#strawberry picking��⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

[haeryna]

leaving without saying anything... i don't think i could ever forgive them 😞 (i have abandonment issues)

see i totally agree because i have abandonment issues but what i'm really excited to elaborate on is why they did it.

tw: homophobia, more abandonment!

it's late, and suguru is almost asleep when he hears pounding on his window. groggily, he opens it, to find satoru almost in tears (which is the third time in suguru's life he's ever seen satoru like that), bruises adorning his face. obviously, suguru freaks out, which triggers satoru's tears, and it isn't until suguru finally calms him down that satoru tells him what happened.

see, they'd always known that satoru's parents weren't open-minded. one could even say they made snide comments that were unfortunately common in the small town that they lived in, little quips about pronouns, and the sinners who just so happened to be queer.

but they hadn't realized just how bad it was.

so as satoru cries quietly, and as suguru gently massages ointment into broken skin, the two of them make a plan. satoru can't stay here, suguru knows. not in the town that had always been too small for them. lately it had felt suffocating, unbearable even, and now the noose lay patiently around their necks waiting to tighten further.

satoru sneaks back into his house to grab a few things he can't leave behind. the stack of polaroids you'd taken. the eyeshadow palette you'd gifted him. a backpack and a few clothes shoved haphazardly inside of it.

suguru takes a spare change of clothes, his guitar, and binder full of music. he uses the last bit of cash satoru manages to withdraw from his (now deactivated) bank account to buy them both two tickets to east asia from the nearest airport and the bus tickets to take them there.

"but what about them?" satoru asks, in a voice almost too small for suguru to hear.

"they'll understand," suguru answers, though the way his voice quavers means he knows there's a real chance you'll never forgive them.

as you're sobbing in shoko's arms, satoru and suguru have been long gone, phones deactivated in an entirely new country.

as you stare blankly at the positive results from your parents' bloodwork, satoru quietly asks his makeup artist to do his eyeshadow with the eyeshadow palette you'd given him for his debut stage.

and as you wave shoko goodbye when she finally leaves for med school (the smile doesn't quite reach your eyes), suguru releases his first song.

"they'll understand," suguru had said. but you never did, did you?

thank you for your ask anon! i promise i'll give them a happy ending,,,i think

[ang3ltine]

❝ 𝑃𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦 𝐺𝑖𝑟𝑙 ❞ pt2 here

۶ৎ summary: Se-mi never planned on falling in love, but fate had other plans for her

۶ৎ pairings: Se-mi x freader pt2 here

۶ৎ warning: brief mention of a toxic relationship and slightly suggestive themes at the end but over all fluff ♡

𐙚 authors notes: this is my first time writing after so long so I apologise in advance if this fic seems super cringe but anyways enjoy ~

𐙚🧸- Se-mi couldn't believe her eyes, from the far back of the dorm room she spotted a familiar face. Your eyes met hers and you froze, like a deer caught in headlights.

Oh boy you were in trouble now.

She had met you at a thrift store downtown, you were a worker there and you'd always help her to pick cool accessories and outfits that suits Se-mi's taste.

You had soft features with a coquette style clothing consisting of pinks/browns. But what she loved the most was that you always smelt of strawberries and vanilla. Which Se-mi adored.

She had the fattest crush on but always avoided asking you out since you had a bf and had no idea if you liked girls or not.

Without thinking twice she swerved her way through the sea of players, hoping to get an answer out of you.

Se-mi grabbed your arm gently and led you to a quiet corner of the room . She didn't want to bring unnecessary attention to you both so she spoke quietly.

"What the hell are you doing here (name)?" You sighed in defeat and struggled to make eye contact with her.

"Look...I uhm - my ex , he uh stole my credit card details and spent it all on his gambling addiction. Soo I'm here to get that money back. Its no big deal - "

"No big deal?? Your sleazebag of an ex ripped you off and you think that's ok? Geez I knew he was trouble from the first day you introduced me to him".

Namgyu, player 124, was the culprit. When semi spotted him in the first game with a weirdo who calls himself 'Thanos', she really didn't give two shits.

But now that she knows the sole reason you're here was because of him, she was more than willing to pay him back.

With her fists in his face ofcourse.

You could tell Se-mi was pissed so you tried to change the subject as quickly as possible.

"Ok, ok enough about me, what about you??" You poked her chest playfully and crossed your arms. " I have my reasons.." she simply stated, not wanting to talk about herself when was clearly worried about you.

"That bruise you had on your cheek a few weeks ago, it was because of him wasn't it?" anger still apparent in her voice.

You seriously didn't want to admit it because you were embarrassed. Instead of standing up for yourself, you succumbed to his abuse. Choosing to stay silent so you wouldn't trouble anyone. Especially Se-mi.

But here you are now , face inches away from your crush. Even when you were in a relationship you always felt like Se-mi treated you better than any boy had ever made you feel. She cared about you alot and would always bring you small gifts and trinkets to make you happy.

On really rough days where you'd have really bad fights with Namgyu, Semi would take you on a ride on her motorbike to clear your mind and it would always calm you down.

