#edit: i'm not in the -posting server yet but i'm waiting for my invite

[wraithposting]

@plasmwraith-posting

hi! hello! you are cool looking! shiny. like me, but gold! very cool. that is all.

[thevoidstaredback]

So, the beginning of 2022, my friend invited me onto a Minecraft server with the intent to build a world and a story. We planned to invite friends (which we did) and record our adventure and post them on YT and TT and Twitch.

We have a single video up and it's the trailer that we filmed this year.

It took us (our build team of 7 people) four months to get the world designed and built.

We managed to record the first video three months ago, and now 1 of the main guys is ghosting everyone, another one won't go on without him, another has basically dropped off the grid, and the one actually editing the video and putting everything together won't post it to YT despite it being done. (She's waiting on the ghoster, but me and the other admins just told her to cut him out. Hell, I offered to voice over his parts!)

I (the only author in the group with posted works [fanfiction 100% counts]) was supposed to write the story, but that was given off to my sister (who was supposed to post the video months ago) by our main admin (the guy who invited me). She was also named the head of the build team (had me build a castle that our admin approved, told me it was too big, made me make another one, told me it was too small. I told her to shove it and that I'd take the castle and my other builds with me if she made me change it another time)

Am I salty? Very much so. I was the first to be added. I was supposed to write the story- I actually had six pages done before my sister was given the task! I was supposed to be on the build team, but apparently I either wasn't good enough or they didn't trust that I would stay to the aesthetic. I was also supposed to have a bigger part, but life got in the way, so that's on me.

Now, I'm just the back up for everyone, but they aren't even letting me do that! Instead, I get pity builds and 'does this make sense?' (not in a beta reader sense)

Also! I was supposed to oversee the accounts (like a manager or a mod) but that's also been given to someone else! (The accounts in question being YouTube, TikTok, Discord, I tried to convince them for Tumblr, and any other they wanted)

We restarted the server twice, sticking with the one we're on now. We've got the cast, the builds, and now no one can find time for anything because we scheduled it out weeks to months in advance, and yet no one marks it down.

At this point, I'm gonna learn how to draw (something I haven't even tried in 6 years), animate, and edit videos just so we actually have the content that we promised to put out 2 years ago!

Totally off topic: Is anyone willing to teach me how to draw humanoids, animate things, and/or edit videos? I can pay you in food (for now) (and possibly story commissions)

In other news, I have It's Raining Tacos stuck in my head

[themis-moved]

It hasn't been quite a year, but I looked back here and saw my last pinned post, and thought I might make another.

I was reading over my last pinned post and it's funny how much better things have gotten since then. I don't have the same job, I work somewhere else now, and it shows me how much better things can be. I was holding my head above the water with the last team I worked with, but now I have coworkers and managers that care about and support me.

Last time, I mentioned that my birthday had passed, and that just a small few friends came by for a little while but had to leave. I was happy for it but this year was so much better and it was what I had hoped for last year.

I had most of the same, I just invited my coworkers and friends to come hang out, have cake and food and such. A bunch of my coworkers came by and stayed well until 10 or 11 at night before everyone started heading home, and it was so much fun, and so fulfilling. It took 24 years but I finally have what I wished for all along: people that I can physically be with, that I have some kind of tangible love with. Life is full of hits-and-misses and attempted connections and bitter failures, but eventually you do get your chance. It was all worth it in the end.

I finished FFXIV, too, which is fun! Now I'm part of the crowd waiting with bated breath for the next expansion, but now that I have finished it, I find myself needing new ways to fill the time that used to be playing FF. I've picked up, played, and even finished some handful of games; Palworld, Vintage Story, a bit of Transistor, and the ever-beloved Sims. And in every game I play I find myself delightfully driven to create and write and join in on the world.

I managed to find and join a company in FFXIV that's focused on roleplay, and I've been having a lot of fun with Sye, but I've also created Takumi now too! They've got all their bits and pieces in motion, but aside from that, I also reached out to and joined an RP-focused Vintage Story server. It's been a lot of fun finally getting to indulge these things that I wanted to do for so long, but tried and failed so many times.

I've also been befriending my company mates, many of whom also love to write and draw and otherwise create. I got to read the draft of the first chapter of my friend's book; I am proofreading and editing for another one of them; and yet another has given me a link to their old D&D information for me to go read. I've made new friends, in and out of FFXIV, and even they have tons of amazing art and writing to share. Even in other games, like Vintage Story, I'm playing with friends and forming towns where we actually work together and delegate specific tasks to people who want to do them. It feels like all of the joys I experienced as a kid are finally being re-ignited in the best way possible.

I haven't written too much - if you don't count roleplay posts - but I have been indulging the ~egotistical~ love of my own voice. It's been fun making pseudo-audiobooks of the fics I've written and singing all of the songs that I love and getting to talk and laugh with my company mates and other friends.

All in all, I think I can say I'm happy with where my life is right now. I'll leave this with a pristine verse from Kristoff Krane this time:

Making love, making friends, no doubt I make a difference There's positive and negative effects of my decisions And although my dreams are selfish, I hope you can relate May my attempts at being honest resurrect the fact I'm fake

✎﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏﹏

Instead of albums, this time, I leave you with songs:

Passing Through - Kaden MacKay Thank You Energy - Kristoff Krane Doing My Thing - Kristoff Krane Knocking on Wood - Spose Okay - Atmosphere