#and i'll show pictures and be obnoxious and it's going to happen whether i like it or not

[asvidema]

onto better things. i finally got to kuttenberg in my second playthrough and managed to get my hands on the closer look my canon henry has (black clothing and armor with hints of gold). so i will be taking lots of pictures around town and surroundings

[jennifersminds]

bestie what Lana Del Rey songs fit tvd characters or just tvd to you?

my bestie, my love, thank you so much for this ask !!!

as someone who's endlessly obnoxious about both tvd and lana del rey this is quite literally a dream come true so-,

SONGS FITTING TVD AS WHOLE

Video Games

"It's you, it's you, it's all for you. Everything I do, I tell you all the time"

tvd at it's core is about people doing unjustifiable things for 'love'. Whether i choose to read some relationships as more of a predatory obsession, the crux of this show is damaged grieving people sacrificing and further damaging themselves and others in the pursuit of it, see the mikaelsons with eachother and the salvatore's with Elena and Elena with basically everyone. And I've always read Video Games as both one of the most beautiful love songs of all time but also as an acknowledgment of codependence and lost potential. The song romanticises monotony and mundane life, which is fair. but there's a touch of melancholy beneath the surface of picture perfect normalcy. much like tvd itself.

Love

Look at you kids with your vintage music Comin' through satellites while cruisin' You're part of the past, but now you're the future Signals crossing can get confusing

...

Look at you kids, you know you're the coolest The world is yours and you can't refuse it Seen so much, you could get the blues But that don't mean that you should abuse it

following that theme,

"part of the past but now you're the future," Could refer to any of the vampire's in the show but I personally love it when thinking of Elena and the doppelganger's before her. In the background of all of history but with an endless future before her. "You could get the blues, But that don't mean that you should abuse it," EVERY FKN KID ON THAT SHOW. And yes I mean kid, the MF gang were children. And they did, in fact, get the blues and abuse it.

ELENA

Norman Fucking Rockwell

"you're just a man, it's just what you do, you're head in your hands as you colour me blue."

Anyone who's read my endless rambling before knows where I'm going with this but, jfc the salvatore's !!! Both Stefan and Damon (and canon as a whole but wtv) view their mistreatment of Elena as something unavoidable. Following the theme of horrific acts in the name of love from earlier, Stefan didn't have a choice in entering Elena's life. To him, it was his right, his purpose. (he had to know her).

Despite Elena being a grieving child who did not need any more bullshit in her life. He had too. And when that later caused even further turmoil, both from his own actions and indirect, unintended consequences. He metaphorically put his head in his hands, it wasn't just her suffering but him. In fact, if he really thought about it, later in canon, that is. It was almost equally her fault what happened. From his POV atleast.

Damon basically follows all the same beats but is more open about it, bemoaning his own lost chances with Elena as something completely disconnected to his very purposeful and avoidable choices to cause her pain. He's impulsive, it's not his fault.

"Goddamn, man child You act like a kid even though you stand six foot two"

Damon could only dream of being 6'2 but you get it.

Pretty When You Cry

"I'll wait for you, babe, you don't come through, babe You never do, babe, that's just what you do"

For one, she is very pretty when she cries, and two, see above.

ELIJAH (essentially every 'she fucked that old man' song in ldr's discography)

Million Dollar Man

"Someone as dangerous, tainted and flawed as you,"

"You're screwed up and brilliant Look like a million dollar man So why is my heart broke?"

He is screwed up and brilliant and he does break my heart.

BONNIE

Season of the Witch

Obviously, like... (also Davina, I never talk about her but that's my girl)

Pretty When You Cry

"I'll wait for you, babe, you don't come through, babe You never do, babe, that's just what you do"

Similarly too Elena, she's also pretty but the thesis of Bonnie's character is unfortunately being let down by the people around her. If tvd hadn't had jplec as a showrunner we probably would've gotten some proper character arc about that before season eight but...

ELEJAH

Cinnamon Girl

"There's things I wanna say to you But I'll just let you live Like if you hold me without hurting me You'll be the first who ever did"

kill me. literally fucking kill me like it's them fr.

BEKLENA

Doin' Time (yes it's a cover but Lana owns it tbf)

"Me and my girl, we got this relationship I love her so bad, but she treats me like shit"

The toxic girlfriends I deserved but wtv.

"I'd like to hold her head underwater"

Because she drowned her.

REBEKAH

Old Money

"But if you send for me, you know I'll come And if you call for me, you know I'll run I'll run to you, I'll run to you I'll run, run, run I'll come to you, I'll come to you"

Stuck in an endless cycle of finding freedom and falling back to help Klaus when he needs it.

