#figuring stuff out

[dol-dee]

woe, lore accurate Dee be upon ye

[connie-thoughts]

personal pronouns question

as i have become more introspective, I have noted that my inclination is to use we/us/our for myself, especially when talking to myself? and I think the only reason I might ever use singular pronouns is habit? at what point is that an Actual Thing in my brain that I should acknowledge and start putting in bios or smth?

[bramblywitch]

I want to have an interfaith practice of both Judaism and paganism, but I’m still trying to figure out how to combine them and when it comes to religious stuff, I generally gravitate towards Judaism more than paganism these days. 🤔🤷🏻‍♀️

I was raised in an interfaith household (mostly Catholicism with some Judaism since I’m both ethnically & religiously Jewish on my mom’s side of the family). I have always had a deeper connection to Judaism even in childhood (my favorite holiday has always been Hanukkah, though I also enjoyed Christmas when I was a girl - I used to turn all the figures in Nativity scenes to face the baby Jesus figure and then I would steal and carry around the baby Jesus figure for some reason 😂).

I stopped believing in Catholicism when I was a teenager and so stopped going to church and reading my Bible. I also thought that Christianity was very hypocritical. I initially found paganism while I was in college after having seen the first MCU Thor movie a lot (I already knew of some mythology, mostly Greek, before this and at the time Marvel movies were my current Autistic special interest. Also, hilariously enough, I went to a Catholic college since it was the only college I had applied to! 😂) and after researching different religions to be sure of what I wanted my religious practice to be. I had wanted to get as far from Christianity as I could religiously, so I also avoided any other, for lack of a better word here, Abrahamic faiths, which sadly included Judaism despite my deep love and connection with that particular faith, because I was a teenager then and so that made sense to me at the time (and now that I think of this now, it might have also partly been from teenage rebellion as well). I even got a few tattoos of Norse runes for the gods (I don’t regret the tattoos because regardless of my religious practice, I am still generally interested in mythology).

Practicing paganism was fun and spiritually fulfilling for a long time until I tried to do way too much at one time and overwhelmed myself so I stopped practicing paganism around the start of the pandemic. I reconnected with Judaism at this point and loved it! I eventually reconnected with Christianity and so I tried to have an interfaith practice with Judaism & Christianity. It worked for a bit, but then I eventually tried just Christianity for a period of time and bought a Bible and a rosary again for the first time in years and it was nice for a while, but even then it still didn’t feel completely right for me since there were things in Christianity that didn’t make sense to me (original sin; Jesus being both human and the son of God and basically God all at the same time), so I stopped that, and donated my Bible & rosary (I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder & OCD, so I overthink things a lot).

I missed paganism though, so I tried again with practicing paganism which was working well for a while. I also missed practicing Judaism, so I decided to try again with an interfaith practice of both paganism and Judaism. This also worked for a little bit, but it was still kind of hard to combine them.

I eventually stopped and practiced only Judaism, but kept thinking about going back to paganism again. I’ve also been practicing witchcraft for several years as well, so I do still get paganism things for that.

I still think about trying again with having an interfaith paganism and Judaism practice, but I don’t want to overwhelm myself again, especially with the paganism. I would like to be more religious, but am unsure which religious practice to do: Judaism, paganism, or interfaith of both. As I said at the beginning of this post, nowadays I gravitate more towards Judaism than paganism and I feel that Judaism is more spiritually fulfilling for me personally. 🤔🤷🏻‍♀️

[spiltsoup]

JLD girlfailure typecasts never change please

[bittyfromquotev]

Yeah that sounds pretty normal! (As something like this can be haha) sometimes you just feel like you’re a character from a media and that’s okay!

Alright, cool!

Thanks for the help lol/gen

[infinit8ion]

Tracks bursting through the floor of a house like veins upon ancient hands and the vessel they carry is a long and circumstantial womb whose blood inspires the lungs of the mind. And a singular gill emerges on your face, rippling over your nose, split open like a delightful wound and shining like the eyebeam of a Train. The perennial curtain of the Party obfuscates the presence of a Serpent in our midst; siphoning our memories away and incubating its own parasitic brood under the stairs.

