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katjohnadams · 2 days ago
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Fuck it we ball.
I grew up "big". I was only 5'4" by sixteen and about 225 pounds in pretty ungainly teenage ways. And honestly? That would have been enough to be almost shamed from existence in highschool, but add on facial hair that was more than peach fuzz that started growing in at twelve, and the tournament was basically the background radiation of my life.
I wasn't bullied much. I was, sure, but not that much. But I was excluded. I was ignored. It didn't matter if I tried to sit with popular kids, or the outcast, no one listened to me anyway. So I threw myself into my education. Not because I was "gonna prove them wrong," but because what else was I gonna do? My family couldn't afford a gaming PC or new consoles. I went to school, I went home. I did school work. I read.
Day in, day out.
Maybe I should have been miserable. But I want. I wasn't unhappy, I wasn't happy. I just... Existed. Because that was the default.
Summers were the worst. I got summer jobs and it was. Fine. But I just wanted to go back to classes where I wasn't expected to be noticed, just do my work and go home.
Senior year, I took shop, mostly because I was running out of electives, and it was like a shot of espresso in my heart. I was making things, and doing well. I tore through every resource the teacher had for us and then went looking for more. And people left me alone, they let me just do something I finally wanted to do. Ms. Louise encouraged me and I was... Happy.
But there was a cloud coming over the horizon. Graduation.
When I graduated, shop would be over. I could go to college, sure. Probably community because my grades were good, but not "full ride" good, and my family sure as hell couldn't afford much more. And that has been gone. Until I had started working with my hands.
I broke down one day, and had the sense to turn off the large and step back from the spindle of death. Ms. Louise pulled me aside to talk. There was a long talk where I spilled my guts all over her desk and she listened with compassion, but then took my hand and said, "So why stop?"
I left school with the info for five local makerspaces. Places where people just went to fulfill their desire to create with their hands. People like me. Where it wasn't about being hot or wearing something expensive, but being excited about projects for the sake of projects.
I saw the car lose control. All I could think was, "Well. Shit."
The voices came from the doom space around me. "Where did you find her?"
"In Hroth's chamber, twelfth tunnel, fourth intersection, branch A."
"Hmmm. Her beard is poorly developed. Probably a child. But she's so tall!"
"Shhh! She's walking!"
I opened my eyes fully and fear gripped me. I was in some sort of medieval room, on a padded cot, surrounded by a half dozen Dwarves. Actual dwarves. Like, fucking DnD dwarves. I froze and I felt a scream boil up behind my eyes and then fizzle and die.
"Hoi, lass. Where are you from? Your clothes are of a clan we don't recognize and you were deep in our mines. How did you get so far unseen? Why are you here? What are you up to?"
Another dwarf, with a sweeter voice, shushed him(?). "Stop, Perlin. She's clearly no spy or saboteur. This is a child and she's terrified. Gently now."
Perlin crossed his stocky arms and grunted in dissatisfaction. The kinder voice approached and she (?) laid a solid hand gently on the edge of the cot. "Lass, you looked half dead when Mojn found you. You've been asleep for seven shifts. Do you remember your name? Let's start there."
I took several slow breaths. I was confused. Scared. And... No, just those, actually. Very much those, actually. And my mouth and throat were parched. But I managed to force out a quiet whisper. "Patricia. Patty."
The dwarf looked at me oddly. "Patricia? I don't know that clan. But we'll see if we can figure out where they are, Patty. We'll try to get you home, I promise." The misunderstanding might have been funny if sheer panic hadn't turned my thoughts into glue. "I'm Mavel, that lout is Perlin. Mojn over there is the one who found you. He's checked on you every shift since, too. Lijm over there has been your doctor and Rokuhama is her nurse. And that's Umbaja. He's just nosey and shouldn't be here."
I started at each person in turn, and then shook my head hard, hoping to wake up. The car. I was hit by the car and I'm in a coma and dreaming. I turned away from them all and tried to wake up. I don't know how to do that, but I tried.
It didn't work.
"Lass? Are you okay?"
"Where am I?" I guess they couldn't really understand my hoarse voice because Mavel instead of answering me, handed me a cup of water. I drank, the water tasting better than it ever had before, and then looked at the cup. It was stone, intricately carved, the flecks of minerals in the stone integrated into the design. I started at it for a moment before handing it back. "Where am I?" I repeated, much more clearly now."
Mavel opened her mouth but Perlin spoke first. "You are in the Dammerthauo Hold of King Enteron. Specifically the second hospital. Why do you not know that?" His eyes spoke accusations he left inside.
"I don't know that because this isn't real, I'm just having an insane dream, and when I come out of the coma I won't remember any of this, so take your attitude and stuff it."
The faces around me were mostly startled, save for Mavel, who grinned widely. "Girl, if you can keep that much force in your spirit, you'll be fine."
After several months had passed, I learned to at least partly accept this was no comatose dream. Maybe. Maybe I just wanted it not to be. This place, Dammerthauo Hold, was amazing. At 5'4" I towards over the people around me - for the first time in my life I was ducking to go through doors and people looked up to me.