"Well yeah..He got really mad that I was always hanging out with you after work...so he wanted to teach me a lesson." You breathed out shakily, feeling the tears well up in your eyes but refusing to let yourself breakdown infront of her.

Se-mi saw your eyes glaze over and felt a pang of guilt. Knowing she was the cause of the suffering you faced. Pulling you into a tight hug, she chose to not coax you any further. The strong smell of cheap cologne and a slight scent of cigarettes flooded your senses and you sobbed quietly, burying your face in the crook of her neck. Semi whispered sweet nothings to you while you relished being back in her safe arms.

The next few days went by quickly and you found yourself falling deeper in love with the ravenette. You were afraid to break the only relationship you have with the girl. You were friends, nothing more and nothing less.

Se-mi on the other hand wanted more. Sometimes she'd secretly watch you from afar while you talk to the other players. Her eyes slowly dragging over your figure with not so pure intentions.

She also had a thing calling you pretty girl whenever you have a conversation with her so you just assumed she meant that as a compliment rather than her attempting to flirt with you.

After the lights go out tonight , she wanted to finally confess her feelings for you. She isn't the best with words so she wanted to do the only thing she knows how to do. Through her actions.

Limbs entangled with each other and the sound of quiet breathing filled your ears. Se-mi was fast asleep, at least that's what she wants you to think. She knows every night when you both slip into bed that you admire her face while she's pretending to sleep. Which she finds super endearing.

"Do you like seeing my face that much?" trying to bite back a smile when she sees you're caught off guard. " Wha- Se-mi? You were awake this whole time??". At this point your cheeks were burning hot and it became all the more amusing for semi.

"I'm just gonna go straight to the point.." she drawled, letting her thumb drag gently across your cheek.

You yelped in surprise as she swiftly flipped you onto your back with ease , the familiar tingle in your stomach slowly built up. Se-mi was now hovering over your small form and she looked like she was gonna devour you whole.

A shit eating grin plastered on her face as leans down and captures your lips in hers.

Her lips were slightly chapped but soft nonetheless while yours were sweet and plump from the strawberry flavoured lip balm that you manage to sneak in. Which se-mi loved , you were addicting and you tasted oh so delicious.

You wasted no time reaching to the back of her neck and slipped your fingers into her dark hair pulling her in impossibly closer. Soft moans escaped your mouth in-between each kiss while se-mi soaked in every one, pushing her to kiss you deeper.

A hot trail of open mouthed kisses trailed down from the side of your lips towards your neck. Se-mi groaned in satisfaction when she finally found your sweet spot as you squirm beneath her. Leaving dark hickeys all across your neck and collarbone.

She wants everyone to know who you belong to , especially that dumb ex of yours.

Overwhelmed by the immense pleasure you tried pushing her away. Se-mi didn't let you and quickly pinned you back down onto the mattress.

" ah ah - where do you think you're going?"

Her voice going an octave deeper than usual as she whispers into your ear making you close your legs in response while she reached down to pry them open.

"You're in for a long night so don't even think about it ~"

ps. Thanks for reading guys also put in some requests and I'll glady fulfill them for you ♡

[noircheols]

⸺ NO ORDINARY LOVE. 𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ ִ𐙚

an anthology of love stories almost never told.

PREFACE. love has been far from perfect. you thought you would stumble upon prince charming organically. unfortunately, this is a big fat joke in the 21st century. reluctantly, you open the app store and download something you always believed were better off for finding potential enemies or friends with benefits... a dating app. it’s time to give your phone cupid’s bow and see who it hits!

PAIRINGS. svt x reader (seperate)

WARNINGS. suggestive, cursing, varies from fic to fic

SCHEDULE. every monday (i hope.)

TAGLIST. @jjjjeonww @shirebusking @shinwonderful @tokitosun @unlikelysublimekryptonite @wonkierideul @flwrshwa @syluslittlecrows @macapunoz @paradiseoflosers @seokmn @itsclda

open! please feel free to dm/reply/ask

STATUS. ONGOING!

AUTHOR'S NOTE. AAAAA i wanted to write something inspired by hinge's no ordinary love campaign. reading it was so lovely and i wanted to write something alongside the same premises. hinge if ur seeing this please dont sue me </3. THIS IDEA IS NOT MINE AT ALL simply something inspired by it. i hope you all enjoy!! peep the ugly header LMAO graphic design is my least fave thing ever as u can see. happy love month to all the losers (affectionate) who enjoy!! i hope you all find love in the people you adore, the music, food, and most importantly, yourself!!!!

NETWORKS. @kstrucknet

♡ ‎ kisses are always promises ── 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐈 𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐎𝐋

a love story for people who deserve peace of mind and torment themselves for being unable to give others the same.

LIKES : popping boba, working out, my dog kkuma, giving gifts and making them feel special, confidence

DISLIKES : lack of effort, ghosts, fries (got doxxed for this)

♡ ‎ let your habits control you ── 𝐘𝐎𝐎𝐍 𝐉𝐄𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐇𝐀𝐍

a love story for people who want somebody they can be themselves without any qualms, flaws and all.

