#professor [redacted]'s name is not the same name as [redacted] college's name

[irenespring]

Professor [Redacted], semi-accidentally instigating a small-scale faculty revolt that time [Redacted] College tried to feed their lectures to AI so they could deny students accommodations:

(so mad i can’t see straight) Yeah i just don’t think chat gpt is a good classroom tool

[the-grey-hunt]

ID: A colorized photo of a woman in 50s curls and makeup, wearing a green collared shirt and a short strand of pearls, smiling faintly at the camera. End ID.

My grandma Ruth passed away last night. It wasn’t COVID and it was kind of expected, but I found a photo album my dad brought home from her house and I wanted to post some of the photos.

ID: Three black and white photos, one of a couple, one of a woman in an oval frame, and one of a child. All are wearing Edwardian clothing and posed formally. End ID.

These Edwardian folks are scattered around and unlabeled. I can only guess who they are. My grandma’s parents were born around the 1910s, probably. The story I know is her mother dropped out in 8th grade to help run her father’s bakery, and then married my great-grandfather, who was a chemist and worked for the government during WW2. He used to bring potential hires home for dinner so his wife could get a look at them first. My grandmother was born around 1930. One of her siblings is still alive.

ID: A black and white photo. Four people, three women and a man, sitting on a low stone wall by some stairs. A fifth person is cut off at the left side. They all look happy and are dressed in 1950s clothes. End ID.

Unlike her mom my grandma went to Harvard, technically. Back in the 1950s, Harvard didn’t accept women, but Radcliff college did. Radcliff was right next to Harvard in Cambridge and its classes were taught by the same professors, but it was women-only and had a separate campus and dorms. Co-gender events were probably carefully supervised.

ID: Two photos on black paper of a smilling man and a woman leaning against a fence, very close together. One is labeled “Before” and the second “After”. There is a note in cursive that says “During”, next to an X and (sorry!). End ID.

In her sophomore year my grandma met my grandpa, who was two years older and attending Harvard. He was from a farming family I don’t know much about. They got married around the time he graduated, which was still sophomore year for my grandma, and he tried out law school while she kept attending Radcliff.

ID: A woman in a long wedding dress with lace sleeves, wearing a cap-style veil. End ID.

ID: A collage of several newspaper announcements of a wedding. One features a large photo of the bride in black and white. All read some variation on Mr. and Mrs. R W S (last name redacted) announcing that their daughter Ruth Evelyn, of Decatur Alabama, is being married to Robert S., the son of Mr. and Mrs. B. S. S (last name redacted), of Colorado Springs, Colorado.

Eventually my grandpa stopped with law school and enlisted in the Navy instead, where he stayed for a while. My grandma graduated in 1954, fifteen years before Radcliff and Harvard would integrate, and traveled to be near his boot camp/harbor/whatever on the New England coast. She ended up working as a teacher for the kids of the other Navy wives.

ID: The wedding dress woman, sitting on the stoop of a house. Now she’s wearing short shorts, a light long-sleeved shirt, and slip-on shoes. End ID.

Eventually they moved to Colorado, around where my grandpa came from, and my grandma continued working as a teacher for most of her life. She had my dad and three other kids, and eventually divorced my grandpa. She had an extremely adventurous life and had traveled to see the Taj Mahal, been to Spain and Australia, and went on teaching-related trips to China and Japan. She had penpals from childhood and from other countries that she was still talking to as recently as 2018. Around when my whole family was digging into our family tree, she uncovered a marriage certificate in German from the Lutheran church her grandparents or great-grandparents had been married in (and also baptized in — the baptism dates for each person were included on the certificate). I don’t have a way to put into words how much she meant to me. Two years ago she had a stroke and lost a lot of her function, but this still doesn’t really feel real.

[streetsofsecretswegone]

CHARACTER SHEET repost. do not reblog.

      𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

FULL NAME.    leah arielle rosenthal PRONUNCIATION.    it’s actually pronounced  L-AY-uh but most assume that its L-EE-uh.   NICKNAME.    cassandra calls her Lay. GENDER.    cis female. HEIGHT.   5′5″  AGE. 44  ZODIAC.    virgo. SPOKEN LANGUAGES.     english, hebrew, knows some yiddish from briefly growing up with her grandparents.

      𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 !

HAIR COLOR.    brown. EYE COLOR.    dark brown. SKIN TONE.     she’s white, but she’s not pale, you know what i mean?    BODY TYPE.    slim.  ACCENT.     there’s a soft new york accent hanging out there. DOMINANT HAND.    right. POSTURE.    upright. SCARS.    none. TATTOOS.   none. BIRTHMARKS.    on her upper left arm.  MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S).   hair? cheekbones?

      𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝 !

PLACE OF BIRTH.    los angeles, california.  HOMETOWN.     considers it to be jericho, long island. but she spent her early years in crown heights, brooklyn. she also spent her earliest years in manhattan back when her mother was single. BIRTH WEIGHT.    don’t ask me this! BIRTH HEIGHT.     no!  MANNER OF BIRTH.    normal labor. FIRST WORDS.   "no.”  SIBLINGS.    benjamin rosenthal.  PARENTS.    judith “june” blaustein and [REDACTED]. noah rosenthal is her step-father. PARENTAL INVOLVEMENT.    her mother was more like a cool big sister when leah was growing up. she came back and forth, usually to cry to her parents about whatever issue she was having in her life. her biological father is allegedly a famous director in hollywood, but he’s actually a jerry springer/wendy williams-esque talk show host who is still very much alive and still very much active on tv. he has never been in her life, or acknowledged her existence. but things are probably better that way. meanwhile, noah was the best father leah could ever ask for. he understood her ways, he encouraged her to do whatever she wanted to do even if it wasn’t in a “feminine field.” also, leah’s mom got SIGNIFICANTLY BETTER as a parent once married to him.

      𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 !

OCCUPATION. reporter for a small multimedia news company. this is her primary job. her secondary jobs are being a english/communication/journalist professor (as communication is lumped in with journalism) and the advisor for said college’s student newspaper.  CURRENT RESIDENCE.  Brooklyn, New York. ☹ not sure where yet, leave me alone. CLOSE FRIENDS.     cassandra scozzari. RELATIONSHIP STATUS.   single. FINANCIAL STATUS.     she’s doing alright.   DRIVER’S LICENSE.   got it late in life. at like, 24 when she moved to georgia for work.  CRIMINAL RECORD.     she’s so good, she’s the reason cassandra doesn’t have a criminal record.

      𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 !

SEXUAL ORIENTATION.     bisexual. PREFERRED EMOTIONAL ROLE.     submissive  |  dominant  |  switch. PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE.     submissive  |  dominant |  switch. LIBIDO.     it exists, yes. TURN ON’S.    cocky and spontaneous men and women. the type of people who have her rolling her eyes on the outside but 😳 on the inside. i don’t know, she just feels more at ease whipping out sarcasm and snark on them. she feels balanced in the weirdest way.  TURN OFF’S.    stuffy, serious men. surprisingly. pretentious, pessimistic ‘philosophers.’ ‘woe is me’ men. those alleged “nice guys.”  LOVE LANGUAGE.   words of affirmation. RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES.    she has a history of romantic trouble in regards to long term things. there’s a part of her that’s afraid of becoming like her mother. in love, used, and discarded again and again. a fool chasing an image when she’s in love, so she keeps to herself. it’s something she defaults to doing, subconsciously even. she’s not afraid to call her partner out, early on, for whatever flaw they have and this can cause drama and a drift. in long term relationships you will find that this critical woman is actually S U P E R affectionate and remembers everything about you. so! that intensity her mom has for her partners that leah fears she has i s actually there!

      𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬 !

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG.  -- HOBBIES TO PASS TIME.     bicycling. browsing the internet for various extensions to customize her job’s site/finding various extensions and methods of customizing work articles. hanging out with Cassandra whenever she has the time. use to read and write - and even bird watch as a hobby but, not anymore. not like that. ILLNESSES. n/a    LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED.     left brained. PHOBIAS.   lack of control. inadequacy and failure. dogs. being ‘too much’ in relationships. SELF CONFIDENCE LEVEL.   she carries herself with EXCESSIVE CONFIDENCE like she knows exactly what she’s doing. And for the most part, Leah does. But at the same time the slightest mistake she accidentally made will haunt her all day. Leah has definitely always suffered from IMPOSTER SYNDROME. VULNERABILITIES.     excessively guarded. uses sarcasm to hide her real feelings. estimates her worthiness through her work ethic. overthinks situations. relies a lot on routine to keep peace of mind.

TAGGED BY.   @hammurabicomplex​​ TAGGING.  @badactors​​ (junior!) @fbiartist​​. @grenkids​ (tilde!!) and you!

[metoocaa-blog]

#MeTooCAA (Chicago 2010)

TW: sexual assault

98th CAA Conference – Chicago 2010. Written on 9 June 2011, in a letter to my rapist (never sent). The night from my point of view:

I had finished interviewing and a bunch of [university redacted] folks met in the lobby to go out for the evening to celebrate the close of the conference and the successful interviews for many of us. We ended up going to the place where I met * and his wife, a few nights prior. A good time at the bar. Drinks flowing freely. Felt good about the evening’s social dynamics. Even you made me feel comfortable because you weren’t up to your normal, controlling antics. ** and I were not ready to go home, and you decided to join us for a nightcap at the Hard Rock Hotel. Afterwards (it was quite late, and I was drunk), I accepted your invitation to walk me home – your hotel was just a few blocks past mine. I felt safe. Outside my hotel you grabbed me and kissed me. I didn’t expect it. want it. or respond. I WAS DRUNK.  Everything happened so fast. We were in my room. Removing my clothes. I thought it would just be easier, professionally, if I let it happen. I didn’t want you. My heart was with ***. I tried to just let my mind go blank. Could you not tell that I wasn’t my normal, active self? Did you just chalk it up to alcohol? When the blood came [a perineal tear], I was terrified. Horrified. Remember that this happened before, long ago with **** (my first sex partner). I told you to go shower while I assessed the situation. I felt immediately sober. Blood everywhere. A pint? You surely didn’t cause this with the (insignificant) size of your cock. It was that I was bone dry, and clearly not even my body was consenting. You showered. I realized the blood had stopped. I sat, crumpled on the floor, against the window. No longer able to bear your presence, I finally got the guts to tell you to leave. You told me to get dressed and walk you downstairs, because “if I bled out in the night,” you didn’t want the last person the hotel staff saw me with, and then asked me if I was clean, since you didn’t bother to use a condom. Had me promise to double-check. Never offering me the same. As if I wouldn’t after this. I didn’t bleed out in the night. Instead, I woke, showered, went to the [university redacted] breakfast. Told *****. Smiled and put up with the bullshit for ‘[university redacted] propaganda photos’ at the AIC. (Which I still occasionally see on the website [even on social media in 2018]). Freaked out to ****** on the phone outside of the MCA. Ate a cheeseburger at the Billy Goat Tavern (I did lose a lot of iron.)

Asshole. Self-absorbed asshole. Rapist (I said it, even if most of the time I cannot even think the word).

It [the blood] happened again. A few months later. I don’t think I was fully healed. It happened with ***. And it was one of his kindest moments. Used humor to pull me back out of the hole I was slipping into.

Every time I have sex (or any permutation thereof), it’s always at the back of my head that it [the blood] will happen again. Only when I know that it won’t horrify the other person if it does, can I relax. Only when they know what happened can I relax.

Asshole.

I went to CAA in NYC [in 2011] and was on the edge of a panic attack the whole time that I would have to see you. Interact with you as if you were not the worthless human being that I know you are.

I am getting help now. To get past this. You may have damaged me severely. But not permanently. You will NOT continue to fuck with my relationships. Or my professional life. You are not that important. You are just a rapist.

PS: Stop trying to communicate with me, as if all is fine. Pretend that we don’t know each other. I wish that were true, anyways.

 99th CAA Conference – New York City 2011 (written January 2019)

I couldn’t even call it what it was: rape. I spent the conference on the verge of a panic attack, worried that I would run into you again. I had drinks with ********, she named it (rape), and encouraged me to go and get professional help. I was so thankful for her kindness and friendship.