But figuratively and literally.
All my shop time was coming in handy. The dwarves were kind and helpful, but mostly kept to their own work. They were so independent in many ways, and communal in others. So it surprised them when I began asking about the work they were doing, offering ideas, sharing thoughts. But they seemed to appreciate it, and so when I was given permission to spend time in the workshops, dwarves would approach me and we'd talk about the work.
I learned that there isn't a difference between women and men as dwarves. They had different reproductive organs, but gender was more about how "fancy" you wanted to be - usually. Most men adorned themselves with ornate jewelry and clothes when not working, but there were exceptions. And I'm the shop, everyone wore simple, practical clothes and skipped the jewelry.
I did just adopt the name "Patricia Patty." It was funny and I just didn't feel like correcting anyone after Mavel introduced me to King Enteron with it.
Enteron shocked me. I expected maybe a young, handsome Disney character or a wise old man from Lord of the Rings. What I got was a scrawny nerd buried in paperwork. Apparently being an accountant is a prerequisite to being elected to the throne here, which made sense since the whole of the Hold's culture was based on trade for goods the mines couldn't produce.
By the time I was 23, I'd noticed a lot of new attention aimed my way. The dwarven men and women seemed to be fascinated by my height, my growing muscle from spending entire days in the workshop, the ideas I was bringing from ship and reading 21st century books, though they did gently chide me that I couldn't grow a "proper" beard.
Apparently this was becoming somewhat of an issue as crafters and miners alike started to push themselves harder to get my attention with their skills. I say "apparently" because none of the patients Lijm was treating for work mistakes would account it was because they were trying to catch my eye, but she was sure (and annoyed) at the same time.
Part 1/?
Stop me if you hate the concept: short, fat, hairy lady gets isakai'd into a high fantasy, and instead of "oh look at all these ethereal elves woe for I am but a flawed mortal" routine she lands in Dwarf territory and is immediately revered as the most enchanting and desirable maid in all the land. This immediately becomes a zesty romantic drama. Thoughts
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if-underourskins · 2 days ago
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no one asked for this but i am delivering this anyway because i was thinking about weddings:
"what kind of wedding would the ROs want?"
Victoria wants a wedding like the one her parents had. Her father had let her mother to decorate it all, and the event had ended up with a lot of white lace drapes and beautiful flower arrangements. It's something that her mother obviously loved and something that she had shown Victoria throughout her childhood, and it's left an impact. Blaine would want a simple wedding – and though she/ he'd enjoy a ceremony, it isn't a requirement for her/ him at all; the important part is that she/ he is promising to be with you for the rest of her/ his life and committing to you. If you wished for something bigger however, Blaine would not entirely object, though you'd probably have to be the one to plan it. Elexis would want one where the both of you invited your closest friends and family to celebrate. He doesn't want it too big – it could end up being overwhelming – and he'd be happy to spend the day just being by your side as you celebrate with your close ones. (+ it's not like you know a bunch of people to invite lol) Seraph... didn't think they'd make it to marriage. Honestly, it scares them a little when they were out considering rings, trying to find the best one; they were terrified of messing up. Still, it is a reasonable next step and if it'd make you happy, Seraph would throw you the biggest, most grandiose wedding ever. Brooks hadn't thought about this before, not really. He knew that marriage was a thing and he wanted it – he just never got to the stage where he considered marrying someone, y'know? If he really thought about what he wanted however, he'd probably prefer it to be a beach wedding, or maybe in a resort next to the beach, if you'd hate for the sand to get everywhere.
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theduckboy · 2 months ago
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Can you please make Tim do the Miku dance?
