#c++ cannot be this hard bro

[braincellwhatsthat]

walk with me

[sethdomain]

idk

[cashewyamini]

Saja Boys Headcanons

Jinu

The best cook in the group. Always cooks meals for the Saja boys after a long day.

Usually very reserved, but cares deeply for the saja boys in his own way. Getting Baby snacks he wants, accompanying Mystery in silence, letting Abby get touchy with him, and coming along to Romance’s shopping sprees

Does NOT understand modern slang and humor. Thought Baby was calling him a c*nt when he was complimenting him.

Has a 20 step skincare routine, second longest prep time next to Romance.

Doesn’t like the taste of coffee, so he usually just drinks energy drinks

Feeds and pets every stray animal he sees on the streets, no he doesn’t care if they’re behind schedule he’s gonna feed the damn cat

Doesn’t understand fashion trends so he always lets Romance or Mystery pick out his outfits

Isn’t on his phone often. He usually spends his free time reading or making music. It’s giving Grandpa

Romance

Has the taste of a white man when it comes to food. Bro CANNOT handle any form of spice

Does GRWM and fit check videos a lot

Takes the longest to get ready, not just because of his skincare routine or his hair routine—but also because he takes hours deciding what to wear

Got bullied in the past for being “too feminine” but never let that stop him from doing what he does and that's how he met Abby

 Takes great care of his hair. he uses like 10 products for his hair because he doesn’t want his constant use of gel and hairspray to start damaging his hair

LOVES gift giving. Whenever he goes out he always makes sure to have a little treat to take home for the boys. Be it snacks, new accessories, drinks, food, etc.

Most close with the fans. He loves fan meet and greets, doing live streams, signing the most random stuff for fans, and pouring water on fans during concerts. He may get drained afterwards, but he does like seeing the fans happy.

Baby

Huge prankster. Always playing tricks with the boys and the fans. Adding hot sauce to Romance’s food, sneaking up behind fans, he just loves messing with people.

Is very sarcastic and lies for no reason. During a fan meet, a fan asked him where he was born. He said “Italy.” The fan excitedly asked. “Really!?” And he just replies with. “Haha, no.”

Chronically online as hell. Using internet slang and humor. Always enjoying Jinu’s confusion when he says “You’re funny, please don’t go bald.”

Is always glued to his phone and scrolling through social media.

Massive gamer. Posts his valorant clips a lot, loves rage baiting other players, but he actually really is good at the games he plays.

Is closest with Mystery. He and Mystery have known each other the longest, going back to middle school. Always enjoyed each other’s silence. He often goes to Mystery’s room just to hang out around him even if neither of them strike up a conversation

Has a tongue piercing that Mystery suggested he should get and actually really likes showing it off.

LOVES spicy food. Everything he eats needs to be paired with hot sauce.

Human trash can. His standards for food? Edible (optional)

He’s naturally smart. Back in school he never had to try too hard to be on top. 

Mystery (AKA my favorite)

Stays up playing games or watching movies to the point where he has eyebags 

Has a bridge piercing and brow piercing. Ever since he got his ears pierced he’s loved getting piercings.

Great at art. He has very stable hands which makes him good at painting and most forms of art in general. He likes doodling a lot (he has doodles of Zoey that only Baby knows about). He comes up with fashion and art concepts for the group which Jinu really appreciates. Not to mention he’s a master in color theory.

He’s a sweet tooth. He loves eating sweets and pastries. He mostly loves lemon and strawberry flavored stuff.

Picky eater. When he doesn’t like something in his meal he picks it out and hands it to the other members.

He doesn’t like physically interacting with people so his main way of interacting with his fans is through video games like roblox, valorant, minecraft, etc.

Has always been conventionally attractive to the point where back then his classmates would only approach him for his looks—and this is where he started hiding his face.

He actually approached Baby first back when they first met, because he saw that Baby was the only one who actually treated him normally and didn’t care about his looks.

Most curious about human stuff. Loves experimenting on human food, always curious about human gadgets and mannerisms. The boys often see him as a curious puppy.

Abby

Surprisingly a decent cook. One time Jinu got sick and he decided to take over the kitchen and actually made a delicious meal which the others didn’t expect at all.

HEAR ME OUT… N!pple piercing…

Loves physical touch. When he’s around the others, one part of his body is touching them. Arm around Jinu, playing footsies with Romance, letting Baby rest on his shoulder, or letting mystery rest on his lap. He usually initiates for the others, but with Mystery he lets him approach first.

Has great advice but gives it in the most himbo frat boy way possible. If he had a dictionary he’d be unstoppable

Loves posting thirst traps and mirror selfies. Of course the fans love it too

Sleeps naked.

Gives the best massages, when the others’ bodies get sore they always come to him for a massage

The worst driver in the group. He gets distracted easily and always takes his eyes off the road.

Knew Romance in highschool because he liked his makeup, which was something Romance got bullied for.

[lcriedlastnight]

Friends to lovers with Lando

"I want to be more than friends." "Best friends?" "Stop joking for once! omg."

yes i love this idea!

tw: fem!reader, kind goofy lando idk bro, lmk if you want me to add anything. the lack is sleep i get is evident in this one chat.

w/c: 1k

lando had not been a close friend of yours for long. you had both just been mutual friends. one of your friends knew one of his and that had caused you both to meet up every now and then during the group hangouts. you had both gotten close after one night at the club.

you were in no way, shape or form a 'party girl', the complete opposite of lando, however when he seen you sitting by yourself, sipping on your drink he just had to come over and make conversation. you two had never really spoken much so you were pretty surprised to see the tipsy boy saunter over with a drink in hand for you.

"hey. you looked pretty lonely over here by yourself so i thought i'd come and keep you company."

from then on the two of you just continued to get closer and closer until you both had not gone a day in the past three months without talking to each other in some way.

obviously with lando travelling all around the globe for races, it made it hard to see each other often but you found yourself falling asleep to lando's rants over facetime as he was getting ready for whatever he had in store that weekend. sometimes the time differences were that big that it was really the only time you both got to talk to each other. you hated every time you had fell asleep but lando never held it against you.

this was one of those times where the time zones were only an hour apart, him being an hour ahead. he was already laying in his hotel bed, shirt off (which you did not think was allowed but whatever) and a sleepy grin on his face. he was so tired from qualifying today but he was that tired it made him giggly. it was heaven in your eyes.

"osc definitely wants to meet you. i told him you were my best friend and he was surprised that you even wanted to know me at all. he says i'm too annoying." he rolls his eyes as recalls his conversation about you with his teammate at dinner that night.

it made you sick when you heard him call you his best friend. the boy was not wrong. you were his best friend and he was yours but you could not help yourself from longing for more. you cannot even remember when you fell for him but how could you not? he was such a sweetheart and it felt wrong wanting him in any other way. in your mind that had told you that you were both meant to be but your friends had told you countless times that you were delusional.

"well you are annoying. he wasn't wrong." you respond with a straight face. "i'd love to meet him though. i can give him some tips on how to deal with you."

lando groans through the phone and it in turn makes you laugh as you shuffle to get into a better position in your bed.

"is that my hoodie?" lando asks as he sees a peak of the clothing from underneath the duvet cover. you hide your blush but dropping your phone so it was facing the ceiling instead. "no."

lando snickers at your response. "it so is. do you miss me that much? that's so funny!"

you do not know what changed in your brain but you just knew you had to tell him how you felt right there and then. your heart started pounding and your felt your palms sweat. you tried to keep yourself calm as you decided to just go for it and if he did not feel the same then you could just block his number and move back in with your parents.

you clear your throat. "lando.." you trail off.

"yeah?" he says, his tone still lighthearted in comparison to your now, heavier tone. he does not pick up on it however.

"i think... i want to be more than friends." you tell him. your words sure and laced full of false confidence. you were still hiding most of your face.

lando's face gets serious as he looks at you through your phone. you cannot for the life of you read what is going on in his mind and it was sending you insane as he sits there in silence for a few minutes. it seems like eons to you though.

"you wanna be..." he trails off his eyes sparkling with something you cannot work out. "best friends?" he smirks.

you groan so loud you think your neighbours could hear you through the walls, and they were actually pretty thick. lando laughs on the other end and it just makes you even more annoyed. why was he making this into a joke?

"stop joking for once! oh my god. i'm being serious." you tell him, your frown now deep set as you now let him fully get a proper good look at your face. maybe if he sees your face he will let you down easier so it wont hurt as bad.

lando just smiles at you. "i know. i like winding you up. it's so easy." you can finally decipher a hint of fondness in his eyes as he stares you down. you wished he was here with you so badly right now. maybe you should not have confessed over facetime. too late now, you figured.

"don't look so worried, babe. i like you too but i was planning on letting you know in person. guess you missed me too much you just had to tell me over the phone, huh?" lando teases. the way he says it does make you want to beg for him to just skip the race tomorrow just so he can fly back home to you.

he was way too cocky for his own good and you would be letting him know when you had him back with you.

[plushworldz]

Gingerbread Man - C. Sturniolo

-blurb sortaᥫ᭡

a/n: I've had this little idea for days now and I kinda hate it now but I wanted to put something cute out soon so enjoy!!

warning: not proofread

You had spent many Christmas Eves in the Sturniolo household, but this year was the first as Chris's girlfriend.

