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90 in 90 - Day 50 - Moral Inventory

We hope these topics are useful to you and help you on your path to living a life beyond your dreams. This 90-day series helps change the focus from life's distractions to the process of healing.

Please like, share, follow, and subscribe - we are on most social media platforms.   Don't use today even if your ass falls off - #DUTEIYAFO   Disclaimer: this 90-day series is not affiliated with any specific program, Anonymous or otherwise. We offer no endorsement or promotion of any specific organization, intentionally non-secular, and ideally designed to be a simple set of Concepts that can, and should be, we pray, a benefit to you, The Listener.

"Any port in the storm" is the basic motivation for the series. Can we leave you better than we found you? That is the intention.

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[gregorychatman]

Snapshots from my home group get together. Which reminds me, thanks for all my birthday greetings!!❣️♥️✨🙏🏾 #40thanniversary #happybirthday #warriorwomen #anonymousbookclub #kathyjo #ohwhataluckyman #saturdayvibes #familyphotos #recoveryrocks https://www.instagram.com/p/CmAz9EmrQJq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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[lois201891]

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[katiep18]

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Recovery allows you to preview the recoverable files like photos, videos, audio & contacts before restoring them. This way, you can ensure that you are recovering the correct data.

[bjsrer]

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[derekdabrotherton]

One hell of an open mat today. LIVE Muay Thai sparring, then jiu jitsu. I love my school I love my teammates they keep me ready so I don't have to get ready. 2019 will bring more punches, chokes and submissions then anybody can handle. Happy New Year #facepunching #kicks #chokes #slapbumproll #MuayThai #jiujitsu #healthy #jiujitsuislife #iwillchokeyou #illkickyouinthehead #idommas #fitness #livehard #recoveryrocks #soberlife #dayinthelifeofderek (at Midtown MMA Houston) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsEJvjrhnxD/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1iggyfrhs3r7o

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[deelitefulrecovery]

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[yannicart]

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[katiep18]

“Courage means to speak your mind from your heart.”

“Courage means to speak your mind from your heart.”

Says Brené Brown.

And, she’s doing something right, so I’m going to jump in this ring.

When we can share our shame with others, it opens us up to empathy. 

As a natural empath, I have always felt other peoples pain. Just like other empathetic people I can feel joy, pain, and high stress emotions.

I’ve learned that shame is triggered within each of us in different ways.

How do I tell you my story with those imperfect parts of my life? 

I have to write.

I have to release my shame and get it into the light. 

This part of the process is the painful part, when you have to face what you’ve been running from and get it out.

This is why people talk about recovery being hard. For me, putting down the bottle (after the shock of the trauma of the breakup) was the easy part. 

First the pain, then the rising. 

I know that you must go through pain to grow and I am looking forward to being on the other side of this. In a culture that feeds on fear. I am afraid.

I have learned, you are only as sick as your secrets.

Addiction is fear. 

Food is fear.

Jealousy is fear.

Shopping is fear.

Sex is fear.

We are all afraid.

My first addiction was alcohol. 

He was my best friend, my companion, my everything. So, when I put the bottle down, I had to use my tools.

But, holy shit, does this hurt.

No wonder I drank these feelings away. 

Then, I saw a human that I felt like I’d known my entire life. He was beautiful, smart, and so sweet.  He was an athlete. He was perfect.  

I made him my higher power (que eye roll). 

With him, I didn’t have to feel, I was distracted in a fantasy that I had created and I loved it. It was easy.

Then, it fell apart.

I struggled with the “am I lovable” feelings, when in reality, I own this story and I get to write the ending. 

This is a fair warning to anyone who forgot what it feels like to love someone. When you love a person, be warned that they may not be able to love you the way you wanted them to. That persons capacity to love is different than yours.

To give you a picture of where I was mentally: (oh, hey, red flags).

He was facing up to life in prison for a nonviolent crime (a pending trial that did not have a court date yet), he and his wife were living separate lives, but had not filed for divorce yet, we lived together in his parents basement with absolutely no future. 

He relapsed.

Multiple times, got picked up by the cops, spent weeks in jail and brought chaos to the lives of everyone there. 

Looking back, I’m like, that broken heart was real, because I could feel my heart so heavy in my chest and felt like it may stop beating, but as I look back with eyes wide open, I think to myself, well, good thing that’s over. 

A tiny voice in my head decided that food was next. 

I remember sitting in rehab, thinking; I’ll come to all of your classes, I’ll be here on time and I’ll participate, but I’m not going to eat.

And, at that time, I honestly did not think anything of it. And, now it sounds absolutely redic.

I felt like I was completely out of control in a very safe environment and I had to find some sort of control. 

Fast forward.

Seven months later, and here I am, shoes off, feet up.

Sitting in a shrinks office. (Let me back up, my sisters friend is a nurse who specializes in eating disorders and expressed concern to my sister about my eating habits and behavior around food).

Spoiler alert, there was zero eating and absolutely no behavior around food.

I thought, I’ll go to a professional, she’ll understand that I have had some childhood trauma I’m working through and give me a little note that states everything is just fine. 

I was wrong. 

She tried to check me into an inpatient rehab at that moment. 

I thought; whoa, whoa, whoa. Slow down, lady. I just got out of rehab.

That escalated quickly. 

I am just here to make my family happy. There’s no reason to go from zero to sixty in an hour. 

Being open about this journey is scary, but very therapeutic. 

Brené Brown also said something along the lines of; “You are braver to fall in the face of courage than you are hiding in the dark.”  

So, here we are. 

This little Red Bull habit, a side of Chunk, and zero dinners is not going to cut it. 

I told the women’s group last night about my struggle with ‘transferring addictions’ and immediately women were giving me suggestions, advice, and tips that they used to get through this. 

I don’t know anything about this food “situation”.

And, that is a door I’m reluctantly opening. That door is big, dark, and comfortably closed.

So far, it’s starting with lists. Writing and lots of positive reinforcement to the little girl I call Sophie. She’s the little girl inside me who needs to feel loved, safe, and secure. (We all have that little boy or girl inside of us who longs to be cared for).

I can put the drink down, I can meet another guy, but.I.have.to.eat.to.live.

So...if you’ve been through this and you have ideas, suggestions, anything that does not include inpatient rehab ~ I’m all ears.

Humans are wired to tell our stories.

Welcome to my sober journey. 

It’s going to be a wild ride.