#whatever thoughhh

[ariyadaivaris]

okay you know im lukewarm on dbry as good as he is and i was not thrilled to see him as champion but i am kind of intrigued by the direction theyre going with his reign where he is such a Figure, such a Symbol in wrestling that people are treating him the way they are. i dont know how to word it right now but i can see it getting pretty cool. swerve shouldve swept though (<biased)

[sigma-alpha-writer-chad]

Grow Up, Would You? [Josh Washington]

“I don’t know if you’ve changed any since middle school but I really hope you’ve learned the difference between pranking somebody and just being a fucking bully.”

You can also find this story on Ao3!

Chapter Four / Chapter Five / Chapter Six

[CHAPTER FIVE]

"Chris, you are... not good at this," Josh says, holding a 4 of diamonds in his hand. "This is, like, the third time you've gotten my card wrong."

"I'd be better if I wasn't drunk off my ass," Chris defends, smacking the deck of cards on the counter. I say nothing, too busy trying to calm my laughter and holding on to Matt for balance. Laughing, himself, he holds my forearms to keep me steady.

Although they'd left us for a while, Matt and Mike eventually migrated back into the kitchen at the sound of the laughter. I was shocked that Emily wasn't wrapped around Mike like she usually was, but no one would ever hear me complain or even acknowledge her absence.

"I don't think we've ever actually spent much time together," Matt says, straightening up as he wiped a tear from his eye. "You're cool. I'm sorry for maybe seeing kind of, standoffish, earlier...?" He rubs the back of his neck in embarrassment.

"Oh, no," I giggle. "It's awkward meeting new people, I get it. Thank you, though." I knew Matt was more meek than the others, but I didn't realize he was a sweetheart. Mike pats me on the back.

"She's maaad cool," he confirms. By the way his words merge together I can tell he's drunk. "I've never gotten to talk to her thoughhh, Emily think she wants me or whatever."

"Emily thinks everyone wants you," Josh snorts. Mike gasps, placing his hands over his torso dramatically.

"Don't they?" I cringe. Josh taps the counter loudly, drawing our attention to the lineup of shots.

"What are the, uh," Chris starts, looking into his shot as he tries to find the words he needs. "The girls! Sam, Jess, and Emily, the twins, what're they doing?" he asks.

"Some skin routine, or something. Jess brought an entire kit," Mike sighs. "I'm pretty bummed out that she said girls only, that stuff is fire." We all clink our glasses together and take the shots, Matt shaking his head violently after he swallowed.

"Goddamn, shit is nasty," he hissed, scrunching up his face. Everyone else can't help but laugh, though I can feel my face starting to burn. It could be nothing or anything, but in the past I've learned that sometimes it means I just need some air.

"I'm gonna go get some air," I say, hiking my thumb behind me towards the back balcony.

"Gonna hurl?" Josh asks, that stupid grin on his stupid face.

"No, just need some air." I walk out the door and outside. Shit. I forgot my coat. I decide against going inside - it would be embarrassing if they realized. The night was going so well, I didn't want them to watch me take the walk of shame to grab my winter garments.

I clear off a part of the railing and lean against it, shivering and holding myself. The icy air did it's job quickly in cooling my skin and opening my lungs. Despite my shivering, I took slow, deep breaths until I hear the door opening and closing behind me.

"Hey," I greet, not turning around.

"Cold?" I chew on my cheek as Josh leans next to me, holding one of his thick coats in his hands.

"Freezing," I admit, laughing. Josh says nothing, instead gently placing his coat over my shoulders. Holy fuck it was warm. Despite my reservations I quickly put it on and zip it closed, letting out a heavy sigh of relief. "Oh, wow, thank you. It's so warm." Josh laughs loudly and leans again on the railing next to me, our shoulders a hair apart.

"I have it hanging next to the fireplace," he explains. I look up at him through my lashes, and he looks down at me. "So, always nice and toasty... like a Hot Pocket." I look back out across the snowy forest in a failed attempt to hide the smile from my face. I don't know why I thought it was funny - because it wasn't.

I've always hated that Josh was able to make me smile, even when he was at his worst bullying me. If he was making jokes nearby, I was the one nearly bursting a blood vessel trying not to laugh. I know he sees me, though, because he had a twinkle in his eye and a gentle grin of his own.

"Are you feeling okay?" he asks me, tilting his head in an attempt to be on my level.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I reply, surprised he was asking. "I just need a break sometimes." I pause. "Thanks for checking."

"Alright, girl, well," he starts, leaning against me for a second. He's so warm I almost ask him to stay there. I knew at that thought that I should start drinking less vodka and more water. "I'll give you your... your alone time."

"Thank you, Josh." I say. He pauses, and suddenly there's much more hesitance to leave. I wonder why. Is it that I said his name? "Are you okay?" he takes a deep inhale.

"Yeah," he starts, though I'm immediately not convinced. "I just need a little space, sometimes, too." There's another pause. He's still leaning against me, our shoulders pressed together. For a millisecond I can feel my head move to lean on his shoulder and I freeze. Josh opens his mouth again, hesitating to speak. "I don't know how I'm feeling about Mike, lately."

