#case in point ^ bitches I didn't even know were real

[flourescencia]

I kid you not I didn't know people were watching iwtv and coming out of that fascinated charmed and obsessed with daniel molloy above anyone else meaning they thought he was the most interesting out of anyone; until possibly months ago like I had never even contemplated that people like this existed I don't think my mind knew that it was possible. we are truly a lost society

[alziel]

" Arranged Friendship "

: Male Reader

Summary: How would Luka react once he found out he had been set up with an arranged relationship with someone.

That said person was, You, who's almost as popular as Luka himself. Will he grow to like him in the future?

Warnings: Luka is a warning

himself,possessiveness,obsession, threat s, blackmail.

Requested/Not requested

At first he didn't like this idea at all, but once he realized that the fanbase will like the idea he decided to go with the plan. And so his owner scheduled a meet up with your owner along with you. The day came and you had met eachother.

Both of you already knew who you two were already because of your reputations in Alien Stage.

But he still decided to introduce himself anyways, putting up a smile and a demeanor that was welcoming but his aura said otherwise.

You didn't mind, greeting him with the same enthusiasm with no other malicious aura. The two aliens had a discussion with eachother about the arranged friendship. Luka's owner stated that this would make a huge impact towards the fanbase, bringing more popularity and secureness for the two of you.

I mean two well known singers having a collaboration and potential relationship with eachother? The fanbase will increase their likability towards the two. Luka the well known

"Prince" having a close relationship with you, specified to be a real life Siren because of how you enchant your opponents. It will surely bring alot of fans cheering and bring more support.

Both of their owners aareed with the plan andsigned a contract. They left the room to either talk more about the Collab while the two of you spend some times with each other. Once they fully left the room and closed the door, Luka resorted his face into the original calm and collected look.

"I only agreed to this so that my popularity will grow, we'll only be acquaintances nothing more." He stated sternly, obviously he did not want this arranged friendship to happen but it will help him big time. At first he expected a disappointed and an upset look from you, but you were still smiling.

"Of course! I expect nothing more than that, I won't force you to do stuff you don't wanna do.

But we still have to convince the public about our 'relationship. But I can tone it down to your comfortability!" You stated in your cheery voice, he was a bit taken back by your upbeat personality despite his strict and straightforward statement.

He looked away before humming in agreement.

You were an interesting little thing, as much as he hated to admit. He wanted to know more about you. Your reputation your status,and what his and your fans think of you. Perhaps he can find some dirt on you that he can use against if you ever step out of line.

He tried but couldn't find any dirt on you suprisingly. You were almost as popular as him and yet you barely had any haters or rumours about you. Sometimes he might even think your owner had payed someone to delete posts that would tarnish your reputation. Because he seriously could not find any.

The fans also took the announcement really well.

Some obsessive fans, mostly Luka's, did not take it well and gave death threats to you. Online only because they're scared jealous bitches.

You paid no attention to the negative reactions from.. those kind of fans--and focused on convincing the fanbase that the relationship was real.

Luka was not really a fan of people getting into his personal space. But he did like getting into people's personal space. In random moments when you're busy, he would randomly walk up to you, literally put his face close to yours to the point your noses are touching, just to say hello then walk away. leaving you there with a confused expression.

"This is [Name]! Name love his personal space."

"This is Luka! Luka also loves [Name]'s personal space."

During fan meet ups, the place is usually verycrowded. You always put a hand on his shoulder or waist just in case it gets too crowdy. The first time you did it, he flinched; but didn't exactly pulled or slapped hand away. For the entertainment you would often put your hand on his waist even though the place isn't crowded.

The fans love it.

During interviews, you would always hold his hand in which he finds odd. Whenever you answered a question in the interview you would play with his fingers. Or if he was the one answering, you could occasionally squeeze it for encouragement.

Throughout the "relationship" his owner mentioned how you were always the one engaging with physical affection. In order to convince the public, he'll need to initiate it too.

He just rolled his eyes and lazily agreed before walking away. The first time he initiated it was during one of your "dates" You were busy coming up a song to sing when he unexpectedly held your hand and leaned on you without saying anything.

You just squeeze his hand as anacknowledgement before continuing to come up with your song. After that interaction he started to become more and more affectionate.

Occasionally giving hugs, all kind of hugs really. Back hugs,side hugs, waist hugs whatever the variety. You would always return them two times the warmth. Sometimes he thinks your feelings were real or that youre maybe a good actor.

You guys know those ship edits on tiktok? The aliens would totally make them. You two would always watch it with amusement, sometimes amazed by some of their editing skills. You would always like each single edit.

Despite all the dates,affection,and loving interactions. At the end of the day he would always remind you that this was all for the public entertainment and to get more attention from the fans. On bad days, he would say rather hurtful things.

"Don't mistaken my affection to you as a real thing, none of it contain real feelings."

"Don't let it get to your head, this is nothing more than pure entertainment."

"This is just a key for more survival during Alien

Stage performance."

"We're just acquaintance, nothing more."

All what he said did hurt, a lot. But it was also true, he has to remind you that none of it was real. But at the same time you wished he didn't say those things to you, the least he could do is not remind you. You didn't sayanything, only nodding and agreeing to what he says despite the hurtful impact it had given you.

Haha, maybe you really are a masochist.

Currently you and Luka were doing a Collab performance forc-suggested by your owners for the fans. Luka as always, caught most of the fan's attention. You didn't really mind or find it upsetting, I mean he's much popular and talented than you so it was expected. You guys were down with the last line, the original plan was that the two of you were just gonna look at eachother in a loving way. But he had other plans..

While you two were singing the last line, he went even closer. You were unfazed by this, you had gotten used to him being so close to your face already. But what he did next caught you off guard..

He kissed you.

No not on the cheek or forehead. On the lips.

The cheers grew louder, the music had already stopped. But you were only focused on the feeling of his soft lips kissing yours. By then he had already pulled away, you can't help but linger more. stopped. He just smiled and looked at you with such fondness, but you already knew his kiss meant nothing to him.

After the performance you two went backstage, switching personalities. He always turned cold whenever you two weren't in public. His eyes held nothing but emptiness and disgust. You expected this but why does it still hurt? And as usual he always remind you in the end.

"The kiss meant nothing." He spat out, it made your heart ache. You hated to admit this but you grew feelings as the relationship went on. You couldn't control it really, Luka had always been a great actor. His charismatic and enthusiastic persona when he's in public, the way he's so affectionate with you and the way he talks so fondly as if he really were Inlove with you.

You couldn't help but hope he felt the same thing. It was starting to hurt so maybe letting this feeling go was for the best.

It was another start of a new season of alien stage. And it looks like your performance is the first, how lovely. You didn't really like joining Alien Stage, you never really liked seeing your opponents die. Why should someone die just because they weren't as good as their opponent. But you can't say anything about it, a sad reality.

So you always tried singing your best, constantly making your opponent feel comfortable and make them sing for fun instead of singing because they wanna live. You wanted their last moments to feel comfortable and fun rather than scared.

It's what gave you your well known title "The Siren". Many documents and news stated that you would often enchant your opponents by using your voice. Brainwashing them so that they'll lose. That was not the truth, you could tell that your past opponents enjoyed singing with you. Happy that they were able to sing with joy and not out of pressure. But you could careless about what the media thought of you. You had to practice for the performance.

Luka didn't know what to feel about you. He had already stated before that he did not have any feelings for you. You were nothing more than a mere acquaintance. But ever since this relationship had started, he started to feel more possessive about you. He always hated how you always smile to other people or aliens. The same smile you give to him, wasn't he supposed to be the only one receiving that smile?

He always hated when you give other fans affection too, whether it be a handshake or a pat on the head. He would always put his arm around yours and pull you away from them. Silently giving your fans a glare everytime they get too close. He always looked smug whenever you out your hand on his waist infront of your fans.

Throughout the relationship he started to take note of things your like,your favorites,and the type of music you like. Heck he might even know things about yourself you didn't even know off. He knows more about you. You would always try and point out the things he do but he always dismiss it by saying it could tarnish the view of the relationship.

Hm..now that he thinks of it he never really saw one of your performances with your opponents. He has heard alien's opinions and views about your performances but never really tried watching one. Maybe he should watch your performance tomorrow..

You were a bit shocked to see Luka sitting on one of the chairs in the backstage, as if he was waiting for you.

"Luka? What are you doing here, I thought you were gonna practice." You asked walking towards him, maintaining a distance from him. He silently took note of how further the distance than it normally is.

"Practicing would just bore me, I already know I'll win the round anyway." He responded lazily, you sweatdrop a bit but he wasn't exactly wrong. He can win matches without trying..

"I see but that doesn't exactly answer my question, what are you doing here?" You asked once more.

"I came to watch your performance. Is that a problem?" He asked, you quickly stummered ago dismiss that idea.

"N-no, not all!" You answered quickly "I just-this is just unexpecting since you never usually watch my performance.."

"Would it be so bad to watch my lover's performance?" He teased, getting closer to you. You subconsciously stepped back.

"Haha I appreciate what you're doing but you don't have to try so hard to convince the audience we're actual liver, I think we already fooled them.." You responded, he didn't exactly know what he felt just now but he did not like it. It felt like his heart disease had gotten worse when you said those words, but alas he was too prideful to say anything.

"I know, but can't hurt to be more cautious right?" He smiled sweetly but his aura gave off a malicious intention. You just nodded and looked away from him.

"Ah, I have to go. The performance will be in a few minutes." You quickly grabbed your mic and walked to the door "I'll see you after the performance."

He stood there silently, you were acting off than your usual self. Whenever he mentions about you two being lovers you would get flustered, covering your face in hopes it will hide your blush. It did but you didn't know that your ears turn red too, haha how cute. Either way the way you acted just now was weird. You looked awkward and stiff.

He just sighed and walked out of the door to the reserved VIP seats to watch your performance, he'd rather watch it in real life rather than those holograms.

Luka sat on his seat while waiting for the round to start. His owner had bought him a lightstick from your company's merchandise of you, saying he should use it to cheer you on. He didn't need that useless thing, he already knows you'll will this round effortlessly. He snapped out of his thoughts when the lights finally came on, the spotlight shining your opponent.

As always the opponent looks scared and pressured, their voice cracking a bit as they song. It seems like they know their fate in this round, that's good. But when it was your turn, the crowd went wild as the spotlight went to you. Ah..the poor opponent, they must feel so embarassed and inferior now.

But the next thing you did really made him almost break the lightstick in his hand due to how hard he gripped it. You decided to hold their hand and encouraged them to sing. Eventually they did, their voice wasn't cracking anymore,they weren't frowning and they looked like they were enjoying the performance.

You were dancing with them,you were smiling with them,you looked at them with fondness, as if they were your lover. The aliens around him silently moved away because of his malicious aura. They could've sworn they saw a deadly glint in his eyes just now.

The performance came to an end, the collar on the opponent's neck soon blew up, killing them. He felt satisfaction travel through his veins as he watched your opponents blood stain the stage. But he didn't exactly like how you looked sad as they died. Shouldn't you be happy? That you won and survived. Why are you feeling pity for a low life human that was lower than your status.

Soon you were led to the backstage by the robotic guards. He stood up suddenly, making the aliens flinch and back away. He paid no attention to them and focused on going to the backstage. He wanted to know what caused him to feel so angry by what happened.

He was expecting you at the backstage room but he saw you standing in the hallway, looking at something on your hand. He silently walked towards you and got on his tippy toes to whisper in your ear.

"Boo~" he whispered, you gripped the object in your hand and took a step back. You sighed knowing it was just Luka and not some crazy fan that got through security.

"Luka! It's just you, thank goodness.." You sighed in relief, hand still gripping the object. He looked at your fists and questioned you.

"What's in your hand?" He asked, you blinked before opening your hand to reveal a ring. What are you doing holding a ring? Was it for him? "Are you that eager to marry me already?"

Your face turned red at the suggestion "W-wait I didn't mean it like that?!" You rubbed your head by teasing nature "It was my opponent's ring, I accidentally pulled it when I was dancing with them."

His smile turned upside down when you explained, what are you doing with the ring of your opponent? He calmed down before taking the ring off your hands and looked at it. Hm, it looked quite expensive by the looks of it but easily affordable by him.

You looked at him with a confused expression, you never really saw take an interest in things like this. But you were shock when he decided to drop the ring to ground and stomped on it. You quickly yet gently pushed him away to do any more damaged. Unfortunately the ring was broken into pieces.

"Luka why did you do that?!" You looked at him with disbelief, he scoffed.

"Why are you so upset about it? It's just the opponent's ring, you have more things to worry about other than that useless thing." He spat out.

"That's still disrespectful! I can't believe you did that." You looked at him with disappointment. "What got you so worked up?! From the very you could care less about me, my interactions with my fans,and how I perform. You keep reminding me that this relationship, US, is just a contract. Why do you suddenly care about me no-.."

You stopped once you heard him sniff, you looked at him properly now. His face was turned away, his hair hiding his face but you could still see the tears that were about to fall from his eyes. He was trembling like he was out in the cold and his arms were tightened into a fist. You accidentally made him cry.