LIKES : somebody who keeps me on my toes, napping, taking photos of my pet rock, cashmere pajamas

DISLIKES : somebody who monitors my every behaviour, judgemental

♡ ‎ heaven knows i'm miserable now ── 𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐉𝐈𝐒𝐎𝐎

a love story for people who are looking for the best in people (and always end up finding the worst).

LIKES : optimism, deer print, sunsets, big smiles, playing guitar, an open heart

DISLIKES : poor manners, gaming, isn't understanding, just don't be a horrible person lol

♡ ‎ swimming fool ── 𝐖𝐄𝐍 𝐉𝐔𝐍𝐇𝐔𝐈

a love story for people looking to dive head first beyond the surface of dating to understand themselves and their partner.

LIKES : exploring new possibilities but having somebody to call home, cat cafes, matcha, hmu huzz 👅👅👅

DISLIKES : misunderstands me and my humour (or chooses to), isn't on the same wavelength

♡ ‎ i don't wanna watch tv anymore ── 𝐊𝐖𝐎𝐍 𝐒𝐎𝐎𝐍𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐆

a love story for people who are scared to pick up their broken hearts and close themselves off from being hurt again.

LIKES : TIGERS, going to the arcade just for the dance machine, somebody to share fun memories with but also can feel safe with

DISLIKES : spicy food, pent up emotions, lack of ambition

♡ ‎ focus ── 𝐉𝐄𝐎𝐍 𝐖𝐎𝐍𝐖𝐎𝐎

a love story for people who know that seeing is believing, that to be loved is to be seen, and that to believe is to love.

LIKES : hoodies, gaming (league of legends, genshin, valorant), reading, somebody to sit in silence with after a long day

DISLIKES : obnoxious, believes things revolve around them

♡ ‎ chocolate strawberries ── 𝐋𝐄𝐄 𝐉𝐈𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐍

a love story for people who put up walls and are waiting for the right person to knock them down.

LIKES : anime (jujutsu kaisen, naruto, kimi ni todoke), personal space, my personal space being invaded

DISLIKES : my personal space being invaded, physical touch

♡ ‎ keep you close ── 𝐊𝐈𝐌 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐘𝐔

a love story for people who know what they want, and knowing what you want makes you lonely.

LIKES : cooking, trying new cuisines and restaraunts, unboxing collectibles, being appreciated

DISLIKES : heights, avoidance, mess

♡ ‎ weather forecast ── 𝐋𝐄𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐎𝐊𝐌𝐈𝐍

a love story for people who worry about being too much or too little, but never enough.

LIKES : long walks at public parks, cupcake-scented things, visiting the dog shelter, rock music (fun fact i was in a band!!!)

DISLIKES : nothing!!! everybody is awesome and cool in their own way :D

♡ ‎ cloudburst ── 𝐗𝐔 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐇𝐀𝐎

a love story for people who don't appreciate what they have.

LIKES : art history, exhibitions, mala xianguo (or any other spicy food)

DISLIKES : being held back, long-term commitments, being deprived of choice, everything

♡ ‎ ‎stuck by the glue ── 𝐁𝐎𝐎 𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐊𝐖𝐀𝐍

a love story for people who are chronic people pleasers and give to the point of exhaustion.

LIKES : ballads, family, when somebody is caring and affectionate, tangerine flavoured desserts, iced americano

DISLIKES : making somebody upset, being found annoying, chan

‎ ‎♡ ‎ ‎starshy ── 𝐂𝐇𝐖𝐄 𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐋

a love story for people who deserve to be taken seriously.

LIKES : visiting record stores, charli xcx, cloudy days, making personalized spotify playlists for each other

DISLIKES : dismissive, puts me down

‎ ‎♡ ‎ ‎hot n cold ── 𝐋𝐄𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍

a love story for people who make up their mind and change it the next minute.

LIKES : somebody who loves having me around, doing everything together, somebody dynamic

DISLIKES : seungkwan (DNI!!!!)

@noircheols do not copy or translate

[hiiikiko]

IF THATS THE CASE … would u write ellie x hikikomori reader

𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕖 𝕩 𝕙𝕚𝕜𝕚𝕜𝕠𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕚!𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕖𝕣

ellie w. x reader | tlou m.list

[a/n] AHHHH I LOVE THIS PROMPT SM !! (speakin as a former hikikomori <now forced to work a 9-5>) also im doin this heavily based off me bc my room is literally like the ones in the pics lolz n there’s not many other known moris that aren’t minors n i dont feel comfy roping them in 0__0 idk if this is good bc it was so hard to come up with anything lolz

₊˚ ‿︵‿︵‿︵୨୧ · · ♡ · · ୨୧‿︵‿︵‿︵ ˚₊

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ as a hikikomori, you rarely ever left your apartment, too anxious to face the chaotic world outside but on this particular day, you were craving some strawberry shortcake from a nearby bakery; so you put on a brave face and stepped outside for the first time in awhile