"Mike?" I repeat. He nods, taking another deep breath.

"Hannah's got a thing for him," Josh states. He's looking across the forest with his eyebrows furrowed. "And he keeps playing with her feelings, I think."

"You think?" He nods again.

"He hasn't - he won't reject her. He knows how she feels about him and he just let's her. I think he digs the attention or something, but it's pissing me off. I tried to tell Hannah he wasn't into her, but -" he cuts himself off and shakes his head. I can tell he's getting angry at just the thought of the subject. "But she just won't listen. How can a girl so smart not see what he's doing?"

"I don't know," I murmur. I wasn't sure what to say, or how to comfort him. "She asked me about him, earlier." Josh looks at me as he waits for me to continue. "Asked what I thought about him. I just said he wasn't my type, he's got a girlfriend, whatever."

"Oh, well, what is your type?" He smirks. I roll my eyes and lean hard against him as he laughs at me.

"I think she knows Mike doesn't feel the same," I say. "She just doesn't care."

"The land of delusion," Josh huffs before looking at me. "Wanting somebody you can't have, well... I guess that sort of runs in the family." I side eye him and my heart rate picks up.

"Sam?" I gulp. Josh bursts out in laughter.

"Oh, Jordan," he starts, rubbing his eyes. "You kill me."

"I'm funny, I know," I grin. We make eye contact again and the pressure of his shoulder against mine increases as he leans further into me before, finally, pulling away. The absence of his warmth is immediate and I frown.

"I'm just worried about Hannah, is all," he clarifies, suddenly. "I'll see you back inside."

"See you." I smile, softly, and listen as the door opens. Instead of closing, though, I hear gentle conversation and a 'she wants some alone time right now, man.' I turn around to see Mike trying to go to the balcony with me, Joshua blocking his way. They continue to bicker, but I can't hear anything else until Mike notices me watching.

"Hey, Jordan, just thought we could get to know each other better without Emily bitching you out!" He calls. I frown and look at Josh, who is staring at the back of Mike's head so intensely I half expected to see smoke start rising from his dark hair.

"You talk about your girlfriend weird," I blurt out. I look around me as if Emily would descend upon us at any moment and exact her wrath. "Don't you like her or something?" Mike laughs and shakes his head, finally pushing past Josh, who stumbles a few feet back.

"Of course I do," he says, placing both hands on my shoulders. I tense up immediately and make an attempt to gently shrug him off, but he just tightens his grip slightly. "But sometimes she tries to keep me from making new friends, or trying to strengthen already existing relationships. You understand, right? Jealous girlfriend things."

"I'm about to go inside," I gulp. I want his hands off of me now. I don't hate Mike, but the discomfort was incredible. "Just go on in and wait for me."

"Oh, come on, let's -"

"She said she's going inside." Josh butts in. I furrow my eyebrows and Mike finally lets me go. My feelings are complicated, both appreciation and annoyance swirling in my chest. Appreciation for the defense, and annoyance for not letting me handle it myself.

The appreciation wins over.

I pull the coat up over my cold nose and look between Josh and Mike. It's now, as Mike holds his hands up in defeat and he and Josh bicker, that I realize Josh's coat smelled so good. Did he smell this good? My drunken mind considers getting really close to Josh to find out.

It smells like pine, firewood, and cologne. I was almost sure though that the pine and firewood was from the cologne itself. I close my eyes. The scent was comforting and made me feel warmer.

My serenity is interrupted by Mike slamming the lodge door behind him as he finally relented and went inside. I jump, startled, and slip, falling flat on my back. There was enough snow that it didn't hurt, but I wasn't happy. I can hear Josh laughing.

"I'm going to try to help you up," he says through giggles. I start to sit up, slowly, and he offers is hand. I take it, and smile mischievously. "What're you-" I pull him down into the snow with me, doing my best evil laugh as I stand up. Josh rolls around, trying to get a grip on his surroundings, and he grabs my leg and pulls me back down on top of him.

I land on his chest and he lets out a huff, the air from his lungs being knocked out of him. As I try to get up, he wraps his arms around me and doesn't let go.

"Hey, hey! Release me, wench!" I yell. I try to sound serious, but I'm giggling and beaming.

"No can do, lady. Feel the wrath of Mr. Winter!" He rolls over so that I'm sunken into the pile of snow that had accumulated at the edge of the balcony. It reaches just over my ears.

And he's on top of me, his hands now on my hips and holding me down, his knee resting between mine. I'm shaking, but not from the cold anymore.

"Comfy?" He asks, moving his hands from me to hold himself up.

"Five stars," I sigh, rolling my eyes. I wish I wasn't smiling. I wish my heart wasn't pounding. "Can I get up now?"

