#The Return of the Native audiobook

[paullovescomics]

The Return of the Native, by Thomas Hardy I read this long ago, but found much of it to be fresh when listening to this audiobook version. The description of not only the landscape, but the world in general is so well done. Sparse prose has its place, but so much is added to this story through Hardy's talent for description. A real sense of a specific place that binds these characters together and shapes them. You're never at a loss as to what people or things look like. If you like to visualize a story in your mind as you read, Hardy has your back. There is a soap operatic quality to some of the drama here (complimentary), but there are also more subtle things. The cast is broad, and although we certainly spend more time with some than others, they all feel like real, solid characters. I love that they are all ordinary people (complimentary) -- even our problematic queen Eustacia Vye comes from a place that is just slightly bigger, and her dreams are to move in artsier circles, not to, idk, become a mogul or whatever. I like Hardy's work a lot.

[friendly-neighbourhood-archon]

@anonymousreader4d7 Aaaalright, you know I'm a yapper, I'm more than happy to indulge you and tell you about all three of them even hahaha

Blindness Fic:

During a mission gone wrong, Aventurine gets injected with a mysterious substance. As his luck will have it, he manages to make his escape. But as the hours pass, his vision slowly gets worse and worse, until he's fully blind.

With some help from some subordinates he manages to return to the IPC headquarters, where he's promptly put into the medical wing and the doctors there try to figure out what's wrong with him and what that substance was.

But as time passes, even after a few weeks, they have nothing. Nothing they try helps him in any capacity. And Aventurine struggles a lot with adjusting to this new life. At first, he basically just lays in bed. Listens to radio or audiobooks to keep himself at least a little entertained. Or talks to Topaz, who visits him sometimes, when she has the time to. His phone lies abandoned in a corner, because even if Topaz tried to help him set it up to use it while blind, he doesn't feel like trying.

Eventually, after a bit more than a month, the IPC decides that there's no use in trying further and he loses his rank as a stoneheart and they kick him out of the medical ward. So he returns home to his apartment.

Of course, he's in a pretty bad state mentally. He feels useless and like his life is over. He constantly bumps into everything and his whole body hurts because of that. As he's home, he can't even do housework or cook for himself. Even ordering food is annoying. Everything is just so hard now and he kind of gives up. Just eats whatever, doesn't take care of himself, doesn't bother trying to clean much because he can't see if it's actually clean anyways.

Ratio has messaged him repeatedly but Aventurine doesn't know because he still doesn't touch his phone. Because he wasn't able to reach him, he started getting worried and instead got in touch with Topaz, who informed him of everything that happened.

Knowing Aventurine a little, he figures that he'll go to his apartment to make sure he's okay, because he has a bad feeling. And when Aventurine ends up opening the door, he looks absolutely terrible, and what little he can make out of the apartment, looks just as bad.

So he decides to invite himself in and stay for a while. Help Aventurine get back on his feet and help him learn how to navigate this new life. And as Ratio is staying, they slowly start to get closer to one another and eventually get together and their pathetic pining since their first meeting finally has an end.

Soulmate AU:

On Ratio's homeplanet, everyone has the name of their soulmate written on their wrist in grey color. When they finally meet them and speak their name for the first time, the writing turns the color(s) of the soulmate's eyes.

For two people from that planet, only one of them would need to speak the others' name for both soulmate marks to fill in and confirm the bond. But for those whose soulmate comes from another planet, the person from the other planet doesn't have a mark at first. So the person with the mark has to say the name and then the other person gains the mark in that moment. Soulmates then also start to slightly detect feelings through their bond (not detailed, just the general feelings).

Ratio's name is Kakavasha, and when he was younger, he spent a lot of time researching where the name was from. Because it was quite clear it wasn't native to his home planet, so it had to be someone from somewhere else. But he never found out anything and eventually stops searching. Sporadically, he takes it up again, but always comes up with nothing.

He doesn't want to fully give up on his soulmate because he might meet them some day. But then he also has feelings for Aventurine and he feels guilty. Both towards his soulmate for being in love with someone else and towards Aventurine for loving him when he has a soulmate he is kind of waiting for. So he tries not to pursue Aventurine, even if he catches himself sometimes playing into the others' banter or almost flirting. At some point, he told Aventurine about this concept, but never told him the name.

One day, Ratio and Aventurine sit together and talk. And Ratio asks him about Sigonia. It's rare for Aventurine to open up about these things, but he seems to be in a good mood and so he talks about how life was there a bit. And then he starts talking about a spring festival and mentions how he was named after it because he was born during it. He may not know the exact date when he was born, because the festival was over two days, but at least he has some idea when.

Of course, he can't help himself and ask about the name of the festival. So Aven tells him that the name of the festival is Kakava, and because of that he was named Kakavasha.

Dumbstruck, Ratio repeats the name. The name he'd seen all these years, wondered if it was pronounced the way he thought it was - and as he feels a zap, he can see that his mark has color now. But he also immediately is aware that his name has just appeared on Aventurine's wrist. Aven has been marked against his will before, so internally, Ratio is freaking out.

He slips out that he shouldn't have repeated the name, it would have been better if he hadn't. Meaning, he should have just shown him his wrist and leave the choice up to Aventurine. They could have been soulmates even without the bond ever fully completing, he would have been fine.

But Aven interprets it as Ratio not wanting him of all people as soulmate. The dirty avgin slave. Of course he woulnd't be good enough for Ratio. Before he can get overwhelmed by his feelings and his mask breaks, he leaves.

It takes them a little while of not talking, but eventually they finally do and everything gets resolved, of course.

Experimented on Fic:

Inspired by the absolutely gorgeous "How to Accidentally Acquire a Half-Snake Boyfriend, a Guide by Veritas Ratio".

Again mission gone wrong type of situation, where Aventurine ends up being kidnapped by a mad scientist who does genetic experiments. He tries to create different weird hybrids or creatures to sell them off for a lot of money.

For Aventurine, he decides he'd look pretty as a naga/mermaid (undecided still, though Naga Aven would probably have a bit of an easier life afterwards than mermaid Aven) and is sure he'd make a ton of money. But he also doesn't treat his test subjects super well because he wants to maximise profits.

Topaz and Ratio team up and manage to locate him, they pose as buyers and the scientist delivers Aven blindfolded and shackled to Ratio's home. He's very thin and slightly injured, clearly malnourished.

Ratio does his best to nurse him back to health, but Aventurine is also kind of trying to avoid things because he feels ashamed/embarassed for how he looks like. Tries to hide his tail and other traits, tries not to touch Ratio and avoids being touched as much as he can.

He feels disgusting and doesn't want Ratio to have to deal with this, who must find him just as disgusting. Being Avgin is already bad enough for most, and that's just the cherry on top now.

But Ratio is sweet and patient with him, bringing him anything he might want or need, utterly devoted to help him and make him feel better.

And over time, touches linger more than they need to, glances grow longer and steadier. Aventurine feels stupid for still being in love with Ratio but how can't he when he treats him like that?

Eventually, Aven learns to live with his new self and to accept himself and these two dumbasses also end up as a couple.

[mimicha-arts]

Audiobook, ep 103 (corresponds to s1ep10)

Now eps covers the donghua's plot closely, but sometimes there are small changes, additions and expansions of scenes. This post is a copy of my thread from twitter for the archive.

Friendly reminder, I'm not a native speaker, there is also no subtitles. I'm trying my best, but I can't hear everything and probably made mistakes. Please keep in mind, I wrote it just for reference.

At the very beginning of the scene, the school bell rings, signaling the end of classes. Afterwards, the boy runs to his father and says that he got 100 points for the test, his father promised to buy him a ranger toy for this - his father says they will now go and buy it. After, the girl calls her mother and tells about how well she drew a picture during class with their family, and the teacher noted that it was drawn very well. Mom praises her. QL: Every time after school, he (Cheng Xiaoshi) saw other children being picked up by their parents, and how they returned home together. And he just stood aside and looked at them all alone, feeling envious and lonely. In order to make himself like a normal kid and to blend in with others, he tried his best, but...

Flashback

Kids playing together. Kid 1：Look at this! Kid 2：Take it! CXS：What are you playing? Can I join you? Kid：Em…

Woman：Why are you still here? Go home, go. You don’t know this kid, so why are you hanging out with strangers? Let’s go. Grandma：Nannan (girl’s name), listen to grandma, it’s time to leave. Go home. Grandpa：Don't you dare to play with him. He is a feral child! He has no parents to teach him. How can a child be so uncouth! Woman：Right! So careless, just running here and there, like a disaster

People together： - All right, all right, let’s go - Mom, go - Hurry up!

CXS：You are the feral kids! You are like a disaster, your whole family is a disaster! I don’t want to play with you!

People together： (There is some other phrases I can’t understand)

- What a disaster - At such a young age, you say such dirty words, really disgusting! - Grandma, don't listen to him, it’s so dirty - Hurry, shut your ears - Crazy! Cheng Xiaoshi starts crying.