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ on the way to the bakery, you passed a comic shop and decided to take a peak because it seemed to be empty, and the only worker looked too engrossed in their comic

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ the comic shop was very neat! they even had the exact comic you were looking for so you snatched it up and made your way to the register

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ as soon as you placed the comic on the counter, green eyes peaked over a spiderman comic which a very pretty auburnette was reading, your face was covered in a blush as she began to scan the book and make small talk, but unfortunately you were too shy to talk

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ for days after, she would pop into your mind, the way she looked at you over the comic made you smile

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ so, you made plans to come again the next day.. then the day after that.. then day after that.. then-

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ soon, you and ellie became aquatinted, she even knew your favourite series but you had yet to know anything about her

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ finally, one day you had the courage to ask her what her favourite series was, ellie leaned over the counter, a smirk on her face as she said “Ah, i’m a bit busy right now but.. why don’t i tell you later, hm?” your soul left your body when you saw she had written her number on a sticky note tucked into your comic (little did you know that she had written that weeks ago and finally worked up the courage to give it to the pretty girl with immaculate taste in comics)

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ soon, you and ellie were chatting everyday

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ you even got her into manga lol

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ even though you weren’t keen on sending photos, ellie would constantly send videos/photos of her at school, or work, out hiking, gym pics, and more (she also sends you haul videos of what she bought at the comic store and would tell you that she saved a comic for you)

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ BUT when you did work up the courage to send pics (usually leaving out full body pics or face pics) she would go completely crazy and bombard you with compliments, making you kick your feet and blush

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ you decide to invite ellie over to play a game, you clean up because now you finally have motivation, ellie looks almost out of place in your room that’s filled with pink things and little figurines, she doesn’t mind it, as a matter of fact she thinks it’s cute and she loves how many comfortable things you have, your whole room is like one big pillow

⋆. 𐙚 ˚the two of you have a great time, ellie ends up spending the night which you don’t mind, it’s been awhile since you’ve had company

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ the next morning, you wake up and can’t find ellie anywhere but when you walk into the kitchen you see a little box with a note on it that reads ‘had to go to work, picked up a cake for you <3’

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ there’s no official start to your relationship, instead ellie ends up staying over days at a time, buying you comics and games, taking you out on dates, so the two of you had somehow became a ‘thing’

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ ellie even has a highlight full of pics of you (only if you’re comfy with it) and of your dates

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ when you finally open up to her about how you struggle with going outside and being around other people, she’ll try her best to understand

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ after you tell her, she’ll still plan outside dates but will also make sure the two of you have at home dates, mainly playing video games and watching movies

⋆. 𐙚 ˚she’ll also listen to whatever you’re struggling with

⋆. 𐙚 ˚she’ll accommodate you but she will NOT coddle you because she wants you to get better and treating you like a child won’t help, somedays she’ll drag you outside to go on a little walk or take you over to her place instead

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ she does get frustrated at times because she wants to show you off and take you out but it’s so fuckin frustratin how often you say no, during these times she’ll sometimes lash out or go for a walk but then apologize as soon as she gets back and try her best to communicate what’s going on

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ this does prompt you to try harder so when ellie does take you out, she’ll check up on you every couple of minutes just to make sure she’s not making you feel bad

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ she’ll encourage you to get a better sleep schedule and a healthier diet, even going as far to come over and cook for you or bring leftovers from whatever joel made

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ she’s very nervous to touch you, her hands practically hovering over you because she’s not sure if this is okay (even if you’re practically throwing yourself at her, she’ll still be nervous and awkward about it)

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ when she does realize you’re not a porcelain doll, she can’t get enough of you, she’s been so nervous to touch you for so long that when she realizes that she can, she goes feral, her hands roaming all over your body

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ she punches your stuffed animals when you’re not in the room

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ if ellie’s in a band, she’ll invite you to gigs and at first you’re scared and frequently decline but when you finally do show up, ellie puts on the best show she ever has just to impress you ♡

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ overall, she loves that your geek matches hers and she wants you to get better, so she’d try her best to help in whatever way she can

[cyb3rl0v]

Whats in my main dr bag?

𐙚⋆.˚ The bag + decor

⋆.˚ Keychain : it was given to me by my best friend when we were still in high school, she bought it because it reminded her of me (my favorite fruit is strawberries and i play the guitar also black and red at my fav colors)

⋆.˚ Pin 'I ♡ cats' : i found it on the floor of a bar and picked it up, now it has found its home on the strap of my bag

⋆.˚ Broken skateboard pin : it was my boyfriend's, i stole it from him (i didn't really steal it i asked nicely and he gave it to me lol) its also located on the strap of my bag

𐙚⋆.˚ Front pockets

₊˚⊹♡ Right Pocket

⋆.˚ They're filled to the brim with junk, random receipts, old tickets, random lists etc.

⋆.˚ Along the random receipts i also have a few fortune cookie papers and a note

⋆.˚ "Don't stop until you're proud" : a note given to me by my mom the morning before my final exams..

