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wildsaltair · 4 months ago

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the way Gladiator is just instant gratification for me. my serotonin levels shoot through the roof as soon as that first note of music hits. Maximus’ face appears onscreen and I immediately am launched into a catatonic state

#and since i've been sick for like eight days this is doubly true #gladiator beloved you have been my lighthouse through the dark #my shield in battle #my anchor in the storm #and just!!! the way the whole movie is such a comfort to me!#i want to eat it like a small tea cake #savor every bite #what an INCREDIBLE joy that i can watch it literally whenever i want #pause it wherever or skip to the scenes with maximus #watch the same scenes over and over on a loop #put in headphones and listen to it like an asmr #favorite movie calms me like nothing else #the noise of battle begins and i'm like :D #but yeah opening scene featuring maximus dreaming of his family my ABSOLUTE BELOVED #dissociating birdwatching and generally looking like a dreamboat #all aboard the dreamboat aye aye captain #often i begin crying as soon as that first shot of maximus' face comes onscreen #like something about it just rips my heart out #knowing i'm about to spend the next three hours desperately longing for him and cheering for him and melting over his perfection #and then knowing i'm going to have to watch him die at the end of it #it's like i live in an endless horrid time loop where i have to watch my beloved suffer over and over but i keep going because it's the onl #time i get to spend with him so even the pain is worth it #i don't think i'm sane anymore but i care not a whit #gladiator #maximus #maximus decimus meridius #gladiator 2000 #russell crowe #text posts

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