#screaming crying etc but no... no hummingbirds...

[ranticore]

if hummingbird harpies existed in kosaverse do you think they would be regarded as particularly vicious due to the caloric requirements of Being A Hummingbird forcing them to hunt and eat nearly all day (in keeping with the practices of irl hummingbirds)? or would they just die by natural selection? i'm drawing unconventional bird harpies and this seems like an interesting hypothetical regardless of whether hummingbird harpies actually exist in isok

The monstrous calorific requirements of hummingbirds do end up impacting their maximum size and nectar is only useful if you're small enough to subsist off it - a big hummingbird would need to be constantly surrounded by extremely nectar rich flowers 24/7 and that seems unlikely

The solution is farming I guess.. hmm if they can develop the technology to produce a high-yield sugar crop before they all died out they could mayybe survive? Ultimately I don't see it being realistic within the setting due to the unique challenges of farming and land use, potentially attracting crawling beasts, etc.

It's such a pity because I love hummingbirds, they're the emblematic animal of my dnd character.. they are so aggressive and territorial and fighty and their behaviour is absolutely fascinating. I fully support hummingbird harpies but not in isok setting because I don't think they could make it work... But there's nothing stopping you making something of your own ;)

[dixonsdarkelf]

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Say hello to one of Vec's brothers! I thought Eli deserved his own introduction as we'll get to formally meet him (eventually). He's truly an angel, and I'm so happy to be bringing him to life. I hope you love him as much as I do! Welcome to the AU, Eli.

His face claim is young James McAvoy, specifically from the movie ‘Atonement.’ Yes I chose his middle name of James long before I chose young James McAvoy for his face claim. Kudos to @dixons-sunshine for helping me with the face claim 🖤

➼ Eli is the youngest of the brothers (being two minutes younger than his identical twin, Jay) and is 3 years older than Vec.

➼ He’s the shyest, most introverted, and the most ‘sensitive soul’ of the Vector siblings.

➼ His birthday is April 26th, and he’s 33 when the outbreak begins.

➼ He’s 5 foot 9 with dark brown hair and striking blue eyes.

➼ Like his brothers, he entered the military right out of high school, joining the Navy and later becoming a SEAL and reaching the rank of Petty Officer Second Class before the outbreak.

➼ If he didn’t join the military, he would’ve gone on to study music in university.

➼ When the outbreak begins, he’s home from deployment, visiting his twin at their dad’s house.

➼ He learned how to play guitar when he was in middle school after receiving an acoustic guitar for Christmas.

➼ His favorite music genres are rock and metal. His favorite bands are Avenged Sevenfold, Slipknot, and Linkin Park.

➼ Despite his soft-spoken nature, he can throw down in the pit at a concert. It’s his favorite way to let loose.

➼ He has a tattoo of a hummingbird on his chest over his heart. When their mom passed, each of the siblings got a tattoo of a different pollinator to honor her (her garden was her pride and joy).

➼ His favorite color is brown.

➼ He’s incredibly protective/defensive of his siblings, as well as Georgie and Matt. He loves them like siblings, and he’d do anything for any of them.

➼ His hobbies include playing guitar, going to concerts, songwriting, and gaming.

➼ He dreams of being a dad.

➼ He has an affinity for horror movies, his favorites being the Saw and Scream franchises.

➼ His father chose the middle name ‘James’ for him after his own father/Eli’s grandpa.

➼ His favorite holiday is Christmas. He loves picking out sentimental gifts for people he cares about and watching their faces light up when they open them.

➼ He loves baking. He doesn’t do it often, but he always insists on making his family’s birthday cakes, anniversary cakes for his parents, etc.

➼ One of his most prized possessions is a brown blanket that he used growing up. When their oldest brother, Preston, used to have his high-school girlfriend sneak in for sleepovers, he kicked Jay & Eli out of their bedroom. They would trudge down the hall to their sister’s room, and she had blankets that they would use while they slept on her floor. Eli’s was this brown blanket, and he makes sure to take it from the house before leaving after the outbreak begins.

➼ It takes a long time for him to get comfortable around people, but when he does, he fully comes out of his shell.

➼ Though he’s shy, he loves getting to know people on a deeper level.

➼ He’s an optimist.

➼ One of his favorite qualities in people is loyalty to their family, friends, and others they care about.

➼ His guilty pleasure is watching trashy reality TV with his sister.