"I don't know, all this alcohol and being wasted shit has made me tired," he yawns. His breath smells like booze and breath mints he'd been popping all night. He moves slowly, as if giving me an opportunity to stop him, and lays fully on top of me. "I'm going to sleep." Instead of shoving him off and screaming, like a part of me tells me to, I let him. His breath is warm on my neck as he fake-snores loudly. I shudder.

"Okay pal, get off me before somebody comes out here and sees this."

"Embarrassed?" Josh laughs breathily, his warm breath continuing to send chills through my body.

"Nervous."

"I make you nervous?" He sits himself back up again, that dumb smile back on his face. I try to think about the terrible things he'd done to me in our elementary and middle school times, but I can't seem to be upset at him no matter how much I try. I'm feeling something different for him. Not disdain or annoyance or the usual hatred.

It's something different.

"Yes." I relent. "And you do smell good."

"What?" I laugh out loud in embarrassment and disbelief at myself.

"I've had too much to drink," I sigh. I smile at Josh, and he smiles back, but he appears nervous and his eyes can't reach mine. He chews his lip as he starts to get up. I almost frown as he does, the warmth and weight of his body was comforting. He reached out his hand, again, and this time I take it.

"Let's go back inside," he mumbles, brushing the snow off of me. I smile as he does. "Okay?

"Okay."

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I sit at the counter of the bar, resting my chin on the palm of my right hand. On the other side stood Josh. He has a cocktail shaker in his hands, shaking it like a professional bartender would.

"Another water for the fair young lady?" He asks, taking my glass and filling it with the clear liquid, adding as much dramatic flair as he could.

"Oh, yes, m'dear, thank you," I hum. Chris and everyone else had headed to bed long ago, leaving Josh and I alone in the kitchen, the both of us deciding to be mostly sober before even going to bed. Josh slides the water to me and winks. I laugh, then snap my mouth shut.

"What is it?" He asks, tilting his head and leaning over the counter.

"I..." I start to laugh, moving my arm to hide my face. "I sound so, so drunk." Josh laughs at me before pushing the glass of water to me again.

"Drink up, madam," he says. I grab the glass, slowly sliding it towards me as Josh and I lock eyes. I raise an eyebrow and bring the water to my lips, downing it quickly like a massive shot.

"I'd like another, please. And make that a double."

"As you wish," he laughs. He gives me water in a much bigger glass, not bothering with the theatrics this time as he gets himself a drink as well. Instead of walking around the bar to sit, he stays opposite of me and leaning over the counter. I take a sip from the cup. I can feel myself growing more sober as time passes, but not by much. "How're you feeling?" I tilt my head in thought. I wondered for just a moment if I should be honest with him.

"I'm feeling good," I admit, smiling to myself. I can feel him watching me. "I'm..." I swallow, a bit nervous. "I'm glad I came. Thank you for tolerating me." My eyes move to his. The kitchen was completely dark save for a single light above the stove. For a moment I think he almost looks handsome in this lighting.

I must be wasted.

"I should say the same," Josh sighs, looking away from me. He's staring at the counter now. "I know I'm not... Your favorite." He starts, inhaling deeply. "But you've been showing up, anyways, for Chris and... And my sisters. I love Chris, and I love my sisters, more than anything, y'know? So... If they call you friend, you..." His eyes meet mine for not even a second, seemingly too nervous to meet my eyes. "You let me know if you need anything and I'll try to help you out, alright?" My eyes are watering. Why are my eyes watering? Why is he saying this to me.

"...okay," I croak. I can barely get the words out of my throat. "Thank you." I gulp down the rest of my water in an attempt to snuff out the fire burning in my chest. The air becomes heavy and thick with awkward tension. I wonder if he can hear my heart pounding.

"Do you want to put on a movie?" Josh asks, snapping me out of my fog.

"Uhm, sure. What are you thinking?"

"I've got Scream," he grins. "Do you like scary movies?" I roll my eyes, but I can't hide the smile growing on my face. "Ahh, there it is," Josh says gently, his voice low. My face feels like its set on fire.

"Is the couch fine?!" I gasp, standing up quickly and stumbling backwards. Josh laughs and asks if I'm okay, but I ignore him and scurry to the couch. Above the fireplace was a massive television. Josh turns it on and flips through channels to his own recording of Scream. I can't help but laugh.

"You recorded Scream?"

"Hey, man, don't be a hater," Josh sighs. As the movie starts he takes his seat. I'm at one end of the couch, and he's at the other. As we watch the movie, I take suspicious glances every now and then at Josh. Sometimes, I look at him and he's fully turned to look at me.

"Is there something on my face?" I ask when I catch him again. He shakes his head.

"No, I just want to see your reactions to the movie," he admitted. He's sounding less sober and more tired. As I look back towards the TV I can feel the sofa move as he moves towards me.

"I've seen this before," I whisper.

"Say what?" Josh scoots closer again so he can hear me. When I look at him again the movie starts to disappear. I don't know what I'm thinking.

I scoot closer to him.

"I said I've seen this movie before," I repeat, slightly louder. Josh is staring at me now without hesitation. I can tell he's tired, yet he has no issue with keeping his eyes on me. He looks like a puppy dog, pleading for any sort of attention.

