#they're already arguing and it's only 2k words in. and i really don't think i'll be able to get

[azems-familiar]

this chapter. is going to be too short. damn it.

[taegularities]

Hello, lovely Rid 💕💕

I'm here to ramble to you about your ramble in response to my ramble lmao.

First of all, we really do think alike apparently, because I also checked the wordcount of my feedback before sending it and it's probably the longest one I've ever written and will ever write. Even without all of the quotes it's like over 2k words, I really don't know how to shut up 😭😭😭

Thank you so much for taking so much care to write such a thoughtful response, Rid 🥺🥺🥺 I always love reading your responses to feedback, and not only my own, because everyone points out different things and you give even more insight into the story and your writing process. I can just read about your stories forever, even when it comes to commentary about them.

I watched the mv for 'when you're gone' and I totally agree with you that that scene matches OC's mood in the beginning of the chapter very well 😔😔😔 It also matches the way I was reading the Valentine’s day drabble, smiling at how adorable they were when I knew how we left off in cmi6. I've said it before but I'll say it again, the thing that hurts the most is knowing how happy they're able to make each other and seeing how they're now hurting each other instead 😭😭😭

Also about the rambling to my sister lmao. Cmi is the first fic I've properly talked to her about (she reads fanfic too, just not bts ones) and I was fully ranting to her about how Jungkook was keeping everything in and trying to be strong until he couldn't anymore, and now he's ignoring OC, I don't think I've ever ranted so much even about a real life person lmao. I might have not painted him in the best light because of how mad I was though 😔😔😔 But I probably will just ramble about how cute he is to her later on when everything works out 😌😌😌

Also also everyone has been adding onto the sadness and angst here and I don't know how they do it, because every time I even think about OC with someone else or just them being even sadder I want to cry lmao. But I still love reading everybody adding to the chaos, I can't lie.

Last but definitely not least, I feel like I haven't properly checked in on you in a few days, so how are you doing, Rid? 🥺🥺🥺

I MISSED YOU (she says after just 2 days lol), honestly, i was gonna shoot you an ask today lmao but since you're here, i can just say it now: i hope you're doing well! how's school going? <3

2k even without the quotes? i don't deserve you fr 😭 no but seriously, i copied it into a doc, and thought, kay, must be around 2k, like all of it (which is already a lot) BUT 5.7K.... and it was like 10 pages long !! i went "awwh" out loud 😭

and thank you 🥺 i was even thinking of making a smol commentary one day, when i've got the time, bc i could talk about them forever 😭 i really love reading everyone's reviews and theories, bc sometimes it makes me rethink things that i didn't consider even while writing.

ikr? i spent my teenage years crying to 'when you're gone', and i kinda remembered the song when you pointed out that 'he can be comfort even now' bit :( and you're actually so right. might argue that it hurts even more to relate it to the vday drabble.. especially, considering what's still to come.

hahaha i get it 😭 after that chapter, it was hard to hold a high opinion of him, bc he did kinda fuck up :// but yes, i promise you, there are gonna be scenes and chapters that are so fluffy, it'll be almost disgusting, really. it's so cute that you ranted about it to your sister hahaha i really love that you're so invested 🥺

I KNOW! it's amazing how everyone was ready to jail me for all the angst... yet, they keep coming up with scenarios and songs that break me for good 😂 i wasn't as much in pain when i posted the chapter as i am now hahahah

ahh i'm okay, ivi, thank you for asking! i think the biggest reason for my bleh mood was that i'm... very bored. i've been feeling pretty unproductive since i took this super long break after graduation and quit my last job. which is why i'm lowkey excited (but also very scared lol) to start my semester next week and my job in may! will join you in your academic misery hahah but yeah. i'll be busier, but i'm looking forward to it, bc i do like being busy! hope you're all good, too 🥺🤍

[sungieskies]

[09:45]

Seo Changbin x Female reader

Words: 2k

Genre: fluff, suggestive near the end (idk read over it, seems kinda boring buttttt)

You sigh softly as you sit in your brother's car, tears still streaming down your make-up stained cheeks. "Y/N..." Jisung spoke softly and he glanced at you while he was stopped at a red light. "It'll be okay, I promise. He wasn't right for you. He had no reason to cheat on you or lock you out of your own house. You didn't do anything wrong okay?" He spoke as gentle as he could since he was trying to get the point across to you that your now ex boyfriend was a piece of shit. You had been told multiple times by many people including your brother that he was going to hurt you, but you insisted on giving him a chance.