➼ He doesn’t show it often, but he has the most contagious smile. Others can’t help but smile when he has that big grin on his face.

➼ He has amazing combat skills from his time in the military. He, along with their other brothers, taught Vec how to fight.

➼ His drink of choice is a gin and tonic.

➼ He prides himself on being a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on for the people he cares about.

➼ His style consists of button-ups with the sleeves rolled up and the buttons partially undone and dress pants.

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[lady-and-lyon]

So, I made one post a while back about how awesomely feminist the show Wild Kratts was, with how its two main female characters were women of color in engineering and deserving roles of power, female villains who weren’t motivated by spite or quest for youth, etc, but today I wanted to talk about something slightly different, that I’ve wanted to cover for a while now, because I also think it’s very good - and that’s how the show portrays masculinity, in a way that’s really positive!

First, we have our two main characters, Chris and Martin Kratt. Keep in mind these two are basically self-inserts - and there are plenty of creators, especially males, who have used self-insert characters in really scummy ways - all I have to say is Powerpuff Girls reboot and you know exactly what I’m talking about. Even if they weren’t literal self-inserts, male characters, superheroes especially, oftentimes serve the male power fantasy, being just the strong, stoic, all-powerful person so many boys are told they’re supposed to be. I could get into a whole discussion about how the male power fantasy is present even when males are not (ever look through a fashion magazine and wonder why there are so few men? Sure, part of it is that the industry thrives off exploiting women’s insecurities, and men aren’t as concerned for their appearance, but another part of it is so that the guy, looking through it, can feel like he has no competition for these women - there’s a reason so many comedians have jokes about fashion magazines being their sexual awakening as kids. It’s really scummy) but that’s not what this is about. So, the bros had every opportunity to do just that - make themselves these traditional heroes who aren’t actually really good role models, like batman or what have you. It’s certainly not uncommon for celebrity cartoons to do stuff like that. But Martin and Chris chose a different approach. They’re pretty strong standouts for positive masculinity. They’re openly affectionate - both with eachother as brothers, and with their friends. They cry, sometimes over little things - most of the time when big superheroes cry, it’s ‘cause they lost the girl they loved or their mentor or something like that, only in the big, most agonizing moments do they shed a tear. But here, Chris or Martin will cry just because they’ve had a bad day, or because they’re overwhelmed and overjoyed that someone named a mantis after them! In a lot of shows or movies when a guy cries over something little, it’s usually played for laughs, or to emasculate him, but here it’s casual without being unreasonable or overdone. The brothers cry just ad much, maybe even more (haven’t gone back and counted or anything) as the girls do. Not to mention, it’s a very nice depiction of a loving, healthy sibling relationship. As the youngest sibling myself, it’s refreshing to see a pair who don’t abuse eachother with noogies or cruel and snarky remarks. When they do fight, it’s never a screaming match, and also because they had a conflict of interest or disagreed over a fact, not because, say, one of them stole the other’s shirt or is neglecting the other’s feelings. Kids, being very impressionable, get exposed to a lot of abusive sibling relationships played as normal in media, and start thinking this is how siblings are and should act. For instance, my sister (who is now my best friend and has gotten over all these bad habits over time) when she was younger watched a lot of Kim Possible, a show that is great, but has a bad family dynamic with Kim and her little siblings. The “tweebs” as she calls them are always irresponsible, destructive, and making Kim annoyed to no end. My older brother was one of the most polite, reserved, kind little kids, but she still treated him like he was a brat and a nuisance, because that’s what shows like Kim Possible taught her little brothers were. Additionally, I was always treated like a spoiled crybaby who just wanted attention and got away with everything - I was not any of those things, ever, but that’s what shows teach you little sisters are. Sure, Wild Kratts has a smidge of that, with Chris seemingly being the stereotype of the know-it-all little sibling, but instead of being constantly looked town upon for being too “perfect” like with Hailey Long in American Dragon, Martin often praises his brother for his abilities. Sure, Martin gets annoyed when Chris tries to correct him on things, like in the episode Wolf Hawks, but everyone else does too, so it feels more like a take-down of mansplaining than a sibling spat.

