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good--merits-accumulated · 7 months ago

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going through some old left-for-dead projects and just found this one where I was like. INTENT on dissecting jeff's brain on the operating table (i.e. google docs) but only from todd's weird skewed pov

[professor voice] it's about brothers as eternal combatants and it's about being so convinced of your own goodness you excuse your shitty actions. it's also about comparing yourself to a dog because you feel less fully formed than your brother. lol.

#“so-and-so is an irredeemable character with no depth” jokes are funny sure but unfortunately i'm unable to not take things seriously #anyway: i remember people being like [about hymnal] this is crazy! this fraternal dynamic is so fucked up! and being kind of non-plussed #because the dynamic i wrote into the fair folk wip [this one] was like fifty thousand times more. argh. bites #THIS WASN'T EVEN SCRATCHING THE SURFACE #also i've always been an advocate of writing cruel characters with sympathy because the best feeling as a reader is when #you're reading and start nodding along with a particular guy and have to take a step back and recoil at how receptive you were to them #when the character is kind and jolly and cares but he's still letting the abuse happen under his nose :eyes:#anyway this ALSO isn't an accurate jeff portrait because todd's pov is weird and jaded and sardonic at the beginning of the story #and also he's like three seconds away from exploding. lol #hm. i never explained it to myself fully [probably why i never finished this] but i think the issue was that #todd is Too understanding and he's perceptive enough to see everyone's motivations but that makes it worse because now he's too #not forgiving. but he can excuse people's actions very easily #and thus when people actually do shitty things and it makes him mad he can't really justify being mad to himself - but he still is #and this makes him sooooo volatile. and becomes a problem later on in the wip when he's trying to work on cameron #because understanding isn't the ending point you have to do the action sometimes! lol!#goddamn. i miss writing this au.#dead poets society #tristan writes #dps #dps fic #todd anderson #jeff anderson #SORRY THIS IS VERY LONG. I JUST REDISCOVERED THIS AND IT BROUGHT A LOT OF MEMORIES BACK.

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