"Oh, have you?" He says. This time, he's whispering, yet he's close enough that I can hear him just fine. I only realize, now, that our knees our touching, exactly as they did at the pizza bar. My heart rate picks up as Josh scans every detail of my face.

"Mhm," I hum. I look at his lips. They look soft. My hand twitches as I resist the urge to reach up and brush my thumb across his lip. How much have I had to drink?

"Jordan..." He starts, leaning in.

"Josh?" I gulp, looking back into his eyes.

Green eyes.

His hand slowly moves itself to my forearm.

"I am..." He laughs softly. "I think I have to be wasted." His hand slowly moves up my arm and to my shoulder but he doesn't stop. He brushes his thumb across my collarbone before he gently settles his hand gently at the side of my neck.

"Me, too," I whisper. Josh parts his lips and slowly moves closer to me, his thumb brushing my jawline. Is he going to kiss me? Holy shit. Is Joshua Washington going to kiss me? My heart pounds and I worry for a moment that I'm about to die. My chest is going to burst open at any second now.

"So we should stop," I say breathlessly, my hands quickly moving to his chest. It was surprisingly solid. My heart is twisted harshly, my chest so tight it felt as if my ribs would shatter at any moment. I half expect him to call me ugly, to scoff and roll his eyes, tell me it was just a joke.

But he doesn't.

Instead, he closes his eyes and rests his forehead against my own.

"I'm sorry, Jordan, I don't know what came over me," he spoke softly, just above a whisper. His hand doesn't leave it's place on my skin, and for some unspeakable reason I don't mind it. "Can I just... I'm... I don't know. Things feel fine with you," he admits, whispering as if I'll break if he speaks too loud. "Can we just stay like this for a while?" I nod, closing my own eyes as he rests his head on my shoulder. My hands move to his head as if on instinct, one hand brushing his hair softly and the other tracing circles on his back. He slowly wraps his arms around me in a loose hug, his weight pushing me backwards as he fell deeper into sleep.

Instead of laying back, myself, I slowly guided his head to my lap, where I continued to run my fingers through his hair.

"Chris would go insane if he saw this," I chuckle, a small smile on my face.

"You drive me insane," Josh mumbles something I can barely catch.

"Says you, Mr. Locker-Rats," I scoff. He smiles at the nickname.

"That's such a stupid name," he laughs. He takes a deep breath and his smile falters. Thank you, Jordan," he sighs, turning over into his side. "I really needed this."

"Hm?"

"I need this..." Josh says as he drifts off to sleep.

I'm sober now.

I know I'll remember this. I'll remember this for the rest of my life. The fragile body of my worst enemy left open and vulnerable to me like no one else had ever been, his head in my lap, with what felt like his soul held in my very hands. I felt as if one wrong move would break him.

Would he remember? Will he still be so kind, so gentle when everyone else can see him be kind to me?

I didn't think so. I sucked my bottom lip between my teeth. Despite my reservations I continue to slowly pet his thick, soft hair. It's now, as I look down at him sleeping, that I start to realize that maybe I don't hate him anymore.

Maybe we could be some sort of friends.

I smile to myself and sigh, leaning back against the couch. I swear right then that I wouldn't fall asleep. Once the movie was over, I would go to my own room to spare Josh and I the embarrassment of being found in such a comfortable position with each other.

"You've changed," I murmur. "I think I like it." He says nothing. As the movie goes on, I watch his body rise and fall with his steady breathing. He'd been good to me today.

As the credits roll, I gently slide out from under him and replace my lap with a pillow under Josh's head. He doesn't move, and I lay a nearby throw blanket over him. I contemplate removing his boots, but decide against it to avoid waking him up. As I crouch down to his level, I take a moment to examine his face.

I hate to admit it, I do, but he looked serene. I thought to myself that maybe it was time to admit that he was physically appealing. I felt a safety and comfort around Josh, now, that I'd never felt before. Why? Is he really that different? Does he really care about me?

Or are we both drunk?

I chew on my lip as I stare at him. I don't know what's happening to me, I don't know what's come over me, but I run my fingers through his hair one more time as I place a gentle kiss on the tip of his nose. He shifts, and for a split second I think I see him trying to hold back a smile. I squint, but he doesn't move again. I sigh.

"Goodnight, Joshua."

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Hey y'all! Thank you so much for your patience. This chapter did not want to work with me and kept not saving progress made and I kept having to re write it. I believe this chapter is a bit longer than normal, so I hope that makes up for it! The next one will be longer, too. I love talking to everybody, so thank you all so much for the kind comments, they make me so happy. Much love!!

Also: Accidentally posted this early, so some may be seeing this a second time. If that's you, this is the FINISHED chapter! Thank you.

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Taglist: @sc4rrc @mattymxmo @cellyx33 @jenepleurepasbaby @kalynnjonas @spinback-kiva @frankcastlesvest @barnxsromanxff

[homosekularnost]

banned from ao3 for anachronistic music references...