I talked too in the feminist post about how refreshing it is that Chris and Martin more or less willingly put themselves under the authority of Koki and Aviva, two women of color. I don’t think it’s possible to say any one character is the “leader,” they all work as a evenly balanced team, but it’s safe to say that Koki and Aviva make the more responsible decisions. The bros try to get out of their calls a few times, but the show plays it more like they’re being irresponsible, and less like they’re renegade cool dudes who don’t take nothing from nobody, especially not two girls. They are pretty much always punished via karma for their reckless choices, most especially in To Touch a Hummingbird, where their arrogant attitudes blow up in their faces rather spectacularly. We also never see the narrative most present in sitcoms, where the male leads mess up and go out of their way to cover it up and ultimately gets away with it - after all, you have to root for them, right, because sure they messed up and had no consequences, but aren’t they just so lovable? No, here Martin and Chris always have to fix their wrongdoing, and it’s always deserved when they get comeuppance. Another aspect of the show I like is that, many times, when the bros get captured or are in peril, they are saved by the women - and most refreshing of all, there’s never a moment of “wink wink nudge nudge wow I can’t believe I had to be rescued by a GIRL” or even “wow you saved me you’re pretty good honey guess I shouldn’t have underestimated you, you go girl!” No, when the girls save them, it’s just - you know, relief? Because they were saved? It’s never a scenario played as an exception, or any more dire than when the bros need to rescue eachother. The bros are genuinely happy to have them as teammates. The show even did the standard “boys vs girls” episode in the form of When Fish Fly - but instead of being actually girls vs. boys, it’s engineers vs. adventurers. There’s nothing really gendered about it - the girls happen to be engineers, and the boys happen to be adventurers. And the episode doesn’t end with the boys being “wow gosh darn I shouldn’t have doubted you girls are better at everything,” it’s a mutual agreement that both parties have hard jobs. Basically, the bros are very naturally respectful of women. That plays more into their feminist narrative too, but either way, it’s refreshing.

Then, we have Jimmy! Jimmy, the lovable gamerboy pizza man. At first glance Jimmy seems like the stereotypical cowardly, pathetic, emasculated loser. He’s frightened of most things, as of yet has no power suit, and he BAKES for crying out loud! But none of these things are framed as terribly bad traits. Sure, we laugh when he screams and runs from an animal, but though it happens over and over, the crew doesn’t get sick of it. They don’t berate him or belittle him because he’s so gosh darn cowardly. There’s a great scene in Rattlesnake Crystal where Jimmy has to deliver something to the bros alone, in the middle of a spooky desert. He is terrified the whole time, sprinting off after he delivers the goods. When Martin and Chris run into him, they don’t laugh at him for being spooked, they just greet and then bid fair well to their friend. To them, this is just Jimmy, and there’s nothing wrong with it. Jimmy isn’t coddled, but he is reassured many times that he’s a valuable member of the team. I love that little message, that you’re just as important of a person even if you can’t do as much or have greater limits. When his friends do try to get him over his fears, it’s not because they have to, that the day will somehow be ruined by Jimmy’s incompetence p, but because they’re his friends, and want him to experience fun and wonderful things that he would otherwise miss out on. But what Jimmy CAN do is just as important! Jimmy is a gamer, which in a lot of shows, is portrayed as a lazy, useless, mindless hobby. But here, because he plays video games, it makes him essential for piloting the ship and teleporting important items. There’s always the joke that video games improves your hand/eye coordination, but recent studies have shown it has much better effects. It can make you much better at keeping track of multiple moving objects and processing technical but variable information- two traits which, fittingly enough, are really really important for air traffic controllers and airplane pilots! He also demonstrates a lot more courage behind the wheel of the Tortuga, which makes sense - in an impersonal setting, he would have more sense of calm and control and courage, because it’s so similar to a video game world. It’s not all too different with how I feel more emboldened to pick fights with people on the internet, but get crazy anxious if a real person so much as looks at me. So Jimmy’s love of video games isn’t because he’s irresponsible, it has real benefits. A quick last point - Jimmy also eats a lot, but they thankfully don’t make him fat or greedy or anything like that. He never takes food from people, he actually bakes, and shares it with others! Having the baker be a boy is a lovely touch.