⋆.˚ "A pleasant surprise is in store for you" : i found it a few days before getting accepted into my dream drama school

⋆.˚ "Your dreams are never silly, depend on them to guide you" : i didn't really get what if meant at first, but quickly realized it means that i should follow my dreams and aspirations and i did and it was the best thing I've ever done, i keep it as i reminder (I've had it since i was 15)

₊˚⊹♡ Left Pocket

⋆.˚ It has my wallet

₊˚⊹♡ What's in my wallet?

⋆.˚ Money : its obvious as to why i need it lol

⋆.˚ Pictures : The first one is of me and my best friend messing around in highschool. The second one is of my s/o when he was a kid. The third one is me and my s/o on our first night out as an official couple, taken by my bsf. The fourth is of my cat who i love very much. The fifth one is a picture of my little sister.

⋆.˚ Lighter : just an extra lighter in case i lose my favorite one or it runs out of lighter fluid, its basically my emergency lighter

⋆.˚ Condoms : self explenatory

𐙚⋆.˚ Main pocket/bag

⋆.˚ Body Spray : i found it at a random flea market and i just carry it in my bag in case of emergency, it smell like chocolate cake

⋆.˚ Camera : to capture every moment with my lived ones

⋆.˚ Random little coin pouch : my baby sister found on the road and gave it to me

⋆.˚ My s/o's ring : he took it off one day and now its just sitting in my bag forgitten

⋆.˚ A pink pocket knife : its actually so usefull

⋆.˚ Tarot card : a random tarot card that fell out of my moms deck while i was passing by it, she thought it was a sign and just gave it to me

⋆.˚ Cigarettes : cannot live without them, there are probably loose cigarettes in my bag since i never seem to close the box properly

⋆.˚ Makeup pouch : it carries mostly lip products, a mascara, eyelash curler that i stole from my mom, a hairbrush and an extra pair of hoop earrings, just in case

⋆.˚ The picture of Dorian Gray : my favorite book ever and also my most annotated book ever

⋆.˚ Heaven : new book i just bought from the bookstore near my work place

⋆.˚ Pink Journal : My daily journal, i use it as a diary, planner and scrap journal sometimes.

⋆.˚ Blue Journal : I use it as a sketch book and i also write poetry in there

⋆.˚ Pencil case : my bf got it for me, it holds all my pens, markers, pencils, tabs etc.

⋆.˚ Water Bottle : its a random water bottle i "stole" from my mom's metaphysical shop (im pretty sure she knows i have of bit just doesn't care)

This is so long but it also took a shit ton of time to make. Also I'm sorry for the blurry pictures, i don't know wtf happened.

[novasverse]

⋆˙⟡ the bat constellation.

KIYOMI KOIZUMI-BAKUGOU . . . the bat hero 🦇 ꩜ .ᐟ

note. this oc is a part of a shared ocverse with my dear friend @carmshifts ^^

(˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)ㅤㅤㅤeighteen. dec 16. attending U.A. college. ‧ ₊ ᵎᵎ 🍊 ⋅ ˚ ✮

born as the only child of 5th ranked pro-hero ANGELWISH, kiyomi quickly grew accustomed to the spotlight. she had high expectations for herself, aspiring to be an influential hero just like her mother, someone the public can rely on.

After an unforeseen catastrophic event that permanently changed the koizumi family, kiyomi is unable to control her quirk and is now considered a dangerous liability if left unattended.

🦇 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪ㅤㅤㅤundecided hero name. ㅤquirk? BAT ˚｡𖦹 ⋆｡°✩

“Bat” is a transformative quirk that allows her to shift into a bat-like form, inheriting many bat features mentally and physically. including naturally big ears, longer fangs, and a pink nose, bad eye sight, the habits of hanging upside down, sucking on fruit, sensitivity to sound and light, and overly alert.

due to an early childhood event, kiyomi is unable to control her quirk. because of this, if she loses control of her transformation, she shifts into an uncontrollable bat-like beast where she carries little to no conscious towards her any actions. its like she becomes a mindless monster...

𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡ first love. ㅤ raine aizawa ; hand - holding, picnics on a chilly spring morning, fruity juice, white dresses, pink lip tint, hot tea and sweets in front of a fire place, cuddling during the fall season, heavy sweaters, freshly picked strawberries, calico and black cats, gentle kisses, inevitable yearning, destined heartbreak.

𐙚⋆°｡⋆♡ final love. ㅤ shoto todoroki ; secret kisses, soft touches, first fall of snow, peppermint hot chocolate, snow angels, fairy lights, daydreaming, words of affirmations, lullabies, tangled in each others arms under the comforter on a cold winter day, knitted scarves, desired romance, dream come true.

