#idk how to explain it fdskl everything just feels cluttered even when it's been freshly organized and cleaned | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

clockworksheep2 · 1 month ago

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kind of want to start transitioning into a more cleancut "adult" vibe to ... if not my bedroom then at least my deskspace in the rec room. it's just difficult because the kids in the system and Sunny love childish decor (and I do too tbh fdsjkl) but it is just so visually cluttered and I think I will feel a bit better and less scattered and overwhelmed if there is less visual clutter. autism moment LMAO.

#also irl friend's comment about my bedroom looking like a childhood bedroom is still bugging me a little bit fdsjkl #and she knows now why it looks so childish. there are children in the brain LOL they feel safer if it looks more kid-friendly #but i am just losing my mind slowly bc i literally put up Any and All decor that i have #i stick things on the walls simply bc i have them. i think i want to be more purposeful with it now #esp bc i have money to use to choose my belongings with more care and freedom!#but also i worry if i get rid of anything then it'll just end up in the landfill.... but i know i am in danger of becoming a hoarder #it runs in the family fdsjkl my dad's dad is very much a hoarder unfortunately #why is my family all so fucked up 😭 i've got the worst genetics i swear to god fsdjkl #anyways. i need to think on this. looking at pinterest rn for some motivation to keep cleaning FHSDJKL #and i am seeing some rly nice decorating ideas that are a bit cleaner and more grown-up and ... it looks so nice sdfjkl #i would like my space to Feel clean when it's clean. rather than just... physically tidy. i want the vibes to also feel clean!!#idk how to explain it fdskl everything just feels cluttered even when it's been freshly organized and cleaned #i've always considered myself a ''maximalist'' in terms of decorating but now i just. want things to be clean 😭😭😭#i'm tired of dust and tired of having issues cleaning bc theres too much stuff to move etc etc etc #i think i want to only have an excess of craft/art supplies and clothing. everything else does not rly bring me joy methinks #i love clothes and fashion and upcycling w that stuff and i love making art!!! so i think i will try to focus on those w my belongings #damn i rly am spring cleaning huh LOL #🐑🌻

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