"Ma, wake up." You'd been fast asleep in Chris's room for hours before he barged in. "if you don't get up I'm gonna get trev in here to... pee on you." Chris was joking but he at least thought it would be enough to trick his girlfriend into waking up.

"what do you want Christopher" you managed to giggle out, being half asleep and all.

"Matt, Nick, and I are doing a last-minute gingerbread house-making challenge, and I want my baby on my team," Chris said that last part in hopes of persuading you to get up. You opened your eyes a bit more to see him walking over with Trevor in hand. He placed the dog on the bed in front of you and gave him a little nudge. "on the count of three, trev, just like we practiced."

You looked at them both in confusion, unknowing to what was to come.

"three...two... ONE!" Chris and Trevor both sent kisses all around your face until you were a giggling mess. "OK OK, -I'M UP, GUYS -STOP IT."

Chris pulls away and twirls out of the bedroom happy his little plan worked. You get up, throw on one of Chris's hoodies that lied on the floor, fixed your hair a bit and the mirror, scooped up Trevor off the bed, and made your way into the kitchen with the boys.

____________

"Chris!! the roof is slipping oh my god!" It was a battle between you and Chris versus Matt and Nick to see who could make the best-looking gingerbread house while one member of each team was blindfolded.

"It a little hard to keep the roof up when I can't see, baby" Chris tried over and over to glue everything and keep it together without falling before the timer runs out.

"okay we wont have a lot of time, so let's just decorate the outside." you handed Chris the piping bag with the pink icing inside and guide his hand to start drawing windows on the side of the house.

"I just have a feeling yours and Chris's house looks like shit right now" Nick yelled from the other side of the counter.

"I actually CAN see and let me just say you and Matt aren't looking so hot right now" You were quick to throw an insult back as this was natural to you after all these years.

"Bro what are you talking about right now, chris got y'all house lookin' like something diseased."

Before you could respond back to Matt's remark, Chris slathered a large swipe of icing across your face. You stand there in utter shock at what Chris had just done. He and Matt burst out in uncontrollable laughter, not seeing it coming.

"STOP what did I miss guys, I cannot stand both of you" Nick shouts unaware as to what's happening.

"no fucking way." you grab the other piping bag off the table and get ready to pour it all over Chris. Just as you are about to get him back, Chris throws his blindfold off and runs down to the living room.

You start running after him "I'm gonna fucking kill you" you say, ready for revenge.

"cant catch me ma, I'm the gingerbread man," he says now running circles around the coffee table while you tried to nag him.

Just after saying this, he tripped over one of trevors toys and right onto the couch. You took this as your chance and straddled his waist to assure he doesn't get back up.

Now that you've got him right where you want him, you pour icing all over his face out of revenge and spite. he reaches out to your sides and starts tickling mercilessly. Unable to keep in your laughter, you surrender and Chris wipes the icing off his face with his shirt.

With you still on top of him, he can't help but pull you into a kiss. You grab his face and deepen into the kiss, still giggling into his lips.

"You're a shit gingerbread man Chris," you say before going right back into the kiss.

He pulls away ready to say his snark remark before a pillow hits you both. You both turn in the direction the pillow seemed to come, seeing Matt and Nick looking back in disgust

"Can you freaks get up so we can finish the video please"

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[sookayheresthething]

Was there anything that you want/wanted to do a "hold up a second" for that you didn't do for any reason? (Ex. you felt like if you did class 1-A from MHA, the party would be too large, or it would be too hard to make it obvious as to what it is, if it was something like the British Museum, or even just too much homebrewing that you might not want to do for something like Cynthia's team in Pokemon Platinum)

I mean, in general, if I have an idea for a WHOAS, I can do it. you'd be surprised at how much D&D 5e's terminology and mechanical descriptions can be warped for the sake of a one-minute punchline.

like, make no mistake, for the vast majority of WHOAS episodes, the character concepts would either completely fall apart or just be unrecognizable 5 minutes into an actual session -- they'd need way more work to be actually playable versions of the characters. there's a different market for people actually, like, writing answers to the question "how would I make Mabel from Gravity Falls in D&D 5e?" -- my videos are just silly little goofs.

and as for population size -- not usually a problem, if something has ten million characters I'd probably do the two or three Main characters, y'know? if I did MHA I'd do Deku, Bakugo, and Uraraka. if I did Smash Bros I'd do, like, Mario and Link and Kirby and Pikachu or something. if I did Animal Crossing I'd do the player character, Isabelle, and maybe Tom Nook. y'know?

the only one I can think of off the top of my head that I have on my to-do-at-some-point list where I cannot for the LIFE of me figure out how to force into D&D 5e is Light Yagami. I've done Ed and Al, I've done the Straw Hats, I gotta do Light Yagami at some point. but like... hey, that's not a fantasy hero, that is a normal child with a death book.

the closest I've gotten is "warlock whose patron is a death god who has a magic item that's a book with Power Word Kill built in as a free action" or something, but then I run into the second-, third-, fourth-, and fifth-most-difficult part of writing WHOAS episodes*, which are

2. how the hell do I make it at all verisimilitudinous that MMS would not Get It at this point,

3. how the hell do I make it at all verisimilitudinous that MMS would even allow this,

4. how do I get a full 40 to 60 seconds out of this premise, and

5. how do I keep the audience guessing so they don't get it 3 seconds in (I often fail at this one).

so yeah. light yagami, I guess? wait, no, I thought of another one -- veggietales. I had the idea for a veggietales one at some point (oh my god, bob would be a cleric, larry would be a bard/paladin multiclass-- I could make a joke about archibald being a warforged-- there's a lot of potential there). but there just isn't a commonly-recognized plant-person race that I could make into vegetable people. closest is myconids** and idk if that works enough for me.

the other thing is popularity of source material -- I sometimes don't do one if I know that it's not, like, mainstream popular enough. I know that sounds cynical, but it's not supposed to be, I just think that if I did, like, I dunno, Kidd Radd, it wouldn't be fun for anyone but me, eh? I did TLT characters at one point, and I'm vaguely considering doing characters from Remedy's Control, but while those are a little outside the mainstream (the TLT episode definitely got a lot of people in the comments saying "dafuq is this", and that was even part of the punchline of the video), I tend to avoid going for the REALLY obscure*** fandoms I'm in with WHOAS.

oh, and it'd be easy to do and a guaranteed smash hit, but obviously I'm not doing fucking Harry Potter. that whole franchise can rot in mold hell and anyone still supporting it needs to seriously reevaluate their life choices.

--

*the first-most-difficult part is, of course, figuring out the details of the actual build and how the build is described, but you probably already figured that :)

**that's when I have a conid. y'know, my conid as opposed to your conid.

***although I do have a proven track record of thinking things are obscure when they aren't -- case in point, my old "manticores are cool!" video starts with me saying "here's a mythological creature you've probably never heard of before" about a manticore.

[rewordthis]

To Be Hero X [First 7 Episodes observation sheet + rant]

So, I’m slowly rewatching the series and I… IS GHOSTBLADE A FREAKING BUTCHER??? Ahem.. *straightens posture* anyway, as I was saying, I have some observations to share.

Btw, just to be on the same page—I watch the Japanese version because trying to catch all the subs and the visuals is a pain in the ass. You know… btw.

So, what I gathered from Episode 1: What The Actual F—

The year is 41 After Commission.

When Lin Ling gave the finger at Nice, he said: “someone’s gonna steal/take over your spot,” which… he does?

Nice did commit suicide: a) He was a hero that could actually fly and at any point of his fall he could have done so but he didn’t. b) he did his trademark move knowing full well that Lin Ling recognised him. That was his last bit of committing to his role. If anything he understood his position and acted the part. c) He didn’t utter a single peep while going down. He was done. d) This is just to point out that: THE PRODUCTION IS SO MEAN TO HIM, BRO. THEY HAD HIM BREAK HIS WAIST BEFORE HITTING THE GROUND! (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

Before Nice’s suicide, there was an incident that was worrying him. Did he possibly fucked up? It’s not unthinkable that underperforming could have potentially triggered his perfectionism OCD and made him decide he didn’t want to live anymore. Having OCD is like an impending doom is going to find you if something isn’t as it SHOULD. Your nerves get fried and suffice to say, you really feel like it would be easier to be put out of your misery. On that same note, though we can tell the incident was indeed important and not just Nice overreacting, since Shang himself proposed that they should let him take some time off.

The Nice ad screen glitching when Nice appeared: I don’t think that’s X’s doing. Maybe it’s Lin Ling’s, considering the way the series progressed (more on that later*).

Another interesting touch of Nice’s character intro… and exit: The doves. The whole scene actually brightens in a soft sunset and a flock of white doves fly by as he walks right through it—the very picture of perfection and purity. I could also say innocence.

In this episode we have a 2D scene when the series open with Nice’s battle, later when Lin Ling is reminiscent of how he came to love Moon and then again when Lin Ling is being hit and subsequently consumed by fear. It only turns back into 3D when the opponent is defeated—aka the danger has passed, in all cases.