[haeryna]

i think idol gojo would have songs like 3d by jungkook HSGDJDG

from this drabble;

oh for sure. he knows how to work his body the way that fans like, all the hip swaying and the suggestive movements. could totally see 3d, seven, guilty, and bouncy choreos being something his manager assigns to him ALL THE TIME bc they know that fans eat that shit UP. the amount of tiktok thirst traps/edits that are made of him get to the point where at least one of them goes viral every week.

but what the fans don't know is that while gojo might live up to the fuckboy allegations, what they don't realize is he never actually sleeps with them. sure, he'll fool around, but at the end of the day he's still thinking of the girl he left behind all those years ago. any time he tries to go further, he's instantly reminded of what it's like to hold you instead and he just. can't do it.

it gets to the point where one day he calls rockstar!suguru to complain about his frustration. suguru gets quiet. "do you think we made a mistake leaving them behind?"

the silence is more than enough of an answer.

thank you for the ask anon, i appreciate you <3 i also think that idol!gojo would be so good at singing and dancing but HATES rapping to the point where he flat out tries to pick songs that have no raps in them.

[haeryna]

i feel like reader (especially after being called princess and the two working together to tear down her walls) would be in a dilemma— like a few things came out of them abandoning her but one being just this indescribable feeling of rage and hurt

so upon being in their hold and touch and suguru endearingly calling for her to hear them out, part of her wants to fold SO bad but the other part of her wants to stay unreasonable and not hear them out because it’s just so much easier to be angry at them and paint them as the villains in her life, if she does accept their apology she knows that feeling won’t go away— she’d have to come to terms with how bitter of a person she really was (i mean rightfully so, they did screw her over)

also bless u and ur writing— i don’t see many poly! satosugu x reader stories with a plot that has me biting my finger in absolute investment LMAO love uuuuuu 🫶🏾✨

ANON THANK YOU you perfectly summed it up !! i wanted to write a story where there was a difficult decision that had to be made, with several catalysts involving how everything went down. (splitting this so that it doesn't invade people's feeds with a wall of text LOL)

satoru's "coming out" to his parents: mine were so homophobic that i didn't come to terms with my own sexuality for a long, long time, so i empathized with the sheer panic and trauma that gave him. you don't make rational decisions when your parents are beating the shit out of you, and you also don't make rational decisions when you're 16 years old.

suguru choosing to leave reader behind: they could only withdraw so much money with the limits satoru's parents had placed on his bank account. they had to have enough to eat, to rent an apartment, to actually get away. they had to choose a place far enough so that satoru's parents wouldn't follow, which brings me to

retaliation: there's a unique kind of fear, when you're unsure if someone is hunting you down. there's a kind of terror in realizing they can track you. it's why they got rid of their phones, and immediately upon signing to the same company, received heavily protected ones. only people who had their number could reach them, or even respond.

"they could have said something:" again, they were panicked, satoru had just been beaten by his literal parents, and they were trying to flee as fast as possible. in the moment, they could not have and would not have been able to do that. as alluded to before, they did not live a comfortable life in asia. the beginning was rough as they scraped by. it wasn't until satoru began auditioning that things started looking up for them, and if you're into the kpop scene, you know how brutal training is. suguru ultimately spent all his time caring for satoru and working on the side until he also made it big.

"and what about after?:" honestly sometimes, when you know you fuck up, but you feel like you can't do anything about it anymore? that was them. and you can be upset with it all you want, but it had gotten to the point where they genuinely thought you would never be a part of their lives again. yet the chasm in their chest grew larger and larger, until they realized they couldn't continue on unless they know they at least tried.

that's not to say reader isn't in a predicament as well, like you mentioned nonnie. leaving hurts, and abandonment is worse, so it would be far easier to paint them as the bad guys. it doesn't matter what their intentions were. to reader, they left her alone, and now they're suddenly back for unknown reasons? reader is also not the most stable of mind right now (real); she's working two jobs on top of taking care of her sick parents. for the past five years, she's had to be the one taking care of herself. now satosugu need to prove that they WANT to be the ones taking care of her. i've been in this situation before, as the left party (who eventually ended up forgiving the leaver), so i hope that will help to incorporate realism into the situation.

and i'm glad you like the plot/understood the nuance of the situation! i'm grateful to you and your ask anon, thank you for allowing me to go in depth into the situation <33 i love you too!

[haeryna]

haerin i miss you so much how r u my pookie princess 🙁🙁

HIII I'M ALIVE EVERYONE !!!

long story short i am okay!! my contract with my extremely toxic job ended, AND THEN MY LAPTOP BROKE :((( so i had to deal with all that, and then life lifed, and oh my god it's been almost a year???

i've been doing well pookie <33 my life has gotten much better, still a lot of ups n downs lmao, but i'm enjoying it!! how are you babe? i miss you so much too :((

i'll get around to asks, and i'll try to be more active here, but first i have to break it to my bf about my blog before he starts wondering why i'm suspiciously hiding my laptop from him

[haeryna]

