#cicatrix

[raccoonfallsharder]

꧁･:☁︎ ⋆.immerensis a scene from cicatrix .⋆☁︎ :･꧂

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Immerensis n. the maddening inability to understand the reasons why someone loves you—almost as if you’re selling them a used car that you know has a ton of problems and requires daily tinkering just to get it to run normally, but no matter how much you try to warn them, they seem all the more eager to hop behind the wheel and see where this puppy can go.Latin immerens, undeserving. Pronounced “ih-muhr-en-sis.”

I have been working on this portrait forever. It's almost... too detailed (especially the background, which you can't see yet!), but I didn't want to give any of it up lol. I'm greedy.

I'm starting to think cicatrix might be fewer chapters than initially planned, depending on how the writing flows. but as of right now, this scene will happen somewhere around chapter forty/forty-one, when our heroes are "safely" ensconced on Fron and about to attend a certain celebration. It was super fun to come up with (formal) clothing ideas based on Fronnish aesthetics. more below.

p.s. does pearl have enormous, glorious boobs? yes, yes she does. did i think about making them smaller? i did. then i was like, why?

Rocket Raccoon Volume 2: Storytailer (2014-2015). Skottie Young, Filipe Andrade.

[galaxygermdraws]

Hels a Noon June Day 5: Scar

CICATRIX MY HORRIBLE MAN!!

Fun Facts!!

Cic's design is based on a mix of my favorite Scar skins! He has Vex elements of course, he has the white hair from Last Life Scar, his fit is purple like Mayor Scar, and he has the general fanciness of Elf Scar

He tends to live in a like. Fancier Woodland Mansion. It's a lot bigger, and much fancier, and very very lavish. His dining hall is specifically the fanciest room, with a giant chandelier and a long table but he's always the only person sitting at it, in an appropriately fancy chair.

His staff are all mind controlled to the point where they don't even really think for themselves at all. He just has to make prolonged eye contact with them and his magic fogs over their brains. If they disobey or become too unruly to control he will eat them! He is, in fact, a cannibal

He came in second place in 3L, much like actual Scar. He deserved to lose, though, because he had forced Koray to kill Limbo, and in return, Koray took Cic to the top of the world and threw him down, causing him to die (his wings didn't work on 3L due to the lack of KitHater531)

[hibatasblog]

Happiest birthday to raccoonfallsharder! You are the best, and you deserve the moon and stars! In addition to being an amazing storyteller, they are a wonderful, kind, loving friend. I’ve benefited so much from knowing them. In honor of their special day is a gouache on fabric painting from their incredible story “Cicatrix.”

[darthnell]

cicatrix

. . xi . .

It's clear as crystal that she hasn't been living here. In the Capitol's eyes, that is unacceptable.

[spiritsglade]

hi bell!! 1, 9, 14, 17, 37, 41?

[questions for fic writers]

hi jar!!

1. What fic of yours would you recommend to someone who had never read any of your work? (In other words, what do you think is the best introduction to your fics?)

cicatrix. i don't have much to say here it just falls under the typical tone and style i have. we're focused on jason, we mention the batarang scar, we have a lot of dialogue. it's also relatively short compared to the other first candidates that come to mind lol.

9. How do you find new fic to read?

diving straight into the character tag sorted by date updated and hoping for the best. i do a lot of tag filtering to find things i'm specifically craving. if i'm desperate i'll dip into fic rec collections and bookmarks. (click on the bookmarks of a fic i like -> pick some random username -> peruse that user's bookmarks)

14. Are there any tropes you would only read if written by a trusted friend or writer?

hmm i can still tolerate pretty much every trope i dislike from random authors if i think the underlying fic concept is interesting enough. probably jason's fanon lazarus pit madness, if it's specifically the focus in the fic. i know it can be done in a way that's compelling to me but oftentimes it isn't.

17. What highly specific AU do you want to read or write even though you might be the only person to appreciate it?

hahaha. suicide watch. head in my hands. the current plan is to lock the fuck in on figuring out how to write that beast during summer. i think it's doomed to die a forever death if i don't get any further on it before college rolls around. but also i'm banning myself from looking at or thinking about it until may.

that's the immediate post-batarang-incident essence & jason bonding fic where they both figure out their issues and walk their way through a version of the all-caste rhato plotline that hopefully makes sense. i will write it if it kills me idc.

an adjacent highly specific au that i want to read is one that actually explores the fact that jason chose to mind-wipe his memories after bruce did ethiopia 2.0. i think that would be good and fun and interesting and devastating.

a character choosing to forget on purpose? compelling. how do you handle that. do you think bruce would take advantage of jason not remembering why he's angry.