"The power of youth is on my mind Sunsets, small town, I'm out of time Will you still love me when I shine From words but not from beauty My father's love was always strong My mother's glamour lives on and on Yet still inside, I felt alone For reasons unknown to me"

Never ending quest for humanity and mortality, her eventual fate of taking the cure. The loneliness of her thousand years etc

Honorable mentions for, Young and Beautiful (pretty much everyone's mortal x immortal ships anthem but specifically the Klarolines fuck with it so hard which I repect). Say Yes to Heaven, also works for literally every ship but it's always very Kolvina to me.

[justajsworkshop]

Hey, I wanted to share something with you to see if you can help me figure out what’s going on with me. You know how I can manifest “small” things, right? Well, I want to figure out how to do the same with the “big” ones.

So, every manifestation I’ve had so far at least since I learned about the Law of Attraction or Assumption has been for small things. Things I honestly don’t care that much about whether they show up or not.

For example, like six days ago, I saw this super cute shirt at Bershka. It was $30, and I thought, “Oh, that’s so nice, I’d love to have it.” But literally, I forgot about it. I didn’t think about it again, didn’t affirm, didn’t visualize, didn’t listen to subliminals, didn’t do any technique. Nothing. I just forgot about it because I didn’t see it as a big deal.

Then, 3 or 4 days later, my dad came home and handed me the exact same shirt I wanted. And I was like, “Wait, WHAT? How?” It was such a weird moment, and it made me think about all the other times this has happened—when I’ve manifested these “small” things, stuff that honestly doesn’t matter to me that much, like food, clothes, money, or even the phone I have right now.

I call them “small” because, compared to the big things I actually want in life, they’re nothing. They feel so insignificant to me that I don’t even bother to focus on them.

But here’s the frustrating part: why don’t my “big” desires manifest the same way? With the big ones, I put in time, energy, and effort. I do routines, techniques, listen to subliminals, affirm, visualize… and still, nothing. Absolutely nothing. Not even a single sign.

It’s like, why? It feels unfair. Like when you study so much for an exam while your classmate is out partying and posting pictures on Instagram. Then exam day comes, and you fail, and they pass. And when you ask how they did it, they’re like, “Oh, I didn’t study.” That’s exactly how it feels.

When I do nothing, I get what I want but only with things I don’t really care about. But the things I truly want, the ones that actually matter to me, they never show up.

So, I’m starting to think that maybe this whole “letting go” thing is my way of manifesting at least for small stuff. But why can’t I apply that same approach to the big desires? What am I doing wrong? How can I take that same “whatever” attitude and use it for the big things I care about?

Oh, and another thing that happens to me is that sometimes I dream about super random stuff that I don’t even want, and then it manifests in real life a day or two later. And I’m like, “Seriously? THIS shows up, but the thing I’ve been wanting for MONTHS doesn’t?

I don’t know, what do you think? Does any of this make sense? Sorry if I’m rambling or if something sounds weird I’m still trying to explain myself properly.

Thank you ✨💋

congratulations on sending what i'm pretty sure is the longest ask i've ever received lol. no one feel compelled to beat this record, please.

ok, so, i'm going to answer this ONCE, mostly so i never have to do it again. but tbh, you've really answered your own question here, and in this obnoxiously long response, i am going to detail why.

why do i manifest the small things but not the big things? the things i really care about?

let me bring us back to the foundations of what people call "manifestation." effort does not manifest. I AM doesn't operate under compulsion. a certain number of affirmations does not manifest. manifestation is instant to I AM awareness. time does not manifest. everything is only ever in the now to I AM.

so... if it's not 10k affirmations, if it's not a 7 day challenge, if it's not trying hard to be the best and study big for your "test" (i'll get more on this analogy you've used here because it's an interesting one), what the fuck does manifest? what is the mode of operation by which manifestation occurs?

YOU, as awareness.

you do not manifest what you tried the hardest for. you have proven that to yourself now. you manifest who and what you are conscious of being. and this is why i am ALWAYS asking on this blog: who do you say you are? whatsoever you add to the holy name of I AM is what you manifest. because YOU are reality. how you experience yourself and how you perceive yourself IS the reality you give yourself.

THERE IS NO SEPARATION. your experience of self is reality; therefore, you are reality.

take a step back and re-read your ask and tell me: who does this person say they are? because you're literally affirming that:

every manifestation I’ve had so far has been for small things -> i only manifest what i deem as "small" is what i get. i do not get "big" things.