I might do another post about the toxic masculinity of the two villains, (or four villains, I guess, if I wanna discuss the minions) but I’ve got other work to do, and this post is long enough already, so I’ll get around to it later. I’ll sum it up with this - Wild Kratts is a show that teaches boys it’s not only ok to be kind, but essential. The brothers protect defenseless animals, advocate for things “icky” and “weird,” like bugs or snakes or worms - not because they’re boys, and boys like icky things, but because they genuinely see the beauty in all life, and are encouraging us to slow down and do the same. The Wild Kratts are heroes who save the world not by being the strongest or smartest or coolest, but by looking after those who are exploited and vulnerable, who are essential to the world, even if they can’t always do everything. In Wild Kratts the only weaknesses a man can have isn’t what he can’t do, but what he does do that he shouldn’t have. Sure, it’s a cute show about two funny guys who have cool powers, but it’s also a show about accountability, compassion, respect and trust. The show says “boys will be boys” in all the right ways - Martin is a lovable goof with a heart of gold, but he still has to get his act together when he messes up, and he’s still creative and smart and openly sensitive. Chris is a bit of a know-it-all show-off, but he can also mess up as much as his brother, and is still bold, brave, adventurous, and can put his money where his mouth is. Jimmy is a cowardly, napping, eating machine video-gamer, but he’s still a valued member of the team, has incredible skills and talents, and will always help his friends, even if he is really, really scared. It is so important to have role models like these, in a world dominated by unhealthy machismo. The Wild Kratts are heroes who save the world - both animated, and real.

All they need now is a canon queer character, and I’ll stan them forever! My money’s on Aviva!!

[truthbehindthemysteries]

~I Will Always Catch You~

A/N” One shot fic request: Fainting in Enobaria’s arms.

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People knew very well not to underestimate Enobaria for how much a beautiful mysterious danger she was. - After all, she had not only a reputation for how she was the victor of the 62nd Hunger Games but the fact that she had f a n g s – teeth filed sharp enough to resemble deadly incisors. Anyone who got to close would see how intelligent, blunt, dangerous, fierce she was. No one knew she had a heart of gold deep down. No one knew she could be soft, gentle and vulnerable. Except you. Everyone loses a piece of themselves to these vile games that prey on the lives of young children , forcing them to fight to the death until one one them remains standing, bathed in riches that others could only dream of. All at the mercy of a capitol who punishes them for others long ago committed.

You and Enobaria were in a close relationship. Growing up in District 2 { one of the wealthy districts who are close to the Capitol in wealth, loyalty, etc. }, You two had been best friends whose mothers were best friends, father's worked together. You two went to the same school and could go to each other about anything. Well that was of course after the fact that she stood up to a bully for you. You had something happen to you that gave you an injury that needed time to heal, someone had made fun of you and wouldn't seem to stop. Enobaria being … well, herself? Formed a fist and landed a punch so strong to the boy's jaw that he had to have surgery to get his jaw back in place. A dangerous serious process that if went wrong, he would never be able to use his mouth again and have to be fed through a tube.

Not long after that, sexualities were questioned and accepted but you two are together, happily in love, each other's rock when the other wants and needs even if they might not realize it. Anyway, it was the morning of the day where You, her and the other victors of previous games would find out the next tributes for each district for this years Quarter Quell. Now remember when I said that these Games take a piece of someone. It isn't something you can get past after all, just a young child thrown into dangerous situations and made to fight, hurt, k I l l other scared ones like you, hardened into little soldiers by ones older using you for their own greed, for their own e n t e r t a I n m e n t. Ones meant to love and care for you, protect you and keep you safe. Lets just say that you like anyone else had developed PTSD and panic attacks. There you and Enobaria were, sitting on a luxurious couch of a house you two shared together. Soon enough, President Coriolanus Snow himself showed up on the screen and started to speak,

“Ladies and Gentleman, this is the time in which we will begin the 75th Hunger Games, where specially, we'd also have the Quarter Quell.” Anywhere around, people had their eyes glued to the screen, you and Enobaria among others who watched with bated breath, not out of excitement like some might by unease, a want to get this over with and try to live life the best possible in p e a c e. As if that could ever be completely achieved in the world in which they lived in. Amongst the cheering, President Snow continued,

“It was written in the charter of the games that every twenty-five years, there will be a Quarter Quell. Now on this , the 75th anniversary of our defeat of the rebellion, we celebrate the third Quarter Quell.” A drop in your stomach seemed to happen as you started into those eyes shown on the screen, you had a bad feeling about this. Not that you didn't seem to have them at times and always turn out to be right but those cold eyes as they addressed the nation, seemed to stare into the souls of everyone he made suffer. What you heard next was enough for you to intake a breath, rushing to your head resorting in a dizziness that had you fearing the idea of standing. You just might collapse, others would cry and unleash anger.