"Oh..oh I'm so sorry Luke--i didn't mean to yell at you like that." You gently hugged his body, his face burrying into your chest. Muffling the sound of his sniffing by how hard he's trying not to cry. "I'm sorry I'm just..just frustrated by this whole contract. I got attached and eventually fell for you but you kept reminding me that this was all a contract I just..couldn't control my emotions anymore.."

You confessed, he stayed quiet before weakly punching your chest. He pulled his face from your chest, his eyebrows were furrowed and his cheeks were red due to him crying. God you just wanted to scoop him up and kiss his face.

"I'm no better, I never had alot of chances to feel this kind of emotion. It was weird when I felt angry by how you treated your opponent, as if they were your own lover. I decided to take out my anger by making you angry.." He admitted, your eyes went wide by what he just stated.

"You were..jealous?" You muttered, he looked up to you with an embarassed expression.

"I was not!" He spat out.

"Are too, is that why you've been giving my fans glares all the time and pulled me away from them?" You laughed a bit, he pushed you away but your grip on him was tight.

"Okay now you're just teasing me." He scoffed

"But it's okay for you to tease me?..Luka..Luka don't ignore me please, Luke-" You sighed but smiled, alas your feelings are reciprocated. Although his possessive and obsessive issues are a tad bit scary..You already knew he has you wrapped around his finger. You fell for his trap.

[biancasaidstfu]

✨ TEMP CHECK ✨

I know I've been out of pocket the past few weeks but in case y'all didn't notice, I'm incredibly dramatic. I'm also tired bro. BUT I'm still sat on what I think is happening and I wanted to temp check to see where everyone else is at, too.

So what do I think is happening currently?

I think this is some serious PR fuckery at it's finest and it's doing the damn job. Fortunately for them, unfortunately for those who notice what's going on here.

There's no way I'm believing any pictures are in real time in this scenario. I think these are the same old moves that have been played over the course of the past year and they're being used to throw people off. Divert attention. MISDIRECT.

Do I think Nicola is staying for weeks in Australia? Fuck no. I think these pics are dropping from both sides of the aisle to cover their asses while they're away somewhere together. Dead ass. Cut the cameras.

That doesn't mean that's going to be the case all summer though. There are events coming up that people are keeping eyes on. Appearances that can be made and possibly will be made.

And despite my bitching and moaning I knew these things were highly likely. That we'll continue to see them. That it's only going to push people away, look even more fake and manufactured despite their (best?) efforts.

But alas, we're stuck here. Till the end of summer. Possibly beyond that, too. I have many different scenarios on how this can all come to a close. I have multiple different thoughts on why they're still doing all of this, too. Those things don't really matter though since it's impossible to decide what's really going on bts.

It's all about watching the mess unfold from afar at this point.

[heyhoeudoin]

DONE DEAL

"We're definitely not just friends."

pairing: bakugo katsuki x fem!reader

words: 4.1k

genre/s: fluff, fake-but-not-so-fake dating??? (or to be specific at first it was fake and then they never really broke it off), mature

warning/s: swearing, she/her, manipulation?, slightly flirty reader?, mature themes: cigarettes, alcohol, implied underage sex (reminder: don't do this and also teens do bad shit all the damn time especially underaged)

synopsis: you offered a deal to bakugo, not knowing that it'll last longer than you think

masterlist

a/n: damn, i am on a writing spree. i daydreamed this idea and i had to write it.

"hey, hotshot," you called as you placed your upper arm on the shoe locker.

bakugo loudly clicked his tongue as he slammed his locker door shut. "what do you want, cheater?" he asked, turning to you with a frown.

you rolled your eyes at the nickname. "one of these days someone will misunderstand that lil' nickname you gave me," you retorted as you leaned your back on the locker and crossed your arms.

l/n y/n, quirk: lady luck. she is incredibly lucky! like seriously so! everything will go the way she wants it to go. she can easily get anything she wants either with a massive discount or for free! and also, luckily for her (pun intended), she can turn this ridiculous luck on and off.

bakugo raised his brow at you. "okay, okay, so valentines soon," you stated. "as in "february's about to start" soon."

"fuck, don't make me remember," he groaned. "useless shitty ass calendar event. what the fuck is even the point of that shit? it only brings me those stupid squealing bitching extras." his hands popping with small explosions.

you laughed at his description as you nonchalantly covered his popping palm with your own. "well, what if i tell you that you can get rid of those "stupid squealing bitching extras" if you get together with me," you offered.

bakugo narrowed his eyes on you as he slowly swiped his palm away from yours. his pupils seemingly glowing at the focus. "the fuck do you want?" he asked once more, this time his tone lower.

you smiled at him, hitting back with narrowed eyes as you pushed yourself off the locker and turn your body towards him. "think about it real well, darling," you called. "those you call "stupid squealing bitching extras" will be even more desperate this year since it's your last year here. their last chance essentially. and well, would you look at that, i, too, also got my own stupid squealing bitching extras and it's also my last year—in case you forgotten," you teased to which he growled.

"so it'll be a win-win scenario for the both of us. no one will bother us on that forsaken calendar event. and hey"—you shrugged—"i know you wouldn't mind being with me out of anyone else in this damn school. besides, we can always stage a break up before graduation, or on graduation if you want chaos."

he said nothing.

"...are you using your cheating quirk on me?"

you eyes widen just a bit. "genuinely, no, so your decision is all on you," you tell him and he knew you were telling the truth because he knew that you never once lied to him before. "and you know i don't like using it on you—it takes away your charm if you become easy for me."

bakugo grumbles at that comment, also knowing that it's true.

"fuck you, fine, i'm in," he declared as he extended a hand towards you. his body now facing yours.

you slapped your hand over his and shook on it. "guess we're official now." a wide grin on your face.

like sealing a deal with the devil.

katsuki never once cared about getting into relationships and whatnot; much less romance and shit. it's why he despises valentines day so fucking much. those whiny bitches always bother him, and then his shoe locker gets fucking filled with the useless crappy notes and those too sweet chocolates and shit.

it pisses him off. truly.

it's why he accepted your deal in the first place. it would give him freedom on that annoying day.

but... he didn't expect to be content with being in a relationship with you—albeit fake, but still. bakugo would never admit it out loud, most especially never to you, but you were right. he didn't mind being with you out of any of the damn extras out there.

you and bakugo's relationship is rather simple, contrary to what most believe it to be. during first year of aldera, you two got assigned together for a final project. he expected you to cower at him, but that's not what happened.

you were feisty (and flirty). you were actually confident in yourself, and it genuinely wasn't an act nor because of your quirk. it was just... you. you also didn't suck up to him as much as the other extras did. you weren't fucking fake basically, and it was refreshing to see.

after that first year, you and him would sometimes hang out... in and out of school whether doing something you'd like or doing something he'd like; which is most of the time since you're the type to not go out all the fucking time. you'd rather laze around and shit which is why you were mostly there for whenever he trains; just there because "why not" you said. and then on the off chance that you do want to do something or hang out somewhere, it would either be in a vip hotel or a damn fancy ass resort that you just happen to get rooms at for free; if not those two, then off into a mall at harajuku or some shit, stealing buying a shit load of stuff.

and then when it comes to each other, you two shared unspoken rules (that were sometimes brought up). he had his own set and you had your own like how you didn't like using your quirk on him and you try not to lie to him while he tries not to scream at you and you're the only one who he allows inside his house.

nothing really changed when the two of you got together. the only thing that really changed is the now added calling of the first names amongst the several nicknames you had for each other. that's it, really. everything else was pretty much the same. bakugo didn't like big changes, so knowing that not much has changed; it was good.

the ringtone you set on his phone for your contact started ringing in his room. begrudgingly, he answered, "the fuck you want, cheater?"

you laughed; it ringing in his ear. "do you want to stay with me in a hotel for a few days?" you asked which made him recoil his head.

"the fuck?" he lets out. "didn't we just hanged out in a hotel?"

"well~ yes~ but this is a different hotel!" you exclaimed. "you know that fancy shit building at aoi-ku? it's that one. the so-called best hotel in shizuoka."

katsuki turned to his computer and searched it up real quick. "you mean the one that's in front of the bullet trains? you cheating bitch, i'll fucking bite, why?"

you let out a giggle. "apparently i'm being given a suite room for free for at least four days and three nights, and, that's not it, all services they provide will be free for us to use as well."

katsuki is still amazed by your fucking cheat of a quirk. even though he heard a lot of these already from you. you weren't the type to brag, but you are the type to just casually drop these shitting things all of a sudden.

he sighed out loud. before he could speak, you added another thing.

"they have a pretty good gym by the way."

"fucking fine. when's check-in?"

so here he was in the hotel's lobby, carrying his and your school bags and nothing else. he watched as you sweet talked the receptionist as if she was an old friend (she definitely wasn't), and claimed the keycards. it was already rather late by the time you both arrived.

during that phone call, you told him to pack a case (once a-fucking-gain) and bring it to school the next day so that you can chauffeur it in the morning to the hotel. once school finished, you both headed to the hotel. which took a while since it was quite further away from campus.

"let's chow!" you exclaimed as you waved the keycards at his face.

he yanked one of the cards out of your hand. "you sure we can walk around in our uniforms?" he asked with a grumble. the lobby was consisted of people in fancy ass clothing: formal and semi-formal.

you waved your hand at him after tucking the keycard into your skirt's pocket. "pshh it's fine. who cares about them," you tell him as you grabbed his hand and started walking.

katsuki wasn't one to admit it out loud, but he was insecure about people holding his hands or even touching them because of his sweat. he was against the hand holding at first because of this, but you insisted that the two of you should at least hold hands in public for the idiot extras at school to start spreading rumors. he was expecting you to start being all disgusted and shit at his sweaty palms, but you didn't even mention it once.

"sweaty hands? so what? sweat is normal," you had simply told him.

the two of you claim a spot next to big window that showed the city's lights that glowed under the night sky. he plopped down your bags next to the parallel chairs as he took a seat in one of them. he usually let you get your pick first since you were fast at picking (aka you're picky so you take one look at certain food and then walk away).

"alright~ give me a bit," you bid him as you walked away with a carefree atmosphere.

he watched you walk away.

you like katsuki. you really like him. it helped that he wasn't a dumbass like the rest of male population in aldera. you and him were always switching between first and second in the year. the only stupid part of him is dealing with feelings—it was cute, honestly, and it became a goal for you as well. to try and read him as best as you could and be the only one who could read him like a book.

you like it when you know someone so much about someone that you can easily predict their moves.

but... there was one thing you never expected from katsuki. and that was him initiating your first kiss together.

it happened a week and a bit after the two of you got together. you were at his place late at night (once again), and once more, you were pretending to sleep next to him. the first time you slept over during the newfound relationship (which was like two or three days later you two got together), you were insisting on sleeping on the same bed while katsuki was reluctant. when you woke up that morning, you laid on your back while he laid on your chest comfortably.

that was then you decided to keep sleeping in the same bed whenever you'd come over.

the next time to came over (like two days later), your insomnia hit. it sucks. your insomnia. it happens randomly wherein you just couldn't sleep at all, and when you do manage to fall asleep, you wake up two hours later. it sucks. so here you were pretending to sleep next to the warm katsuki whose arm is around your waist.

you should've known that he'd realize you were not asleep.

"go to sleep, y/n," he murmured into your shoulder. his hot breath tingling your skin.

you nervously chuckled. "ahah... i will," you tell him. "just give me a minute..."

he then raised his head and laid it against a propped arm; his head on his open palm. he stared at you with heavy eyes as you stared back nervously. you're used to katsuki's stares—you get it all the time! (from both him and other people). but this one... it made you nervous because it was a stare that meant he was figuring things out.

he stood up, saying nothing. he didn't look back at you as he went past his door. you let out a breath you've been holding. you laid there, staring at the ceiling, in his bed. stupid insomnia...

katsuki arrived back into his room, shutting and locking the door behind him. you only glanced over to him then pretended to snuggle into the sheets as if you were gonna go back to sleep or try to go back to sleep.

he wasn't convinced.

he crawled onto the bed and grabbed your chin with his hand, quickly turning your head towards him. you blinked as it happened all so fast. you felt water inside your mouth as you instinctively swallowed. the last thing you realized was katsuki's lips against yours.

you stared at him in confusion and shock as he just casually got back into the sheets. you weren't laying on the bed anymore, you were propped up by your arms. "you... katsuki..." you stammered, not knowing what to say.

he looked back at you with furrowed brows. he then clicked his tongue and pulled you back into bed and into his arms. "sleep", he had simply said.

you fell asleep a while later, feeling warmth around and in you.

later that morning, you realized he had slipped you a pill in that first kiss.

after the two of you ate dinner, you both headed straight to your shared room. katsuki opted to check if no extra touched his stuff while you went straight to take a shower.

the room was big, almost like an apartment room and it even looked like a penthouse with that big window wall that showed another angle of the city. you really outdid yourself this time, katsuki mused. you had told him that you'd have this room until sunday (unless he wanted to extend, to which you said you probably can).

tomorrow's valentines day.

the one last thing that connected the two of you together.

katsuki didn't want it to be over.

the shower door opened and out you came dressed in your silk lace nightgown. it was a sight he was used to since you'd always wear the same pajamas (if he could even call those pajamas) whenever the two of you have a trip like this (even before you two got together).