yeah i got you
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mymarifae · 2 months ago
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guys twitter dot com doesn't like when you criticize toriel's parenting decisions. don't do it
#made a thread talking about the end of ch4 and both kris and susie's VISCERAL discomfort with drunk tori#and also made a few replies talking about how she repeatedly checked out that book about caring for humans#taking an over-generalization of humans to tell her what her kid needs instead of the actual kid#and the fact that she hasn't even attempted to help them brighten up their side of the bedroom..?#OR CLEAN UP THAT BLOOD STAIN IT IS ABSURD THAT SUSIE'S THE ONE WHO ENDS UP DOING IT.#and the fact tjat in ch2 she was just kinda like oh kris vanishes sometimes....... it's just a kris thing#and she didn't even knock on the bathroom door and ask (no one since they left but she didn't know that) if they were okay#in game time her tires got slashed yesterday and it unnerved her enough that she didn't want to let susie walk home#but chapter 4 she like completely forgets she has a child#kris goes radio silent until LATE into the night and she just doesn't notice. too busy drinking and dancing with sans#THAT fucks me up!#the game is not subtle about the idea that toriel and asgore have not been meeting kris's needs for a long time#but no one liked me pointing that out 😔.#asgore is just kind of a fucking disaster in this game i'm scared of him honestly#and toriel... i see that she's trying but she's also not?#there are a lot of things she overlooks because she doesn't know what to do and i understand that#but i don't think it's an excuse. as a parent it is her job to figure out what to do#and i can immediately see dozens of things she could be trying to do differently but she doesn't try them#she's a flawed person! sorry!#deltarune spoilers#for my tags my bad
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heyimkana · 3 months ago
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hello!! i hope you're doing well :D i have a question that may be rather personal so please feel free to ignore me. i think it's so inspiring that you're a mother and a wife and you still dedicate your hard work to fanfics and fandom!! there's this idea that such things are 'girlish' and frivolous, and that adults especially shouldn't be doing such things. have you ever felt that way? what would u say to those who think this? i can't wait to be a mother to sweet and brave girls, and to hopefully have a kind and strong husband. for some reason, when i read ur blog, i feel very hopeful that i will achieve this dream. love you <333
awww babe this ask is totally okay! thank you for asking me this 🩷
honestly i wish there are more people like you in the fandom (anime, k-pop, or any fandom really) because from what i've seen so far, there are quite a lot of young people who think that when you're already past 30, you're not allowed to have fun anymore. It's like suddenly you're too old to obsess over fictional characters, or even talk about it
and that saddens me because I know for certain that when I was younger, a lot of amazing fanfics that I read were written by people who were much older than me. like you can immediately tell when a fanfic is written by someone in high school and when it's written by someone who has actual experiences in life, or in love and it's not because they write better, it's because they write it from their own stories. it always feels so raw, so grounded, so relatable, and i genuinely felt so grateful for all the older generation in the fandom for making those masterpieces for younger people to enjoy. and I wish more people could think about it the same way.
i am happy to be one of those people now (even if my writing isn't as good). I'm happy that people come into my inbox to share their ideas with me, and that they want to hear my opinions on it. nothing makes me feel more grateful and satisfied than the feeling that i got when someone said they loved my version of jinwoo, or made them fall harder for him because of my writings.
solo leveling (or anime in general) is something that i love and my husband often watches the same show i watch. he's also a jinwoo fanboy (he's read the manhwa twice even a year before the anime came out) so we talk about it a lot and it's just SO, SOOOOO FUN when you get to live together with someone that you love and watch your favorite show together and then you tell your kids "look this is mommy's superhero" and they get all "omg what can he do? 🥺" and you're like "oh he can summon a shadow army and one of them is a giant ant who talks all weird and funny" and they're like "wooow 😮" i'm enjoying my life so much and i hope you'll find a partner like that too one day nonnie 🥰
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joykisser · 11 months ago
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I JUST REWATCHED PIWON MOVIE AND I HAVE THINGS TO SAY
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#okay first of all THEY DEBUTED WITH A MOVIE !!!! that's so crazy every time i think about it im like woooow#jongseob and intak acting debut when ???? they were sooo good omg unlike kyo i didn't remember how bad he was 😭😭 but his#character is hilarious so it's fine <3 ALSO i completely forgot yoo jaesuk and jung haein are in it like guysss what are u doing here hihi#anyways absolutely oscar worthy real cinema if u ask me#now after taking notes and watching the new trailer a few times i think that p1epi is actually chaeyoons weird talking plushie#but since it's away from her it can't talk so that's why jongseob create that thingy to translate from#dog language to human language and i think it's there because maybe the members got like lost in time and#it wants to remind them that they have to save the entire world from the apocalypse#also p1epi came down from the sky just like the alcot meteor like ummm yes we love symbolism 🙂‍↕️#i saw someone saying the dog it's actually intak because the dog came through the window and intak wakes up next to one but it doesn't make#any sense to me so we're throwing that idea in the trash can#talking about intak hes now has blue eyes so that means he got infected but honestly when did that happen while he was fighting#some zombie? idk i think i have to watch all their mvs again for clues but what that means he's one of the bad guy now??#also i may be insane but what if the shop represents the world and seeing it in flames means the members couldn't save it and their lore#ends with the saddest ending ever like yeah sorry the apocalypse won#OR WHAT IF !!!!! they aren't the ones who can save the world they actually are the reason why it's ending like the masked ghost#actually created them to spread the virus and that would also explain them at the end of the trailer looking#at the burning shop without doing anything like they ARE alcot the meteor thats gonna destroy the world#but that would be too dark i know they're the heroes so it will have a happy ending#i have many theories but im starting to scare myself so ill shut up#pt
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pollen · 10 months ago
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hi fellow neurodivergent people
i hate to jump on the "i think i might have adhd" bandwagon, but if i think i might have adhd, how do i bring it up to my care team as a 28-year-old cis woman who was a massive overachiever until i couldn't keep up the ruse anymore?