Lin Ling after being taken in as Nice is told to act with confidence and never doubt himself and after he accepts that this is his role alone now and nobody else can be him (Nice) he actually gets the strength to defeat Fear (and be let back at the Hero Tower). *Trust value system may be a boost enough for someone to become a hero and even affect their daily life but ultimately, it cannot be used in place of conviction and it can also be overwritten as we will see later in Ep. 4.

The episode ends with Lin Ling seeing Moon dead. But does anyone have any idea why he had his eyes closed right until the second he looked back at her? Could his amplified trust value trigger an innate skill of his? Like seeing the future? Could he maybe even… idk… had feared of such an outcome before from one of her fights, thus turning this into a potential future? Doesn’t that sound awfully similar to what happened with Nice? Hm???

Also. Nice was a ballet dancer and had a piano in his apartment. Like… I’m getting really upset over this for no apparent reason. The reason is that he was a perfectionist, obsessive little dude that loved art. Of course I’m upset. Damn. (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`)

Episode 2: Doomed Yaoi

In this episode what we see is how much Moon hated Nice. My love, I don’t know how to tell you this, but she sucks! You don’t go “isn’t this great?!” when you hear about someone dying. I mean… how hard could he possibly be making her life to hate him so much? Though, I was impressed that she instantly knew it wasn’t him just by the sheer hate she had for him. Jeez.

Finding out that Nice was also a performer—dancer duo with Wreck (the audio called him King Destruction, btw)—who he had also roped into the hero act because apparently they were close. He was also indicated to be a ballet dancer at Episode 1, but here we get to see that he had pursued a dancing career first. Could he be aiming to being a hero because he liked the idea? Or because he wanted to do more? To help people? To be more, even? A note here: Ballet is a rigorous and exhausting form of performance same as correct piano performance, both classic arts as well. It is based on pursuing perfection and having strict boundaries—anyway, others have pointed this out before, too. Point is: His OCD background gets even more solidly painted as character trait.

Wreck going “I’m not handing you over to anyone”! He. Is. Possessive Lover™︎! Love that for him, hated the outcome. R.I.P. beauty-mark boy, you were for real. 😔

Again, 2D scenes are the past reiteration and fighting ones. Hmmm…

Lin Ling being a sliiightly manipulative little dude when the discussion comes at Moon wanting out of the Hero business: like, yeah I am Nice and will fulfil my contract but if she’s out I’m coming out of the closet, too. LMAO

Lin Ling: I am Nice and play nice so long as my crush plays with me~

Episode 3: Bruh…

Year 34 After Commission. Firm Man first appears and defeats Old E-Soul’s nemesis. Enters Top 10 as No. 10.

Year 36 After Commission. Firm Man becomes the symbol of Hero’s will.

2D scene is once again the backstory reiteration.

Lin Ling only just begins to understand the weight and importance of being a hero.

As Firm Man said to Lin Ling; everyone makes their decisions by case, not all apply equally on every case. What didn’t work for Firm Man may very well work for Lin Ling so long as he acts according to his own wishes. Hmmm… Does that ring a bell so far?

Also, first mention of E-Soul and the chance to see both Old and New. Yang Cheng is helping out civilians on the street after Wolf Girl’s attack. His right hand is a mechanical one.

Episode 4: What The Actual F—. 2

So as we have seen so far, fans’ will affects Heros’ will. Here Lin Ling can’t even get out of the house. But, as I mentioned in episode 1, Trust Value system can get overwritten if the hero is willing to break image. This is how Lin Ling manages to eventually enter the elevator, he breaks the image of Nice and his connection to it. That allows him to act as himself, unrestrained by the fans’ will. He finally makes his resolve.

All 2D scenes are once again taking place during the fights and the past. The ads within universe are 2D because they are tailored by clips recorded in the past. At least that is how I see it.

In Lin Ling’s image breaking we see him returning to his original image but not entirely. The white strand that is still left on his hair signifies a very profound change Lin Ling underwent during which Nice—one way or another—became at some point a part of himself. What part of Nice exactly became his truth? Here I want to note that this is not due to the fans’ belief since he has already rejected Nice. This is because Lin Ling at some point truly believed, accepted and embodied parts of Nice as his own. How do I say this... their existences overlapped and superimposed each-other and eventually started to meld into one.

That said, during his fight with God Eye and while regaining peoples’ trust, besides the power increase he displayed he was also able to fly (one of Nice’s original abilities).

As it is revealed by this, what has truly a grip on the Heroes is their own belief and conviction.

One important note to make before the end of the episode, us how Lin Ling by being himself, manages to use Moon’s wormhole abilities to reach her. Something he couldn’t do as Nice.

As the scene of Moon’s death plays out, we see E-Soul being framed as the culprit. It has been mentioned, however that the angle of the hit and E-Soul’s position do not align and there is a possibility another hero is also present out of Lin Ling’s field of view and I support that interpretation, unless… what if this really is E-Soul’s doing and it’s just due to his rapid movements? In the first place, how did he get there??? He can’t transport himself there, can he? He can be lightning fast but can’t really… teleport. Right? Especially to a place he doesn’t know.

Don’t forget that nobody knows where Moon went. The only way to locate her is through the desire to reconnect with her. The one that has this desire more than anyone is Lin Ling, hence why he can use her wormhole devise. E-Soul must have used that very same wormhole to get there—or at least the reality distortion it created. It is very possible that while he followed Lin Ling, he killed Moon as he sped past them and ended up behind her. Hmmm.. 🤔

Lin Ling seems to have the ability to craft or shape reality. Btw.

Love Lin Ling. But at the same time I am obsessed with Nice! Dude was there for what? 30”? 40”? It doesn’t help that someone uploaded on deadbird their identities either! Nice was a Cancer boy!!! Why are these scriptwriters killing them Cancer boys, maaan? Gege killed Nanamin, too? And if I bother to look into birthdays of other supporting characters in other series I’ll probably find a load more but I’m sparing everyone the longer rant!

Anyway, I keep holding the 2D scenes in reference because I think there is an importance on the moments of the transition… Hmmm… 🧐

Spotlight on No. 9 Episode 5: The 3some Build Up

Year 20 After Commission. E-Soul saves Yang Cheng but is not on time to save either of his parents. He is already missing his right arm.

16 years later, 36 Years After Commission. E-Soul celebrates his 34th anniversary. So he became a Hero only two years after the Hero institution started. (Translations of E-Soul’s Anniversary stunt requirements state that he became the first hero to receive the title of [X] when he defeated Zero, 30 years ago. So Year 6 After Commission. He first appeared in Year 2 After Commission, so he was known for 4 years until that incident. In his Concept Video, he is shown to have his right arm during this battle, too.)

Yang Cheng is born November 11 14 ACY. So he became an orphan when he was 6 years old. He is a Scorpio.

Shang Chao is born March 29 14 ACY. He is an Aries.

The date they turn their Graduation Papers in is March 15 (or so I believe what is for the date at the bottom of Shang Chao’s Application). Damn… Did he even had his birthday?

In episode 4 the young Hero Agent that said they wanted to contact Lin Ling personally because someone could “steal” him, when that was said we see a long haired person in an office with bookcases from top to bottom. That same person is the one dismissing Yang Cheng from the competition because he has 0 Trust Value. 🤨

Also, the 3rd Agent/CEO(?) we see is voiced by Toriumi Kousuke. 😮😩 (Ep. 4 as well. just forgot to add it. Oops. Sumimasen.)

Yang Cheng’s memories are shown in 2D while E-Soul speaks in the event about the reasons he has not taken off his mask for 34 years. The scene changes back to 3D when we have the parallelism of the night Yang Cheng lost his parents to Pomelo (Yuzu) being dependent on him to save him.

Pomelo’s single point of Trust in Yang Cheng is a burst of electricity that literally energises Yang Cheng’s body. He gains much more than just a Trust point. He literally gains the very first person to truly believe in him—the real him. It seems like not just the number of believers but also the nature of the trust they hold is of great importance.

The reason Yang Cheng looked up to E-Soul besides him saving him, seems to also be the fact that before their death, Yang Cheng’s mother had gifted him E-Soul’s figure which we see him sleep with in the orphanage and we have already seen it on his desk in his house and telling him that he can be strong like him. Ughhh… people, when will you learn to teach your kids to be authentic? 😮‍💨

Yang Cheng being almost ready to reveal himself to Xia Qing and getting cockblocked a 3rd time in one episode by Shang Chao. LMAO His little laugh as he decides that fate probably just does not want him to come clean to her and moving to go, is also super cute. And absolutely hilarious since Shang Chao is the one pulling the curtains on him. In all honesty… I don’t know what I expected, but Yang Cheng’s flabbergasted face was priceless. Also, why is Shang Chao so smug about revealing him? Help! 😆

Episode 6: Be U (not the cologne)

E-Soul replying to his manager, “Who is the real E-Soul—I shall teach them.” Wooh, scary~

Shang Chao telling Yang Cheng that being E-Soul is not identity theft, but that this is the peoples’ belief and trust in his potential.

Also that even though he can take off the mask he is still E-Soul for those supporting him. This is a direct contrast to the Original E-Soul who’s never once shown his face to anyone.

Xia Qing telling Yang Cheng that Shang Chao confessed to her and then going “aren’t you being too surprised?” Giiirl, you know he’s got a crush on you and you keep throwing him curved balls… Have mercy. 😂

Lucky Cyan’s concert is on April 24-26.

