#i always feel bad speculating on this stuff but i mean i dont mean any of this to be cruel or nasty its all just in good fun

[good-enemy]

Can I ask what you think about the Travis relationship? Do you think it’s real or PR? Do you think it will end any time soon? I just hate it so much

Honestly I have no idea, tbh i hadn't really thought about it being PR 🤔 I do think it's real but I wouldn't be like really shocked if it turned out to be PR lol

Idk how soon it will end or if it will end honestly, I feel like they might get married what with how much she talked abt it on ttpd and how much she obviously wants to get married but who knows, maybe she will just never stop working and never have time for marriage :(

[infernothechaosgod]

YOU!!!! GRABS YOU

Inferno please please go into depth (if you wanna ofc!!) on your thoughts on the Fanny redesign? I literally have not been able to stop thinking abt it ever since you told me. Also some things you speculate on what her character might’ve been like?? I fear in my heart they would’ve had a brother/sister dynamic which makes me ☹️☹️☹️

BUT I would love to hear your thoughts!!

I need you to know this is how I look thinking about this the whole time,

my thoughts on it are rather complex, I think we all agree that in og shorts fanny as well as her design were at their peak in "all wet" she started to look much diffrent from oswald and I said this before she was carring that short more than him witch was rlly fun

Fanny's old design looked alot more like a flapper and SHE WAS ONE I will not let go of the fact she was a nurse thefore a working woman ever ever I will be extremly annoying about it because I think it is a very important thing not just to her as a character but also to history of animation bc she could be a first working woman in animation and that thought makes me do backflips anyway back to the point-

I said this before but fanny had her own personality, mainly seen in all wet where she matched oswald in being a bit snobby, impulsive and mischievous but even before that in "the mechanical cow" we can see she also had some personality to her that matches with her later on, in mechanical cow she wasnt just kidnapped and started screaming helplessly but she FOUGHT BACK, she straight up started punching the guy when he grabbed her

then after that failed she did start screaming for oswalds help but even after that she wasnt just screaming helplessly she obviously still fought back and she almost got away on her own SHE JUMPED OUT OF A MOVING CAR

and I know those are not character defying things or anything but I do think that these are things building character for her even if you have to look between text for them

honestly personality wize I always thought fanny would mach personalities with- well uh- fanny

also on more fandom note [this is not atacking anyone but I dont want to leave it out because I think its important]

In the fandom space fanny's always been somewhat demonized when keept her more "divaish" traits , especialy in all wet, and I think it does play hard into the "sexy woman = evil" belief, especialy when you look at her in things that are meant to full on no hiding it demonize her, her head on atributes and trickiness and sultry self-presentation from shorts is then carried on but shown as entirely bad, shes sexy and she knows it and thats evil, shes still tricky and impulsive and thats evil, her being extremly outard is accualy just her being a bitct, etc im sure you know what I mean If you've went on any dive looking for stuff with her

then notice how in thing that do try pulling it back a bit and saying "no guys shes accualy a good guy" these atributes are suddenly either toned down or complatly gone, "oh no guys shes not accualy sexy on purpose" "no no guys shes not accualy tricky you just assued things" "guys shes not accualy so head on and shes not as outspoken that was just false impression!" and while I get these things are trying to lift her up and present her as "better" it does leave the question

what if she was those things?

like, what if she still matches oswald in trickiness and mischief? what then? what if shes aware of her appeal and plays into it on purpose does that mean something bad? does that mean shes evil...for some reason?

and I dont mean to throw hands around the fandom or anything like that really like I said YOU CAN charactarize her as evil but I do wish we could pull on the breaks and look at it from the bigger picture and notice how these "evil" traits arent accualy root flaws [and how she shares many things with oswald characterization wise lots of times but these things are cool and funny on him but there to demonize her] because I do feel like many times shes just kinda left hanging with the evil sticky note on her

but yeah we kinda have the established personality of fanny and how shes been seen by the ppl above, I personaly cranked the femme fatale part alot and decided on exploring it more in my versions so I definitley am biast towards a certain image of her in my head but even without it, we kinda get what she was suppoust to be like especialy after the redesign in all wet that drove some ideas home even more

and this is the redesign they made of her for the show

and like...that is a cute design, the glasses are cute I like the yellow-green combo and how they accualy used a pretty shade of yellow to make her blonde instead of the piss wig color, the ears are a nice touch it is a well know by everyone ever fact that I love ears down fanny not only bc it makes her look diffrent from oswald but also bc I think it adds character, the outfit is somewhat nice its simple gets the characterization done and I do have to say seeing her ears on the left image it does make her look more like a rabbit, I like how not only are the ears down but also they have those little ending bits to them

but heres the thing

wheres the fanny?

like okay I get that they obviously were more looking at her cuter side but like wheres the cuntiness, where did the shyess come out? because we can see she was obviously meant to come off as a shy girl i mean look at her, where did her matching oswald stupidity and freak go [I dont even mean romanticly]

this is a cute desing and this is a nice character idea really but this is not fanny cottontail man, like even when you divorce her history in the fandom as well as for some reason ignore all wet she still had some of that hard ass energy to her [went into an active feild to pick up oswald in great guns not even knowing it was him,recruted herself as a nurse off screen, again STARTED PUNCHING A GUY WHEN HE GRABBED HER, jumped out of a moving car you name it]

like she did appear a bit shy in the mechanical cow when oswald started to talk w her but like I think that was more because she had a guy clearly hit on her and that resolved in that moment of shyness rather than being an active trait

also this is more disconnected from other stuff but I dont like how they changed her body type to be less curvy not even bc of the implication but also because I dont like how disney seem to be allergic to more fem body types, like

they took away her hrt rip legend

also I said this before on here and I think I will accualy end up writing an essay about it but again this design turns her into a "good girl" by taking away some of her atributes that honestly should have stayed there- this honestly brings even more attention to how fem characters often either get the "shy, honey, sweetheart girl" card or the "evil saultry witch women" card

do notice how with the "good one" I said girls but with the "evil one" I said women-

but yeah thats a whole diffrent thing back to fanny and the show and onto the uh...later worry-

I do have to agree I also worry they could have have them more sibling like relationship with I hateeeee typing this made my heart do a twist I think like no no no no no no I am not dancing this dance aint no way-

and like we dont essencialy know if thats true like we have only few images and while ofc their relationship could have been something else I do also very deeply fear that they could have tried pulling that and straw if ur still reading through this I need you to imagine how uncomfortable that thought makes me I think I would start biting the walls if that were the case straw-

if she was the "shy but responcible" older friend-sister trope and he was the "youger chaotic outward" younger friend-brother I think I would have thrown up for suprisingly big amount of reasons like no- nononono

but overall in complete nutsel, the design is cute but this is not francine fanny cottontail accualy this little rabbit lady accidently broke the law in kentucky and has been on the lam ever since and accual fanny allowed her use her full name as a cover up and shes chilling somewhere on the other end of the city/world

[total-drama-takes-takes-2]

lgbt thoughts

like the ethnicity post i really only have ideas about certain characters and the rest are up to whatever people think they are ^_^ i mean these are too, speculate whatever you want, but heres my interpretation of a few characters

joner: aroace. romance-neutral. this is all self projection on my part, i think joner as a character just prefers friendships to relationships and romance would make him uncomfortable but hes very supportive of others. he/him (impartial to she/her though)

scary: aromantic and unlabeled otherwise. romance-repulsed AND she's a hater about it. she/he/they

kelly: always been transfem somehow to me. transhet. they/them and VERY occasionally they/she, really depends on the mood

michela: bigender boygirl but doesn't really talk about it, especially in those words. would date whoever but high preference for dudes. would label her preference for guys as either straight or gay depending on the context. she/her

courtney: calls themselves non-binary for binary people but it's more complicated than that. sapphic with an itty bitty tiny like for guys they they're still sorting out (is it platonic? romantic? they don't know) . they/them

ass: doesn't care. doesn't know. definitely not cis but a part of it is just not wanting to be like other girls. has a lot of self-doubt over their identity and actually tends to move through labels quite quickly, so they use they/them as a catch-all neutral

max: i had a hard time with this one in terms of good rep and stuff like that, but i think it's safe for me to say max is a pretty binary trans guy. more or less transhet but hes more flexible when it comes to michela's identity. he/him

scruffy: transmasc lesbian and that was always the intention tee bee ach ^_^ they/them but sometimes they/he if they feel like it

fren: gay and definitely not cis but he's very mysterious about it. he/him

bonnie: like courtney also tells binary people that they're non-binary out of convenience, but they definitely don't feel like the term really fits them. not fem not masc not androgynous but something new entirely (goth). on a more serious note i do think the gender fuckery in the goth subculture made them realize a lot of things about themself when they first got into it. also a frequent label-changer when it comes to sexuality. they/them

patrick: unironically too obsessed with himself to be into anyone else in a romantic way /j. hes bad aro representation. hed slay in a QPR tho. he/him

julia: lesbian but she hasnt come to terms with it yet lol. i agree w the headcanons that shes aspec in some regard but havent put much thought into it. she/her

kitty: pan but adverse to romantic relationships. some kind of gender. also a furry i dont think ive mentioned it yet but they have a fursona and made patrick make one too. therres a canon patrick fursona in my notes. no set pronouns, tells people to use whatever

peter: bi and trans guy. tends to prefer girls and feminine presenting people for the most part! he/him

I don't know what sha-mod and mclovin are but they're definitely something. same with caesar, idk what's going on there but he's definitely not cishet.