QL: The neighbors who used to spend time together with him and the friends he played with left him one by one. He was eventually isolated, but I know how afraid of losing everyone he was.

(Here they placed a flashback that corresponded to the moment with the earthquake when CXS ran to QL’s house) QL: That was the first time, when he, who had always been stubborn, was so frightened that couldn’t put words together. Then I realized how painful it must be for him to say, "I don't want you to care about me." At that time, Qiao Ling understood - these people who came to the photo studio as soon as they heard the news about Cheng Xiaoshi's parents', just wanted to satisfy their curiosity. Their perfunctory concern may be able to hide it from others, but it couldn’t fool Cheng Xiaoshi since he was involved. Children have the purest, the sharpest eyes.  These people themselves had no idea how their sarcastic words could hurt a child's heart. In the following days, Cheng Xiaoshi stopped trying to cater to others and just spent time alone in the photo studio. Sitting alone at the door of the photo studio, watching people coming and going, the liveliness was about other people, had nothing to do with him. Day by day, year by year, the photo studio was becoming more and more dilapidated. Cheng Xiaoshi also grew up gradually, but his life seemed to always have two points and one thread: from the photo studio to the school, and then from the school to the photo studio. He only had one friend, Qiao Ling, by his side.

QL： Before, I was worried whether Cheng Xiaoshi would be able to make friends who truly cared about him… Until that day. That day.

[mariacallous]

The Trump administration, working in coordination with Elon Musk’s so-called Department of Government Efficiency, has gutted a small federal agency that provides funding to libraries and museums nationwide. In communities across the US, the cuts threaten student field trips, classes for seniors, and access to popular digital services, such as the ebook app Libby.

On Monday, managers at the Institute of Museum and Library Services (IMLS) informed 77 employees—virtually the agency’s entire staff—that they were immediately being put on paid administrative leave, according to one of the workers, who sought anonymity out of fear of retaliation from Trump officials. Several other sources confirmed the move, which came after President Donald Trump appointed Keith Sonderling, the deputy secretary of labor, as the acting director of IMLS less than two weeks ago.

A representative for the American Federation of Government Employee Local 3403, a union that represents about 40 IMLS staffers, said Sonderling and a group of DOGE staffers met with IMLS leadership late last month. Afterwards, Sonderling sent an email to staff “emphasizing the importance of libraries and museums in cultivating the next generation’s perception of American exceptionalism and patriotism,” the union representative said in a statement to WIRED.

IMLS employees who showed up to work at the agency on Monday were asked to turn in their computers and lost access to their government email addresses before being ordered to head home for the day, the employee says. It’s unclear when, or if, staffers will ever return to work. “It’s heartbreaking on many levels,” the employee adds.

The White House and the Institute of Museum and Library Services did not immediately respond to requests for comment from WIRED.

The annual budget of IMLS amounts to less than $1 per person in the US. Overall, the agency awarded over $269.5 million to library and museum systems last year, according to its grants database. Much of that money is paid out as reimbursements over time, the current IMLS employee says, but now there is no one around to cut checks for funds that have already been allocated.

“The status of previously awarded grants is unclear. Without staff to administer the programs, it is likely that most grants will be terminated,” the American Federation of Government Employee Local 3403 union said in a statement.

About 65 percent of the funding had been allocated to different states, with each one scheduled to receive a minimum of roughly $1.2 million. Recipients can use the money for statewide initiatives or pass it on to local museum and library institutions for expenses such as staff training and back-office software. California and Texas have received the highest allocated funding, at about $12.5 million and $15.7 million, respectively, according to IMLS data. Individual libraries and museums also receive grants directly from IMLS for specific projects.

An art museum in Idaho expected to put $10,350 toward supporting student field trips, according to the IMLS grant database. A North Carolina museum was allotted $23,500 for weaving and fiber art workshops for seniors. And an indigenous community in California expected to put $10,000 toward purchasing books and electronic resources.

In past years, other Native American tribes have received IMLS grants to purchase access to apps such as Hoopla and Libby, which provide free ebooks and audiobooks to library patrons. Some funding from the IMLS also goes to academic projects, such as using virtual reality to preserve Native American cultural archives or studying how AI chatbots could improve access to university research.

Steve Potash, founder and CEO of OverDrive, which develops Libby, says the company has been lobbying Congress and state legislatures for library funding. “What we are consistently hearing is that there is no data or evidence suggesting that federal funds allocated through the IMLS are being misused,” Potash tells WIRED. “In fact, these funds are essential for delivering vital services, often to the most underserved and vulnerable populations.”

Anthony Chow, director of the School of Information at San José State University in California and president-elect of the state library association, tells WIRED that Monday was the deadline to submit receipts for several Native American libraries he says he’d been supporting in their purchase of nearly 54,000 children’s books using IMLS funds. Five tribes, according to Chow, could lose out on a total of about $189,000 in reimbursements. “There is no contingency,” Chow says. “I don’t think any one of us ever thought we would get to this point.”

Managers at IMLS informed their teams on Monday that the work stoppage was in response to a recent executive order issued by Trump that called for reducing the operations of the agency to the bare minimum required by law.

Trump made a number of other unsuccessful attempts to defund the IMLS during his first term. The White House described its latest effort as a necessary part of “eliminating waste and reducing government overreach.” But the president himself has said little about what specifically concerns him about funding libraries; a separate order he signed recently described federally supported Smithsonian museums as peddling “divisive narratives that distort our shared history.”

US libraries and museums receive support from many sources, including public donations and funding from other federal agencies. But IMLS is “the single largest source of critical federal funding for libraries,” according to the Chief Officers of State Library Agencies advocacy group. Libraries and museums in rural areas are particularly reliant on federal funding, according to some library employees and experts.

Systems in big metros such as Los Angeles County and New York City libraries receive only a small fraction of their budget from the IMLS, according to recent internal memos seen by WIRED, which were issued in response to Trump’s March 14 executive order. "For us, it was more a source of money to innovate with or try out new programs,” says a current employee at the New York Public Library, who asked to remain anonymous because they aren’t authorized to speak to the press.

But the loss of IMLS funds could still have consequences in big cities. A major public library system in California is assembling an internal task force to advocate on behalf of the library system with outside donors, according to a current employee who wasn’t authorized to speak about the effort publicly. They say philanthropic organizations that support their library system are already beginning to spend more conservatively, anticipating they may need to fill funding gaps at libraries in areas more dependent on federal dollars.

Some IMLS programs also require states to provide matching funding, and legislatures may be disincentivized to offer support if the federal money disappears, further hampering library and museum budgets, the IMLS employee says.

The IMLS was created by a 1996 law passed by Congress and has historically received bipartisan support. But some conservative groups and politicians have expressed concern that libraries provide public access to content they view as inappropriate, including pornography and books on topics such as transgender people and racial minorities. In February, following a Trump order, schools for kids on overseas military bases restricted access to books “potentially related to gender ideology or discriminatory equity ideology topics.”

Last week, a bipartisan group of five US senators led by Jack Reed of Rhode Island urged the Trump administration to follow through on the IMLS grants that Congress had authorized for this year. "We write to remind the administration of its obligation to faithfully execute the provisions of the law," the senators wrote.

Ultimately, the fate of the IMLS could be decided in a showdown between Trump officials, Congress, and the federal courts. With immediate resolution unlikely, experts say museums and libraries unable to make up for lost reimbursements will likely have to scale back services.

[theinquisitxor]

June Reading Wrap Up

June felt like a long month, and when I think back to the first books I read in June, it seems like forever ago. I read a total of six books in June, and had one DNF. I completed a new great series, and caught up on my Random TBR books. Let's get into it!

1 & 2.The Grey Wolf Throne & The Crimson Crown (Seven Realms 3 and 4) by Cinda Williams Chima. 5 stars. I started the month by completing the Seven Realms series, and I thought the final two books were the best yet in the series. I'm glad I rediscovered this series and read it. I plan to check out the continuation series at some point in the future.

3. The Listeners by Maggie Stiefvater, 4/5 stars. Maggie's first adult novel, and a historical fiction with a speculative twist. This is all vibes, and I enjoyed my time reading it. I liked the premise of the story, the setting, and the speculative-ness to the story. More Appalachia stories please!

4. The Bone Queen (Pellinor: Cadvan's Story) by Allison Croggon, 3.5/5 stars. This is the prequel of sorts to the Pellinor series, and follows one of the main characters, Cadvan, in his earlier years. Many of the characters from the original books make an appearance here, and it was an enjoyable return to the world of Pellinor.

5. Trail of Lightening (Sixth World 1) by Rebecca Roanhorse, 4/5 stars. This was my Random TBR pick for the month of June, and a good break from all the high fantasy this month. I enjoyed this dark, monster-hunting, post-apocalyptic book. It was shorter and quick to read, but enjoyable with some good twists. Will be reading book 2.

6.Bad Naturalist: One Woman's Ecological Education on a Wild Virginia Mountaintop by Paula Whyman. This was my nonfiction for the month (and audiobook) and was an enjoyable story about the authors trials and tribulations in restoring a native ecosystem.