 100th CAA Conference – Los Angeles 2012 (written January 2019)

[university redacted] (forgoing the breakfast at the crack of dawn for the first and perhaps only time) held an evening reception. I was hanging out with my former professor and now friend, *********, and another friend of hers. We first went to another mixer (her alma mater), before wandering over to [university redacted]’s. I was making small talk with folks when I saw you wander in. It was at that point that I decided to take my leave. I said goodnight to *********, and made it out into the hallway when ********** (the director of the school) followed me out and asked me to come back in because he wanted to introduce me to some older alumni. Because I respect him, I reluctantly came back into the room. He made the introductions and moved on, leaving me to make small talk (which I can do, and do well). Suddenly you made yourself part of the conversation, and I could feel my blood pressure rising. I tried to politely excuse myself, and you followed me, shifting the conversation to how you knew that I had blocked you on social media. My body language gave everything away to *********. She knew that I had survived a sexual assault, knew it was with someone from [university redacted], but didn’t know any of the other details. I am not sure how much time passed with me again mentally shutting down as you interrogated me, and I don’t remember the details of your monologue, but I do remember ********* and her friend suddenly appearing on either side of me, informing you that we were leaving. They flanked me as we left the room, and you followed us out, continuing your monologue. I remember bits and pieces of it – something about you claiming that you did care about me (bullshit), and other such nonsense. ********* and her friend just made sure I had my eyes and my focus on them (instead of you) as we walked out in to the hotel lobby, and finally away from you.

We spent the rest of the night out at a restaurant, talking about the rape and them supporting me. I was so thankful for those two amazing women.

The next day you were at it again, this time staring me down from across the entry expanse into the convention center. I was sitting on a bench outside, and you made sure I saw you, and stared at me, keeping your head turned my way until you entered the building.

 104th CAA Conference – Washington DC 2016 (written January 2019)

Thankfully there were fewer interactions this time, but I am always on my guard. You found me while I was waiting at a bus stop, headed across town to see a friend from undergrad. You made sure to tell me that you knew where I was working now. I still refrain from staying at the conference hotel, while that was also true the night of the rape, I do it now to make sure I have someplace away from the conference for retreat, this time though, you walked towards what was also my hotel. I was on even higher alert as I went into and out of the hotel.

At the [university redacted] breakfast (the evening reception was a short-lived experiment), you made sure to pass directly behind me each time you made your way to the breakfast buffet spread. There were other paths you could take. While we were not at the same table, don’t think I didn’t notice. I only half paid attention to the conversations at hand.

  Mercat a la Planxa, restaurant in The Blackstone Hotel, written July 2018:

It’s still light outside, and there are people settled at tables around me, seemingly happily conversing with each other over drinks, steaks (and grilled green onions – which look quite good). I’ve ordered a 9 oz pour of their driest Spanish white, some croquetas de jamon, and the ‘pa amb tomaquet’ al estilo Catalan. It’s intentional that I’m seated here, at the end of a conference (this time the Midwest Museums Conference), writing this reflection. I stayed at The Blackstone for the 98th College Art Association Conference. I can’t quite remember when I checked in – either the 9th or 10th of February – and checked out late on the 13th. This AMM conference has me thinking quite a bit about that span of days – in many ways there are some resonances that I hadn’t quite realized would exist when I signed up for a room (this time) at the conference hotel – the Chicago Marriot. As I drove up, I realized that the hotel was just across the street from The Blackstone. Again, I was splitting a room with one of my closest friends from my master’s program, whom I hadn’t shared a room with since the 98th College Art Association Conference. She, again, was leaving a day before me. A few nights prior, at the after-conference drinks at the hotel bar, I recognized the all-too-familiar expression of a young colleague who was squirming under the unwanted attentions of a senior conference attendee. I had made the young colleague’s acquaintance earlier in the evening and knew that this was their first conference; that they were trying to find their sea legs as a salesperson, and the older colleague had (and I will be generous here) misread the younger colleague’s attempts at networking for interest. I decided to excuse myself from my conversation, insert myself in their conversation and see if the younger colleague wanted to join me at the bar to refill our drinks. They thanked me for helping them out. It happened again the next evening, with the same older colleague pursuing the younger colleague, and I again stepped in to put myself between the more senior colleague’s unwanted advances and their intended target. It was then that I realized that there was more operating here than basic human kindness: I was responding as a result of my sexual assault that happened just across the street, as I too tried to traverse the professional landmines of being a conference attendee, navigating the complex power networks of a professional conference.  

 (written January 2019)

I had been thinking for some time on how to turn the events of that night in February 2010 into some additional good. I say ‘additional’ because I already mark that night as the moment from which I would take no more shit. That I would do my best to always be assertive and speak truth to power. I’ve also trained and worked as a rape crisis counselor in Erie County, New York, hoping that I could provide a tether to resources for others that eluded me that night and the morning after. In this moment of presidential pussy grabbers and Supreme Court predators, #NotSurprised, #TimesUp, and #MeToo, it was time to take this conversation back to CAA and think about systemic change. I tell my story not because I think it is unique, in fact, I tell it because there are many others who have been the unwilling targets of predatory behavior by academics who “use informality, alcohol, power hierarchies and enforced proximity to exploit and harass their victims.”[1] It happens across academic conferences – a quick look at this year’s twitter threads from AHA and ASA (especially #MeTooPhD), and the beginnings of systemic change such as the 2017 American Political Science Association survey on harassment at annual meetings[2], the Women’s Classical Caucus’ statement on harassment at the Society for Classical Studies[3] (2017), the report “Open Secrets and Missing Stairs: Sexual and Gender-Based Harassment at Scientific Meetings” [4] (2017), and the American Library Association ‘statement of appropriate conduct’ for conferences[5] (2014).

CAA’s “Restatement of Values”[6] (2016) and “Guidelines for CAA Interviews”[7] (2015) start the conversation but leave open the question of onus and power in the situation.

#MeTooCAA, an Idea Exchange roundtable taking place at 10:30 am on Friday (2/15) begins a conversation on structural changes to power dynamics at CAA, providing space for and centering the marginalized and less powerful. In the meantime, feel free to share your own stories here or use the #MeTooCAA hashtag to converse across social media.