"hey, let's order alcohol," you had suddenly said.

he turned to you like you grew another head. "we're fucking minors, dipshit," he tells you like you didn't know that.

you rolled your eyes at him. "i know that, dipshit. are you forgetting what my quirk is? i can get us whatever we want and i want to try that whiskey i saw on the menu."

so here he was in the fancy hotel apartment penthouse room, feeling warmth spread throughout his body even more so than he usually feel. the room smelling like hard liquor and cigarettes.

you puffed out one last smoke from your mouth as you stubbed out the bunt into the provided ashtray. you threw away the now empty pack of the white seven stars off into a corner (you took the last two cigarettes during the past two hours). he knew of your smoking habits that started around a few months ago, and he's tried his hardest to make you stop—the alcohol is fine, but he draws the line at smoking.

"you need to stop smoking you fucking bitch," he blatantly pointed out.

you scoffed as you rolled your eyes yet again at him. "like it'll ever affect me," you say. "my quirk protects me from fucking feeling everything. how damn lucky is that huh? it's so stupid. it's so boring. i want to feel something, you know?"

he narrowed his eyes at you. you never told him this. "when the fuck did you feel like that? you never told me this shit," he tells you.

"hah!" you let out as you take another shot. you had ordered another bottle after ordering the whiskey—vodka this time. "not even fucking alcohol affects me! well, a bit, but i'll never get to the point of total drunkness. i'll be forever tipsy at most."

"are you fucking kidding me?" is the only thing he can say because what else can he fucking say at this moment. he's not drunk enough for this feeling shit.

you laughed. "of course that's all you can say. you always feel everything, katsuki, but you don't know how to properly express that. i want to feel how extreme you could feel, but i know there's one thing you never feel. you'll never feel for me."

"for you?" he repeated. "what makes you fucking think i don't?" he suddenly asked, catching even himself off guard.

"what?!" you let out, genuinely shocked. "you're just saying that, boombox." you turned your head away. the embarrassment crawling up your neck.

"no the fuck am not. what makes you even fucking think that i never once feel for you?"

your breath hitched. "because, holy shit katsuki, you just don't! i can't fucking fathom that you could actually feel something for me."

he reached over to you, forcefully grabbing your chin and turning it to face him. "you shitty oblivious cheating bitch," he growled, his teeth baring. "who said you can decide what i fucking feel? y/n, i don't fucking just let anyone in my home, let alone my damn bed—i don't just fucking kiss anyone!"

the room fell silent as only your ragged breaths could be heard. you opened your mouth, then promptly closed it back. he let go of your chin as he slowly started leaning to you.

you connected your lips to his.

when you made this deal with katsuki, you weren't expecting to share any major gestures that were romantic and/or intimate between you two because you were fully convinced the he didn't like you like that. sure he kept you around, but that's because you were different from those idiots who usually hover over him and follow him around.

you weren't like that.

you weren't some loser. you took pride in being someone katsuki was willing to hang out with, and someone that can drag him to places to without him making too much of a fuss.

so imagine your surprise when he gave you his first kiss. he was completely casual about it too! the motherfucker never brought it up, or talked about it and shit after it happened. well, you expected that since he's an emotionally constipated bitch—

you never questioned why he kissed you. why would you? he's always been the type to let his actions speak louder than his words. you knew him that well—and that kiss? he definitely likes you too (whether he inwardly realizes that or not).

the two of shared kisses since then, and he'd always be the one initiating it.

but you wanted more.

you figured that he was probably waiting for a signal from you—a form of consent to keep going. you didn't know how to initiate.

until now.

that night... that kiss... it was the final seal that intertwined the two of you together.

and that morning, you woke up next to katsuki, naked but warm and late for school.

you and katsuki walked into campus unashamed of the visible bites and marks that littered all over your necks.

you walked around yūei's cafeteria, sipping on a grape juice box (which is actually mixed with whiskey). that was when you saw a certain loud blonde. smirking, you walked over and slammed a hand on the table.

"what's up hotshot?" you greeted the blonde who looks up at you with an amused smirk. "been a while—oh! perfect timing, i've got a free house at this water resort. you wanna come with?"

he scoffed. "you cheating bitch, the year hasn't even fucking started," he commented.

"cheating?!"

"bakugo you dated this hottie?!"

you turned to his group of friends who actually doesn't look like a bunch of pushovers (a major upgrade to those two idiots that katsuki used to hang with in aldera). you snorted. "i told you someone's bound to misunderstand that nickname you've gave me," you commented as you jerked your head towards them.

"uh—" started the spiky red haired one. "if you cheated on bakubro, that's not very cool! you need to leave."

you rose a brow at him, amused. you turned back to katsuki and tell him, "you've got some good company there. we can bring 'em too if you want."

he ignored you and went straight to screaming at the red haired one. "shut the fuck up shitty hair! not that kind of cheating!"

you laughed at katsuki's usual outburst. you then reached over and took hold of his chin, turning him to face you. "but seriously though, go with me to that water resort! we haven't gone to anywhere together for a while. we've only been talking through phone because you were busy and shit—and i'm starved." you winked at him.

he rolled his eyes at you as he harshly took your hand off of him. "of course you fucking are," he simply said. "and when the hell did you even apply to yūei? thought you wanted to go to tokyo?"

"and be away from you? oh please, don't pretend like you ain't glad to see me here," you quipped. "and besides, yūei's still a pretty good school. i'll get rich here easy in the business course."

"wait wait wait!" the pink one disrupted. "who are you to bakugo here? because never would i have thought to know that he has an ex-lover or something."

you laughed. "i mean, well, i can't fucking deny that! this brute teared through confessions left and right," you exclaimed as you sipped on your mixed juice. katsuki narrowed his eyes at the box you're carrying, ignoring your comment, before snatching it off your hands. "hey!"

he took a sip before scowling, not from the taste but from the fact that you're drinking alcohol. "you fucking shit!" he exclaimed before whispering out, "you're drinking this shit this early?!"

you rolled your eyes before snatching it back from him. "oh calm fucking down, as if i'll ever get caught."

"damn cheater."

"wait, if bakugo says you're not a cheater, relationship-wise, then why does he keep calling you a cheater?" the one with black hair asked.

"oh, my quirk makes me incredibly lucky like i get literally anything i want, whenever i want," you explained.

"what?! that's so cool!" the yellow one exclaimed. "since you're not with bakugo, wanna go on a date?"

bakugo smacked the yellow one. "fuck off! who says she's not with me?!"

"WAIT!" the pink one exclaimed yet again. "so you two are really together?!"

you hummed before shrugging. "well, we're certainly not just friends, but we're not together either," you say as katsuki turned to you with furrowed brows.

"the fuck are you talking about?" he says.

you turned to him with a raised brow. "what?" you asked, confused. "didn't we break up?"

he scoffed as he shook his head, looking in disbelief. he pointed at you as he said, "how fucking high were you to think we broke up? we've been fucking together for more than three months!"

you widen your eyes at the claim. "wow! ...you're keeping track?" you asked, feeling the shyness creep up as you twirled a strand of hair with your free hand. "you're more romantic than i thought."

"fuck off! that's because i ain't no forgetful bitch."

you laughed, unaffected by his teasing insults. "well, i've gots to go~ have to pick something up before lunch ends. it's nice meeting you, bakugo's friends~" you finger waved at the group who waved back in a trance as you walked away.

"wow... i gotta be honest, bakugo, she's way out of your league."

"shut the fuck up, soy-sauce face!"

bonus:

after lunch, the bakusquad immediately went to ask midoriya about bakugo's girlfriend.

"midoriya! midoriya!" they scampered over to the shocked green haired boy who's confused on why he has the sudden attention.

"uh yes? you guys?" he stammered out with wide eyes.

"does bakugo really have a girlfriend?" exclaimed kaminari.

"woah, a girlfriend?" jirou piped up with an amused look on her face. "who in their right mind would date him?"

"fuck off, ears!" bakugo exclaimed with his teeth baring.

"girlfriend? ah! y/n-san," midoriya mentioned. "wait, you met her here? i thought she went to tokyo?"

"shut the fuck up, deku!"

"ignore him," says mina. "so how'd bakugo pull her? she's like such a hot girl. she could totally do better than that brute." she jerked her head to the sitting loud blonde who pointed a middle finger at her.

midoriya lets out a nervous chuckle. "well, those two have always been close since middle school started. and then valentines..." he burst red at the thought of it.

"woah! you okay there midobro?" kirishima asked, seeing as the boy turned red in the face.

"well, they're definitely together—!"

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Agatha All Along deep dive: episode 3 part 3

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lilia: falling through time, desperately trying to help alice

agatha: bitch I'm trying to save myself!!!!! oh she's so awkward when she thinks lilia's going mad. she's a moment away from grabbing a broom and going there, there like in that 30 rock scene

I know they had a relatively low budget for this show and it was such a blessing in disguise. they invested in great sets and instead of cgi they relied on classic cinema tricks that I find so satisfying?? Idk if it's just nostalgia talking. here they simply move the camera away for a moment, lower the lights and move the actor in position, and it makes for an amazing jumpscare.

baby lilia asking 'vuoi vedere?' do you want to see? because it is a choice for lilia. for a long time she chose not to use her gift- she was simply too powerful, she saw too much, and the knowledge of the future scarred her and made her an outcast among others

alice's smile at seeing a vision of her mom T-T

why inconvenient? what was jen doing? she was an obstetrician and midwife. she was helping women out with herbs and pagan knowledge passed down from mother to daughter. Back in the day midwives were struggling to get their skills recognized in an increasingly male dominated field, they were advocating alternative treatments for women constantly humiliated by condescending modern doctors - from forced bed rest to insane asylums to lobotomy in worst case scenarios. think Charlotte Perkins Gilman's short story, The Yellow Wallpaper. think about everything that happened to Virginia Woolf.

we know that alice was a teenager when lorna died in a fire. she wasn't well, alice says, and we see now that she had a drinking problem. it's equally possible that the demon got to her or that she set herself on fire out of desperation. and if lorna could feel her own mother dying, alice could too.

daang great zombie makeup on the teacher lady

lilia when her incredible abilities made her able to see Death: burdened by knowledge way beyond the scope of humanity she goes into exile

agatha when her incredible abilities made her able to see Death: you know what I'm gonna tap that

I saw people saying that because the Road wasn't real nothing that happened in the show mattered, that they all died for nothing. I disagree completely, and not only because Billy's chaos magic is so astonishingly powerful that he can create a functional Road out of thin air. like, it wasn't a trick, he made it real. But more importantly, what happened to these women, their experiences, their growth on the Road is real. Even if Billy didn't do it on purpose, even if it's fucked up that a teenager can essentially go, you know what would be cool? if they all experienced their deepest trauma! but that's the point, that's the point, that's the whole damn point of the show. life is chaos and nonsense and heartbreak, it's up to you to find a meaning where there isn't any. look at lilia! the lesson is not that you're going to die, but what you choose to do with the cards that you're dealt, with the time that you're given.

while Patti clearly has an american accent, she is speaking correct sicilian, tutti morti su' - they could have had her talk in italian and hardly anyone would have noticed, but they went above and beyond with the details. the latin in the show is also rather impressive, like they actually hired experts rather than relying on google translate

agatha has gotten too used to run leaving a pile of bodies behind. not so easy to consider them just food when you have to live alongside them and witness their feelings, is it?? first wanda and now this!

@perpetualanon pointed out yesterday that agatha also had selfish reasons for wanting to save billy, i.e. she didn't want to risk him being poisoned because who knows what horrors a hallucinating billy could create. Yes! exactly that! it's always worth saying that when agatha has these fleeting moments of compassion and altruism it's in the context of a whole lotta selfishness. i think of her as that drawing of Stitch's badness level, her whole body is almost filled to the brim with awfulness and there's only a thin layer of goodness that she's constantly trying to smother. her actions on the Road are almost entirely selfish, but for the first time in centuries she's surrounded by people, like Lilia here and Jen and Alice and especially Billy, who are accidentally nurturing her almost atrophied good side. and lemme tell you she's pissed about it!

of course these two don't know what a sous vide is, one is dirt poor and the other eats people.