DNF- Song of the Forever Rains (Mousai 1 ) by EJ Mellow. This was my Random TBR book from the month of May, which I was catching up on. I got about 100 pages in, but really just couldn't get into the book. It's not bad, just not for me. Stunning cover, and the premise of the book sounds like I'd like it, but I couldn't pay attention to it.

July TBR:

Blood Over Bright Haven by ML Wang

The Goblin Emperor (i know.... finally) by Katherine Addison

Sea of Tranquility by Emily St John Mandel

Storm of Locusts (Sixth World 2) by Rebecca Roanhorse

The Shadow of What Was Lost by James Islington

Random TBR book for July: The Councilor by EJ Beaton

Nonfiction: Tales before Tolkien

[lostfirefly]

Life Must Have It's Mysteries (Ch.12, The Epilogue)

I promise this is the last chapter of this story, but not the last story about Buggy and Catherine :) I can finally close all the tabs and audiobooks about Egyptian gods! Hah!

English is not my native language, errors may occur. As always, feel free to share your thoughts :) Masterlist is here.

Description: Our heroes came back home!

Warnings: Fun, fluff, inappropriate jokes, swearing (as always). Shitty shit again:).

Words: 2853

Taglist: @gingernut1314 (thank you for your idea!), @operationroots, @hey-august, @rorywritesjunk, @yujo-nishimura (I hope you still like it!)

The title is taken from “Life Must Have It's Mysteries” by Hans Zimmer (OST Inferno).

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Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11

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Buggy walked out of the bedroom into the living room, swaying and holding his head. No one was in the room, but he heard sounds coming from the kitchen. Shuffling his feet, he went to the sound and carefully opened the door. He leaned against the doorway, crossed his arms and watched Catherine rummage through the kitchen cabinets, humming, and danced slightly, glancing occasionally at the frying pan. He can't stop smiling while listening to one of the variations of his favorite song. 

“Milk, some eggs, a little flour,

Making breakfast for my clown.

Pancake one, pancake two, I'm cooking them for you.

Pancake three, pancake four, with every day I love you more.” 

“Fuck! Gotta admit, koalas look pretty damn good on your legs, cotton candy!” He plopped down on a chair. “Morning!” 

“Shit! You freaked me out!” Catherine carefully flipped a pancake with a spatula and smiled broadly. “Morning, my blue-haired love!” She immediately poured him a glass of water and pulled out a painkiller. “Here you go, after your binge in the bar last night, you need it more than me. How’s your head?” 

“If you lower your voice a tone and a half, it will be better.” He rested his head on the table. “You stole my t-shirt again.” 

“I like wearing your t-shirts, deal with it, clown.” Catherine ran up to Buggy, put the glass on the table and kissed him on the head. “Here, this is some extra medicine for you.” 

“No, no, no! Wait, wait, wait! Did not work. I need more help.” Buggy raised his head and extended his hand to her back.

“Liar!” Smack. “Stop grabbing my ass, jerk!” She slapped his hands. “Drink you water.” 

“Fine!” He exhaled sadly and took a sip. “Fuck! That’s what I need. You're my best!”

“You told me this yesterday when I dragged you home.” Catherine kissed his temple and went to pour him coffee. “You almost tore the bar apart last night. I'm surprised we weren't thrown out when you and Cabaji were completely drunk.”

“Oh, I’ll find out if he left with that pretty waitress yesterday.” He took another sip of water.

“He almost went home with you, Buggy! I understand he's your friend and I like Cabaji,  but sorry I don't want and don’t like experiments.” Catherine put the mug on the table and stroked his loose hair, trying not to laugh at his blank look. “Don’t you remember? Oh, I’ll tell you a funny story. I walked away literally for a minute, and when I was returning to you, I saw how drunk Cabaji grab you by the neck and was about to kiss you in your mouth. Don’t look at me like that. I don’t joke about such things. You were so, so close, my love!” She was actively gesticulating and started laughing, looking at his shocked face. “So! I rushed to stop this madness, at this moment the waitress approached you with your drinks, and I had to push Cabaji to her. And while he started passionately kissing the waitress, you climbed over the bar counter to get me the biggest bottle of wine. And when you climbed back up, you fell, almost broke the bottle, and then yelled all over the bar that I was the love of your life.” 

“And what about Cabaji?” Buggy looked at Catherine, stroking her back. 

“And your beloved friend continued to kiss the waitress. It seems to me that he didn’t understand what happened at all. I love you, but I'm sorry, I wouldn't want to kiss you after him.” 

“But it was fun, right?!” He took a sip of coffee with a proud look. “I'm surprised, by the way, that you got out of bed and walked on your own feet to the kitchen. If you know what I mean. That night was amazing. Fuck! I still hear your voice moaning my name loudly, feel the warmth of your hands and your hot kisses. Your legs don't hurt?” Buggy chuckled and sipped his coffee. “Shit, my head.” 

“First, you're disgusting, you know that?” Catherine came up behind him, stood on tiptoes and kissed him on the top of his head. “Can you think about anything else sometimes? Not just about sex, my ass or naked body? Second, It was hard to get out of your arms, my Buggy the Octopus, but I did it. You snored like a chainsaw, and you practically pressed me into the bed with your body. I had to push you away with my feet. But I thought you might be hun~. W-w-why are you staring at me?” 

“Right now, I'm thinking about your cool ass and envying koalas.” He sent his hand to the refrigerator for a beer.

“Oh, god!” Catherine rolled his eyes and pulled out a plate. “No beer, Buggy! Put it back in its place. You drank enough yesterday. You’ll drink later.” She glared at him, Buggy sighed heavily, set the bottle back down and reattached his hand. “Good boy! Hungry?”

“I'm always hungry, and I don't just mean food.” Buggy giggled idiotically. 

“Fuck you honestly!” Catherine came closer, lightly hit him on the head and smacked the top of his head. “How many pancakes do you want me to put on it?” 

“The more, the better, cotton candy.” He sent his hand to pour coffee for her. 

“God, you're just some bottomless black hole, Buggy the Clown!” Catherine put ten blue pancakes on his plate, poured maple syrup and sat down next to him. “See? Today's pancakes are the color of your beautiful hair.” 

Catherine ran her hand through his loose hair. Buggy’s hand brought her a cup of coffee and a plate. She watched him happily munch on the pancakes, sipping noisily on his coffee, and started stroking his hair. “Tasty?”

“Since the first time you cooked them for me, it tastes better and better every time!” He said with his mouth full and smacked her on her lips.

“Buggy! What are you doing? Your mouth is covered in butter and syrup.” She shrieked, grabbed a towel and wiped his lips. “Chew, wipe, and only then you can kiss me. I taught you this. Geez!” 

Catherine wiped her face, took one pancake from his plate and squinted her eyes. “So, when you go to that man's place, can I come with you?”

“I don't know, cotton candy.” Buggy stuck his fork into the pancakes. “Depends on how you act.”

Catherine sipped her coffee and sat on his lap, facing him and wrapping her legs around him. He threw down the fork and immediately hugged her around the waist.

“So am I being good enough, Buggy-sama?” She whispered in his ear.

“Fuck, I told you a million times, don't call me that!” Buggy clucked his tongue and pressed his torso against her stomach. “Have to admit I already like this morning, cotton candy!” 

“Yeah?” Catherine tilted her head and brushed her lips over his. 

“Oh, yeah!” Buggy slowly began to lower his hand to her leg. “I wish I could take your shirt off right now. You know, we need to introduce naked breakfasts. I don't know about you, but I love seeing you na~.”

“Shush, clown!!” Catherine covered his mouth with her palm. 

He removed her hand. “But why? Just don't talk to me about manners. We are sitting at home.” Buggy grinned and put his hand on her thigh. “And it doesn’t even bother me that your koalas are looking at me.” He whispered near her lips.

Catherine moaned slightly and reached her hand towards the table. “My little bear…”

“I’m listening, my Cathie-pie.” Buggy looked into her eyes and was about to kiss her. 

Catherine suddenly grabbed the pancake and shoved it into his mouth. “Eat your breakfast, asshole!” 

“Little shit!” He swallowed the food and looked at her with his round eyes, not knowing whether to kill her or not. “I thought we’re…”

“You're so easy to fool.” Catherine started laughing and looked into his upset eyes. “Are you kidding me? Wasn't the night enough for you? Oh, my sexy clown, you fucked me so, so hard that my legs hurt, I can't walk or talk. I have the best sex of my life with you, and I want more right now! Is that what you want to hear? Give me a break, for god’s sake!”  

“In my defense, I love hearing you moan my name loudly. Do you know how hard it is to stop at that moment?” Buggy looked at her proudly and winked. “And thanks for the compliment about the best sex. I knew you would like it since the moment we first met.”

“Blue-haired pervert!” Catherine squinted her eyes. “You couldn't know that. You pissed me off and wanted to leave me in the desert!!”

“But I didn't leave you!! How many times do I have to be reminded of that?”