✨️✨️✨️ system collapse chatfic ✨️✨️✨️✨️

(or "scooby gang reacts to tarik/ratthi" or "dont tell hr")

girls only chat

iris started this chat

iris added turi and kaede

iris

alright who knows whats happening with tarik and matteo

kaede

hi hello i understand “girls” can be gender neutral but you will have to explain to me why matteo isnt here then

oh we are gossiping about them, nevermind

turi

everyones a girl when theres gossip

ART

seconded

iris

oh my god

turi

HELP

iris

i hate it when you do this

ART

It isn’t polite to leave team members out.

kaede

who tf is art

ohhhh peri

iris

yup

ART

Yup.

iris

its what its secunit calls it 🙄

ART

Yup. 😊😊

kaede

awww

okay wait wait FOCUS

turi

yeah im not staying a girl for much longer

who needs to spill

kaede

maybe we could respect our coworkers privacy

(joking!! perihelion if you would)

ART

i would

tarik and matteo have started meeting individually 32 cycles ago

they have been avoiding each other for two cycles now

matteo appears to be initiating it

everything else is confidential

kaede

matteo has been listening to casual by chappel roan on repeat for the last two days also

feels important to the context

turi

oh noooo

new guy fucked up

kaede

don’t be mean to the new guy

turi

two weeks and your ship invites me to a mission in space

iris

this is why you get to be one of the girls

-

ten cycles later

-

iris pinged girls only chat

iris

a revival was needed

turi

RIGHT

iris

god scrolling up and im getting distracted

it really does call you ART huh

peri

i no longer like it

iris

liar

anyways

is matteo ok??

kaede

as okay as any of us can be after what has just transpired

which is the only reason im not telling your fathers this still exists @ iris

iris

calling that bluff right now

turi

maybe our inability to mind our business is a trauma symptom. have you ever considered that

kaede

:)

good thing perihelion is here then, huh?

iris

matteo has been listening to their normal music so i think theyre coping

TARIK, on the other hand,

kaede

oh??

iris

who needs to tell the captain now

turi

nepo baby

iris

he keeps blocking me on the music feed but i swear i have seen some taylor swift on there

kaede

well that might mean nothing

there is a stigma about listening to her work

iris

yeah lets look at what kaede is listening to

kaede

im not ashamed of who i am

i am also not ashamed of how invested i am in tariks love life so if you need me to @ dr. ayda mensah

turi

were not inventing you an excuse to @ a milf karime

iris

hey now

also

by god we might be stupid

iris added amena

turi

WE ARE SO STUPID

amena

oh wow, people calling my mother who raised me a milf

just what i love to see while i am stranded in space

iris

sorry sorry we wont mention how hot your mother is again

turi

pffffffff

iris

scroll up thoughhh we need intel

amena

you need a filter

give me a sec

iris

all yours baby

kaede youve gone a little quiet

kaede

yeah i think im a little mortified

ART

Understandable.

kaede

it was okay with just turi here but now we really are shittalking people with teens andHEY

amena

okay im back

what was happening with matteo???

turi

see youre already asking the right questions

amena

yeah i have no idea what ratthi is doing though

sorry

(theyre all my mums friends they dont tell me Anything)

iris

if i give you admin priviliges will you add the three lesbians

turi

the three lesbians?

amena

whatever sure

iris

you know

iris added pin-lee, overse and arada

turi

ohhh

overse

uhoh what is happening

pin-lee

perihelion if this is another attempt to get dirt on preservation im suing for entrampment

amena

dirt on preservation??

iris

another??

perihelion

neutral ground . pdf

pin-lee

i hate that i will be reading all of that

oh no youre gossiping about rattthi

kaede

oh no?

pin-lee

you added the wrong person

—

arada sent a screenshot

ratthi

huh

interesting

—

arada

he says its over between them

turi

oh noo is one of the lesbians a snitch?

overse

watch it now

pin-lee

yes

overse

you watch it too

pin-lee

id die to

turi

um

amena

i will throw myself off this vessel

pin-lee

fuck the kids

arada pinned a message

iris

the kid literally added you maam

pin-lee

im distracted!

tell your ship to stop rewriting my drafts and maybe ill keep track of shit

overse

highly unlikely

turi

can the kids also know if ratthi said anything else?

arada

let me check

he said yes

arada sent a screenshot

—

arada

okay but according to their timeline they were over long before you entered the picture

isnt that good

ratthi

hhhhhhhhhh it doesnt even MATTER anymore

hes so stupidly secretive about everything so if its not matteo its something else

like clearly hes not interested in communicating anything openly and clearly hes dated like a jerk before

so i think im calling it a loss and moving on. moving on!!

arada

:( im sorry

and this will make it worse but can i tell his coworkers

ratthi

oh what the hell why not

—

girls only chat

kaede

oof

iris

tarik!!!

amena

are we adding him next

kaede

absolutely not

hed quit

iris

pfft he would

overse

do you do always this to your coworkers?

