#its p goood...

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

i haven't forgotten abt that poll i made at the start of summer, i've just been thinking how to properly introduce things

[calamity-pantheon]

Started playing SIGNALIS today (by that, around 1 and a half hours before TRYING to sleep) and...other than the fact I forget how to breathe for a moment because I'm constantly holding my breath...woah

Soo tall

[radiokathryn-if]

guess who might have carpal tunnel...

: )

in all seriousness, sorry I've been somewhat m.i.a this previous week (and a bit) things seem to keep happening irl lmao.

thank you to those of you who have kept sending in asks! and my thanks to those who have followed and reblogged the intro post during this past week!!

i'm gonna get back to answering asks and take a small break from (the serious long time) writing!

[videostak]

ordered a specific old pressing CD of king tubby meets rockers uptown cause it had the original album cover (the shanachie 1980something CD i have has different art thats of pablo playing the melodica as opposed to the og album cover which is a photograph of pablo behind a wall of posters n flyers n stuff) and like had already read on discogs that the shanachie cd was the superior one cause it was probably audio from a master tape or just v cleaned up and that the CD i got today was supposed to have bad very clear audible vinyl rip audio with audible cracks n pops of the record but i still got the CD anyways cause og album art goes hard and also unlike the shanachie CD it correctly lists track 7s name as king tubby meets rockers uptown as opposed to the shanachie one which mislists it as braces tower dub and also i think mislistss a lot of the names following that track due to the order being off by one or smthn. anyways when it came i was like wait this audio quality is kinda dogshit u can hear audible cracks and pops from the record lol but like i already knew that b4 so i dont know what i was expecting.

[liches-covered-in-lich]

@bunniletto

boooooooooo BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I FUCKING HATE THIS ANIMATIO

[shidoglazer]

rin claims that his hobbies are watching horror movies and playing horror games but it's actually having you on his lap while playing with your tits and fingering you.

#needthat

his hobbies

rin itoshi smut mdni ＠shidoglazer

people think rins favourite activity during his days off would be horror movies and athletes conditioning, or maybe watching a football match or perhaps movies that include gore and blood.

they’re all wrong. because this is his favourite activity— your thighs being spread open by his legs as your sat on his bulge, completely stripped and vulnerable for him while he uses one hand to pinch and fiddle with your perky tit and the other one tracing down to your glistening pussy to play with it.

his fingers weren’t slender or specially long, but they were girthy and thick, just 2 fingers in you was able to make you whimper and squirm like an idiot, “you can’t even take my fingers, how’re you gonna hold up when i put my cock into you, princess?” with that stupidly smug tone of his.

you should be embarrassed from how loud your pussy slicks whenever his fingers move, you should be hating how smug and arrogant he sounded, yet the only thing you’re able to say or do is moan out his name like its a prayer.

“riiinnn, rinn,, p-lease! ah! rin, rin rin rinn,, rinnnnnnnnn!..” your back arched away from his stomach as he hooked his fingers upwards, rubbing against your g-spot. he placed tender kisses against the side of your head, a contrast from how rough his fingers are fucking into you.

“you’re going dumb on my fingers?” he asked, mumbling against your head, his voice vibrating throughout your skull. your hands gripped onto his thighs, letting out a breathy moan,

“rinn,, w’na cumm, wan c-cum, ple-ase!” you begged before your body jerked upwards when rin pinched onto your tit particularly hard. “y’didnt answer my question, pretty. are you going dumb on my fingers? say it f’me.” your mouth fell agape, trying to voice something out with a strained voice, it was hard to keep composure when his fingers were basically like a sex machine,

“i-i, going,, d’mb- on your ffingers!” you managed to get out of your throat as he continued his assault on your pussy.

“goood girl.” his fingers left your hole and trailed up to your sensitive bud, starting to rub against it furiously before your moans started coming out like a raging waterfall.

after you came, you desperately tried to crawl away from rins hold with shaky legs and a fucked out hole before your body dragged against the mattress as rin yanked you back by your ankles, flipping you over and holding your head to his chest. his fingers that were just in your hole tilted your chin up gently, revealing a face smothered in smudged mascara and tears. it was so, so, so wrong that the corners of his lips threatened to be pulled up as he saw that sight.

don’t worry, he’ll always end up pampering after pleasuring you dumb no matter how rough he was, he’ll set up a bath for you, feed you, dress you up in your pretty silky pyjamas and even do your skin care for you without you needing to move a muscle.

so yes— his favourite hobby isn’t watching horror movies or scary games, its pleasuring his girl until she falls apart in his arms.

