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[akanemnon]

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[bylerpining]

BOYFRIENDS🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻😭😭😭

[egophiliac]

who are you hoping they announce for next Halloween event ??

the ending of the NMBC event implied there might be a sequel, so if that's for this year, I would assume we're getting that Oogie! just to ruin Jamil's life forever 🐛

(although...it's not ever gonna happen, but I would LOVE if we got a Sally-themed character too) (I mean, they wouldn't) (but I want one is alls I'm saying)

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about how deeply lucanis' life has been defined by a lack of control of that life -- as he himself points out, even before the ossuary went and carved the headline out again with big bloody letters. of course he reacts badly to losing what little control he did manage to construct for himself even within those circumstances.

(namely: experience has taught him that things (caterina, loss, pain, love, all horribly and indelibly intermingled) will happen to him whether he wants them to or not and there's nothing he can do about that... but he gets to decide what's let in or out of his soul as it happens, even if he has to close it all down and deaden and numb himself out in the process. (even if that means he drifts further and further away from illario, who's been desperately reaching out and trying to keep hold of him until he finally gives up completely and tries to cut the bond all at once when lucanis doesn't seem to reach back anymore.) it's such rare well-observed freeze logic solidly constructed from the bottom up, I'm still so impressed with it.

the way illario seeks constant external means to cope with caterina's abuse and importance in his life -- he can't win her admiration or acceptance or warmth (or like. acknowledgement even, at times :') ), no matter what, so he goes out and finds those things in others and then disdains and dismisses it for how easily and falsely it's won from them. he plots, he conspires, he tries to beat her at her own game however clumsily, he tries. lucanis doesn't try things that way. he's not about 'how do I improve my situation' by nature, he's 'how can I stop this from getting worse'. he avoids, he internalizes, he hunkers down and makes himself nothing until the pain maybe ends. he's fundamentally not a plotter, he's a reacter. an expert assassin pantser, if you will, to illario's clear and stated exasperation fhsak. man I love them. illario says 'get us out of here!!! if you loved me as I love you you'd help me get us out of here before it kills us both', lucanis says 'there is no other place, there's nowhere to go, all we can do is endure. and if it kills us... well, that's just family. that's what love is (the way things are headed I'll die first anyway so it's fine I won't have to face losing you)', and they're equally baffled and hurt by each other's POV. but they're both right, and they're both wrong. there's no 'right' way to deal with caterina's treatment of them, or their situation. the house always wins, if you pardon the expression. house dellamorte still stands and that is what matters to caterina in the end more than anything.

it also fits so well b/c like... their core wounds are that illario is the least favourite and is constantly dismissed, so he has to prove to caterina again and again that he matters. not even that he's worth love or respect or warm regard, but that he's here at all and as such should be considered. he has to shout 'in case u forgot I EXIST!!' at the top of his lungs or else be rendered nothing within the family structure (and himself, because it's all about family, that's all that really matters. in some weird twisted way I think caterina openly declaring him before all the other crows to still be of house dellamorte -- and no one from house dellamorte kneels -- is kind of a victory for him, as much as it's also a furthering of a prison sentence and public humiliation. house dellamorte brainfuckery goes hard.). lucanis is the favourite, and it's the double-edged sword that he gets all the affection and attention but also all the control and impossible expectations. drowning under all of that constant stress and close evaluation, his brain whispers 'I don't exist' to try to escape, to hide and hold on to the deep parts of himself that are crucial to life but not part of the perfect grandson caterina demands of him as the price of her love.)

I think a lot about how what seems to disquiet lucanis the most post-ossuary (as it would anyone with that psychological makeup) is the dissolving of internal boundaries and control he's been relying on, which is part of what spite symbolizes. his anger and reactivity has seceded from the union to the point of personification as a little guy (a little guy he resents and fears for his unpredictability and invasions into regions of his psyche he wishes to stay frozen and barren, and yet cares about deeply, loves! and also constantly dismisses and frequently helplessly lets down unless he's helped to learn to do otherwise. does this remind you of another relationship in his life, perhaps. it makes me feel nuts to think about the illario/spite parallels thanks for asking), and now that little guy is out there running the show freely the moment he glances away or closes his eyes. literal nightmare scenario I feel for him so deeply. so much of his coping is predicated on being able to Not do or feel or want certain things, and that's out the window now, Spite has Opinions. Spite refuses to stay wisely in place even if that place is hell on the logic that if you move you could find yourself in a place that's even worse, somehow. Spite actually wants to experience the world, however fucked up and scarring the way he arrived here, not just endure it. Spite means he has to face that maybe illario wasn't wrong all those years, at the same time as having to admit and face what illario has done to him, and figure out what to do about any of it.

anyway. mary kirby ma'am that's some good fucking metaphor work. thank you, and sorry about all the shit that happened

[aquanutart]

[dirtytransmasc]

if they don't give Helaena one scene that doesn't strip her of her agency or just treat her like fodder, I'm gonna scream. if they don't give Helaena one scene with her dragon, I'm gonna scream. if they don't give Helaena one, better yet, multiple, scenes with Aegon, her brother, her husband, the father of her children, I'm gonna scream.

[tomdayaqna]

They're engaged btw

[raileurta]

In some continuities energon is colored pink and if a bot has a pink paint job it has some graphic connotations.

So Miko from those bot's perspective is the equivalent of a sparkling covered in blood. And if Miko ever found this out being the little shit she is would go out of her way to wear only pink and dye her hair the entire color as a way to intimidate decepticons.

[mourningsbane]

A little white lie never hurt anyone. I promise.

Moon 1, Pt. 1.

Beginning. Go back?<< Proceed? >>

[oxygen-stealer]

Thinking about Arkham Knight today and how Edward's whole story line just ends with the narrative being like yeah no he's gonna get worse in arkham. he's been spiraling for a while and this is going to put him in an even worse place. you know this too. you've watched him decay over the years, you've watched this brilliant man collapse under the weight of trauma and obsession and now he's crumbling with no one to help him. now you've put him back arkham and he's not coming back after this. and you both know its your fault. lol. lmao even.

[accirax]

hey guys......... the hundred line is really good...............

[sannencarts]

Y'know what they say, the couple that blasphemes together stays together

[icantalk710]

Looong day of catching up on emails and work to set myself up to be (mostly) on vacation as of xmas 😩☕😵‍💫

[aduckwithears]

That's what Satan has planned? A mighty wind from the wilderness to smite the mansion and bring it down upon them? ... Ooooooo, aren’t you brilliant.

(They invented flirting)

Bonus:

[warpedwings]

Misha Collins - Glimpses of Skin, At JIB15.

📷: CarryOn MyCon CarryOn

Part One Part Two Part Three Part Four Part Five Part Six Part Eight

[pastafossa]

Not caught up on TRT, so not sure if this has already happened. But are you planning to add more Dom Jane at any point? 😊 Same for heavily dom Matt/devil.

I AM! They'll both continue to have their Dom moments in between moments where no one's particularly in charge. I see them both as switches so we all get to have some fun, no matter if you like Dom!Matt or Sub!Matt, and same with Jane. 😂

Our next scheduled smut chapter(s) is, in fact, a wild Dom!Matt versus brat mode Sub!Jane. He's absolutely unhinged and feral and she's feeling not particularly agreeable as a sub and therefore she may or may not use the phrase, "Why don't you come over here and fucking make me."

Which goes exactly the way you'd expect, that woman's gonna need to be carried home in a gd bucket.

Did i mention they are on a rooftop