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I cannot stop thinking about "The Last Great American Dynasty"
There's an obscure, independent folk singer-songwriter whose work I've followed since she released a double album debut during the pandemic. It's all moody, introspective pop-folk - acoustic guitar and pianos against the occasional 808 beat.
While I'm clearly not the target audience, there is one song in particular that has stuck with me ever since the very first time I heard it.
Let's discuss.
Sources and further reading:
--- WIKIPEDIA ---
Rebekah Harkness: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rebekah_Harkness
Standard Oil: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Standard_Oil
High Watch: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/High_Watch
John D. Rockefeller: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_D._Rockefeller
The Ludlow Massacre: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ludlow_Massacre
The Homestead Strike: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homestead_strike
--- ARTICLES ---
Vogue - The Outrageous Life of Rebekah Harkness: https://www.vogue.com/article/the-outrageous-life-of-rebekah-harkness-taylor-swifts-high-society-muse
Small State Big History - Rebekah Harkness, the Scorned Socialite of Watch Hill : https://smallstatebighistory.com/rebekah-harkness-the-scorned-socialite-of-watch-hill/
St. Louis Magazine - The story of Rebekah Harkness is way more complicated than Taylor Swift lets on: https://www.stlmag.com/culture/music/the-last-great-american-dynasty-rebekah-harkness/
St. Louis Style - Who is Rebekah Harkness and Why is She the Star of Taylor Swift’s ‘The Last Great American Dynasty’?: https://www.stlouis.style/throwback-thursday/who-is-rebekah-harkness-and-why-is-she-the-star-of-taylor-swifts-the-last-great-american-dynasty/
SF Gate - Everything you think you know about the Winchester Mystery House probably isn't true: https://www.sfgate.com/bayarea/article/real-story-of-sarah-winchester-mystery-house-12552842.php
New York Times - IS THERE A CHIC WAY TO GO?: https://www.nytimes.com/1988/05/22/books/is-there-a-chic-way-to-go.html?pagewanted=all&src=pm
#tbskyen#tb skyen#video essay#taylor swift#last great american dynasty#essay#song analysis#lyric analysis
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HAPPY 13TH ANNIVERSARY PLANET PUTO!
PROMO COMMISSIONS!!!!!!
$12 (international peeps) / PHP 550.00 (for The Philippines-based peeps) QUICK COMMISSIONS!!!!
STATUS: OPEN
LIMITED TIME OFFER / PROMO FROM MAY 20 - JUNE 5, 2025 ONLY.
Commissioned art: LINEART + BASE COLOR
Options: BUST only
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Hello everyone! In celebration of our 13 years together at Planet Puto, we'll be opening 30 slots for our PROMO COMMISSIONS! For both Planet Puto and NON-Planet Puto characters (this includes fanart/fan ocs/ etc)
It would mean super much to us if you could commission us or simply share this post so it may be able to reach out anyone who might be interested:
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!!!!!!!!! NOTE !!!!!!!!!
Things I WILL draw
- Planet Puto characters from any AU (you’d get a bonus if this is your option <XD)
- SFW lang only hahah
Things I WON'T draw:
- Animals & insects (believe me, they still look like the ones I doodle since 2nd grade)
- Environmental Backgrounds (please have mercy)
- Mecha (hnggg)
- Furries
-Too complex poses (sob)
- NSFW (let’s keep our workplace safe, keds, for now //slapped)
*If you’re curious that one of the things/themes/etc you want ain’t on this list, let’s chat, we can work something out ^_^b.
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RULES
- Payment is via GCASH / PAYMAYA / SHOPEEPAY / GRABPAY / BANK TRANSFER / PAYPAL only. (My contact will be the one who’ll receive your payments in behalf of me.)
- Any tips would be highly appreciated if you want, I'd like to thank you in advance if you ever want to give one! ;w;!!! It's up to you ;w;b
- The transaction fees (if there are) upon sending your payment is to be covered by you.
- I shall only start once the payment is fully paid. (Clients who get to pay full first, gets their commission done earlier/first than the others. I’ll start immediately when possible.)
- You may use or repost the art for non-commercial use only. Kindly credit me if you do so.
- Please be patient while your commissions are being made. (NOTE THAT PLEASE NO DEADLINES for this PROMO COMMISSION ;v;. I DO NOT have the same free time as I did before. So I'll be able to only do these once I do🥹)
- I have the right to decline or cancel commission requests.
