#and nothing i've done has fixed it

[nonsensical-pixels]

im finally doing it... im switching to gshade

ps for anyone still commenting on this i did not end up switching to gshade 💔

[hivemindscape]

im a big fan of esper powers slipping loose in harmless ways when they're happy

[itsmistyeyedbi]

So I'll have to join in in the wedding outfit stuff and jump into people's askboxes later - there's been no power since early this morning and my phone is on its last legs💀💀

[mazken]

a trusted brother

[runawaymun]

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[foxstens]

turns out what i thought was my anxiety getting worse as i get older

was actually just iron deficiency

[blaze-art]

Me: Oh boy! I can't wait to roleplay on this blog I have spent so much time setting up! All the thought and care that went into-

Tumblr: Bitch you thought! Get deleted motherfucker!

Me: WHAT?! Why?

Tumblr: Spam :)

Me: What about it said to you it was spam?! Ok ok, fine, I've sent a repeal, now give me my blog back.

Tumblr: ...

Me: Tumblr it's been two days where the fuck is my blog?

[racke7]

So. For some fucking reason, all of my hotbars and hotkeys and macros and HUD-layout?

They're saved on dalamud somehow.

Base game? Pure default. All of it.

[buckbutch]

the app is completely broken for me it won't let me log into any account saying my password is wrong when evidently it fucking isn't! because here I am posting on browser which I hate! and the support page is broken and won't send so I'm gonna just violently kill myself in tumblr headquarters I think

[ourceliumnetwork]

finally tackled the absolute mountain of laundry in various states of cleanliness around my room. now all of it is sorted and put into its respective zones of "away".

[muse-bs]

gonna try to get to all my replies. including eldbitch. we shall see what happens

[swankpalanquin]

every time i see people being like, why don't universities just use their endowments to like fix financial problems but don't expand beyond that simple statement i know they have no idea what they're talking about

[scarlettfevor]

Officially #givingup on playing tfbw! It seems like all the reliable links I've found all take from the same, broken source and ppl have been complaining about them not working for months now with no fixes. There's no reason to stress myself out so I'm just gonna hope that dmmd works and call it a day

[violet-jessop]

i think that after spending $11,691 on my teeth in the last 18 months, if one of my front teeth falls out then killing myself can't be considered drastic or unreasonable action

[inkskinned]

i have chronic pain. i am neurodivergent. i understand - deeply - the allure of a "quick fix" like AI. i also just grew up in a different time. we have been warned about this.

15 entire years ago i heard about this. in my forensics class in high school, we watched a documentary about how AI-based "crime solving" software was inevitably biased against people of color.

my teacher stressed that AI is like a book: when someone writes it, some part of the author will remain within the result. the internet existed but not as loudly at that point - we didn't know that AI would be able to teach itself off already-biased Reddit threads. i googled it: yes, this bias is still happening. yes, it's just as bad if not worse.

i can't actually stop you. if you wanna use ChatGPT to slide through your classes, that's on you. it's your money and it's your time. you will spend none of it thinking, you will learn nothing, and, in college, you will piss away hundreds of thousands of dollars. you will stand at the podium having done nothing, accomplished nothing. a cold and bitter pyrrhic victory.

i'm not even sure students actually read the essays or summaries or emails they have ChatGPT pump out. i think it just flows over them and they use the first answer they get. my brother teaches engineering - he recently got fifty-three copies of almost-the-exact-same lab reports. no one had even changed the wording.

and yes: AI itself (as a concept and practice) isn't always evil. there's AI that can help detect cancer, for example. and yet: when i ask my students if they'd be okay with a doctor that learned from AI, many of them balk. it is one thing if they don't read their engineering textbook or if they don't write the critical-thinking essay. it's another when it starts to affect them. they know it's wrong for AI to broad-spectrum deny insurance claims, but they swear their use of AI is different.

there's a strange desire to sort of divorce real-world AI malpractice over "personal use". for example, is it moral to use AI to write your cover letters? cover letters are essentially only templates, and besides: AI is going to be reading your job app, so isn't it kind of fair?

i recently found out that people use AI as a romantic or sexual partner. it seems like teenagers particularly enjoy this connection, and this is one of those "sticky" moments as a teacher. honestly - you can roast me for this - but if it was an actually-safe AI, i think teenagers exploring their sexuality with a fake partner is amazing. it prevents them from making permanent mistakes, it can teach them about their bodies and their desires, and it can help their confidence. but the problem is that it's not safe. there isn't a well-educated, sensitive AI specifically to help teens explore their hormones. it's just internet-fed cycle. who knows what they're learning. who knows what misinformation they're getting.

the most common pushback i get involves therapy. none of us have access to the therapist of our dreams - it's expensive, elusive, and involves an annoying amount of insurance claims. someone once asked me: are you going to be mad when AI saves someone's life?

therapists are not just trained on the book, they're trained on patient management and helping you see things you don't see yourself. part of it will involve discomfort. i don't know that AI is ever going to be able to analyze the words you feed it and answer with a mind towards the "whole person" writing those words. but also - if it keeps/kept you alive, i'm not a purist. i've done terrible things to myself when i was at rock bottom. in an emergency, we kind of forgive the seatbelt for leaving bruises. it's just that chat shouldn't be your only form of self-care and recovery.

and i worry that the influence chat has is expanding. more and more i see people use chat for the smallest, most easily-navigated situations. and i can't like, make you worry about that in your own life. i often think about how easy it was for social media to take over all my time - how i can't have a tiktok because i spend hours on it. i don't want that to happen with chat. i want to enjoy thinking. i want to enjoy writing. i want to be here. i've already really been struggling to put the phone down. this feels like another way to get you to pick the phone up.

the other day, i was frustrated by a book i was reading. it's far in the series and is about a character i resent. i googled if i had to read it, or if it was one of those "in between" books that don't actually affect the plot (you know, one of those ".5" books). someone said something that really stuck with me - theoretically you're reading this series for enjoyment, so while you don't actually have to read it, one would assume you want to read it.

i am watching a generation of people learn they don't have to read the thing in their hand. and it is kind of a strange sort of doom that comes over me: i read because it's genuinely fun. i learn because even though it's hard, it feels good. i try because it makes me happy to try. and i'm watching a generation of people all lay down and say: but i don't want to try.

[hyperfixation-tangentopia]

That's it if I don't wake up tomorrow and I'm not feeling better I'm going back to doing stuff regardless because I'm bored as hell and I need to do stuff