#empty mind

[jammed-out]

“I’m a good doll.”

“I’m a good doll.” You repeated the phrase the machine told you. Even as you felt the memory of your tenth birthday ripped from your head you repeated the phrase. The toy buzzing inside of your drenched pussy pulling another empty orgasm from you as you stared blankly ahead at the wall.

“Good dolls are empty.”

“Good dolls are empty.” You repeated, the suction on your breasts increasing. You could feel the slight prick in your lips as they began to inflate again. You remembered how much they smaller they were with your first kiss, a memory quickly removed from your brain. You could feel the probes digging, searching in your mind for the last few remaining thoughts that still clung to who you were.

“Being empty makes me a good doll.”

“Being empty makes me a good doll.” The words felt hollow as you said them. You knew you were cumming, your body continuing to be modified, but it felt so far away now. You let the darkness swallow you up, the last shreds of yourself fading away, replaced by empty plastic.

“Good dolls wait to be played with.”

Soon you’d have a Master to play with you. And then they could fill you up all over again, with whatever they wanted you to be this time.

[calialice]

[kismetnyx]

Long time no see 🖤

[hypno-experiments]

break your brain until you are blank...

[howifeltabouthim]

Her mind, for once, was blessedly free of all thought.

Irina Reyn, from What Happened to Anna K.

[slipng]

I don't have any ideas for pngs for these days ˚｡𖦹

[glorbs-dominion]

Ponder the Glorb

It's Sunday, y'all! It's time to come and Ponder the great and mighty Glorb!

[enndycifra]

Sometimes A Enderman's Mindset Kicks In.

They're not that matured Enough to be full human mindset. Lol.

[mbti-notes]

Anon wrote: INFP, 26. I have a problem I don't know the origin of. (Prefacing this by saying I've always been this way but I don't want to keep pretending I can live like this anymore. It's limiting my life, the opportunities I can take and everything I could be.) So. Let's say I'm at a bar, someone jokes about something and the joke is either one of those you come up with on the spot or just a reference, a quote, a proverb - basically something people hear once and then in the right moment recall and say to make others laugh. Most people seem to have their own "mental library" with other references like that, so they're able to reply and start this ironic back and forth of puns, maybe doing wordplay or imagination games and just amusing each other until they're laughing. This happens pretty quickly and they literally have no hesitation at all. They come up with stuff, share it, bond over humor, strengthen their relationship. They have everything so neat and tidy in their heads, or so it seems to me. I don't.

First of all, I am not that fast. And this is probably not to say I'm not smart, my QI's supposed to be 135 or higher (I don't remember right now cause I took the test a while ago). It's just that my mind always feels empty (or maybe it's filled with the wrong things the entire time). I don't recall anything that quickly, it really takes me a while to even recall a name I've read online the day before, sometimes. I need to focus and it takes a lot of energy and social times are faster, nobody waits for me to come up with the words I can't recall.

Second, I don't have a mental library with references, quotes and sayings I can pick from to sound funny in conversations. It's always the same two or three, and just because I've heard them since childhood. Other people seem to constantly learn more, register more, with no limit.

I can also be pretty oblivious sometimes. For example, it's obvious to everyone that the guy is speaking in a serious tone but it's ironic - and I still think that was a serious speech.

People treat me like I'm an idiot because of this. They always have to explain things to me, even basic information about life, and they look down on me cause they can tell I don't memorize.

I struggle with memory even when it comes to learning simple notions about what interests me by myself (alone) and then recalling them in a group of people. By myself, I do just fine, I take my time and mostly remember. With other people, I end up looking ignorant about most topics cause my mind is empty. They're able to spit fun facts about this and that, even using numbers, stats, making connections - and I can't even remember the basic fact itself, even though I did read about it multiple times. Let alone stats.

Same thing happens with improvisation. During the holidays we tried a fun game where we had to improvise a funny character and everyone could instantly think of someone except me.

Someone suggested this might be autism, but I'm not sure since I've been to therapy and no one ever told me that. I can only add that I've always had a hard time making friends growing up, I used to read a lot when I was a kid and then because of bullying had a long period of depression, so I stopped enjoying my hobbies. I've just recently started feeling better after years of therapy, and I'm about to get medicated for ADHD (which it's confirmed I have).

I really wanna fix this, honestly, because it's starting to impact my mental health and I still struggle to make and keep friendships since I'm not fast enough to participate or open up. I don't feel seen because I don't express my internal world fast enough for me to actually get some screen time. In the end, people tend to gravitate around each other more and ignore me. l'm definitely gonna talk about this with my therapist once the ADHD meds process is over, but what do you suggest? Even just a little practical advice would help a lot. I'm, like, miserable. Thank you.

