#bad thoughts

[hr00hraa]

Raw. Next question.

[sicklittl3kitten]

Forced breeding>///< forced impreg>///< forced marriage >///< forced ownership>///<

[lingrimmart]

Worms

[soukokuforthesoul]

akutagawa wasn’t used to being held. not like this, at least. atsushi held him almost desperately, like he would disappear if he didn’t keep him close enough. he held him like he anticipated his departure and feared it terribly. (unconsciously, akutagawa held him the exact same way. oh, he needed atsushi just as much as atsushi needed him. and maybe they were just lonely, maybe they longed for the touch of someone who would treasure them as they were. or maybe it was something so foreign to them, something they didn’t know just yet how to name. something gentle and sweet and beautiful).

[lux-uary]

yeah i got a big dick but i also got big anxiety ™

[prtty-lil-thng]

Audio P0rn #3, I’m having literally wayyyyy too much fun doing these and so is my bf lol, he’s a good boy though and stays quiet so you can all hear my lovely voice. I was super overstimulated and sleepy when I recorded this so enjoy 🥰💋

[thegoodmorningman]

Here's hoping your brain works right this and each day!!!

[yoan-le-grall]

[zushimart]

is scara a perv or no

i think so ... in secret. so sort of but not really. i think scara has a rly hard time admitting things 2 himself, so i don't think it's a very... like... conscious thing? he will quietly ogle u in a tight shirt & then shift blame onto u in his mind (he'll think stuff like "that shirt is too tight on purpose" or "hmph... must be trying to seduce me" instead of confronting his own attraction... bc god forbid he be affected by something as trivial as desire...). very tsun & kind of fucked up. tldr yes & idk if he totally realizes

[firesidehampter]

I just feel like I am slowly dying. I can't even describe it. The pain, the nausea, the fatigue...everything. My body is suffering and I can't fix it. There is no cure for anything I have it's just trying to manage the symptoms. Trying to find doctors that listen. Trying everything they suggest. And I am still trying to talk to them about getting exploratories done. I just want answers. I am exhausted. I am in pain. I feel as if I am slowly dying.

This comes off as dramatic probably but it is truly how I feel. I am losing my mind. And this doesn't even touch the surface of my symptoms, just the most prominent ones.

[geraskierfanficprompts]

Prompt 125

In place of August Thirteenth, Promptapalooza 6/

Geralt has a contract but won't tell Jaskier anything about it. Nothing. "Geralt, come on! Is it big? Is it small? Does it have fangs? Is it venomous?" "Jaskier, just stop asking." "But how am I meant to be safe enough to gather inspiration if you won't even tell me what to look out for?" "Because you'll be staying here. Away from the hunt." "Wh- What?" It's been years since Geralt refused Jaskier's involvement in a hunt. "It's too dangerous." Jaskier stares at him a moment before just sighing and nodding. "You'd think he'd tell you of the dangers if he didn't want you to go for your own safety." Jaskier thinks, though it doesn't sound like his own voice. "Can't you tell me something about the creature if I can't come with?" "No, Jaskier." "He doesn't want to talk to you." Jaskier shakes the thought out of his head. "Just play for the bargoers again if you need something to do. I'll be back before sunup." And without further ado, Geralt grabs his supplies and stomps out. "They hated your last set, though, didn't they? You've put so much effort into pursuing this dream of yours, just to get vegetables and stale bread thrown at you. Only to get cursed off stages. Is that what you wanted? When you became a bard? When you left home? Did you risk your life to leave just to be stuck with an audience that doesn't want to listen?" Jaskier shakes his head. Stop. Stop thinking about this. "Not even Geralt listens to you. Your only friend. The only person who manages to deal with you doesn't even want to hear you." Jaskier starts tidying their inn room in a panic. He needs to get his mind off the sudden turn for the worst his thoughts are partaking in. Usually only things got this bad after a bad fight with Geralt. Then Geralt would apologize and- "But did he ever really mean it? Or does he just do it to placate you? The little overemotional bard weighing him down, dragging him back, ruining his li-" "BOOK. I- I need to read a book." Jaskier fumbles for something to read to try and get something new in his attention, but he can't even make out a sentence. The thoughts are getting louder. "Is there even a contract or did he just finally leave you behind? Jaskier's vision blurs and suddenly he realizes it's tears. He rubs his face vigorously to get rid of them. He'd hate for Geralt to come back and find him bawling. "That's when he'd leave you for sure. Pitiful excuse for a companion, crying because of his own thoughts. Geralt would be so annoyed. You're nothing but a burden to him. He hates you." Jaskier grabs his lute and hurriedly begins strumming the worst tune he's ever made in his life, because he just needs something louder than the thoughts. He just needs to hear something but the thoughts. "He'll never love you back. You stay, and you keep hoping, but he'll never love you." Jaskier drops his lute and covers his ears, starting to sob in earnest. "He's been gone too long. He ditched you. He took Roach and he left you. The pebble in his shoe. The constant irritation. You're nothing to him. You're a speck of mud dirtying his life. He begs the gods every night to be rid of you. Everyone begs the gods to be rid of you. Everyone wishes you'd just shrivel up and die. The useless bard." "Stop- Stopstopstop-" "All anyone wants is to fuck you, but is it because you're desirable or is it because you're just that easy? Like a damned cat in heat. They always leave you come morning, anyways. Even the ones you begged to stay. Even the ones you wanted something more with. Nobody wants you to stay. Nobody likes your voice, your supposed 'talents', nobody likes your looks, nobody likes your personality, nobody likes your soul, nobody wants your love, you're a crumbling stone about to bring down a whole tower. And every other stone will hate you for it. They'll hate you. They'll fucking HATE you. They all HATE you. Geralt HATES you. He hates you. He hates you. He hates you." "JASKIER!" Jaskier blinks his eyes open