I’ve manifested these “small” things, stuff that honestly doesn’t matter to me that much -> i don't get the stuff i care about, and this is how i define "small" vs. "big." small stuff = stuff i don't care about. big stuff = stuff i do care about.

When I do nothing, I get what I want but only with things I don’t really care about. But the things I truly want, the ones that actually matter to me, they never show up. -> doing nothing manifests for me BUT it's conditional upon the fact that i don't get what i truly want/deem important. i do not get what i really want. i don't have what i really want. all this "small stuff" that i do manifest is not evidence that i can manifest; it's further evidence that i cannot manifest what i really want.

With the big ones, I put in time, energy, and effort. -> i perceive separation between me and the stuff i really want. my fulfillment of "important/big" desires is conditional upon my good behavior/obedience to methods and techniques. there is a rift of time, space, energy, effort, and suffering that exists between me and my desire.

Not even a single sign. -> i rely on my physical senses to validate me; therefore, i am bound to them. they are my master.

It’s like, why? It feels unfair. Like when you study so much for an exam while your classmate is out partying and posting pictures on Instagram. Then exam day comes, and you fail, and they pass. And when you ask how they did it, they’re like, “Oh, I didn’t study.” That’s exactly how it feels. -> i am a victim to my lack of fulfillment. i don't get what i want. i try, and i try, and i try. no matter how much i try, i am unfulfilled. everyone else gets everything they want, but i don't. i see other people and their success as evidence of my nonfulfillment and separation from my desire.

another thing that happens to me is that sometimes I dream about super random stuff that I don’t even want, and then it manifests in real life a day or two later. And I’m like, “Seriously? THIS shows up, but the thing I’ve been wanting for MONTHS doesn’t? -> i am seeing how my awareness manifests. if i am aware of something—whether in the waking dream or the sleeping dream—it is reflected back to me. just not the shit i really care about. every time i notice myself "manifesting," i am given evidence of how i don't have what i really want. i am waiting. all i do is wait. i am the wait. i wait. i am waiting (verb) but also I AM waiting (waiting is who i am).

let be clear in that you are not unfulfilled. this statement might offend your human sense of self, which is fine. but you are not unfulfilled because the true you behind all this mess is absolute, perfect, and total fulfillment. you, as pure I AM awareness, are simply aware of a self who identifies with ^this hot mess express^ of an unfulfilling narrative.

your narrative of being is what you give to yourself. therefore, this experience is a perfect manifestation of your narrative: i don't get what i really want. you are perceiving EVERYTHING through that lens.

on the other hand, if you were perceiving these "small" manifestations through the lens of fulfillment, they could just as easily BE SIGNS that you already have your shit. it's your perspective and attitude that's deeming them as meaningless, unfulfilling, and even mocking instead of further evidence of your power: mostly because you don't identify as powerful. you're identifying as a victim.

to god, there is no such thing as big or small. all things simply are. god is infinite. to the infinite, there is only infinite or finite. it's either god (the totality of all things) or a part of god (which is still ALL of god), but what i'm trying to get at here is that manifesting $1 vs $10 billion dollars is the same in the eyes of god because $1 is just as limiting as $10 billion dollars. limiting is just limiting to an infinite being. they're equally "limited"; you just get to choose which one you want to experience by directing your awareness to one versus the other.

if you're not familiar with the parable of the prodigal son from scripture, i recommend checking it out. the short version is that there's a younger son who demands that he get his inheritance from his father early. he takes that inheritance, runs off, then squanders it on shitty living. he comes back, miserable and not fulfilled, and his father is THRILLED up on his return. the father immediately asks for there to be a giant party and a feast, for his son was dead and is alive again.

the older son, however, is displeased, and he says, "i have been by your side this whole time. i've done everything you asked you of me. i've worked hard! i've been obedient! i've been doing all the things! and you've never given ME a party to celebrate with my friend. i didn't even demand my inheritance early and blow all that money on drugs and hookers like my stupid little brother. this is so unfair!"