I definitely need to write albert, phillip, and noco more to get a good feel for them. and everyone else i dont have any strong feelings on

[drsantosgf]

okay putting my real and comprehensive opinion on bvddie here even though no asked just because i feel like i dont make it very clear

i ship bvddie but i do not think its happening, i lost hope for it around season 5 when i dropped the show because i felt like we were constantly being baited and tbh i couldn't stand what the fandom was. thats mostly why i dont post bvddie a lot because ultimately i don't want to interact with the loudest portion of that fandom. after buck came out as bisexual, i stopped caring about it even more even though i still enjoy the idea of it because instead of just thinking about buck being queer, he actually was. first and foremost, i like canon queer representation so bucktommy obviously takes precedent because eddie isn't canonically queer (yet, idk, maybe tim minear will pull a fast one on us). i care way more about hen and karen than i do about taylor/lucy, even though i like both ships. i'm okay with criticism of it, especially of the fandom because to be honest, i do think it's fair to call bvddie theories ridiculous and out there because they kind of are, BUT i don't think it hurts anyone to think that or hold out hope, and it's nice to see speculation and theories bc thats what fandom is all about. that couch theory still has a hold on me even though i dont think it's intentional lol. i don't think it's okay to directly make fun of any bvddie for having crazy theories because we've all had ships that make us crazy and thats okay. the exception here is if that particular bvddie is making fun of bvcktommys for their theories n stuff because at that point its hypocrisy. this goes both ways. if you're gonna come up with a crazy theory, you can't look at other people's crazy theories and claim any high ground there, which is unfortunately something i see a lot in both fandoms.

although one thing i will not do is say "well both sides are equally bad" because objectively bvddies have been around a lot longer and done much worse things. that doesn't mean bts are all innocent either however, one ship clearly has dominance over this fandom and has a large, extensive track record of harassing actresses/generally being aggressive about their ship before bt ever even happened. so there are many, many more cases of those shippers feeling threatened and lashing out unfairly while the others are often just acting out of defense. if there's a bully on the playground picking on someone else, and that person kicks them in the shin, i'm obviously going to hold the bully much more accountable for their behavior than i am for the kid defending themself. while that's obviously not always the case, (i've blocked my fair share of bvcktommy girlies for being weird about female love interests) when it comes to the "both sides" argument, we literally just know that's not true. also most of the shit said about tommy by antis is deeply homophobic so jot that down.

tbh i think being anti bt is much more egregious than being anti bvddie because that's actual queer rep that you're bashing and hoping dies. but there's a difference between being "anti" anything and just not liking it and thinking its annoying.

at first i think i understood it because i think bvddie kind of was the underdog when it first started bc it's was non canon queer ship between two canonically straight characters but thats obviously not true anymore and hasn't been for a while. bvddie has the attention of the actors, has the positive acknowledgement of journalists that get to directly interview those actors, and has the popularity within the fandom. so it's kind of just punching down at other ships at this point, especially ones including female characters who already don't get a lot of development.

that being said, again, I STILL LIKE BVDDIE, and have plenty of bvddie mutuals that i love so i try to avoid the generalization of "ALL bvddie shippers are like this 🙄" because obviously thats not true and there's nothing wrong with shipping bvddie obviously lol it's just a ship and a cute one at that. i think its ridiculous to care that much about hating a ship you just don't like that much, which is fine but like i think many ppl in this fandom need to take several steps back and realize it's not that fucking deep, just like the things you like and leave everyone else alone.

tldr: i like bvddie but im not gonna avoid criticizing a big part of that fandom. ultimately i think ship wars are silly and i don't really understand them. i like queer representation and i like queer headcanons but im not gonna hold out hope for anything. im very ship and let ship until you start to be a dick about other people shipping and then i think you deserve to be called out, especially if you're actively being homophobic/misogynistic/racist. also i think bvddietommy should be endgame lol, let chris has THREE dads and then everyone's happy :D

edit: oh and obviously i like bvcktommy if that wasn't abundantly clear lol

[honeycreammilkshake]

I feel like an ass for saying this, but outside of Sukuna and Yuuji i dont really think the other characters are interesting. Yeah MAYBE Geto but thats also just the most indeoth character gege has wrote. Otherwise everyone single other character is just overtly simple or a jackass.

I mean shit, the world building is so lackluster. Theres a lot that looks like it was written on the fly and no real thought put into it sometimes. Hell theres timess where plot devices feel like they got put on a backburner and forgotten. Shit some deaths felt unessacary (gestures to the fhcking female cats)

And noboara? Dont get me started her staying dead would have been amazing to help yuuji grow!

Nope, shes back. Its the fucking fairy tail death situation all over again.

Also, in the new chapter im NOT happy with how gege handled Yuuta. So anticlimactic...

Im just.... im really upset over this because you can tell a lot of this was halfassed and forced.

Also fuck RCT. Brings back people feom the dead but you cant bring baxk anyone else? What the fuck is going on. Im not excited for the mangas ending at all...

i feel you, anon. sorry for the late reply btw.

don't feel bad about sharing your opinions. i agree with you on them. i feel like a LOT of the characters are either underdeveloped or simply not as interesting as they could have been. i feel bad because i think gege is experiencing a lot of pressure since this is their first official and long-running series and it became really popular. i think they might not have as much experience as some other mangaka or maybe just they rush or don't fully plan things out? i'm just speculating so i hope i don't seem cruel-hearted in saying as much.

and i agree a lot of the plot seems too sudden and not fully fleshed out. i often cannot even keep track of the technical stuff and details bc new stuff is always being added and i think i've even found some contradictions and unexplained stuff that doesn't really make sense.

overall, jjk isn't as well-written as it maybe could have been, and i'm saying this objectively. i think gege loses sight of the story a lot of the time and sometimes pulls plot developments that don't make much sense as a way to speed things up.

nobara coming back could have been handled much differently for example. as much as i do agree that her death could have served yuuji's arc well, i think she deserved better than being killed off so suddenly. she shouldn't have been killed off at all. or if she was brought back sooner it wouldn't feel so fairy tale unrealistic.

and i also find yuta a bad replacement for yuuji and just kind of boring honestly. he's like gojo 2.0 in terms of character-building only gege adores him this time.

i'm also not understand the full extent of rct. maybe i'm missing something?

idk anon. you're right on a lot of this. thankfully the manga will be ending soon, and there's a chance that someone other than gege will be continuing it, so maybe better developments and more closure will be giving to us?

idk, no disrespect to gege but im honestly not sure what kind of story im reading any more.

[sams-venting]

I wish biased actually cared about what they say they do cause they keep spreading stuff thats just not at all true if the people who send them confessions had actually known what they're talking about and they always just assume its the same people who make these things but we dont know for sure who makes these things unless it says or theres proof! and none of them seem to have any proof for sure they know who it is! or they ignore what it says cause they wanna think its someone else cause they dont like them- until then its just speculation and throwing names at stuff and ending up spreading wrong information and dragging people into drama again! i just want the drama to stop! And the anons keep throwing around words that just don't seem to apply or the meaning is lost/skewed like its tiktok to get a reaction. like stalking is serious! my sister had a stalker and this isnt what stalkers do! stalking is really serious and sometimes i wish people knew what it was actually like when they throw that word around cause seeing my sister go through that and when it got bad the stalker started trying to contact me too to get to her before the police dealt with him but i dont wish stalking on anyone its really scary. dont like people all you want! but why do they need to keep bringing them into everything just so they can make more drama? its not fun to have to be negative about people all the time

And I hate that it just keeps bring up old drama and ignoring actual problems and victims. They say they care about minors but they keep posting lies about what minors are saying about what they experienced and keep allowing minors to be namedropped and people to doubt their truth. They even posted an anon about not dragging minors into drama but they keep posting asks that namedrop or vague about them! and it doesnt seem fair their rule about talking about them cause its not like this is their actual blog. Namedropping doesnt do anything to them like it does with others cause no one knows who runs biased! Its not fair that people can talk bad about people all the time there but others cant say they dont like it without losing their right to not be named in posts about them- especially if the posts are making stuff up or lying or purposefully leaving things out to make the person look bad. or they lose their right because they interacted with something once that biased doesnt like even if the person doesnt agree with it so they also decide they arent worth protecting from harrassment. Its not fair and its really sad to see its still happening and just ignores victims of all these situations that have been coming out and ones that arent even related to the original harrassment biased was accpeting confessions for. none of the confession blogs feel safe cause they keep vaguing stuff or spreading wrong stuff and I just want people to actually care about the victims who have actually had bad stuff happen to them online

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[richardsphere]

Leverage Redemption Log: The Tournament Job

Look i dont have anything speculative to say about that name. There'll be a tournament of some sort. Lets get into it --- Oh no its gonna be an attempt at covering E-sports, get me 500 CC's of "how you doing fellow kids" STAT! But seriously, these types of "emergent field of entertainment for mostly youth" episodes rarely do the research to represent their "thing" fairly or accurately.