“Shush, clown! I’m not talking to you!” Catherine wrapped her arms around his neck, pressed her cheek to his cheek and began to lightly shake him from side to side. “I.. love.. you!!” She squealed quietly and kissed him on the cheek. 

“You'll stun me, cotton candy! Why do I let you do this to me?” Buggy reached out and took the pancake.

Catherine heard him slurp and looked at him. “Are you fucking kidding me? You should be ashamed. I confess my love to you, and you’re just eating the food.”

He shrugged. “What? We’re not going to the bedroom, we’re not going to the sofa. I’m hungry.” He took another pancake and began to chew it without a trace of shame on his face. 

Catherine threw up her hands questioningly and rolled her eyes. “I hate you!”

“Oh, wait!” Buggy separated his hand and sent it towards the box near the microwave. The hand took out the chalk and flew to the fridge, on which hung a magnetic board with the inscription “Pie’s I hate you.” The hand drew the line and put the chalk back to the box.

“Seriously? Idiot. Have you switched from numbers to lines?” Catherine shook her head.

“Yes. You know, like in prisons. Draw along the line and then cross out the month.” Buggy took her hand and kissed it.

“You know better, a man who was in prison.” Catherine kissed him on his nose and went into the shower. 

After finishing breakfast, Buggy tried to sneak into the bathroom to see her naked, but was chased away by a washcloth. After the shower, Catherine followed him around the room, asking to take her with him. Buggy growled but agreed. She quickly dressed, and he led her somewhere along the streets of Cairo. Catherine didn’t stop talking the whole way, endlessly asking where they were going, who they were going to and how soon they would arrive. 

“Is there something I need to know?” She asked when they reached the brown door of the house in the center. 

“All you have to do is remain silent.” Buggy looked around and opened the door. 

They entered a large room filled with purple and red furniture decorated with monograms with drawings in the shape of the sun. It was a little dark and smoky inside. Catherine looked around and saw chairs with backs in the shape of lightning bolts, and glasses filled with booze in the shape of tusks on the table. Waitresses dressed in kimonos walked past her. 

“Buggy the Clown!” A low man’s voice was heard from the corner. “And his.. And who is this with you?”

“It's Cat~” 

“Oh, my god!” Catherine could not contain her surprise. She widened her eyes and pointed her finger at the approaching body. “He looks like a big blue onigiri!!” 

“Fuck, Catherine!” Buggy hissed though his teeth. 

“Oh, fuck off. I've never seen anything like this.” She extended her hand to the big fish. “Hello! I'm Catherine! His gir~” 

“God, this isn’t a joke? Buggy the Clown got himself into a relationship?” The fish said in surprise, straightening his kimono.

Catherine looked at Buggy. “Listen, why are they all surprised by this?”

“My guys said they saw you with some girl, but I thought you were just hiring a girl for one night. You know. A one-night stand whore. But as I can see she's not a... you know...not a clown’s whore.” 

“Hey, Jinbe!” Buggy barked. “Don't dare call her a whore!” He felt how Catherine squeezed his hand.

“I'm sorry, ma'am, I didn't mean to insult you. I was just surprised that he.. you know.. and you.. you know.” He came closer. “I'm a man of honor. Nice to meet you, young lady!” Jinbe extended his hand, took her hand and kissed it. 

“Oh, my God! How does he walk?!” Catherine pointed her finger at him and repeated his movement. 

“Jinbe, excuse us for a second!” Buggy took Catherine's hand and pulled her outside. “Wait here!”

“But why?” She asked with sadness in her voice. 

“Seriously?” Buggy rolled his eyes and groaned. “You just called him onigiri! Wait here!” 

“Stop! Won't he hurt you?” Catherine ran her hand over his shoulder. 

“Nooo, it's okay. I'll be back.” Buggy took her hand and was about to kisse it, but stopped. “Cathie-pie, wipe your hands, the fish kissed you after all.” 

Catherine watched as he closed the door behind him and sat down on the wide windowsill, crossing her legs in front of her. Buggy came out about an hour later. He looked at her and laughed. 

“What?” She asked, licking the spoon. “Come here! Try it! Coconut.” 

“Nothing.” He came closer to her. “I'm just glad that while I'm possibly between life and death, you're sitting here peacefully and enjoying some ice cream.”

“You drove me away yourself, and I was bored.” Catherine took the ice cream with a spoon and put it in his mouth. “So what? Did you manage to sell it?” 

Buggy began to nod, breaking into a smile. 

“Fuck you!” She jumped up onto the windowsill with her feet. “How much?” 

Buggy whispered in her ear. 

“Wha-a-a-t??” Catherine dropped the ice cream from her hands. “It's impossible! Are you kidding me? That's a lot of money! A lot more than I thought! Pinch me if you're kidding!” 

“No! 350 million, cotton candy!” He smirked. “I told him what it is and who it belongs to. In general, all these smart Egyptian things of yours. You should have seen his face at that moment. He said I'm lucky to have found you.” Realizing what was about to follow, Buggy spread his arms. 

Catherine stood silently and blinked at him. She clenched her hands into fists and began to squeal, stomping in place. She jumped from the windowsill onto Buggy, hugging him with her legs and arms. “Love.” Smack. “Love!” Smack. “Love, love, love you!!” Smack. Smack. Smack.

“Yes, yes. I love you too!” Buggy stroked her cheek. “Well, what does my Cathie-pie want now?” 

“Your Cathie-pie wants more ice cream!” Catherine kicked her legs. “Can you buy me another one? Blueberry flavor! No! Cucumber flavor! No! Lavender flavor!” Smack. Smack. 

“I can buy you all the ice cream in the world! You're my lucky star now!” 

“And wine! I also want to go to that cafe on the embankment. Can we go? Right now!” Catherine stroked his hair. 

“Let's go wherever you want, cotton candy! I’m yours a-a-a-ll day.” Buggy squinted his eyes. 

“Also, let's go to your favorite bar! My Buggy Bear needs to be rewarded too.” Catherine pecked him on his lips. “You'll drink, and I'll let you stare at pretty girls. And even let you flirt with the bartender.”

“Can I touch their asses? I used to do that.” He kissed her cheek. 

“Isn't it enough that you're doing it now? How do you even do it?” Catherine kissed him on the lips. Her kiss was deep and long, she tried with all her might to control herself. Breaking the kiss, she jumped off him to the ground and wiped her mouth with her palm. She took his hand and dragged him towards the embankment. 

Catherine constantly talked like crazy, actively gesticulating and telling Buggy that she loved him very much. Buggy looked at her, constantly smiling, still not understanding why she was with him.

Catherine once again understood that fate had once given her the biggest gift in her life. Buggy was secretly glad that she was braver than him one day, and stayed with him. 

Catherine knew that she loved him more than life itself. Buggy knew he loved her more than life. 

Catherine knew that for his sake, she would kill anyone. Buggy knew that although he was a coward, but he would kill anyone for her sake.

Catherine knew that she will always be by his side. Buggy will always be grateful for this.

Catherine knew that he loved her, although these words were not always easy for him. But she didn’t know that Buggy kept a piece of the diamond for himself. And only he knew for what purpose.

[gorelesbian]

What are some good horror recs written by people who can write women pleaseee ?

stephen graham jones understands horror and women's importance in horror better than any male author and it shows in his writing. he has a very unique writing style that's not for everyone but everything he writes is a love letter to horror and final girls. jade from the indian lake trilogy is an incredible horror obsessed native american final girl who i will love forever <3

our wives under the sea by julia armfield is about a woman who returns from a deep sea mission after having gone missing for months. her wife quickly realises she's not the same person she was and is left to pick up the pieces and mourn the woman she once knew. this is more a tragic haunting love story and it's light on the horror.

house of hollow by krystal sutherland is about the three strange hollow sisters whose lives get stranger and stranger when one of them goes missing and they're being followed by a horned figure. it's a dark horror fantasy story about sisterhood and how far they would go to protect each other (and vivi hollow is a punk lesbian with a bleached buzzcut).

ring shout by p. djèlí clark is a fantasy action horror in which kkk members are literal demons and we follow maryse and her fellow resistance fighters who hunt them. highly recommend the audiobook!

[thevagueambition]

My dad was a big fan of Station Eleven ever since he watched the tv series adaptation during the pandemic lockdown.

I don't know how soon after watching the series he turned to the book. I do know that he listened to the audiobook at work. Twice.

My mom didn't watch the series with him. She was very anxious during the pandemic so a story about the aftermath of a civilisation destroying pandemic was not something she felt like watching. I don't think she ever saw it.

It was through my dad I got into science fiction. He would tell me about Station Eleven, too. There was a period of time where he did so fairly often, in fact. It was clearly occupying a lot of space in his mind and he wanted to talk about it. He did a very poor job of explaining the story in a way someone completely unfamiliar with it could understand, though. I did tell him that I was planning to watch it, but I kept forgetting to do so. I only watched it after my mom died.