[1] Tweet by Dr. Charlotte Lydia Riley (@Lottelydia) 1/2/19

[2] http://www.apsanet.org/portals/54/files/apsa%20ethicscommitteesexual%20harassment%20report%20final.pdf?ver%3D2018-02-01-133219-887

[3] https://classicalstudies.org/scs-news/scs-statement-harassment-annual-meeting

[4] https://static1.squarespace.com/static/51a662bde4b06440a1627b96/t/58b067e846c3c4cf659bd4e3/1487955946386/Open+Secrets+and+Missing+Stairs.pdf

[5] http://www.ala.org/conferencesevents/statement_appropriate_conduct

[6] “We defend academic freedom as forcefully as we reject discrimination, bigotry, sexual assault, and violence against the vulnerable.” See http://www.collegeart.org/news/2016/11/22/caa-restatement-of-values-november-2016/

[7] “Conduct meetings in neutral spaces such as the interviewing tables and booths provided at the conference by CAA or in hotel suites which offer neutral spaces outside of bedrooms. CAA does not condone interviewing candidates in hotel bedrooms.” See http://www.collegeart.org/standards-and-guidelines/guidelines/etiquette

Written by Claire K.

[politicalfilth-blog]

What You Need To Know About ‘Mind Control’ Before Calling It Fake

We Are Change

Here’s why you shouldn’t be so quick to dismiss mind control as nothing you need to think about…

Image via The Men Who Stare at Goats

Via. (Danny Quest)

This article is going to be hard for some people to accept. Depending on what level of awareness you currently have and how far you have ventured into the rabbit-hole, some of the information presented thus forward may be overwhelming and/or frightening. Some of the claims made may make you skeptical of the truth, depending on your perception of reality.

Before we jump into the realization that covert elements of the United States Central Intelligence Agency and its black budget apparatus have been using military mind control technology to implement false-flag terror attacks on the American people as part of a larger geopolitical agenda, let’s first ask ourselves if these type of  technologies could even exist?

In my research, I found that early work on mind control goes back almost 100 years with the discovery of electroencephalography (known as EEG) by German psychiatrist Hans Berger, who made the first EEG recordings in 1924, and was the first to report on the rise and fall of alpha and beta waves in the human brain.

By 1969, a researcher named Eberhard Fetz had connected a single neuron in a monkey’s brain to a dial the animal could see. The monkey learned to make the neuron fire faster to move the dial in order to get a reward, and while Fetz didn’t realize it at the time, he had created the first brain-machine interface.

30 years ago, physiologists began recording from neurons in animals, and discovered that while the entire motor cortex lights up with electrical signals when an animal moves, a single neuron tends to fire fastest in connection with certain movements. If you record signals from a certain number of neurons, you can get a rough idea of the motion that a person is making or intends to make.

Researchers then developed algorithms to reconstruct movements form motor cortex neurons, and by the 1980s Apostolos Georgopoulos found a relationship between the electrical response of single neurons and the direction in which they moved their arms.  Since the mid-1990s, researchers have been able to capture complex motor cortex signals recorded from groups of neurons, and have used them to control electronic devices, building brain-computer interfaces that enable what would be called “mind controlled technology” today.

There are dozens of American patients on MCT, Lowery, Oliver M. Appl. No. 458339  filed Dec. 28, 1989. U.S. Patent #5,159,703, Oct. 27, 1992 Silent Subliminal Presentation System, this will be a notable example as this article continues. A good deal of  support for the existence in MCT can be traced back to an often cited 1994 government report that made mention of futuristic systems that could “electronically scramble or erase” people’s minds through TV broadcasts.  It was co-written by Dr. Steven Metz—then an associate research professor of National Security Affairs at the U.S. Army War College’s Strategic Studies Institute; where he is now the director (He later claimed that report was a joke).

If you are interested in overcoming disbelief, if you don’t understand the white papers, or don’t trust the information here, I would highly advise everyone to look no further than Dr. Judy Wall’s article “Aerial Mind-Control The Threat to Civil Liberties.” It was published in the newsletter of the MENSA Bioelectromagnetics Special Interest Group. Take a look at the CIA’s declassified Project MK ULTRA program, or read over the 2014 Huff post article entitled “Mind Control Is Becoming Reality“.

“We need a program of psycho-surgery and political control of our society. The purpose is physical control of the mind. Everyone who deviates from the given norm can be surgically mutilated…The individual may think that the most important reality is his own existence, but this is only his personal point of view. This lacks historical perspective…Man does not have the right to develop his own mind. This kind of liberal orientation has great appeal. We must electrically control the brain. Some day armies and generals will be controlled by electrical stimulation of the brain.”  Dr. Jose Delgado (MKULTRA experimenter who demonstrated a radio- controlled bull on CNN in 1985) Director of Neuropsychiatry, Yale University Medical School Congressional Record No. 26, Vol. 118, February 24, 1974

              Monkeys in restraints w/ wires coming out of top of skull.

left image “normal”, right image with electric current being fed into the monkey’s brain – note pupil sizes and clenched teeth!

These images demonstrate Dr. Delgado’s ruthless disregard for animal’s lives, pain, and suffering!

  “these weapons are more dangerous then atomic destruction,” Dr.Delgado reportedly said. “We may transform, we may shape, direct and robotize man. I think the great danger of the future is that we will have robotized human beings who are not aware that they have been robotized.”

“Recently researchers from the University of Washington showed that they could send one person’s thoughts through a computer to control the hand motion of a person sitting half a mile away. The team first demonstrated this brain-to-brain connection was possible back in August 2013. But now the researchers have put the technology through more rigorous testing and are close to making it usable in real-world scenarios.” ~ Live Science November 11, 2014 

At this point, there should be absolutely no denying that there are countless methods of mind-control and multiple projects and sub-projects historically and currently in operation.  Reports from numerous different sources indicate that mind control technology does exist.

One of the most powerful ways to shape the collective consciousness of the people at a basic fundamental level is to control the population’s main sources of information. It is very clear that many mass media outlets in the U.S. are both willingly and unwittingly aiding and abetting the manipulation of our minds by the government, and are assisting in carrying out its social-engineering agendas.

Moreover, very carefully designed programs and tactics have been used against nearly every segment of our society; disseminated throughout the nation and the world by mass media and entertainment industries, corporations; embedded in advertising and all other forms of so-called entertainment such as movies, TV shows, video games, and music.

These systems were perfected, applied to the brainwashing and conditioning of members of the U.S. military, and turned over to the intelligence sectors for other applications. The intelligence sector, in turn, DELIBERATELY and successfully worked to have this same kind of HIGHLY destructive and effective conditioning applied to SOCIETY AS A WHOLE, via the mass conditioning of our consciousness through the entertainment and information industries.