★ check out my masterlist pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls plsplslspppslpslpslpsls i literally write BANGERS

[itsyouch]

some fanart for a fanfic I read called "Death is not an option here" by @ineedafuckingbreakpls! + more :]

BANGER name btw!!!

see... im a whump connoisseur and this fanfic hit every spot fr,

i love how fast Chosen just broke, it makes since because, if you think about it, Chosen had to deal with Alan's torture, fight Dark, get out of Alan's PC, then he has to kill his friend, and right after (probably) he gets captured by Victim and tortured all over again and its still because of Alan, even when he tried to forgive Alan he still is connected to his suffering, he never really got the chance to be free.

the way you made Chosen die in the very beginning AAAARRRRGGG OMG IT WAS SO GOOOD. AND VICTIM REALIZING THAT HE COULD SUMMON HIM BACK AND KEEP KILLING HIM WOWIEE!!!

this fic took me so long to read cuz every exciting thing that would happen, I would just immediately start jumping on the walls and yapp abt it to my friend (who recommended this fic to me)

this is my first time on ao3 so this fic being my first just WOWIE! YIPEEE! WOWZRERS! OMGA! I HOPE EVERY FIC I READ IS THIS GOOOD!

honestly I was so invested in this that when victim pulls up with some new torture method, I would just feels this perfect dread, I never get skirmish when I see/read gore, but when Victim started using the spiked whip, and you described it like

"He was trembling and struggling against the rope, trying to not pay attention to the chunks of his own meat stuck to the ground"

it made me shiver lol. but that was EVIL making Chosen count every time he gets hit with it (BUT GENIUS) also I had this idea I just wanted to share, you know the how Agent put the select box on Chosen's arm to stop him from moving? what if Victim just spun the box and snapped his arm off. ,':'p

you know, I have a lot to say abt this fic but I suck at expressing how I feel in writing💀

im yapping to much

[xenasaur]

Getting mommy dommed how you describe would be sooooo goood but I'd probably cry about being taken care of :P hopefully you're okay with that.

yes baby, of course it's okay to cry <3

mommy's going to kiss away every last tear, okay? come snuggle up tight, it's okay. I know you haven't been treated right for a long time, but mommy's gonna do its best to fix that now. you deserve a mommy who understands your struggles, who always wants to work together with you to solve the problem, and who will accept and love you no matter what. you deserve a mommy who will hold you tight and comfort you when you're scared, who will gently get all the tangles out of your hair and brush it for you, who will reassure you when your trauma tells you it'll leave just like everyone else. you deserve good things anon. you deserve a loving mommy <3

[attex]

ii think i say this before probabky but i want to say again raaaaaa

i looveeee urrr aaarrttt ii looooooooovoee how u color shade and place thingss i Looove urr linewsss i eat it up evertyime 

i loooooove how you do Comic stufffff i want to make comics jusr like u 🥺 uu are my inspirationnnnnnn you inspire n motivate meee to pick up peeeenn and try animating and making m owwwn little comiicsss. drawings s

i looooove looooove your worksssssssss theyree soo gooooodddd i stare for hours eeverydayyy theyre likkee so soothing on mmyyy braain 

uuuu areeeee myyy fav arttisttt uuu are mm yy comfort artist!. raaaaaaaaaaaahh

continueeeee to be awesome foreeeverr don't liiistennnn to the haterss ur too cool for them

wwwhwenver ii get your art(s) oooon my feed thingy i ssmilee i cheeer up likke yaaaay yaay yiiippee yyeeey another attex banger hiphiphoooraaaaay 

aaand then i ooom om nom nom iiittt because it is sooo goood idont knwo how explaaain!!! /gen /p

OK i dont even know how to respond but thank you a lot, its an honor to be that influential? i wish you well in your possible comic creation endeavors cuz that shjit isvery sisyphean but it is very satisfying when you do it anyway LOL . i will continue to make my gay shit thank you yet again<3

[serendertothesquad]

Seren's Studies: The Odd Squad UK Gadget-Making Competition Video

I was originally going to make this into a longer post where I discuss Odd Squad UK more in-depth, but to keep things simple (and to avoid frying my brain), I'm going to keep this and another post separated. They will be linked, though, so keep an eye out for an edit and a reblog in the coming months.

We got a first taste of OSUK a little over a week ago, and with it came quite a few things to dissect. Because Season 2 can't be the only season that gets something UK-exclusive that never made its way to the States and never will. Curl up, try to cry, cry anyway.

Join me below the break as I make a Thanksgiving feast out of mere crumbs. Or try to, anyway.

Those of you who have been in the loop might have seen the BTS photos of the UK Headquarters on Instagram. This is what I can safely assume is the bullpen, going by the seal, the desk on the right with some kind of a green form, and...well I mean fuckin' look at it.

As you can see, it's an incredibly stark difference from the Headquarters seen in the past three seasons, though this one looks similar to S1 and S2's, for, y'know, obvious reasons. It actually looks more like something you'd see in some kind of a government building, like your local city hall or the DMV, than anything else.

There's not even any sliding doors either! Which is...well, I mean I watched Season 3, this surprises me next to none.

Take it all in...take it in...

...You took it in? Goood, goooooood. Moving on.

"NOT SO ANDROGYNOUS NOW IS SHE. HAPPY PRIDE MONTH, BITCHES."

-- The CBBC, probably, maybe

Anyway, this is our first look at a living, moving, breathing Captain Oooooooooooooh whoa what the FUCK is at the end of her ropes? Are...are those knitting needles? Stabby-stabs?

I'm...what even are those?

Okay, okay, someone else can answer that. I'm moreso interested in the smartwatch she's wearing, because Oprah and other Directors in the past haven't worn smartwatches. That, combined with how nautical she looks, donning upper clothing usually reserved for male Directors, and having a unique title, makes her have a rather unique appearance.