I'm gonna take a stand for zoomers here, he might have never learned what counterclockwise means, but millennials like me would also have hesitated and tried to picture it in our minds. because a lot of us lack spacial intelligence and are generally rather dumb

the shock and terror on her face when she hears nicky crying

another great special effect achieved only with lights and the cast shuffling out of frame

they show the darkhold because they need to mislead viewers and can't give nicky's story away just yet, but doesn't it make sense that agatha would see it? all these centuries blaming rio, and deep down agatha is haunted not by Death, but by her own actions and choices. the way she kept Nicky isolated and unsafe. the way she insulted his memory by going on killing sprees instead of letting herself mourn. the way she used the darkhold to corrupt her soul more and more, because she was never brave enough to confront her guilt.

kathryn hahn really said, do you want Emotional Devastation???? do you wanna see a woman SUFFER? do you want your heart put through a blender??? I can do that in TWO seconds

agatha wants to NOT DIE so badly that she has to drop the clown act and give jen a proper pep talk. because she knows what makes people tick and she can uplift just as well as she can destroy, she can help jen because she knows her so well. there's always that potential there, all of agatha's talent and her intelligence and experience could shape her into a great mother and sister in a coven. a potential that evanora refused to see and that will likely never be fulfilled.

and the irony, the irony of never wanting to hurt jen, to deliberately avoid going after her - because she's a midwife. because nicky was stillborn, because she had to give birth alone in the woods. agatha believes with all her heart that jen's work is fundamentally good and important. and yet she was the one who bound and tortured and violated her. she was so fucking focused on herself that she didn't even realize she was tramping and destroying everything in her path like a mad steamroller. she allied with the enemy, she went against her community's best interests. there's a lot to think about there, I really want to explore it more

patti during that hot ones episode

NOW YOU GUYS REMEMBER HER. and of course it's alice who does

your internalized stereotypes are really testing lilia's patience, billy (and while they consider the oven sharon is writhing and dying on the table)

how it started: jen pushing lilia out of the way

how it ended: "you are my sister in the craft" 🥲

I love you patti lupone

alice is strong! alice is noble! alice is pure of heart!

gee i wonder why

they had to add a goonies poster in billy's room because of this scene, but i guess disney didn't want to buy the copyright so the poster says "the goofballs"

agatha shoving everyone and then kicking jen twice for good measure

my guilty pleasure is watching reactors on youtube (don't judge) and everyone, everyone had my same reaction to sharon's death: she is not really dead. it was too unceremonious, too sudden. you cannot have debra jo rupp unconscious for half an episode and then get rid of her like that, she's too talented, too funny, how can they keep the humor up without her? if sharon is gone they don't want to watch anymore! no, they're gonna bring her back for sure, they're witches, they're going to find a way.

And then Alice dies, and it's unfair, it's too sad, she just had her big victory! that doesn't sit right with you, that the writers would do her so dirty. And then Lilia dies.

Wanda said it from the very beginning: we cannot reverse death, no matter how sad it makes us. Some things are forever. Sharon's death was horrible and uncomfortable and senseless on purpose, because these shows are about the exploration of grief. How can you make peace with the impossible? How can you reconcile yourself with a nice fun lady dying after losing her last shred of agency, scared and alone and forgotten? Didn't she deserve so much more than being just a casualty of witchfolk drama? And how can you reconcile yourself with someone as good and as wonderful as Alice dying in such a cruel way? What about the death of a parent? of a spouse? of a child? What about your own death, as inevitable and inescapable as your birth?

I'm posting this one early cos I didn't sleep last night and I wanna take a nap now 🥲 when I'm tired i ramble, I knew that already. sorry-y!

we get to episode four tomorrow, and y'all know what, or rather WHO, that means!

go to episode 4 part 1

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gay rep in gaming and in kcd2: A Rant

Ok, I'll try to make this as cohesive as possible, but remember that this is a rant after all, so excuse any possible mistakes or typos.

The gay representation in KCD2 is genuinely the most well-done, realistic representation that I've seen in gaming so far. There are multiple types of representation that I see in games, so let's break down what they are, why they do or don't suck and how exactly the KCD2 Hansry romance is superior.

Type N1) forced mechanical bisexuality.

In most RPGs, or really any games where you choose your own romantic interest, there is no gender-based limit on who can romance who, to allow a fully immersive experiance, tho I feel inclined to point out that this mechanic was introduces to gaming quite accidentally during the early era of gaming, when everything was still pixilated to all hell, they js didn't think to add a code prohibiting same-sex relationships cz developers didn't take their existanse into accaount at all, but then some players discovered it was a possibility and that's how mechanical-bisexuality became an almost industry standard, scince it opens up a wider market for the game without feeling "threatning" to the true consumers which everything was marketed towards(str8 white men).

Now, why do I call it "mechanical" bisexuality, u may ask? Well, bc it truly is just that. Mechanical. No character in that game i truly bi, it's solely a mechanic that's easier for developers and more convenient for gamers.

A good example of that would be Stardew Valley. I don't remember which bachelorette it is exactly, but as you romance them, you meet their ex, and the sex of the ex is the same as that of the player. So if you're male, the ex will also be male, if ur female, the ex will also be female. So no bisexuality for you. But ig you could still count it as "gay" rep, even tho for me even that feels very technical and mechanical, as none of it feels actually gay, there is no discussion or reference to sexuality and the weight of being in a gay reletionship is never brought up even if the setting of the game is on earth and not some fantasy world where being gay is considered totally ok and gay ppl arent treated any differently from str8s.

And well, since I brought up fantasy worlds, let's talk abt type N2) gay rep in fantasy.

This can be very well done or absolutely terrible, depending on the writing and premise, and I feel like we can use Dragon Age as the perfect example for both ends of the spectrum.

So I actually haven't played Dragon Age, so my wording or explanations may not be perfect, but bear with me. 

So from what I've heard and know abt the game, the gay rep in old games is great and the way they treat gender is very tasteful and generally well done, at least I've never heard anybody complain. Tho is the newest game, it's... well, let's just say it's not the best. You get this nonbinary character and they spend a lot of time bitching and moaning abt coming out to their mom even tho nothing up to that point has made them feel like their mom wouldn't support them or anything. and look, you may call this good rep cuz oh hey its a real life struggle that they are going thru right? But NO! bc it's the very fantasy setting where being gay is totes cool and ok that i mentioned a second ago and it's not treated the same way as on earth, so taking this character from a utopian fantasy world where even the lable "nonbinary" shouldn't exist bc there is no binary in the first place and projecting this earthly struggle onto them as a sorry excuse for representation feels forced and increadibly boring. Also, some other conversations in the game abt gender were incredibly cringe and also felt very forced, but maybe they were out of context or smth idk but whatever the case may be, it's a separate issue, so let's move on.

type N3) canon gays

So, most of the time, I love all the canon gays in gaming and any media in general.

In gaming, canon gays r mostly in big story games. Like, the first most obvious ones coming to mind would be Ellie and Dina from The Last of Us, or Mileena and Tanya in MK1. Tho those are the only straight up gay gay all up in ur face gay couples that I can think of from AAA games that I've played, so there isn't enough of this type of rep out there. Tho I feel it is the best and most "true" rep in gaming that is the most enjoyable for players AND could be more eye-opening and redeeming for any homophobes playing the game.

So now that all of that is out of the way, you may say, well, aren't Henry and Hans just another case of the so-called mechanical bisexuality? And to that I'll say a very confident no. 

Let's tackle Henry's sexuality first. In both the first and second game, he can get with various women, not even mentioning all the trips to bathhouses, and the only men Henry can get with are Black Bartosch and Hans. The sole existence of the Black Bartosch option is, I feel like, an argument enough to Henry's true bisexuality, but if you choose to turn him down, you need to choose an option saying "I prefer women", so some may argue that there! He said it himself! But there is a second piece of evidence in the game that confirms his sexuality to be canonically bi. When you get to Kutttenberg, one of the first side quests you can do is "A Good Scrub" in which you help the new bathhouse owner Betty safely transport her bathhouse wenches from some inn to the bathhouse. While on the road, you can talk to them and at some point they'll ask you if you prefer tits or ass(game of the year type convos am i right?) and u could either staight up answer ass or tits or you could try to evade answering the question, and if you choose the last option, the girl will joking ask henry "are you sure your don't prefer boys?" and that gets Henry INCREADIBLY flustered, he starts stuttering and can't fully deny it and just mutters a quiet, frustrated "fuck" at the end. Yall that's not a reaction of a str8 person, it's a reaction of a queer man that's just been clocked. Don't even try to deny it.

Now onto Hans. We do see terribly little of him and his interactions with other ppl, but there is still very strong evidence for his bisexuality, which is a book that you find under his bed in the Devil's Den, titled "A Collection of Somewhat Bawdy Poems". It's literally just a book with a bunch of homoerotic poems in it, I'm not ever kidding. Here are all of em so you get the full picture:

"My love for you is heartfelt.

You can tell from my unbuckled belt.

My mind is troubled badly

by one question above all:

When will my lover fondly

caress my left ball?

"Love thy neighbour", saith Our Lord.

And I took it to heart.

I started to fulfil His word,

at least in their southern part.

My heart is mourning dejectedly.

Even my hand rejected me!

By day and night I think of you,

I shall love you always.

My heart is faithful, loyal and true,

Though my body sometimes strays.

A knight in battle attire

got into bed with his squire.

Instead of conquering forts,

They played with each other's swords."

That last part I highlighted is literally them ARE YOU SERIOUSSSSS. Now I did see someone on Reddit saying that the book appears in the room before Hans ever moves in, but let's be so honest for a second, in a game as detailed as KCD2, that book being specifically under HANS'S bed is no coincidence, even if it appeared earlier than Hans himself. The devs knew what they were doing. and that book is still there whether you romance Hans or not, so call me delusional if you want, but for me, that's evidence enough.

Now, onto the most important part: why is Hansry so good?

In my purely subjective opinion, I think that if KCD2 was a story game instead of an RPG, it would be a type N3 representation, and Hansry would be the canon couple. Henry undeniably has the most connection and chemistry with Hans. He doesn't interact with Katherine much and it does feel like they're more good friends-at-arms than anything, and at the end of the game, Henry himself jokes that she's too old for him, and ugh don't even get me started on Rosa. Henry literally barely interacts with her, her romance option is so weird to me fr.

I also think that Hansry was planned, or at least thought of and acknowledged by the devs from the very beginning of the franchise. The way they interact in the first game can VERY easily be interpreted as flirting and they're literally your textbook example of the enemies-to-friends-to-lovers troupe. So with the foundation that the first game gives us, their eventual romance is very believable and realistic, it doesn't feel like one of those gay relationships that was never meant to be but was basically "pushed" into canon by fans, ykwim?

So for me what makes their couple such great rep is how even without the gay relationship, they remain queer men, their sexuality isn't purely mechanical. Their relationship doesn't feel flat or forced, like it often happens with optional gay romances. And even without ever acknowledging the weight of their relationship, it feels natural and not like the devs didn't wanna discuss gay stuff yk? Like in early game Henry can literally fuck some girl (i dont remember her name srry:3) out in the open - in a forest, but he specifically locks the door before kissing Hans. After the kiss, Hans looks worried and scared and apologises bc he knows that he, as a man, literally just kissed his dear friend, another man, and he doesn't know how Henry will react to it, and that's why he's so worried. And through these little details, the game acknowledges the weight of their relationship without them ever having to sit down and talk abt it, or the game having to address it, and that's what good writing is! It's refreshingly realistic.

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I finally looked at that soulbonding strawpage so it's time to disprove it. Feel free to link this if this discourse ever comes up over there I don't really care

This is also highlights why you really shouldn't trust anything presenting itself as an informational resource that doesn't have sources. Don't worry everyone, I spent way too long going through websites that were made for a monitor the size of a shoebox to get them

so the reason is moreso that the term system wasn't known to the soulbonding community at the time and it's a case of two separately developed communities. Think like otherkin and therian developed separately but started to share terms later.

Unfortunately, LiveJournal was being a bitch, and the soulbonding LJ was not archived well. Thankfully I did find a mirror that let me search, and here are the earliest results.

The most blatant one is sourced 08.07.03: "(I have SoulBonds, and one could say I'm part of a multiple-ish system. It's *not* DID, though. I guess most of you know about empowered multiplicity and SBing anyway.)"

You can find a lot more references to soulbonds as systems from around this time too! and nothing really saying they aren't systems (even in early accounts of discourse).

You also have this essay, likely from around that time, that discusses directly this combining between soulbonding and multiplicity.

"If you look through the annals of history, you'll notice that much of the soulbonding community thought itself very far removed from plurality, and the multiple community out there didn't even address soulbonding at all. Recently, all of this has been changing very quickly. Now, you don't have to look very hard to find multiple systems who admit to soulbonding, or soulbonders who have acknowledged themselves as multiple."

(Also "Hopefully in a year or two, we'll be writing another essay called 'Our Thoughts on the New Friendship Between the Multiple and Soulbonding Communities.'" BUDDY I AM SORRY-)

I also actually found a comment on Psych Forums, a DID community, that discusses soulbonds in 2010 and having soulbonds with alters, which was very interesting.

But anyway either way it seems like when soulbonders learned about the term system and multiple, they started using it.

Similar to what happened with fictive actually but that's a whole other topic to explain.

I wasn't going to acknowledge this because I don't know fuck all about tulpamancy, but stuff about the overlap kept coming up in other sources so here you go.

From Soul Whispers in at least 2004 (context being a semi-conscious creation element to soulbonding): "This theory also has its own basis in ancient spiritualities; there is a belief in some Eastern religions, such as Tibetan Buddhism, that people can create and shape "thought-forms" that take on a spirit-realm life of their own as animals, mythological creatures, or other people."

From Living Library in 2015: "Still other soulbonders deliberately set out to create a soulbond (which often overlaps to some degree with tulpamancy, the practice of deliberately creating new consciousnesses as mental companions)"

So like there is a known overlap, but I couldn't give you anything super insightful on that.

Not inherently, no. This personal essay from Soul Whispers earliest archived in 2004 points out how complicated soulbond theories are, acknowledges psychological theories ("One theory that once used to be popular, and probably originated from the old Multiple Personality Disorder idea (or else was just suggested because it seems simple and obvious), is that a SoulBond is just you personifying a part of you which you refuse to acknowledge or which might need an outlet"). While it acknowledges the multiverse theory, it also concludes with an imaginary-created world turned real theory against the multiverse theory.