“As a reminder, that even the s t r o n g e s t cannot overcome the power of the Capitol. On this, the third Quarter Quell game, the male and female tributes are to be reaped from the existing pool of Victors in each district.”

You could barely focus on Enobaria's hand tightening in yours as she arched upward to look into Snow's slow smirking face with a look so murderous one would shiver and fear for their life. Feeling the beginning of a panic attack, you felt the pain as it got harder and harder to breathe. It came out in pants as you tried to calm it, slipping your hand from your girlfriend as it clutched at your chest. Moving forward on your knee's , you fell to the ground in front of the couch, your hands at your fall. Your body felt numb as you tried to catch your breath, panic inside your body like the rapid fluttering of a hummingbird's wings.

Immediately you heard Enobaria yell your name then you felt her arms encircling you as she helped you the best she could to get you back to reality, to her where it was s a f e. “Y/N!”, came her serious worried voice. A strangled choked up noise seemed to happen, not even realizing it was your own tears spilling down your cheeks, voice not able to form the words they so badly wanted to express. Eyes blurry with wetness, you felt her cup your cheek, “Y/N, sweetheart, look at me please. Come on, show me those beautiful eyes.”, she began to slowly and gently speak. You looked up weakly at her as she wiped the tears from your eyes, seeing love for you in hers despite the anger she was feeling, the murderous anger that was barely contained. You really were her anchor bc she would put it aside so long as you were safe, happy and alright.

“How could- I thought that we- that's not su-”, you tried to speak but you would choke up, cough and tear, your voice would crack. She rubbed at your shoulders, shaking her head from you trying to speak more. If you continued to get out of control with your breathing, your heart would only race faster. You were weak and dizzy enough, she didn't want to see you pass out bc if you did, that wouldn't be anything good. You were relatively good with taking your anti-depressants but bc of the ptsd that you had experienced from your own games – you often had nights where you woke up screaming, where you would flinch at any beginning of violence, anything that reminded you of all that you went through like anyone else and you would be inconsolable. The only ones who could manage to bring you out of it IF NOT Enobaria were any of your family still around.

“i will not let anything happen to you, I promise you. You know I have always stood by that. Try not to think on it now and just lean on me baby, im here and I am never going to leave you. Breathe with me.. come on , that's it.. in and out.” and she started to do it with you as your hands remained comfortingly and gently on you as you kept your eyes on her, intaking a breath and releasing it after holding it for a little bit, getting air back into your lungs. Making your body go back into a stable state, you and her stayed like that for what seemed forever but may have only been a half hour, hour? When it seemed like things could be okay at least for the moment, you felt her arms around your waist, her hands clasping at your hands tightly “Come on, lets stand okay, lemme get us some water.”

You nodded, afraid to speak, any moment you felt like you could cry. Not just from anger, so much anger it could rival your girlfriend but unlike her, you didn't have fangs that could sink into another's throat with enough strength to rip it out, causing the unfortunate person to choke on their own blood and die. Maybe thats what Snow deserved. You felt your hands balling into fists at the mere thought of how someone could be so heartless, without remorse or pity. It made you sick to your stomach and you had enough of those kind of feelings what with having panic attacks. Hoping the water would help as it sometimes did and should, you kept your mouth shut, not wanting to spill any contents in your stomach onto your clothes and the floor as Enobaria helped you stand.

Still feeling slightly dizzy, you almost wondered if you should say something but you urged that you dealt with this before, feeling weak and dizzy. You only ever fainted if it got really bad and always someone was there. The only times that someone wasnt was a rare occasion but any unlucky person who came upon you with dark intentions would regret it, you were so protected. A darling of District 2. As you made to follow her into the kitchen, everything went black as you fell. Unconscious to the scream as Enobaria immediately caught your fainting body in her arms, worry on her face as she gently tried to shake you awake but only receiving no answer from you.

Not wanting to immediately jump to conclusions, she held you protectively in her arms as she went about the process of getting you medical help, refusing to leave your side. For those who suggested, one glint of her fangs in the light was enough for them to hold their tongue lest they want it ripped out. While they did the work to help you, she in a corner not to far from you , paced back and forth, w a I t I n g until she saw your beautiful eyes again. When you finally did flutter your eyes open, it was after the doctor's left you both to have some privacy, telling Enobaria that the reason you had fainted was not only from a possible slip up in taking medication, dehydration and stress, they advised you get plenty of water, rest, stay active in the medications and do anything relaxing to get rid of the stress. Maybe start talking to someone, it could help get the stress off your shoulders, as they say.