Abusive sportscoaches exist, and there is no way the E-sports industry is free from controversy but this already feels weird in ways I cant truly 100% put my hands on. Like this scene feels like its invoking Bao from the Golf Job, but you cant really human traffic people into E-sports Celebrity Status. --- Ok i apreciate the little Hardison Text-Rant.

Harry has decided not to hide his gamercred. (had time after the divorce, also probably a bonding-with-the-daughter thing)

Ok so i did a quick google, apparently E-sports doping is a thing?

Brock (not the pokemon guy), i think thats John Sennar or whatever? Im bad at faces and wrestling isnt my thing. But I vague-cognise the face. See and this is where my first problem comes in: The nature of the E-sports scene is verry web-cam focussed, with a lot of its branding based around livestreams and such. Its really hard to believe he's been holding these people prisoner and forcing them to dope without anyone noticing. The writers claim that they just stole their phones but when you have webcams and constant internet access a team of a druggy and a punchy with no tech support to lock them out of the internet when they're training for a MOBA tournament and their computers have constant internet access feels like a ridiculous stretch to me. Literally all it takes is one of them using an in-game chatroom and the "kidnapping e-sports people" scheme collapses. --- Sophie states the objectives: Take down Mark, dont harm the Teams Reputation.

Goal: Get Cheating Software on the PC's (the kids can deny having downloaded anything). --- Elliot has made the team breakfast. One of the kids (something-lion i think?) just said what I was saying: these kids have internet access, he's dating a girl via the internet and in regular contact with them.

Parker, your "hardison is always watching" sounds downright "Abrahamic god" in how creepy it is. Tone it down.

Breanna be carefull you dont get this guys ego so high he murders one of the teammates and replaces them so he can bask in the sunlight.

Breanna has got him on the hook. (also her lion-pendant has a tiny camera in the diamond) Honestly, scramble her own voice. Leak this recording. Call it a day. This is the moment we've won. The moment he said "elevate dominate" while thinking about it, thats as good as a confession and a guarantee ender of any sponsorship, while the recording makes it clear the boys werent involved. (I mean he'd rebrand a couple years down the line. Like Harry Said, but the boys go free) --- Samurai Midnight are favoured to win in the betting, (which means if we get them disqualified for cheating. The other team wins and bets pay out big time).

Oh no, Parker has discovered the T-Shirt Cannon. This is gonna be a THING.

Ah Breanna forgot one thing: This guy isnt stupid enough to break into an armored car himself. He's got goons for that. --- And Senner is unconcious from poison. Harry has ninja-run'd the guards out of here. And they remembered that he has a hacker on his side. (though not someone to filter the athletes chatroom activity) --- That is NOT a moba. They literally all start in a small arena-space and begin punching eathother. (I get that only havign a small digital set-piece saves them assets on whatever animator they hired for the game-stuff. Its understandable productionwise but still an issue)

Oh... He's put the AI on both sides. Kyle wants a setpiece moment, a star-maker. He has rigged both sides so he can create a come-from-behind upset by switching the AI from assisting team 1 to team 2. --- Breanna's "by the power of gaming I hit you with a bottle" moment felt dumb, and not in a funny way.

Parker has been dating Hardison for 8 years and doesnt seem to know what a black box is.

Harry's influencer is on the run, Harry's gonna have to do play-by-play instead. --- seriously this game has an entire futuristic city modeled, but everyone spawns in a tiny arena at the centre and just punches eachother.

Huh, i didnt think about it but Hardisons Hackerpowers do allow the character to influence the plot without needing the physical actor. Good on the writers for realising that. So just a note, didnt them losing the previous fight but still getting a second fight imply that its best 2 out of 3? Cause if so this scene of paralel climactic victories with Elliot and the Samurais doesnt work as they're not winning so much as failing to loose. --- Sophie realised what Kyle knows, Kyle wins either way unless we prove Kyle hacked. Its not about Win or Lose its about Destroying Kyle.

Elliot tries to initiate the Rugbyteam Huddle, it was verry innefective.

Turn the game into an autobattler and have the team walk away. --- Denouement starts, Harry with the hidden camera. Obviously detoxing shakes to get remainders out of their system (switched the pills for placebos).

Parker has discovered the T-shirt cannon. Now lets hope she never figures out you can custom-order T-shirts to say whatever you want, lest she start shooting non-lethal missiles with your name on them.

Ok so like, thats definitly a Street Fighter type game now, (or perhaps tekken?) --- Final rundown, not as bad as it could've been.

[pupships]

uum ok very very bad moment very VERY bad moment ohhhhh no oh no .

things i cant say on The Blog cuz i am not comfortable having the specifics be totally public sdjhsdb but like. i have to put it SOMEWHERE and no one i usually , talk to abt this stuff is around rn ,,

but. ough. ouuuugh. im so scared im so freaked the fuck out. they all dont know what the hell theyre talking about so what do their speculations mean to me?? nothing, surely! but i am so SCARED.

i am always so afraid and i can never truly shake it. that one day theyre going to be right. and im going to be wrong. and all of the time and spiritual work ive put into this would be for nothing. but that CANT be true. its been almost two years. theres no way i could be wrong by now.

that would be,, funny. not in a genuinely funny way but, like, "haha isnt it hilarious. i wasted all of this time" funny.

and i know that cant be true. i know that cant be true there are too many signs pointing toward me being right. but sometimes it feels like theyre ,, fake?? staged? some cruel joke, even?

ill get over this. i always do. i was just caught really off guard by something and it . shook me. worse than i thought it would. and i dont know how to deal with it and again i cant just outright Publicly Put This Out In The Open it is . i cannot even begin to explain it in a way that makes any sense. but like idk ill figure it out

i just. wish that everything around me would be a little LESS paranoia-inducing about it

[debbiesdead]

1. Do you have an alternate name? What is it?

debbie 😊

2. Which of your family members do you miss the most? Why

my daughters. maybe my mum and (step)dad but i feel less connected to them. i miss my oldest daughter coz i feel like i failed her & my youngest was too young to know anything

3. Which of your friends do you miss the most? Why?

lol i didnae have friends but i guess F even though i dont remember shit about him

4. What's a very minor difference between you and your source

im not dead 🤪 lol but i dont smoke or drink or do drugs & im younger even than the body

5. What's one thing you and your source would disagree with and one thing you would agree with

ehhh i dinnae know and i dont want to speculate

6. Are there any conspiracy theories surrounding your source? What? How do you feel about them

skip idk

7. What's your favorite thing about yourself? Connecting to source or not

im alive ✌️ im better than my source was. she was fucked up and i never did any of that stuff (even tho it feels like i did)

8. Do you have a habit that relates to your source in a way people wouldn't understand? Can you explain it?

ehmmm i dunno. maybe craving cigarettes and alcohol and self harm, but i think most people would probably get that

9. Free space! Ask whatever

✌️

10. What's a question you want people to ask you? What's the answer to that question

"are you ok?" and the answer is "never have been m8". im being irreverent but idk. i guess it would be nice for people to see me as "me" but im scared as hell of that too

11. How old are you (alter age)? How does that compare to your age in source? Does it affect your memories?

i kind of feel like im in my early-mid 20s most of the time? bodily we're nearly 30, and my source was 29-30 when she died. so i dunno. i guess most of the time my "memories" feel a bit jumbled and confused, like my kids are always changing ages and i dunno how i feel about anything

12. Does your system have roles/jobs? If so, what's yours?

maybe a trauma/memory/emotion holder or something, i dont really know. i showed up when we were discovering a lot of things about my source so maybe im just our way of dealing with all of the unresolved shit related to that.

13. Who in the system are you closest with?

M, the main system protector. its funny coz he has the same name as someone my source had really fucking complicated memories about (her brother). i wonder if thats why i feel kind of like he's my sibling. but also he's kind of not? it's hard to explain, we're like the same person but also siblings but also exes.

14. How does your source affect your day to day?

i dunno. i just feel like shit when i think about her, about who i was. i know i wasnt LITERALLY her but it feels like i was. i just feel sad and shit that everything went so wrong and that im stuck feeling like this all the time.

16. How source connected are you? Are you a postfactive?

dunno what that means tbh

17. What's problematic about your source? How do you feel about it

abused my kids. stabbed a guy. tried to kill myself. made everybody's life hell. you know how it is.

idk how i feel about it. "bad" i guess.

18. Is your source important to who you are? How so or why not?

i dunno. i guess so but i dont want her to be. its complicated. i dont want to just throw her away either but also i do??