"Orwell, I am giving a speech. What do you want."

"Someone stole your copy of Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban."

"Damn it!"

Jokes aside, we now get to the second newly-debuted living breathing moving character of this very short video: Orwell, a Security agent who's about as cheerful as someone whose entire family got run over by Cybertrucks. I don't know if I ever made this joke in any public form before, but in promotional images, he reminds me of Fin Tutuola and...well, with this video, the comparison just launched itself outta my head. Just a lil'. Not a whole lot. Only a lil'.

Yeeeeeah...I'm starting to see how this is poorly edited. Captain O's and Orwell's voices coming through two different audio channels instead of the same one, no BGM in the beginning...this weird-ass cut to Ozzie...I mean I don't expect high quality, but come now. For one of the first promotional things for Odd Squad UK, you'd think they'd do better.

...

This is just a regular-ass home, isn't it. Lookit that Backrooms-esque kitchen there. Lookit the hypnosis wheel ta- no seriously, whose home is this, and if it's Ozzie's, why? And if it's Headquarters...again, why?

I do appreciate the tea set, though. The tea set is to the UK what sharing actors is to Canada. Don't do it, don't get tax credits.

"The Mondays? In my Christian Headquarters?! Inconceivable! Blasphemous!"

No but seriously, this is the most unserious shit I have ever seen from Odd Squad as a franchise, and that is genuinely saying something. The Mondays isn't an odd disease. It's not an odd illness that will grant you extra limbs or make your blood turn blue. It's what everybody who has ever worked a paid job a single day in their life goes through.

*takes off the glasses* You're not boostin' my confidence, BBC.

"It doesn't matter what we seem to do. We can't put a smile on his face."

I'M AN ADUUUUUUUUULT!!!

WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD, JACKASS!!

(...Who the hell said McDonald's?)

*slaps on helmet*

Mmmmmmmmmhm. Strap in, human beings. This is where the real shit gets even realer.

So as you can see, Ozzie isn't in his Investigation agent suit here. Promotional material has shown that he's in that suit pretty much all the time, and given how Orli doesn't appear in this video, it's safe to say that we can plop it into the pre-series era.

This specific department had people in the fandom theorizing for the longest time about what it was. Was it a new look for the Creature department? An updated piece of clothing from the Mobile Unit department? A new department enti- oh shit, wait, that's actually it, isn't it.

Yeah, so if you look at the wings on the hexagon symbol there, it's clear to see that this is some kind of a flight department. I'm just going to quote part of the official show synopsis here, so you folks can get a view of what I'm trying to get at:

Not to worry, brand-new agents Orli and Ozzie are on the case. Their job is to solve the toughest and oddest cases now wreaking havoc across the land, sea, and sky (and even that hard-to-reach area behind the couch cushions).

I might as well spit out a theory (one of few, believe you me) that have been spinning in my mind like a nuked rotisserie chicken clinging to life ever since Odd Squad UK was officially announced as a project.

*deep breath*

Okay. So. You guys know Captain O. Loves nautical things. Looks the part. Has assistants who look like sailors.

What if -- and hear me out for a moment -- what if she has a boat? One that can travel across the sea and across the sky?

For land, that's what the tubes are for. That's a nonissue. But for missions that involve going out onto open water or going high into the sky...that's what the boat is for. And if you have a boat that goes up into the sky, you're gonna need some agents who deal in flight matters.

Headcanon accepted. If you hear screaming at any point this fall, assume it's me.

*long exhale*

See, with Odd Squad, child actors can be hit-or-miss. Some, like Dalila Bela and Millie Davis, knock their roles right outta the park, sometimes even going beyond their abilities and really getting into character (for those two specifically, Olive and Oprah are relatable to their personalities as actors, so it makes things easier). Some are okay -- they're neither good nor bad. And some just don't have the range.

The kid playing Orwell here...is on the latter end.

I get it. It's a video out of a twelve "testing the waters for another season or series" episodes of a UK-based spinoff series in a franchise that keeps going nose-down. I shouldn't go in expecting top-notch quality. I'm setting the bar low, as are a host of other people. And I have absolutely no disrespect against the kid who plays Orwell, because for God sakes, I have standards. But twelve episodes of stiff, the-script-might-as-well-be-in-the-damn-hands-when-filming acting like this is gonna be really hard to stomach, especially since Orwell is a main character.

Getting back to gooder things: this "yeeeeeeah, obviously" bit made me laugh harder than it should've. There is no customer service persona for Orwell here. Concept is foreign to him.

Onom is, unfortunately, not in this episode. However, I do appreciate that the Lab is just as eccentric as he is. Not even Precinct 13579's Lab was this crazy!

(And if you're wondering who Onom is: he's the brother of the Pokemon Snom.)

(...No, I'm kidding. He's our Science man for this series. The gods are returning to their roots.)

this video is about viewers making a gadget

orwell grabs a gadget for absolutely no reason other than by proxy

If this is giving a hint to contest entrants, they sure are being vague as hell about it.

If this is not giving a hint to contest entrants, Orwell's taking the gadget like it's the thing that made Onom go vamoosh in the first place.