Our society as a whole has been forced to confront and WITNESS young people perpetrating inconceivably horrific mass murders of peers and others on a REGULAR BASIS, as in the case in the present-day United States. This creates what is called in geo-social control rhetoric as a “strategy of tension.”

As a result, the population has developed an analogous psychological temperament akin to collective Stockholm’s syndrome. First published in 1994, author Dee Graham uses the Stockholm syndrome label to describe group or collective responses to trauma. To some extent it develops a dissonant split personality/multiple personality disorder in people making them susceptible to sheepish behavior, apathy, fear and other trance-induced emotions.

In essence, the CIA is using advanced mind-control techniques on the American people to make them easier to control. Some of the countries involved in such programs include the U.S., UK, Spain, Germany and France.

Most government-backed electronic mind control programs are classified at the highest level, but recently, the National Security Agency reportedly developed an efficient method of controlling the human brain. This technology is called Remote Neural Monitoring (RNM) and is expected to revolutionize crime detection and investigation.

RNM has been developed after about 50 years of neuro-electromagnetic involuntary human experimentation, and according to many scientists, it’s expected that with a microchip implanted in the human brain, it could potentially make them inherently controllable. (Remember the man that was controlling a bull live on CNN in the 1980s)

Jared Loughne of the 2011 shooting spree that reportedly killed six people and wounded 13, including congressman Gabrielle Giffords, filed a lawsuit claiming he was “framed” and was “handpicked illegally to be a sleeper assassin.”  He even said that the government “put a chip in my head to control my mind.”

In 2012, 24-year-old James Holmes entered a movie theater in Aurora, Colorado and reportedly opened fire at a showing of Batman “The Dark Knight Rises,” leaving 12 people dead and 58 injured. Holmes had several family ties to U.S. government-funded research centers. He was also was one of six recipients of a National Institutes of Health Neuroscience Training Grant at the University of Colorado Anschutz Medical Campus in Denver, and was intimately involved in mind control experiments.

More than a month before the Washington Navy Yard  shooting on Aug. 7, 2013, Aaron Alexis reported to police that he was being stalked by unidentified individuals who followed him to three different motels. He said these individuals were using some sort of “microwave machine” to send voices into his body and they were keeping him awake at night. It is interesting and potentially relevant that Alexis refused to tell police what the voices were instructing him to do. [A copy of the redacted police report can be found here].

The Baton Rouge Gunman Gavin Long, a former marine with a rich digital footprint, said in online posts and videos that he was being targeted by “a vast government conspiracy that watches and harasses everyday Americans.”  He complained that he couldn’t sleep because he was “hearing voices.”

In March 2016, a man that police say shot and killed six people in Kalamazoo, Mich., told officers that he was being controlled by the Uber app on his phone at the time of the rampage.  When a police officer asked the Uber driver Jason Brian Dalton about the shooting, he told them that when he opened the company’s app, a symbol appeared that “would literally take over your whole body,” an officer wrote in his police report.

The latest mass shooting suspect, Esteban Santiago, who allegedly killed five people at the Fort Lauderdale-Hollywood International Airport, on Jan. 6, reportedly walked into the Anchorage FBI Field Office in November 2016 to report that his mind was being controlled by a U.S. intelligence agency, according to a senior federal law enforcement official. He said that he “didn’t want to hurt anyone” and that he felt he was “being forced to work for ISIS.” Santiago told the FBI that he thought he was being mind-controlled, possibly by the CIA, and admitted to hearing voices. Santiago said those voices told him to “watch extremist materials on the Internet.”

Is the picture becoming clear ?

Just a few years ago, I too would have scoffed at the mere mention that these mass shooting events were anything but tragedies at the hands of sick and mentally-ill psychopaths. Granted, there are some sick and twisted people out there who need help, and who do kill others. If we were to confine our investigation to one shooting at a time, it’s unlikely that we would ever find a correlation. But looking at these events collectively, a pattern seems to emerge beyond the confines of the individual events themselves.

If we look back into history, even as far back as the shooting death of Robert F. Kennedy, might we be seeing something more to the story of these random shooting events? Is it possible that there are agendas at play, and programs at work behind the scenes to which we are not privy?

Is it possible for rogue, criminal elements inside of the U.S. government to target the minds of certain individuals through electronic means to engage in certain behavior, including killing others? Before dismissing this possibility as some conspiracy theory unworthy of further consideration, take the time to research.

This CIA activity was further verified in the August 2010 publication of Time Magazine, not exactly considered to be a fringe publication. A list of “Top Ten Weird Government Secrets” was published with “mind control” being number two on the list.

Within that article, it is stated that “some historians argue that the goal of the program was to create a mind control system by which the CIA could program people to conduct assassinations.” Is it possible that we’ve been watching this play out in different venues, for different reasons? For today’s purposes, for gun control or perhaps to condition the population to accept tighter “security” measures?

Before you laugh and dismiss the above paragraphs, realize what they are saying. This is the exact same thing we see in all of these cases.

As extraordinarily disturbing events that have such monumental impacts on society, these shootings serve only the malignant, demonic agendas of the Fed/Gov/NWO social controllers, who formulate these terrible mass killings as part of black budget classified social engineering programs. These incidents themselves act as a means to further condition, manipulate and control the United States population, and indeed, the world at large.

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Scientists With Links to China May Be Stealing Biomedical Research, U.S. Says

The scientist at M.D. Anderson Cancer Center in Houston was hardly discreet. “Here is the bones and meet of what you want,” he wrote in a misspelled email to researchers in China.

Attached was a confidential research proposal, according to administrators at the center. The scientist had access to the document only because he had been asked to review it for the National Institutes of Health — and the center had examined his email because federal officials had asked them to investigate him.

The N.I.H. and the F.B.I. have begun a vast effort to root out scientists who they say are stealing biomedical research for other countries from institutions across the United States. Almost all of the incidents they uncovered and that are under investigation involve scientists of Chinese descent, including naturalized American citizens, allegedly stealing for China.

Seventy-one institutions, including many of the most prestigious medical schools in the United States, are now investigating 180 individual cases involving potential theft of intellectual property. The cases began after the N.I.H., prompted by information provided by the F.B.I., sent 18,000 letters last year urging administrators who oversee government grants to be vigilant.