OH MY GOD BAEEEE

i literally love your satosugu fic so much IM SCREAMING LIKE UGHH ITS SO GOOD AJDJWJS

like im not over exaggerating it hurts so good like i swear you know how to hit us hard 😭

i love your writing style and the way that we can feel the characters emotions (or maybe thats just me being sensitive..? IM JOKING BAE) like i can imagine how hurt reader is by satosugu leaving her and how mad satosugu are at themselves for leaving her too LIKE UGHHHH

and readers thoughts are completely valid because satosugu left without explanation, basically deserting her and then suddenly they come back?? like i’d be so hurt and mad that they’re back BUT ALSOO when she got called princess? i feel like part of her just wanted to cave especially when she was being held like that but then the other part of her was fighting, reminding herself how badly she was hurt LIKE OH MY GOD YOU ARE SO GOOD AT THIS I LOVE YOUR WRITING AAAA

and for satosugu their reason for leaving and not contacting was also completely valid !! i love that we get to see how much they miss reader and how upset they were that they left but also their reason for leaving? literally GUT WRENCHING. Yes they love reader as much as they love each other but they had to get out of there for their own safety and it just hurts so good 😭 AND THE WAY THAT THEY STILL LOVE HER TOO IT HURTS SO GOOD LIKE WHAT THE FUCK WHY ARE YOU SO GOOD AT WRITING IT MAKES ME SOB— okay but really the way that they never stopped loving her shows how much they truly loved her in the first place because even though reader thinks she means nothing to them she was the only person that they could ever love the way they love each other, oh my god and when they find out she never left and how she’s been alone for the past 5 years i can’t even imagine the guilt and hurt they felt. i can’t even when Suguru finds her letters like the pain he must’ve felt? The way he slowly saw through the letters as the girl they left behind changed, BUT THE WAY THAT THEY WILL NEVER LOVE HER ANY LESS. Also when Satoru notices how reader has changed physically like i just KNOW he wanted to burst into tears, seeing the people you love so frail and vulnerable is a pain that you can never forget so imagining how Satoru felt coming back after years only to find her looking like that must’ve been so painful for him. DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE PART WHERE HE SAYS HOW HE FORGOT WHAT IT FELT LIKE TO BE WITH HER LIKE OH MY GOD STOP IT RIGHT NOW. Like even though reader doesn’t even want to be in the same room as him he can’t help but feel alive because she’s just always had that affect on him like oh my god i literally want to bawl. Okay but also Suguru writing all of his songs for her 😭 I can’t help but wonder if he still has the guitar she thrifted for him? Also the part about Satoru’s makeup artist? “She’ll never do it like you” IM ACTUALLY SOBBING.

I love the way you write so much, it’s so real and has so much emotion. As a theater kid this entire fic is so good for character analysis like I LOVE analyzing characters and the way you write them just makes it even more fun ! I love the way that each character is actually complex and how their emotions feel real LIEK OH YMGNDODQJDHJWNS

(omg i didn’t realize how like jumbled up this all is im so sorry 😭)

I can’t wait for more to be revealed about their relationship! take your time writing the next chapter 💗

ANON PLEASE I WANT TO PUT YOU IN A LITTLE JAR WITH A BOW AND KEEP YOU SAFE YOU'RE SO SWEET AND KIND AND I LOVE YOU !! let's get married. rn. but PLEASE i was sitting here squealing and kicking my feet and looking at this ask every five minutes...i'm so glad you love it :') it makes me feel so happy that you feel like i've written them to a depth that you feel like you can analyze them!!

just for you bae, some little snippets that may or may not get woven into the main story: (suggestive but not explicit!!)

suguru keeps the old guitar you thrifted him. he actually bought a special case for it, so that even with all the damage, it'll still remain strong. there's a metaphor in that, he thinks, in the way that he'll only bring it out when he's writing a song that's meant for you. they're all meant for you, so he finds himself bringing it out constantly. he refuses to try the demos that the studio sends over, of metal and rock, because it feels cheap and artificial.

satoru keeps you and his lockscreen. it's a photo of you and suguru standing together, backs towards the camera. suguru is mid-laugh, and your eyes are shining. sukuna used to give him shit for it, until choso stepped in, recognizing the wistful love in satoru's eyes every time he'd see it.

the first time they were intimate together in their shitty apartment somewhere in seoul, suguru calls out your name. satoru says nothing of it. in turn, suguru pretends not to notice when satoru calls for you in his sleep.

kenji is dissatisfied. in a small town like yours, classmates have paired up left and right. you were meant for him, he believed. but now that satoru and suguru are back, and you're about to leave, he'd rather clip your wings than let them have you. if he can't have you, then he'd rather let you take the fall.

shoko is bemused, in a sad sort of way. she knows she can't interfere. that, and her girlfriend hates satoru with a burning passion, so she doesn't want to start any fires there.

(utahime will never forgive how satoru had made fun of her when she'd taken a particularly nasty fall during a dance practice. they weren't even in the same industry for god's sake. utahime does not care.)

you're exhausted. money is thin. you've given up on your dreams of a musical career. the notebooks of sheet music and lyrics lay aimlessly on your floor. you pretend like you realize the bleakness of your life. in reality, when you can't sleep, you find yourself scribbling words and melodies.

satoru and suguru tried, once. to replace you. to find someone else. they couldn't even seriously stomach the idea before they gave up and went back to pathetically looking at old photos of you. one of the first things they got when they made it big was a professional album done of all the photos they had of you.