#idk what happened when i got laid off it seriously is like my brain BROKE i cannot do anything#i have not done much of anything in a year. and i think it's bc my coping mechanisms were 1. self-medicate but ESPECIALLY do that while#2. overcommitting. because it kept me busy and distracted. i excelled in school because i could focus on it without it giving me anxiety#school was honestly almost the only thing that didn't give me anxiety as a kid. and i never felt quite Right like i didn't feel like i fit#in with my peers. i've always felt like a human being that isn't a person. like something's not quite right. i excel but i feel like i'm#doing it wrong because it's SO hard for me. i graduated my BA and BS programs with a 4.0#but it came with the cost of alienating all of my friends and family and becoming really reclusive and weird and distant and anxious#but i really just wanted to do well at the one thing i felt i was good at. which doesn't seem like something i should take note of#idk. my life feels like a claustrophobic box. i feel like i'm buried alive and i can't get myself out because i can't work#because i can't focus. but maybe i'm just stupid and lazy and want everyone to take care of me forever so i can continue laying around doin#fuck all. which i do a lot because i'm chronically ill. idk. like is there ground to stand on here. i literally have zero friends rn#and i feel so so so sos so anxious any time i am working because i worry i'm going to do something wrong or forget to do something or make#lots of mistakes that get me in trouble. i'm so scared of making mistakes it keeps me from doing anything at all. but i get so anxious bc#i'm not doing anything! i'm wasting time! and i can't focus on anything when i AM working because i have to get up and pace#like i HAVE to move around or i start to feel like i need to peel my skin off like i'm an orange#like. is it anything at all. or is this just me being someone who has Other Stuff going on
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hauntingseashells · 7 months ago
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Ranchers Pokémon AU — Character Roles
Jimmy is the owner of the nursery in the Wild Area! He's also the only human working there. He mainly takes care of wild pokémon due to his location, though he won't turn down trainers either.
Tango is the fire gym leader, though he does engineering work whenever the gym's not busy (the gym's almost always busy). If people didn't take him serious for his contributions to Motostoke, they take him serious for his strength in battle.
Bdubs is the grass gym leader who seems to prioritise his sleeping hours over his gym job. Because of that, the gym has the most scattered open hours out of all the gyms in the challenge.
Scott is the water gym leader, and a constant hot topic. After all, everyone knows he's too strong to be the second gym leader in the challenge. Why would he give up a higher position that easily?
Joel is the fighting gym leader who shares his gym with Etho, running it during the day. Despite the fact his strategies are pretty predictable people still struggle to beat him — beating raw strength is easier said than done.
Etho is the ghost gym leader who shares his gym with Joel, running it during the night. He's a pretty mysterious guy to the public, barely seen outside of his gym.
BigB is the fairy gym leader, despite the fact he's one of the last leaders people have to face, he's pretty unknown. Most people who do know about him however know his fights are more than just fights — they're shows full of effects, BigB knows how to make his pokémon and their moves shine.
Grian is the flying gym leader sharing a gym with Scar, handling the non-fighting part of being a gym leader for the most part. Sometimes he'll sub in for Scar, sometimes he'll fight alongside Scar.
Scar is the ground gym leader sharing a gym with Grian, handling the battling most of the time. He loves dragging Grian out of his office to fight challengers together, though sometimes Grian has to drag him off the battlefield so he doesn't overwork himself — his disability is something he tends to forget about in the heat of battle.
Cleo is the dark gym leader, previously studying pokémon but realised battling was more their thing early on. They manage to make Spikemuth feel more welcoming to residents and visitors alike, and they're a greatly respected gym leader and person in general.
Ren is the dragon gym leader, because who fits better in the castle of Hammerlocke than a king? Despite being the last leader in the challenge, most challengers don't fear fighting against him — his battles are so full of theatrics you'll be too amazed by everything to be scared.
Martyn is a dragon gym trainer, despite his strength. Word has it he's capable of taking over the gym or becoming the next champion, but he seems happy working under his king.
Pearl is the current champion of Galar, yet many doubt how much she actually deserves that position. Many, including Pearl herself, underestimate just how strong Pearl is, both as a trainer and a person.
Impulse is an engineer working to maintain Motostoke's mechanisms, and a close friend of Tango's. Known to overwork himself to make sure everything is perfect, his work is good but he lacks the ability to take care of himself.
Skizz is a pokémon professor helping new trainers get started alongside researching pokémon and the region of Galar, and another close friend of Tango's. A man of many abilities, he helps out with the gym challenge, resolving any possible problem or conflict that may arise for challengers. While less of a mechanical guy, he helps Impulse carry stuff around so the latter can do his job — though Skizz will also remind him to stop working and take a break.