(i mean... to paraphrase the bible lmaooo. but also, does this sound familiar?)

and you know what the father says to the older son? "son, you are always with me, and everything i have is yours."

the metaphysical translation of this is that you can go off and squander the inheritance of your I AM awareness (the god power in you through which all things are possible) on narratives that make you absolutely fucking miserable, but the moment you return to the knowing that you are god and one with god, the kingdom is YOURS.

in short: obedience means nothing to the law. this is the difference between being a pharisee who pursues following god's perfect law to the letter in hopes that he will be rewarded vs. being christ who is the law (law = lord), and therefore, he is all things.

you're seeking obedience as your lord and waiting for a treat. when god already gave you your reward by making you his only begotten child: pure awareness. for god so loved you that he made YOU aware of being (I AM), and as long as you believe in your awareness of being, you shall have eternal life. through your I AM awareness, you can have ANYTHING, DO ANYTHING, EXPERIENCE ANYTHING, BE ANYTHING. and it's your freewill to choose who you want to be aware of.

right now, you're aware of and identifying with a self who doesn't get what they want, especially if those desires are important to them. do you want to continue persisting in being aware of that version of self? or would you like to be aware of something new? because the moment you decide to be something/someone different, you are. it's in the very name: I AM.

the change that needs to happen is you. you are the change. you are the shift. you are the door to all that you desire, and what you need to change is this:

you need to start having faith in yourself as much as you have faith (rn) that you won't get what you want.

if you want to know more on how to understand your I AM awareness in plain terms, i have a bunch of options linked in my pinned post, and i have one in there on faith too that i think might help you (assuming you read this far).

tl;dr: the reason you manifest the small things and not the big ones is because you said that's what would happen. you said it via your conviction of being. and you can just as easily choose a new story if you're ready to begin experiencing something new.

[audweefics]

I'm so happy that you're accepting hcs for my babygirl Junker Queen!

How would she show affection, what's her love language, etc. Go nuts!

JUNKER QUEEN MY BELOVED ! I got 4 different rq's of just junker queen...so expect a lot of JQ content. This turned into reader insert, not sure if you were asking for that!! Sorry if i misunderstood.

-I picture her being a tough love kind of person, lots of teasing and roughhousing.

-She would definitely punch you jokingly once and it sent you flying back a little. She was absolutely terrified that she hurt you by accident and was incredibly careful and gentle with you for a long time after.

-Love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation!

-If you like holding hands, or physical touch in general Junker Queen would 100% be all over you. Be it soft hand holding to full on cuddling. She would be obnoxious with PDA (if you were okay with it.)

-When she gets excited or sees you after a long time apart, the queen would pick you up off the floor and spin you around in a giant hug. It would probably hurt a little from how tight she's holding on.

-She also is constantly having her eyes on you, looking at you like you hung the stars in the sky.

-As for words of affirmation, she would complement you constantly. She loved you as if you were the most important person in the world. (And to her, you were.)

-She would cling onto every word you say and would be your number one hypeman. She would cheer you on no matter what it is you're doing.

-She would be constantly talking about you, whether you're around or not. One time Junker Queen got really drunk and publicly announced over the loudspeaker in Junkertown a long list of reasons why she loved you. It went on for well over an hour.

-After that, you were pretty well known around the town.

-She'd take you on little trips, as she loved spending time with you. Definitely would be a little awkward about it at first, and would come up with stupid reasons to spend time with you.

-But as time went on, she'd just call you over to be together constantly. She would ramble on for hours about things that happened around town, places she visited, and more.

-She just loves you so much!

note:

this is getting a little long and i have 3 more junker queen requests to do, so i'll cut it short for now! Hope you enjoyed :)

[athys-obelia]

summary: no one's evil au lmfaooo but make it pt. 2

character/s: anastacius de alger obelia, claude de alger obelia, athanasia de alger obelia, jennette de alger obelia

and here's part 1 <3

oh my god okay. okay. so.

ana, claude, athy and jennette - they go on a LOT of vacations

claude complains every single time but anastacius pulls his trump card and sends athy and jettie BOTH after him

u think he's strong enough to say no after that? lmao jokes

and their vacations always go this way:

jennette: isn't this scenery just gorgeous, uncle

claude: indeed it is. and...quiet

jennette: ...too quiet

[cut to anastacius in the distance, fighting a bear as athy cheers him on]

athy + anastacius, hands down the most chaotic pairing yes i will not be taking criticism

they have tea in ana's palace everyday, just the two of them, they're so poised and picture perfect through the entire thing everyone thinks it's just the emperor giving profound advice to his heir

it's actually them deadass scheming,,, ana has no qualms discussing everything from court gossip to military tactics, both of which she's so on top of all the time

if anyone shit talks jennette or claude, this tea party is where their slow and agonizing demise is planned out to the dot

[true story - count sivan once made the fatal mistake of expressing his favour for athy as the next empress, dissing jennette by comparing her to athy sm which inevitably sparked a debate that ranked the princesses. a week after athy's sources informed her of the kindling behind this new debate, the count's sudden divorce became the talk of the town, and the man's business faced bankruptcy all of a sudden. the sivans still haven't recovered.)