19. Did you introject before or after the problematic thing happened? Did you introject because of it?

uhh i barely understand what this means lol. my "source" is the body's mother so like. idk use your imagination

20. How do you feel about doubles

i would be shocked if one existed. but if one does it's probably the body's sister so like, fair dos, she's entitled to one lol

21. What sets you apart from most doubles?

n/a

22. What do you have in common with your source?

fat, hate myself, like black and red lipstick, loud, angry, wallowing, love my kids, etc

23. How do you feel about your source

have we not covered that like 5 times

24. Is there any clarification you'd like to make on the relationship between you and your source? (Like, are you actually a mix between your source and something else? Are you your source person fictionalized etc)

i guess im a bit of a mix of a few things. the body's mother aye, but it's like a) her as we remember her before her death, b) her as we think of her now, as adults, able to see her as a whole person (and a tragic one), and c) the body's sister. maybe some other shit too idk.

25. How do you tell others you're a problematic factive

loooolllll i dont tell anyone i exist because they all know i was a shit mum so why would i

but anyway i dont think anyone needs to say "oh hi im problematic btw" to people. you can just be yourself

Problematic factive ask game

I made a problematic factive ask game

If you don't want to do the game on tumblr, I can find a space within the factspace (the discord) for these to go!

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1. Do you have an alternate name? What is it?

2. Which of your family members do you miss the most? Why

3. Which of your friends do you miss the most? Why?

4. What's a very minor difference between you and your source

5. What's one thing you and your source would disagree with and one thing you would agree with

6. Are there any conspiracy theories surrounding your source? What? How do you feel about them

7. What's your favorite thing about yourself? Connecting to source or not

8. Do you have a habit that relates to your source in a way people wouldn't understand? Can you explain it?

9. Free space! Ask whatever

10. What's a question you want people to ask you? What's the answer to that question

11. How old are you (alter age)? How does that compare to your age in source? Does it affect your memories?

12. Does your system have roles/jobs? If so, what's yours?

13. Who in the system are you closest with?

14. How does your source affect your day to day?

16. How source connected are you? Are you a postfactive?

17. What's problematic about your source? How do you feel about it

18. Is your source important to who you are? How so or why not?

19. Did you introject before or after the problematic thing happened? Did you introject because of it?

20. How do you feel about doubles

21. What sets you apart from most doubles?

22. What do you have in common with your source?

23. How do you feel about your source

24. Is there any clarification you'd like to make on the relationship between you and your source? (Like, are you actually a mix between your source and something else? Are you your source person fictionalized etc)

25. How do you tell others you're a problematic factive

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Make sure you clarify any questions you don't want to answer

[multiplicity-positivity]

hello ! i am. looking for some advice i guess.

so our system has always been very introject heavy, but recently we've slowly been getting more factives and i kind of. dont know what to do about it i guess. i mean logically, i do know what to do - help them set up pk and simply plural, get them used to what our life is and tell them what they need to know and all that. but. i dont know. the best way to describe how i feel about it is. internalized cringe. if that makes sense ? like idk whenever we get a new factive it just kind of sends me back down the 'oh god what if we're faking' spiral. and like we're very aware that introjects dont have to be exactly like their source but whenever one of our factives starts using different pronouns or starts finding like neopronouns and mogai stuff or agere or kin stuff i just kind of. i dont even know. i feel like we've been in a lot of fandoms that are very agressive about like 'dont headcanon real people dont speculate about their identity' which is a good point and i Know that factives just existing differently from their source is normal and not the same as saying that those things apply to their source but im. scared of people who dont know a lot about systems accusing us of that i guess ?

im sorry that this got really long but i guess my main question is: how do i feel more normal/less anxious about having factives ?

thank you for any help or advice you may have, we hope you're having a good day !

(Quickly Ralsei wanted to say: Cringe is dead! Cringe is cool! We need more cringe! Normalize cringe! The cringier the awesomer!! :3)

I (Margo) can offer some more serious words of advice and encouragement:

It certainly can be distressing gaining more introjects than your system knows how to handle! I’d like to reassure you that it’s not uncommon to have factives in a system. Many systems have introjects of real people as headmates - it’s something that can come with the territory of experiencing multiplicity.

Remember that, for the most part, systems don’t get to choose their headmates. You can’t help it that many factives are joining your system, and feeling bad about yourself because of your system’s factives won’t help anyone. A large amount of factives is not an indication of faking. Rather, it could point to stress, anxiety, or something overwhelming in your life, just like a large influx of any headmates may indicate.

Your factives living their own lives is NOT the same as assigning headcanons to real people. Even if some of your headmates may feel otherwise, it’s important to remember that these factives are not actually the real people they’re sourced from. It’s okay for factives to experiment with gender and sexuality, branch out into their own likes and interests, and generally develop into their own people. And if others don’t understand this fact, that’s on them - not you, not your system, and certainly not the fictives affected!

Remember it is never your fault if other people are uneducated or assume the worst. That’s their issues to work through. Even if they try and make your factives feel bad for living their lives, try to remember that you can know and understand the difference, and you don’t have to let the words of people online have a severely negative impact on you and your system.

I know this kinda got out of hand, but I hope this is helpful or reassuring for you! We wish you the very best of luck with this, thanks so much for reaching out! ^w^

🌸 Margo (and 💚 Ralsei)

[sadlysober]

dreammate

Dream x gn!reader Summary: Tommy’s curious to know more about Dream’s personal life and ends up ‘meeting’ his s/o. Warnings: none i think.. lmk if you find any! Just fluff-ish tbh. A/N: hi i uh usually dont write so feedback is more than welcome, feel free to correct me if i made any mistakes! If cc’s are uncomfortable i’ll delete it, but that goes without saying :)

Being a content creator has it’s perks. Such as being able to meet new people, meeting people you admire and enjoyed watching way before you became a streamer yourself. Or the fact that you can just hang out with your friends and the chat and even make some money off of it. You often get invited to hang out with people on Among Us, Rust, Minecraft, you name it. One of the biggest benefits of being a content creator was being a part of the Dream SMP. You were a reacurring character and the chat loved you. Your persona would often show up in fanart, alongside Sapnap’s, George’s, Ranboo’s and the other members. There would often be speculations on you dating one of the guys on the SMP. Funny enough, they never expected it to be Dream.

You had been dating for a month before making it official and are currently nearing the 3 month mark. The two of you decided to keep it quiet for the time being and had only told Sapnap and George.

After a long and fun weekend at his home in Florida, you decided to hang out on his bed, watching some tiktoks or whatnot. Your boyfriend was sitting behind his setup, getting the game started. It wasn’t long until his laughter filled the room. Every couple of minutes he would look over his shoulder to check up on you.

Curiousity got the best of you. What was he laughing about? You opened Twitch, and ofcourse, Clay wasn’t streaming. But Tommy was. You watched as Clay’s character hit Tommy’s, accidentally killing the boy.

“Call child services! Dream has killed a child!” Quackity yelled over VC. Tommy walked back to get his stuff.

“Dream, I am not liking this attitude of yours.” You heard your boyfriend chuckle as he was walking around the map. You looked over at his monitor as Tommy’s character walked into his screen. “Dream, can I ask you something?”

“Tommy, if you want to know where babies-”

“SHUT UP BIG Q I KNOW WHERE BABIES COME FROM.” His high pitched laugh and yelling making you tune your volume down.

“Go ahead Tommy, what do you want to ask?” Clay asked calmy.

“Why I was wondering, I have met Mother Dream and Drista, do you have any more family I can talk to? Can I meet Father Dream?” Tommy was trying really hard to look as serious as possible asking Dream.

“My family isn’t here right now.” Dream stated, looking at you with a sneaky grin on his face.

“Oh, alright then, do you- do you like being alone Dream?” You can’t help but chuckle at Tommy always ending his scenteces with ‘Dream’, making it sound so personal and serious.

“I don’t mind being alone, but I’m actually not alone right now, Tommy.” Your eyes focus on the man sitting behind his setup, Tommy jumping around on the monitor behind him. “Baby, would you like to talk to Tommy?” Clay asked, looking at you.

“Dream, who did you call baby? Is there a uhh Drartner ... no uh a dreammate?” Tommy stared into his camera and his chat was going wild.

Dream laughs as he signs for you to come over. He mutes himself from the VC. “Are you sure about this?” You ask him, walking over to where he’s sitting. “I am, are you?” You nodded. He moves the chair back a bit and motions for you to sit down on his lap.

“Alright Tommy, here’s my uhh, Dreammate, be nice to them.” You had put your phone down to still be able to see Tommy’s stream. He looked so impatient, yelling to his chat. 

“Wait, WAIT- guys wait.” He quickly typed into the game chat for the other players online to join your VC for some ‘action’.

Clay mutes himself again. “So Tommy is ordering some of the guys to join the VC, it’s just Tubbo, Ranboo, Callahan and Quackity, so no worries.” He hands you the headphones and you adjust them, being able to hear Tommy loud and clear.

“Alright Tommy, what’s up?” Ranboo asked, walking up to the two of you.

“DREAM, Dream can they hear me? Ranboo, Dream is introducing us to his Dreammate.” You type into the game chat that you can hear him.

“What’s a Dreammate?” Tubbo asks, joining your little group.

“Well, appearantly Dream has been keeping a secret from us-” You softly giggle.

“What’s he saying?” Your boyfriend asks, wrapping his arms around your waste.

“Hello? Hello? Are you there, Dream’s Dreammate?” Tommy’s character hits Clay’s, so you take the mouse and hit his back.