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While it's possible that there is a neurological explanation for this matter (such as ADHD, depression, or autism), I'm not really in a position to confirm that for you. What I can do is set aside extraneous possibilities for a moment and look only at the data as it pertains to personality type. This may or may not help you, but it could open up a door for getting one step closer to discovering the root causes.

Since this matter is directly related to the way your mind works, there should be plenty of evidence of each cognitive function in the stack doing wonky things. From there, I would normally provide some practical advice about how to use the functions more optimally.

However, in your case, I don't see the functions doing the wonky things I expect to see. Rather, there is a complete absence of certain function activity. This gives me great pause. When the description of a psychological issue doesn't align properly with the personality type someone claims to be, then the first possibility to consider is that they are mistyped. You will have to explain to me how you came to conclude you are INFP. Just so you know, it is quite common for ISFPs, ISFJs, INFJs to mistype as INFP.

Even if I were to proceed under the assumption that you are INFP in hypothetical terms, I would still struggle to think of suggestions for function development because you seem to lack the basic building blocks of Fi, Ne, and Si from which to make a start. Taking ADHD back into consideration doesn't help much, either. I've worked with a number of INFPs with ADHD and they normally suffer from unhealthy Ne, which generally presents as a mind that is too messy due to being too full - not empty - the opposite problem from yours.

I take mistypes very seriously because this blog is specifically about type development. I have experience working on type development with people, including people who were mistyped, so I can tell you that trying to develop the wrong functions can produce very negative effects. It basically means operating with a false self-image, which has the potential to damage self-esteem. It's important to exercise an abundance of caution and avoid harm. I can't in good conscience suggest things that might ultimately send you in the wrong direction.

If you would like for me to continue helping you, the first thing you need to do is submit a thorough type assessment (by following the instructions on the contact page). The process would allow me to understand exactly how your mind works and then connect how you normally use functions to this specific matter at hand. Until then, my ability to help is very limited.

I understand this matter upsets you and you want nothing more than to fit in and feel normal. But psychology can be complex and it sometimes takes many steps to unravel a problem and understand it. To help you properly, I have to be able to determine where exactly your true potential lies, which means I have to consider the possibility that your social strengths lie elsewhere. I'm not yet convinced that the INFP growth trajectory is the right path.

The only practical advice I can leave you with at this point is: Exercise more intellectual curiosity. This shouldn't be a problem if you are indeed N. Broaden your horizons by taking up more interests, seeking out new experiences, learning more about the world, caring about important causes... and gradually build a stronger foundation of knowledge. From there, you should be able to contribute better during social interactions. To put it simply, the remedy to an empty mind is to start filling it.

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EDIT: An anonymous reader wrote in and requested I pass along a message, which I will present without comment for OP's consideration:

Message for the maybe-INFP anon with empty mind: You're not alone, I have adhd and struggle with a similar (INFJ). Social situations move too fast for me-- a relevant joke or anecdote comes to me too late. I miss the real meaning of words, not recognising tone, irony, or implications because I process things slowly. And my memory is unreliable, so I don't recall enough info to engage. Once, I forgot what the street I lived on looked like; things don't always stick. Draining despite being "empty".

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[kismetnyx]

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[crmsnmth]

The Quiet

It's in the quiet, when I let my mind revel in the silence The voices quiet, the anxiety briefly sleeping And for five minutes, I am at peace

There were no thoughts of you Every memory too sluggish to try No visions of the shape of your body My hands always loved your curves

There was no whispers unintelligible No chorus of voices speaking on top of each other The fog I've some to call my home Is lifted and ascends up to become god's problem

It's in the quiet where my thoughts slow to a crawl instead of the racing emergency ticker tape warnings I'm always forced to read and only in the quiet do I ever get to see what it says Turns out it was never anything to think about at all

There's no thoughts of friends passed The coffin look just doesn't sit well As much as I love them, I want to forget them Somethings just don't get second chances.

There's nothing at all, not a single thought A dry and barren desert lake bed Sleep here with my head on the dried cracked mud Let the vultures come to have their meal

It's in the quiet, when for five minutes I am at peace.

[hellishbpd]

Forevermore carrying the heaviness of dead eyes

[enndycifra]

My Main Character Patiently Waiting for More Ask Until He Can Answer them:

[mindfullbutheadempty]

what do you all do to beat writer's block?