...

Hold up-

Wake up? Drank.

Feel sad? Drank.

Go to work? Drank.

Get paid jack shit? Drank.

Take a shower? Drank (with the tea bag you showered yourself with).

Last season, they didn't commit enough to a whole entire newspaper page and had to use Lorem ipsum text.

This series, they have someone write words on a paper that are actually read.

I don't know, guys, that says a hell of a lot of things quality-wise.

I see Onom's leaning real damn hard into the Oona archetype, because you can bet your damn asses she would pull this shit on Olympia, Otis, and Oprah with absolutely no remorse.

...No, let me correct myself: she has pulled this shit on them with absolutely no remorse. And fuck it, she'll do it again.

They were probably expecting people to react like Captain O here.

In reality, my body folded in on itself so hard the local urgent care place became a 24/7 business.

...I'm starting to realize what that one person said about OSUK making references to past seasons/series now. I laughed it off. I said "in 12 episodes, that'll never happen."

But it did.

And it will haunt me so.

The Emergency Un-Monday Protocol is the Odd Squad version of workplaces telling you "we're like a family".

It's an unneeded red flag that fucks people over royally.

0/10, sweet summer child didn't even try.

Let's be honest here: if Ozzie encapsulates the reaction you should have when listening to this left-audio-channel-only, bobbin-n-weavin', lip-syncing-does-not-exist bit, then that's...not really a good sign.

Oooohoho no. I'm not the gal to turn to, kiddos. Not when I get the Mondays every goddamn day of the week.

...You're pointing at a person who feels crushing depression every time she walks into a Target, what are you doing-

...God damn it, this eyebrow-raising makes me cackle. It's so unexpected.

Honestly, I might be asking too much of a series that has the episode span of 70% of anime, but I want more fourth-wall-breaking moments like this. Keep the meta alive!

"But please, no Slime-inators. I just washed my hair."

Ozzie's been to one too many Nickelodeon Kids' Choice Awards for his liking.

That, or he's taking after Otis and his "regular hair".

AH!! AAAAAAAAAHH!! YOU CAN SEE ALEXANDER CRACK A SMILE THERE!! I SAW IT!! I GOT MY GLASSES ON SUCKERS, I CAN SEE THAT SHIT.

Terrible audio balancing aside...and the terrible timing of the logo bouncing...

...Oh wow, that's the other logo. The secondary one. Kinda cool!

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So overall, this was...a rather disappointing first taste. Whether this sets the standard for the series remains to be seen, but I'm not all too hopeful. Maybe the September results video will see things improve.

That being said, the characters are at least pretty engaging thus far. I'll need to see them in action a little more to make any final decisions, though.

Like I said in the beginning, I'll be putting out a Seren's Study about OSUK when we get more info on it. I'm aiming for August, but it might come out in September when the results video does. We'll see.

For now, thanks for reading. If you want to see the video for yourself, it's here:

[toxycodone]

gwuuh i havent quite figured it out yet but im gonna say for now hes a widower? maybe? and swansea ive always hc'd as divorced, but ive got this image in my head of a little scene of him talking with swansea about all the things he used to do with his wife and what he loved about her and then just turning to swansea and getting all blushy cos for a second he looked a lot like her,,,,,,

and yea..... they do get drunk one night ...... and fuck nasty... twirling my hair hehe i imagine swansea would be super in denial about like his feelings towards him but he gets drunk on mouthwash one night (the kid had some and it looked like he was having.. well not a great time but there sure was something going on there) and something takes hold of him like. hes realized he might die on this ship. in fact its incredibly likely. so hes throwing caution to the wind and getting whatever he feels about this new guy out of his system while his system's still operational. to an outsider it probably looks like hatesex (and sounds like it, sorry guys) but theyre both having the times of their lives. maybe swansea is a bit of a bully about it cos dennis i think has that kinda autism where he loves following directions and pleasing people and swansea is tired of this guy having so much sway over his feelings with that dumb little smirk he does and how hes always poking around with those pretty hands and his long fingers and and and. so i think maybe he can be really mean to him. order him around. as a treat.

i was gonna write some cute domestic post-canon good ending shit for them but then i wrote this instead and got so hard i blacked out so. maybe that will be later. also im a bit tipsy rn so apologies if this doesnt make any sense :P

-munchies

jaw drop….gay old man sex my beloved hollllyyyyy

GOOOD THIS IS SO GOOD *starts jorkin my peanus* i agree,,,;Swansea is like “im straight but a hole is a hole” and says fuck it and just. Has sex w Dennis. Probably multiple times. Yeah. Drunk sex too can’t get it up so they just frot until both of em cum (sorry I’m crazy)

I know you got stumped w good end but I think it would be really funny if like. They got saved and Swansea has to deal w the fact that he. Is most definitely bi bc even when he’s sober he still thinks about kissing dennis

[romanticisingashislife]