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Interested? Q7Q !!!! Please PM this page for the Order Form and Payment Form.
Thank you po everyone and have an awesome day! ;w;b
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I think I'm going to pull the plug on my FFN account.
Not only have I not used the site since 2011, but it seems like it's been in steady decline for the past several years; it's riddled with ads and bot accounts posing as "artists" (the PMs are increasing in frequency lately), and I'm concerned about the site eventually getting hacked like 4chan and its user data being strewn across the internet. I don't feel like downloading cURL to see if the PHP is still up to date. I have better things to do than check the pulse of a corpse.
The site just... it sucks. It's garbage. "Pit of voles" is too kind a moniker. I feel gross just logging in. I'll give it a week or so before I start deleting my crusty old fics. Or maybe I'll delete my account in three months, on my 23rd anniversary. Hopefully the site won't get hacked before then.
#fanfiction.net#why use it when ao3 is 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦?#i know ao3 is banned in a few countries but even that doesn't stop some people#this isn't a rant so much as me bitching and moaning about fuckall
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December Update
We've got a new newspost for you all! As always, please click the link below to read everything in full:
Theme Poll Reminder
Art Fight's 2024 theme poll closes December 10th, 2023 at 5 PM EST. Make sure to get your vote in before then - there will not be another poll.
Arctic Fight 2023
A raffle is being held on our Discord server for Art Fight premium. Please read this post for futher information!
Art Fight Developer Application
We expect to onboard a paid developer in 2024. The requirements of this position are: you must be 20 years or older, familiar with AWS, knowledgeable in PHP, and must be comfortable being paid in a milestone basis (not hourly!).
Interested? The form is included in the newspost!
Social Media
One goal of ours in 2024 is to revive our social medias. Be sure to follow us on:
Tumblr (you're here!) Twitter Instagram Tiktok DeviantART
Enjoy your December & stay tuned for more!
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HRSOFTBD is looking for motivated and talented Interns to join our dynamic team!
Position-1: Python Intern (2)
Position-2: Laravel/PHP Intern (2)
Position-3: Flutter Intern (2)
Workplace: Office-based (Dhaka)
Office Hours: 09:00 AM – 6:30 PM Holidays: Friday & Saturday
Educational Requirements:
• BSc in CSE/IT/CS/SE (passed/completed)
What We Offer:
• Paid Internship
• High chance of full-time employment based on internship performance.
📧 To apply, send your CV to: [email protected] [mail subject should be the applying position name]
🌐 Visit us: www.hrsoftbd.com
📍 Location: P-7, Nurjahan Road, Mohammadpur Dhaka-1207.
Take the first step in your career with HRSOFTBD! We look forward to having you on board!
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I totally crashed into a food coma after getting back from a quick bank errand and a side-quest, which involved grabbing a late lunch alone at 5pm. It was my first meal of the day since it was so busy and I didn't have time to eat earlier.
Kurosaki: In-English ako ng waitress, po*a.
Hoshino: Haha! Mukha ka kasing Arabo. Bagay ka sa Dubai.
K: I'll blend well. Gulat s'ya nung nag-Tagalog ako e.
I tried Ashoka once when a friend brought us some Biryani on duty, but I never got to eat at their restaurant because of the parking hassle. The prices were a bit steep, but I get it – quality spices can be pricey.
I had a sweetened Lassi, a Punjabi yoghurt-based smoothie (Php 199) and for lunch, I went with my favourite Indian dish, Rogan Josh (Php 509) – a Kashmiri meat dish cooked in curry with Kashmiri chillies accompanied by a heaping serving of Basmati Rice (Php 199). It was all perfect. The food was so great that I had to commend the owner (a legit Indian migrant, by the way) before leaving. It was just that good and authentic!
22 July 2024 10:08 PM El Nido, Philippines
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Just got home at 7 PM from our town fiesta and I bought this cute bracelet.
It reminded me of Mothra..🥰
Also, it's only 2 dolars (equivalent to Php 100.00).
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HAPPY 12TH ANNIVERSARY PLANET PUTO! MAR 28
PROMO COMMISSIONS!!!!!! $12 (international peeps) / PHP 550.00 (for The Philippines-based peeps) QUICK COMMISSIONS!!!!