(shoko laughed until she cried when she heard about it, before smacking satosugu and telling them to "go talk to her and do something about it, dumbasses.")

ALSO DO NOT APOLOGIZE FOR THE RAMBLE!! i adored it and i hope to see you around nonnie, take care of yourself <33 i hope my other fics will be able to allow you to analyze the characters as well; the next chapter will be a doozy considering how badly i want to make it realistic but there's a lot of thought that goes into that hnghh. i hope you have a lovely day/night bby!!

[haeryna]

Wait so are Gojo and Suguru aware of their romantic feelings for the reader? Is there a reason they got together first versus with one of them with the reader?

solely for the purpose that suguru and satoru have known each other for longer. that, and they kind of feel bad for the way they view reader, as referenced by suguru's flashback in wasted summer where reader is straddling him. they feel kind of perverted for seeing reader in a sexual context so to them it's easier to just take out their sexual needs on each other. they're both aware that they love reader, and but they just originally thought they love the other more, you know? if they had just been upfront, reader would have eventually realized that they love them the same way too. them leaving just happened to be the very brutal catalyst.

leaving just happened to be the catalyst for a lot of things, but we'll go more into that in the next part once i find the inspiration and time to write more. thank you for your ask anon!!

[haeryna]

I’m just thinking about your idol au and how personally I am such a petty person💀 like if we gave satosugu another chance the amount of side eyes and snarky comments that would come out without even thinking💀 like “oh you like that Chanel product? Oh I bet you liked it😒” (cause of that Chanel model💔) like no matter how much I’d try that feeling of betrayal would never go away😭 I need them suffering🙂🫶🏼

no bc i am Right with you on that. suguru isn't doing the dishes? "yeah, remember when you fucking left me?" satoru won't buy you the snack you wanted? "oh, but you bought that chanel perfume real fast, didn't you? was it because of her?"

all jokes aside, yeah don't worry there's going to be groveling !! refuse to make reader a pushover just bc they're hot

if school ever stops kicking my ass two more weeks and then im free

[haeryna]

I kind of wish reader was in a relationship when geto and gojo showed back up in your idol!au because I need these men to be DISTRAUGHT 😭

oh babe don't worry they will be distraught for other and arguably worse reasons :3

[haeryna]

hi!! i bingeread your satosugu fic and omg it's amazing !! you really nailed their dynamic, i love how complex the relationship got and the AU overall !! do you have any hcs for how Suguru's and Satoru's music sound? I cant wait to read more, good poly fics are hard to find !!

hi mila! i'm glad you liked it, i get oddly paranoid that i'm either overcomplicating or undercomplicating things in my au lol. suguru will often play rock music (which i personally don't listen to) but that's because his managers really like pushing his "image," with the long hair and piercings. in reality, suguru's biggest hits come from the acoustic songs he writes on his own, and performed on the guitar that reader gave him. thinking mitski and other assorted indie artists i listen to. deeper, gentle voice; when he sings, you can feel the way he almost seems to breathe around the cadence of the song, weaving himself into it seamlessly. he's well established though, a walking contradiction between the "indie" music he plays and the fact he's so mainstream. for good reason; the emotions from his heart bleed into his voice, and his fans delude themselves into believing the love songs he writes and performs for you are for themselves instead.

too bad you've shut off his music any time it's come on.

satoru on the other hand is just an eclectic blend of boy groups; the group is composed of five members (choso, sukuna, gojo, nanami, and haibara) so i've paired them with txt in my mind, but like every group, gojo has some solo songs. guilty by taemin, rover by kai, sugar rush ride by txt, and stray kids are definitely some things that i think they would perform, but since they're such an diverse group (so different in style, aesthetic, and mannerisms) that i think each comeback is wildly different as well and therefore most, if not all, kpop boy group songs fit. he has a higher vocal range, but is trained to perfection in the way that most idols are. a technical perfectionist; often praised for how his live vocals match the studio recordings.

thank you for your ask and support though !! i'm glad you've been enjoying the series so far <3

[haeryna]

I would've folded so fast if Suguru called me princess 😓

what's more realistic...reader folding with suguru calling you princess, or reader remaining stubborn and mad...

you're so real though i think suguru would call you the super loving nicknames like "honey, princess, my love" and satoru would call you weird as shit names like "my little fruit tart" or something

jk satoru would love calling you babe or baby but i fully think he's the kind of boyfriend who would give you the most random nicknames.

"i love you my ibuprofen tablet"

"you're too cute today, my sour gummy worm."

[haeryna]

I have the impression that Gojo would be showing off knowing that the reader has never had a good night of pleasure 😃☝️

tw: suggestive

oh gojo is over the fucking MOON. "wdym keiji sucked? baby, you really thought he would be better than me?"

and geto is just amused because he knows exactly what gojo's grudge with keiji is, but as gojo bullies you (in more ways in one), he can't stop himself from joining in. after all, it's not his fault when you're so overwhelmed you cry. and you're so pretty when you do.