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adore-gregor · 7 months ago
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#holidays have not been what i hoped for so far 😔😔#well the first week was good but then i got sick 😭#and it's been so awful#having a cough is literally the worst i couldn't sleep it was so bad#and i couldn't even enjoy doing anything really because you can't properly focus on the thing bc ur coughing non stop#i hate it sm#and today it was gone all day only that now it is back altough not as bad as before but still#it always gets worse in the evening#like help i just want this to end#what made it even worse i had real plans to study and now i barely got anything done 😭😭#and now i'm scared for exams bc i couldn't follow the plan altough i still have more than 2 and 3 weeks left#in my mind i already think i'm gonna do badly bc i need to study more i'm afraid#and i'm also upset at myself even though it's not my fault i got sick but i keep thinking i still could have done more ughh#to make it even worse i coudn't play tennis for a whole week and i was so looking forward to playing everyday (and improving) 😢😢#i couldn't do any sports or see anyone i miss it sm#i hope at least in the new year i can do stuff again 🥺#it was just the worst cold/flu and idk why whenever i get it it's that extreme 😵‍💫#or idk is it normal that you can't sleep bc of it ... i just don't wanna get sick again ever lmao it's the worst#i guess christmas was still nice it wasn't that bad then and it was a lovely day with my family :)#and our tree was really pretty this year and i'm really happy with my gifts and also those i gifted 🥰#the week before was good i did play lots of tennis and i went on a christmas market with uni friend and to vienna for a trip with my mom ^^#but maybe it was too much sometimes i wonder if i do something wrong or if it is just bad luck like i did train a lot#and i played a tennis match for my club and won against a higher ranked opponent so yay 😁#and i played really well i feel like i once again really improved my level :)) but i did play kinda sick already so maybe that was rly bad😅#maybe i should stop doing that 😅 but i didn't know it's gonna get this bad i just had the worst headache and sore throat#well ig i should have known but i also always feel like i have to play and i love matches and like my team needs me?#who else would have won that? i'm one of the best at my team and the others who are rly good weren't there that day so i felt responsible 😅#honestly my mom possibly she is also quite good but it would have been close and i wasn't sure so i played 😅#but i have done this too often by now... playing sick i really can't help myself 🤦‍♀️
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tardis--dreams · 10 months ago
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Me panicking because i have 9 missed calls and 5 emails talking about my absence and how "a colleague could take over for me" vs. Me knowing it's really not that important no matter how pushy a client is and that on top of it I'm underpaid and have way to much overtime so i shouldn't even care
#i have 14 hours overtime#collected within 2 weeks lol#you know how it's apparently mandatory for companies in germany to have a way track employees working time? yeah we're#the only company in the whole fucking country who doesn't do that (obviously that's not true there's probably plenty more but it's#still not right.) so we don't get paid overtime nor does it get acknowledged in any way#so technically we're not allowed to even it out (which most people try to do anyway because tf do they think they are asking us to work for#free) but I'm dedicated to not collect any more unpaid working hours so i take the liberty to leave work early this week#so today i left at 12pm (and then got home 4 hours later because another person decided to kill themselves by train. they should call me#first. or anyone else taking the train. I'm sure there'd be plenty of volunteers to do the killing if it means not another miserable day#stuck in a disgusting train). and i logged in again at 6pm today to see if i have anything important messages (stupid i know)#and i saw the missed calls and that there had been an email exchange with me in the cc talking about the 'changes' made in one of the#articles and that someone else could do that for me since i couldn't be reached and at first i felt ashamed and scared#but now it's honestly just pissing me off. that asshole can't write emails and communicate requests like normal people can he#he already called me last week about something completely stupid and acts like his matters are the most important shit in the world#fuck you if you can't wait one day you should have sent this a month earlier because i won't stay online everyday#just to see if there might be an 'important' change you want me to make Immediately. bitch.#also missed two calls from my colleague but she didn't send any messages about what she wanted so i asked her because i felt bad for not#being online and turns out she wanted Nothing. just hear how i was. JUST TEXT ME THEN???? I HATE IT HERE FUCK YOU#seriously i don't get paid enough for this to bother me so much. she probably gets 12-15€ more than me per hour#of course she doesn't care about her overtime as much as i do. i get minimum wage which is less than what I'd get if i still worked at uni#as a student assistant so fuck this shit it's really not important or worth it. from now on i'll only put in minimum effort too#sorry got carried away. rant over now i guess#void screams#work stuff
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carbonbasedmatter · 1 year ago
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they should give you a minimum 20 years after coming back from school to rest and process everything that happened
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bumblingbeezzz · 11 months ago
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Yeah unfortunately "autistic" IS now what many awful people use to mean "irredeemable failure"/"stupid"/"weird"/"unapproachable"/"socially inept" nowadays. So even that may not help.
Especially sucks when you see neurotypical people adopting the more positive traits associated w autism and then bully you for actually being on the spectrum and making you feel like “well if they can act the same way I do minus the bad stuff ig I really am useless and not special at all really” so then "poof!" your silver lining is gone too.
Not telling your kid they have a learning disability, chronic illness, mental illness etc. so they can “feel normal” actually does the opposite. They will not feel normal if they do not have the context to understand that their normal will be different from that of their peers.