Once the door closed behind them, your { e/c } eyes seemed to flutter open, your lips parting to crack , “en..” you coughed, “enobaria?” She immediately rushed to your side, sitting down beside you and taking one of your hand in both of hers. “How are you feeling? “ she ended up scoffing, “Stupid question..” she looks at you, “i'm right here.” You smiled weakly, memories of what happened flashing before your eyes and tears started to well up. Immediately sensing the change in your, she cupped your face, 'Keep calm for me babygirl, im right here. Whatever happens, it's you and me always right? As we promised.”

Your heart raced but you forced it to slow, to even out and calm yourself down. You slowly nodded, clenching your throat as you swallowed, “Forever.”, you muttered softly, lovingly, with no hesitation. “Scoot over.”, she muttered as she stood, moving to remove the blanket a little from you. You weakly tried to move, an adorable frown forming on your face as you looked up at her, “Won't they sa-” She shook her head as she lied down beside you, gently pulling you into her arms so you could cuddle into her, the blanket over both of you now, “Just them try and stop me from holding the woman I love.”, You felt butterflies in your stomach, she was always so good to you – what did you do to deserve someone like her, Enobaria, the fierce badass everyone was scared to come into contact with but realize there was another side to her. A good side so worthy of the truest of loves, something you two found together. Like a home. She caresses your face, making you look at her, as if you wouldn't choose to willingly anyway,”

“Wherever you go, I will follow if you wish and anytime you fall, I will always catch you.”

You nodded, closing your eyes as you felt her arms encircle you more, holding you against her chest and your two’s legs entangling together under the blanket. Resting your head against her chest, you and her breathed together, your eyes closing shut once more and hers following suit not long after you. At some point you would be discharged to be able to go home but until then? You would find peace in the arms of the woman you loved. Everything would figure itself out one way or another. One day Snow would realize the wrongs for which he has done and pay for them accordingly. Taking one day at a time, you would make sure that you would be okay, that the ones you loved would be okay.

You would always say that you never deserved someone as fierce and dangerous as Enobaria who was sweet and romantic and cuddly deep down but truth was maybe it was the other way around with her feeling she didnt deserve you. Sometimes people didnt even approach her for the reputation she had but you weren’t like the others, You didn’t treat her like she was a monster to hold at arms length for fear of being ripped apart. You broke down all her walls and made her f e e l. She could never thank you for that, having someone as angelic as you but every rose has it’s thorns and she knew that together, you two could accomplish anything. Not just the best but the worst of times.

[bazzybelle]

Belle!! This is a sh*t-ton of asks (sorry 🙈) but you can pick and choose whichever ones you want to answer! 7, 11, 20, 29, 38, 49, 50, 58, 59, 64, 69, 70, 79, 80, 85, 89, 92, 98 💖

Lmaoooo!! Omg Sbazzing!! You know what... challenge accepted!

7) earbuds or headphones?

Earbuds... my hair gets flattened really quickly if I out anything on my head.

11) what you have for breakfast on an average day?

A couple of bowls of Special K Red Berries and some coffee, if I'm home. Some grocery store scones and coffee if I'm at work.

20) preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

Notebook... been starting to write fics in my notebooks with fancy inks.

29) best way to bond with you?

You know... I've thought about this for a while... like all my close friends (online or off) have bonded with me over a very important thing... Laughter.

I think if I can share a big laugh with you, or if I can make you laugh (or you make me laugh), that's a sure fire way to bond with me.

38) lemonade or tea?

TEA!!!! Either iced or hot! Although, David's Tea will add lemonade to their iced teas... so you get the best of both words.

49) what saying or quote do you live by?

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to end, but about learning to dance in the rain."

"We need not be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken."

"I'm going to carry on... as I am."

50) what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

Unfair question... my husband makes me laugh on a daily basis, and more often than not, I'll be scream laughing, unable to breathe. ALSO... @foolofabookwyrm and @hufflepunky recently made me cry laugh the other day.

58) four talents you’re proud of having?

Uhhhhh...