athy n jennette were actually allowed to visit kiel in arlanta a few times, except it was too dark at their first arrival, postponing the meeting to the next morning

buttt then jettie can't sleep and she decides on a midnight snack run (their hotel doesn't really have the maids the palace does, but oh well. she's left the palace w lucas n athy plenty of times)

felix tags along btw, he knows this trip is important to the girls since they're leaving the palace without their Overprotective Papas™ for the first time and want some sense of independence, but... she's just so smol n he couldn't bear it if anything happens so he just shadows her

she totally knows he's there

n e ways so there's a juice place right beside their hotel which she aims for, but when jennette reaches it, it's closed

and out of nowhere, a voice addresses her - "hey you, do you come here a lot?" she nearly jumps out of her skin at the brunette, relaxing when she sees he's literally a kid around her age and not a murderer lmfaoo "me neither," he continues without waiting for her, pouting at the closed sign, before he asks for her name and whether she's new in arlanta

she confirms that yes, she's only visiting, and refuses to tell the stranger her name, still feeling strange at being addressed as 'you' for the first time (well, minus lucas, but he was like her brother and had the emotional capacity of a teaspoon, so)

he eyes her. "you're so weird. i've never seen a girl out so late before, and alone too. are you stupid?"

(felix has his sword out at this point)

she's flushing now and has no idea why she's still out here, but then this stranger kid apparently senses her mood and tells her the best ice cream store in arlanta is not too far away

(he also explains he knows someone who's starts doing weird things when she's hungry as well, and tries to defend that ice cream is actually a healthy midnight snack, "you can just take a healthy flavour like strawberry or mango, mangos are healthy,,right"💀️💀)

so jettie has travelled all the way from obelia, she loves her papa but he would have a heart attack if he found out she was ever awake this late?? yeah bc she's never getting this chance again, jennette accepts the offer

the stranger boy seems to be taking the whole "i'm not telling you my name," thing like a joke, and asks what he should call her since 'you' was getting boring

she goes with "lady j" and like a knight, the boy becomes "sir c"

(felix is on the verge of committing a crime - the princesses can only have one knight, after all)

they walk as the the boy navigates the streets in the dark, and she asks whether he's from the academy, seeing his uniform

"of course i am! you could probably tell bc i look so smart, right?"

she snorts. "yeah, that."

she also comes to know that this guy,,,well he might as well be a tourist? she's out here asking stuff like "oh where's the statue of lady alphia?" or "aren't we really close to the museum where they keep the first emperor's sword?" and he goes "lady do i look like your brochure?? but if you turn right from here there's a cool arcade and across the street from there is the best street food vendor you'll ever eat from."

well at least mans had his priorities straight 😌

"so can you take this off?" he asks, pointing towards her dress once they've neared the store

um???????? sir tf????????????

anyways jettie has been living with lucas n her dad farr too long to not take this the wrong way?? "...no?"

the boy raises an eyebrow "look, it looks like an expensive cloak but i promise i'll return it, alright? i gotta hide my uniform."

ohhhhhhh. 😳.

so she unfastens the cloak and because he's kinda just staring at it cluelessly (he can't even tie his shoelaces fight me), jennette sighs and moves the clothing over his shoulder, fastening it in place at his neck

he's literally a tomato when she looks back up and realises that yes, we are way too close rn

bc she's ana's daughter, jennette by default cannot function when she's flustered. so she kinda stumbles backwards like a fish out of water (years of princess training n etiquette? where art thou??) and 'sir c' has to grab her forearm so she doesn't bump into the pillar behind her smfh

the shopkeep is definitely suspicious of this pair that's definitely too young to be out so late, but chalks it down to his sleeplessness

they escape the store with the ice cream before the shopkeep can ask any questions, and 'sir c' escorts jennette back to her hotel. he climbs onto the roof of the building, helping her up as well

(felix wishes he had a magic stone to capture this moment, this is the first time he's seen jennette become such fast friends with someone)

she stands on the roof (it hurts her butt so she doesn't wanna sit)

"my sister would be so jealous right now," jennette murmurs, "she told me her ideal first date would be either a picnic or something like a moonlit walk. we're having like a moonlit picnic."

it's silent for a few seconds the boy speaks up, "is this a date?"

oh-

oh.