#This one girl in my cosmo class (19) kept talking abt how much she wants slime & loves “childish things” & buys kid's shoes & plays Roblox#and “stimming” and was always doing “the Fortnite kid voice”#and then said I'm “too old” to hang out with her (I was 25 now 26) and I'm “acting like a child” and#“can't pick up on social cues” after I asked to hang out with her and got sad from the specific way she rejected my invitation#ngl I have to wonder if she was jealous I look a lot younger than she does? Maybe my test scores were better than hers? (she graded tests)#it's BECAUSE I didn't socialize that I could put all my time to study & practice! U can't expect so much of urself while also having fun!#I guess I'm not too bothered considering it's obvious looking back that she had some weird fixation on deliberately remaining as childlike#as possible not just incidentally so what she said appears to be major projection. And it honestly is kind of weird to think about how she#was trying to tell me I was too old to hang out with her when she plays with literal 9 yos on a video game-#Like girl....all these things put together are not looking good....I'm scared for your mental health once you age further#phoo! feels good to get that off my chest and talk a little shit lol#I was trying to force kindness about it for so long even on a mental level so...yeah#now that I'm able to process it naturally I do actually feel bad for her. I wonder if she got subjected to a lot of toxic media#and creeps that like to emphasize how temporary it is to be “young and beautiful” :/
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blackwaxidol · 5 months ago
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Going to have to go on a quest to identify the beggar children in the living room, also known as my mother's houseplants, so that they have a chance of receiving adequate care...
#The only two that are doing great are two big plants I can only really describe as 'office plants'.#You know the ones. Massive leafy things in huge pots.#They're almost as old as me and have survived some of the most diabolical overwatering from a third party I have ever heard of.#I don't know if I really need to ID those since they seem completely fine though I will anyway because knowledge is power.#My mother's cactus also seems... fine. Don't know what kind of cactus it is though.#It's just one cactus by itself growing straight up. Has silver quills that turn brown with age... I hope.#Then we have a long-suffering ficus that I just trimmed the brown leaves off of like an hour ago.#Then the worst offender is probably the most heinous ginseng bonsai(?) I've seen in my fucking life.#For years I tell her to shear the fucker and she is too scared to do so.#Tells me to do it... which I will but I want to make sure I know what it is first.#You can ask me 'oh but don't plants come with a little sign in the soil with their name?'#Yes! They do! Unfortunately my mother removed them.#Honestly that cactus is so resilient so I am sure it is alive...#It just spent the first 10 years of its life in inadequate soil and got watered via bathroom condensation.#It came in a set of three and the other two are long-dead but that cactus just didn't give a fuck apparently.#Sunlight? Adequate soil? Being watered and letting the water drain? Never heard of.#I asked after what soil it was in sometime after I got my Crassula ovata.#The concept of different plants needing different soil was quite the revelation to my mother.#Shit's crazy...#I was damn near howling when I asked ''DO YOU THINK MOZAMBIQUE AND NORWAY HAVE THE SAME SOIL?''#Mozambique is where mine is from but the point remains.#I used Norway as an example because I was making a case with like. Those big fir trees in cold climates versus a cactus in a warm climate.
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unintentionalseductress · 6 days ago
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.ೃ࿔*:・LaDS men reacting to you accidentally staining the sheets during your period...
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.ೃ࿔*:・Zayne: You wake up with a tiny whimper of pain because of your cramps, realizing you hadn't worn a pad when you fell asleep. Sure enough, when you pull back the covers, Zayne's neat bedsheets have a bright red stain and so do your pajama bottoms. He wakes up when he feels the tug on the sheets as you roll out of bed. He's confused only for a second before he calls your name. You're trying to hold back tears, apologizing as Zayne comforts you in his arms. "Ssh...it's ok darling. You can't control bodily functions like this." Zayne soothes you, comfortingly rubbing your back.
He tells you to take care of yourself first, and while you're changing your bloody clothes, he takes care of the sheets and checks the bathroom closet to make sure you're stocked up on supplies. He kisses your forehead before leaving to work, and tells you to listen to your body, and to order food and anything else you want to the house. He texts you throughout the day to ask how you're feeling and does his utmost to leave work on time. He spends the evening massaging your achy back and cuddling you till you fall asleep.
.ೃ࿔*:・Sylus You and Sylus are incredibly cuddly sleepers. Your leg is tossed over his hip when you sleep, so when you wake up with that feeling of warm wetness, you're mortified to see you started your period during the night, and the blood has seeped not only into Sylus's cool silk sheets, but also his pajamas as well. He wakes up immediately when you try to take your leg off him, scarlet eyes looking almost wounded that you tried to pull away from him.
When you embarrassedly point underneath the covers, Sylus's eyes soften. "It's not a problem, kitten. The cleaning staff will take care of it. We can use one of the other bedrooms until then." He runs you a hot bath with one of your lavender scented bath bombs and helps you out of your bloody pajamas. He puts them and his stained pajamas into the laundry and stays perched on the edge of the tub, talking to you as you soak. He has the luxury of time, so he'll personally cook whatever you're craving, and order you whatever pastries and sweets your heart desires.
.ೃ࿔*:・Caleb Caleb has been with you ever since your first period, so he's well prepared for that time of the month. You even remember him helping you wash your bloody sheets when you'd woken up scared and confused when you first bled, and he'd also gone to the pharmacy to buy pads. But now waking up and realziing you'd stained his sheets was a different story. You didn't want to be a burden to him and come off as someone unable to take care of themselves, but here you were, lying in a pool of blood while your legs and back ached like the devil. You sniffle, and Caleb is immediately awake.