S-1

Ep-4: Fuck it we ball

GOOOD DAAYYYYY LOVELY PEOPLE

i was sick smmm yesterdayyyyy but its fine i made it through girlbossed the study sess yeyeye i mean it was hard to resist the urge to like not study and take rest buttt i did it, Idk why but it feels like an achievement ykkkkk i am glad cuz today i might go to play garbaa

yesterday i thought bout getting into research as a career but i feel like that would take up alot of money idk..why do i feel so lost lol, LIKE SOMEONE TELL ME WHY RANDOMLY AT 3AM THE FEELING OF IMPENDING DOOM HITS ME RANDOMLY?!? like dude i am jus trynna solve some physics question LEAVE ME ALONE BROOOO

back to garba idk how to feel bout that too ,I mean play garba with my fam lol like my papa hates me spending my time with my friends eventho I am at home ALLLLL day idk what to do i jus gave up trynna ask if i speak smthg in defense of my friends he would jus pull the "now ur taking ur friend's side rather than ur own dad" card.. lol like dude :< like evenat garba all my fam is jus gonna get tired and i will be left alone :<<

Anyways theres nothing i can do bout it now lol :p so imma jus enjoy wtv is laid infront of meeeeee yeeeyyyyyyyyyyy, like FUCK IT WE BALL

(all credits to pintrest :P)

[intertexts]

HIIII ROS i am sorry i never replied to your reply to my ask from a while ago i am so bad at that ;-; in response to that kinda (bc we were talking about jhariah) i did see them live! 3rd concert ive ever been to in my life & it was life changing... i was front row n there was a baby mosh pit n i was with my best friends it was so good <3 i didn't get to see all the songs off TRUST CEREMONY live but if he tours again i will try to get tix because i must see CONTROL BABY live... my faves are control baby n fire4fun n russian doll <3 but it is my fave album ever created (except maybe Måneskin's Teatro D'Ira vol 1)

Dont wanna yap too much but other music im liking rn: Dua Saleh's ROSETTA ep; Missouri Surf Club's songs Rotten & Kingdom Come; Jean Dawson's entire discography generically but specifically SICK OF IT* and New Age Crisis; Ethel Cain's everything; and then im still consistent w the narcissist cookbook, an unkindness, sons of the illustrious father etc. I have been getting into a crazy amount of music since summer started though so there are sooooo many others but i wanna know what you're listening to! i like your music taste as ive said :3

ANYWAY I think i might just send another ask because this is ramble-y n u dont have to reply to it bc its overwhelming but!! Yeah hehe okay p. 1 - mare

HII HI HI no worries!!!!!!! all good i'm also really terrible at it!!!!!! hehe <33 jhariah concert & mosh pit is SO awesome though.. man.. thats so cool.... love that experience for u!!!! <333

checking out all of these rn they're SOO GOOD.... dua saleh ROSETTA ep literally going on the repeat playlist rn omg. ough. how have i not heard them before. holy fucking shit. missouri surf club goood i love the florence influence.... jean dawson & ethel cain WHOO!!!! hell yeag. god. u also have such good music dude. good shit.!!!!!!!

what have i been listening to!!! shit!!! this is gonna be LONG but u asked for it!!! a lot of morcheeba (big calm), de la soul (the grind date), sneaker pimps (bloodsport), tricky (maxinquaye) <- one of my all time faves, madvillainy, cibo matto (viva! la woman), yaeji (with a hammer), chai (wink)... summer to me is usually very hot & humid & sticky & dreamy to me (busted ac) so this is my laying on the floor staring at the fan vaguely dissociating rotation.

other than hip hop & trip hop-- dragon new warm mountain i believe in you by big thief!!!!!! somehow never listened to this one & i'm ill over it. & july flame (other all time fave) by laura veirs & central reservation by beth orton (<- huge recent discovery ill over her voice) & broken social scene self titled for my acoustic rotation...

heavier set: been getting BIG into creature feature they're literally so fun. i think u might like them tbh. american gothic is my fave so far!! summer is for shitty pop punk 2 me!! esp. when i actually have to Do Stuff & not lay on the floor melting. so. we the kings, fall out boy (cork tree & infinity on high), the cab, the academy is..., yellowcard, motion city soundtrack, alkaline trio :]

ALSO special mention 2 blue sky black death (slow burning lights, late nite cinema, noir) bc their instrumentals make me so insanely nostalgic & have been my writing soundtrack for the past month!!!!

[screampied]

HEYOOOO VAYGUS IT HAS BEEN A WHILLLEEEEEE I HAVE SO MUCH THINGS TO SAY TO YOU!!

FIRST HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SQUIRTQUEEN , WISH YA THE BEST🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 SECONDLY MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS 🎅 HOPE YOU GOT A GOOD TIME WITH YOUR FRIENDS YOUR FAM OR EVEN ALONE 💗💗💗 WHAT DID YOU GET 💌💌?? THIRDLY I GOTTA UPDATE YOU IN MY LIFE THERE HAS BEEN HAPPENING SO MUCH !!!!

but first I’ll answer to our last time we talked :are you still into song writing ? bc I kinda gave up ngl…I centered myself more on writing stories bc JHECIUEUEOCJ I love writing 🫂🫂 talking bout that the ‘birthing hips’ fic was sooooo goood I love when reader is smexay like that with stamina it’s so attractive urgh…

