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viridiave · 7 months ago

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ahhhh calling them fic logs might be charitable actually because all I want to do when I write is complain and over-explain my own fucking logic until I stumble into an answer that makes me go 'ohhhh THAT'S why I wrote that line'

i say this every time but i write like i'm flying by the seat of my pants and it turns out I have a LOT of complaining to do

i really want to delude myself into thinking that like. I'm writing something meaningful but what this really is is just me having a lack of restraint when it comes to ideas. Like I'll start injecting an entire backstory onto that kid Miguel smacked around in Alfyn's Chapter 3 because I was like 'Saintsbridge is a little fucked up if you think about it' one day and now I'm staring down a script including Timothy and it's like 'why in the fresh HELL does this make sense actually.'

I dunno who really cares about seeing any of that unfold except for me. I throw words onto the screen and hope people care about it enough to think that it isn't a pointless diversion from the characters that 'matter'

#timely visits #vir's fic logs #it's a bit of a sobering thought getting so excited about NPCs that barely anyone remembers #I don't want to be conceited and say I'm the only one who DOES care #but it's a little. TRYING when I structure an entire plot around them #that's what I think sometimes when I started going beyond my original scope #the truth is that I can't actually force myself to think that anyone in that world is on a certain level of mattering #so I worry that it's a real problem for people who came expecting eisenbright #I've been reassured before that it's not but I just can't help but wonder occasionally

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