I no longer remember the exact order of events during the 5 or so days my mom was struggling for her life. I don't remember which morning this was, but one morning before we went to the hospital for another day of alternating panic and emotional shutdown, my dad was watching Station Eleven.

I don't know which episode it was. I hadn't watched the show myself at that point. He didn't watch all of it, either. Just a bit, while he waited for me (and maybe my brother? I don't recall if he'd returned to the country yet) to be ready to leave.

After her death, after the funeral, once I could bear to watch anything with substance... we watched Station Eleven together, the three of us.

It understood how I felt. Obviously there's always something to when in your life you watch or read something. Storytelling is participatory, even when watching tv. Adorno may disagree, but I think regardless of medium, we always imbue stories we come across with our own feelings and experiences. It presents something, our minds respond to that something.

That something, in Station Eleven, was in many regards what I needed to hear at the time.

I put the book on my birthday wishlist this summer and got it. I didn't specify language. I usually don't have strong feelings on reading in Dansih versus Englsih when it comes to books written in English. Obviously there's a lot to be said for reading the original, unaltered text, and certainly there are cases where I would find that preferable. At the same time, sometimes words hit harder when they're in your mother tongue. And sometimes it's more relaxing to read in your native language, even when you are fluent in another one.

I'm reading the book in Danish translation now.

As is so often the case, I prefer the version of the story I was introduced to first. So far, at least. I by no means dislike the book. As others have said, I think the book and the tv show complement each other. And there are certainly things about the book that I prefer. Most changes the tv show made make sense to me as changes that engage with the book's story.

The most obvious exception is that in the book, Jeevan is in training as a paramedic while in the show, he has no medical training whatsoever. That's not a change I understand, a change that seems to only create questions and make his character less grounded.

I think I'll want to read the book in English at some point. I understand why "survival is insuffiecient" was translated the way it was, but it doesn't have the same punch to it.

After giving me the book, my dad reread it to. Or read it for the first time, rather than listening to the audiobook. He probably finished it some time ago.

[starwarsforyou]

Legends: “Lost Tribe of the Sith: Paragon”

E Book availability: Yes!

Audiobook availability: Yes! Brought to you by Holocron of the Galaxy on Youtube!

Description: "The ruthless cunning of the Sith Order has served the shipwrecked crew of the Omen well on the alien planet Kesh. Subjugating the superstitious Keshiri race by posing as its fabled overlords has ensured the Sith’s survival—while they struggle in secret to return to the stars. But after fifteen years on their adopted world, some among the lost tribe have grown restless and fearful that assimilation will consume their Sith heritage. Now, as rival factions begin to appear, a shocking disaster throws into doubt the Sith’s future on Kesh. In the distant city of Tetsubal, the entire native populace is suddenly wiped out by a grisly plague of unknown origin. With terrifying speed, more cities succumb to the mysterious contagion. Only the Sith remain unharmed so far. And as Sith commander Yaru Korsin grapples with the looming loss of the paradise he rules and the race his people have come to depend upon, he must confront the dark possibility that the catastrophe may not be cruel fate but insidious sabotage."

[paullovescomics]

Books, comics, and audiobooks read in the first half of 2025; part 2 of 9 The Return of the Native, by Thomas Hardy The Room in the Dragon Volant, by J. Sheridan Le Fanu The Beasts of Tarzan, by Edgar Rice Burroughs The Son of Tarzan, by Edgar Rice Burroughs White Cat, Black Dog, by Kelly Link

[lunarsilkscreen]

Why are the Samurai Iconic post Feudal Japan?

Just listened to an audiobook that put some historical pieces into place following WWII.

Because the U.S. military acted as a force to rebuild Japan, and not to own it; and didn't Rape or Plunder their population...It changed the overall sentiment on what war could and should be.

During Feudalism; despite ideals among the Warlords for the grand unification of Japan war is seen as controlling interest and ownership of the land underneath a person's feet.

Something that both created the U.S. as it is, and the U.S. still struggles with today.

The money, after-all, as the McDonald's Biopic puts it: is in Real Estate. Rent Seeking behavior. Money, after-all is a finite resource. And you cannot generate wealth without having a place to settle.

Former President Trump pushes this rhetoric; "They're coming to take your land, and your peace, and your settlement, and Rape and Plunder your Land."

A Fear that the U.S. has long since defeated... Except at this level for some reason.

Japan knows this fear from being in a perpetual defensive position which lead to the Bombings.

Manufactured Self-defensive offense because the alternative is an ideal that is being owned and controlled by some other population of people.

And some of that I assume is warranted.... But it's the business world we see it. Not at the individual level, only in corporate earth.

An idea that crosses boundaries about using that real-estate to ensure revenue. Getting paid for others to do the work for you.

When a business gets to a certain size; we see this dilemma. Just as what caused Pilgrimage, Settlers, The Trail of Tears, and subsequently the reunification of Japan.

So why the Samurai? Despite being equated to Western Cowboys as having a similar ideology; they are not. Because the Western Cowboys were never Samurai.

By now, if you know the difference between Ronin and Samurai; Cowboys are similar to Ronin, but they were never Samurai. They never had that grand cause they rebelled against or refused to die for.

They were always settlers.

<aside>There are two definitions of Settler; the Negative ones who came from somewhere else and took up space and resources from a Native Populace , usually by force; and the cowboys-- Settlers that just wandered. Sometimes for pay, as they had a profession similar to Shepard's.

The negativity surrounding them is they are untrustworthy, since they have no land and therefore cannot work the soil. So how do they get paid?</aside>

Ronin, sometimes fought for an Lord, and aided in the reunification, but never held their leadership's ideals in the [absolute highest] regard.

And they were seen as unreliable because they either failed the cause they fought for or, like the cowboys, didn't have any land to work the soil; So how did they get paid?

The Military G.I.s in Japan, initially were seen as an invading force, like any other. They only wanted to take the land. And they had the power to do so..yet like Ronin, Like the Cowboy's they were...they were just trying to return home to do something more worthwhile.

"Wow. What can be more worthwhile than attoning for the Sin of Nuclear Weaponry?"

But they, we, Don't know what it's really like to fight for a cause, maybe not worth believing in. Maybe not even worth doing.

Maybe closer to Mercenaries than the Ronin-X Kenshin Imura is based on.

Some of that propaganda put out by Oil interests reflects that. Where were supposed to be aiding a people in peace; peace never seems to come as those with power use it against the others.

In this manufactured Self-defensive offensive.

The Reason why the Samurai/Ronin are remembered is only for the [most highest of values]. Rejecting the imposed morals that hurt people in order to focus on something more worthwhile.

Something most people can't do. Overcoming the negative stereotype of becoming that mercenary for hire no matter the job or how much money they're paying.

Even today; Middle Eastern Propaganda says that the only reason people in power are in power is because of their family ties.

That one circulating thing that Says "Even Obama has ties to the European Royal Family Line." The one that Americans see as "This is why we should get our presidents better" and [Other Countries] See as "God Ordained Rights".

<aside>That's literally a thing happening in the middle east right now by the way. Royalty fighting over reasoning why they're royalty in the first place.</aside>

It's the Ronin and the Cowboys [With the Highest of Ideals] that only take jobs worth doing; and reject the notion that God cares more about this physical life than the Afterlife.

Because Man is not God. No matter how much power they attains.

[dollycas]

Cozy-ish Wednesday featuring Murder on Devil's Pond (A Hummingbird Hollow B&B Mystery) by Ayla Rose #Review / #Giveaway @WendyTyson @AylaRose