Original E-Soul being verbally attacked by reporter’s during his new toy announcement… Why did the host cut them off completely and didn’t let him address at least some of their questions? He does seem to be used as a puppet more and more. Or more like… a caged animal…? 🥺

Not Uncle Rock setting Yang Cheng up with Shang Chao and giving them free pass to the store's buffet after closing hours.

Once again 2D scenes are Yang Cheng’s memories up to his current life.

By the way, Yang Cheng is 1.75 cm tall. He was just barely fit to audition for E-Soul’s stand-in. 😭 (From what I saw on translations from other users, my man is an over 1.95cm monster! I freaken’ love him!!!)

Original E-Soul losing Trust Value which in turn is added to Yang Cheng… It does feel kind of a replacement tactic more than the will for renewal that Xia Qing spoke of.

Not Yang Cheng lighting up when Shang Chao enters the room… 👀 Boy, you weren’t this happy when you saw Xia Qing. What is going on in this head of yours???

Enlighter finding out that the phone call was encrypted and only someone with a) money or b) IT knowledge (or even both) could pull it off.

This is where it feels a bit.. off, as Yang Cheng seems troubled by this. Could it be that this was an opportunity to come clean with Original E-Soul and he regrets about how things turned out? Being cleared from the accusations should make him happy, but instead he looks pensive. 🧐

The way I keep replaying that part where Xia Qing tells Yang Cheng that she will root for him if he can be honest and true to himself, but even if he can’t… she will wait for him for ever (?), did I hear that right??! Eh???

Yang Cheng not being on time to save Shang Chao… Yeah. What was that heart-wrenching scream at the end, kid?

At this point I want to highlight something: It is E-Soul’s 34th Anniversary, even if he started his hero career at 18 years old straight out of highschool, he is 52 years old now—at the very, very least. Which, he probably isn’t. He must be around 56, actually. But let’s keep the minimum just for kicks…

⚡️💜Look at this shredded, towering God!🗿⚡️Bites a chunk out of him. MINE~ 💜🔥

Episode 7: When Legends Die, The Heartbreaker (yes this is a song reference, deal with it)

So we start off with Shang senior practically declaring war on fate, God and the world. Okieee… He is cruelly cold towards Yang Cheng and flat out tells him that he should be seeking revenge on Shang Chao’s behalf. Understandable.

Also, what was that scene with Shang Chao in Yang Cheng’s arms in the rain… WHAT?

Right in this same scene, we see Yang Cheng saying that has positively identified the shooter. It’s one of the guys that abducted Pomelo (Yuzu). Yang Cheng had left a burn-mark on his neck when he saved Pomelo, so he wants Shang senior’s help…

On this note, Enlighter has researched the whereabouts of the two criminals and the circumstances under which they ended up out of jail. As Enlighter informs Yang Cheng, the paperwork indicated that they were still in prison while they actually were out and the agent that had helped with the fake paperwork was most probably already killed, so that whoever was the mastermind could tie any loose ends. As Enlighter pointed out, even if Yang Cheng was to find the criminals now, after all this publicity, there wouldn’t be any real difference since they now did have a good reason to go after Yang Cheng and nobody would bother searching further into finding the mastermind, who could still target Yang Cheng and move freely in the background.

So, what Yang Cheng must have thought is that whoever aims to ruin him, is someone well connected, well off and with a “grudge” against him. Does that sound like someone we know? Who could possibly want Yang Cheng, a poor orphan that hasn’t harmed anyone, out of the picture? Oh! Maybe the guy that he stole his Trust Value??? Oooh!

So how does he settle this without risking anyone else’s safety? But by bringing the issue to publicity and challenging the culprit to an open battle so they can settle the score once and for all. By making E-Soul fight him. Winner takes it all, love.

The backstory (2D) scenes of Yang Cheng tearing down his entire house and breaking his E-Soul figure—destroying his idol—are heart breaking. He is a different person. He does not believe in anything good anymore. I mean, look at his eyes when he peers through that broken mirror. He is broken himself after this ordeal!

E-Soul on the other hand.. couldn’t be caring to give a flying banana peel from what we see. This dude gives no fucks about anything and anyone. He doesn’t even care about his ranking or Trust Value dropping! It is clear he only does the PR shit just to get his manager off of his ass and the only things he really cares about are helping people and bodybuilding. LMAO He’s KING, ok? I don’t care what anyone thinks of him, he is the real shit. He hears Yang Cheng’s challenge with his own fucking ears from the tv—and lowkey accusations about Shang Chao’s death—and he straight up says he has “no interest” in this, right after! Absolute fucking King behaviour! 😎

Though, to be fair, when he finally decides to listen to his manager is probably because he has never seen him so stressed as fuck before. What seems to do the trick and convince him to take on the challenge is when his manager shows him videos of people actually supporting the theories of him being behind the murder and that if his Trust Value drops any further he will just be an old guy… Baby, my dude, hey—King, let it! Get them to give you pension and leave this bull crap for the fame-hungry idiots! Listen to me, bro. You did enough.

While Yang Cheng practices, Xia Qing says that maybe he shouldn't do it, maybe it’s a trap and she doesn’t want to lose anybody.

Uncle Rock, though has a way to force an opening to E-Soul’s impenetrable defences; to make him use an extremely powerful move but that will render all his defending systems useless. Hmm… suspicious stuff.

Yang Cheng and Xia Qing arguing about the battle at the beach. She asks him, once more (3rd time actually), to uphold their promise and be honest with himself and be true to his wants. To which Yang Cheng replies that he is but he cannot honour a promise he made just between them when there are people out there trusting him not to run away from the battle and betray them. Kid… you’re betraying yourself, though???

The arena for their battle, is the memorial ground where E-Soul defeated Zero.

E-Soul is determined to stay on the defence while Yang Cheng... well, kid breaks the walls for no apparent reason the second he steps foot there. This doesn’t show determination or an intimidating aura, in my book. It’s just lashing out in disguise. … And malice. Of course. Again this is all in 2D mode—is X watching the fight or what the f— 😗

Xia Qing has gone to the concert alone. She sits in the middle of the seats Shang Chao had reserved for them. Well, that’s a 3some that went nowhere~

The battle is ragging and despite Yang Cheng’s relentless attacks, E-Soul has already caused quite some damage by just using his lightning whip. I knew you were a Do-S deep down, King. Love ya! 🥰

Some moments after during their chase, the armour on E-Soul’s mechanical arm is broken. This means that Yang Cheng has managed a few good blows.

Also, around here we hear E-Soul’s manager asking him to use his risky attack. E-Soul’s immediate response is “who’s instigating this?” and like, he is not wrong. But the damage has been done.

Back to Uncle Rock showing Yang Cheng of how his plan can succeed. He has been spreading rumours and advertising that E-Soul will use his powerful attack during the fight. Yang Cheng comments how this must have cost a lot—like, a lot lot. [Also, a note here: if someone can please look at the comments from the people calling E-Soul a fraud and explain to me why is a note of 37 years in there??? What does that refer to? E-Soul appeared 34 years ago? Or was it that he got commissioned 34 years ago but was actually around since 37 years prior? Wasn’t Commission Year 36 we were watching??? WTF—]

We see Uncle Rock unloading his entire shop. What an incredible man, huh? He believes so much in Yang Cheng he sold everything he owned to pay for this ad! Right?! 🥹 Yang Cheng owes him big time!!!

For some time now, E-Soul is stalling and tries to—I assume—tire Yang Cheng out. If he gets tired enough and is unable to move anymore, the battle will be over. But Yang Cheng is determined to not back down and pushes harder with every blow. He even breaks E-Soul’s shield. E-Soul lunches small-scale attacks, too. But on one occasion right after he’s informed about the public’s expectations, he stands completely still and seemingly takes the attack. Is he measuring Yang Cheng? Is he contemplating his next move? Or is he providing an opening just to be fair? Could it be he is overestimating himself?

A couple mutual attacks later, Yang Cheng manages to break his Chest shield. This one was so Togainu-coded, I am eating steel! Grrr 😤

It is here that E-Soul finally realises that he is going to lose if he doesn’t make a decision. You know how I know it? Just how he knows it—parts of his floating shield stopped working. His electric currents aren’t strong enough to uphold the electromagnetic field around him! I. AM. CHEWING. HIS. SHIELD. FRAGMENTS!!! I’m going insane, I’m sorry I’m not sorry. Sue me.

He decides to finally bring out… the big gun.

Xia Qing is crying watching the live. Is she… sensing something?

The final attack has begun. E-Soul is bringing his Lightning Slash down while Yang Cheng is stubbornly charging forward.

Xia Qing has left the concert. Now all 3 seats are empty. 👀👀👀

Uncle Rock is a fucking BITCH™︎. Scheming bastard, I want to see if you’re still going to have a mug after Shang finds out it was you behind his son’s murder! I hope there will be no mask to hide the way he disfigures you! (He is still in the game, btw. We see him eyeing Lin Ling, which means he is not fucking exposed, yet!)

I replayed the scene… a gazillion times and every time I catch E-Soul having his Lighting Beam already lowered and only Yang Cheng’s fist is visible. A different angle, and still the same—E-Soul is intact behind his Lightning Slash while Yang Cheng is lost in the light and then KABOOM! The place is blown up to smithereens.