This essay from 2000 also highlights the early writer/muse focus that the community has.

The spiritual-focused view was popularized by From Fiction. I don't have a source beyond "system joined the soulbonding community in 2016", but if you look up anything from them, it is very spirituality/multi-verse focused, and that can also be seen with their fictionkin stuff.

If you want a newer example, Living Library's site from 2015 directly acknowledges this: "Some soulbonders see soulbonding in a psychological light, whether by considering their soulbonds aspects of their own personality or as conscious psychological entities like themselves."

Also from experience, some of it came from other systems seeing the term and assuming soul = spiritual.

You can see the above essays and sources to see that that's not a universal view that all soulbonders have. Actually a few of those acknowledge the view that soulbonds might be a part of the host.

Though that is true that soulbonds can be anything!

This is another yes and no thing. If you're coming at this from a strictly multiverse view, yeah, but again not all soulbonders view it like that.

It can also get a little muddy if you have a soulbond who doesn't really acknowledge you as a headmate (i.e. seeing you as just a headvoice on their end).

From what I've seen personally, the divination thing is relatively new in the community, and I think came from the overlap with reality shifting and that bringing in more spiritual beliefs? At least looking through the LiveJournal archive I couldn't find jack shit for divination and soulbonding.

Interestingly I also see this a lot more with the self shipping overlap, which seems to be reinforced by the StrawPage including links for that, but I don't know anything about self shipping culture or yumeship.

Likewise this is genuinely the first time I've seen it compared to deity worship.

I have seen it compared to pop culture paganism sometimes, but from our experiences having some spiritual soulbonds and pop culture deities... not really? I can kind of see it though? But I wouldn't say it as a universal thing. Cool if you experience it like that though!

Anyway all that aside, the only other terms they have being like self shipping focused is a little annoying, especially since soulbonding actually does have a lot of interesting terms that's developed within it

[bkglovergirl]

♡𓂃Room 381

Bakugou X Reader

𓏲 ࣪The school tells the students the exciting news! now you gotta deal with the fact you have a new 'husband' who could care less about this whole situation.

Word count; 1.6k

𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃

The bell rings. There is tension in the air. Not because of a villain attack, no, there hasn't been one in days, but because all teachers have ordered all students back to the classrooms for an important discussion. No one knows what this is about and in this school, this could be anything. You pick up your bag and look around for any familiar faces hoping you can have a conversation about the situation, the lunch room is almost bare but you catch a familiar redhead and run up to him. “Hey Todoroki!” you smile at him giving him a small wave. He stops his movements and looks at you.

“Hi,” he says. It sounds very bland, you think, but what can you expect? Maybe he’s nervous as well.

“Can I walk with you to class? I’m nervous about this big discussion thing.” Todoroki starts walking but looks at you to continue the conversation so you take that as a yes and follow.

“What’s there to be nervous about?” you give him a face.

“What’s there? Are you for real asking me that right now?!” You turn to walk backward and face him. “I don’t know, let’s think. A Hero retires, A Hero has died, they are shutting down UA, a student has gone missing, the teachers are robots, and they want to recruit us!” It seems Todorokis's blank face has gotten even blanker.

“All those were completely reasonable until the last one. Do you always automatically think of the worst-case scenarios?”

“Well kinda but it’s not my fault.” you cross your arms, “you gotta think of the worse case scenarios when it comes to this line of work-!” you walking backwards didn’t notice how close you were getting to the classroom, which means you didn't notice the blond who was right near the door causing you to bump into him.

“Watch it bitch!” Bakugou pushes you away causing you to fall about into Todoroki. 

“Alright asshole I’m not a freaking domino! You didn't need to push me!” you yell back in defense moving away from Todoroki. All Bakugou can do is give a scowl and walk into the classroom. “I Know I said it but I’m gonna say it again. What an asshole.” Todoroki nods following you into the classroom. 

𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃

“Alright class I regret to inform you that the school board has decided that not only is it not enough we teach you hero skills we must now domesticate you. Following your continued hero work you will now be paired with someone who will be your fake married partner. You will have your dorms, each including bedrooms that only you can access with your thumbprint. You will be monitored with a sensor. If you can’t get along and you get no points or even worse, negative points you fail the semester. Which means no work study. No fighting.” Aizawa slips into his sleeping bag unusually quickly. The class is quiet for a moment before yelling commences. Questions are yelled and it isn't until Aizawas face looks annoyed it gets silent. The room is quiet enough you can hear other classrooms having the same reaction you all just had. You can’t help but think you were so far off in your assumptions and at this point you wish a hero was retiring. “I will answer questions but I am not talking over all of you.” Hands are quickly raised.

“What happens if you are paired up with someone insufferable?” Yaoyorozu asks, she’s bold but the majority of the class was thinking about it.

“To help encourage points if a pair can get over a 100 and have an overall ‘A’ Grade, you and your partner have the option to switch pairs with another group who is also in an overall ‘A’ Grade.” You and a couple of people sigh. It’s a relief.

“How does this Sensor work?” Midoriya asks, noting that he already has his notebook out on his desk.

“It looks like a camera, but it’s not. Created by some tech-savvy departments, it can sense and scan emotions and calculate to decide what points a pair shall receive. For example, if the pair gets into an argument, the machine with scan picks up what it needs to and calculates it into the point system. And more Mumbo jumbo.”

“So why exactly is this happening?” You ask.

“The school board wants to show what it’s like to balance the life you all hopefully will have when you graduate while still being a hero… there is more to it but that's neither here nor there. Pairings will be posted in a few. I need a nap.” And that's it. Aizawa closes his sleeping bag and the class is left with dreed until the pairings come out.

𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃

A knock is heard at the door and Aizawa slowly unzips his sleeping bag and answers the door, grabbing the paper and walking in front of the class. Everyone is quiet. Aizawa tapes the paper onto the board. “Some of you are paired with people in here and others are paired with others in other classes. I want absolutely no complaints. Next to your name is the room of your dorms.” As you would expect he goes back into his sleeping bag and the room is engulfed in chaos, everyone runs to the board, adrenaline running to see who they got. Gradually pairs start forming some cheers and some blushing tension. You get to the board and scan the paper. Down at the bottom in black ink ‘Y/N L/N and Katsuki Bakugou room 381’ 

“You gotta be fucking joking.” Of course, you two find your names at the same time. Why does he sound so disgusted, you're a fucking treat! You are about to remark him but before you can Aizawa comes out of his sleeping bag.

“It looks like you all found your names. Class is going to start now, so go back to your seats.” Are we just going to act like nothing just happened?! 

𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃

The class had ended, and the girls and you were walking to your new dorms with some of your things from your old dorms. You were quiet, way too quiet for someone to notice.

“Girl you okay?” Ochaco hugs your arm, “normally you are leading our conversations.”

“No, duh, she’s quiet! She's got Bakugou as her husband,” you say silently, wondering if Mina could be any louder.

“I’m gonna die. Or my eardrums are gonna die. Either way, something is dying!” You can’t help but complain.

“What’s the deal with you both anyway?” Kyoka questions, “Normally people can have at least one decent conversation with Bakugou, But I’ve never seen you guys even hold a simple conversation. He won’t even communicate in battle with you? And he communicates with Midoriya.”

“I honestly don’t even know.” Truth is you did know and it was an embarrassing story that no one can get out of you. You went to middle school with both Bakugou and Midoriya. Over time and God knows how this happened you gained a crush on him and decided it would be a brilliant idea to confess. When you did it was a total embarrassment not only did he laugh in your face and shut you down, but He told those punk friends of his and they made your middle school life an embarrassment. You swore since that day he was your enemy. Childish yes? But still partly true to this day.

𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃

You wave the girls goodbye and look at your new dorm you share with your new ‘Husband.’ You can’t help but think how ironic this is. You take a deep breath and enter the dorm. In the dorm is surprisingly a kitchen to your left and a small living room area in front with a door leading out to a balcony. Bakugou is sitting on the couch in the living room. It’s clear he’s already made himself comfortable with how he's sprawled out he is. You decided it’s just best to wait it out in your room and make yourself dinner once he goes to bed. You look and see two doors one with your name on it and another with Bakugou’s to the right of the living room area, you start walking over to your respective door.

“Don’t expect shit out of me.” 

“I never expect anything out of you.”

“EXCUSE ME?!” Bakugou stands up facing you, “Who do you think you are saying that?!”

“If you aren't gonna put in any effort I’m gonna say whatever I want to you assface!” You both hear a ding. You didn't notice it before but over the TV is a point counter. Negative one. Not even five minutes into the dorm and you have negative points. “Oh now look what you did!”

“I didn't do that!”

“Yeah, you did!”

“Not my fault I don’t wanna do this stupid ass simulation. I just wanna be a Hero. Number one hero at that. A family and wife-” he points at you, “is just a stupid distraction from that and I don’t need this.” you roll your eyes and walk into your room, “DON’T WALK AWAY FROM ME!” and you slam your door. You place your stuff down on your new bed and sit down putting your hands to your face. Your blushing?! Why the fuck are you blushing? Is it because he called you his wife? Which is stupid and just delusional, did you not hear what he said? A million thoughts are running through your head as you question yourself but nothing can deny the feelings in your stomach.

[howlingday]

An Offer

Clover: (Walks in) ...You Jauney?

Jaune: Jaune Arc.

Clover: Specialist Ebi. (Sits)

Jaune: ...You alone?

Clover: I'm not that lucky. The only other badge you'd see in here is the health inspector.

Waitress: What can I get ya?

Clover: Just a coffee, thanks.

Waitress: (Pours coffee, Leaves)

Clover: (Pulls out flask) Need a kick?

Jaune: No thanks.

Clover: (Pours into mug) Suit yourself. (Stows) So... You said on the phone you might have a... proposition for me?

Jaune: That's right.

Clover: Well, if you're looking for another stoolie on your payroll, you called the wrong cop. I'm not looking for any... "new friends".

Jaune: Good, because I'm on the run. I can't even pay for the coffee. But I do have something to trade.

Clover: And that is...?

Jaune: ...How long have you been in town?

Clover: Three years. Got my start in Mantle.

Jaune: And they gave you the Branwen case, right out the gate?

Clover: Like I said, I'm not that lucky. And what's it to you if I am?

Jaune: Well, it's a tough case, right? It's probably getting cold by now...

Clover: And you got somethin' to warm it up?

Jaune: Yeah. I got somethin'.

Clover: And what's my end of the deal? Lien? Some kinda immunity?

Jaune: None of that. I have people I need to protect.

Clover: Ah... Family man. Weak point of just about every man, even the crooked ones. So, who you got? Dying mother? Wife and kids-

Jaune: A wife and a daughter.

Clover: And no one else to watch your back, right?

Jaune: I wouldn't be here if that wasn't the case.

Clover: Sorry to hear that. Someone once told me you need friends to survive in this world.

Jaune: Mhm, but in my world, it's the other way around. (Sips coffee)

Clover: Not surprising.

Jaune: ...

Clover: Look, I can't promise you anything for your family. Not until I hear what you're trading. So, are you gonna start talking, or are you just killing time before they come for you?

Jaune: I can-

Clover: No, you can't. Oum's sake, look at you. You've got bags under the bags under your eyes. Twitchin' like you've had more than just this cup here. Your neck's probably sore from all that turnin' you've gotta keep doin'. No, the way I see it, you've got someone REAL powerful on your ass, and they're not givin' up 'til you're bobbin' in the river. Now, if you want to walk out that door without me, be my guest. I'm willing to bet you don't make it five steps before you're someone else's case.

Jaune: ...

Clover: BUT... you stick around, tell me your story, and maybe you've got a shot at seeing your little girl walk down the aisle from her arm, rather than from the clouds. (Sighs) Either way, I'm buying you coffee.

Jaune: ...Fuck, I don't know how it all got so cocked up...

Clover: No one ever sees the trap until they're standin' in it. But you didn't get handed a weapon while you were still in diapers, were ya?

Jaune: ...No. I was a cab driver when I met them...

Jaune: I mostly drove nights 'cause the money was better. I was at the end of my shift when I first met Yang and Qrow...

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Yang/Qrow: (In screeching car) SHIT!

Jaune: (Checks tire pressure)

Qrow: Son of a bitch!

Yang: LOOK OUT!

Yang/Qrow: (Crash)

Jaune: Huh? (Looks over)

Yang: (Runs over, Turns) C'mon, Qrow! There's a taxi here! We're gonna be okay!

Jaune: (Backs away)

Yang: (Pulls out gun) HEYHEYHEY! Get in the car! NOW!

Jaune: (Gets in)

Yang: (Gets in)

Jaune: Uh, where to?

Qrow: (Gets in) Anywhere. FAST!

Jaune: (Drives)

Yang: I've got a gun pointed at the back of your head! They catch us, we're dead, but that doesn't mean you get to walk away!

Jaune: I-I don't want any trouble!

Qrow: Well, you've got it. Now drive!

Yang: How the hell'd they know we'd be there?

Qrow: Doesn't matter now! We just need to lose 'em! How many cars are following us?

Yang: Just one, but there'll be more.

Jaune: (Getting shot at) Hang on! I'm gonna try something! (Swerves, Escapes)

Yang: HOLY SHIT!