and sees Geralt kneeling in front of him, holding Jaskier's face in his big, calloused hands. "Jaskier, stop listening to it!"

Geralt had gone after a creature that infects people's minds, speaks horrible things into their thoughts until the person is driven crazy. He couldn't risk bringing Jaskier to be infected by it. And he couldn't risk telling Jaskier, because Jaskier would be paranoid of it infecting Geralt and he'd come along anyways, and the monster would sense Jaskier's fear, it'd burrow into him in a milisecond. Geralt's never been angrier for being right, before. He just thought Jaskier was safe here. But he came back and saw the undeniable symptoms of the monster. Pure black tears coming down Jaskier's cheeks as he sobs and begs an unseen force to 'shut up'. Geralt will kill this damned creature, and make it sorry for distressing his bard. And then he'll spend the night holding his bard close, and whispring every reassurance and praise he can think of.

[raahisblog]

What is yours will find you

[corpseflowerisregulus]

I don't care what anybody else says. Regulus is absolutely not comfortable with silence.

He associates silence with his family home, which doesn't exactly bring happy memories. Grimauld place was always cold and dark and so silent. No child giggles, or laughter. Their parents always said, children should be seen and not heard.

Silence also makes him overthink, because why isn't the other person speaking to him? He tends to blame himself for everything, even when it is the other person's fault.

Regulus is not comfortable with silence because he is not comfortable with his thoughts. His mind is not a nice place to be stuck in. He doesn't like himself, especially before he started his transition and it's easy for him to spiral into self-hatred.

So no, regulus doesn't like silence, which is why he is such good friends with barty and evan. Their chaotic personalities and the fact that they never shut up keep regulus out of his head and provide a distraction.

Regulus doesn't like noise either though. He gets easily overwhelmed and usually wears his headphones even when around his friends. Sometimes ignoring them

That being said, Regulus prefers there is talking for him to ignore, than being surrounded by silence

[angelllsvoid]

On Bad Thoughts

Sometimes you just have to remind yourself, it's ok if those thoughts pop up in your mind as long as you simply let them pass. If you start considering acting them out, remind yourself there is no need for that and let the thoughts pass. The want hurts but so does the regret and the suffering that follows. Those thoughts are not who you are or what you actually want. Just passersbys. Let them go and remind yourself of the good. Slowly let the sweet thoughts trickle back in.

You are loved

You are such a beautiful person

You deserve to be happy and cope healthily

The future holds so much hope

And you can get through this💗

I love you guys, this was for both you and me. Because every creature big and small deserves to give themselves compassion. Including you!! Sending light and love starlings 💫💗

[downfalldestiny]

Forgotten 🔥 !.

[empatheticnymph]

I wish I had friends who prioritized spending time with me, like I do them.