Uncle Rock watches the news from the battle without a hint of emotion. And why would he?

The kids commenting on Uncle Rock’s shop getting closed and while one says that it had closed a long time ago another one of them says that had just recently been reopened and was doing really good. Ugh.

From the rubbles we can only see 3 trashed drones and a single figure standing. The figure emits a pale violet electric current—right arm missing. I wish, this was Old E-Soul since his electric current was vibrant purple in contrast to Yang Cheng’s light blue one but alas, as I said, this is pale violet bordering white and the figure had still attached a shoulder shield and Old E-Soul’s was broken before the final clash so… yeah. I have hope. But at the same time, I don’t*.

At the very end of the episode, we see E-Soul (whoever he may be…?) moving into the 9th floor of the Hero Tower. Don’t forget he was chewed out by his manager for falling out of the Top 10!

E-Soul is standing in front of the window. He has the equipment of his shoulder shields floating instead of being attached on him. As said, he is fitted with a new mechanical arm, which is in full display unlike the Old E-Soul’s.

Uncle Rock is paying a visit. He is trusted, either as Uncle Rock to whom Yang Cheng owes his new life as a Hero or as the Mighty Glory manager that came to congratulate their veteran for persevering. I am fucking going insane. I mean it. I’m going to bite Li Haolin!!! >:E Which one is it???

But… Uncle Rock stands taller than this E-Soul as he comes over and stops next to him, so unless some real fucked up shit happened with the suit at the fighting ground and some even more fucked up, unhinged twist of reality that reverted Old E-Soul to his first Hero days or even merged the two, then this dude here… is indeed Yang Cheng. The shorty that stands at 1.75 cm. 😔

Soo, correction! The shorty stands at 1.85cm!!! His ID as E-Soul states as much. Shorty got a sprout boost from his Trust Value absorbing that of my titan man. >:E I don’t want to be mean, but daaamn~ I’m not a Yang Cheng supporter no matter how I flip it. Yours truly is pining over the middle aged, UNAMED, DEHUMANISED, FACELESS, singleminded DUDE of the series!!! They better release a birthday for my man at the very least!!! I WILL BITE EVERYONE IF I DON’T FIND OUT ABOUT IT!!! >:EEE I DEMAND BLOOD ON HIS BEHALF!!! 🔪👿🔪 On that note: if anyone reading this finds out they have released info on him, please, please, I BEG, tell me about it!!! Askbox is open for anons, too. I will not bite, I promise. I will love anyone that gives me any info on my old man. Please~ 🥺🥺🥺

Bring me back my battle-worn, Greek God of war, E-Soul!!! 😭😭😭

As a side note on this, I think he gives off strong Aries vibes but an Aries would most definitely be unapologetically up front and show his face. Another possibility, especially considering the hard work and legacy he has managed to build is Capricorn, but like… Capricorns also wouldn’t want any risk on going unnoticed or their hard work being usurped. They would fight back! So that leaves me thinking Pisces; they work hard, don’t really like being perceived and are calm af in times of unrest. Not to mention, the horrors—they withstand being the martyr if they believe it’s worth the effort. 🫠

Btw, yeah. I mixed up Uncle Rock’s scenes up there somewhere because I wrote this after watching the episode and then I couldn’t copy-paste it in the right order since my phone is a piece of junk, so… summan~ But like, take it or leave it, I ain’t going to rewrite the entire paragraph. 🤷‍♀️

At this point I want to say that, yes. I have started to believe that the 2D transitions are a reference to a manipulated or more correctly put, “biased” perspective. This stinks of unreliable narrator to boot. The first 2D scenes we get is the Nice advertisement Lin Ling is working on (manipulation). Memories shown in 2D could be due to the shift in reality, too: the past vs present. Or due to the narrator’s views/knowledge of the time, aka not knowing the full story or not having a full perspective of the present reality (biased). Does this make any sense to anybody else? Is it just me??? 😶‍🌫️🫠

The real-time 3D to 2D transitions though seem to be more in line with X interfering with those moments. 🤨😗 As it is portrayed in X’s concept video, he is shown to be the ‘infinite’. By his powers, infinity is shown to be altering universes/planes of existence. He can turn 3D reality into 2D. Remember how almost to their entirety, all fighting scenes are flipped into 2D? At least so far? Who’s to say that X isn’t the one interfering with the universe his fellow heroes are fighting in order to help them achieve as little casualties as possible? But hey, is X a good character after all? What did he became a hero for? He has no affiliations, so he is untethered by external influences. He is doing this out of his own volition and for his own personal reasons.

Also, in the greater scheme of To Be Hero X, the [X] can refer to a) the unknown, since any hero can acquire this position. b) to the top 10, since X = 10 in latin. c) to a variable that can affect the outcome of an equation (is it coincidence that the Opening Theme closes with X while we hear “I still ain’t done enough, not even close”? I think not).

By current knowledge, X is occupying the top for 4 years now as well. I mean… it should be 4 years? They say he is in the top for two years and none has beaten him so far, so since the competition is every two years, wouldn’t be normal that he could have a one-off and win the position at least once? Why all the hype over him not having being defeated ever since his appearance and Title occupation? That sure means he’s won the Hero Competition twice, imo. Right? Or… idk. Whatever.

Btw. Can anyone tell me what does the article say? Is it about the upcoming Nice/Moon live or something? I don’t understand Chinese. TvT

[wyverndreamers]

WARNING for extensive talk about the dsmp and the characters in it !! THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH CC'S THIS IS PURELY STORY BABBLE

loving the dsmp revival going on rn (maybe it's only on twt but i don't post on twt, so sorry for dsmp posting on this account) but i really don't like how a lot of the 'revival' is bringing back a lot of c!tommy's mischaracterization as a whole. i can understand the URGE to smooth him out, into something malleable and kind of babied, because for a while there he was just seen as this really annoying character in fandom spaces pertaining to the dsmp, but i see this urge around the internet to turn tommy into a 'perfect victim' with his trauma when that's just not true at all. i say this as a c!tommy enjoyer, i used to watch his pov's RELIGIOUSLY and i say this as someone who has an appreciation for his story and hate to see it cheapened by this constantly crying, blue sweater wearing blonde baby i see on my TL a lot. apart of what made c!tommy compelling is that at certain points he was very petty, and abrasive. he would act on impulse, and not always in a good way. a lot of the time, yeah it did good in the long run, but in the moment a lot of the stuff he does are stupid impulsive decisions that could've ended in FAR worse scenarios. people really like to hold up his trait of loyalty but completely ignore that his loyalty to a fault always came with a subtle sense of ENTITLEMENT that they were supposed to do right, because he was following him, kind of like how a child would be mortified seeing their parents doing something socially wrong like yelling at someone else. and a lot of people in the fandom actually LIKE this aspect of his character, but mostly because it can add to their characterization of him that is of inherent helplessness and childishness. and its usually painted as a good, pure trait to have, fully ignoring how a lot of his childishness is actually willful ignorance- especially in the face of his actions and how they'll effect people around them. he might bend eventually and mutter out a sorry, but that's not something he really WANTS to do. tommy is someone usually fully fixed in his own perspective and you can especially see it in the way that almost every other character at some point gets irritated at him FOR this in certain places in the narrative. and a lot of people would actually have you believe this is a good thing, because they actually view tommy as always having a perfect perspective on everything all the time. they think because he's the closest thing we have to a 'morally correct protagonist' that he is inherently morally correct and thus should be worshipped like the next messiah that will lead the revolution against the evil-doers. except, tommy just does not have that inherently morally correct perspective. yes he wants to do right, but his sense of 'right' is not always what is 'good'. bro literally tipped the initial domino that led to Doomsday happening, and that's not to say that anything that happened because of him burning down George's house was his fault (quite the opposite) but he also knowingly burnt down George's house knowing that George was friends with Dream, and having the full knowledge of what they could do at least to the extent of the L'manberg revolution where they literally had a traitor on the in betray them all. he recklessly incited George's (and again by proxy, Dream's) wrath because he did a reckless action. it's okay to call this behavior reckless and brash guys, that doesn't mean you're saying he deserved to be exiled. i could go on, but again i say this as an enjoyer of the c!tommy storyline and arcs he goes through. i just don't appreciate it when the thing that made his character so compelling, is cheapened down because the fandom cannot fathom the idea of liking a character that responds in complex ways to complex traumas. maybe some people relate too hard, IDK i just don't understand how you can praise a character for being human and then take out everything that MAKES the character feel so human sorry if this wasnt constructive or coherent, i didn't beta read my tumblr post

[cramathonn]

Thoughts on Jane and Seth as a couple? And fun headcanons about them if you have any?

Ohoho, heck YEAAAH

I love Jane x Seth, they're so cute

Teasing dom woman and dense af submissive and pure man who she can ABSOLUTELY suplex (he'd let her but not without a fight, would so consider it training)

But like, I had a thought before this one and it was just

"Tom and Jerry but make them humans and Jerry is trans and a dominatrix" – My brain about Jane x Seth

And headcanons about them? Hmm, I think Jane would have a hard time spending time with Seth due to her missions and all, but she would try to make time, absolutely.