STATUS: OPEN LIMITED TIME OFFER / PROMO FROM MARCH 25 - APRIL 25, 2024 ONLY.
Commissioned art: LINEART + BASE COLOR (W/ BACKGROUND (colored square as shown in samples & transparent background) only
Options: BUST ________________________________________
Hello everyone! In celebration of our 12 years together at Planet Puto, we'll be opening 30 slots for our PROMO COMMISSIONS! For both Planet Puto and NON-Planet Puto characters (this includes fanart/fan ocs/ etc)
It would mean super much to us if you could commission us or simply share this post so it may be able to reach out anyone who might be interested:
________________________________________ !!!!!!!!! NOTE !!!!!!!!! Things I WILL draw - Planet Puto characters from any AU (you’d get a bonus if this is your option <XD) - SFW lang only hahah
Things I WON'T draw: - Animals & insects (believe me, they still look like the ones I doodle since 2nd grade) - Environmental Backgrounds (please have mercy) - Mecha (hnggg) - Furries -Too complex poses (sob) - NSFW (let’s keep our workplace safe, keds, for now //slapped)
*If you’re curious that one of the things/themes/etc you want ain’t on this list, let’s chat, we can work something out ^_^b. ________________________________________ RULES - Payment is via GCASH / PAYMAYA / SHOPEEPAY / GRABPAY / BANK TRANSFER / PAYPAL only. (My contact will be the one who’ll receive your payments in behalf of me.) Any tips would be highly appreciated if you want, I'd like to thank you in advance if you ever want to give one! ;w;!!! It's up to you ;w;b - The transaction fees (if there are) upon sending your payment is to be covered by you. - I shall only start once the payment is fully paid. (Clients who get to pay full first, gets their commission done earlier/first than the others. I’ll start immediately when possible.) - You may use or repost the art for non-commercial use only. Kindly credit me if you do so. - Please be patient while your commissions are being made. - I have the right to decline or cancel commission requests. ________________________________________
Interested? Q7Q !!!! Please PM this page for the Order Form and Payment Form.
Thank you po everyone and have an awesome day! ;w;b
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虎が花見に行く (Tora ga Hanami ni Iku)
“A Tiger Goes Flower-Viewing"
Henlooooo!
As we are now in the month of March and spring is just around the corner,, we are nearing a special special date: OUR BELOVED YUUJI'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳
As I've previously already posted,, @27_mswi on twt/x and ig is hosting another birthday celebration event in the Philippines called HANATORA: A Spring With Yuu (her official post on twt/x)
and because I love love loveeeee Yuuji!!!!! I wrote an interactive fic!!! since the first part was already psoted on @27_mswi's twt and the poll is already done,,, I will instead post just the text here and also the results of the poll,, don't worry tho!!! the next part is soon to come so you can just vote for how you want the story to continue there ;)
Enjoy! ^^
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PART ONE | NEXT
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The rays of the midday sun seep into a familiar room’s willowy curtains, gently hitting the chiming phone atop the desk near the windows.

—multiple message notifications pop up on the lock screen under the name “sakiii”.
A hand quickly grabs the device and deft fingers immediately swipe at the notification block, typing up a reply as the phone unlocks.
While the phone continues to chime and replies and chats are exchanged, a mop of pink hair flutters as the owner of the mobile opens the room’s door, a happy skip in his step as he exits the dorm and walks out of the campus dormitories.
Yuuji had made plans with Kugisaki, Fushiguro, and Gojo-sensei last week—more like he was suddenly ordered to clear up his schedule without any preamble, but Yuuji didn’t care and just happily obliged because he originally didn’t have anything planned anyway. He wasn’t told why he needed to do so, though, so he was left to wander over to their meeting place without any context.
With a hum, Yuuji exits the chat interface and opens his phone’s map, finally reaching the exit of the campus.
As the warm outside air brushes over tan skin, his phone’s map then loads up directions to the place Yuuji inputted on the search bar. A series of left and right turns that looks akin to a maze pop into his view, and Yuuji prays that he won’t get lost following the guide.
When he takes a turn for the third time on the fourth intersection he’s passed, Yuuji is met with… a minor inconvenience: an old lady sprawled on the floor with fruits and vegetables littered around her.
With the time on his phone turning 1:05 PM, slowly nearing the supposed meeting time, Yuuji tilts his head in contemplation and takes a step.
