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july-19th-club · 7 months ago

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forced myself to finish this book even though by the last hundred pages or so all i was doing was picking apart the post-catholicism of it all. bc i feel like it's important to read shit you don't gel with . just because. even though the whole way through i was like they HAVE to prove it's not real. they HAVE to. so not the point of any of it but i was desperate for them to Find The Body etc. and of course instead they have mystical time travel experiences and all that because that is the kind of book the actual star is but i was desperate for them to realize that the star you see is the actual star. and then it wasn't

#the actual star #like i me? personally? am a staunch and firm believer that the star you see is the actual star #i dont cotton to the concept of 'higher levels of consciousness'#or 'transcendence' or the concept that the world is not the home #like. do i think people can put themselves in altered states of consciousness? sure. but none of those states are higher or better #it's just drugs or whatever. hallucination. sleep deprivation. really good/bad mood. brainwaves #i like aggressively dont believe that shit #but the book and the characters here DO. and i had to go with it while trying not to nitpick it too hard the entire time #not my favorite experience but one i was determined to have anyway just to see the thing through to the end #i think my favorite timeline was a tossup between the 1012 and the 3012. but the 3012 mostly in the beginning when it was all worldbuilding #by the end it was getting more mystical and i had too many issues with the future society that weren't going to have time to be resolved #which was very clearly also not the Point Of The Book which is a big one for loose threads and 'decoherence of meaning'#the 1012 plot was more engaging on a throughline level. i enjoyed it beginning middle to end just wish ket had been there more #she was sort of a decoy protagonist she got a couple chapters and then it was all the twins lethally misunderstanding each other #this is also a book which really really gets into entropy which #well first of all its scary. entropy. but secondable it's not as big of a noticeable deal as youd think it would be #what the fuck ever you're alive #who cares if everything is going to fall apart in eight billion years #there's a bit in the last xander chapter where he's like oh i HATE everything i HATE the earth!!! ok and you're about to have #the most formative experience of your life and build a cult around it. on the foundational idea that the earth isnt as real as heaven is #babeeeeeeeeeeeeeee the catholicismmmmmmmmmmmmmm #this book. more than anything. made me think about all of the 3012 jewish buddhist etc ppl living in sedente communities like #watching all of this from the sidelines wondering when Christianity 2 is going to fall apart under its own weight #now THAT'S entropy babey

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