kaede

only if theyre new

pin-lee

sounds fair

perihelion is typing

pin-lee

oh i wish you would

perihelion stopped typing

—

arada

i mean, he could have something from his past hes embarrassed about

this is corporation rim. secunit is the norm here

ratthi

eeeh

i really dont know what itd have to be

to make his behavior normal

like. if he killed someone id understand but anything less

—

(five cycles later)

—

ratthi

arada no way

[sunsetriwoo]

hehe hiii i’m getting to ur ask but i wanted to askkk ur thoughts on yachtboy!taesan?? maybe like how u think he’d be with a reader who isn’t like,, in his circle like u said in ur jaehyun post or whatever u kinda think? i feel bad cuz this is nottt specific but no pressure!! :3

hello petal! i was actually going to drop my yachtboy!bnd intro sometime soon, but i didn't wanna delay this ask hehe

now let's see...

yachtboy!taesan is definitely one of the quieter ones, and probably won't approach people out of their 'party' circle

but if yachtboy!taesan liked a reader that was out of their circle?

he's definitely going to be so down bad for her... if i lived in his brain i would want to move out, ASAP.

anyway, he'd definitely try to match the vibe and energy, even if she is way different. hear me out.

oh reader likes reading? he's at the library, picking up books of a similar genre.

oh reader likes painting? he's renting the studio, art jamming to an mcr album.

you get the gist.

yachtboy!taesan is pretty witty, generally a humorous guy. hear me out when i say, he's the type to do anything possible to coax a smile out of you, he definitely would. think about if he has a crush on reader... he's going to fetch the sun and the moon for them at this rate....

but if we step into more smutty... territory... let's say he got reader now... he would leave marks on reader if they're into it.. a munch maybe..

not really elaborating too much on it here but you can ask if you're curious hehe

i'm not quite sure if this is really up to your expectations haha sorry petal �� luv u lots thoughhh!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

“LOVE THAT FEELS LIKE SUNLIGHT FILTERING THROUGH WINDOWBLINDS” YOU GET ME ARI 🥹🥹🥹…

SORA IT’S YOU AND ME AGAINST THIS INTIMACY-STARVED WORLD T_T🫶 ……. just going off the way u post about him i would assume isagi loves like this too …….... i swear the venn diagram of acts of service bfs and men who love like the Sun is just a circle

IT RLLY IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME THOUGHHH !!!!! when they cup your cheek and it feels like sunshine ………. when they squeeze your hand and you feel all warm and toasty because their love is just Like That and u know u are known by them. and seen by them. whennnnn they kiss you so so gently in the morning as the sun seeps in through the blinds and you can’t tell what’s what . 💔💔💔 i’m FINE whatever …..

[sprout-s-askblog]

lure it out using whatever boxten's favorite food is

I don't think Boxten has a favorite food. Thoughhh, that does give me an ideaaa.....

[pinklemonade0w0]

I'm not sure if anyone realize this or someone already ask but how is Tessa still alive in this Au

Also those Tessa/J/Uzi/N etc get a little panic attack when they see Rose because she look a look like Cyn

Yes, someone has asked but I didn't give a whole lot of details before.

1: A Surviving Humans Society discovered that a drones Essence had the capabilities to revive humans.

2: with a particle of whatever was left of Tessa, merging the essence, and bam. She's back. (I am no scientist so I am using fantasy science stuff that is illogical I deeply apologize qwq)

And yes. When Rose was born, they did have a mini panick attack when they saw her eyes every time she'd cry. Overtime however, they grew use to it- seeing that she isn't Cyn/Absolute Solver.

Her eyes change depending on moods. Green for positive, yellow for Negative. She is self conscious about it. And does whatever she can to avoid the yellow. Thoughhh..with missions, stress, and Varian treating her like the enemy. She can't help it!

[cia-offical]

“nooo you can’t call yourself a faggot or a tranny those are slurrrssss that’s so mean thoughhh queer people shouldn’t dooo that thoougghhh”

Then how about I pull that stick out of your ass. I can do whatever the fuck I want. And if that means being the bitchiest tranny faggot on the planet then I sure as hell will be

[dyk3ang3l]

me, watching your saga with the femme like:

HELPPP😭 thank you for the support truly i never thought i’d be in this position🩷 it’s just crazy like no one has told me the things she’s telling me (and we already agreed to keep things casual and fun that’s what we both want) and i almost can’t believe it. like she really thinks i’m all that?? well whatever i’m going to believe it i’m not going to fumble i can’t fumble. have to wait until august to see her thoughhh so lame!!

[hcguesstheauthormessageboard]

Anyone else scared of even posting the self indulgent fics to this event. Like they're going to be revealed at some point oh no. They're Going To Find Me. Not like that's gonna stop me by the time I'm done with it thoughhh. Do whatever you want forever everybody

do whatever you want forever!