37. Promote one of your own “deep cut” fics (an underrated one, or one that never got as much traction as you think it deserves!). What do you like about it?

nervous system. i really am fond of nervous system. it's such a fun little thing. the premise was basically 'honestly i think fanon lazarus pit madness would fuck up canon jason's uth plans' and then it turned into a fic that was also about like... idk. jason kills a lot of people during under the hood. he decapitates five low-level drug dealers for selling to kids and this is something that only comes up across a couple of speech bubbles!! do you know how many decapitations that implies total??

anyway i explored him doing things a little more fucked up. like he acknowledges the human cost of killing people, of the approach he's chosen, and the grief that leaves their families but thinks that a worthy sacrifice anyway! and i think that's an interesting angle to examine him from!!

like how do we reconcile the interpretation of jason as someone who kills only the 'truly irredeemable' as a way of vengeance for previous victims and protection for future ones, with the guy who was very much arbitrarily killing everyone who worked under black mask? a fun thought exercise i think.

for non-dc fics no one understands my ocs in Anagnorisis like i do. it's okay calamity ily.

41. Link a fic that made you think, “Wow, I want to write like that.”

The River Catches You by peatmoss. this is a dishonored fic, not dc, but it's one of my favorites and one that i haven't been able to stop thinking about since i first read it... probably shortly after it was first posted, honestly. happy almost two year anniversary to 'can you hold solace? can you pluck it from the wrenhaven like a pearl?'

the imagery is just so powerful but there's this distant drifting to the narration that the second person pov weaves perfectly into. i'm obsessed with it. the way the metaphors tie in to the game?? god. 'the pressure here holds you close like whale oil packed into a firing cylinder, compressed and ready to combust.' i haven't stopped thinking about it ever.

[chemicalviolets]

novel post incoming!!!

anyone who came to my tumblr after seeing i might post about my novel i'm working on, i'm going to work on a very shaelin-bishop-inspired post where i break down the synopsis

the novel is very much in an unpolished state. i got 20k words into a draft and then decided i was unhappy with it.

i sat there and thought, "why can i write a novel length fanfiction but not finish my actual novel?" and came to the conclusion that (other than my paralyzing perfectionism), i find it easier bc the characters are already made and i can just start playing in a sandbox with premade people. so right now, i'm working on very very in-depth character sheets, very very slowly.

it also was initially in first person, and i decided last night to try third person bc i find that that comes easiest to me.

thank you to anyone who came from cicatrix and is interested in my personal project. i'm hoping that knowing that even one or two people would be interested in reading it will help me break past my fear. just gotta show up on the page :)

[thethcministry]

[rnainframe]

ittle

[smillingcartoonist]

Cicatrix

[raccoonfallsharder]

cicatrix.⋆☁︎:･꧂

chapter thirty-four. anderance. [NEW 7/8] ❤︎❤︎

18+ only | rocket x f!oc | 34/40+ | wip | wordcount: pending. masterlist, notes, & moodboard | navigation read chapter thirty-four. anderance. now ‬❤︎❤︎ warnings and art below.

NOTES: i really should have split this chapter into two for your sake, gentle reader. and for my sake. and for the sake of my goddamn posting schedule.

the crew moves on to the next mission.

Rocket swallows, and rolls his eyes. Carves the habitual defensiveness out of his voice — well, most of it, anyway — and tries to give the cyborg what’s left. “I mean, c’mon, Nebs. You don’t think we’re friends?” He wrangles out a limping smirk — not that he could say why it frickin’ stings so much. “I’m hurt.”