Seth would SOOO try to get her to come to his family time weekends. I mean, that's his gf, she's family now so like, family weekends with parents AND hot gf? Sign him up!!!

Seth is also the shyest boyo in the planet. Don't het me wrong, he IS dense as fuck, but once he gets the hint? Oh, he's blushing, oh he's hiding behind his tail and turning around to Jane cannot see his face (she loves seeing him all flushed and shy, that's her recharger, your honor)

I also can see them having sparring dates and training dates. Seth is a very hardworking individual and constantly tries to improve his physical capabilities. Considering that Jane EASILY bested him in their first encounter, he'd obviously want to constantly spar with her like, PLEAAAASE TEACH HIM HOW TO BE NIMBLE ON HIS FEET HE IS BEGGING

NSFW headcanons ahead! So if you're a Minor, please stop here!

Jane if VERY naughty. Like, have you SEEN her trailers??? That woman is the incarnation of Aphrodite AND Dionysus combines (aka she's the incarnation of SEX). So like, she will absolutely go down on Seth. Also, T4T Jane x Seth anyone?

But like, since so many ppl see Jane and Seth as Tom and Jerry, may I offer you transfem Jane, the queen of tucking? Like, Seth had NOOO idea she was trans and when he found out he just found her like, 10x hotter.

Like, imagine your girlfriend, who you know is strong af and sooo fucking cunning, finally tells you she is trans and you just "Omfg my girlfrend is so fucking strong and determined and beautiful and she has such a huge di-"

Seth is a virgin, I'm sorry but that SHOULD be common knowledge between all in the fandom. Like, bro has NO game due to how dense and blunt he is. While Jane has THE game, like, even Belle said she had rizz for fuck's sake! That woman is bisexual hazard in a way that she CAUSES the hazard and is, most possibly, a lot of people's bi awakenings (I just know some poor straight woman is looking at her going like "Wtf, why is she so pretty holy shit I wanna date her" and having to stop and rethink their entire history with sexual and/or romantic attraction)

Either way, Seth is prideful but not in an arrogant way, so I'm having a hard time deciding if he would vehemently deny that he's a virgin or if he would just... Say it. NO WAIT, BETTER OUTCOME. Jane is making out with him and he's so nervous and he has a boner (or his pussy is wet, live your headcanons to the fullest!) and Jane teases him about it and he's so so anxious and nervous and shy and gosh she catches on that it's his first time so quickly and she asks him about it and I can just SEE his ears pressing against his head in shame and him slowly nodding without making eye contact....

Soft first time. Jane is SO caring with him for his first time. Ngl, they probably continue to go soft for the first couple of times before Seth is comfortable with experiencing... But I feel like he would be very vanilla even after experimenting (is also very traditional with the "sex is supposed to be romantic" thought and that almost fucks up his first time until Jane calmed him down through it and just... Told him it doesn't need to be romantic and it can just be a fun and enjoyable activity)

Either way, Jane is kinky af, she was a dominatrix once and you CANNOT take that away from me. She revels when Seth lets her go rough on him and she's like, the queen of aftercare, change my mind

Very healthy couple who respects each other's boundaries. She knows she has to be blunt and very literal with Seth so that he can get things and he kinda appreciates it, since it's not always that people understand his problem with getting social clues or context hints. He hated it at the beginning, thinking Jane was babying him, but he quickly understood that he wouldn't be able to understand her boundaries as well of she didn't do that, so he talked to her that day and thanked her PROFUSELY (they ended up cuddling in bed after that)

[celeluwhenfics]

This morning I went on field research for writing

In my town there is an unheated outdoor swimming pool that is open year-round. Indeed, as @frodothefair said in her comment, winter bathing is a tradition in many Nordic countries: the place was packed!!!

Today the water was 6.7°C (or 44°F for you heathens) and the air was a misty 4°C (39°F).

So... I should definitely have gone there before writing the ice bathing scene in Cold hands, warm heart! But it wasn't my very first experience bathing in "fresh" conditions, although it was my coldest ever by a couple degrees at least. I'm happy to say that the experience mostly fit what I pictured as I was writing!

A few extra impressions:

Before and after bathing, the worst is the feet. Even scantily clad, the air is not that bad, if you've moved a bit before. But the FEET, in contact with cold water on the hard ground, are in pain. It would be excruciating in the snow! Next time I must bring water shoes.

It's really interesting to experience a culture where nudity is really no big deal! Everyone naked in the changing rooms, bare butts all around in the communal showers! My partner who is from a very private culture was shocked and amused. Like a Grimbold at the Aldburg swim hole! 😅🍑

The main way I could convince myself to jump in and stay in at first was to repeat "I am Éowyn, I am Éowyn, I am Éowyn!" Whatever works, I guess!

The main reaction of my body in the water and immediately out was not shivering, but hyperventilating and panting heavily. I had to work hard to calm my breathing! I was thinking of an ex of mine who was really into the Wim Hof method... But I'm not sure I would recommend it without medical supervision.

I was able to wade perhaps 20 meters, and after about 45 seconds I felt like I needed to get out. But as soon as I was wrapped in my towel, I felt much better, and I wanted to go back again. I went around the pool once more, maybe 30 meters, and this time was almost comfortable. Nonetheless I was glad for the warm shower waiting for me! But it was nowhere, NOWHERE as bad as I would have expected.

My partner was NOT able to stay that long in the water. He was in and out, and then he wanted to go back in because he saw me swim and his ego couldn't leave it at that. His second try was not much more successful. 🤭

This is something I've observed many times: guys are quick to go in, but can't stand it long, whereas women are more affected by the initial shock (it HURTS, okay), but then are able to stay for a good while longer. And this is why I wrote Éowyn taking her time and toughing it out, but surfer-bro Éomer jumping in and running out swearing!

To be fair, men tend to have less body fat than women. I'm indeed a little softer around the edges than my partner. When I was in Mexico, this earned me the nickname of "beluga" amongst marine biologists, because I cannot tan, and I could withstand frigid waters (frigid to them, we're talking 22°C/72°F).

Overall it was FUN! The feeling of euphoria is real! I'd definitely do it again, especially that it's a 2km run from where I live, which is perfect to get warmed up before and after. A new winter tradition for me!

Okay, I'm off to make hokshoklet!

Wintery divider by @quillofspirit

[ordowrites]

I want it to be known the C for Cum point on the Wanderer post gave me like the most intense brainrot- Like now I just have the mental image of trans Wanderer with like an intense breeding kink and equally as intense baby fever and like he keeps trying to breed his partner but he can't because he has no dick and no fertile cum so dude is just going through the most intense "I would knock you up if I could" type shit-

Like bro is just going through the nightmare of every lesbian and trans-man that just wants bio-kids and that is going to live in my head rent free for the next month because honestly I fucking feel that so hard bro-

oh my god anon, i feel you on this. it has to be a common thing amongst us XD

BUT this has inspired me so-

cw: breeding kink, afab reader, notsfw, use of toys, biting.

trans!wanderer is ago~

You'd seen him watching families come and go on the streets each day, a thin frown on his beautiful face - you think he looks envious most of the time and always considered asking if he wants to have children (but never quite doing so because you know you'll get a snappy response in return).

Perhaps, you've entertained the thought of a family with him - biological children are off the table for you both but adoption isn't a bad thought. Or hell, maybe finding out how his creator made him and mimicking that if he wants.

Whatever would make him happy.

Baby fever hits him pretty hard on the bad days - those are the days he'll shove you onto the bed, all but rip your clothes off - fingers working at your cunt until you're begging for mercy. He knows all of your spots to make you cum quickly, easier to make you ready for whatever strap on or toy he's picked out for your quivering hole.

His breath is always hot at your hear, needy moans escaping his pretty lips as he shoves himself against you.

"Imagine," he'd groan and growl against your ear, nipping at your earlobe. His movements are erratic, desperate - he's close himself and you're already a mess of your own slick, the fake semen from the dildo, and his. He always makes a mess of you. "You round and plump with my babies, my children. Mine." He bites at your breasts, focusing particularly on making you keen and whimper, sensitive buds perked and ready.

You cannot mistake the need in those violet hues, the desperation - and you sure as shit wish you could give him what you wanted.

The thought makes you clench around the toy, makes him cum - squirt - himself. There's bruises on your wrists from where he'd grabbed you, bite marks on your chest and neck, claw marks along his back and shoulders.

He'd cage you in for a few minutes - breathing hard as you kiss his face in a sloppier, wet manner as you stroke his hair that feels too real to belong to a puppet. You'd quietly assure him that you love him so so much and he'd only grunt in response.

It would be an immaculate conception, you think. Wouldn't it? You're tired, but he's hoisting your legs up on his shoulders. It's never a one time deal - not with him, never with the Wanderer. When he does something, he makes sure he does it multiple times. Until you're both exhausted, until he's satiated and content. The Wanderer never sings you praises, but he certainly does whenever the baby fever strikes him.

So, every time, all you can do is spread your legs wider, wrap your arms around his shoulders, and pull him close.