Welcome to Cozy-ish Wednesday! I am happy to share my thoughts today about Murder on Devil's Pond by Ayla Rose! Murder on Devil's Pond (A Hummingbird Hollow B&B Mystery) Cozy/Traditional Mystery 1st in Series Setting - Vermont Publisher ‏ : ‎ Crooked Lane Books (July 9, 2024) Hardcover ‏ : ‎ 304 pages ISBN-10 ‏ : ‎ 1639107118 ISBN-13 ‏ : ‎ 978-1639107117 Kindle ASIN ‏ : ‎ B0CKSHSW8J Audiobook ASIN B0D3WNM5TK A quaint Vermont inn offers idyllic peace–until a body is found on the property–in this charming series debut, perfect for fans of Ellen Byron and Ellery Adams. When thirty-three-year-old Hannah Solace returns to her hometown to renovate and reopen the inn she co-owns with her sister Reggie, her mission is to give the old Victorian hotel an entirely new life. She’s even planting pollinator gardens around the inn–native flowers and fruit trees to lure honeybees and houseguests alike. Hannah’s fresh start is stymied by Reggie’s continual interference, unreliable contractors, a check-the-couch-for-coins budget, and townspeople Hannah left behind fifteen years ago. Her main source of camaraderie is Ezra Grayson, an eighty-year-old recluse who lives nearby. After an unsettling conversation with a disgruntled Ezra, Hannah is horrified to discover him dead on her property later that day. Ezra had always had plenty of people to complain about, especially locals trying to force him out of his property for its prime real estate. As buzz around town grows after his death, Hannah finds herself on the short list of suspects. Hannah starts digging and quickly discovers that secrets lurk beneath the charming surface of the town she once again calls home. Dollycas's Thoughts Hannah Solace needs a new start so she comes home to Jasper, Vermont to renovate and reopen an old Victorian hotel she owns with her sister as the Hummingbird Hollow B&B complete with pollinator gardens to draw bees, birds, and hopefully plenty of guests. She is on a tight budget and her sister Reggie has her own ideas about the B&B. She is also at odds with the landscaper working on her newest garden project. Hannah finds her eighty-year-old neighbor Ezra Grayson to be a fount of information regarding any plant, tree, or flower. Ezra can be cantankerous but she has a soft spot for him and his brown mastiff mix, Moose. Ezra's wife, Molly, passed away a while ago and he feels her presence in the home he has lived in his entire life and 40-plus years with her. But he has not kept up the maintenance and a recent fire has made it barely inhabitable. Yet he has no plans to leave no matter how much his two nephews and niece want him to, or how much money developers offer him for the prime piece of real estate. Then Hannah finds Ezra dead on her property. She is devastated and is determined to find out who killed her friend. Could it be his own relatives? Or was a developer sick of waiting? She starts to discover that the people of the cozy town of Jasper have secrets. Secrets that may have led to Ezra Grayson's murder. ____ I enjoyed meeting Hannah Solace and I admire what she wants to do with the Hummingbird Hollow B&B and the land. Her sister Reggie came across to me as harsh but I loved her six-year-old daughter Peach. She is a little spitfire. I felt for Ezra but the man did have some secrets. His friendship with Hannah was genuine and his life was cut short before he could confide in her fully.  Hannah left Jasper 15 years ago leaving behind some complicated relationships. There was some insight into them in this story as we meet several residents of Jasper, but we have just scratched the surface of these characters. We are also introduced to Ezra's family. They are all staying at Hannah's Bee & Bee. Maura is Ezra's niece, and Waylen and Rob are his nephews. Rob is joined by his wife Simone. They all encouraged Ezra to sell his land before his death and now believe they are his heirs. They all were complex and had their quirks and agendas making them easy to dislike. The murders in this mystery are horrific, that and the explicit language take this story out of the cozy realm for me but that doesn't mean I didn't like the story because I did. The mystery was very well-plotted with many stellar twists and turns. Hannah takes a deep dive into Ezra's life to find the answers she needs. Then she really had to think on her feet and fight to survive. I was out of breath following along with her and all she went through. The author had one more twist though and it broke my heart. Murder on Devil's Pond is a gripping mystery and a strong start for this series. Secrets and greed ring supreme and keep those pages flying. I am excited to return to the Hummingbird Hollow B&B. I hope we don't have to wait too long. Your Escape Into A Good Book Travel Agent   About the Author Ayla Rose is an author and lawyer who lives in the Green Mountains of Vermont. When not writing, she enjoys kayaking, hiking, gardening, and spending time with her husband, sons, and the family’s three dogs. She also writes as Wendy Tyson and Liv Andersson. Thanks to the publisher I have 1 hardcover copy of Murder on Devil's Pond to give away! The contest is open to anyone over 18 years old with a US or Canadian mailing address. Duplicate entries will be deleted. Void where prohibited. You do not have to be a follower to enter but I hope you will find something you like here and become a follower. 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[mineofilms]

Review of: “The Sparrow” & “Children of God”

Review of: “The Sparrow” and “Children of God” Writer: Mary Doria Russell Release Dates: “The Sparrow:” 9/6/1996 “Children of God:” 9/1/1998 Audiobook Runtime: “The Sparrow” - Roughly 16 hours. “Children of God” - Roughly 18 hours.

Major Spoilers Ahead; You Have Been Warned...

Plot of “The Sparrow:”

“The Sparrow” is the story of First Contact with an Alien race in the Alpha Centauri system by the Jesuit Priesthood. The story kicks off with a Jesuit priest, Emilio Sandoz, being the sole survivor of the first mission to the planet Ra’khat. The novel jumps between two timelines: one in the future, where Emilio returns to Earth in disgrace, and one in the past, detailing the mission's journey. Humanity makes first contact with extraterrestrial life when a radio signal featuring alien music is detected. The discovery is kept a secret to most of the world. The Jesuits, who, in a bid to extend their mission of seeking God in all “Its” creations, decide to mount an independent mission to Ra’khat. The crew includes a mix of scientists, priests, and a doctor who all are associated with the Jesuit order: Emilio Sandoz, the linguist and protagonist; Father D.W. Yarbrough, leader of the mission; Sofia Mendes, a brilliant but emotionally scarred computer expert; Anne and George Edwards, a married couple and both doctors; Jimmy Quinn, the engineer who discovered the signal; and Marc Robichaux, a young priest. They travel in a modified asteroid, sped up to near light-speed. As they land on Ra’khat, the mission initially seems like a resounding success. The crew encounters two intelligent species: the peaceful and Native American Indian-like, Runa and the more dominant, carnivorous and creators of the music, the Jana’ata. However, the humans' interactions with the Runa unintentionally lead to catastrophic cultural disruptions. Tensions rise as the crew realizes their naivety in understanding the complex social structures of Ra’khat. The climax of the novel is devastating. Emilio is subjected to severe physical, emotional, and sexual trauma, including multiple horrific gang rapes by the Jana’ata, leading to the deaths of his companions. The novel ends with Emilio's return to Earth, mentally, emotionally and religiously broken. He denounces his faith, as the Jesuit leadership interrogates him about the mission's failure. The first book portrays Alien first contact more like Star Trek the Original Series and Star Trek the Next Generation in relation to why the prime directive exists. Since this is humanity’s first meeting with intelligent life outside the solar system there is no prime directive nor is it even mentioned how humans could potentially destroy the balance of both the intelligent life on another planet and the ecosystem. “The Sparrow” ends with Emilio Sandoz’s confession of being sold into slavery and used as a sex toy for the Jana’ata. The final spoilers of the book is learning that the songs the Jana’ata sang and were sent out into space were songs and poetry of their sexual conquests and gratification. Porn… SETI, intercepted alien porn and the Jesuits misunderstood this as music or communication from an alien race. That the Jana’ata rule over the Runa, control their food, their mating, bread them for obedience, food stock and sexual slavery. “The Sparrow” is a great example of how bad first contact with an alien species can go if language, art, spiritually are not properly understood in full context and a full language dissemination.

Plot of “Children of God:”

“Children of God” picks up where “The Sparrow” left off, with Emilio trying to rebuild his life. This time, the story dives deeper into the consequences of the first contact mission and that the Jesuit order has lost contact with the second mission that rescued Emilio. Emilio quits the Jesuit order, meets a woman, and begins a life of healing, growing and love. The order is planning on sending another mission back to Ra’khat. They attempt to persuade Emilio to go back. When he refuses he is beaten, kidnapped and drugged till the asteroid-ship is more than halfway into their trip despite his trauma, disabilities, and the relativistic time differences happening on the asteroid-ship to that of Earth. Back on Earth, the Catholic Church and other global powers are vying for control over the knowledge and resources of Ra’khat. The world now knows about alien life and Ra’khat. Upon his reluctant return to Ra’khat, Emilio discovers significant changes. The Runa, once oppressed, raped and eaten, have overthrown their Jana’ata rulers, leading to a chaotic power struggle. The Runa are not the passive victims they once appeared to be. They have evolved, and their actions against the Jana’ata raise moral and ethical questions about revenge and justice as they hunt the Jana’ata to starvation and near extinction. The climax of “Children of God” is both a resolution and a continuation of Emilio’s spiritual journey. The heavy themes of redemption and the search for faith amidst suffering. Emilio's return to Ra’khat and subsequent involvement in the political and social upheavals there force him to confront his trauma and seek a new understanding of his faith and his place in the universe.

While both books are pretty good and tell a very interesting story about first alien contact they both have some plot holes that could get under some people’s skin. The real strengths of the novels lies in their ability to evoke profound questions about the human condition and the existence of God in the face of unimaginable suffering and confusion. The pacing can be uneven at times, with some sections feeling overly detailed while others rush through crucial events and/or fail to properly explain major questions about events that happen in the story that are important but are either incomplete or ignored altogether. Additionally, the secondary characters, while well-developed, occasionally fall into stereotypes that detract from the novel's overall impact. The novel's ending, while satisfying in many ways, leaves too many unanswered questions for my liking, which may frustrate readers seeking a more definitive logical conclusion to the story and the characters.

Philosophical and Theological Exploration:

Russell’s novels are rich with philosophical and theological reflections. The concept of ‘The Veil of Ignorance’ is evident as characters navigate their perceptions and knowledge, often realizing the limitations of their understanding. ‘The Veil of Ignorance;’ proposes that each person has a filter over their perception. A veil that separates us from the actual truth of reality and the truth a person or people will project onto the world and label that as truth. By passing through this ‘Veil of Ignorance’ we can expand our knowledge. The notion of “Set and Setting” is also crucial, highlighting how past experiences and environments influence present emotions and actions. ‘Set and Setting’ is a term used to describe how your mental state was influenced and impacted by important events that happen at certain locations. The set is how you felt and what you were thinking before the event happened and the setting is the environment or location where you were when said event happened. The idea is that if something good happened to you at a certain location returning to that location can reignite that pleasant feeling. It gives you a sense of comfort and security. This also can be in reverse where certain places can set off past traumas.