Baking

Writing

Ouf... do I even have any other talents? This is disturbing...

Uh... singing?

Being a smartass... does that count??

59) if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

Uhhh... "BELLE-ive that I'm going to stop you!" God... I'm the worst...

64) favorite website from your childhood?

Ummmm ebaums world and newgrounds... I mean those were pretty much the only places you could go to on the internet when I was young...

69) a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

You know, you'd think that someone who loves to throw fun facts at people, that I'd have an answer for this...

Uh.... Did you know that hummingbirds are the only bird to fly backward?

70) left or right handed?

Right handed...

79) which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

Passport photo!

80) earth tones or jewel tones?

JEWEL TONES! Gimme that emerald, sapphire, wine... rubyyyyy! I love those deep, rich, colours...

85) fairy tales or mythology?

Mythologyyyyy

89) who would you put before everyone else?

Probably my husband... he's the only person that knows every inch of me, and still loves me... so him...

92) lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

SUNLIGHT... which makes me so sad to live in this basement, because we barely get any natural light...

98) favorite historical era?

RENAISSANCE!

HA! I DID IT!!! MERCIIII!

From THIS ask post!

[derangedroyalfae]

Coming Out to My Family 02/10

Royal (9:20 PM) So...just came out to my fam

Jewel (9:21 PM) Oh? How did it go?

Royal (9:24 PM) Fine. More or less. They were "hurt" that I kept this from them and went behind their backs etc.

But they want to support me.

Kitty was ready to fight Bear

Literally what she was sending to me as my fam was talking :sweat_smile:

Kitty (8:16 PM) When someone tells you the truth, your first reaction SHOULD NOT be "you hurt us so much, you should trust us, why didn't you tell us sooner?"

Why?

WHY?

This is why.

They only cared about themselves and how much you're effecting them, not you or what you had to say

They totally disregarded how hard this must be for you

I'm angry beyond words

Kitty (8:29 PM) Wow, they backpedaled real hard when I called them out on their hypocracy

Royal (9:24 PM) And then afterward... I get it, it's not easy for him and after my family asked about if being trans affecting my relationship with him (cuz of course they did and we haven’t told the family yet about us), but Nurd asked about being able to talk (you know about what) after I was done in the bathroom.

I was honest and said I'm actually physically feel "eeugh" right now (I’m a wee bit nausey)

I originally did say I would on Friday, but I also hadn't expect things to go so late and whatnot. But I don't know, I guess it's a tad insensitive, for him to ask...and me to deny.

Jewel (9:32 PM) Man, it's all happening at once, huh? That's gotta be rough. But I'm glad they want to support you.

I'm not surprised by the "hurt" thing. My mom reacts like that all the time. I think if I had actually started treatment, she wouldn't be speaking to me today.

Royal (9:34 PM) So, they of course were like “well who can or can’t we tell, since you told us to keep you being poly secret from Nurd’s family”

I will say, my family bringing up the being secretive with Nurd’s family did hit some nerves. I NEVER wanted that. I wanted to be honest and out, but I was respecting his wishes. Gods, I wanted to scream. Just another benefit to leaving him. Not to be anyone’s “dirty little secret” once again.

Jewel (9:35 PM) Ouch. I'm so sorry. They make it sound like it's your fault or even your decision.

Royal (9:35 PM) They did. And Nurd just was like “because my mom is crazy and I didn’t want to make my dad have to keep a secret from his wife”

But it was said as though it all fell upon me when it came to my family

I know we’re hoping his mom will be out of the picture soon, but it hurts in the mean time

Jewel (9:41 PM) Yeah, that's understandable

Ultimately of course, his family and his decision on what to or what not to say isn't something you can control

And it's just unfair to make it seem otherwise

I know you wouldn't choose to hide anything, given the choice

Royal (9:42 PM) This was partly the reason why I wanted to come out first and then have the talk with Nurd

I didn’t want to go in this order

And he was entirely present throughout the entire coming out process

And he wanted to talk to me about our falling apart relationship despite the Emotional Rollercoaster I endured he just friggin fraggin witnessed???

He’s so oblivious with shitty timing

It’s like the same in the opposite way from when he saw me get dragged and humiliated by my parents and then didn’t check on me

He didn’t come to check on me this time, he came to get his own closure for something else

I understand this is hard for him, but did he not see me tear up and even when I did cry? Did he not see how terribly nervous and anxious I had been the entire ride?

