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being on tumblr is just cozy... you know what i mean? instagram and twitter is all flashy and loud but tumblr is as cozy as my bedroom with scented candles on a cold November night

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I know showing the tummy means they trust you but if I touched that fluff, RIP to my hand.

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don’t ever say love me 

colde ft. rm 

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“I finally understand why people get tattoos of those they have lost. The need to proclaim not merely the loss but the love, the continuity. I am my father’s daughter. It is an act of resistance and refusal: grief telling you it is over and your heart saying it is not; grief trying to shrink your love to the past and your heart saying it is present.” ― Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie, Notes on Grief

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The worst thing in the entire world is when you’re sweeping a big pile of dirt into a dustpan and it leaves that little coke line of grit behind. No matter how you position your pan or your broom and no matter how many times you sweep over it your outcome cannot change. As immovable as fate. I hate it so

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I refuse to seek out Ryan Reynolds' Tumblr account. If it has any value it will find it's way into my dash naturally. This is how the Tumblr ecosystem is meant to work.

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are. are keyboard smashes a thing. on tumblr.

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one thing about me is…. i’ll always come back to levi

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not to be dramatic but the trauma of being a daughter is real and my relationship with my mother is and will always be one of the most devastating and complex relationships i will ever experience

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idk it just feels so good when you realize a fandom friend has become ur friend friend—y’know? like instead of only talking about ur common interest u start branching out and talking to each other about your lives, your other hobbies, and it’s even cooler to remain close if one or both of you lose interest in the fandom you met in. your bond, no longer dependent on the mutual love you had for some thing—now lies upon the kinship you’ve built. i think that’s beautiful

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i go to bed. i am consumed by overwhelming loneliness. i stare at the ceiling. i long for something i can’t name. i question if i’m real. i see a funny little meme on my phone and laugh hysterically for several minutes. i get too invested in an unrealistic fantasy. i pass out around three.

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life updates- a series- #2

02/09/2022, Friday

Hi

So. I finally sat down to write life update #2. Or life update #002. I cant really choose which one looks better or cooler so I'll just go with the former.

Now.....where do I began. Don't be alarmed though I didn't really have a super eventful month since update #1 or whatever. By the way, I've decided to try and do this as a monthly thing. Updating at the end of each month.

A part of me is already groaning in frustration as this is yet ANOTHER monthly update thingy that I have to keep a record of. Yes, keeping up with such things does feel like a huge task to me, sometimes even a chore that I can't wait to get rid of. I don't know, can you even get rid of a chore? Hmmm. I think I didn't really phrase this as well as I could. Apologies for the same. I'm trying and I'll get better.

I always do.

Anyways, you get the gist of it. Monthly updates it is.

So, life update = it's been good.

I've come across a lot of posts on Instagram, tumblr posts fyi lol, about how august slipped away (shoutout to Ms. Swift!) But yeah, posts and discourses even about how August brings upon a strange uneasy feeling of bittersweet-ness or yearning plus a little heartache here and there. And honestly, bro i genuinely don't relate to all that. I concluded that's 'cause I'm not that much of a hardcore swiftie at heart to romanticise this month in such a depressing way.

August for sure went by really fucking fast but I'm looking back at it fondly. From building and getting used to a new routine, celebrating and having a blast at my best friend's 20th, and securing a job through the campus placements(YESSIRRR), it has been blissful! I'm so grateful to god for the past weeks that went by and also really fucking proud of myself for achieving some of my goals.

I'm gonna keep it a little brief from now onwards cus firstly, I'm getting tired and secondly I still haven't completely wrapped my head around a few things to articulate rational thoughts and opinions on them.

But, here's some free advice.

Believe in yourself. Always. Believe in God. They're always there for all of us. Having faith in that Higher Power really helps a lot. And of course, practice gratefulness!

Alright bro im out ill prolly delve deeper into all this maybe some time later for sure but right now im tired af so im gonna go get some zzzz. tc.

by honey

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The 1971 Gene Wilder film is objectively the best Charlie and the Chocolate Factory adaptation because all subsequent media has tried to make Willy Wonka relatable, or at least warped in a fun and sympathetic sort of way, but Gene Wilder stared the source material in the face and said: "No, there's something deeply and dangerously wrong with this man. I'll have done my job correctly if you look up at the screen and see nothing human behind those eyes."

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Levi is the little spoon and that's it.

He has trouble sleeping because he's seen some shit so being wrapped in your arms is the best.

The first time it happened he was confused and didn't know how to react. But having you pressed against his back made him relax in ways he never knew were possible.

Let him have the side against the wall before curling against him he'll melt.

His instincts will be telling him to move so that he can be between you and any hypothetical threats that can come through the door, but you're just stroking his hair as you hum softly and you're using your body as a barrier between him and the world...he will sleep like a baby.

He's used to being hyperaware so you going "nope, I'm here so rest" does things to his heart.

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"are you a big spoon or a little spoon?" "I'm a knife" "oh so you are the little spoon" "THAT'S NOT WHAT I SAID"

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I just want him to be happy and healthy and have a night of good sleep çAç

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shoutout to that one random hq who's your bf quiz I did on a random Tuesday 7-8 months ago which was soooo carefully curated with an even carefully curated result, thus, proving with absolute precision why iwaizumi hajime was my soulmate.

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beginning of life updates - a series

30/07/2022, Saturday.

Hi. I am honey, or, ney.

I've been thinking about doing this for quite a while now. Since the beginning of this year I had decided to start documenting my life more because, lately, I've been a very forgetful person. It's almost concerning. Borderline trauma response even. This is just a mere observation, by the way. I haven't been clinically diagnosed with anything, yet.

Anyway

So what got me here was the urge to document my life more so that these passing moments aren't just a blurry memory altogether. And also, to practice my writing skills lmao. Ironic of me to use lmao in a sentence when I'm trying to sound as formal as possible.

Whatever. I'll get there.

I'm just doing this solely for my own self. I have been warned against sharing intimate details about my life on the internet and to minimize leaving my digital footprint behind but, oh well, who even cares. And this is tumblr at the end of the day. this app was made for people like me. and you. IF there's actually someone who read all that and is still reading. what are you even doing here bruh.

well, suit yourself i guess!

i hope i stay consistent at this hobby of mine. yeah that's enough for today.

by honey.