#how is it so difficult to comprehend

[afictionalthing]

I feel so alone every time I acknowledge my plurality, because it's a (very) confusing thing and I can't talk to anyone about it. I. like. I don't have a professional to turn to for advice at the minute, and I'm really cautious when it comes to sharing my experiences online regarding the subject because I don't want to risk sharing sensitive information with a big ass amount of strangers, especially as a teenager. <//3 sounds UNSAFE !!! but also it's really hard to deal with it on my own. because of. various reasons,.

I guess I'm sticking to the "writing down anything that's important and continuing on with my day" method ....

[rigelmejo]

Listening to audiobooks IS improving my 'instant recognitions' in listening, for the words I can read.

I tried to listen to some Comprehensible Input Chinese videos on youtube though, and I am frustrated that I can't understand all the words in them unless I look at the video. I know the words if I was reading, but if I listen only, then I cannot follow those words when they're being used in an explaining situation (to explain what's going on) rather than as part of a narrative (story) when listening only. So I feel like I do need to work on improving my listening-only skills of basic daily life words. So I am putting myself through suffering and listening-only to Peppa Pig and some other kids-videos in Chinese. Why? Because I can follow what's going on in those without visuals, since it's part of a 'story' people talking to each other through situations. Maybe if I pick up the words enough that I 'instantly recognize' them, then listening-only to simple explanations of X is this, Y is this, will become easier to understand. (Anyone have any better children's cartoons recommendations that are in mandarin and available to play on youtube.com or bilibili.com, than Peppa Pig????)

Also because: I'm trying to do my study by only listening. It's easy to do 1-2 hours chinese listening a day. It is NOT easy to focus 100% on simple videos of someone explaining 'this is a plate, this is the plate breaking, this is an expresso, this is an americano, nick likes americanos but does NOT like lattes' which is both very boring to me and requires me to look at the video and not do other things at the same time.

[inblackwoods]

Protective

[fishparasite]

i think i need to do something for my friend

[fingertipsmp3]

Alright lads it is ridiculously late and I should be asleep but I just realised something and I am actually angry with myself that it didn’t occur to me before

[blueberry-beanie]

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[husbandhannie]

out of all the things that could've happened on this trip, did not expect a make-out session with a woman to be one of them

[catgirlapologist]

re the last post i rbed, it's so difficult to believe that straight women exist and they aren't secretly bisexual like i cannot comprehend how you could be a woman and not attracted to other women like that's crazy /hj

[baekuras]

Tomorrow I need to do an eye checkup in english (instead of german aka the norm) and I just checked if there are any better ways to explains things or tell people what to do etc instead of my basically direct translations and turns out

nope

it sounds exactly as stupid as i already worded it, no special words or better formed sentences around 10/10 school english is good enough (nice)

[darabeatha]

/ Still thinking about that one scene in Paradise Lost where Adam asks Raphael if angels also make love and the text mentions how Raphael is then visibly blushing over the question but basically ends up confirming that yes, angels do that albeit differently, as there's no need of physical contact even, they can simply make that love manifest in a way a person could feel as if it's air entering their lungs

[im-with-nasa]

how to feel like a good partner who is giving enough to a relationship no glue no borax

[0809sysblings]

idk why I'm posting this here but it's fine because I can do whatever I want. sorry I think I'm having an enneagram type 1 moment. it's not mental illness, it's because of my enneagram type! can't help being a Gemini Enneagram Type 1

also I keep using the amulet's powers so I've been being hit with the after effects. such power deranges a man /ref

[itsmeimsilly]

the current circumstance is that i’m thinking about how i was reading essentially novels at six years old because i learned how to read before i started school. the failures of the american education system.

[nekomacbeth]

just saw an electronic instrument that made me want to tear my eyes out

[headspace-hotel]

but seriously i think learning about nature is Hard for many people, especially adults, because you have to rationalize the symbiotic experience youre having next to the contemptuous and abusive way we treat the land. I think USAmericans fear nature as a way of making sense of the fact that we're waging war against nature, with our lawns and our suburbs and our landscaping and our cosmetic use of pesticides.

There was a post on facebook my mom was showing me where someone found a salamander and was asking what it was. thankfully half the comments were like "that's a SALAMANDER they are SPECIAL and a BLESSING and you must PROTECT it"

but the other half were things like..."I don't know, but I think it's time to move" "Burn the house down" "Kill it with fire" "I would scream if i saw that"

this is why i have such specific preferences in horror fiction that nothing seems to really hit: for me, horror is not about bad things happening, horror is about fear. So occasionally I find these really satisfying stories that are about fear of the unknown thing and the experience of fear, but the unknown thing being harmless is generally seen as a "twist" rather than a perfectly sensible and satisfying outcome.

on the face of it: why would you be afraid of a tiny creature weighing only grams, whose body is so delicate and frail? it's heartbreaking, but it's not unexplainable. What kind of a childhood makes someone an adult who is totally unprepared to comprehend the idea of something both unexpected and good?

a bizarre universe to try and place myself in, where a salamander is more likely to be...what? a mutated fetus of a brain-sucking alien? rather than one among the thousands of gentle creatures that you can marvel at, forever, for free.

It's the same way with bugs: people argue with the simple fact that nearly all insects cannot harm you, and I think it's because it's so difficult to reconcile with how liberally and carelessly we use insecticides with proven harms to humans and pets, and how we treat and speak about these creatures in general. If that weird bug almost certainly would not have harmed you, that means you killed a living thing because you didn't understand it, and that's a troubling thought.

[randomfandomss]

I've been wanting to say this since a few days but reading certain takes from Americans really makes me feel like I'm in an alternate reality of some kind, like I'm in hell....and I don't even believe in hell.

I can feel my brain cells dying reading those brain dead takes. I have to resist the urge to chuck my phone out of the window.