“Well hello there, Tommy.” You see the boy’s expression change from confusion to a somewhat dissapointed face.

“Oh hello, Y/N, it’s been a while” He continues hitting you and you run away from him “I actually thought Dream was gonna introduce me to his Dreammate. You got me there, real funny.” Clay put in the earbuds connected to your phone so he could listen to what Tommy was saying. “Who would want to date Dream anyways- oh, well chat, alright alright so you ALL want to -” The boy sighs, being way too hyper for the conversation.

“Tommy, I-I am dating Dream.”

“No, the prank wasn’t funny, Y/N. Dream has failed you, I expected better from him.” The bitterness in his voice is truly impressive.

“Stop killing me Tommy!” It’s your turn to thaunt him, getting out your sword and running after him.

“I think they’re serious Tommy, congrats you two!” Ranboo says, helping you kill Tommy.

“Does that mean you’ll be coming back to the SMP, Y/N? We never finished that thing we were working on.“ Tubbo asks ever so sweetly. “Thanks Ranboo and yes ofcourse Tubbo, I’ll be joining soon.”

<Callahan> poor fundy

Dream’s famous kettle laugh echoed through the room when he read the messege. “Dream, can you hear me, Dream?” Tommy asks, being able to hear Clay laugh on VC.

“Yes Tommy I can hear you.” He says, burrying his face in your neck.

“I- I have a question.” It fell silent for a bit. “WHY” Tears start rolling over your cheeks from laughter.

Once Dream catches his breath he finally comments. “Tommy you love women right?” You face your boyfriend, who is trying to keep a straight face.

Tommy looks straight in the camera. “What a dumb question, all I talk about is my love for women. Do you ever listen to me, Dream? It’s almost like you’re my boyfriend.” He made a disgusted face before cracking up again.

“Oh god” You whisper as you shake your head. Clay presses a kiss on your neck. “Well Tommy, I feel the same way about Y/N.” An ‘aw’ left your mouth before Tommy made a barfing sound.

“So are you gonna marry them?” Tommy truly does feel like an annoying brother sometimes. Your eyes scan the chat while Clay does the talking. A couple of shipnames and questions pop up between all the emotes.

“I don’t know yet, Tommy. Maybe someday.” He said, hugging you a little thighter. You softly press a kiss on his forehead.

“Alright, cringe. I have no further questions.” Tommy states. “I’m gonna go back to building my tower. Goodbye.”

“Bye Tommy.” Clay said as he left the game. “Nice talking to you!” You added, taking the headphones off. “That wasn’t half as bad huh?”

Ah, yet again the Dream SMP is trending.

[sylsaccount]

i am supposed to be fluid. that is the real thing. times like this really make me remember why im so scared that the whole dysphoria thing was something i latched onto as a more "reasonable" explanation for what i was feeling. i mean. it was long before i even learned what dysphoria was that i latched onto it. but still. it was something real.

this is so brainworms of me... i dont know.

i want to be in their walls

i feel like this is taking priority for me. over synthesis. which is weird. synthesis is the most important thing to me. but only ***** and *** get to experience synthesis. clearly it isnt necessary. the constants are fluidity and immortality. and killing. i guess. but thats less directly related and more just that id like to kill people in a general sense.

i dont know why ive been obsessing over **** in particular. thats what doesnt make sense to me. its always *****. its never not her.

going back to what i was saying before. the truth is its not like fluidity was present before. it was more the yearning for Something Else. like literally anything. but now i am latched so hard to these new things i dont think i will ever be able to let go

i cry at the stupidest shit like what IS this

i think i am self-obsessed. i mourn for my own self in a way i never ever could for anyone else. oh well. i cant force myself to be different.

i will die and i will never experience fluidity or synthesis. that is the reality of the situation.

I DONT WANT TO ACCEPT THAT REALITY!!!!

but i have to because i am the person i am. even if i somehow became real delusional i do not have the ability to perceive it. ok maybe synthesis in some way. but i think any real way people experience anything even close to synthesis is not in the way i need it obv. theres no point in speculating how technology will change any of this either bc i wont live long enough for it to matter.

even the most immersive vr or whatever would never allow me to experience synthesis or fluidity. it relies completely on being able to change the brain and/or body in a way we will not be able to for the foreseeable future. it is entirely possible it never will be.

but i shouldnt even think abt that bc i will die anyway

my dreams always fail me. but even if they didnt it wouldnt matter. the most vivid dream will not, like the example i gave earlier, ***** ******. not through my hand anyway. it will always be located in my mouth, always always always

this is not how i was supposed to be.

but it is. i am just. i have obsessions with ideas. there is no "supposed to be". i know that. im not an idiot. but it doesnt matter how much i know its true. accepting the reality of the situation doesnt make it any less painful

i would do absolutely anything. well. ok 99.99% of things. obviously there are moral boundaries i wouldnt cross. but frankly theres a lot i would.

but it doesnt matter. bc technology isnt there, magic isnt real.

nothing in the entire world will ever completely fix me.

i dont even yearn to talk abt this with people. it does make me feel better sometimes but i still never WANT to. which is why i mostly havent even though i have plenty of friends now. and its not something i would ever in a million years think is productive to speak with a therapist abt. its embarrassing. saying any of this out loud with my words in general lmao

typing this here is more for me. usually i do this kind of thing in a google doc but i have too many bad influences on this site and so im like oh when im feeling a crazy way i will post on here too :D

nat says im not supposed to feed into this stuff but i dont know. ever since i have been more open abt it it has made me feel better, in a way.

sorry im being so vague. if u r still reading this u r kind of insane and i think we should be besties if we are not already. and i would probably be willing to be less vague abt it to you if you were actually curious for whatever reason. even if i dont know u. its almost easier for me to talk abt this kind of thing with people i dont know actually. less scared of being judged, i guess...

ok i should stop bc the food i was making is done. ** **** * ***** *** ** **** ** **** LOL

im so mad im so mad i was THIS CLOSE to being **** but my stupid brain. it cant. why does it always taunt me like this. i have such a love/hate thing for dreams. i rarely remember them anyway. like so rare. and my brain cannot focus and from talking to other people i really think it just has terrible visual imagination. but anyway. i did Feel Something go into my hand. i dont care if its fake. but i couldnt ***** ** so it wasnt right. none of it was right anyway. even if it was perfect... i would never be able to. well. i hate this so much. it would just be so right. it really would. over time i have gotten more obsessive abt it. i dont know what to do. i think its part of why i have been really wanting to do psychedelics again. even tho that is a COMPLETLEY different type of sensation. but a part of me feels like if i can just experience something more surreal again that can at least get me by. but its not the same. it will never be the same. i will never feel like ****. or ***** or ***. but thats okay. i will give them everything and i will let them have their perfect lives and i will live vicariously through them bc that is the only way i will ever even slightly feel okay about it. its kind of crazy bc **** doesnt even experience synthesis but i still think it would be perfect. that is why she is the Body i suppose. anyway...

[unlikelyempathpruneauthor]

Tour without You

Summary: fans saw the video of cal singing ghost of you and people think you two broke up.

a/n: SO YALL KNOW WHICH VIDEO I'M TALKING ABOUT RIGHT? Idk if he was actually crying, but a part of me tells me he was, but idk who knows, but i hope he was okay and is doing okay now.

You were currently home watching duke at yours and cal’s place. You couldn't go on tour with cal because of work, so being alone was a norm you had grown into. Whenever you didn't go on tour you and cal would spend time calling one another whenever a show was over, so he could see you and if you needed to comfort him for anything. He hated when he had to leave you alone, but you would reassure him you had someone that was a part of him. Duke would usually stay with the dog sitter, but when you stayed back home you watched duke. You two would have some quality time together as usual so the small pup can use his energy throughout the day.

For Cal though today, just wasn't his day. Their bus tour had taken a re-route, they got to the venue late, he couldn't focus during rehearsal since it was cut short, from them arriving late. Usually when stress came he was able to handle it well, but you usually were there to comfort him right there and then, which also added to his stress as well, not being able to be with you in moments like these. Fans in the audience and online had seen his expression and worried for him, especially when singing Ghost of you. He hated that his stress would reflect how he acts during shows, but today was really bad for him. Cal doesn't really notice when fans are recording, but a video had gone viral during the concert within minutes and fans skepulating about you and cal. You had no idea of this hence you not being near your phone all day and having a nice day out with duke. Your phone had been blasting all night and once you got home with duke you checked it once seeing all the notifications on all of your socials.You were slightly confused as to why there were so many so you checked it out.

@5SOSUPDATES: is it possible cal and y/n broke up? Could be because they haven been posting with one another. Also today’s performance he seemed sad, especially during Ghost of you.

“What the hell?” you said as the puppy barked at you as you continued to look for something that gave you some sort of idea that was going on. Then MTV also made a topic off of it.

SPECULATING BREAK UP RUMOURS: POPSTAR CALUM HOOD AND GIRLFRIEND Y/N L/N POSSIBLY BROKE UP BEFORE A SHOW DURING TOUR

You were quick to find the resources they were using to claim these speculations and there was a video of cal singing ghost of you, at first it was all good, he was singing good, you saw no sad emotions, but when it got to him harmonizing, with the ghost of you, that's when his expression changed. At first you thought that it was just the way he was singing. But you looked over and yeah you were convinced he was crying.