Nebula’s galaxy-dark eyes round out. Her mouth snaps shut — then opens again. Closes. She blinks rapidly, like there’s a glitch in her ocular moisture distribution programming. “Don’t be a dickhead,” she says at last, though her hoarse voice tilts into uncertainty. She shakes her head a little. “I should have you drop me off somewhere along the way. I’m Black Order. Thanos will—“ “You were Black Order.” It’s apparently pearl’s turn to speak the reminder into existence. Nebs scowls. “You said it first,” Rocket adds with an arched brow, leaning back and crossing his arms over his chest. Nebula’s rigid brow twitches — about as close as she can come to what Rocket would guess are her natural facial expressions, adapting around the vibranium orbital socket and countless other prosthetics hidden underneath her synthetic blue skin. The delicate hydraulic joint hidden in her jaw pulses as she clenches her teeth. Then her gaze hardens. “It’s been… nice,” she says at last, grudgingly. Her lip peels back like the words taste of salt and tar. “To… pretend.” A grimace, or maybe a flinch. “Foolish, but nice. However — ultimately — no-one truly ever leaves the Black Order.” There’s a slight hesitation in the stitch at the corner of her mouth. Her eyes flick away and she glowers out at the stars. “Even if they want to.” The words are a quiet, reluctant mutter that echoes against the crystalline-armored glass. Rocket’s mouth parts, but he hesitates — not sure what he can say that won’t make shit worse. “We will fight anyone who comes for you.” His ears flicker and his eyes round out as every head on the flightdeck swivels toward Drax. “Don’t go,” the Kylosian adds steadily. “You belong here.”

read more on ao3 | cicatrix masterlist & notes see warnings and art below.

a story about scars. two survivors learn about themselves, each other, hope, and the universe. a freakish little monster visits the high evolutionary’s bride on her wedding night. an adventure of intergalactic proportions ensues. aka raccoons make plans; the universe laughs.

ART: pearl’s character design | pearl & rocket’s bunk | heartspur scene | chapter one. nemotia. art by @/frostedwitch| rocket & pearl snuggle | adorable pearl x rocket selfie by @/starriidreams | sexy, evocative waterlily pearl x rocket painting by @/hibatasblog ♡ | rocket combs pearl's hair

WARNINGS for this chapter: angst, fluff, found family shit. rope-bondage, blindfolding, dirty-talk, begging, cunnilingus, tit-slapping, nipple-play, clit-play, edging, maybe a hint of dumbification.then a little more angst and a whole lotta fluff.

fluff ✮ | spice ✩ | some smut ❤︎‬ | much smut ❤︎‬❤︎‬ masterlist, notes, & moodboard | navigation

banners & rose dividers by @/saradika-graphics | pearl dividers by @/thecutestgrotto | moodboard by me!

[raccoonfallsharder]

not me wondering if i need to re-theme my cicatrix stuff ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ ‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚.

seriously check out @thecutestgrotto if you’re looking for dividers/watch their dividers end up taking over my blog eventually

🪸🦪🐚PEARLS🐚🦪🪸

Hi anon, here are your 🪸🦪🐚PEARLS🐚🦪🪸 and thank you for the giggle 🩵🌸

Pearls

[darthnell]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/56468752/chapters/160300765

cicatrix

. . viii . .

“Why did you vote against Alystra?”

The shuffling in the pantry slows to a stop.

[thethcministry]

[haemocyaninz]

Aint he cute?

[Image ID: A digital drawing of haemocyaninz’s oc, Hiro. Hiro is a man with light brown skin, long kinky curly light blue hair with braids framing his face, a curvy medium build, and a magenta scar on his stomach. He wears a aquamarine bra top with matching shorts and darker colored mary jane shoes. He also wears gold bangles and matching hooped earrings. Hiro smiles while winking as he sits criss crossed on the floor. End ID.]

[raccoonfallsharder]

WHEN I TELL YOU I CRIED

every time i see this. every fucking time. it's so gorgeous. it's so beautiful. the luminous pearls. his poor body. her gorgeous hair. the colors. the WATERLILIES (okay lotuses, still). his eyes. her lips. their expressions. his hand on her wrist. ahhhhhhhh

...also it's fucking hot

you are truly a treasure, a gift from the internet gods, a patron deity of paint and craft and creation, and i am so humbled and thankful to know you and to have miraculously fallen into your orbit. thank you for thinking of me, and for sharing with me, and for being my friend

｡･:*˚:𖥸:˚*:･｡

Happiest birthday to raccoonfallsharder! You are the best, and you deserve the moon and stars! In addition to being an amazing storyteller, they are a wonderful, kind, loving friend. I’ve benefited so much from knowing them. In honor of their special day is a gouache on fabric painting from their incredible story “Cicatrix.”

[smillingcartoonist]

Cicatrix