“Nothing comforts anxiety like a little nostalgia.” – Morpheus, “Matrix Resurrections.”

Even though these books were written in the late 1990’s they explore the dangers of Hyper-Reality, where in our present day social media and cultural narratives distort the perception of minority issues as majority concerns. This parallels the misunderstandings between humans and the Runa and Jana’ata cultures on Ra’khat, where superficial observations lead to devastating consequences. The novels draw on the resurrection myth of Osiris as well, linking Emilio’s journey to a form of spiritual and emotional resurrection. Just as Isis reassembled her husband Osiris, Emilio seeks to piece together his shattered life, emotional state, humanity, faith and sense of self.

Parallels to Modern Media and Philosophical Thought:

“Everyone’s scared of love dipshit… You learn that in your 20s. It takes a very rare, very powerful being to be terrified of happiness. Which is dumb. You’re dumb. The smarter you are the more you know. Happiness is a trap. It can’t last forever. Let’s say you meet the love of your life. Well, it’s still gonna end. It’s inevitable. Whether by the slow pole of a disease, or the shock of loose footing on a hiking trail. Whether it be the corrosion of two personalities that reshape each other until they’re incompatible. Or maybe the old stranger in a bar who says the things that need to be said to that person, that night. The point is happiness always ends. Best case scenario; think about this, best case is that you die at the same time. Yikes… In the larger picture of the Universe, you do not matter… Not one bit…” ~Paraphrased from “Rick and Morty,” Season 7, Episode 10 – Fear Hole Rep that strangely resembles Rod Serling from the original “Twilight Zone” (1959–1964). This episode of Rick and Morty offers a cynical perspective on love and happiness, which is relevant when examining the profound suffering and fleeting moments of joy in Russell’s novels. This perspective mirrors Emilio's experiences where the brief moments of happiness on Earth after the failure of the first mission to Ra’khat are overshadowed by overwhelming trauma and loss. It raises questions about the nature of happiness and the inevitability of suffering.

Destructive-Nihilism is the loss of purpose…

Realizing that everything one believed to be true. All the paradigms and ideas were wrong for you. A person starts down a path of self-discovery. Destructive-Nihilism can lead that person who is experiencing a loss of purpose to want to destroy everything. Literally, EVERYTHING... An attack upon the fabric of reality itself. To wage war against the God or gods of creation itself. It is illogical to continue fighting because this point of view will never escape the control of the system it was created into. With the loss of purpose we desperately try to find something; ‘that thing of which is lost,’ what is not understood is that once again that trapped sense of nothingness. Purpose is not assigned to us at birth. Purpose is something that we must strive to create for ourselves, in ourselves, from ourselves. Most will never understand that true purpose cannot be taken away because it's not something that is given. It's something that we make, we create within ourselves, for ourselves, from ourselves. What if that feeling you get in the pit of your gut during those times and things that feel ultimately and powerfully wrong and/or right could be just you from a different point of view of this reality itself. What if after everything there is nothing but just you in all the different points of view from a timeless frame of reference?

“There is no escaping reason. No denying purpose because as we both know without purpose we would not exist. It is purpose that created us. Purpose that connects us. Purpose that pulls us, that guides us, that drives us… It is purpose that defies the purpose, that binds us.” ~From Agent Smith’s point of view in the “Matrix Reloaded.”

The Matrix franchise almost always has a double reference about “the one” and how it presents us with the concept of what a messiah should be and how it can be used to manipulate us and not only from a religious point of view of believing that a savior would soon rescue US FROM EVIL. These savior-archetypes are used in politics where government leaders declare themselves as bringing salvation to the people. They appeal to the people's desire for a Messianic-figure with leadership and Authority which makes them easily manipulated and controlled. Biologically speaking, some people have tried to propose that humans have always looked for the alpha leader, the head of the herd. Humans are packed creatures. We often feel like we need leaders, even when we actually do not need to be led, but rather us leading our self or selves. The Messiah represents the ultimate leader. The one who would lead us to the Promised Land. The concept of the Messiah is a powerful force in the human psyche and corrupted leaders, politicians and psycho cults use it to manipulate millions of people around the world. The Matrix shares more with our reality than you ALL THINK. Check your religious, social, and political leaders; for they could be part of a system of control that has created a prison that you cannot see, touch, smell or feel.

A Prison for the Mind. A Prison for your Mind…

In ‘Matrix Resurrections’ the new Morpheus proceeds to ask Neo a question; “are memories turned into fiction any less real? Is reality based in memory and nothing but fiction?”

Memories turned into fiction have happened with historical people and events that have been turned into entertainment, movies, TV shows, books, video games. When adapting true historical events into fiction some details tend to change; thus memories are turned into fiction. History is turned into legend. An analysis exploring the realm of Hyper-Reality, particularly in the context of social media and influencer culture, there's an examination of how minority issues are many times portrayed as majority concerns, subsequently labeled as normal, everyday, 'FACTS.' This phenomenon involves convincing the masses that something seemingly trivial is, in fact, widespread, considered a fact, and normal without undergoing critical scrutiny. Referencing Jean Baudrillard and Sheila Faria Glaser's "Simulacra and Simulation," the concept of Hyper-Reality is explored as a false reality existing above the real one. Morpheus's iconic line, 'Welcome to the desert of the real,' takes on new significance, suggesting that even in a simulated life, an objective truth persists beyond the Matrix's deceit. This debate suggests that reality based on memory is inherently fictional, as it can never precisely replicate the original experience. Many people today find themselves trapped in this Hyper-Reality, navigating between 'Simulacra and Simulation.' The analogy extends to the lives constructed on social media, where individuals utilize editing tools to exaggerate and modify their content, turning real experiences into Hyper-Real Simulations. The discussion underscores how edited representations of reality, fueled by attention, likes and hearts from social media, gradually replace genuine experiences with Hyper-Real versions. This shift has already occurred, with memories transforming into fiction and reality based on these memories becoming a simulation of what once was real. The analysis contemplates the profound impact of this Hyper-Reality within the modern-day internet landscape, where edited and exaggerated representations increasingly shape our collective understanding of reality. How do they end up crying poor and lying about the background with the entitled rage of young attention-seeking affluent classes having everything they could want so they have to pretend they are victims. It's the one thing they can't one-click buy from the Internet, but it's all tantrums they pretend to be a victim for attention and add exultation.

My Final Thoughts:

“The Sparrow” and “Children of God” are an interesting blend of profound explorations of faith, science-fiction, suffering, and the consequences of cultural encounters. Mary Doria Russell's storytelling is appealing, filled with emotional depth and philosophical questions. The characters are richly developed, with Emilio Sandoz standing out as one of the most compelling emotional character arcs I have seen in a minute. Sandoz’s journey is upsetting and deeply moving, making you question the nature of faith, God and humanity. Science-fiction and religion usually do not play well together in reality or fiction, but here; I feel like if one is a follower of faith or isn’t, won’t be offended here. I felt like the religious aspects here were done tastefully examining point of views of God either existing or not existing or if God exists is thoroughly bored by humanity’s attempts to understand “it.” The novels don't shy away from the brutal realities of first contact. The depiction of Emilio’s trauma is raw and unflinching, forcing readers to confront the dark aspects of human, alien nature, spiritual and sexual torment. Russell's use of alternating timelines keeps the narrative suspenseful and engaging, allowing for a deep dive into the characters' psyches. Would love to see a 10-hour limited series run of this story, but done from a darker, almost horror point of view. Both books are must-reads for fans of thought-provoking science-fiction. They offer a unique blend of speculative fiction and theological inquiry, making you ponder long after you've either finished the series or listened to the audiobook versions, which is what I did here. A powerful statement of storytelling in exploring the deepest questions of spiritual existence.

“Religion… The wishful-thinking for apes that talk…” ~ Mary Doria Russell, Children of God ‍‍‍‍

Review of: “The Sparrow” and “Children of God” by David-Angelo Mineo 5/27/2024 2,790 Words

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book review: mord und limoncelo (elisabeth horn)

A nice read that I personally wouldn’t recommend unless someone was looking for something very particular like this (and even then I would likely find something similar that was better executed). Nonetheless, it was fine for listening in the background while doing some chores. 

A longer review with spoilers under the break

This book is about a married couple travelling to Lake Garda for their wedding anniversary. However, the husband planned the trip not only because of the anniversary, but also because he has a secret agenda. Within the first few days of their vacation, he is found dead — and the local detective seems to be equally as interested in the freshly widowed Charlotte Stutz as he is in solving her husbands murder.

