#im insecure tonight

[turtleplushi]

I need to stop drawing them my god

[greghatecrimes]

"it's just house md it's not that big of a deal-" actually this show has transformed my view and understanding of love for the better and helped me put things to words that i never thought i'd be able to express. so i'm gonna love it dearly and analyze it probably more than the writers intended until the end of time<3

[dangaer]

officially on holiday until the 22nd!

[klanced]

this isn’t even about my evil agenda anymore I actually just need to hear your dissertation on voltron/klance x first love late spring

you do evil things to my dick and balls. i hope you know that.

first love / late spring is a very keith-core song, but i think it also applies to both keith and lance... but more specifically, FL/LS is keith pre-relationship, and then FL/LS is lance once they have already started dating.

i'm obsessed with that one interview of mitski where she explained that she wrote this song while she was experiencing her vulnerable first love... and first love is vulnerable. you simultaneously reap the rewards of being known but at the same time, you've now let someone else know you, and now you have to trust them to take care of you. and it's so vulnerable. it's more naked than being naked. and it's so difficult as well because now you're learning a brand new way you can be hurt.

so keith, pre-relationship... he's pining for lance and he is MISERABLE. he's lost control! he feels like he's being consumed by the enormity of his feelings. he's eight years old and small and never asked for this, he never wanted to know he could feel this way. he just wants lance to fucking go already. keith wants to spit vitriol and blame and shame and drive lance away so that when lance leaves him (and he will leave him, like everyone else has), then at least it will be on keith's own terms for once. and keith doesn't, he refuses, to say how he feels. he'll spitefully choke on his confession until it suffocates him. he doesn't want to know what lance might say.

but he also is afraid of lance's reaction because... if lance gives him even a sliver of ground, if there's even a promise of a chance -- keith will fold instantly. he will jump into this love headfirst. he'll do anything if it will make lance stay with him.

and then lance, mid-established relationship... things with keith are perfect, everything is going great, so why does lance feel so anxious all the time? why does he feel so scared when keith looks at him like he's his whole world? maybe the problem is lance. because what they have is real. because he's pretty sure keith is it for him. and that terrifies lance. because lance, deep down, knows he's going to screw this up. and it's not just his heart on the line; he's also going to hurt keith.

keith smiles at him and lance feels sick to his stomach. he wants to tell keith that they might be happy right now, but eventually, lance is going to ruin this. he wants to warn keith that lance is going to break his heart one day.

lance isn't always so negative about himself. during the day, it's easy to let himself be buoyed and enveloped by his feelings for keith. he loves being in love with keith. because the love is real. it's real, and it's there, and that matters. but at night, all those poisonous insecurities and anxieties rear their ugly head, and lance finds himself standing on a ledge over a drop. lance daydreams about spending the rest of his life with keith; lance has never felt so young and small.

[galpalkirk]

okay but ttpd is the perfect loustat album

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Am I the only one who likes the costume Magneto has at the end of First Class? I mean I get it looks cheap, but the helmet looks GREAT. Wish it wasn't just discarded in Days of Future Past

i agree with you pretty much to a T: i LOVE the helmet it's PHENOMENAL, but the costume itself just isn't it...

[lazaruspiss]

I like Dick being romani as much as the next guy, but his situation in particular is one where im like. yeah, it's understandable if you'd rather not. firstly bc he was just white for most of his 80+ years of existing, and secondly bc the origins of making him romani are just straight up racial stereotyping... It's a hornets nest.

but as for why i keep it in my image of him. he's just so deeply detached from his heritage in a way that i find kinda comforting. im not romani specifically, but due to my family background, i have little to no connection to any cultural heritage on my moms side (and neither does she, really). Dick's relationship with his heritage isn't explored well from what I've seen of it, but the concept itself is meaningful. the concept of being detached. finding out there's a part of you, a part of your family that's different from what you thought it was. different from what you thought of yourself. different from what people think of you. you don't know it at all. It doesn't feel like it's yours to claim. a disconnect. It's isolating, but knowing you're not alone in your loneliness is an important concept, I think. I like the idea for its potential rather than the execution of it. I don't think I'm explaining this well, partially bc the whole thing brings up a lot of my own messy feelings.

TLDR: the actual stories about Dick's being romani aren't done well, but the bare-bones concept of it is something that resonates with me.

[kcntsugi]

..

[kangals]

i miss my dog.

[hyewka]

RANA MILESTONEEEE

ok lol this is kind of insane and i was not prepared for this at all but regardless HAPPY 4000🎉🎉🎉😭 i love you all so much i genuinely dont know how we got here like at all.

[uldahstreetrat]

alright, I need about 3.8mil gil yet today so order of operations on that is gonna be beast tribe dailies, dungeons I can solo to turn in gear for seals to buy coke, listing as many crafting crystals as I can afford to give up on Q'ihnn for sale, and then rinse and repeat on Ophianne

also thank you to everyone who has offered to give me the gil I need for this, I really appreciate it it's so sweet of you <3 unfortunately im insane and this is a personal challenge now but if I'm still at this by 11pm maybe, uh,,, maybe I'll accept some help aha

[solosatan]

thinking about mc and satan bonding over shared identity issues post lilith reveal. i know this trope has been done to death but theres so much to do with it aghhhhhh

[ab-cedario]

there’s nothing worse than loving someone more than they love you. than missing someone so badly when you barely even cross their mind. i feel like i’m suffocating all the time. i can’t even breathe because i love you so much. my love for you follows me like a damn shadow. and god i just want to SCREAM. please please PLEASE love me. please love me even half as much as i love you. please please please i’ll take any scrap you’ll give me. i’ll take a half smile, a one word text, a half hug. please just show me you care. please just love me back

[cas---2y5]

inexperienced at processing feelings but fuck it, I’m doing my best!

[kafus]

feels like i'm constantly grieving my body before 2020 when i could actually draw as much as i wanted to

[phagodyke]

ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.