"i mean- i didn't- i don't- uh."

give her some time lmfao she's loading

"i don't really mind that," he tells her, and she thinks she might just walk off the roof in her embarrassment - who just says something like that?? "you're probably feeling really lucky right now, right?"

jennette: ✊😔

he does look pretty in the moonlight, she admits to herself, listening as he excitedly tells her about his siblings at home and how she should send an offering to the gods since they gave her the good fortune to be on a date with the most good looking one of all four of them

in turn, she tells him about how she spent her childhood away from her amazing dad and had gotten closer to him recently, about her sharp-witted uncle, her sister and friends

(the 'friends' section includes felix and he's melting)

she smiles - it's almost as if, at finding out he treasures his family just as much as she does, they've gotten a bit closer

and he tries to listen. jennette had guessed that his temperament was somewhat like her dad's - her dad didn't know how to listen, always making his opinion known before anything else, though she supposes as emperor he could do that

'sir c', on the other hand, tried his best, his blue eyes focused on her as he almost burst from the unsaid words he was holding back, trying to let her finish. the sight was an odd mix of sad and insanely adorable that she couldn't help but let him tell her about everything he couldn't hold in

sensing she could pass out from her exhaustion nearly half an hour later, and 'sir c' escorts her to her window and helps her sneak in bc "what sort of knight would i be otherwise?!"

(felix can't stop shaking the entire night)

the next morning, jennette's heart is pounding as kiel shows her, athy and felix across campus - the chance is low, but still...

"ezekiel!" comes a voice, and the four watch as a turquoise haired boy waves down the alpheus heir "are these the guests you mentioned?"

kiel introduces the trio to johannes vastia before asking, "where's cabel?"

"at the training grounds, he asked if you could bring everyone there so he could show them around there."

"... they're my guests though?"

athy is quick to befriend johannes (i mean she and his sister are practically the same person, so) and at the grounds, jennette's blood runs cold

(so does felix's)

the brunette doesn't notice her at first, arguing with johannes about something as kiel introduces him as cabel ernst

jennette is hyperventilating?? actually back up is this girl even breathing??

cabel ernst from kiel's letters? the 'loud and obnoxious cabel ernst', who gradually turned into 'my acquaintance cabel ernst', then 'hardworking, passionate cabel ernst', and finally 'my friend cabel'?

she'd actually rather admired this slow build of respect between her friend and the ernst boy, and had even expressed her interest to meet him

"this is the first daughter of his highness prince claude de alger obelia, princess athanasia-" cabel mock salutes the princess before his mouth forms an 'o' and he remembers to bow, "-and here's the emperor's only daughter, her highness princess je-"

andddd his eyes widen comically "-hey, lady, it's you?"

yeah jettie is on the brink of literal death - her entire face reddens as this...cabel, grins at her

she watches as he glances behind her, "and you're the guy who was following us - sup?"

felix flinches "...you knew...?"

cabel shrugs. "i mean you do kinda suck ass at the whole subtle thing."

"don't say it like that," jennette retorts, "felix was trying his best."

"princess 😭😭 you knew as well?"

"uhhhh no?"

athy + kiel in a corner: 👁️👄👁️

they watch as cabel's eyes widen all of a sudden and he just,,,runs away

...🐦...🐦...🐦...

yeah well anyway he comes rushing back a few minutes later, a piece of cloth in his hand "...*huff* here *huff*...you go."

athy totally flips out "jennette is that your CLOAK???!??"

"uhhhhh no?"

"um do you realise uncle would literally wage war at this."

and as if it would make everything better,

"i washed it," cabel offers with a grin

"you didn't," the vastia heir deadpans

"i mean, johan helped a little bit."

kiel smiles murderously at the pair. "johan, did you know cabel took the princess out?"

"wait, you're a PRINCESS??"

your honour they aren't very smart

so the group orders some coffee (milk for cabel smfh) to find out what happened, cabel mentions "date" and everything goes to shit again lmfao

kiel and felix scheme against poor cabel while athy n johan get over that stage pretty quick ("listen. MY sister will be living with ME after the marriage and if your friend wants to be with her he'll have to come with us to obelia." and johan's just like "fine by me ✌️😊") and start planning the wedding

cabel + jennette dip n sneak out of the academy again to get the juice they couldn't the night before bc shit is getting awkward here

on another note, our uncle cius' musical intelligence is actually very high - he can probably play more instruments than i can name tbh, but he feels most comfortable singing and i shit you not, this man has straight up an angel's voice