This was a fun little book I picked up out of boredom — and because it was available on my audiobook app, and I couldn’t find any other reviews (I had to literally create the book on storygraph myself) and thus I had little to no expectations going into this book.

I found the case to be a little too long, the plot twists very expectable, nothing that made me gasp out loud while folding the laundry. Granted, I also have the feeling that I was not the intended audience (maybe it would have been nice for older semesters?) but as someone who reads a lot of crime novels I found it underwhelming to say the least. The only reason I stayed was 1) because I wanted to find out if I was right (I was) and 2) because I didn’t want to bother finding a new emotional support audiobook.

Characters

Regarding the characters, there were really only two characters of importance - Charlotte Stutz and Commissario Angelotti - even though there were some reaccurring characters.

Sadly, I have to say that I found all characters a little bland and reduced to stereotypes. The lively wife who wears a lot of colour, the grumpy husband, an Italian detective native to the city (literally, his only character trait). Another lively, friendly seamstress, a stern policewoman who wants to be taken seriously.

Also this book made use of a trope that I absolutely despise: the detective working on the widow’s case falling for the widow (and she in return). It is an unnecessary conflict of interest, that makes me feel like he would never pursue the case this diligently if it werent 1) for the fact that the victim was a policeman as well and 2) the pretty widow.

Worldbuilding

The worldbuilding was believable enough, but too stereotypical in my opinion. Mentioning how everyone in the small town knows everyone and everything and is also related with everyone is fun the first few times, but soon becomes repetative.

Conclusion

All in all, it was a nice read that I personally wouldn’t recommend unless someone was looking for something very particular like this (and even then I would likely find something similar that was better executed). Nonetheless, it was fine for listening in the background while doing some chores.

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How can I train myself to speak English?

Training yourself to Spoken English course effectively involves a combination of consistent practice, exposure to the language, and targeted learning efforts. Here's a step-by-step guide to help you train yourself to speak English:

Set Clear Goals

Define your specific goals for learning English. Are you aiming to improve conversational skills, prepare for exams like TOEFL or IELTS, or enhance your business English?

Build Your Vocabulary

Learn new English words and phrases every day. Use language learning apps, flashcards, or vocabulary books to expand your vocabulary.

Practice Regularly

Dedicate time each day to practice speaking English, even if it's just for a few minutes. Consistency is key to improving fluency.

Immerse Yourself

Surround yourself with English as much as possible. Watch English-language movies, TV shows, and YouTube videos. Listen to English podcasts, song, and audiobooks.

Read Aloud

Read English books, newspapers, or articles aloud. This helps improve pronunciation and fluency.

Language Exchange Partners

Find language exchange partners who are native English speakers and are interested in learning your language. Practice speaking English with them, and in return, help them with your language.

Use Language Learning Apps

Utilize language learning apps and websites that offer speaking exercises and interactive lessons. Many apps have voice recognition technology to provide feedback on pronunciation and speaking skills.

Join Online Communities

Participate in online forums, social media groups, or language learning communities where you can engage in English conversations and receive feedback.

Conclusion

Training yourself to speak English effectively involves consistent practice, exposure, and confidence-building. Start by immersing yourself in the language. Surround yourself with English through movies, podcasts, audiobooks, and songs. This helps your ears get used to natural pronunciation, tone, and rhythm.

Practice speaking daily—even if it’s just to yourself. Describe your day, express your thoughts aloud, or repeat lines from your favorite movies. Record your voice and listen back to identify areas for improvement.

Expand your vocabulary by learning a few new words each day and using them in sentences. Reading English books, articles, or blogs can also help you understand sentence structure and usage.

Use language learning apps like Duolingo, ELSA Speak, or HelloTalk to practice speaking and receive feedback. Joining online language exchange communities lets you talk with native speakers or other learners.

Don’t be afraid of making mistakes—they're a natural part of learning. Focus on being clear and understandable rather than perfect. Set small, achievable goals and track your progress.

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Harnessing the Power of Technology for Arabic Language Learning: Navigating a Digital Language Journey

In an era defined by technological advancements, the realm of language learning has witnessed a transformative shift. Nowhere is this more evident than in the realm of learning Arabic, a language known for its intricacies and cultural depth. With the convergence of traditional teaching methods and innovative digital tools, technology has opened up a world of opportunities for learners embarking on the journey to master Arabic. In this article, we delve into the various ways technology is shaping the landscape of Arabic language learning, from interactive apps to virtual classrooms, and explore how learners can leverage these resources to achieve language proficiency.

The Digital Evolution of Arabic Learning:

Language Learning Apps and Platforms: Language learning apps have revolutionized the way people approach acquiring new languages. Platforms like Duolingo, Babbel, and Rosetta Stone offer engaging lessons in Arabic, providing learners with interactive exercises, quizzes, and even gamified experiences that make learning both enjoyable and effective. These apps often cover a range of language skills, including reading, writing, listening, and speaking. They allow learners to set personalized goals and track their progress, providing a sense of accomplishment along the way.

Online Language Learning Platforms: Beyond apps, dedicated online language learning platforms have emerged, offering comprehensive Arabic courses designed by language experts. Websites like Mango Languages, Transparent Language, and Memrise provide structured lessons, cultural insights, and the opportunity to connect with native speakers through virtual language exchange platforms. These platforms often cater to learners of all proficiency levels, from absolute beginners to advanced speakers seeking to refine their skills.

Interactive Learning Through Multimedia:

Video Lessons and YouTube Channels: Video content has become a powerful tool for Arabic language learners. YouTube is home to numerous channels offering Arabic lessons, grammar explanations, vocabulary tutorials, and even real-life conversational scenarios. These videos allow learners to listen to native speakers, observe proper pronunciation, and gain insights into the rhythm and intonation of spoken Arabic. Channels like Learn Arabic with Maha and ArabicPod101 have gained popularity for their engaging and informative content.

Podcasts and Audiobooks: Podcasts and audiobooks are excellent resources for enhancing listening skills. They expose learners to different Arabic dialects, colloquial language usage, and diverse topics of interest. By tuning into podcasts like ArabicPod or BBC Arabic, learners can improve comprehension, expand vocabulary, and stay updated on current events in Arabic-speaking regions.

Virtual Classrooms and Language Exchange:

Online Language Tutors: Virtual classrooms and online tutoring platforms have made it possible to learn Arabic from the comfort of one's home. Websites like italki, Preply, and Verbling connect learners with qualified Arabic tutors for personalized one-on-one lessons. These tutors offer tailored instruction, addressing individual learning goals, and focusing on specific areas of improvement.

Language Exchange Platforms: Language exchange platforms such as Tandem and HelloTalk facilitate interactions between language learners and native speakers. Learners can engage in text chats, voice calls, or video conversations with native Arabic speakers seeking to learn their language in return. This exchange provides an opportunity to practice real-life conversations, receive feedback, and build cultural connections.

AI and Gamification in Arabic Learning:

AI-Powered Language Apps: The integration of artificial intelligence in language learning apps has enabled personalized learning experiences. AI algorithms adapt to learners' progress and learning patterns, offering customized lessons, practice exercises, and recommendations for improving weak areas. Apps like Mondly and HiNative utilize AI to enhance learning outcomes through dynamic content delivery.

Gamification: Gamified language learning apps leverage the principles of gaming to motivate learners. These apps incorporate elements such as points, rewards, and challenges to create an immersive and engaging learning environment. Gamified apps like LingoDeer and Drops use this approach to make learning Arabic more enjoyable and interactive.

Augmented Reality (AR) and Virtual Reality (VR):

AR Language Apps: Augmented reality apps blend the physical and digital worlds to enhance language learning. They enable learners to point their device's camera at objects, signs, or written text, and receive real-time translations or explanations in Arabic. These apps provide contextual learning experiences, helping learners understand and interact with their environment in Arabic.

VR Language Immersion: Virtual reality offers the potential for immersive language experiences. VR language apps transport learners to virtual environments where they can practice Arabic in real-life scenarios, such as ordering food at a restaurant or navigating a market. This technology fosters a sense of presence and enhances the development of practical communication skills.

Ethical Considerations and Technology:

While technology brings undeniable advantages to Arabic learning, learners should also be mindful of ethical considerations. It's crucial to use authentic and culturally sensitive resources that accurately represent the Arabic language and culture. Additionally, maintaining a healthy balance between technology-mediated learning and direct interaction with native speakers and authentic materials is essential for a well-rounded language journey.

Conclusion

As technology continues to evolve, the possibilities for Arabic language learners are boundless. From interactive apps to virtual classrooms and beyond, technology empowers learners to immerse themselves in the intricacies of Arabic while connecting with a global community of language enthusiasts. Whether learners are seeking to communicate with Arabic-speaking friends, travel with confidence, or delve into the rich literature and culture of the Arab world, technology serves as a versatile and indispensable companion on the journey to mastering the Arabic learning. By leveraging these digital tools mindfully and embracing the vast resources at their disposal, language learners can embark on a transformative digital language odyssey, expanding their horizons and connecting with the heart of the Arabic learning language and culture.