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What should Yuuji do next? 1. Walk up to the old lady. OR 2. Turn around and look for another route.
POLL RESULTS: [Option 1] - 100% [Option 2] - 0%
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PART ONE | NEXT
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That's it for the first part!!! It's not much yet but,, well you will technically determine how the story goes so 🤷
ANywhooo go check out the event and alsooo @27_mswi has a funding system called TORA Mileprint,, you can donate any amount of PHP to help fund future events and it also has a stretch goal in which, if met, those who will buy the merch bundle that the event offers will be able to have the corresponding items!!!
anywayyyss that's all and I hope I can see everyone on the day of the event!!!! ^^

#jjk#jjk anime#jjk art#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen anime#jujutsu kaisen art#jjk yuuji#jjk yuji#yuuji itadori#itadori yuuji#jjk itadori#jujutsu itadori#jujutsu kaisen yuuji#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jujutsu kaisen itadori#jjk philippines#anime philippines#philippines#虎杖悠仁#呪術廻戦#呪術廻戦ファンアート#HANATORAItadoriYuujiDay#ASpringWithYuu2024 ❤️🌸🐯#HANATORAStretchGoals#ASpringWithYuu2024#interactive fiction#jjk interactive fic#jjk fic#jujutsu kaisen fic
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ZCZC MIATWOAT ALL
TTAA00 KNHC DDHHMM
Tropical Weather Outlook
NWS National Hurricane Center Miami FL
200 PM EDT Thu Sep 5 2024
For the North Atlantic...Caribbean Sea and the Gulf of Mexico:
1. Northwest Gulf of Mexico:
A large area of showers and thunderstorms continue in association
with a broad area of low pressure interacting with a weak frontal
boundary located over the northwestern Gulf of Mexico. Upper-level
winds are expected to become less conducive for development by late
Friday and Saturday as another frontal boundary approaches the
system. Although development is unlikely, heavy rainfall is
expected across portions of the northern Gulf Coast during the next
day or so. Additional information on this system can be found in
products issued by your local National Weather Service Forecast
Office.
* Formation chance through 48 hours...low...10 percent.
* Formation chance through 7 days...low...10 percent.
2. Northwestern Atlantic (AL99):
Showers and thunderstorms have become better organized in
association with a non-tropical area of low pressure located a few
hundred miles east of North Carolina, and recent satellite data
indicates the system is producing winds to near gale-force. This
system could acquire some tropical or subtropical characteristics
over the next day or two while it moves generally
north-northeastward, remaining offshore of the northeastern United
States. Once the low moves over cooler waters by early Saturday,
further development is not expected. Additional information on this
system, including gale warnings, can be found in High Seas Forecasts
issued by the National Weather Service.
* Formation chance through 48 hours...low...30 percent.
* Formation chance through 7 days...low...30 percent.
3. Eastern Tropical Atlantic:
An elongated trough of low pressure over the eastern tropical
Atlantic is producing limited shower activity. Development is not
expected through this weekend while the system moves little. Some
slow development appears possible early next week when the
disturbance begins moving slowly northwestward.
* Formation chance through 48 hours...low...near 0 percent.
* Formation chance through 7 days...low...20 percent.
4. Northwestern Caribbean Sea and Southwestern Gulf of Mexico:
Shower and thunderstorm activity remains disorganized in
association with a westward-moving tropical wave located over the
western Caribbean Sea. Development is not expected before the
system reaches Belize and the Yucatan Peninsula by early Friday.
Some gradual development is possible late in the weekend into early
next week after the system emerges over the southwestern Gulf of
Mexico.
* Formation chance through 48 hours...low...near 0 percent.
* Formation chance through 7 days...low...20 percent.
5. Central Tropical Atlantic:
Another tropical wave located a few hundred miles east of the
Leeward Islands is producing limited shower and thunderstorm
activity. Strong upper-level winds are expected to inhibit
development of this system during the next few days while it moves
west-northwestward at 10 to 15 mph. By early next week,
environmental conditions could become more conducive for some slow
development while the system moves over the southwestern Atlantic
Ocean.
* Formation chance through 48 hours...low...near 0 percent.
* Formation chance through 7 days...low...10 percent.