You tried to first go over anything you might have said to make him upset, but there was nothing, you texted when you could and he seemed fine the night before, so you didn't know what was wrong. Unless he lied to you, which he would do when he was away from you. He didn't want to bother you, but you always told him to talk to you when he was feeling down and not himself. You were always going to be there to talk to him always. Just then you got a call from mali, you were quick to answer as she probably has seen these as well.

“Mali, hey.” you said as she spoke, “hey super weried, but have you been on your socials and possibly MTV?” she asked as you sighed, “yes i have.” you said as she contuned, “okay, is it ture?? Did you two break up? Omg did cal do something because i swear-” she said as you giggled and cut her off, “no we didn't, well at least i think so, but uh, no i called him before this show and he seemed fine, but you know how he is, he doesn't tell the full truth until you get it out of him.” you said as she hummed, “thats true, well are you talking to him tonight?” she asked as you hummed back, “yeah i should be getting a call in about an hour, i dont think he has checked his phone yet, so i'll call you first thing alright?” you said as she hummed and you two said your goodbyes. As your phone was still blowing up, more and more rumours were being made, but you didn't expect to be getting attacked.

5SOSWILDFLOWER: Yall, there are some photos of y/n with another guy before cal had gone to tour, guess cal has a reason.

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Caly/n_stan: i don't think she would cheat though, they've been together for years.

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Lukehemmingsstan: i mean yeah but people change especially when dating a celeb, and it wouldn't be the first time a 5sos member would be cheated on.

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@mikeycliff5sos: i mean you can tell she was just in it for the money and the fame, she never spoke about her job.

You were at first confused as to what pictures you were talking about, but then you clearly remember you were with the dog sitter, who happens to be a guy. He was one of Cal's best friends and he always took care of duke when you were away. You were there before cal had gone to tour, to tell him personally that you were staying with duke, since you knew him and it would be nice to catch up on duke’s behavior. Of course the fans didn't know that, but that didn't mean they should attack you. You were kinda stressed about this situation, especially with the things being said, fans even started to question your real intentions with cal and wondered if you were just after cal for his money and fame questioning your line of work as well, which wasnt public because you line of work was importnatn, you were a visual editor at entertainment company and well you kept it private and you didn't want any problems.

On cal’s side of things, he hadnt checked his phone at all wanting to handle one side of stress at a time. After teh show he realxed before calling you, making sure he looked good and fine. But once he lifted his phone he had seen so many notifications, at first he thought it was about the show from tonight but when he clicked he saw everything that was being said about you and him that you two had broken up and the means things being said about you. He was quick to call you as you answered quickly hoping he was okay.

“Hey” you both said quite rapidly, “sorry you go first.” cal said as you sighed and spoke, “are you okay? But i want to know the full truth cal, you know you can talk to me.” you said as he rubebd his head and wished he had spoken to you before anything, he knew if he talked to you hten these rumours wouldnt be made. “Fuck love, im sorry, we had to reroute the show for tonight we got there late, and rehearsal was rushed and, today i didn't do my best to hide my stressed emotions, i tried, but i couldnt, all i wnated to do was talk to you before the show, but i wasnt able to,” he said as his voice was cracking and you felt bad for him, you knew he handled stress well, but you knew today was one of those days, “bub its okay, just talk to me about this kind of stress to help you when you can, no matter what time it may be. I know im not htere, but remeber im a phone call away, always. No matter waht okay, you call me when youre feeling like this.” you said as he smiled a little missing you so much more than he should be able to.

“Youre too good for me you know that? Im sorry for waht the fans are saying, i'll straighten it out babe, they shouldnt be saying this stuff about you,” he said as you giggled, “its fine, it hurt at first, but i mean this all happend beucase i was out with dukes dogsitter,” you said as he laughed a little, “gosh the fans are really out of hand, i love you so much, youre there for me more than many times i could even count, you know youre it for me,” he said as you blushed hearing his words, he would tell you this all the time. It was true, you were it for him and he was it for you. “And youre it for me too, and i'll happily be there for you, always you know that.” you said as he smiled and jsut couldnt wait to get home to you. After talking for about 2 hours, you said your goodbyes and you had gone with the rest of your day as cal had straighten out with the fans about his citation.

He posted a picture on his story of you and captioned it:

To clear out the rumours from today, me and y/n are happily together. y/n has not and has never cheated on me, for those who know she is everything to me and i will do anything to not lose her. There is no anger towards this situation jsut please, be careful with what you say on the interent, even if y/n and i dont post about us everyday its not htat wer are not together, we like to live in the present with one another since i go away for tour. Usually shes here with me, but sadly she isnt. So again please just be aware with what you are posting, we are human and things that were said towards her will hurt anyone.

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

1. ok but thats also i think i dont get? because without the series or character names, what of any of the promo images or banner or anything else give away it's supposed to be a greek mythology story? they just look like people with weird anatomy who are colored like highlighters. at the very least some iconography should be on them, but there's not? like even percy jackson stuff makes sure to give him a trident and have water flowing around him.

2. rachel made three times where persephone could have made the choice to be with hades willingly and didnt do it each time. first time she was drugged and put into his car, where he phsyically handles her unconscious body and puts her in his bed (ew). second is her working for him, which was hera forcing it. third was her going to the underworld not because she wanted to, but because she was hiding from the law/apollo and he found her. where exactly is her agency in all of this?

3. LO seems like the fast food of webtoons. because there's no room to speculate or theorize, you just read an episode and move on, the bright colors distract that it's a rushed and lazy product over something with high quality and effort, the characters are flat and boring, and the plot has no substance. it's meant to be consumed in a rapid binge, because if not you realize what low-effort and what little you're actually getting from it when you slow down and actually think about it.

4. i mean rachel does have some logic to her fancasting, the problem is it seems the only people of color are either demonized for being hypersexual (aphrodite, eros until he's with psyche) or are literally r//pists who are out to harm her white-fa casted persephone (apollo), so yeah, there is logic there, it's just pointing to rachel being (hopefully unintentionally) racist

5. It pisses me so much that I work over time  (using references and looking at paintings and reading history for ideas for interesting character motifs) so that any of the ancient greek characters I draw look cool and authentically greek, and yet fucking Rachel Smythe, who can't even be bothered to do more than 5 seconds of research to learn that not all ancient greek outfits were shitty, minimalist off white and eggshell, gets to be revered as an artistic revolutionary. It pisses me off so. Fucking. Much. Not just for me, but for everyone else like me who absolutely ADORES greek mythology and wants to draw accurate portrayals of these characters! To whoever is reading this, stop. Stop rn and go read Sleep and His Brother Death (a comic on webtoons), go play Hades (the video game), go read The Song of Achilles (a book by Madeline Miller). Those are beautiful pieces of fiction about Greek mythology that deserve your attention more then Rachel and her shitty pink highlighter self inserts.

And a sidenote, I know that this is kinda like a modern AU for the gods. I am aware. Does not change that fact that anytime any character is drawn in ancient greek fashion it's always the SAME. SHITTY. CHITON. Maybe with a.cape or a scarf, but for the most part? It's just the same stupid, off white chiton.

6. oh, i thought you guys were joking persephone is now stuck with red eyes. is that seriously what look we're stuck with now? does rachel know it looks really ugly?

7. i feel like the lineart less style actually hurts LO in a way. way too often you can look at a panel and it becomes really murky where something starts and ends, and it looks even worse on a phone screen, because on an even smaller screen the images look even more compressed, making it even harder to tell stuff apart. this wouldnt be as bad if the comic took back up its more high contrast look from the begging, but now it's all one flat shade and im not sure why.

8. im really confused over the marketing of LO, tbh. like the ads are all hxp focused, but the series name implies its not about them, but focusing on the 12 olympians, but then the synopsis is general mythology and at the very end randomly mentions its about persephone? but then you read it and nots sure whether its a teen romance, a comedy, a serious drama, and can't stay straight with its messaging and timeline? and persephone is not there for a chunk of time. like whats actually going on?? 😭

9. Chapter 173 is like 50% filler. It gives more questions that answers, and not just from the reporters. Like the reporter stuff was mostly filler, and the Persphone and Hades stuff was like yeah we know dont need to drag this on.

My questions are WHAT ARE THE RED EYES? Is it when she’s mad? Horny? Sad? Happy? I feel like the red eyes just show up whenever RS wants to draw them

Flying? I feel like Persphone has always been flying like it wasn’t a bug moment at all. She flew home when Minthe and Hades kissed. But apperently Demeter didn’t know? I guess I don’t remember her flying in the mortal realm but her flying didn’t seem like a big moment, none of the other characters seemed surprised by it.

“Answer mine first!” When i got to that line I reread some of it just to find where the question was. That line normally matters when you’ve already asked the question not if you haven’t gotten there yet. Like of course Demeter is gonna be worried and ask a million questions.