[confetti-critter]

I think what gets me about all that is the lack of respect. It's just like when ppl take my stuff without giving it back, or leave their boxcutters open even though I've asked them not to, and other little things at work and out in the rest of the world that chip away at me and make me so reactive in this way.

If I was a dude I'd have little man syndrome and if I was a straight woman I'd....well I'd be like the rest of my coworkers.

But heres the thing, do I give them enough respect? Or do I have it in my head that they are in the wrong so I disregard their feelings+stuff?

Either way, acting like this is not a cute look, and it's that kind of stuff that makes stereotypical Karen's act how they act (well that+an added dash of racism), and finding myself close to that realm as a white tme person is disconcerting and shameful.

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[morganbritton132]

No one tells you when you get a Big Serious Job™ how many fucking abbreviations you’ll be forced to learn.

[dr-vintura-o-serif]

Serious question:

What is the term called when you find certain “members” of different “teams” super attractive & think that they would be a good partner in a romantic or sexual relationship. But you have no desire to be in said relationship neither romantic or sexual.

I’m still trying to figure out everything in the LGBTQ+ community (grew up in a very “religious” household if you catch my drift). So I’m very late to learning about the community & trying to figure myself out, & also create characters that correctly represent these different orientations & terminology.

So if this comes off as offensive to anyone, again still trying to learn & will gladly take any criticism to correct myself.

[thelostmoongazer]

i was gonna do more with this but i think this is about as far as ill go. maybe. who knows. happy late valentines <3

[bittyfromquotev]

I guess identity is wonky, relating to a character and seeing yourself as them doesn’t always = dissociative disorder.

For this I’d ask if there was a significant disconnect between say “Bitty” and “(Character name)”. Like does it feel like those are two separate entities? When you feel like you’re this character that you actually lived through source memories or have source memories?

A big important thing to keep in mind with these things is a person could share atleast one symptom with every mental disorder out there but that doesn’t mean they have every single one. Like I for a while questioned if I had OCD. But upon talking it out with my therapist I just have obsession issues.

Personality disorders also affect a person’s sense of self! Lots and lots of factors at play haha.

A more silly way to find out if you have a fictive is having a outside person who knows source information talked to them. The old reliable “Hiiiiii (Insert name)!!!!! How do you feel about ___??!!” And if there’s a answer heard back then that’s conframation! Though I don’t recommend using this for 100% proof haha

Right! That’s why I’m not jumping to conclusions lmao

But, taking this all into account, I’m going to try and explain how this feels below:

Okay, so let’s say that I am “Bitty”. “Bitty” is the person I’ve been since birth, or being able to comprehend being alive.

However, [real name] is also me. I like my name, and it’s a part of my identity. Who I am.

Lately, however, this character thing is weird. Because they don’t necessarily feel like a whole different person, but they feel separate from me, “Bitty”.

Basically it’s like:

Bitty = Me

[Real Name] + Sonic = Whatever The Fuck Is Going On

and I feel like both at the same time

EDIT: another way to describe it is like an actor in a play. You have to be in character, but outside of rehearsals you can never really BE that character.

Like, you ARE that character, but you’re really not? Idk how else to describe it

[wishfulsketching]

So. All this to tell the idea "shimmer is used as a medicine that helps patients in critical condition to survive their surgeries". It's very regulated and Silco's ass is in the line if anyone abuses shimmer.

I also wanted to tie some scenes/lines etc from season 1 to the Alternative Universe. And make Silco a bit more, well, Silco but with the AU vibe. I am also not letting Singed go, he is gonna be helping Silco and getting something in return. Maybe the kids are gonna try to build Orianna her body. Also, whatever the universe, Singed will burn his face. No timeline will save him. He is just like that.

Vander almost lost half his family in one day.

This is like a regular fanfic. Just with pictures. Nothing deeper than that.

Happy one week of zaundads insanity!

[tearlessrain]

please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!

gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.

SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:

diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.

non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.

the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.

now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.

if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.

if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.

this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.

it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.

but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.

[lintufriikki]

he's all ears 💙