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When you get so severely bullied at work you have physical issues since month, and at one point you have a panic attack so bad you go to the work council and tell them all that happens and then go home to your doctor crying to be off sick.

And now your right arm doesn't work anymore and keeps twitching to the point I have issues donig fine pc work and I'm home sick since 3,5 weeks now.

And then your bosses manage to blame you for all and talk badly about you and tell you how you are bullying them because you hold them accountable and asked for clarity.

Well whatever I can only quit end of september and i have to get my arm to work again before that so I can apply somewhere new. I'm so beyond done.

But hey maybe I'll start drawing again if i find a better job ..... if my arm works again and stops involuntarily cramping up :D

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My work made me so sick the past days I think I'm getting heart issues :D

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I just realised tomorrow marks the 7ths week of me being sick and feeling like garbage lol It's some ups and downs but generally it's been a while since I've been healthy and none knows whats up which is nice.

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BJD - Michael - PART 2 HEAD

When the body is done it's off to make the head and I just have to tell myself one thing for that: trust the process. Because it will be bad until it's not. I also look at my sketch size wise and for a reference for the profil but I gave up trying to actually make the face look like I drew it simply because I'm not a good sculpter, I have very bad 3 dimensional view and I don't study faces enough to add subtle differences, I just try to make something that looks good and at least for this one it came out so so much better then the old one, mostly thanks to @michaelgecko who pointed out some stuff that was ugly that I didn't see.

First an aluminium face to make it hollow. I also prepared the eyes as round balls from baked clay, that was way easier then making removable ones that I did for Gabriel.

And then I started to add clay, and yes this is bad.

Just some rough passes to get a general shape and to get the eyes in place and then I just worked on that so I have some steps, don't ask me what exactly I did I don't know either, I just kept checking with my sketch.

This was after my first day of working on it for several hours. I wasn't happy with it but I didn't know why it just looked like an alien. But talking with my friend they pointed out that the nose was totally off and gave me some 3D heads as reference, I also blended the eyelids better since apparently face sculpts look better with less details and more smooth in general, and one of the most important things was adding a forehead to this poor guy, it was small fixed but it really bumped it into looking good territory.

These were some small changes but it turned it so good, I still wanted to change some stuff.

Here I changed the nose to be more realistic, added better nostrils and made them as width as the inner corners of the eyes as well as a more prominent nose bridge. Also helped tremendously.

As a last step I just made his lips bigger because they looked a bit off and lost as well as shortening the gap between the end of the nose and the upper lip, after a final smoothing and making the ears look good too it was done. I don't know how many hours I needed for this and I'm probably happier not knowing but this is the best head I ever made. Well it's the second one but idk if I can do this again.

After baking I only marked where I had to cut as well and was done.

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BJD - Michael - PART 1 BODY

Hello and welcome to part two of I'm making myself my own BJD cuz they don't look how i want them to and even if there was one I'd be too stingy to buy it.

Mostly making this a tutorial for myself, because this is the second one and maybe I'll make more cuz it's a fun hobby, albeit a bit expensive, mainly because of the materials.

I used white Sculpey, Liquid Sculpy to attach unbaked and backed clay, and all of the above. As absolute necesities considering tools I'd say that circle ruler and those curved knives, get really ones cuz if they aren't sharp enough to cut your fingers when looking at them you won't have a good time. And also the safety gloves to prevent you from cutting your fingers, get those too no discussing. Sculpting tools are nice to have and they improved mine tremendously from this first but you can do without.

Also good to have is a power drill with very small drills ( ~ 1mm - 2 mm), a dremel for sanding, and some isopropyl alcohol to smooth the clay.

Making the body:

First I made a sketch of my poor OC, facing front and a side view, I could've made a back view but for that I just improvised and looked at some references. This sketch took me month to get right that't why I started with this doll so late I'm planning this one since a year. Whatever.

Then make a little friend from aluminium foil, i also added some wires this time cuz for the last doll i had some troubles removing the foil and this way you already have a little hole. But I ended up using the power drill to clean it up anyways. Maybe i just like drilling into plastic body parts.

The foil friend gets a small layer of clay and then off into the oven at 130C. I should've made the foil base thicker to reduce the amount of clay for this one.

This clay base then just gets the rest of the meat added on top. I just looked at my sketch, several references and added the muscles one by one and then smoothing and evening all out as i went. The toold were really helpful for that and I still don't know how this went that well but idk I just did it somehow and kept going back and forth, it also helps putting it down for a day and picking it back up the next one.

Then when i decided i was done I went over it again and smoothed everything out with isopropyl diluted with a bit of water. It made everything really smooth and this doll already looked better then my last one even without sanding it. So I also didn't sand it and decided to do that when all was done.

And thats the body done already. I say already but this took me a week.

Next step was marking where to cut it apart. And yes I said cut it apart and this hurt me more then you would think because I was really happy with how this came out, but this heavy brick isn't moving and I want it moving.

So I just took 100 pictures of it to calm myself and then just hacked his legs off.

CUT IT WHEN ITS FRESH OUT OF THE OVEN AND STILL HOT IT MAKES IT SO MUCH EASIER AND SMOOTHER. Since the clay is still slightly soft. I just yelled that at myself so don't worry. I tested this for the first time today and it was magical.

Off to make a face now. Part 2

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Finally got time to get back into L2D and this fr the most expressive thing i ever made and its so much fun, I just have no idea how to actually rig the expressions but we'll see...

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Btw this where my progress with Gabriel stopped so far. His hair came out as floofy as I imaged it being so I'm really happy about that... Also a lot of progress from when i last showed it here but ahah my time is spare... but this is the most expressive my art has ever been and I really like the program I just have to figure out how to pay for it I guess....

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Did I finish Gabe? No. Did my trial license for L2D run out? Yes.

Did i not even figure out how to do one before starting another one. Also yes.

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girl help i’m having creation ideas above my skill level

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I'm at work for three days again and I'm pretty sure I need a mental clinic in a year. Yay. Anyways this is where i had to stop i hope I can continue on the weekend again.

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I'm such a geniusssss No but fr really proud of how this came out! I found an amazing beginner tutorial in case someone else is interested in Live2D:

I mean I opened the program for the first time today and did this :)

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Wow only took me a week to get this far. Aka making a full drawing again ahaha no wonder i stopped ~E~ Simplified it a lot so I might not get a mental breakdown when i continue to work on this 

I like how Gabriel has just become my test subject for trying new thigns.  My lab rat if you will.

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I like how Gabriel has just become my test subject for trying new thigns.  My lab rat if you will.

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Love germany and it’s non existant overtime pay. Love it. Oh but you can take days off with ur overtime weee

/stares at my 154 extra hours that surely come cuz i have so much time to take time off/

yes.

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twinning with the newly befriended bestie 

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me thinking about my blorbos

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When he has gay and shitty posture

Then he dies