Jaune: Who were those guys?

Yang: Hey, you don't get to ask questions! We need to get across the bridge. Take this right over here.

Jaune: O-Okay...

Yang: Ngh...

Qrow: Your arm okay?

Yang: Hurts like hell. (Winces)

Qrow: When we get back, I'll wake up doc.

Yang: Uh, I dunno... Maybe it'll be okay?

Qrow: Callin' him anyways. And hey, I see you listening, cab driver. You don't get to listen, either!

Jaune: I'm just taking you guys to where you wanna go.

Qrow: Then do that.

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Jaune: There's more of 'em!

Yang: SHIT!

Jaune: (Rams through blockade) Don't worry, I know a couple shortcuts that'll slow 'em down!

Qrow: I don't care how you do it! JUST DO IT!

Jaune: (Swerves through construction, Causes one to crash)

Yang: That's your shortcut?!

Jaune: I lost 'im, didn't I?

Qrow: Not all of 'em!

Jaune: Man, these guys really don't like you, do they?

Yang: Sometimes business partners fall out. It happens.

Qrow: Shut up, Yang! The more he knows, the more likely he doesn't live to see the sunrise.

Jaune: I didn't hear anything, guys.

Yang: I count three cars down- How many were at the exchange?

Qrow: Uh, four? Five? Knowing her, she's probably called double that by now.

Yang: Definitely feels like it. Knew we should've taken more muscle.

Qrow: Trust me, when SHE hears about this, there'll be hell to pay!

Yang: They just keep coming!

Qrow: We're not safe until we're back on our own turf. Let's get back home!

Jaune: (Speeding up)

Yang: Uh... The bridge is up, dude...

Jaune: Yup. We can make it.

Qrow: What the hell are you doing?!

Yang: Just hang tight and pray!

Jaune: (Jumps the bridge, Lands safely)

Qrow: ...Never flew like that before.

Yang: Me neither...

Qrow: Alright, take us to Little Patch. Now. Your night's not over.

Yang: I didn't see this comin'. You think someone squealed?

Qrow: What I think is you should shut up. We'll talk about it when we get to the bar.

Yang: ...Okay, we're close. Pull over in front of that bar.

Jaune: The Crow Bar?

Qrow: That's the one.

Jaune: (Pulls over)

Qrow: Wait here.

Jaune: Why?

Qrow: ...You wanna get what you earned, right?

Yang: (Gets out)

Qrow: (Carries her inside)

Jaune: (Gulps, Shivers)

Qrow: (Walks out, Reaches into coat)

Jaune: (Holds breath)

Qrow: (Pulls out envelope) This should cover it. Gas, transport, and even the damages. With this, we're even.

Jaune: (Takes the envelope) I... think it's more than enough.

Qrow: Good. Miss Branwen wants you to know she's grateful for what you've done. If you ever need anything- lien for a loan or even a good job, don't hesitate to ask. The Miss doesn't forget her friends.

Jaune: Okay, thanks.

Qrow: ...And one other thing. What happened tonight stays here on this street tonight. Anyone asks where you got the lien, say you won it in a card game. The scratches on your cab? You got 'em from swervin' to save a kitty-cat's life. Got it?

Jaune: Of course.

Qrow: (Nods) See ya 'round, kid. (Leaves)

Jaune: (Inhales, Drives away)

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Jaune: Fix the cab... Yeah, right. When I opened the envelope, I could've died right there. I almost had enough to buy a new one! I thought about what Qrow said about work. I wasn't interested. Sure, the money was good, but I didn't want to get in with criminals. Better to be poor and alive than rich and dead.

Jaune: So right there, back then, I was out.

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Jaune: (Drinking coffee)

SMASH!

Jaune: SHIT! What the- (Grabbed)

Melanie: Remember me? (Tosses him) Yeah? (Kicks)

Miltia: (Smashes up cab)

Melanie: Lil' Miss isn't too happy. Maybe you shouldn't go around helping Branwen's little birds, right? (Bends down) Now I have to beat up your pretty, little face, just so you don't forget who owns this city.

Jaune: (Gets up)

Melanie: You won't be walking much for a-

Jaune: (Shoves her into Miltia, Flees)

Melanie: (Giggles) Oh, I love it when they make it fun... LET'S GET HIM.

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Yang: ...Hey, check it out.

Jaune: (Sprinting across the street)

Melanie/Miltia: (Chasing after him)

Qrow: Hm... Jaune. Long time, no see.

Jaune: (Runs past him, Panting behind)

Yang: (Walks inside)

Melanie/Miltia: (Run up to them)

Qrow: Melanie, Miltiades. You got business with The Miss?

Melanie: No, we don't. We just need to talk to that cab boy behind you. That's all.

Qrow: Yeah? Well, this is The Miss's favorite driver. So, anything you gotta say to him, you can say to me.

Melanie: Is that so? Well, let me tell you something then. We're not leaving here empty-handed.

Yang: (Walks out) Then I guess you ain't leavin' at all~! (Levels shotgun)

Melanie: ...Fine. See you around. Let's go, Miltia.

Melanie/Miltia: (Leave)

Yang: (Cackling)

Jaune: Thanks...

Qrow: Least we could do.

Yang: C'mon~! Let's go say to The Miss~!

Jaune: Miss Branwen?

Qrow: Yeah. She's gonna wanna hear about this.

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Raven: (Walks in, Sees Jaune)

Jaune: (Gulps)

Raven: (Gestures to seats, Sits down) What's your name, son?

Jaune: Jaune. Jaune Arc, ma'am.

Raven: Qrow said you ran into some trouble?

Jaune: Yes, ma'am. They smashed up my cab really good.

Yang: Malachite's girls went after him, since Jaune helped us-

Raven: (Holds up hand) And your... taxi. This is how you make your lien?

Jaune: Yes, ma'am.

Raven: ...A part of me feels responsible for what happened to you, so I'll set you up with a loan. Just enough to get your cab fixed.

Jaune: I appreciate, ma'am, but I can't accept lien without working for it.

Raven: ...Then why are we here?

Jaune: I want a shot at those bitches who wrecked my cab.

Raven: Heh... You hear that, Qrow? The boy needs my permission to get into a fight.

Qrow: Uh-huh. That's what I heard.

Raven: ...Very well, Jaune Arc. All of Malachite's miscreants hang out at a bar she owns. Yang, you know the one.

Yang: Sure do, boss.

Raven: Good. You can ride with Jaune then. There's a place right next to the bar where they park their cars. Give 'em a make-over. Send Malachite a message. She can't rough up good, honest working-class folks in MY turf without getting a black eye!

Jaune: Thank you, Miss Branwen. I won't let you down.

Raven: (Nods) ...And Jaune, when you get back, I want to have a discussion about what's next for you.

[archivalofsins]

Funniest shit about it being confirmed Yuno didn't murder is the fact that it is so easy to solve certain sins now.

Oh, you thought you could judge Futa his crime is literally taking a picture because of laws around that in Japan. Making the sin he's in here for taking a walk and taking a picture of something. A thing he's highlighted doing twice in Bring It On. He was like I didn't spread it and Milgram went lmao we don't care jail for you. Then the audience got him jumped and permanently disabled because they voted the lady who inserts herself into other people's plights just to feel strong innocent. The character the most and least like him. His logical extreme.

Kazui whelp as we see he wasn't even at the balcony in his undercover shot. So what happened there- Is probably they had an argument he left as he was coming back she did that. He even was like, only I would consider myself a murderer when we got here. Explaining the word guy downstairs because it's just fucking where he actually was. If he is in this bitch for having an argument and telling the truth. What does that say about the audience due to what they tried to do to him? Which was pay people to literally vote him guilty just because they wanted to see him bound up? Just because it would be fun. Oh, or the choosing to scrutinize and criminalize his romantic and sexual inclinations? As if that's anyone's business but his own and those he's comfortable telling.

Shidou well his undercover shot is his hands looking shaky after a surgery. The photo on his prisoner card is an operating room. His undercover Es victim scene is him punching Es in the stomach which is more than like a more violent depiction of an operation. He said he had many victims but it really simply could be him fucking having guilt over losing patients during medically necessary possibly life saving procedures. Yet not wanting to stop being a doctor despite that because if there are people who need help he wants to help them. Now he's dead because he was put in a prison with actual murderers and wrongfully assumed that they were all like himself people who did something that led to a death. Made that assumption with the wrong one and found out. I mean, he wanted to die. So, he got what he wanted on that one but wild if he didn't kill anyone.

Fucking Mahiru was just telling the truth and it was a super normal relationship but this guy committed suicide too for reasons she exacerbated. Yet her undercover es victim shot is her choking Es because she was a smoothering presence that ultimately exacerbated things. Or even more outlandish her hobby was traveling and exciting things. The undercover prisoner card photo for her is a picture of a fucking cave and we see them both traveling in I Love You. Very well could be they could have just been in a caving accident, and he died that way. Then Milgram went if you weren't pushing him to travel, he'd still be alive, and now she too is dead. Which wild way to internalize that but alright have at it.

With Kotoko, well, we know she killed someone there are in canon documents saying that she did that. There was a court case about it. I mean, at that point, it's if one wants to believe how she framed it or not. If it was just oh no a crime in progress accidentally beats up criminal too hard which okay fine whatever. Then goes onto make a habit of this with the other guy in the ally because it just felt that good. Why the fuck did the girl retract her testimony and why was she highlighted at all as connected to this sin.

Haruka, Mu, Amane, and Mikoto all did that shit though. They like did that we see them do that in their music videos in instances that are clearly real life scenes. Everyone one else though that shit is mostly in their fucking heads. With very little allusions to their real lives. They are in here for feeling bad about mundane shit. Because Milgram went wow that sucks you want to see how society feels about that real quick maybe get some closure. Then these guys in the best case scenario said,

"Sure, I would like to do that. I would like to seek out some sort of punishment or confirmation that what happened wasn't that bad or my fault."

Or, in the worst-case scenario, they just felt so guilty about the thing that Milgram just abducted them for it. Both of which are incredibly funny scenarios and definitely something Jackalope of all people would do.

Then when things got real due to Kotoko they were all like,

"Hey, this isn't what I signed up for. You should probably stop this immediately."

Which fucking wild. Like Shidou bluntly went to Es, you should stop this in his trial two voice drama and was surprised when they couldn't. Kazui brought it up as well. It's so stupid at first, then I think of the implications and-

LMAO that's evil and fucked up you threw some of these normal people in there with the human equivalent of Cassowaries and went well if no one sets off the cassowaries they should be fine. Just don't fucking set it off losers it's up to you to be a good enough judge of character to discern who is a threat or not then act accordingly. Aww, you set off one of them round one boo-hoo poor fucking you cassowary attack be upon you all.

Some of these people are doing Milgram, the others have been put in the fucking torment nexus for doing something that can be grossly misinterpreted as murder just because a person died and they are their own worst advocates because of how guilty they feel about it. Meanwhile the people who seem to have straight up murdered people are here discussing how what Milgram is doing is illegal actually, they need to get back home to not lose their job, crying for seven whole minutes about wanting to see their families, going well I probably shouldn't be around people on account of the fact I don't trust myself like that ya know due to the murder I definitely committed.

Just to be told, actually, what you did was fine- In fact, you should do it again. I'll give you the weapon too if you need me to. While they make the other people who actually did nothing look worse comparatively because like no one in their right mind would go yes I think this person who was just living their life, doing normal every day things, that resulted in complications beyond them should be locked up in the same prison as individuals who killed people except fucking Kotoko who said exactly that in Deep Cover and Milgram said her sentiments fit their own well and she from the onset said she liked Milgram.

Yuno's lucky to be alive right now. Wild.

Honestly, love that for some of these guys. That's fucked up and wrong and sure if I knew that from the start I may have done some things differently. But like all I can do now is go got damn that's a way to confirm something a lot of fans wanted and speculated about just to have them go,

"Wait, oh no, that's really bad actually."

And prove Yuno's and my own point of hey it's actually really bad to judge people outside of the law for just how they live their lives. That's really bad if they are in here for something that is not murder I don't want to think about that. I hope they killed so many people because we know some of these people did, in fact, kill and could have done it again. Like what if we voted Mu innocent last trial and Yuno died as the fucking result of that choice due to her ignoring her. Then fucking what?

[heretyc]

Comfort in Death [Coyle x Reader angst/comfort] [SHORT]

I've been thinking about death recently [not in THAT way, I am a-okay lol] and I've been thinking...I feel like Coyle would have a deep respect for it. Idk I like making characters deeper than they are lol. I also added a little detail about Coyle that I personally HC, see if you can find it. I do be posting weird shit at 5 AM. Enjoy.

Setting; Kill the Snitch, underground parking area [basement?? parking?? where the generator is. I don't remember lol shite]

A trial gone wrong it seemed; this wasn't common in your case. Easterman had prided himself upon calling you his star pupil. One not easily swayed by the sins out of the outside world, one that eagerly adapts to their environments out of pure eagerness to absorb the holy words of God himself.

It wasn't often you'd fail. "Wasn't often" being an understatement; you never DID fail, seemingly too skilled at dodging machetes and prods and gunfire. But today had been different; Henrietta was more than determined today to end your life, and it took just one moment for her to take advantage of your crafty fingers on the generator to pick you up and slam you onto the concrete below.