Awe also talked a bit about K-pop and our bias from enha and my bias is Sunoo too unless sunghoon is my bias too and niki is my ult… but I can choose so I guess after niki I’m an ot6 I can’t choose for the love of God…have you seen the drama with jungwon recently??? k and c-engenes be hating on everything fr. And about ATEEZ HIHIHIHIIHHIHII GUESSE WHAT I BOUGHT 2DAY!!!! THEIR ALBUM NICHSKHEOHOHF and I got 2 pcs of Mingi, one of yeosang and one of jongho <<333 I also got a mini mingi poster I swear the album I bought was mingi centered or smth… ahhh I’m so happay I ALSO LOVE THE LESSERAFIM THEME YOU NEVER MISS!!

and about my college life 🤗 I’m on vacations rn and let me tell you I kinda miss it.. I love the vibe, my friends I mean idk why but I love my life in college but I’m so happy about it bc remember how I was scared shitless months ago about not being able to make friends and all.. i finally feel safe in a workplace I’m so grateful fr. And I never have a dull moment, it’s fun, and my friends recently got on a double date and bagged their crush 🤭🤭🤭

ANYWAY I talked about my self sm how are you doing ? How’s been your life recently I wanna know :33 tell me about cool things that happened to you vayvayavyavayvayavay

BYE BYE VAYGOUSE IM SO HAPPY I TALKED WITH YOU AFTER A LONG TIME, KISS HAVE A GOOD DAY NIGHTS AND DREAMS 💓💓💓

-🌟

STARRRR MY LOVE :PPPPP

thank u sm 🥹🥹🥹. you are the sweetest. merry christmas to you too! mine went alright, yesterday i visited my grandmummy n we watched this christmas movie called ‘red one’ with chris evans n the rock. p interesting n she loved it heh.

where i’m from, our christmas is different because of culture n everything. we usually have festivals that attract lots of tourists and our presents / gifts are usually homemade. i got mostly some beautiful jewelry which was rare pearls. ofc christmas in my country is more commercial now. the lights all around were soooo pretty and we had a big dinner as well as celebrating my 22nd birthday heh. I HOPE UR CHRISTMAS WENT WELL TOO, BESTIE 🤞

sorta !!!!! songwriting is actually a lot harder than i thought haha. i honestly gave up halfway, i was writing this song about wtv came to my mind at the time. i should honestly go back to it bc it’s lowkey fun !! 💆‍♀️ speaking of, i’ve been searching online for a electric guitar since i alr play bass n i found the perfect one i think. she’s a sexy blue UGHHHHH im gonna be the next jimi hendrix ??

but that’s valid, it’s reeeeally hard n takes a lot of time n patience. time n patient that i clearly dont have 🕺 i get bored super fast so eh, maybe next time. it’s kind of like writing poems in a way, just more idk … melodic? it’s therapeutic for sure. AHHHH THANK YOU :< i’m glad u enjoyed that fic that means a lot heh.

ahh i don’t think i have seen the drama yet </3 i plan on it !!! also, have you seen alice in borderland? i’ve heard about it n i wanna watch that also, i have so many k-dramas to start n finish on its crazy 💔💔💔. ATEEEEEZ MY LOVES i miss them. ur so lucky :(( the mingi poster 🥹🥹 aww i wish it was a way for me to see it but i js know it’s so cute. and THANK YOUUUUU, LE SSERAFIM SUPREMACY MWAH

that’s good that ur enjoying the college life !!! my classes start again next month and im so 😩 thankfully, i have majority online but i gotta go in person for some. hopefully semester goes quiiiick. pretty soon its gonna be 2025 which is so crazy bc whaaaaat. good for you for making the best of college life !!! i’m so happy for you 💓. it can be nerve wracking at first, but you get the hang of it!

buuuut, im okay! i’ve still been writing on here in my spare time as you can see 🙂‍↕️ our community has grown sooooo much, i wanna plan something for you guys eventually after i update my current ongoing stuff first. life has been alright, im on winter break so no studying n stuff until jan. i recently went surfing which was cool !!!!

on the downside though, i think m getting sick 😞 my allergies are probably acting up, but it might just be bc its so cold in my house rn. after i finish my skin care im gonna see what’s up with my heat bc </3 LOVEEEEU, BISSOUS MY LUV 💋

[youre-in-big-trouble]

finally peed! oh my GOOOD. i needed that

though, it was only 28oz... i definitely should have been able to hold it longer. i probably could have. buuut, my pee was pretty yellow, so its a good thing i got it all out of me!

i feel soooo much better now ♡♡♡ and i still have three more pees, not counting my bedtime pee ♡♡♡

so far, ive had 15oz of juice and 20oz of water. and now, i have to drink at least 20 more oz before i can pee again. no big deal tbh, im just gonna give myself a minute to unwind. my stomach is fuuuull! i'll resume drinking in a bit :p

[winterrhayle]

COWBOY CARTERRRRR ★𐚁𓃗

this album is literally . everything omg like i've literally been going crazy over this album and it's not even been a week yet and i apologise for the babbling but i need to get some things off my chest or i will actually lose it so !!!! gonna yap about every single track now !!!!!! (some coherent thoughts, and some not so coherent thoughts) : 