I know the pomegranate pin is gonna be important but I felt the focus on it was a little too much, like an excuse not to cover more this chapter. Because honestly it felt like 5 minutes of the plot was covered in this chapter. 

10. So uh, whats up with Hades weird ass comments... Like "Persephone you look beautiful and if someone says otherwise they can go play on the highway" ???

Because Persephone looking good during a murder trial is clearly the most important thing here.

Also, Perse's response to the reporter who asked her about her friendship with Hades. I mean, on one hand Persephone is right, her "friendship" (or whatever it is they have going on) is nobodies business but her own - but at the same time, its kinda also the underworld denizens right to know in the sense that their future leadership could be affected so they might want to know whats going on if their getting a new co-ruler / Queen that they will be subjects of. They probably will want to know who Persephone is, should she and Hades get married because it's very likely that when (cause lets be real its a 'when' not 'if' they get married) they do get married that Persephone will inherit half the title.

So, eh?

[bondsmagii]

i feel like you'd be interested in this: a friend of mine went missing about 5-6 years ago in a highly suspicious fashion. abandoned his beloved car, bought a gun before hand even though he wasnt a gun person, abandoned his car with his laptop and camera in the mountains. his sister who was leading the investigation "mysteriously" passed away right before it was revealed that their dad was a predator. both of their parents refuse to talk to anyone and have been seemingly unbothered by this. 1/2

recently the case was picked back up again, which hasnt been great for my mental health, but im hopeful there will be closure soon. its always weird to have a missing person as a friend because i can go on youtube or reddit and people are talking about his case like its an episode of true crime. i dont know how to feel about it if im being honest, the speculation is good for keeping the case alive, but some of it leaves a bad taste in my mouth, yknow?

man, that's absolutely awful. I'm so sorry you're going through this, anon. having a loved one go missing is said to be the single most unbearable psychological burden that a human being can have and live with, so like... this is so unbelievably tough. I can't imagine what it's like going through life with all these unanswered questions hanging over your head, and I hope one day you find any answers you're looking for and get a sense of closure.

I get what you mean about the true crime stuff, though. some people really do not know how to act, and I think people tend to forget that these cases involve real life people who have real life loved ones who are still around, and could easily stumble across discussions and speculation. I'm interested in all kinds of mysteries and the kinds of things the internet likes to describe as "going down the rabbit hole", and I see this kind of behaviour a lot. I can understand it, to an extent -- I know what it's like to feel the thrill of putting pieces together or working out a new theory, but I also make sure to be very, very careful in how I express that. it can so easily come across as callous excitement, and while I accept that my interest in these things (as well as historical tragedies -- such is the fate of a historian) is inherently voyeuristic, it doesn't mean I have to embrace it and act like... well, like a freak and a weirdo, really. and I'm sure even the respectful speculation is probably also very strange for you, because that's real life for you; that's somebody you love, not just a case.

when I was 15 years old a friend of mine, also 15, was murdered. because the timing of his death coincided with some specific dates and timelines in our country (civil war and unrest that had been going on for decades) his name is often mentioned at the strangest times; it's used as almost a bookend on a certain chapter of the country's history. it's very, very strange to see people talking about his murder and the wider context it occurred in, and even though most people are sympathetic and respectful, I still feel... well, protective of him, I guess. like no, that's not for you to discuss, that's my friend. I imagine something similar occurs for you, no matter how decent people are being about it. nevertheless it's good for keeping attention on his case, as you said, and I hope one day this leads to the answers you and his loved ones are looking for.

[honeypirate]

Made of Sunlight

Tokoyami

Tokoyami

Tokoyami x Fem!Reader with Similar Quirk!

quirk is she has a quirk partner that is almost identical to her but she is made out of the light of the sun, her quirk is almost like the opposite of Dark Shadow. The idea for this quirk I got from this post

Tokoyami x Y/N

Dark Shadow X OC Kira (quirk partner)

Warning: only lightly edited

“Kira I know. I see them. You know you’re not supposed make so much noise” your quirk and partner huffs before blending into the light around you. Your eyes follow the boy with the beautiful feathers and his shadow partner as he finds his seat in the class, you stand by the door, waiting for the teacher to crawl out of his sleeping bag before you enter the room. 

“Who’s that?” Dark Shadow whispered into his ear when you finally walked inside, “she must be new. There’s something about her. I like her” Tokoyami watches as you talk to Mr. Aizawa, your kind eyes and smile making his heart race. He senses something, something is different about you, he has to know. 

“There is an open seat next to Tokoyami and Dark Shadow, don't make too much noise. I’ll give you the first day tests after your classes, meet me at the training field outside at 3” you nod and then look over at the boy you had eyed before, the one Kira had made a fuss over. You felt her stir, fluttering about and making your back tingle. You willed her to calm down and keep her emotions in check. 

“Hi” Dark Shadow whispered as he popped his head over next to you, making you chuckle, and Kira swoon against you. You tried to keep your expression calm but you were really annoyed she couldn't relax just because she thought the shadow was cute. “Hi” you respond, Kira echoing it in your head ‘hi hi hi hi hi’ you lean around Dark shadow and make eye contact with the boy “Hi” you say to him and he clears his throat “Hi, I’m Tokoyami, welcome to our class” “I’m Y/N. It’s a pleasure to meet you Tokoyami.” you reach out your hand and when he takes it you both feel electricity run down your spines  “I hope I can sit next to you this whole time.” you add and his eyes widen for a second before Aizawa starts the class. 

“This is Y/n L/n. she will be joining our class from today on. She just moved here from America and against my judgement she has been placed with us in the middle of the year. Everyone be nice to her.” and with that he launched into his lesson. 

At the end of class  you found yourself surrounded by new faces, you learned their names and immediately connected to them all. “Are you moving into the 1A dorms?” a nice girl named Mina asks and you nod “my stuff should be getting moved over now. I’m on the fifth floor, room three” the nice frog girl with the green hair, Asui, smiles “that’s next to my room, Yaoyorozu is also on that floor” you grin “perfect! I hope we can be good friends!”

Tokoyami watches you as you talk to the girls, the other guys around him talking about how cute you were and speculating what your quirk was. He couldn't help the way his heart would race every time you would look around the room until your eyes fell on him, he wasn’t always glad he had a bird head but he was in that moment, because you couldn't make him blush on the outside, you only affect his heart. 

“So your quirk is similar to Tokoyami’s except your’s is with the light and not the shadow.” you nod as you use your quirk to blend the light around Kira, making her visible to everyone now and not just you. She flicks her hair and it glitters with fractured light “yet she makes me hide away” she says dramatically with a huff, hoping she could get some sympathy from the teacher but she was dreadfully mistaken. “We’re going to run through these tests and if you fail you’re out of my class” you gulp, but nod once, getting into the right mindset as Kira sighs, rolling her eyes, before nodding and squaring her shoulders. 

“You passed, barely. You’re free to go. I’ll have make-up tests for you from what we covered at the beginning of the semester, they won't be due until the end of the semester but you will have to do them” you nod once and then he turns and walks away, rubbing his eyes. 

“I dont keep you hidden on purpose. It just takes a lot out of me to hold your form” you say through pants as Kira fades back into the light, blending into invisibility. “I know. I know. I’m you so i know everything. I just like to give you a hard time” she pats your head and you chuckle before walking out towards the new dorms. 

“So that’s why she was different” He says from his spot at the window “she is beautiful” Dark Shadow adds beside him “the light hurts you if you don't remember” Dark Shadow sighs, sounding like a lovesick creature “it doesn't hurt me per say, it just makes me weak, which she already does” he drones and Tokoyami rolls his eyes. “Don’t act like i don't know how the human girl makes you feel, i know your thoughts” Tokoyami just ignores Dark Shadow as he gathers his things up from his studies, maybe he’d offer to show you around the dorms or something, either way, he’d talk to you somehow. Probably. If he could get the guts up for it. 

After getting back to the dorms, Mina and Asui take your hands and show you around, giving you the grand tour. When they get to your room you find a collage of decorations that spelled out your name on your door “aww that’s so cute guys!” you say and Mina squeals, “just wait!” she says and then she opens the door. 

Inside is all the other girls and a few of the guys, one you think is called Deku and the other was the boy with many arms, he must have moved the furniture around. He looked sheepish and sweet. You look at all of their smiling faces before you realize that your boxes were unpacked and your bed was made. You gasp and look around the room with wonder, they had even decorated. “Guys” you whisper and blink away tears “this is so nice. This means so much to me you have no idea” your eyes land back on the group of kids and Mina steps forward “we’re glad you like it, we thought you might be mad but we wanted to do something to welcome you. We left your clothes packed though” you laugh “okay. Thank you. Really. I wasn’t looking forward to unpacking. And you decorated!” Yaoyorozu steps forward “I hope you dont mind, but we added a few things from our rooms as well” she points out the wall behind you and you turn, gasping again and going over to it, a collage of different things from them, little pieces of their personalities, pictures and posters form their rooms and a few from the others here.