High Seas Forecasts are issued by the National Weather Service
under AWIPS header NFDHSFAT1 and WMO header FZNT01 KWBC, and online
at ocean.weather.gov/shtml/NFDHSFAT1.php
Forecaster Hagen/Delgado
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there's this pizza parlor that's less than 500 m away from our residents and i really love how delicious but cheap their pizzas are. the most expensive flavor we have to order is around 320 php (around 5.70 usd) for a 14-inch hand tossed pizza. they open around 3 pm and they would sometimes sold out before 6 pm. we only buy maybe once in every one or two months but i sure hope they will continue selling good quality pizza.
i love cooking and i would prefer to cook instead of ordering food but pizza is something i can never make myself so it's really nice to know there's a nearby pizza parlor in our neighborhood. we don't have to pay for delivery since we can pick up the pizza ourselves and it's always served freshly baked. something that i would never get to experience every time i will order on other famous pizza parlors.
cw: irl photo of foodie under the cut


#artless#text posts#cw food#cw irl photo#sorry for the food post#i just really love cooking and eating#i guess that's also the reason why i love making gifs of anime food 🤭🤭😌😌
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1/1/24
Nanood kami ng Rewind sa Fora, Mallari sana yung gusto ko pero ayaw niya. Oks lang naman yung movie for me pero si Ver eh tulo ang luha. Lol. Magkahiwalay kami ng upuan dahil wala ng slot na pwede kaming magkatabi.


Di namin naabutan yung 1:10 PM showing kaya kumain muna kami sa 7 Eleven.


Piktyur nung order kong Cheesy Samgyupsal Set — PHP 149 na yan. Kape at cheese bread naman yung sa kanya. Um-order din ako ng matcha diyan sa B1T1 Takeaway Coffee pero di na lang ako mag-talk. Emz.
Hinintay muna namin matapos yung credits bago lumabas ng sinehan, ang daming tao eh. Also, badtrip pa din ako dun sa tumapak ng sapatos ko sa loob ng bus.
Wala sa piktyur pero bumili ako ng bagong earbuds — Realme ulit yung binili ko. Yung gamit ko dati eh ayaw ng tumunog yung left side.
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I have finally settled after 36++ hours of travel.


The drive that I have to endure ever f*****g time.
I recently traveled from Manila (MNL) to Puerto Princesa (PPS) via 2Go Travel, on board M/V St. Francis Xavier. It had been over 20 years since I last took a sea voyage. I used to travel this way when I was younger, often with my parents and sister, or with my grandparents and cousins. It was a more affordable option than flying. At that time, budget airlines like Cebu Pacific and AirAsia didn't fly to Puerto Princesa, and Philippine Airlines tickets were quite expensive (over PHP 3,000 for a roundtrip fare in the 1990s).



Fun part was still seeing these kinds of sceneries.
It was the perfect time for a trip by sea. If I'd taken a flight, I would have been delayed by 1-2 days due to the global Microsoft glitch a few days ago. The voyage was supposed to leave at 7 pm but got delayed for five hours. Five hours isn't too bad compared to 1-2 days.



Aboard M/V SFX.
Sea travel alone bored me quite a bit. There was no one to talk to, and all I wanted to do was lie down on my bed, read, study, and take notes. A few strangers tried to talk to me, but I was never good at small talk, so the conversations were terminated after a few exchanges. Apparently, sea travel was a lot better when I was a kid.
I arrived at PPS around 3:30 in the morning of yesterday after a 24-hour travel and a 3-hour stop at the Port of Coron.





Port of Coron. 20 July 2024
After more than a month, I met with my dad and mom so I could get my car. I noticed that my father’s legs have progressed to swelling and oedema, which started more than 6 months ago. I’ve already put him in diuretics and had him undergo tests for several tests to rule out heart, lung, and kidney conditions. Everything was fine except for a mild pulmonary regurgitation on his 2D echo. His Ejection Fraction was good. His AV duplex a few months ago was normal as well. In other words, all tests were inconclusive.
So today, I decided to start him on anticoagulants. I should have started him earlier but DOACs are expensive as hell.
“Iinumin mo ba ito kahit 92 pesos per tab?” I asked him.
“Oo, kung kailangan talaga.”
“Sige, ipa-labs muna kita. I need baseline labs para malaman kung pwede sa’yo yung gamot.”
Sometimes, treating family members can be more challenging than treating regular patients. I'm not sure whether it's due to non-compliance or the comfort of being able to share everything, including bizarre symptoms.