★★★★★

AMERIICAN REQUIREM - (im obsessed with all of the stylisation ii in the album titles bc its act ii) this song is basically a thesis statement for the whooooole album the main lyrical part is : 'used to say i spoke "too country" / and the rejection came, said / "i wasn't country enough" / said i wouldn't saddle up, but / if that ain't country, tell me what is? ' and obviously it goes without saying that the vocals on this track are PERFECT and angelic because, this is beyoncé she could never underdeliver. ive heard so many people say that the layering reminds them of bohemian rhapsody and I AGREEEE

after ameriican requirem, this section of the next fourish tracks reminded me of self titled (2014) in the sense that it explores the different aspects of beyoncé as a person (being a black woman, career, motherhood, self love etc) LOOKA DER LOOKA DER LALALALALALALALALALALAAAAAAAAA. THIS INTRO IS EVERYTHING TO ME ITS SO CINEMATIC AND BIG AND ★BEYONCÉ★

BLACKBIIRD - second song on here is a cover of blackbird by the beatles, featuring tanner adell, brittney spencer, tiera kennedy, and reyna roberts (all up and coming black country artists!!!!). i didn't know this until like, the day the album dropped and i was looking into it but blackbird was written by paul mccartney about black women in the 60s experiencing struggles with the american civil rights movement. and in england 'bird' is kinda slang for girl, so 'black bird' = 'black girl'. and that song was intended to bring hope, such a perfect track for this album , specially with the features beyoncé included 🤞🏽

16 CARRIAGES - my favourite out of the 2 pre release singles. its about her entering the music industry at 15 and the struggles due to that and growing up so fast, whenever this comes on i will NEVER EVER SKIP ITS TOOOOO GOOOD

PROTECTOR  - i love how this is featuring rumi🥹 whenever beyonce talks about motherhood, or writes a song for her kids (like here, blue, bigger, brown skin girl etc) it always gets me tearing up on first listen. first of all i LOVEEEE a voice memo intro, and this whole lullaby is just <333333

MY ROSE - ive seen a lot of people saying that they dont like how this album is so long, but me personally, i love that there are so many tracks, even short ones like this that add depth or a vibe. also i love any song that says lalalalalalalalaaaa so that got me

SMOKE HOUR ★ WILLIE NELSON - IM OBSESSED W THIS INTERLUUUDEEEEEE the feel of changing the channel on a radio is so cool and adds a really fun atmosphere and really works well for themes here

TEXAS HOLD ‘EM - everyone hates this song BUT I DONTTTTT its a real life boogie and a real life hoe down frfr

BODYGUARD - this ones so fun and lighthearted, aside from the parts where shes like ‘i dont like the way shes looking at you 😒😒😒 someone better hold me back’ and that line leads so well into the next tracks:

DOLLY P / JOLENE - HAAHAHAHAHAHA THE DOLLY P INTERLUDE TOOK ME OUTTT WITH THE BECKY WITH THE GOOD HAIR REFERENCE😭 and the lyric changes on jolene with her warning becky instead of begging,, iktr !!!!!!! and ‘you a bird go on and sing your song jolene’ 😩 i really like that beyonce brought in dolly because shes like. THE country star. and its kinda wild that people are still dissing beyoncé for releasing country music and saying she doesn’t belong when the literal dolly parton is advocating for her

DAUGHTER - one of my faves on here, it feels so cinematic and i will always appreciate an i killed my husband country song. the whole vibe of this song is really sinister im obsessed and the visuals are already there in my mind like,, ‘your body laid out on these filthy floors / your bloodstains on my custom coutures’, ‘so let's travel to white chapels and sing hymns /

hold rosaries, and sing in stained glass symphonies’ , ‘i sashayed my dress / did my best impression of a damsel in distress’ , etc etc etc. i would literally quote this entire song if i could i think its lyrically the best one. my favourite part is the refrain about her father and choir boys and the titanic its so real. AND VOCALLLSSS HELLOOOO????? SHE JUST . CASUALLY SINGS CARO MIO BEN??????? oh beyoncé the woman you are whoooo is doing it like you

SPAGHETTI - as soon as i saw this title i knew this song was gonna be fun like first of all, the intro talking about genres being restricting, and then the song going straight into that instrumental???????? AND SHES RAPPING ?????????????? THANOS ????????? CUNTY COUNTRY PETTY !!!!!!!!!! YALL BEEN PLAYED BY THE PLAGARISTIC WHEWWWW NO SAUCE NO SAUCE

ALLIGATOR TEARS - the jump from spaghetti to this was so violent 😩 i had to calm myself down so fast on first listen LMAOOOO. ok so from what i can tell i think this song is saying that she’ll do anything for x (idk who this is to, maybe jay z?) and x doesn’t need any fake tears to get her to do things for them bc she’ll do anything for them regardless. ‘you say change religion 🕺🏽

now i spend sundays with you’

SMOKE HOUR II / JUST FOR FUN- oh my god i so badly want KNTRY radio to be real😭 just for fun feels so nostalgic to me for some reason, and so does ii most wanted tbh but i’ll get to that. i think that willie jones’ voice works SO well with beyoncés, they both sing so softly on here and its like the type of ballad you’d sing around a campfire all happy and sleepy

II MOST WANTED - as someone who never watched hannah montana as a kid, i still really appreciate this song, i know a few songs from that song even though i never watched it so miley’s voice reminds me of my childhood soo much and this song omg🥹🥹🥹🥹 the harmonies and the lyrics and the friendship <333333 the electric guitar specifically stands out to me it reminds me of something but i can’t quite put my finger on it?