Jewel (9:50 PM) :/. It's definitely not too much to expect from someone. It's one thing for him not to be in the state of mind to offer comfort but to expect you to talk is another thing.

Hummingbird (10:01 PM) Yeah, that's a very shity thing on his part. Especially after seeing your family beat you down.

Royal (9:51 PM) Thank you. Fuck. I’m glad to see that I’m not fully overreacting.

Jewel (9:52 PM) Yeah, definitely not. Heck, I'm a pretty oblivious person sometimes but not this oblivious.

Royal (9:52 PM) It’s almost selfish. I know I’m selfish too, but I guess the whole “takes one to know one”

Maybe not selfish, but definitely insensitive?

Before and after coming out XD

Styled -> Unkempt hair

Put together clothing -> loosened tie and collar

The overall expression too

I’m not saying it in a bad way, but I look “done” in the second/bottom set

Jewel (9:56 PM) Heh

And yeah, definitely insensitive more than anything else

Royal (9:57 PM) So, I’m gonna post my first 2 months on HRT this coming week on Instagram/Facebook

Talk about coming out to the world

Cuz my fam was like “who can or can’t we tell” and I was just like “I don’t want to hide it”

“In fact, if you look at my profile’s gender, you’ll see that I never technically have been”

Jewel (9:59 PM) Imma just say, you brave and I admire that

Royal (9:59 PM) I need a combination between :upside_down::fearful:

But, still smiling

Like, the blue and eye shape on the second, but the inverted smile

I'm scaaaared shitless, but my main reason for not coming out was so that it didn't affect my family

my fam has literally given me the "ok, we'll take on the haters" sign of approval

like, affect my family as in people harassing them because of me

Jewel (10:02 PM) It's totally understandable to be scared

The fact that you're still doing it is incredible

Royal (10:02 PM) but my family is saying that they will support me, hell, my mom even offered to go to my appointment with me

Jewel (10:03 PM) Wow, I'm glad to hear they're that supportive

Royal (10:04 PM) Bear was the most complicated one, but mainly because of how "hurt" she was

Bunny immediately tried changing pronouns and names

my ma's family kinda grew up un-oblivious to LGBT+ issues, not only was my ma's uncle openly gay, but my aunts have plenty of trans and queer friends, etc

Hummingbird (10:03 PM) Is it bad that I think it would have been better if Bear had been away for the weekend?

Royal (10:03 PM) but she needed to know

I needed to tell her too

mainly for my niece

Hummingbird (10:04 PM) I know. It just felt like she pushed it in a hostile direction. Like when she left the room,  your family started being less  hostile

Royal (10:05 PM) yeah…I kinda noticed that too

Hummingbird (10:07 PM) She is the one that took it personally... At least from my perspective

Royal (10:08 PM) very much so

but the world revolves around her

don't cha know

Hummingbird (10:09 PM) Also the "we need to communicate"  as she was being hostile enough to make anyone not want to tell her anything

Kitty (10:09 PM) This ^

Royal (10:09 PM) XD this is almost what Kitty was saying to me in private XD

Kitty (10:09 PM) A million times

Jewel (10:06 PM) Oh, huh

At least her issue isn't with your identity itself

I suppose the hurt thing should die down on its own, hopefully

Royal (10:08 PM) My ma even asked how I pronounce my name and they also asked about me wanting to legally change my name (which I did state in my letter I did��but ok)

Jewel (10:10 PM) Good to hear they're making that effort

Royal (10:11 PM) Literally Kitty tonight

Jewel (10:13 PM) Heh

Except she did call them out or something?

Royal (10:13 PM) at one point, but it was on a more minor, almost unrelated thing

apparently, I have family members who see my FB posts and get really concerned and I was just like ??? and then my fam were like "but we're all here to protect and support you" etc and Kitty was just like "then why didn't you start with that"

I know that is way off, but I'm in a tizzy

Royal (10:46 PM) Fuck me, thank you. For all the cons, I think her pros tend to outweigh.

Jewel (10:47 PM) Oh, that's really nice of her to think of

Royal (10:48 PM) Yeah, I appreciate that she looks at things from all angles most of the time

Jewel (10:51 PM) It's good she recognizes just cuz she's your mother, doesn't make everything super easy to tell right away

That's one thing I wish my parents understood

Royal (7:11 AM) You have my support no matter what