So far, the N.I.H. has referred 24 cases in which there may be evidence of criminal activity to the inspector general’s office of the Department of Health and Human Services, which may turn over the cases for criminal prosecution. “It seems to be hitting every discipline in biomedical research,” said Dr. Michael Lauer, deputy director for extramural research at the N.I.H.

The investigations have fanned fears that China is exploiting the relative openness of the American scientific system to engage in wholesale economic espionage. At the same time, the scale of the dragnet has sent a tremor through the ranks of biomedical researchers, some of whom say ethnic Chinese scientists are being unfairly targeted for scrutiny as Washington’s geopolitical competition with Beijing intensifies.

“You could take a dart board with medical colleges with significant research programs and, as far as I can tell, you’d have a 50-50 chance of hitting a school with an active case,” said Dr. Ross McKinney Jr., chief scientific officer of the Association of American Medical Colleges.

The alleged theft involves not military secrets, but scientific ideas, designs, devices, data and methods that may lead to profitable new treatments or diagnostic tools.

Some researchers under investigation have obtained patents in China on work funded by the United States government and owned by American institutions, the N.I.H. said. Others are suspected of setting up labs in China that secretly duplicated American research, according to government officials and university administrators.

The N.I.H. has not named most of the scientists under investigation, citing due process, and neither have most of the institutions involved. “As with any personnel matter, we typically do not share names or details of affected individuals,” said Brette Peyton, a spokeswoman at M.D. Anderson.

But roughly a dozen scientists are known to have resigned or been fired from universities and research centers across the United States so far. Some have declined to discuss the allegations against them; others have denied any wrongdoing.

In several cases, scientists supported by the N.I.H. or other federal agencies are accused of accepting funding from the Chinese government in violation of N.I.H. rules. Some have said that they did not know the arrangements had to be disclosed or were forbidden.

In August, Feng Tao, 48, a chemist at the University of Kansas known as Franklin, was indicted on four counts of fraud for allegedly failing to disclose a full-time appointment at a Chinese university while receiving federal funds.

His lawyer, Peter R. Zeidenberg, declined to comment on Dr. Tao’s case but suggested that prosecutors were targeting academics nationwide who had made simple mistakes.

“Professors, they get their summers off,” he said in an interview. “Oftentimes they will take appointments in China for the summer. They don’t believe they have to report that.”

“They next thing you know, they are being charged with wire fraud with 20-year penalties,” he added. “It’s like, are you kidding me?”

The investigations have left Chinese and Chinese-American academics feeling “that they will be targeted and that they are at risk,” said Frank Wu, a law professor at the University of California Hastings School of the Law and former president of the Committee of 100, an organization of prominent Chinese-Americans.

Dr. Wu and other critics said the cases recalled the government’s five-year investigation of Wen Ho Lee, a scientist at the Los Alamos National Laboratory who was accused in 1999 of stealing nuclear warhead plans for China and incarcerated for months, only to be freed after the government’s case essentially collapsed. He pleaded guilty to a single felony count of mishandling secrets.

More recently, the Justice Department has been forced to drop theft charges against at least four Chinese-American scientists since 2014: two former Eli Lilly scientists in Indiana, a National Weather Service hydrologist in Ohio and a professor at Temple University in Philadelphia. The Justice Department changed its rules in 2016, giving greater oversight over these national security cases to prosecutors in Washington.

But Dr. Lauer and other officials said the investigations into biomedical research have uncovered clear evidence of wrongdoing. In one case at M.D. Anderson, a scientist who had packed a suitcase with computer hard drives containing research data was stopped at the airport on the way to China, Dr. Lauer and officials at the center said.

Overall, they argued, the cases paint a disturbing picture of economic espionage in which the Chinese government has been taking advantage of a biomedical research system in the United States built on trust and the free exchange of ideas.

“How would you feel if you were a U.S. scientist sending your best idea to the government in a grant application, and someone ended up doing your project in China?” Dr. McKinney asked.

‘This was something we had never seen.’

Concern at the N.I.H. about the theft of biomedical research stretches back at least to June 2016, when the F.B.I. contacted N.I.H. officials with unusual questions about the American scientific research system.

How did peer review happen? What sort of controls were in place? “They needed to know how our system worked as compared to, say, national defense,” Dr. Lauer said.

The F.B.I. declined to discuss ongoing investigations, including why it initiated so many and how targets were selected. But Christopher Wray, director of the F.B.I., told the Senate Judiciary Committee in July that China is using “nontraditional collectors” of intelligence, and is attempting to “steal their way up the economic ladder at our expense.”

The F.B.I.’s national field office for commercial counterespionage, in Houston, asked administrators from Texas academic and medical centers to attend classified meetings in the summer of 2018 to discuss evidence of intellectual property theft. The administrators were given emergency security clearances and told to sign nondisclosure agreements.

Then, acting on information from the F.B.I. and other sources, the N.I.H. in late August 2018 began sending letters to medical centers nationwide asking administrators to investigate individual scientists.

“This was something we had never seen,” Dr. Lauer said. “It took us a while to grasp the seriousness of the problem.”

Some of the first inklings of trouble were discovered by administrators at M.D. Anderson, a prominent cancer research and treatment center. Between August 2018 and January 2019, five letters arrived at the center from the N.I.H. asking administrators to investigate the activities of five faculty members.

Dr. Peter Pisters, president of the cancer center, said he and his colleagues reviewed faculty emails, and they turned up disturbing evidence.

Among the redacted emails provided to The New York Times was one by a scientist planning to whisk proprietary test materials to colleagues in China. “I should be able to bring the whole sets of primers to you (if I can figure out how to get a dozen tubes of frozen DNA onto an airplane),” he wrote.

The redacted M.D. Anderson emails also suggest that a scientist at the medical center sent data and research to the Chinese government in exchange for a $75,000 one-year “appointment” under the Thousand Talents Program, which Beijing established a decade ago to recruit scientists to Chinese universities.

Researchers are legally obligated to disclose such payments to the N.I.H. and to their academic institutions, and the scientist had not done so, according to an internal report on the investigation.