"Pipsqueak?" He asks softly, and you try to fight back tears. You tracked your damn period, yet it still came early, and now you were at his house, unprepared. "I got my period," you say defeatedly and pull aside the covers. "I didn't bring pads or my painkillers, but I promise I'll clean it up, you don't have to look after me-"
"Stop it." Caleb interrupts you and pulls you tightly against his side. "Pipsqueak, do you honestly think I wouldn't have period supplies here? It's your home too. It's never a burden for me to look after you. I'll take care of this. You don't have to cry. Now go change. I'll make you breakfast."
.ೃ࿔*:・Xavier Our sleepy king will wake up confused when you suddenly rush out of bed in the wee hours of the morning, nearly slamming the bathroom door shut. As his eyes adjust the dim light, he observes the wet, red, stains on his sheets and understands. He quietly knocks on the bathroom door, telling you in calm, quiet tones that he's not mad even though you were convinced he was. "Why would I be mad, princess?" He asks through the door. "You didn't do it on purpose. Now let me in."
He holds you till you calm down, strips the bed down, and puts them all into the laundry. There's a cupboard filled with different types of period supplies, including tampons, pads, and a Diva Cup. After you've changed, he makes a list of all the things you're both going to do to help you feel better. A family-sized order of hotpot for lunch, drinking some herbal tea for cramps, playing video games on the couch, and lots of cuddly naps. Xavier is the master of relaxation.
.ೃ࿔*:・Rafayel This man is emotionally invested when you get your period. In fact, it's not your period, it's our period when you're with him. Rafayel felt it before you did, that liquidy warmth seeping through the bed. When he sees you've stained through your pajamas and the sheets, he can't help but feel there was almost an intimate, artistic feel to the whole thing. Your body is at its most vulnerable, sleeping so trustingly in his bed. He rouses you gently, and when you start to apologize, he merely shakes his head.
"You're a warrior, my dear bride," he'll say lovingly. "You can bleed and not die, that's something that no man can ever do." The crimson on the sheets is already inspiring his next art piece. He'll launder the sheets himself, and while you enjoy a hot shower, Rafayel prepares for a lazy day at the beach. He insists that the sun on your back and inhaling the moist sea air are the best remedies for period blues.
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winterspellsfrozenkit · 6 months ago
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One thing I wish was understood a bit better about Twisted Wonderland.
Everyone in this game has trauma or personal struggles and it's NOT a competition of who has it worse. Honestly, sometimes I wish everyone's traumas were discussed more in depth in the game like we get with each person who Overblots, but we don't have time for it. With the Overblot boys, their trauma is shoved directly into the spotlight and we hear exactly how their situations make them feel. But the rest of the cast, ALL of them, have personal struggles and/or trauma. This is just a small list of some of the issues each non Overblot student has.
Ace masks the fear he feels in a lot of situations, and he's got an inferiority complex on some level. Notice how he bullied the player and Grim in our first interaction? That is a sign of someone who is looking to feel better by pushing someone else down because they don't feel good about themselves.
Deuce grew up with a single mother who had to work multiple jobs to make ends meet, which causes him to worry about her, and he was a delinquent in middle school, which made his mom, the one person he worries over, cry. He lives with those regrets, but he's still got those old habits and he agonizes over the fact he's not academically where he'd like to be and his behavior regresses when in heated situations.
Trey has severe trauma at being screamed at for FIVE HOURS over giving Riddle ONE slice of tart, so much that his vitals are severely affected at the thought of Mrs. Rosehearts and he's heavily conflict avoidant.
Cater has had to move all the time and as a defense mechanism, refuses to be honest or get close to people because he doesn't want to get attached only to be ripped away from them.
Ruggie lives in EXTREME poverty when not at school. He struggles to make ends meet and he has to work so hard in a system that is DESIGNED to keep him in poverty, because many beastmen still prefer segregation in the Sunset Savannah.
Jack has one of the healthier mindsets, but he still struggles with being open and honest about his feelings, which makes it hard to have friends, and he struggled with watching Leona, someone he's idolized, fall short of what he believed of Leona.
Jade and Floyd are implied to have grown up in some form of crime family and both seem to have handled the fact their lives could be in constant danger differently. Both like things being interesting, but Jade seems to prefer seclusion and control, while Floyd enjoys scaring people off and having as much fun as he can before he goes.
Kalim is someone who has had multiple assassination attempts on his life, even from his own family. He masks behind a smile, but he's afraid to trust people, and when he DOES TRY to talk about it, it gets brushed off because he has money. Also, he has to deal with the fact Jamil has been undermining his ability to progress by not treating him as if he's capable at all.
Epel has been teased and bullied on how he looked to the point where he started instigating fights to ensure he wouldn't be teased. He also has to fall in line with what Vil wants because he made the error of picking a fight with Vil and getting his butt HANDED to him. To further add, Vil is NOT NICE about it when Epel resists, with one example being Vil grabbing him by the ear and pulling hard as a form of punishment.
Rook has deal with the fact that for being someone who is super perceptive and can notice details, he didn't realize Vil's feelings around Neige, likely because he was blinded by his own admiration for both of them and that's a bitter pill to swallow.