(didn't like singing in front of others coz he was secretly a nerd and only knew old love songs with deep lyrics, athy found out and educated him)

jennette tends to have nightmares often, most often regarding their family - she's seen her father murder her uncle for the throne, and vice versa, athy admitting her affections towards jennette were a front to get the position of crown princess, her uncle killing her to solidify athy's claim, etc - her family is her everything, so despite however many times these horrible scenes play before her, she's left sobbing uncontrollably

and on these nights, she leaves for her father's room, who holds her close and sings her to sleep

also lucas n jennette are like sibling duo# 1,,, jettie is an active lucathy shipper even though he denies it sm - like their dynamic is just peaceful walks in the gardens as she watches the plants n lucas shi talks the nobility and kiel

claude and athy have a thing for each other's sleeping on each other? idk it's weird

athy once fell asleep on the couch while reading with him, and claude moved her head onto his lap so she wouldn't be uncomfy sitting - well, she woke up to his hand absentmindedly raking through her hair and it was just so soothing that whenever she's tired and he's working or reading, she just plops her head on his lap and zzzz

and claude wondered what was up with that, so she proposed they switch roles and he felt so awkward trying to lay down in front of her lmao

obviously athy noticed and she just started reading, thinking he might be more comfortable if her attention isn't on him completely - she ended up reading out loud while playing with his collar and he just,,,passed out

also anastacius has definitely pulled jennette aside regarding the issue of his heir at some point - she had been hesitant at first before admitting she wouldn't like to be the empress at all

i know we'd all love to see empress!jettie and her sister duchess!athy ruling the court, but i really really really can't see her wanting the title?

so thus start athy's empress lessons, but holy shit her teacher is mean

like this man makes me want to bash his face in?? so he doesn't like the idea of athy becoming empress over jennette at all, all bc of both hers and claude's mothers being commoners

he has one of those long ass sticks that you use in presentation to point at stuff?? idk but basically mans has athy name every region, its lords and their vassals during their first lesson

the first time she gets one wrong, she's too shocked as the stick meets the delicate skin of her forearm to react

now the thing is, wmmap!athy would probably stand up against this bc her dad is the emperor and she's his only heir, but i imagine with anastacius' social nature he holds many parties / balls where she's probably heard claude's mom + diana slander and it wouldn't be unreasonable for her to be self conscious abt it (now she's the emperor's heir while jennette, 100% royal + noble blood, is right there which probably makes her feel even less legitimate)

so she endures it, the light marks on her arms as well as the taunts of his she's too smart to not understand - perhaps this is the price to be accepted in jennette's place?

and honestly, no one really notices until at breakfast a few weeks in, where jennette mentions how her dresses are still so modest when sleeveless dresses were more in fashion - ana is suspicious because athy is always on top of these things, societal trends and such, and claude is sus from the way she hesitates slightly in her answer, "i haven't had the time lately, i suppose"

the lesson after focuses on ettiquete since everyone knows she's good at politics and such already, but now tears of frustration are pooling in her eyes because what the hell?? this guy had made an opinion of her long before he even met her, so anything she did would be wrong in his eyes

he gives her a sinister smile, "tired, princess?"

"no," she insists, keeping her voice level. he's about to spout some other nonsense, when anastacius enters the room, taking a seat across from her

anastacius watches quietly as athy answers the teacher's questions in her "public" voice. he watches as her usually cheery disposition is replaced by something far more...dead, despite the front she puts on for him. he's soundless as she hesitates in her answers where she normally would've been louder, more confident. he stops watching in silence when his niece flinches at the sight of the stick

oh.

he interrupts her lesson, not missing the way she winces almost imperceptibly when he grabs ahold of her arm, announcing, "we're going."

he just- it's just that that was the moment he knew for sure - the sight of his niece emotionally disheveled for the first time reminds him too much of how his own brother had once been, and he'd... he'd promised he wouldn't let anyone hurt his family anymore

he ends up taking her to the port with some of his advisors to welcome some royal guests, insisting that she would learn better from experience rather than books - but the guest delegation gets so boring that he sneaks her out of the meeting n they end up in the streets

now athy has no idea where they are, but apparently her uncle does?? ana has his hand on her head as he navigates the streets of the capitol as if he comes here everyday, using magic to casually disguise the two of them

in the meantime?

felix is at the port trying to cover for them smfh, he makes up this huge story about how the great wise emperor wanted to familiarize his heir with the locals, understand her subjects, yada yada

back at the palace prince claude is currently dragging a man by his collar and only upon jennette's insistence does he throw him in prison rather than literally kill him

(jettie visits him later in prison to give the guy a piece of her mind, after felix's visit he's sporting a few noticable bruises and the prisoner is practically unrecognizable once lucas visits)

back to athy + ana, they end up stuffing themselves with some super good street food as anastacius confesses that yes, he has definitely been sneaking out of the palace ever since he was a lil kid

athy almost mentions that she, lucas n jettie sneak out too but that might give him a heart attack, so

"it's so pretty, uncle cius," she says, gesturing towards the necklace he holds up. once he's paid for it, anastacius fists the necklace, opening it to reveal the jewel pendant - now imbued with his magic and replaced with gold lettering of the word athanasia

and she realises that yes, that's what both him and her dad have called her all her life, haven't they?