Still another scientist at M.D. Anderson had forwarded a confidential research proposal to a contact in China, writing, “Attached please find an application about mitochondrial DNA mutation in tumor development. Please keep it to yourself.”

Administrators at M.D. Anderson said three of the scientists had resigned and one had retired. The fifth case involved a scientist whose transgressions may not be serious enough to be fired.

Dr. Xifeng Wu, who left M.D. Anderson and is now dean of the School of Public Health at Zhejiang University in China, declined to comment on the circumstances of her resignation. “I would like to focus on my research,” she said.

M.D. Anderson is not the only institution wrestling with possible scientific misconduct.

Last month, two married scientists, Yu Zhou, 49, and Li Chen, 46, who had worked at Nationwide Children’s Hospital in Columbus, Ohio, for a decade, were indicted on charges that they stole technology developed at the hospital and used it to apply for Chinese patents and set up biotech companies in China and the United States.

Dr. Zhou’s lawyer, Glenn Seiden, said in an email that the couple did not commit any crimes, and that Dr. Zhou is a “trailblazer” in scientific research.

In May, two scientists at Emory University in Atlanta, Dr. Li Xiao-Jiang and Dr. Li Shihua, were fired after administrators discovered that Dr. Li Xiao-Jiang had received funding from China’s Thousand Talents Program.

The couple had worked there for more than two decades, researching Huntington’s disease. University administrators declined to provide further information.

“They treated us like criminals,” Dr. Li Xiao-Jiang said in an interview near Jinan University in southern China, where he and his wife now work. He disputed the suggestion that they had failed to report ties to China.

“Our work is for humanity,” Dr. Li Shihua added. “You can’t say if I worked in China, I’m not loyal to the U.S.”

In July, Dr. Kang Zhang, the former chief of eye genetics at the University of California, San Diego, resigned after local journalists disclosed his involvement with a biotech firm in China that seemed to rely on research he had performed at the university.

Dr. Zhang, also a member of the Thousand Talents Program, did not tell the university about his role. His lawyer, Leo Cunningham, said that Dr. Zhang’s suspension was not related to his involvement with the Chinese biotech firm or the program, but instead to his conduct as an investigator in a clinical trial two years earlier.

What is coming to light, Dr. Lauer said, is “a tapestry of incidents.”

Start-up companies in China, federal officials say, were founded on scientific and medical technology that the N.I.H. developed with taxpayer money. “We know there are companies formed in China for which we funded the research,” Dr. Lauer said.

Some scientists of Chinese descent also secretly received patents in China for research conducted in the United States, according to Dr. Lauer, and some researchers in the Thousand Talents Program signed contracts that require them to provide the Chinese government with confidential results obtained in the United States or other lab discoveries.

“If the N.I.H. funded it, it should be available to U.S. taxpayers,” said Dr. McKinney, of the Association of American Medical Colleges. “But if a project is also funded in China, it is moving intellectual property to China.”

Federal and academic officials stress that they are not targeting Chinese researchers on the basis of their ethnicity. But the F.B.I.’s silence regarding how so many investigations began has exacerbated concern that the government’s efforts to uncover economic espionage may tar all Chinese and Chinese-American scientists — and make it more difficult to recruit Chinese students and scholars.

“We can’t tell who is guilty or innocent, but look at the actual effect on people of Chinese descent,” said Mr. Wu, the law professor. “People are living in fear. It is a question of impact rather than intent.”

With the Trump administration taking a harder line against China, including imposing tariffs intended to punish violations of intellectual property rights, Mr. Wu sees a sharp reversal in attitudes about China and the Chinese.

“I am getting calls and emails constantly now from ethnic Chinese — even those who are U.S. citizens — who feel threatened,” he said. But few are willing to step forward with allegations of discrimination, he added.

To Dr. Lauer, the charges of racism are unfounded. “Not all the foreign influence cases involve China,” he said. “But the vast majority do.”

The real question, he added, is how to preserve the open exchange of scientific ideas in the face of growing security concerns. At M.D. Anderson, administrators are tightening controls to make data less freely available.

People can no longer use personal laptops on the wireless network. The center has barred the use of flash drives and disabled USB ports. And all of its employees’ computers can now be monitored remotely.

The N.I.H. is clamping down, too. It recommends that reviewers of grant applications have limited ability to download or print them. Those traveling to certain regions should use loaner computers, it says, and academic institutions should be alert to frequent foreign travel by scientists, or frequent publishing with colleagues outside the United States.

The National Science Foundation has commissioned an independent scientific advisory group to recommend ways of balancing openness and security, and warned scientists it funds that they are prohibited from participating in programs like China’s Thousand Talents Program.

The F.B.I. has given research institutions tools to scan emails for keywords in Mandarin that might tip off administrators to breaches, according to Dr. McKinney.

“The effects this will have on long-term, trusting relationships are hard for us to face,” he said. “We just are not used to systematic cheating.”

Javier Hernandez contributed reporting from Beijing.

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Three Days, Three Cars on Fire