It was either guilt or the sick stomach that comes with murder, but she didn't make sure she finished the job; she simply walked off toward the elevator, her voice low and raspy, "Reagent squished".

She wasn't wrong.

You could feel every organ in your body struggle; your ribs were snapped, your lungs were trying not to puncture themselves onto said ribs, and my god, your spine.

You were dying.

It was more of a celestial message than a thought. Your body knew it, your brain knew it. Death was coming. Your body was losing its motivation to survive.

But could you really survive this place? Even if you were God himself, even he couldn't last. Nobody did.

This is where hope dies.

The crackling within the air was either your ears fizzling out or Coyle's infamous prod, ready to assault whoever wronged him in that moment. But his steps were slow, calculated as he walked over.

He stared at you through his glasses, his head tilted. "You're done for."

Thanks, genius.

Coyle wasn't one to be soft. He wasn't one to sit down and read a book and think about the mysteries of the universe as he pets a cat on his lap.

So why was he crouching down beside you, like you were worth a damn?

He set his prod down - which still crackled with life - and he simply scanned you up and down, until he placed a hand onto your abdomen.

And pressed down.

With gentleness.

Coyle clicked his tongue, "Your ribs are fucked, darlin'. Ain't no way to sugarcoat it." He finally sat down, an arm slung onto his knee as he used his free hand to inspect the rest of you. "That tall bitch really did ya in, huh?"

He removed his hand to take his cigarette from his mouth, his thumb flicking the butt. "Never thought it'd come to this. You were too fuckin' quick for your own good. Now look at ya." He motioned to you, blowing some smoke from his nose. "Ready to bite the fuckin' dust."

You swallowed the best you could - your saliva was thick with blood, disgusting - and your watery eyes looked up at him. "Is death peaceful?"

Coyle's slight smirk was wiped off, his brow raising in curiosity. "What?"

"Peaceful." You coughed slightly, "It's...it's chaotic here. I hate it. I just...I want peace."

He hummed slightly, scanning the floor in thought. "...Yeah. It's peaceful."

With him, it was never peaceful. Everybody died screaming. But that wasn't the point, was it?

Death was only scary due to not knowing the outcome. Even Coyle feared it to some extent. But he thought about it. He's seen it, when lightning struck him as a kid when he got too close. But he didn't die, no. He felt heat, saw light...then came back to his mother bitching at him from the porch.

Maybe he was about to hear true death be described to him in detail.

Maybe he should stick near his dying victims more often.

"Real peaceful." He took a hand of yours into an ungloved one, squeezing gently. You felt...colder. Not as...firm. "Black, and...white. And quiet."

"Okay." You murmured, your nose failing; at least now you didn't smell the blood that leaked from your nostrils. "Is it cold?"

He was stuck.

"...No." He licked his lips, lighting a fresh cigarette with the prod that cracked ominously from its place on the concrete flooring. "It's...warm. I guess."

Lightning, his true beloved, wasn't like this. Wasn't like being beaten by some fucking behemoth. He lied to you like he did all the others, but this felt more...raw. Important.

"Is there a light?"

Coyle gnawed on his lip, his grip on your hand squeezing. Was it God coming to you, or was it the light from his cigarette that gave you false hope?

"Yeah." He clicked his tongue. "Run to it, honey." He cringed slightly, looking to your broken legs. Shit. Terrible thing to say.

Was this how his wives felt? Were they wanting the light after what he did?

Damn.

"...Thank you." You forced out, your chest concaved just a little too much for his liking, "I know we...fucking hated each other, but...this is nice."

He wasn't always thanked for his actions. He should have been, he's an officer of the law, but...this felt different.

"You're welcome." He got up, his prod back in its rightful place - within his grip - and his other hand on his belt. "Enjoy yourself."

He has shit to do, and this you knew even as you closed your eyes and let go.

...You didn't think you'd die, though...did you?

Easterman looked down upon you as Barlow stood beside him, her lips pursed. "They're...doing well, sir." She looked down at her clipboard, "Healing well, responding well to treatment."

"As to be expected," Easterman was proud as he walked toward your exhausted form; your legs were bent back into shape and your body was littered with incisions. Surgery was a success. "They're my How High. My star pupil." He chuckled, placing a hand onto your shoulder as if you could feel it. "Have them back out in a month."

Barlow's stare was cold, "They need at least 3 months. Their legs will be stiff."

"A good pupil understands why they go through challenges, Emily." Easterman clicked his tongue with discontempt. She should know this by now. "This will be just another example of how strong my How High is."

Barlow simply sighed through her nose, "...If you insist, sir."

And before she could blink, he was gone. Looking at the heartbeat monitor, she questioned if she should just pull the plug.

...Maybe next time.

I have to add this from now on due to antis & minors not respecting my boundaries :( sorry guys!!

[elsa-fogen]

At first i was going to reblog this from @justashadowlooker

but then it got too long and off-topic, i started retelling and quoting my own 10 years old fanfic, so i'm making it it's own post jjdsfjkdfgh

Too long don't read, was a Bloom fan, killed her hundreds of times, than became Icy fan, killed her few times as well, still a huge fan, wanna revive some of my old ideas

When i had just started watching winx, Bloom was my fav AAHAHHAH (it was 2008-2009 year i think). Buuut... being my fav means that you gonna SUFFER. It was always the case, even when i was little. But young me didn't know better than to just kill of a character. And Bloom died SO many times in my early fanfics and arts. I still remember one fic, it was also the first ever fic i posted on the internet, and it was horrible. I typed really slow at that time and i was looking at like 10 A4 pages of handwritten fanfic and was like... weeeell i don't need this part with description of the boat... i don't need this part about wind flowing in her hair or smth... i don't need spaces after dots and commas either. These were real thoughts of 9 year old me lmao.

the fic was about Bloom and Sky going for a boat trip date, but there was also some bitch that fell for Sky and her best decision was to throw Bloom away from the boat. As a result she was sucked into the screw of the motor or whatever this thing called. Sky dived after her and brought her back on the boat, but she died due to the blood loss.

In my handwritten version it was really long and tears queezing scene, but i was too lazy to type it all, so it basically was shortened to 1 (one) sentence: Bloom didn't make it to the port.

i also had a picture attached, it was i think a cover of some of the comics where Sky holds Bloom on his arms and they're stepping out of the water, but i photishoped it and added many wounds and BLOOD BLOOD EVERYWHERE!!!

I also remember photoshopping screenshots from the first winx movie, adding bloody wounds on Bloom and tears and trying to make her face sad lol. And also i remember, i didn't have access to the computer all the time in my childhood, and there was a weird time... when i'd got a chance to be on the computer, i would made a specific search in google, to find that one art with Bloom, being fucking stabbed, lying on the ground and crying, and touching the golden heart-shaped locket with the name Sky on it, and you could see that it was Sky's sword that stabbed her, and he was walking away in the distance. I could stare at that art for hours, imagining how it happened. I also remeber how the art suddenly stopped showing up at the search and i had only tiny squeezed jpg version of it, and i thought that google banned this art for being so violent lmao

Btw i found that art, it's by Chibiusa-Moon, here it is, and i remember it diffferently, i thought Bloom had enchantix on her lmao

BUT THEN SOMETHING CHANGED. I DON'T KNOW WHEN. I DON'T KNOW WHY. BUT ICY CAME AND DESTROYED MY LOVE FOR BLOOM, AND TOOK HER PLACE.

I suspect that it happened after i saw ep1 of season 3, because HAVE YOU SEEN THIS WOMAN IN THAT EPISODE?! SHE WAS ✨✨S L A Y I G✨✨ DAMN!!! She freed herself looking fab as fuck (i've only seen her battle uniform at that point, and her casual outfit shocked me, i was like HOLY SHIT?? DIFFERENT COLTHES?) (and it's if you forgen the HOLY SHIT, TRIX IN THE FIRST EPISODE OF THE SEASON?!!!), sayed the edgiest thing in the world, then freed her sisters, skated away from the giant snake ON HER DAMN HEELS AS A QUEEN!!!!! I think this was the moment when i fell for her. Maybe i'm wrong and it happened earlier, but this is all i can remeber.

Well, i also remember when my mom got me my first winx magazine and i was really disappointed that there were no Trix in the comic AHHASJGDAJS it was comic about bloom and diaspro going to the land of the dragons.

And, funny enough, i think i didn't kill Icy in my fics (mostly)

wait fuck. i remembered one (that was actually properly published and finished), let me just refresh my memory real quick- (gonna cringe soo hard ahaha)

oh shit i also remembered some stuff. In my later fanfics i was tending to make Bloom real psychopath, who decided to straight up destroy all the witches and all the dark magic. Hey. Hey. I bet 13 year old me wouldn't mind if i borrowed this idea fom her...

EHM ANYWAY, BACK TO THAT ONE FINISHED FIC!

It's so cringy written, but it's got the spirit HASHDHA. The trix summon some another army of darkness that was created to destroy fairies (hey), but at some point they lose control of it and the army turns against them. They have no ther choice but to seek help from the winx. winx of course don't want to help since their army attacked alfea... but the trix didn't give this order.

by the way tehre's one dialogue that i think is actually good and i think is in character

"But how do we know that it isn't one of your tricks?" - asked Tecna. - "Probability of this equals 85,9%!" Everyone froze. Nobody had this idea before. Then Icy shook her head. "No, it's not." "How do we know?" Stella said suspiciously. "If we wanted to trick you, we'd choose less humiliating way" Icy replied coldly.

in the end witches and fairies teeaming up, and going on an adventure to stop this army with some artifacts. Significant part of the way they had to make on their own without magic, and during that winx and trix are actualy growing to like each other. OH THERES ALSO A FUNNY THING LOL

But as a night roommate she [Icy] turned out to be very restless. She was moving all the time and mumbling something. And then at some point she screamed: "Damn fairies, i wish you all dead!" Bloom jumped on her place and still half sleeping replied: "Shut up, witch, or you're done for!" and fell back asleep. All in all, it was hell of a night.

i still think this is funny af-- damn these dialogues are only getting better. Next day they getting closer to their destination.

Suddenly they heard Stormy's voice: "Wait! there's some sign! Icy, can you read this?" "Why her?" Stella asked offended. "We all here can read!" "Except for you," Darcy noted gloomily and everyone laughed. "Ha, well, if you're so smart, come here and read!" Icy said with the sweetest voice. "And next time we'll ask you." Stella understood that she was cornered. To save the rest of her dignity, she came closer and started staring at the sign. "I-I cant for some reason, this handwriting is awful!" with dispair sloar fairy realised that she doesn't understand these letters. "And this cold is driving me nuts! Give me cup of hot coffee and warm blanket!"

then Icy teaches Bloom how to skate. And then Aisha (Leyla) dies by falling into some bottomless pit- After that they make it to their destination, but the army was waiting for them there

another dialogue

"Let's go!" Icy said decisively. "No, wait! I'll go alone. If they catch me, you all get out of here as fast as you can" [...] "No!" Bloom said. "I'll go with you!" "Fine. But they'll kill you immediately" "And you?" "And I will be tortured" Icy smiled.

I can't with this lol, Icy smiling at the thought of torture as a true psycho she is.

Icy touched the wall, making sure it's quite hard. "Well? What's next?" "You're the brain of the operation, you tell me!" redhead replied, crushing piece of the rock in her hand

i just like this interaction here.

"Winx Believix!" Winx screamed. And Trix didn't scream anything, Icy just snapped her fingers and all three were already in their witch uniforms.

yeah classic.

the fight begins, Icy is trying to understand what to do with the artifacts, Musa dies, then they teleport to some other planet where they can perform the ritual to destroy the whole army at once. They're reading the spell, but something is missing, and the army attacks them here too. This time Bloom is left to figure out what were they missing, and some drops of her blood fell on the artifact and that was the last piece of the spell. The army is destroyed, but Icy was seriously injuried when covering Bloom from attack from behind. Now they're flying back to Magix

FUCK-- guys i'm sorry. More dialogues on the way.

"Why are you here?" she [Icy] asked, opening her eyes. "Doesn't want to miss your death!" Stella screamed, she overheard the talk. "Shut up!" I [Darcy] replied. "Or I'll hit you!" "Oh-oh, I'm so scared!" "Discussed my funeral already?" Icy asked, surprisingly, without sarcasm. "Come on, don't listen to that fairy! She has only fashion and straw in her head." Icy smiled weakly. "Magix!" Bloom screamed looking out the window. Fairies came closer to the glass. "Where?!" Icy got worried. Golden-green disc of the planet surrounded by thick ring of asteroids was hanging in the center of the window. Icy could see it without moving. "And here my dream came true. I got Magix!" she lifted her arm and closed her fingers around the planet. "Didn't think that the view from the space is so beautiful..."

DSHGJADFKAJHSFDJG what have i done. This line about her dream coming true HITS HARD. Fuck, 13 y.o. me knew which buttons she should push.

Icy dies. Darcy and Stormy were forgiven because they helped to stop the army and for Icy's "sacrifice" and everyone very conveniently forget that they started the recent war. The end.

Damn that was a ride.

um, so where were we?... right i was saying that Icy became my new hyperfixation instead of Bloom...