One poster in the middle catches your eye “this is AMAZING! Is this the rare all might poster from the-” Deku cuts you off and steps forward “yes!  From issue 234 of the” you finish the sentance with him “heroes of the world magazine!” you laugh with him “thank you! They dont sell that magaizine in america, i only read about it online.” he scratches the back of his neck “it’s no problem, i have two” you gasp “You have TWO OF THEM?” Mina laughs “he has more than that you should see his room” she gasps and grabs Ochakos hand “we should show her our rooms too!” “wait!” you shout and they look at you, you grin “did you guys find my star stickers?”

Every room you saw you rated, extremely generously because it was fun, and gave their door a colored star sticker. 

Mina- “12/10 and a gold star. I LOVE the pink! 3 red stars for that because I don’t have pink” 

 Ochako- “12/10 and a gold star. I feel really comforatble here. Very Homey. 4 blue stars because blue makes me feel like home for some reason”

Yaoyorozu - “100/10 because omg girl your bed is a dream. Three gold stars for that bed alone” she blushed, she was a little embarrassed about it before but now she feels glad. 

Jirou- “19823429347/10 are you KIDDING ME? You’re so badass Jirou! Maybe if you have some time we can jam out sometime, i’m decent at the guitar. Let me know” you smile and place every color of star on her bedroom door as she blushes in the corner

Hagakure- “I love the cherries! And the stars! This is so cute! 11/10!” she claps when you place gold stars on her door

You go through the boys rooms, fangrling over Deku’s and placing red, blue, silver, and gold stars on his door. 

When you get to the last room on the list, Tokoyami, they all make excuses and try to bypass it, saying it was too dark and scary to see again, but on your way back to your room you shake your head, what could be so bad? Kira whispered to you and you nodded, sneaking back and knocking on his door. 

“Hi” you say when he opens it a crack. “I was wondering, could I see your room? Everyone else showed me theirs and i was curious what made yours so creepy” he looked you over once, before Dark Shadow pulls the door open the rest of the way “come on in! Hey where's your friend?” you furrow your bows as you’re herded in the room by dark shadow “he means your quirk partner” Tokoyami says as he faces away from you, embarrassed that everyone thinks his room is scary.

“Im right here!” Kira says but she doesnt show up, the darkness drowning out any powers she may have had alone. You chuckle and concentrate the last of your energy, pulling light from the open doorway and his purple lamps to build her form better, “it’s not that i hide her, her form is just made out of the light, so it’s harder to keep her visible. Tokoyami, Dark Shadow, this is Kira.” as Dark Shadow and Kira talk about their lives being attached to someone, you look around Tokoyami’s room as he just stands awkwardly. 

“Your room is SO cool” you say softly as you gawk at his decorations, you’d keep your room like this if it wasn't so hard on Kira “look at this!” you exclaim as you hold up his skull decoration with glowing red eyes and he chuckles in shock, you were so cute, so bright and bubbly, literally made out of sunlight, and you liked his room? He was so intrigued by you. “This is the skull of Yorick, the king's jester” you say in a dramatic voice and then giggle as you set down the skull and look at his other things. His heart was beating out of his chest, how were you so perfect? And WHY WASN'T HE SAYING ANYTHING?! 

You make your way slowly around his room, your hand running along the edge of a cape that was on the back of his desk chair, you point to a poster in the middle of his collage, a band that you listen to often “is that from their last tour? Did you go?” He pops out of his head band takes a step towards you “no I couldn’t go, unfortunately. They’re my favorite band” you beam at him and he feels his heart pop out more butterflies that flood his veins “they my favorite too! We should go to a concert sometime together, if you’d like” yes. You have killed the resident bird boy. “I/ I - uh - I - *Tokoyami brain go:@•#[*“ Dark Shadow and Kira move closer to you guys “he's trying to say he would really like that” Dark Shadow says, patting Tokoyami on his back as Kira giggles. Tokoyami brushes Dark Shadow away 

You feel a little dizzy and Kira flickers for a moment before fading “sorry I’m just at my limit. Mr Aizawa goes hard” you laugh and Kira sighs dramatically. “Are you okay? The dark probably doesn’t help. Maybe you should go” Tokoyami forgot about his nerves and shyness, just for a moment, now worried for you.

You laugh “the darkness makes it harder for Kira but I’m okay with it. But I should go I don’t want to impose” when you get to his door Kira says goodbye to Dark Shadow, and he hands her a small piece of paper and you turn to Tokoyami, who’s watching the exchange a little confused “it’s for our collage in our room, Mina and the others gave us some things to make it feel like home, posters and pictures. Thank you for showing me your room,” you place your hand on his arm gently “no matter what anyone says it’s a freaking amazing room, not scary at all” you smile warmly and he feels his tongue get thick in his mouth, his palms start to sweat, “th-thank you” he nods and then panic flashes through his eyes “wait!” He says before you turn and he walks back into his room, grabbing the poster you commented on and handing it to you “for-“ he clears his throat “for your collage” you beam up at him, excitement on your face and on your voice “really? You don’t have to! It’s your favorite! I couldn’t-“ he chuckles, and a surge of confidence finds him, finally, as he says boldly, albeit a bit shaky from his nerves  “I insist. I’ll get another when we go to a show together” a soft sound of elated shock escapes your throat, one that he really liked hearing, as you gaze up at him “thank you, Tokoyami” 

After his door closes you place a gold sticker on it before walking away “What did he give you?” You ask Kira “this drawing!” She shows you a small piece of paper with a quick pen drawing Dark Shadow made of him and Kira. It was adorable honestly. You chuckled softly as she sighed like she was love sick.The next day you find the picture hung up by your mirror, on its own special place Kira chose. 

The next few weeks flew by, you spent all your free time studying and having Yaomomo tutor you so you could turn in all your make up work in the first month, hoping to make your way on Aizawa’s good side, which by the nod he gave you you’re pretty sure it worked. To celebrate Mina suggests a movie night at the dorms and everyone, even Bakugou who you haven’t even spoken to once, agreed, which honestly shocked you. 

You put on a pair of cotton shorts and a big sweatshirt before grabbing a soft blanket and heading downstairs, the smell of popcorn hitting you before the elevator doors opened. “Hey y/n! Do you like scary movies?!” Mina asks as you enter the kitchen area. “Yeah I do! Are we going to watch one?” Half of the kitchen sighs and Mina laughs “it was a tie that you just decided!” You laugh “sorry guys” you scratch the back of your neck before Mina grabs your hand, dragging you to the couches and pulling you down next to her. 

“So do you like anyone yet? It’s been a month, do you have any eyes on any of the boys?!” She asks excitedly and you chuckle as a few other girls come over “Don’t get me started!” Kira exclaims, making the girls laugh as you structure her form “Dark Shadow is just dreamy” she swoons as Dark Shadow waves at her from across the room.

“And how about you y/n? Do you like Tokoyami  maybeeee?” Hagakure’s singsong voice makes you laugh “yeah, he’s really kind, and very interesting. But my plan is just to wait and see if anyone likes me, before i make up my mind” “ARE WE GOING TO START THIS OR WHAT?” Bakugou shouts as he walks into the room, making everyone chuckle and Mina pop to her feet “OKay guys buckle up! It’s a scary one tonight!” Mina gets it set up and then takes her place on the floor on her stomach, the place to your right staying empty. 

“Dark Shadow wants to sit next to Kira” Tokoyami says while avoiding your eye contact shyly and you smile “of course!” you pat the seat and he sits beside you stiffly, nervously “but Kira is too bright for the movie so if you want i can make her like a shadow in the dark, the opposite of light.” Kira is one step ahead of you as she pulls a little power from you to phase herself as someone puts out the lights “now SHUT IT” Bakugou shouts again as the movie begins, ominous music filling the room. 

“No no no” you whispered under your breath as the guy in the movie ran straight down the same path the murderer was on, you put your hands in front of your face, looking through your fingers as the music gets even more intense. The moment you see the knife moving your body is turning of its own volition, into the shoulder of the boy on your right, a scared gasp leaving your mouth. 

“Are you okay?” he asks quietly and you nod into him “is it over?” you whisper back, and he nods “yeah” you chuckle and move your head up to meet his eye “sorry, Tokoyami” you go back to watching the movie but the action is repeated every time someone dies, soon your hand finds his under your blanket that had got tossed over you both and Hagakure to your left. He’d squeeze it every time the scene ended to let you know it was over, you felt your heart race every time. 

When the movie ended you stayed there, holding his hand under your blanket as your friends crawled around the couch to discuss the craziness of that movie,  “i did not expect that the killer was actually the aunt of the boy’s friend he lived with in college, total TWIST”Mina talking absolute nonsense as you chuckled, Hagakure leaning against you “but that fireman was so handsome, i need to look that actor up online.” 

Tokoyami was talking to Todoroki on the other side of the couch, where he was sitting on a table chair, Tokoyami explaining the strange twist that Todoroki didn’t understand, absentmindedly squeezinng you hand every once in a while as he spoke. Your thumb brushes against his and he remembers that he’s holding your hand. My god, he’s holding your hand. How did he get so lucky. 

Kira had a form again, comforting Dark Shadow about him being scared when the house was on fire. your heart felt warm, you felt truly at home in this small, second family, you had made at school, you were truly lucky to be having these experiences.