"They do this kind of a ring toss, where one girl throws rings and the other catches it in her ass. The things they stick in themselves, you wouldn't believe." Redacted It was getting to be my favorite time of night, the time when the people who get in my care are slightly less......inhibited, in what they say. Some passengers I could convince I was "one of them," especially the 20's early 30's guys. And I would typically work them over pretty good, see what fun I could conjure up in my car. With girls it was always different, especially if they were alone. Sometimes I wouldn't talk to them at all if they seemed disinterested. But if it was a dude, well, I was a dude. "Once a year, six of us rent out this place called the Burrow near [redacted] - which is a perfect name for it, considering it's completely underground - and we get like six or seven strippers. You wouldn't believe the things they do." He also educated me on the best strip clubs to go to, and which gym the strippers all go to. As we drove past it, I was a bit surprised he exercised and probably shouldn't have asked but did - "So you go there and meet them when you're working out?" "Oh no, I'm just making conversation at the clubs, and I'm always like, "You look really toned. Do you work out? And they tell me they come to [redacted]." As we talked I imagined myself working out there, seeing beautiful women and talking to them, telling them I'm a third year medical student. They would flirt with me, not thinking that I knew their secret stripper lives. I would ask them out. On the second date, or third, they would struggle to reveal to me that they strip. I would act a bit surprised. But I would be accepting. It would be something that, was, well, something that we would work through. Redacted "Brokamina?" "Yep, I've been to Brokamina twice, but on my last trip, I got a chance to go east to Bacheau too, over near Genide." I was impressed, but I should have expected that from a top New York TImes reporter. Oh wait, I guess I didn't know he wrote for the Times yet. I'm jumping ahead in the story. "So what language did you use there?" Another cunning question. I didn't even second guess whether he knew that English was not one of the languages spoken in Cado, and that French and Arabic predominated. "I was very lucky when I was in college, and I got the opportunity to study under the professors who wrote the Arabic textbook used by the entire English-speaking world. My french, on the other hand, was very rudimentary, and has since completely dissipated." As I chatted back and forth with the only individual I'd ever met who actually knew the capitol city of the African country I specialize in, I wondered about the pair. Based on the furniture they were discussing before I got pulled into things, I expected she was Afghani, and that would corroborate their discussions of her struggle to achieve asylum. I sensed that his interest was two-fold though. But did she? I was dropping them off at the same apartment, so maybe there was more than I knew. But he didn't seem to know enough about her to indicate they were actually together. He must have been early sixties. She couldn't have been much above 50. After I dropped them off, I got back on Tinder and Bumble. Tinder clearly has gone straight to hell. Bumble has ungodly amounts of beautiful and intelligent women, some of whom I would literally (literally) amputate a toe to have two dates with (but probably not one....she could slip away after just one). The ones who like me back have had unfortunate poundage though. Oh well. On Tinder (remember, hell), I've only had one match. I almost didn't message her at all. She looks kind of like Pandemos - both Hispanic. But she is god awful beautiful. 19 though. Oh god, 19. I would probably throw a clot when my penis even rubbed up against the lips of her vagina...........I don't know if I could actually push it in. Redacted The samurai and the princess were interesting. Not thrilling, but interesting. They ignored me completely, which is fine of course. Granted, when people do that, sometimes I but in. Like the three rich white bitches discussing all the wedding dresses they had just shopped for in downtown Big City when they just dropped into an utter silence after the question was raised, "Which one, well, did you really love?" I couldn't help myself. The two old hens were thinking so hard, I couldn't. I just couldn't. "Ma'am, I think the second dress is the right choice." Despite our class differences and the fact that they were probably a bit disdainful abotu sitting in a Corolla, they did laugh. "Oh! But that was the most expensive one!" Knowing what was in all of their minds, I brought it out for us to all admit - "Yes ma'am, and that's why it's the best." I was actually hoping I didn't get a call to comic con though. I didn't want to fuck with those people. And honestly, the samurai was probably a douchebag. He was trying to use words like "cosmic energy" and "echelon" and "force" as if becoming 12 again was something that would really impress the surprisingly attractive 30 year old princess..... And on a superficial level he was actually succeeding. I think it was due to a reason that wasn't revealed until later in the ride though... "I didn't know you were a lawyer until Pam said so!?" He changed the subject quickly, for some reason. When I went to drop them off, I looked inside the conference center and saw lots of picture taking and posing. It looked boring in a weird, unrealistic kind of way. When everyone is a superhero, it just, seems so ordinary. The samurai snapped my attention back to the fact that the ride wasn't quite over yet. "It won't open. You have the child locks on." What the fuck. What? I toggled a few switches by my left arm, which I thought were only switches for child locks on the windows. How the fuck could this be? He kept trying, and the lever was just limp. Nothing happen when he pulled. "Um.....that's weird. This has never happened before. I guess...." By that time they were already shifting to the other side to get out the other door. After they left I spent a few minutes in awe before I just asked google. Apparently when he stuffed himself in the frame of the door and scraped up against every piece of pain, plastic, and fabric between the outside world and a reasonable sitting position in my back seat, he also managed to hit a small and little known lever on the interal aspect of the door. A child lock. Fucking samurai couldn't even ride a taxi without locking himself in the car. Redacted I didn't know if I would make it. Three days ago I have 43 rides to do. And with hell week coming up - flying to [redacted] to testify on a murder case, ER shifts, final exams - it was now or never to get my first 100 rides with Lyft and earn the $500 bonus. Each day was marked by a burning car. The first day, as I grew increasingly racist, I sat in a car in the middle of a small economically devastated town on the border of [redacted state] and [redacted state] with a black kid. He rocked his dreadlocks back and forth as I turned up the Kendrick Lamar. I'd taken him to Wendy's and back home since he accidentally brought his manager's keys home. He said his mom was a Lyft driver. He said Kendrick's new album had been taken off Youtube, so he couldn't even listen to the damn thing anymore. Well hear it is young man, I ended your ride so you're not paying anymore. Let's have a listen. I didn't exactly want to be in [redacted state]. It was cool that I could see the skyscrapers of the Big City 30 miles south of there, but I would have been okay not knowing that. Nor did I want to be down south the next night, seeing the SWAT team out and about as I drove a super-toasted black woman from a house party to BittyBurgers so she could get her crave on. Of course she chatted and hugged the counter boy as I waited in the car and gave my Man on Fire stare to hustlers in the parking lot. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I thought. I was going to cancel the ride and run, but then I turned around. Yep, she left a bag in the car. Smart bitch. I've never seen myself as *very* racist, even if I know that all white people are a bit racist. But god, this shit made me fucking racist. Although I'd been avoiding it more and more, yesterday was the last straw. I was in Harian at 1am, thinking I would definitely only get college student rides around there. Nope, I got pulled six blocks southwest to the ghetto. It was a mom who wanted me to drive her, a three year old, and a six month old 30 minutes Southwest - deeper into the ghetto. Neither of the children were properly secured as per [redacted state] state law. If we had gotten pulled over, I would have lost my license. If we had gotten in a wreck, the children might have died. I've seen when that happens. You see, The Big City is segregated. Very segregated. And today, when I only needed 8 rides to finish, I told myself, "I'm not even turning on Fucking Lyft until I get north of the 66." And that's what I did. And it was swell. And I'm racist. Redacted My whole life I've always wanted to meet motivated, driven, outgoing, open-minded young people. People who are positive, and aren't afraid to reach out. People who are dedicated, even if they don't know exactly what to. There aren't many. Bree got in and..... I'm a bit tired of writing. Let's just say there was one more rider. One more ride. That I want to tell about. But I think I'll see her again. So, I'll leave the story. For another time.