See you again next time, parents.

That's them in front of me.
22 July 2024 3:02 AM El Nido, Philippines
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From Kyle Cherifaith Bago on Instagram: Hangad, everyone! Ting langi na! Hangad debuted at the Mindanao Book Fair as one of the "sold out" titles of Sarangani Writers League. It sold out again at the Philippine Book Festival! It is an inspiring collection of Sebwano short-form poems that spoke of undying dreams, of rough growth, and of relentless struggles in face of adversity. Hangad, in Tagalog, means "desire" while Hangad, in Sebwano, means "to look up". Hangad reminds you to always look up and hope for whatever you desire. price: 50 php (physical copy) | 35 php (digital copy) Gusto Ko Maglangi is another best seller that got sold out on the first day of the Philippine Book Festival. Illustrated by Noe Villaflor , GKL contains 16 Sebwano and English poems to read at your own "kauyabon" hour. From 10:00 pm to 6:00 am and from 8:00 pm - 9:00 pm, you'll have someone to "langi" with wherever you may be when you read them. price: 65 php (physical copy) | 50 php (digital copy) The zines will be released on Thursday, August 24, 2023. To purchase, click the link and fill out the form. PRE-ORDER NOW! (P.S: limited copies only.)
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some updates!
I am officially discharging in one(1) week! it doesn't feel real yet. I am very nervous about being able to maintain recovery long-term, especially because I still supplement multiple times a day to meet my meal plan due to fullness. and occasionally due to poor food quality, lol.
I did try to get my dietitian to compromise on my meal plan because I physically cannot do it and uh. that did not work. I am not surprised. but like girl i am not gonna supplement myself so we gotta figure something out here
i have my first snack pass tomorrow! I've been eligible for like two weeks but I didn't get around to planning anything bc I was procrastinating but I guess it's happening.
speaking of passes, apparently insurance wants me to do a full day pass to get some practice before i leave. technically that's a phase 3 thing (I'm phase 2) but my team said they'd make an exception. I'm kind of annoyed that I'm doing passesbfor the first time literally my last week here but in a way being responsible for one snack and one meal per day on php is kind of a pass?? I guess?? also even if things go horribly wrong on my theoretical day pass it won't affect my discharge date so part of me is like oh?? this means I can use the behaviors?? but I don't Want To Do That. but also I do.
the meal outing today was to the fucking cheesecake factory 😭 like this had to be some form of cruel and unusual punishment. like first of all it's not that good and second of all the menu has the calories listed AND is like 10182552 pages long AND we were required to get cheesecake with our meals. oh, and they took forever so by the time we got back to programming it was literally time for pm snack 😭🙃 they let us supplement with dinner (thank god) bc what the fuck
that being said it actually wasn't horrendous. like we tried to keep conversations going and no one was (that) fucking weird about what they ordered. the anticipatory anxiety was definitely worse than the actual thing. I had very strong compensatory restriction urges BUT I still completed my silly little meal plan soooo
my mood has been lower the past few days which has led to me bedrotting after programming instead of doing anything which in turn makes me feel worse which makes me not want to do anything wh-- anyway I love living with depression and having a brain that just fucking wakes up sad for no reason
I am fully, painfully aware that I will not have access to my weight starting when I discharge and it's freaking me the fuck out. despite me completing the past few weeks my weight has been stable which is incredibly soothing to my silly brain and has made completion so much easier. my weight has changed very little from what I admitted at and I would love to keep it that way. that being said, no one seems to have any idea of what my set point is, and I Cannot just. trust my body to take care of that for me. i feel like if I just Knew my weight and could therefore "make sure" it isn't going up and maintain my ability to reassure myself, then maybe I can do this. maybe.
like I can tolerate my current body and size and weight and even though my body image fluctuates I can always come back to the fact that things haven't really changed. but I can't fucking do that if I dont know the number. also if I know the number I can "fix" things if it starts going up. fucks sake.
anyway. ive spent way too long on this and it's almost midnight.
tldr things are mostly going well and i discharge in a week and I am still a control freak.
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I made some progress on moving OtGS off WordPress... in that I set up a test site to putz around with a new CMS and learn how to use it. PHP is incredibly foreign and mystifying to me though, so it's a pretty slow process. I think I've been working on this since 6 PM or so and it is now midnight lol
But! I should have everything moved for real in time for the next update, so all is well.
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