ are ok tell me if its bothersome ill delete it)

and really, really, thank you wanan ! waaaa i want to cry

[akkivee]

going home✈️

btw lmao i got fired from my job bc of this trip lolololol

[distortsverity]

hikari’s team barely changed over the thirteen-ish years that i’ve been writing for her. i’m pretty sure the last change i made, the last pokemon i added, was long before i rejoined tumblr in 2020. lately though, i’ve contemplated giving her a female spiritomb, so this is what i have in mind.

strangely benevolent from the get-go ( but if wronged, she will still lash out and seek vengeance single-mindedly, as with most members of her species ). first encountered at night on mount coronet or route 209. she followed hikari for a few days —- kept her distance while observing her, interacted with some of the team when they demanded to know why she was so intrigued by their trainer* —- before hikari finally relented and caught her.

the spiritomb came up with her own name : yura.

her life story’s a complete mystery. however, there was this one time when she grew very, very upset over the course of a documentary that hikari was viewing about modern sinnoh, from the kingdom’s violent dissolution to the turn of the millennium. and when cynthia’s face appeared on the screen, when cyrus’s treason was described in great detail, when hikari’s heroism in opposing the latter was brought up, it only served to agitate her further. whatever it was that disturbed yura kept her down in the dumps for . . . quite a while afterwards. hikari thinks she ( or some of her one-hundred-and-eight spirits, rather ) might’ve undergone immense suffering during the war, but since yura refused to open up to either her trainer or her teammates, they chose not to pry.

she’s done alright since then. not another thing off about yura besides how capable a fighter she turned out to be from the start, putting up impressive resistance against each of her teammates when hikari sought to evaluate her. it’s almost as though she’d battled extensively under another trainer. someone near or on hikari’s level, perhaps.

cynthia still bothers her a little, but that, hikari has never been able to put forward a possible explanation for.

* “ i’m trying to figure out if she is who i think she is ” pretty much sums up yura’s response. eventually, she would reach the conclusion that hikari is not who she thought ( hoped ) she was. not even close. all it took for her to realize that was a documentary.

[kangals]

Kep did a demo run of the CGC test yesterday, he did really well and only failed on 1 step (1.5, kind of), which was the distance stay. that was actually where I expected he’d fail, he struggles a lot with stays (combo of poor impulse control + FOMO). and he half-failed the “greet a stranger” part because he did try and jump up at first, and then the person we were using was like “oh I just ate a bag of chips” and used her other hand to pet and he stayed sitting, so we’re not sure if he was jumping bc rude or bc he smelled snacks.

he gets a final run opportunity next week, so we’ll try and work on practicing his stays more and see if we can make enough progress to get it done. if he still can’t do it I’m not too pressed, I think at that point it’s just a matter of letting him grow up a bit and regain some brains. he did really well on everything else (no barking! what an experience) so I’m still pleased overall!

[midmorninggrey]

i'm trying out this radical idea where my OCs don't all die. like maybe they get happy endings.

[sketchy-tour]

Oh? Oh gee have the demons come back?

Maybe listening to my welcome home playlist was a bad idea-

[itsmistyeyedbi]

So, these last few days have been...interesting. And are currently a little unpleasant, to say the least🧍🏾‍♀️

My marks for my English assignment were disappointing and my throat is sore and dry rn. And that of course started after I've been to the store💀

(Some personal stuff in the tags that might be/probably is tmi so you can just skip em if you'd prefer to)

[extrasweetcoffee]

God, looking at my screenshots for the sims made me realize I need to finish Trey's quest to have a bunch of kids as if the three he has now aren't making him tired and miserable enough.

[kanronotatsu]

okay this is not related to the new ep but it just occurred to me

after byeongmu is arrested (for the second time, at home) sangcheol asks jeongwoo where he wants to go and offers to drive him

which makes me think: 1) jeongwoo stayed at sangcheol's place for however many days BUT they didn't exactly talk about how long that arrangement will last or anything 2) and because of this sangcheol asks jeongwoo where he wants to go (since he doesn't know and won't assume) 3) jeongwoo at some point decides to go visit nagyeom at the hotel and at no point do we get to know what his answer was to sangcheol 4) that night when they leave ha seol to go home alone and have dinner at sangcheol's place it feels like that's just the arrangement they have now

so my question is: at what point did *jeongwoo* decide to stay at sangcheol's place AND when did he tell sangcheol about it? or was it sangcheol's idea? maybe he knew jeongwoo wasn't going to ask so sangcheol offered?

i want to know exactly how that conversation went 🥺

[pipedreame]

in need of a pen pal in which we never text or dm but instead write passionate letters that we seal with a kiss and spray perfume on and tape in pictures and cool leaves and dried flowers and we can send each other cd mixtapes and handrawn artwork and did i mention that we also never text bc that is crucial