And i had the whole trilogy planned, in the first one she'd escape from some prison and attempt another plan to counquer Magix, but fail, in the next book she'd be KILLED by Bloom but came back to life by making a deal with someafterlife owner (HA) and the last one where she actually succeeds... this one i din't think through at ALL.

I kinda wanna revive that plot fron the second "book" tbh, i still remeber it really well.

In a comic.

(i'd make it a crossover with Hazbin but it won't work unfortunately)

okay i don't know where and how to end this post so i'm ending it here, have a nice day thanks for reading i hope that at least someone made it to the end.

[wavehala]

JJK CHARACTERS WHEN YOU'RE ON YOUR PERIOD

pairing : jjk characters x female reader

characters : gojo satoru, geto suguru, nanami kento, kamo choso

warnings : mentions of explicit content

as you can tell i'm on my period (yes of course i am craving physical touch as well but that is not your business). also english isn't my first language so please keep that in mind while reading this piece of garbage

GOJO : HE WOULD BE SO DRAMATIC FOR NO REASON JUST TO IRRITATE YOU. but for real he would take your period as an excuse to be clingier than ever. he would be spooning you the exact moment he arrives back home despite your protests. ao basically, he's not leaving your side with the excuse that "you need to rest" but we all know that satoru just wants to cuddle you for the rest of the evening and take care of you of course. according to him, your skin feels softer whenever you get your period and he wants to cuddle you the entire day. however, don't get it twisted. even though he's a menace to society, he will buy you anything you want to eat and spoil the hell out of you because, in the end, he's totally aware of how painful your period can be most of the time. you mentioned pancakes a few days ago? he's making them in this precise moment. deep inside he cares, a lot, and he will make sure to show that he does. and trust, he is not ashamed AT ALL of going shopping for pads. no he's not going to ask the size of your pussy. but do not worry, gojo satoru will make sure you lay down on your stomach and will massage your back if it is necessary. the bitch will also raise your t-shirt and leave a trail of kisses on your back to raise tension between you. everything while his hand is caressing your waist carefully, as if you were about to break. "i will make sure you massage my back as well don't worry". "not now satoru". oh, also there will be times when this man won't care about your period when he wants to have sex with you so be prepared for that 🤠

GETO : i am about to combust thanks to this man. geto would be overprotective BUT in his own personal way which makes it ten times better. first of all, he could instantly tell in a second when you’re feeling down or unwell. with that being said, he would assume every single task that you were supposed to do that day. he is cleaning the house, doing the dishes, organizing your bookshelf by alphabetical order, and many more. you then refused, obviously, because even you thought you could manage all your responsibilities despite the bothering headache that you had and the point that you felt like you were bleeding yourself to death with every step that you took. you could be in the kitchen doing the dishes out of guilt and geto would go like "BABE NO LET ME TAKE CARE OF IT". he would also carry you in a bridal style to your room when you don't listen to him. this time, he didn't drop you on the mattress, compared to the other times when you guys would have a makeout session. instead, he treated you delicately and then proceeded to kiss your forehead before saying "i got you babe, i'll clean things up and then come back to you. ok?". and all you could do is smile and thank him. and oh my god he is such a gentleman. while watching movies, he would make sure that you were resting your head on his chest while his hand was grazing your lower back. every now and then he would kiss your forehead and tell you how much he loved you. "are you feeling better?" he spoke in a deep, yet soft voice. "yeah, i cannot thank you enough". "don't, it's my duty as your boyfriend". he said while kissing your lips, and then proceeding to kiss your neck.

NANAMI : this man oh my fucking god. your period cycle was irregular as fuck., which was a bummer already. but nanami, despite the circumstances, always paid absolute attention to you in case you needed extra support from him. he even noticed your PMS symptoms before you did. this time, you had gotten your period last night, knowing perfectly that the next day would be the harshest for you according to your cycle. day twos were very chaotic and your personality was always messy. you know: cramps, headaches, mood swings, cravings, all of them at once. what was even worse is that you didn't want to make your boyfriend concerned about you. but your plan was ruined the moment he asked if everything was okay when he called you from work. you responded with a faint "good, why do you ask?", and that was enough for him to hang up after saying "don't worry sweetie, i'll be home in ten minutes". and now here you are, curled up in bed with a hot pack in your abdomen and scrolling through your phone in order to ease the aggravating cramps that just kept getting worse and worse. suddenly you heard the distant sound of the keys in your front door and the rustling of plastic bags at your doorstep. what's funny is that you didn't even move at all to check if it was him, because you already could tell it was. quick footsteps approached the doorframe of your shared room and he would pop up. "yuji is training with gojo, so i had the day off don't worry", he said while removing his tie and laying next to you in bed. "there was no need to do that, kento" you scolded, trying to hide your blushed cheeks. "it is a big deal, you sounded half dead on the phone". he scolded you back while hugging your waist.

CHOSO : MANS WOULD BE SO WORRIED. the first time you told him he would raid a supermarket because he has zero clue of what you need but that doesn't mean that he's gonna leave you unattended because #loyalty. trust the fact that he is going to order everything that you're craving, money is not a concern! choso would be asking you every twenty minutes if you need anything because he's very protective. and you feel bad for him as well. but boy oh boy, when you get those sharp cramps (the ones that feel like they're stinging your ass all of a sudden) and you try to hide your aching expression; he would definitely notice. he will straight up sit close to you and rub your back because he doesn't want to be too invasive. "are you ok?" is the only set of words you hear immediately after. "i just had cramps, nothing to worry about" you said while holding a smile, which you weren't faking because you were genuinely happy that choso was so cautious. "nonsense, come here" he immediately said while embracing you in his arms and cuddling you (carefully) in the couch. his hands were stroking your back while you were on top of his chest, when you finally felt like you could relax and take a breath of fresh air. "thank you choso". "it's okay, i enjoy doing this".

[spacedustmantis]

it's pride month and i love inflicting my headcanons upon the people so here's

jrwi characters i think are aromantic, from most to least canonical evidence

gillion. basically canon. i mean look at him. any romantic scene this fish plays any part in is only coded as such bc he never had a single normal relationship with any person outside his sister and grandfather prior to coming to the surface. also uber autism. would be canon if charlie actually knew what the ace and aro labels actually mean, and you can't convince me otherwise

shilo. literally the aromantic colours. incapable of romantic feelings according to bizly (and unlike the ace comment, that one's actually in the show, making it canon to the story) which isn't synonymous with being aro (and certainly not good rep) but it's close enough for me

finn. fucked his way through all of mana and never settled down with a single man. that one moment he had with that inmate he fucked to death is and will forever be the closest finn ever got to a romantic relationship. his crew is his family. the old one as much as the new one. and he doesn't see a point in changing that

thanatos. idk i never watched apothy in full but i believe he's pretty apathetic to romance throughout? i'm always for more aros so he goes on the list

emizel. the most obviously aromantic guy you'll ever meet. he loves his friends and does not get why everyone makes such a fuss about finding "the one" when he's got perfectly good life companions right there already. he also is such a rebel and a free spirit and he hates the system and so he doesn't even realize he's aro. maybe ever

rand. bitch ass loser who can't get a girlfriend? or simply not interested. and yet the feeling of "being behind" permeates through it all. the Themes you see

chip. overcompensating dumbass, so obsessed with seeming "normal" he dives right off the other end into creep territory and gets stuck with a marriage he didn't want for months (though tbf i can't keep track of if they decided to retcon that divorce or not). also only ever flirts with people he knows he doesn't have a real chance with, ever notice that? i sure do. i'm onto your fucking tricks you bastard

kian. he's just like me and his stance on romance is confusing and contradictory and he loves freely and loudly and also fundamentally differently to how people around him love and maybe that's why he never found anyone after becky. maybe that's what made it so hard to move on, the idea that you finally found that one someone who loved you the way you were without expecting you to change for them and then she left. and no one else could ever do for you what she did for you, because you couldn't do for them what she never even demanded of you

troy. i don't have a case for this one, just trust me

cherry blossom from the final episode one shot. i don't remember the canon at all i just remember thinking she was super aro when i watched it. i should really rewatch it

sfth version to come soon

[d3f3n3str4t10n]

Playing through Chapter 1 with the info gained from Chapter 2 (Or I guess, watching playthroughs, in my case) helps shed a lot of light on certain details... but one thing that always struck me as strange even after that was the phone call between Ashley and Renee.

Here, it seems like she's showing genuine shame for what she's doing, or what she feels like she has to do... though exactly what that is, is left unclear. The vagueness of it all is, of course, to build up mystery as to what it could mean, which we find out more about in Chapter 2. And in chapter 2, we find out that Renee was... heavily implied to be very much in on what these quarantine people were doing. Selling their organs, using their deaths as an insurance scam, to the point of willingly and deliberately hiring a hitman to kill Andrew and Ashley once they escaped.

We aren't fully sure about how deep this conspiracy goes; If this is something the water company as a whole is pushing on a widespread scale, or just certain people within it, or even if the 'parasites' are real or not. (Though I think it's all but clear that they were just made up...) We know from flashbacks and the Grave's own words that Renee wasn't exactly the most 'present' mother figure. Yet when confronted about it, she of course, denies it. (To a degree, anyway.)

We haven't seen or heard much of any direct interactions between Leyley and Renee, or much of Renee in general, so we don't have too much to go off of. This could very easily just be classic Graves' Family Gaslighting here... but I honestly think there's some truth to what Renee is saying here.

(Is it just me, or are Renee's eyes in this picture... slightly more green than they are in the present day?) Anyway, as we see in the screenshot above, Renee doesn't seem very worried about whatever Andy is upset about. We know that Andy had the responsibility of raising Leyley from a young age, which is likely what this conversation is about. Her uncaring, nonchalant look here gives off the impression that she's more annoyed about the situation than concerned. (Or she just has a resting bitch face, who knows?) She claims she "Thought they were getting along, so she didn't want to see what was happening." when apologizing to Andrew. I'm assuming this mainly meant that she didn't want to spend the time and effort to raise her kids, and just put the burden of disciplining Leyley on Andy. She was never counting on Leyley being such a handful... But she does bring up a... well, not a great point but a point nonetheless.

Why... didn't she turn her in? Ashley's quick to point out that it was simply to cover her own ass, and save herself the embarrassment and trouble that would be; having your kids murder another kid, even if accidentally... but is that... really it? Considering Andy and Leyley were so young when that happened (I'm willing to bet Andy wasn't even 10 yet. At the most, he was probably 12-13, meaning Leyley was around 10-11...) I really don't think the sentencing for them would've been... THAT bad? I don't know about the laws for this kind of stuff, but kids accidentally killing another kid while playing an innocent game of hide and seek... It feels like they very easily could've played the "I'm just a little kid I had no idea what would happen I'm so sorry" card fairly easily. This probably would've led to Mr. and Mrs. Graves taking most of the heat, being their parents. At least, that's what Ashley claims Renee was actually concerned about. But... then... why was she 'sorry' when she told Ashley to stop calling her? If she saw her as nothing more than an embarrassment, why would she say that? Was she only doing it to come off as caring one last time? Was a small spark of regret and humanity poking through her facade as she left her kids to slowly starve to death and be harvested for their organs? Did she really 'try' with Ashley? We know through the "Mother's Intuition" preview video that we'll be getting at least 1 flashback from Renee's perspective, and we know that we'll be seeing many more flashbacks with the family when they were still together, and possibly seeing some of their extended family. (Staying at their grandparent's house, for example.) I'd very much like to know what *they* thought about all this. Their reaction to Renee getting pregnant to young, why Renee decided to keep the baby, (If that was even her decision to begin with...), why she thought it was fine having another, (Even if Andy was an 'easy child,' there had to be more to that decision, surely. Was Renee just that impulsive back then? Did she not see that having 2 children would just be more work? Why did she want to have another kid specifically???)

I really do think there's more to Renee than we've seen and heard so far. I don't think she's as heartless as some of her actions make her seem. I genuinely think that, at one point, she 'tried' with Ashley. But at some point, she gave up, and left Andy to pick up the slack. Maybe it's just cope, idk.

[yuri-is-online]

On the Jin and Yuri bother theory. I think it would make more sense if they were half brothers, with sharing the same mother.

Ahhh so, I did think about this. My thinking is more that they would share a father, and perhaps some of Jin's hatred came from Yuri being the product of an affair. I don't know as much about Japanese history, but in European families it was fairly common for wealthy/noble families to financially support their bastard children, many even taking them in to the home and expecting their wives to raise those children. If they did not take them in outright, they would have arrangements made for them and be financially supported by a wealthy "benefactor" provided they didn't behave themselves too poorly. It makes a lot of sense to me that someone like Jin would hate Yuri for being a product of his father's infidelity and see his existence as a crime against his mother. Maybe even more so if his mother refused to hate Yuri and treated him nicely.

Or of course their mom could have had an affair, in which case 1) good for her and 2) that would make Yuri's original determination to fit in with Frostheim even more tragic. He wants to be accepted by his older brother but Jin can't do that because it would look bad on the family. He seems like the sort who refuses to admit he's wrong and keep digging himself a deeper hole so even if he wanted to be Yuri's brother at some point he can't admit that now because he's been too big of a bitch for too long.

Anyway none of this is probably real so I'm not too fussed about it. It would be delightfully Shakespearian if it was real though.