Ortho has to deal with being basically created as a replacement for dead Ortho Shroud, trying to figure out if he's just really a robot made by Idia with really good AI or more than that, and dealing with the fact he loves his brother so much, but his brother doesn't take care of himself and it's disheartening to watch Idia's self-destruction.
Lilia has so much war trauma, losing his loved ones, having been exiled, and so much other crap. Even so, he forced himself to put the war and his trauma about it in the past, where it belonged for the sake of his two sons who both lost so much to war, which is something Baur/Baul could NOT do which was to Sebek's detriment.
Silver has had to live with the idea that his adoptive father would likely outlive him, then is faced with the fact that his father is basically abandoning everything about their life in Briar Valley before he learns that his biological parents were the enemies of the person he serves and cares about, Malleus, and the only father he's ever known.
Sebek has grown up with internalized racism/speciesism against humans thanks to his upbringing and he basically rejects half of his heritage with how he treats his father. He does not even realize how hurtful his comments are until he's faced with those remarks being directed at him by a younger version of his grandfather.
And this isn't everything each student has to face. This is just broad strokes. Yana Toboso wrote a story about flawed people who all have gone through really hard and difficult things because that's the point. As Toboso said in a 2023 interview:
“Happy endings in Disney works come from righteous actions and love, but I believe that the villains are characters who do not get saved during the story. That is why, through this game, I want to portray the message that even if you get beat up all the way to a bad ending, you can grow from it and live your life without feeling discouraged.
Acting lame, obstinate, without hesitation, being open and honest—it’s not as bad as it sounds. 
I would like to paint a positive picture of living honestly with yourself and not worrying about others.
In today’s society there are so many people who live in fear of failure and are always walking on eggshells, but nobody’s flawless. It is exhausting to try to live your life so that no one will hate you.”
Everyone, even people you don't know or do not like, have gone through things that shaped who they are. Sometimes, how we've adapted to handle the bad things that happen will force us to hit rock bottom. But you don't have to die when you hit rock bottom.
You can have terrible things happen to you and have maladaptive strategies to handle your experiences, but you aren't stuck that way forever. You can learn how to change your habits, learn to be okay with yourself, and work at being better than you were the day before.
Human growth is not linear. It's a bunch of taking steps forward and backsliding and learning and making mistakes over and over again and accepting failure, not as a testament to your character, but as part of the process of growth... and that's something all the students have to learn, not just the Overblot boys. Because all of them, every single one, are handling their own personal issues, even if it isn't shoved right in our faces.
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sayangrafayel · 6 months ago
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How would they react waking up to you dancing and singing in the kitchen in your pajamas while making breakfast?
This was a request by anon! I am so happy when I receive requests (you just need to be patient because I am slow af), but here we go!
Sylus, Xavier, Rafayel, Xavier, Caleb.
Sylus
Come on. We all know he's the "leaning on the doorframe admiring you from behind" type, 100%.
His heart feels full. The fact that you are in his kitchen. In your pajamas. Singing and dancing. Making breakfast. FOR HIM. AGAIN, IN HIS KITCHEN, makes him all giddy.
"Good morning, Sweetie." "Sylus! You scared me!"
Hums along with you, you love his voice. It doesn't matter if he doesn't hit the right notes. You'd prefer his out of tune singing voice over anything else.
Xavier
Sleepily waddled into the kitchen. He hates waking up without you by his side, but he's happy hearing your singing voice and seeing your little dance.
Leans on the kitchen counter "What are you making? Can I help? I want to help." "No.."
You distract him by asking him to dance along with you.
Anything to steer him away from the oven and the stove. You didn't feel like eating a burnt pancake for breakfast... again... for the fourth time... this week.
Rafayel
Jolted up as soon as he didn't feel you when he reached for your side of the bed. But immediately breathed a sigh of relief when he hears music from the kitchen.
He wants to pretend to sulk but you're just too cute with your bed head and pajamas, so he opts to rest his chin on your shoulder.
"Cutie.. you know I hate it when you get out of bed without waking me up."
Sleepily humming to the song playing, "I love this song."
Zayne
I'm so sorry but he's gonna wake up before you. It's just in his blood. No matter what he'll automatically wake up as soon as the sun hits the room.
Making breakfast together with him in your pajamas, singing and dancing together is still fun! You both cherish this routine, given your busy daily schedules.
No work talk. No nagging. Just a very domestic dynamic, two lovers spending quality time.
"I really love this raspberry jam we made!" "Me too. Maybe we can try making a blueberry one this weekend."
Caleb
OKAY IMAGINE COOKING BREAKFAST AT HIS PLACE. Honestly I think I love his place most.. ok anyways,
You think you woke up before him? No you didn't. He woke up first and stayed in bed to watch you. When you stir awake, he closed his eyes and pretended to sleep.
You got out of bed and start preparing breakfast with your favorite song as your company. Not long after, he joins you in the kitchen and took over.
"How about I continue making the breakfast?" "But I want to make you a breakfast! It's been so long since I cooked for you, Caleb!" "Since when have you ever cooked for me? Plus I'm happy to do this. You can pay me with unlimited affection and your song and dance."
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