You stayed quiet, Jisung's words only making you feel worse about trusting your ex. Jisung sighs and soon pulls up to the apartment he shared with the other 7 boys from his group at college. "You're okay staying here with them and me right?" He asked as he didn't want to make you anymore uncomfortable and upset than you already were. "It's fine sungie.." you spoke softly and got out of his car, walking up to the apartment with him and following him inside.

You instantly felt eyes on you as you entered the large apartment, making you hide behind your brother more than you already were. "Yah, stop staring at her. It's just my sister's you creeps." He spoked before looking to a pair of boys. One a dark, almost ebony haired boy and the other having dark hair as well but with more of an umber tone. "Changbin, can she borrow some of your clothes?" Jisung asked, the one with the darkest hair looking up and nodding "don't see why she can't borrow yours but sure." He said softly before looking at you, well your fragile state more than anything. "You're the shortest so the clothes won't be as big on her." Jisung spoke before practically dragging you to the bathroom.

You sit down on the edge of the tub, waiting for your brother to come back which he soon did. He set a shirt and a pair of sweats on the sink along with a towel and washcloth. "Take a shower and clean your self up okay? While you do I'll clear our extra room out with the help of the others and order us some food." Jisung spoke, kissing your forehead before leaving the bathroom and shutting the door behind him. You shakily stood up from the tub edge, turning the shower on almost as warm as it could go without physically burning you. While you waited for the water to warm up, you started stripping off your clothes. Right as you threw your bra to the floor, the bathroom door creaked open since Jisung hadn't shut it fully. Since the water was louder than the door, you paid no attention to it. As you shimmied out of your leggings and panties, you had no idea that Changbin had walked by and saw the door open. He didn't know exactly if you were already in the shower or not but since the door was open, he peeked in as he wanted to check on you. As soon as he saw you naked, his face flushed a deep red and he shut the door fully and as quickly as he could without slamming it.

You turn around as you thought you heard something, without seeing anything different you shrugged it off. You did reach out and lock the door before getting into the shower to clean your self off, trying not to cry more as you thought about the events of the day so far. You sigh and start rubbing your face with the washcloth, scrubbing your make-up off before moving down to wash you body. Soon enough you got out of the warmth of the shower and wrapped the towel Jisung left for you around your body.

You quietly walked out of the bathroom, only in the shirt Jisung had left you as the sweats were too large in the waist for you. You held the sweats in your hands, walking out to the living area and tapping Changbin on the shoulder. He jumped slightly before turning around and smiling at you, a light blush still covering his cheeks. "What's up?" He asked before looking as you hold his sweats out. "They're too big and I didn't know which room was yours." You spoke softly as you looked up at him. Changbin nods and takes the sweats into his hands, the smile still dancing on his lips. "Well thank you. And my room is the one next to Jisung's." He said and pointed to his door. Your head turns and follows his finger before nodding, "ah okay" you said with a smile before walking off to Jisung's room to grab your phone as you assumed that's where he took what little things you had with you.

Changbin watches you walk off before letting out a breath he didn't realize he was holding. "Dude you really have the hots for his sister already?" Chan asked as he shook his head. "We go to parties every weekend and girls try to get you to fuck them but the one time Jisung brings his sister over after she's had a shitty month and you're the one with the googly eyes." Changbin shrugged "I can't help it. Look at her..." he spoke as you walked back out of Jisungs room, looking at your phone before squeaking as you ran into one of the other boys, Seungmin to be exact. "Ah sorry.." You spoke quietly as Seungmin shakes his head, smiling softly "don't worry about it Y/N.." he spoke as he entered his and Jeongin's room. You nod before looking as Jisung peeked out of the spare room. "So uh, it looks like the bed in here is broken. You'll have to sleep on the couch or I can give you my bed.." he spoke softly and you rolled your eyes "I'll take the couch Sungie. No need for you to give up your bed" you said with a weak smile before going and sitting on the large couch.