"you're my heir, athanasia," he uncle tells her with a small smile, "i am proud of that."

getting teary, she tells him, "i'm really proud of you too, uncle cius," triggering a very flustered + blushy anastacius

this mans craves validation - not from the sycophantic nobility, or the obsequious concubines he'd dismissed all those years ago, but from the family he thought he'd neither have nor deserve

and just the acknowledgement is so large for athy - he wants her as his heir, not because she's his niece, but bc he trusts her to look after his hard work after him??? - yeah she's totally bawling her eyes out

anastacius magics her a handkerchief but my mans magic isn't that strong?? lmao he's used up so much by now that the 'handkerchief' turns out to be some scratchy tissues

awkward amirite

nope! athy laughs at that, offering him a sip of her drink as she magics another straw and a proper handkerchief lmfaoo

n e ways so when they return, everyone's shocked to learn that the crown heir, princess athanasia will actually be joining the official circles as anastacius' temporary aid - he doesn't wanna entrust her to anyone but family, and decides that the best way to learn is by his side

(she's so confused bc lucas doesn't normally bat an eyelash when she wears the prettiest gowns, but he deadass can't look her in the eyes when she's in her aid uniform - it's more like a suit than it is a dress)

yes lucas women in suits >>>>>

everyone is STUNNED when at dinner, claude proposes they leave on vacation??

anastacius is just not having it?? like no, this is not my brother, and he throws a grape at claude to check if it's a clone or sum (¿¿how does that work??)

anyays so he ain't no felix, ana's aim is ass and it hits jettie instead

mans nearly gets on his knees to apologise

long story short everyone preps for vacation, but by some aCCiDeNt claude n athy end up at a different destination than jettie n ana, when she suggests returning to the palace to regroup, mans deadass sulks

"so you wouldn't like to spend this time with your father, despite barely visiting my office for weeks?"

o-oh

so at their return, the nobility starts pestering everyone that the princesses aren't independent enough, yada yada idc so to quell this annoyance, to the girls' joy, they get to move into emerald palace together, while claude and ana stay in the ruby and main palaces respectively

literally emerald palace becomes such a cool place to be in since it's the residence of the only decent people in this family, the brothers spend hours going through the requests of maids who want to be transferred

it's such a busy time because of athy joining the court and jettie starting her studies as well - naturally, since she isn't becoming empress, she'll be getting the duchy claude + athy were to be given in the beginning

speaking of futures, jettie's interest in plants and cooking has definitely branched out into herbs

claude notices her tending to a small garden during his visit to athy and even gives her a few tips (he had been studying medical since he was a kid, and picked it up again when athy was born and the empire stablised somewhat)

this soon becomes a routinely thing, and he actually starts reading up on some herbs and even orders a few for her prospering garden

after a month of her learning from books, claude proposes adding a medic as one of her teachers, and turns out his hunch was right?? she's excelling at medicine and they keep it between themselves for the time being

it doesn't last long though, bc they're on a hunting trip when ana injures his leg

and !! this girl istg, she gets to cleaning and wrapping the wound without blinking an eye, as if it's the most natural thing ever, and claude is just smirking while athy and anastacius and literally everyone else: 🌟💞✨jettie✨💞🌟

literal tears coming out of anastacius' eyes "how come my daughter is smarter than me😭💅"

claude: that's not a very high standard, brother

anastacius: ✨suddenly i'm an only child✨

behold, the people in charge of running an empire everyone 👏👏👏

even though jennette is claude's (unofficial) student and athy is her uncle's heir, they both ask their dads to the debutante

yes athy does dance with lucas, anastacius sent him an invitation even though he wasn't a noble (he's an active match maker 😌) and nobody dared question the emperor's special guest

at the end of the night, kiel gives jettie a letter from arlanta - it's an invitation to the academy during holidays, from a certain brunette

when she brings up the subject, felix lets out a squeak and literally everyone goes silent 😭😭

athy n kiel are just out here DARING him to spill them beans

but anastacius takes on look at his excited lil kid and decides that yups, she's going to get everything she wants

a/n: i literally don't know how many parts this should have lmaoo but y'all made it this far!! thanks for reading i hope you liked it<3