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

hi, i hope you've been doing well!! ive been following you for a little over a year, maybe a year and a half. a little bit of context about me: during the years 2020-2024 i went thru a long period of isolation and darkness. i was already a hermit and had no RL friends, but my online friendships drifted away, too, and i felt alone and completely lost for a long time. no worries though, i know it sounds sad but i purged that pain/transmuted it into growth and i feel like it was a big catalyst to me blossoming and letting go of damaging thought loops that once affected my whole life. for the first time ever, i truly love myself and feel like im on my own side. i have a sag moon 12H and a sag pluto 1H so ive always been introspective/existential/living in my own world. but i used to internalize so much pain, and now im letting it go. that was a bit more lengthy than i intended, heres what i really want to say! i love your blog so much, you have been such a big source of hope and inspiration for me during these times. i admire your art and your introspections, your vulnerability is beautiful and contagious! i admire your strength and im always wishing you the best. 🤍

ThankYou For This Message This is The Types of Anons i love to receive more Than Anything 🖤🖤🖤

idk what to say But Im glad ur here and can Feel motivated/inspired :] Proud of u for transforming through those lonely periods, i understand that mode of being very much.. i too, have sagittarius 12H , i think it really brings out, the side of sag that is so visionary & philosopher & independent & higher-knowledge-seeking, as opposed to the other side of sag which i see as like, the party girl socialite fun loving indulgent firecracker energy. (SOme ppl embody both sides at once and thats super impressive !! xD) But yeah, that 12th house, gonna submerge & isolate whatever's in there... For me it's my North Node *Gulp*

We gotta learn to be alone thoughhh We Gotta We Just Gotta, if you can master being alone, and become comfortable with urself, u can basically take on anything, And all "bad" situations are much less frightening, if ur ok with the potential of being alone. Really The Only Way i can rationalize behaviors like Writing Vulnerable things I Share Online is that i am not afraid of being disliked for it Haha. Once u have suffered enough breaking down of connections that u dont give a shit anymore U Become Invincible... And it makes space for the right people to come in, One way or another, So long as u are not closed off to them. I find it a lot easier to make friends now that I'm Not expecting or desiring much of an outcome. Things get more natural

Sagi placements love to write write write !!! i have noticed : ) i liked your lengthy message. Thanks for sharing it with me. I'm Glad U Love Urself Cus Love is what it's all about And U mustn't exclude Urself from that love. I am always trying to get better at it!! Stay Trailblazing your path <3 pmd9

[haeerizm]

OH MY GOSH I JUST WATCHED BEA'S COACHELLA SET SHE DID SO GOOD

but the nba oldman or wtv his name is meatriders were there 💔💔

BUT SHE SOUNDED SO GOOD THOUGHHH I WISH I COULD GO TO HER CONCERT WHERE I LIVE BUT I'M BROKE 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

and lastly i'm clowning for her to MAYBE bring out laufey or clairo next weekend but i'm happy with whatever ‼️

I HAVENT WATCHED THE FULL THING BUT THE CLIPS I SAW LOOKED SOO GOOD eugh literally go make out w him passionately if u want him so bad dpmo UGH ME TOO im actually thinking abt going to see her in hyde part w a few other artists BUT it depends i rly rly do wanna go tho…

AAAAA no pls pls literally it would be a dream come true

[drdt-headcanons]

Smol Charuko HC!

Charles is always tryna get Teruko to come out of her room when he notices she hasn't been eating a whole lot in the KG. So, he'll drag her out, and make a nice meal for her! He'll usually make her something healthy yet simple, such as a fruit salad, yogurt, etc.

Teruko, despite being stubborn, still eats whatever Charles makes for her, only because it'll get him to leave her alone. Thoughhh...Teruko secretly enjoys some of the food Charles makes for her. ♡

:)

[doomted]

💬🎀🌹 for tony yayy!

HI CLARAAAA You are evil for asking about him..!

💬: How did you two meet?

WELL . ted wouldve been Aware of tony before ever meeting him. and had already gained a bad impression of him thru all the newspapers he had read. BUT when it comes to actually meeting ☝️ tony and ted both end up fighting the same villain and they end up getting pissed off at eachother . this would be quite early into teds superheroisms so tonys thinking Oh my god . This rookie is screwing this up SO BAD . meanwhile teds losing his mind thinking that A. TONY IS IN HIS WAY!! and messing up his work!! and B. 😒 Isnt this guy s.tarks lackey.... go back to being a lapdog loser .horrible beginnings for these two

🎀: What was your first date like?

HMMM... i think theyd go clothes shopping for their first date 🤔 ted likes fashion and tony just thought itd be a nice day out . BUT . although it does go good at the start theyd end up having to ditch the date because of a supervillain tearing up the street and interrupting them LOL.. its always funny to me when heroes dates get interrupted by villains in comics . sorry to them .

🌹: Do you two like PDA?