LEVII’S JEANS - I DIDNT KNOW THAT POST MALONE COULD SING LIKE THAT ?????? WHAT ? i literally live in england but whenever this song comes on suddenly im line dancing and i am wearing my metaphorical cowboy hat ,,.,,, denim 🕺🏽on 💃🏽denim🕺🏽on denim🕺🏽on 💃🏽denim  AND HE SAID YOURE MY RENESSAINCE !!!!!!!! RENEIGH IS BACK IN EMPLOYMENT

FLAMENCO - i NEED a longer version of this song desperately 😭 right about NOW😔 its another nostalgic sounding one

THE LINDA MARTELL SHOW / YA YA - ADDICTED TO THIS SONG WITH THE BEYONCÉ COWBOY CARTER ACT II RODEO INTRO W HER DOING THE DIFFERENT VOICES !!!!!!!!! WE SHAKIN !!!!!!! WE SWIMMIN !!!!!!!!!!!! WE JERKIN !!!!!!!!!!! WE TWEKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM A SUCKER FOR SAMPLES AND SHE SAMPLES 2 SONGS HERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SHE SAID SWEAT OUT THE SHEETS LIKE DRUNK IN LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO HEAR THIS LIVE excuse my excitement but this song is THAT GOOD AND THEN THE TRANSITION INTO OH LOUISIANA IS CHEFFS KISS 

OH LOUSIANA - perfect sample!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO MY ‼️ DADDY ALABAMA ‼️ MOMMA !!!!!!!! LOUISIANA !!!!!!!!!!

DESERT EAGLE - when the eagle sound came on i was so happy i was waiting for that sound this whole album😩 RAAAHHHHHH 🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅🦅 

RIIVERDANCE - this one was stuck in my head for the LONGEST TIME. i need more love for this song, BOUNCE ON THA T SHII DANCE DANCE !!!!! NO HANDS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  IM A LESBIAN BUT IDC IM TURNING THIS UPPPPPP !!!!!! BOUNCE ON THAT SHIIII DANCE DANCE RUNNING THRU THE RIVERRRR RUNNING THRROUGH THE RIVER WITH YOUU BOUNCE ON THAT SHI DANCE DANCE

II HANDS II HEAVEN  - icl when this is playing i still have riiverdance lyrics repeating in my head because the transition is so smooth and the tempo stays the same i LOVEEEEE IT. dont juddgeeee me baby you would never juuudege me baby !!!!!! stallion running no candle in the wind !!!!!!!!!!!!!! this whole post is gonna be so incoherent and im not rereading this sorry to anyone still reading 😭 im just listening and vibing tbh i’m on day 6 of looping this album and im losing my mind, also this song is so sleepy in a really good way and then im woken up byyyyyy TYRANT

TYRANT - I LOVE DOLLYS VOICE IN THE INTRO !!!! AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THE COUNTRY TRAP !!!!!!! THANK YOU COWBOY CARTER FOR GIVING ME THIS !!!!!!!!! and i always appreciate a becky with the good hair mention !!! TOP 5 ON THIS ALBUM FOR SUREEEE also is ‘on the run run’ a part ii on the run reference??? bc that’s so perfect considering theres so many ‘ii’ references on here ALSO i love the higher singing on the outro and on the one by one you hang them high line

SWEET ★ HONEY ★ BUCKIIN’ - ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ MY FAVOURITE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ ON THIS ALBUM !!!!!!!! DARE I SAY… I LIKE THIS MORE THAN PURE / HONEY !!!!!!!! I LOVE A MULTIPLE PART SONG !!!!!!! THE SWEET SECTION IS SO FUN TO DANCE TO AND THE HONEY PART IS MY FAVOTUITE PART OF THIS ALBUM AND THE BUCKIIN PART IS 10000/10 BUCKIIN BUCKIIN BUCKIIIN WOAHHHHHHH also also doesn’t ‘pretty as hell, au naturel , dinin' on farce’ melodically remind you of ‘all my pretty girls to the floor’ from pure/ honey????

AMEN - feelin like im at church again, and it repeats parts of american requirem 😩 i love a tie in omg this album is already such a classic AOTY PLEASE

★★★★★

overall, i think that this is simply the greatest thing to ever grace my ears. i dont think ive ever seen an album with so much thought, care and research put into it, and beyoncé is truly an albums artist and i really really really admire the work she puts into this. since i was really young i really loved her and watching her music videos (watching the self titled music videos at 8 years old is such a core memory for me LOLLL) so every album release is so special to me, and i feel so well fed w this album and i am so intrigued about what’s coming for act iii!!!!!! sorry again for all this talking, this was the cut down version of my thoughts ☠️

overall faves as of right now : sweet honey buckiin, daughter, ya ya, tyrant