[queenlua]

what podcasts have you listened to?

good question because I'M IN THE MARKET FOR PODCAST RECS. please. i hate almost everything on this list

S Tier (i listen to new episodes the second they drop)

Know Your Enemy. look Matt and Sam just have such an exceedingly good vibe. when they talk about something i actually know they never feel like they're doing an unfair or one-sided treatment of it. they're both massive intellectual history nerds. and they do that without, y'know, sacrificing Principles and Taking A Stand in the name of pseudointellectual fairness. occasionally they bring on a guest that pisses me off but that's fine. good things for this podcast forever

A Tier (i'm excited when i have new episodes to listen to)

Normal Gossip. quality varies a decent amount season-to-season but at its heart, it's some bitches Talking Shit about some people you'll never meet in an entertaining way. entirely my jam. hell yeah

The Recipe with Kenji and Deb. good vibes, i learn a couple things about food usually, i am really dumb about cooking so it's not hard for me to learn new things but i sure do learn

The Bonhoeffer Podcast. my current listen. egregiously niche subject. clearly run in a no-frills low-production-value by some random academic. and it rules. tell me the niche internecine theological conflict random dudes with shitty internet connections I Need To Know

Drive to Work with Mark Rosewater. he gets repetitive if you listen to too many episodes at once. but. the head designer of Magic: the Gathering is just as compelling in podcast form as he is in his writing. love that shit

B Tier (i'll go to these reasonably-frequently)

Odd Lots. episodes are rarely standouts but rarely uninteresting either. vibe between the hosts is good

Designer Notes. pros: did a 3hr interview with Cole Wehrle who i do have a brain-crush on. cons: most guests aren't Cole Wehrle

The Kongversation. look it's just some guys nostalgia'ing hard over ye olde Rare/Nintendo games but they're oddly fun/compelling about it

BS-Free Witchcraft Podcast. i have an affection for tetchy neopagans who are somewhat grounded about it and this dude's pretty solid on that front

C Tier (fine, if i must. OR, yes i listen but i feel guilty about it)

If Books Could Kill. ok so the problem with Michael Hobbes is that he's not particularly intellectually honest. the problem with Peter Shamshiri is that he's definitely not intellectually honest and also a dick about it. unfortunately they are both very ENTERTAINING.

i feel a little less guilty listening to them in this format because like. dunking on The Secret is just having a good time, it's a sporking, everyone already knows the book sucks.

it's still unvirtuous that i listen to this one but sometimes i need to listen to familiar stupid dunks as i fall asleep yaknow

And Also With You. episcopalianism 101; i have a Pet Research Project atm & while these ppl aren't as deeply NERD as i desire they make up for it with vibes & pleasantness

D Tier (if i'm desperate. and on a road trip. i'll listen. i guess)

Ezra Klein: my husband absolutely bodied me the other day when i listened to Joe Rogan for the first time, for Civic Education Reasons™, and before i could begin to describe the experience he was like "let me guess, it's like Ezra Klein but for center-right gym bros." and fuck me if that's not egregiously accurate. they share a certain combo of "weirdly credulous" + "have a few specific Weird Anxieties they're fixated on." in Klein's case that anxiety is focused on factory farming & in Rogan's case it's focused on like weird AI conspiracies. in both cases they are aggressively vanilla and mid but sometimes Klein gets an okayish guest. Klein's REALLY had a lot of anxiety lately tho so i've found him harder to take, cannot be part of your secondhand anxiety bro

Time To Say Good Bye! rank punditry but i kinda like Jay Caspian Kang's vibe

Limited Resources. listened way more when i was drafting MtG competitively. but episodes are LONG and that's absolutely an asset when e.g. you're on a long drive to Whistler & you and your husband already nearly came to blows over What To Listen To & you remember Oh Shit Right We're Both Going To A Prerelease Next Weekend

You Have Permission. podcast by a chill sort-of-intellectually-marshmallow-esque liberal christian guy. there are a LOT of episodes which is useful if you're trying to set time on fire. some of his guests are FASCINATING; some less so. averages out to "fine"? random episodes are Not Good but if you skim in advance you'll get e.g. a really cool Quaker guy, some hypernerd theologian, etc

Podcasts That Are So Good But Sadly I Have Already Listened To Every Episode And They Aren't Making More

Every Day's Great! nerds replay Persona 4 and yap about it

The Rise and Fall of Mars Hill. watch an evangelical megachurch implode

Stuff I've Guiltily Carried Around With A Vague Intention Of Actually Listening For A While Now

No Proscenium. all the LARP news that's fit to print. haven't taken a dive yet tho

The Blood Zone. i really like liz ryerson's other work but only listened to the ocremix episode of this one so far oops

The Age of Napoleon & History of Africa. i was enjoying Napoleon for a while but my old car didn't have bluetooth and the podcast was just too QUIET to hear even at the loudest volume. history of africa i was enjoying but got distracted and now i'm like oh fuck i don't remember where i was guess i'll die

Security. Cryptography. Whatever. i should be listening to this for professional reasons

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i'm aware there's weightier/better podcasts out there, but i'm mostly listening to podcasts while driving or doing chores, so i need podcasts to hit this weird sweet spot of "intellectually serious enough i don't turn the thing off" but also "well-produced / attention-grabbing enough that it's entertaining even if i can only devote half my brain to it (because, y'know, driving/cleaning)." so most podcast recs don't work on me. and for some reason a lot of popular podcasts (planet money, most NPR ones, etc) are like nails-on-chalkboard for me. maybe i just need to get into audiobooks or something lol but yeah that's what i'm relying on for now

[moxijunk]

Heyyy Moxi!!

I finally took a sip of your life essence- that sounds weird

It has an odd smell to it and a weirder taste... It's a bit like unflavored cough syrup(?) it is incredibly hard to drink. I am actually drinking it as I type this, and I cannot decide if I'm coming around to it or not... There's notes of... Eucalyptus? Ax body spray?? And like- powdered vitamin c packet... There's cherry in it- I think?? It's a bit like Dr Pepper's weird uncle... It's got a very "medicinal" aftertaste... They really meant it on the label when it said "distinctly different". It's also headache inducing?? For some reason... I can definitely tell why it's called "moxie" now. I feel like this is a mixer for whiskey or beer or something. This is something you should chug before a bar fight, or like a bear fight.

All in all... Fucking weird. I may or may not finish the bottle. I am kinda-sorta coming around to it(?).

Bro your life essence tastes real weird.

Yeah, my life essence is weird, sorry about that. happens when you try to drink a fae /what /silly

also yeah god, that sounds absolutely awful, totally understandable for not wanting to finish it. I completely forgot about that you found that drink in the first place, thank you for resurfacing it, it's really funny that it's named that

[zoieru]

END OF SEASON 2 THOTS IF YOU EVEN CARE 🚬🥃

its cool they won :)) though, I admit, it was difficult to feel happy happy when there was a lot of emphasis on Oik and his feelings n determination n thoughts :c I was happy for them but mostly felt mourning heh - actually wrote a lil comforting-him drabble in my head lol

the tsukki stuff was good like the backstory with bro, though they did just sort of cuck by going 'oh yeah hes gonna try now' and then not really pay it off but just have tiny signs of it the entire rest of the season? idk its fine but it didnt feel satisfying and 25 episodes is a lot to not get a more significant pay off

hitoka is cute and if anything happens to her im gonna mordor everyone in this room *finish rest of quote*

also i had to replay a scene after the game like twice because my attention-to-everything brain decided to focus on the fact taneka was complaining about his sis' boobs being smushed in his face from hugging him so tight lmao and i missed the other subtitles

whenever i watched yamaguchi being all nervous or doing his serves i was all 🥺😌😭✨📸🤍🥰😍🥲 hes so cute guh and his lil babie smiles when he's praised and how his lip wobbles and he tears up a bit AAAA if i was in the stands i'd be screaming so loud fr (he reminds me of denki a little, i get similar feelings with them, wanna squish them into various little squishy shapes with affectionate aggression)

i wish i could separate them in my head but i cannot look and listen to kuroo without hearing gojo. it is impossible, i tried so hard but not thinking about it is the same as thinking about it as oikawa says and yes i remembered the quote no im not a simp we are talking about gojo i mean kuroo pay attention. hes fun though.

i liked how bokuto was like yep im the worst person in all of existence and then as soon as he did something right, set up by his dudes, he was like 😁😁😁 im god king of the universe !!!! its very accurate to how i feel sometimes especially with art LMAO i need enablers like this pls

also kenma's lil frenship with shoyo :cccccccccccccc so cute :Cccccccc he's like oh um i think i sort of accept your general existence beside me and would maybe not mind it being there more often. is that...okay? that fine? oki.

while i wanna see them win and beat that wackajimatoshi or whatever his name is (that is his name he is wack), i kinda cba a little to watch season 3 just because i dont wanna see his face HAHAHSDKSA pls i just he's so poopy stinky rn. i will ofc, im sure itll be great

[bones4thecats]

Warning: this contains spoilers for the season two final duo episodes of Helluva Boss!!!!

Bro... holy motherfucking shit. These past two episodes have been putting me on a roller-coaster of emotions lately.

Okay, let's do a brief recap on the main events in each episode before I go on my short little rampage.