YUPPPPP i think theyd both love it. Thoughhh even though he does enjoy it ted is a bit of a skittish animal when it comes to pda with tony Specifically because well. he doesnt really want to end up in gossip newspapers in his civilian identity... ☝️tony does know this though so he tries to keep the pda to when . theres not any news people or paparazzi or Whatever around

[radicallyperverted]

i want other girls to do it thoughhh 90% of people who want to misgender me are guys

awesome to see a “fakeboy/ftm girl/whatever” who isn’t completely cock hungry tbh. I dislike the rhetoric that goes “you have a pussy therefore you need to get FUCKED by COCK” like I do indulge in dykebreaking stuff occasionally but women aren’t biologically made or even incentivized to have sex with males all the time. Like, it’s incomprehensible to some misogynists that females can feel sexually fulfilled being lesbians.

To be blunt if you go through the lesbian tags (esp the butch ones) there are fully physically transitioned people who are still viewed as 100% female. Like there’s girls with top surgery scars and who have been on hormones for years and are still thirsted after genuine dykes because they have a tasty hairy pussy. I’ve talked to irl lesbian friends and half of them admit to being attracted to trans men but not trans women. And I’m not talking about pre-t “soft bois” these are masculine individuals with deep voices and hairy asses. Remember that one absurdly masculine TIF with the beard and huge muscles and small curl on top of its head, I think it was a TikTok screenshot? It went pretty viral. I had a lesbian friend of mine say she would still see “him” as a woman and would probably hit if it still had a pussy. Tbh even I struggle to see people as their birth sex if they pass well enough but no matter where you are in transition there’s someone who will view you as clocky. If you want to be misgendered by a woman look into local horny butch groups. Not to call them sleaze bag perverts or anything but a lot have admitted to lying about seeing “transmascs” as anything but female for the sake or sex. Even outside of those spaces I see women’s groups that say “women and non-binary people welcome” but it’s obvious they just mean AFABS. If you are getting weird looks due to your voice or facial hair just say you are ftm and you will instantly see the relief in their eyes because deep down you all know that you are included in womanhood. Some will lie and say otherwise, and some might actually believe it, but the vast majority are well aware that you are a delusional female and just want to stay respectful. Even other trans men do it all the time, have you been on the /tttt boards? Transmeds and pooners see you as an embarrassing trender girl for this fetish. They are still all women themselves but that won’t stop them from being hypocrites about it. they will call you a theyfab to your face. You should go outside and have some awesome lesbian sex.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

LOL Bobby cringing every time they swing at the toilet xD so real

YESSS he's finally free and can find out 😭😭😌❤️

Lol sir not right now pleeease xd

I love you (I mean not really I barely know you but you're funny lol) but not now xD

Lol Bobby xD yep he loved it

More time to think on it xD so real

Me when I'm procrastinating honestly

YES!!

Maybe he noticed she called but if he was just going to do it anyway 😭

But also he probably wants to make sure she got there/just is good with everything going on now that I think about it xD

UH OHHH THE NEWS

Crappp crap crap crap crap

Not that I don't want him to find out but like xdd poor Bobby 😭

OH NO AND HE CAN HEAR AND HE'S GONNA TELL FROM THE WIND 😭😭😭💔 AUAGHHH POOR BOBBYYY

Oh noko look at his face 😭

Now Buck when are you gonna come running up xdd

Ahhh they're like watching it on TV

Yep

Ohhh noo 😭

Are they somehow gonna say her name lol

Like idk why they would or how they'd know but yk xD

Nahh he just knows :') xD 😭

AAAAHHHHHHHHH YEP HI BUCK

And Bobby's like "of course 😑😭"

Love him xD

Ahh yeah start with that 😭

Yeppp 😭😭😭💔

"She's driving it" "Of course she is" SLFKGHDKHGJS LITERALLYYY THOUGHHH XDD

So real lol

I hope they don't get mad it him for dipping right now

Like is he gonna have to say "screw you I don't care I'm out" and also "there's an actual emergency going on right now and I am a real firefighter" lol xD

Okayy right going to Buck's car

Just weird bc he's on shift lol but obviously he brought his car xD

Must've felt weird too though

What is it?-

OOOP NOPE :OOO

THEY'RE TAKING THE FIRE TRUUUUCK :OOOO

I mean yeah I guess if it's a real fire truck!!! Makes sense that it is!!! GO OFFFF XDD!!!!

LOL NOW BOBBY'S STEALING FIRE TRUCKS XDD 🥰🥰!!!

Full circle :')

Like father like son xD

Thinking more of the Lone Star crossover than the beginning of the show honestly lol but I feel it

Like with the beginning too, I see it

LOL he's there too xD

Not the catch phraaaase 💀 too xD crazyyy

"Whatever" LOL

Iconic, Bobby xD iconic

GOOOO GUYSSS 🥰🥰😬😭 WHOOOO 🥳🥳🥳🥺❤️❤️

Just

Oh no y'all 😭

I be STRESSINGGGG

Y'all just need to stop going places xD him and Athena

Stop leaving and going anywhere lol

Just stay right there xD

At least it's easier to deal with emergencies with all of you there and able to access each other lol xD

Anyway 😬😬😬 AAAHHHH!!

I'm so tense and excited for the next episode xD :D