The boys soon started to flood into the living room, Jisung taking the spot next to you and the others filing in and finding seats after. Jisung looked to you and handed you a plate of pizza, smiling at you "eat please?" He asked with his puppy eyes when he saw how hesitant you looked when he handed you the plate. You giggled quietly and nodded, your soft giggle making Jisung smile. "There's my sister..." he said before discussing with the others on what movie you all should watch. You watched them talk and argue as some wanted horror and others wanted comedy. Eventually it was settled by all of them playing rock, paper, scissors and one of the boys, who you soon learned was Felix, picked a horror movie. You hated horror but it was better than sitting in silence or outside in the cold as you had done the past three nights.

You noticed that Changbin had kept his eyes on you most if the night, locking eyes with you a few times before he would look away and act like he was interested in something else. It didn't make you uncomfortable, but you wondered why he was so curious about you. Maybe it was because you were wearing his shirt? No, that seemed dumb but it was the only explanation you could think of at the time. You looked up as all the boys started heading to their rooms, either going to work on class work or go to sleep as they had classes in the early hours of the morning. As Jisung got up, he walked over to you and kissed your forehead again. "Don't stay up too late. I have a class at 9 AM but I'll be back after. Get some rest sis..." he spoke softly and walked off to his room.

You nodded at Jisung's words and then looked to the other couch as Changbin was the only one left that hadn't gone to bed. You looked at his face and he looked nervous about something so you spoke up first. "Changbin? Are you okay?" You ask softly as you sit up a bit more to look at him better. Changbin snapped out of whatever daze he was in and nodded "Y-Yeah. Just wanna ask you something..." he spoke softly.

"What's up Changbin?" You ask and tilt your head slightly, looking just like your brother but cuter to Changbin. "Since I'm the only one with a larger bed, and not to be weird, do you want to come and sleep in my room with me? It's more comfortable than the couch and we shouldn't really be super close in the bed so it won't be awkward." He spoke and looked at you, chuckling softly at the blush that spread across your cheek. "I-I mean I don't want to bother you Changbin..." you said quietly while shaking your head. "You won't be. Come on." He spoke and started walking to his room, looking back to see if you would follow him. To his suprise, you were. You looked like a lost puppy, but you followed him into his room and sat down on his bed before looking back to him.

Changbin smiles and shuts the door to his room before turning away from you and slipping his shirt off, his muscular arms and body being shown to you. You look at his arms, weirdly entranced by the muscles and the veins that ran from his knuckles up into his arm. Changbin turned to you and waved his hand in front of your face, "Y/N?" He asked and chuckled as you snapped out of your daze, looking up at him and blushing a deep rose pink color. "God..." he murmured before gently lifting a hand to push some strands of hair behind your ear before his hand stopped to cup your cheek. You instinctively leaned into his warm touch, eyes closing as you did. "You're adorable, you know that?" He asked before looking at your lips. You blushed and opened you eyes quickly at his words "a-ah... Changbin I'm really not.." you spoke quietly and looked up at him, your large eyes melting him.

"You really are though, Jisung told us what happened while you were showing and I don't know why someone would give you up like that. You're so perfect..." he spoke before leaning down closer to your face. "Can I do something Y/N?" He asked, watching you nod quickly as you had an idea of what he was going to do. A smile starts dancing on his lips again before he leans in and kisses you softly, to which you hesitated but soon kissed him back. Changbin pulled away from you after a moment and sighed softly "sorry..I just..you're so perfect and when I saw you earlier my heart felt like it was going to burst. I've never met or seen someone like you Y/N...I've also thought love at first sigh was fake but after seeing you I jus-" you cut his sentence off by kissing him again. "I can understand Changbin, and look..I'm willing to trust you. I've been separated from my ex for almost a month, he finally just broke my nerves after trying to come back and then getting violent that I called Jisung. You don't need to worry about rushing me or yourself okay?" You ask softly and smile up at him.

Changbin nods and his smile grows before he lays down in the bed, pulling you next to his body before pulling the comforter over your bodies. "Get some rest okay? We can talk more in the morning..." he spoke and kissed your head before turning his lamp off.

In the morning, you awoke to the sound of your brother screaming and the other's laughing. You open your eyes and see Changbin standing in the doorway, laughing along with the others before speaking up. "Look, Jisung I can promise you we didn't sleep together. We could be doing that soon though" he said smugly, causing Jisung to screech and cover his ears. "I shouldn't have brought her here!" He cries out.

"I'm glad you did.." Changbin said softly.