Andrealphus finds out that Blitzo had been using the mystic book of the Goetia family and causes the Hell-Court(??) to make a case. Here, he nearly executes Blitzo, who claims to take the fall for everything. Despite the disapproval of Beelzebub and Asmodeus, everyone else says 'fuck it' and decides to rush the case and go straight to punishment. Anyways, after Stolas jumps in and sings an absolute banger of a song, Satan puts him to be punished and pushes the I.M.P. crew outside. Afterwards, Stolas, instead of being executed for his crimes, is punished by the revoke of his powers and status for 100 years. With this dismantle, Andrealphus takes his place with Stella and begins to live in his home. At the end of this episode, Stolas goes home with Blitzo and Loona, occasionally getting pummeled with public hatred for his actions while Blitzo gets praised.

God. Okay, this was kind of hard to summarize but I did the best I could. ANYWAYS. Let us get onto my first little rant.

I was so happy when I saw this get released, and when the episode started, I was shocked. I really hate Stella, she's a B-I-T-C-H, as Stolas puts it. When she told her brother about everything, I was surprised to see that they even had a court system. Apparently in Hell, there still are rules. However they determined these rules are beyond my comprehension.

By the way, the fact that the rules of Hell decided to put one of the most unstable demons in charge of this court system is insane. That's like looking at a man with obvious schizophrenia and saying, "Hey, dude. You wanna run the country?" Like, it's so crazy it makes the Joker look sane. And that's saying something.

And, when Blitzo almost fucking got beheaded?! Oh my god, I almost cried in my bed. It was like 10 pm and I was watching my laptop as if I saw a puppy getting beaten. But, at the same time, I was like; you guys have phones and yet you're still beheading people? Jeez, we humans have somehow rose in techniques when it comes to death-penalties, but demons haven't... interesting.

NOW. STOLAS' SONG. Don't even get me started. That is by far one of the best songs in Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel. I DON'T CARE. The emotions displayed was just amazing. I have become more of a Stolas x Blitzo fan from just that song than anything displayed in Hazbin for Charlie and Vaggie. And I've been shipping them since the beginning!

And the Sin of Wrath himself?! OH MY ME. THEY DID HIM SO GOOD. They didn't pull a 'lets make him a cowboy' like how I thought they would. They made him so freaking attractive. When I looked up who voiced him, I was surprised that he played in Spirited, which is one of my favorite newer Christmas movies (classics always triumph though). AND HE PLAYS CLAUDE FROLLO IN THE HUNCHBACK OF NOTRE DAME MUSICAL?! Damn they set me up to just like this guy!

Getting used to life with Imps is hard for Stolas, especially since he cannot get into contact with his daughter, Octavia. He also struggles without his Happy Pills. When he does eventually get out of the apartment, he gets ridiculed. But, he does go to I.M.P. during Sinsmas. After getting a client in a similar situation as he is in, Stolas goes off to see Octavia, unaware that she found his pills and is on the way to give them back to him at the office. Stolas then goes to his old home and finds it completely covered in ice by his unfortunate still brother-in-law. After a battle ensues with I.M.P. and Andrealphus, Octavia subdues him. She then fights with her father, saying he broke her promise, before leaving to go inside her home again. When he arrives back, Stolas is again traumatized with another horrible loss, and, despite the surrounding joy, he finds it hard to enjoy anything. And, a revelation is made by Millie when she finds something incredible out.

This has to be one of my favorite episodes in this entire series. It is just so excellently written and I love how each character interacts with one another here. But, there are a few main pieces I'd like to talk about!

God, what an ending to a season. I cannot wait for season three to come out. But, something I am really ready to see happen is Stella and Andrealphus get their lies handed to them in court. I want to see Octavia think and eventually realize something horrible about her uncle and mother, leading to her speaking to Satan and organizing a court to convict them and strip them of their powers and titles forever. I just find that idea hilarious.

I also loved the slight foreshadowing in the little hit-for-hire case they had. The way that Blitzo just looked at the family and imagined him, Stolas, Octavia, and Loona all bundled up like a real family just made me almost break down, as I've done nearly the same. Wanting something that seems completely unobtainable due to something standing in the way. Especially something relationship-wise.

The character growth in Blitzo is becoming great too. At the start, he seemingly wanted nothing to do with Stolas romantically, but when you see how he's book looking at him, you can tell he does now and he wants him happy.

While I did like most things with this episode, when I saw Loona's more wolf-mode, yeah... I wasn't exactly happy. It's not that I hate the concept, I think it's cool that she can go full wold-mode, I just wasn't a big fan of her design. It's mainly the face and neck, it just looks off and kind of freaky to me. You can like it, this is just my opinion.

Anyways, the ending was just... holy beyond holiness. When I saw how Millie walked outside of the bathroom, I was thinking; wait, I feel like I think I know what's going on. And when she pulled out that pregnancy test?! AH! I almost screaming "FUCK YES" at the top of my lungs. I watching this at 11 pm at night, imagine waking up to your daughter screaming "FUCK YES" because a fictional character was pregnant. That'd be the most awkward shit, I swear. I just can't wait for her to tell Moxxie, I want him to just wonder if he'd be a good dad and eventually talk to Blitzo and Stolas about everything. I also want Millie's family to bond with Moxxie so much because he's taking amazing care of his pregnant wife like a good husband should!

I also loved having Sallie May coming in and being a good sister for Millie in her desperate time. It just made my day when she broke down when she told Sallie, but then came in without any tears. That just makes me understand their bond better than ever. Sallie most likely just allowed Millie to let her emotions out and went into full sister-bear mode. Like imagine this being them:

Sister A: I'm pregnant. Sister B: Okay. That's great! Sister A: You're not mad? Sister B: Nope. But, you should warn your boy that if he fucks up, I'm coming for his head and will break his balls to start off his beating.

That just sounds like how their conversation would go to me.

Anyways, hope you guys have a Merry Christmas or whatever else you guys celebrate. I am trying to plan something special for the end of the year, but just wanted to get something out before then.

Links to the episodes are below!

-> Helluva Boss - Season 2, Episode 11: Mastermind

-> Helluva Boss - Season 2, Episode 12: Sinsmas

[cybershock24601]

Davrin's whole deal in the Venture Bros au is that he's a top OSI agent but did a job where he ended up rescuing a bunch of fucked up chimeric abominations from some mad scientist and one of them (Assan) imprinted on Davrin so hard that Assan was busting down doors and walls to get to him. Which made being a super spy pretty hard so instead he got tossed what was essentially a baby sitting gig on some guy who keeps getting harassed by a Level 8 Supervillian. Davrin's not exactly happy about it or happy about his new tag along but orders are orders.

Davrin does end up bonding with Assan anyways and finds he enjoys his assignment. Emmrich is a little weird but he's a good guy, Manfred still freaks him out a little but Davrin guesses he shouldn't be too surprised by the literal Necromancer having a pet skeleton. Bellara is brilliant in a way that Davrin knows she'll eventually end up making waves in the super science community and Rook is so kind and welcoming that Davrin doesn't even notice how little Rook shares about herself. Really the only downside is constantly dealing with the hordes of undead Hezenkoss keeps throwing at them and her insane traps and contraptions but it's not actually that hard to deal with, more just tedious and kinda repetitive after a point.

Emmrich is always so apologetic about the whole thing and honestly seems a little embarrassed about Hezenkoss' dramatics but Bellara is thrilled by them. She's very much the genre savvy nerd that gets way to excited about getting held hostage and put in increasingly elaborate hostage situations. Rook on the other hand has this almost resigned, bored air about her the whole time that one usually only finds among senior agents which does cause Davrin to raise an eyebrow especially when Rook starts citing Guild rules and regulations at Hezenkoss. Rook does end up reluctantly explaining she's got a lot of protagonists in her family (she's an Amell) so unfortunately has had more exposure to the whole super science/super villain thing than she would have liked.

Then about six months after Davrin's assignment starts, Rook announces that she'll be moving out of the manor to go live with her boyfriend and that they also want to invite them all over for a housewarming party. This is where Davrin first meets Lucanis who sets off every single alarm bell in Davrin's head but Davrin cannot figure out why. He is so suspicious of Lucanis despite their first meeting where Lucanis was wearing a frilly apron that said "kiss the cook" except the C had been written over in big blocky sharpie so it instead said "kiss the Rook" that clearly had to be Rook's work.

Lucanis spent the whole night looking at Rook like she hung the moon and stars and had way too many strong opinions about coffee and no matter how much Davrin attempted to snoop, he could find nothing to even hint at anything other than this being an average, normal civilian home. Even with all the other people in the costumed community and fellow OSI agent Harding in attendance, Davrin had nothing concrete to base his suspicions on since he assumed that they must be here due to Rook's own ties to the crazy super community which wasn't even an entirely incorrect assumption.

It took months for Davrin to chill because he was sure there had to be something wrong with Lucanis but he could find nothing so he eventually decided the spy life has just made him too paranoid and actually starts trying to be friends with Lucanis. Which made the eventual reveal of Lucanis being in the Guild feel like such a betrayal meanwhile Lucanis is so confused about why Davrin is upset because he never really lied to him or anything, he and Rook just have a policy of not bringing work home with them and so don't really discuss anything to do with the Guild, the OSI, and super science weirdness when they're off the clock. Being the Demon of Vyrantium was just Lucanis' day job, he has a whole life outside of villainy. Hate to live, not live to hate as Sgt Hatred would say